2024-09-18T16:42:58 |
Hi Rebecca I was just wondering if you were in the market for a girly man to take care of certain things for you? |
Kind of allllllll the things but I'm open to potential offers |
If you have any openings you can spare, please feel free to grab me! |
At least one lol |
Think you've seen it |
2024-09-18T18:48:37 |
I might be alone for a few hours. House is filthy but maybe youd want to hop over |
Whooooo |
Especially in filthy areas |
I'll vacuum, lol |
Carpet burn doeant bother me |
M'lady is very keen |
Do you share a bed with the hub? |
And nothing happens anyway |
Any reason you ask. |
Well, it's nice to have clean carpet. But why not a bed? |
It's just messier up there |
Indeed. Killer idea, M'lady |
I mean I do have to go shopping sometimes. For sustenance. |
I have food here |
Bbbbbbran flakes? |
🇭🇺 to “ I have food here ” |
2024-09-18T20:51:04 |
Wanna kmow something that explains a bit of naivete? |
*Of mine |
And, um, defffffff not asmr lol |
I would love to know! |
This is me for the last two hours |
Oh look it's your happy birthday song! How poetic |
In my district, basic sex ed ia 5th grade. I was living in France. 7th grade health is basically phase 2 of sex ed and my parents waivered me out of that unit. 10th grade health is the last installment and i tested out of that class.... since you can't mandate sex ed teaching, it couldnt be on the testing out test |
My poor baby! |
Mine obv didnt want me learning anything |
I might have connected some dots |
How do you feel about ASMR? I really enjoyed exploring it when I learned it had a name, but the field has gone rather bizarre |
And i never got " the talk" but that's a little bit of a different story |
No real opinion on asmr |
Fair |
Never explored it at all |
I first heard about it on This American Life and it took me a while to realize they were talking about something I knew from long ago. It was a really peculiar feeling, both remembering that feeling, and hear other people talk about it. It is a very interesting phenom |
How is your evening? |
Weird |
Yours? |
Been cookin |
Fine |
Cookin figuratively or literally? |
Lol! Literally |
What? |
Pommes de terres frites; galette de faux poulet; courge jaune au sirop d'érable |
Oh la la! Merveilleux! |
Merci |
Quelle sort de poulet faux? |
Je pense "impossible" |
c'est très cher |
c'est surfait |
Do you know Poliça? |
Aimez-vous su bowuf impossible? |
*du boeuf |
Oui |
Mais non, je ne le connais |
Strong woman up front. Can be very intense. Try this one if you like something intense an strong female mama bear vibe |
I'll have to rain check that, so thanks! |
Sure thing :) |
Like i said, romight has been weird. Kind of suddenly feeling weirdly unwell and with an aura migraine, but i dont get auras with mine |
Oh wow |
This is a purely physical thing. I think. Just no idea what happened. Did get hypoglycemic earlier but that was a quick fix. Still no fever. And i ate. |
I sure did like holding you. I wish I could wrap around you now |
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Awww |
What about Monday evening? |
Would you need a ride home that day? I know a nice one. |
Home from...? |
Midnight train going anywhere? |
Lol |
Need a tech assistance service call? I'm really good with under the desk stuff. |
Maybe I should just move in next door. |
Lots of houses for sale up in here |
2024-09-19T07:12:41 |
Good morning! |
Back atcha! |
The word of the day is approbation! |
Yay! |
How are you? |
That's my vocab for you lol |
Aye lassie, but I'm feeling strong today |
Oh are we? |
Well, perky anyway |
How come? |
Idk. Woke up on the right side of the bed? Woke up with a yearning in my loins. Thinking happy thoughts |
Still yearning, eh? |
Desirin |
Why, whatEVER could you mean?? |
Sometimes my body wakes me up at 5:00 just to tell me it's happy |
I was up then today :) |
After my bike accident I was often up and doing things at 3:30 in the morning. I changed the electrical sockets in my office before work one day. It was really weird. |
That's how i operate, lol |
Vous faites quoi aujourd'hui? |
Je travaille tout le monde et tout la nuit |
?? |
Lol that is the correct response |
I'm working on a profit sharing timeline. Important dates next month |
Blackout is NOT helpful |
No kidding |
I hope the BD folk have been setting expectations for those clients |
Hahahahahahahahaaaaaa |
Where do you work when you're chez vous? |
How do you isolate, or do you? |
When you have a moment, i have a feeling or 2 to express. I may have already told you one but idk. I think they're nice but they're easily perceived as weird or maybe even sad |
I have a room I can call my own. It's my office, hobby room, etc. |
Did i explain why i was so sleepy post-activities? You're basically a first for that too. Ive never literally slept with/next to someone except that person i married, and that was after we moved in together |
My room, btw, is a croffice (craft room + office) |
Haha, nice |
That's basically what my room is too. |
Maybe but not where i was going with that |
That totally makes sense |
Me too |
That sounds so good. Sorry you are feeling yuck though. |
Thanks. Back at you |
If the unkverse were to create, procure, or provide something for you, what would it be? Short lists are fine too. Anything at all, no limitations except that it be something for you |
This is a tough one for me. |
Okay. Then i open the floor to all of that |
Bring us all the humility and patience to resolve our differences with civility. Bring us all the empathy to help our neighbors who may be less fortunate. Bring us the strength and power to build great societies where we can coexist in peace. Such are my wishes. |
Valiant |
Are you okay today? |
Yeah I'm ok. Does my wish list make me sound down? |
Weighted, maybe |
I'm fine, really. I've learned not to expect much from the world, and I'm mostly at peace with that. |
I dont believe you but i also dont force people to ralk or do anything else when they arent ready or dont want to |
It's ok. Ask me anything. I really am a terrible liar. |
Gotta run a meeting in a minute FYI |
What happened today to catalyst your jovial downturn? |
But I'm not, honest! |
But whyyyyyyyyyy |
😝 |
Did you finally fall from the high? I bet that's it |
Ok Morrissey |
Guess i have to look that up now |
Haha the only thing I've fallen into is a desire to get you back in my bed |
Fuckkkkk |
Quite the biology sesh |
When do you think you might take another day off? Maybe I could drop by and help you with something for a few hours |
Ah, you seem to have forgotten a key fact |
Dammit |
Know what that fact is? |
There's another boy in the house |
Correct |
Well kind of 3 if you count the boy cats |
So then there are a few other ways for me to help you help me |
Help me help you help you help me then |
Youre welcome to drop by monday evening but it could only be for like 2 hours |
I am praying the work stuff will be back to normal in a month or two |
Nyquilcoladas? |
Would be like 5ish i think |
Naughty! |
I think you misspelled "tasty" and "brilliant" |
Ooooo yummmmm |
I'd still like you to inebriate me with more than just your own intoxicants |
Here's one for you. I quit smoking cigarettes almost two years ago. I started smoking weed not much later. I quickly realized how it makes me feel slutty. I tried, in various ways, to draw her attention, the charms, the undies, etc. little was working. One day I had the perfect timing to answer a question--what did I want to do? "Get high and fuck!" I never talk that way. |
🤷 |
I'm so sorry for that |
This is a good example why I ask for little from the universe and expect less. And why I can be happy in my head. And why when the universe does me a solid from time to time, it feels really special. |
Well, what i said is very true |
I believe what you tell me |
😊 |
❤️ to “ 😊 ” |
Next time I see you hopefully you will feel more relaxed. I do have to say though you were cute asf when you drew me into you. I was trying to be deferential, and you were like "get over here" lol |
2024-09-19T18:13:30 |
I've prepared a version of this obscene salad thing I make a lot these days: |
Oh yeah, with a chopped dill pickle or two! |
I would most definitely not eat that, but i hope you like it! |
And i kind of wanted what i wanted lol |
All good |
Lofuckingl I did a thing |
I am sorry |
Why are you sorry? I havent clicked it yet |
Lol true |
Sounds like you lol |
Which one ? |
Did you find my Reddit alt yeah or nay? |
Didn't look actually |
And not ignoring you - just out and about. Ish |
👍 to “ And not ignoring you - just out and about. Ish ” |
Also, at what point would you call in if you were just going to wfh but had a fever? |
Serious fever, night before if possible |
Big illnesses are rare for me tho, 1x/year |
But what can I do |
Oh dahling I'm so miserable now |
Well we certainly do wish to thank you all for joining us this evening for another airing of smartin does Lansing |
This evening, "Stroking my fat pussy" |
(uhh Smith? Wtf) |
Omgggggg |
Pop quiz time here on smartin |
I do not?? |
Well here's a clue! |
Ff to 3:23 if you need to! |
Did you say you draw? |
There is a person in her family. Sorry. Was. Named Caroline Wheeler. It was kinda weird. It's a small, rural Arkansas community. Her mum still lives there. Her is a gem. Hard to describe. |
Dude |
Proud of you! |
Heheheh |
Naughty baby |
Have a SIL in back too |
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Will thank you all for calling in we really love your comments |
A courtesy PSA this evening |
How much have you had? |
Lol I did misread your previous message |
Wishing you safe passage m'Lady |
I got called "lush" by a girl on OF. what is it? |
I am chatting with a dude named Andrew lol |
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Please be a sweet boi |
Andrew I am counting on you |
What should I tell him? |
Such a sweet boi |
He is the best |
❤️ to a photo |
2024-09-19T23:22:41 |
Hey? |
2024-09-20T06:39:17 |
Hey :) |
How are you? |
Lil sleepy but ok |
What's wrong? |
Why just ok? |
I'm just not all work up yet that's all |
*woke |
*woken |
L9l |
Oops lol |
I had a dream I found a picture of us lying together naked |
Oh did you? |
Yes, on my phone, as though I had taken it |
Pardon the interruption - did you check? Do you actually have one? |
No, I don't |
Okay. We can recommence :) |
Which earrings to i wear today? |
I was happy, yes. It was a shot from above, as though from a light fixture. You looked very pretty. |
Nevvvvvvvvver hoops |
Got it |
Bonses? |
Apparently i have zero falloween earringa except for some leaves |
When i get my garbage pile of a room clean, I'll show you my variety |
I have a potentially vain-sounding question, though it's also a genuine inquiry |
Aww! Ok! |
Why do you keep thinking and saying nice things? Like that your sweet girl here is pretty |
It's just who I am sweet cheeks |
Do you actually believe it or just think it's what i want to hear? |
I'm just being me! |
But yes that mental image of us on the bed, your porcelain skin, it made me happy. I was like "oh there it is!" As though I had taken it myself. And in that goofy dream would it all made sense |
No es bueno! |
Why the chest pain? Want some benzodiazepine? |
Lol night night time for me |
Same! Or by, you know, just existing |
I'll take chest pain over wheezing though |
Why do you say that? |
Muscle pain can be managed. Wheezing is not only more difficult, but I harbor some trauma with it. My childhood allergies were really bad and I spent a lot of time not being able to breathe. We didn't have Albuterol back then, only pseudoephedrine pills and hospital trips for epi |
I recall this about your childhood |
What would you say your favorite creative activity is? |
My process for digitizing records usually includes a step where I tweak the sound to make it just right (to my ears). That is one of my favorite things because I have to listen very closely. I become very intimately familiar with some music in this way |
Cool |
Favorite TV shows and movies? |
Idk I watch very little TV. Like I have not watched anything this year, except a couple showings of vintage movies. I'm being very literal here |
I never said anything about them being current, silly boy |
I'm just saying, I've literally watched zero shows and two movies ytd |
Very similar here. Doesnt mean i don't have some favorites |
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Lovely! Is that a sharpie? |
Lol is my own personal highlighter |
I want a little bone to put in there so I can do like pebbles |
Then you alsp need to center in atop your head better lol |
Fun fact: i can't see yellow highlighter |
Whoa! |
Not great but yeah |
I also cant see red font easily |
Or a lot of lighter ones |
2024-09-20T12:03:39 |
How's yiur friday going? |
Pretty good! I just had my last meeting of the week 😊 |
Yay! 🎉 |
How is life in the phone mines? |
It's fine. My stuff kept messing up, so i told kirby again today since everyone was habing phone issues yesterday and it wasnt that important. Some back and forth about what i had vs what i need, so i shared my screen to say "hey, i do. Not. Have. Webex." And he was like "no calls yet!?!?" And long story short it is somehow my fault that ny new laptop did not and does not have the phone app i need. So havent had a call. Sad, lol |
He should have known that. They've said 50,000 times only Microsoft 365 apps will be on the laptops initially, all other software will be "as approved" and "when we can get to it" |
Yes. I did not feel the need or want to argue, so i didnt. Iiiiiiiii read all my emails and iiiiiiii know the rules lol |
But i guess everyone else had theirs already so idk |
Huh |
He also seemed overly alarmed that i hadnt been answering calls |
My duuuuude Chris Topher |
Exactly! |
Not a ton. I've made some T-shirts with spray paint and stencils, and sprayed the odd item |
Okay Mr WannaBeAPhysicist, then -would I be okay spraying clean & dry objects this weekend if it's hot/humid? |
Hmmm. I think it will be not ideal but still workable. Avoid direct sun and allow extra drying time. Be sure not to apply too heavily. |
Hmm, okay |
Not an absolute necessity to do it, sometimes when i get motivation to do things i have to do it RIGHT THEN |
Lol yeah I can definitely relate |
What are you up to now? Daydreaming of coworkers lying naked next to you? |
Well thanks to that comment, yes! |
NOPE |
Id much rather be under you |
I just got some new boobs from Amazon! |
Ohh? |
🥰 to “ Id much rather be under you ” |
Slightly bigger than the other fake ones I have. And these came with a surprise--pasties lol |
|
You do have nipples.... we all start out as the same basic zygote |
So does that mean you won't be throwing me down to look at the gasp of desire you pulled from me? |
The heck I won't |
Mmmmmmmkay |
Besides, you still have to show me your sword trick |
Gladly |
You still have to get me high |
So much to do lol |
OMG I'm all tingly now |
Dammit |
Maybe you should go take care of that, lol |
Sure, like hey boss I'm just going to be comatose for the rest of the day ok? |
You're "available" |
Gotta love teams lol |
For sure |
Available for get high & fuck sesh |
Yes please |
I only work for like an hour and change more today |
❤️ to “ I only work for like an hour and change more today ” |
2024-09-20T16:12:51 |
Welcome to your weekend babe! |
3 minutes early but thanks! You too |
What are your many plans? |
I thought of something semi-cool for you to google |
Assuming I can get out of the grocery store alive lol... |
Fucking whack jobs everywhere |
It's a friday and you live in lansing. That's unlikely lol |
See ahove |
Lol |
How do you think i feel about shouting in general? |
Not a fan. Jesus people are weird. |
Indeed |
Whew glad that's over! |
What'd you get me? ;) |
Some nice cruelty free sausage |
Idk if you can swallow it tho |
Cant tell til it's ready |
That's the spirit! |
What are you doing with all your freedom? |
Waiting for the muse to inspire me |
Ever fucked in a tent? |
Inspire you to what? |
Inspire me to be inspired lol |
I need another play date! |
Okay! |
Didn't The 1975 do something recently that grabbed media attention for a hot minute? |
More than one, yes |
Were they political/social statements? |
Are you referring to their Malaysia show? |
Oh wait that was it I think? Human rights issue? |
Hard to say.... one sex |
https://variety.com/2023/music/news/matty-healy-the-1975-speech-malaysia-kiss-imprisoned-liberal-outrage-1235750730/ |
That's it. Thanks for the ref! |
I lovvvvvvvvvvve Matty |
I can see why! |
😊 |
I found something |
What is it? |
My inspiration |
I started already, sanding 11 pieces and cleaning well with alcohol |
Love it! Do you know what it will be? |
I have a cunning plan! |
I must know! |
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She's a little relaxed |
Kitteh go burr |
Having fun? |
Catching up on some YT channels rn. |
I'm entering maid mode. Kitchen needs help and hot food production lol |
Im in the same factory setting! Gettibg lots accomplished so maybe i can be a touch more sane |
What are you doing tomorrow? |
If someone asked you about me and reading and books, what would you tell them? |
Maybe I'll tell them I have a surprise for such sweet princesses. |
Hmm |
Can you imagine, a maid,,, |
I am professionally trained to cook, clean, and maintain a decorum of contentment |
Holy fuck this one |
https://open.spotify.com/track/0wIFAHbaUucA8mog7Y2IDD?si=nUsGPZ1MRc2J6T4WlK79ww |
On it! |
So helpful lol |
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Kitters! |
I like catses |
And "sex"? |
Got distracted, listening now |
Nouuu |
He's got soul. I like him! |
Thanks! Youre the cat's pajamas |
https://open.spotify.com/track/6RUKPb4LETWmmr3iAEQktW?si=RVn6nQJKShq9OJXY2hmsHg |
Ooh honey I like me some PJ's when it's cold |
And cuddling |
And |
... |
https://open.spotify.com/track/2uuTo18bRgXj3RvlbZKMvU?si=_4weAvwmQMOE1K8AR2sxwg |
Girl I get high upon a deep depression |
Or maybe smother you |
You want to smother me, eh? |
Okay, let's say I'm in front of you cladnin stretchylace lingerie, wet, ready. You can have whatever you want. What do you do next? |
Awwww sad |
I |
|
I will have you either way |
Ohhhhh I'm a very good girl |
Riiiiight |
Happy to throw in some attitide if you feel like taming a brat though |
Keep me in mind lover |
Anyhoo |
After I suck your sweet essence from your neck, will you be up for a bit of |
?? |
I mean you really should consider |
Hey wait |
Before you answer |
I just want you share with you |
I'm glad :) |
True statement:I legit did not see the artwork before I sent that |
How deeply should i interpret the lyrics? |
Well assume my level--3rd grade. |
I'm sending this in a mild attempt to make you think. I have a shrug and a smirk to go with it - classic Rebecca |
https://open.spotify.com/track/73uoSkdELRTmovsYkbmHlB?si=q83dJYjaRwSpLh6shrBdvQ |
Am I being a drama queen? |
Why do you think you're being a drama queen? |
https://open.spotify.com/track/6eutgX6jfXAsjTXgQtCtYV?si=dFTKUv3GRvy_0aubsH-RFQ |
I think youd also like Fletcher |
And maybe Bleachers |
🤍 |
So talk to mw |
*me |
What are you feeling? What's going through your mind? |
I was bowing to an insecurity there. And I worked my way out of it, so I feel so relieved! |
Please tell me more |
I would so love if you would ride me all night |
Oh i would love to. I make a good koala, if you can imagine such a thing |
Ohh that sounds nice |
You get that i crave you taking control and being on top of me, right? |
Yes I do |
And I will devour you |
Form head to toe |
Yum yum yum yum |
I was going down a pity party alley for a min, but I got out so ty |
Why were you throwinv a pity party? |
Insecurities. Seldom surfaced. |
I feel so safe with you |
Why,? |
Ditto |
I have not really felt safe in some time. I am not a DA victim, or SA, but I still hide |
What is "hiding" to you? |
Oh damn |
Can't be myself |
Do you think you know who you are? |
I'm also a safe space because i dont particularly focus on how someone gender or sex identifies |
Sorry if i get kinda ethereal and sloppy. Might have taken some shots |
Thank you I appreciate it |
Does it make sense, above? |
I'm also exploring like i think you are |
It does, |
Do you want me to ask you anything specific? |
Lol I feel so overly dramatic now |
I assure you, you arent |
I'm in the mood for something deep but if you're sleepy we xan call it a night. Or i can just ask normal questions |
I am sleepy. But I feel better. |
Whay surprised you tonight? I didnt do anything |
Just being there |
I really mean it when i say i might be the most accepting, forgiving, compassionate, generous, and kind person you've ever met |
Ironically, i think of it as reverse karma |
So much nehati e has come to me in so many ways that i try and balance out the good and evil in the universe |
I dont know that it'll ever be level, but i try. |
You are a truly remarkable woman, human, and lover. I've put a lot of trust in you |
Ditto |
I think you can probably have any story of mine now. When you want one, just ask. I dont think there are any i would restrict from you |
Do you believe I am what you perceive? |
Rhe beat way i can describe how i perceive you is kins of like a maze. Linear, complex, but there's a way through. Your essence to me is clear, not muddled or opaque in any sense |
How do you perceive me? First impression, over our course of connaisance so far, now? |
I feel indelicate saying this, but I do not know a better way |
Okay |
Damaged, but determined |
Yes, you have. Thank you |
No, not automatically |
Do you remember when you "knew" that's how i am? |
Yep. Day 2 |
How? |
Before I answer, may I ask |
You are welcome to ask wverything you want |
You sought to impress me in a great many ways. Why? |
I mean, why me? |
A few reasons |
I also knew at my core, pretty quickly, that something intimate was going to happen between us, though i wasnt exactly sure what or who would be involved |
I did not understand why you should trust me. You have a deeply disturbing story. I care deeply about you, and want to protect you. But you could not know this, surely, at the outset |
By day 2 though, I knew you wanted me to follow you down this path. And I knew I wanted to follow you |
Same |
Is it? |
Are you asking what it is? |
Disturbing statement you have? |
I trust you, but have been wrong before, so in my mind there's not really anything you would do to me that i couldnt handle. And if i realllllly couldnt handle it, i have set plans for how to deal with it on my own |
Is there a reason you're going down this path of questions? I'm looking to see where these thoughts are originating from and maybe why |
I also just want to say that we met at a very odd point for me and i fully believe the universe worked some magic to place you where i desperately needed someone and hopefully i cancome close to filling the same role foe you |
I'm only asking because I have struggled to understand why a girl like you cares about a boy like me. It's not something I worry about. More like wonderment. |
I also believe that my destiny is to absorb the bad. I have the mentality of "at least it's me and i can handle whatever, or i know what to do if it's too much". I've felt that way as long as i can remember. I feel like some hybrid of a martyr, a siren, and an albatross. Honestly. |
Ok |
❤ |
Thank you |
One of these days I'll tell you more about how Sunday thru Wednesday went |
Ooo ok! ♥️ |
Beaux reves, mon prince |
Merci! |
😊 |
I hope you slept well |
At some point today i think i would like to tell you the family drama. The main one, at least |
2024-09-21T10:25:01 |
Heya |
2024-09-21T12:08:02 |
Oh my goodness I slept till noon! |
I'd probably still be there but doggo announced he was ready to get up |
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That is not a doggo |
Correct lol |
Is that your bed? |
No it's my pathetic couch |
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Why is it pathetic? |
Good! I'm headed out to hardware store |
My head is a little fuzzy but I am feeling good! |
How are you feeling? |
Overall good, some physical ailments but that's not new |
Overall good, some physical ailments but that's not new |
Lol I had my usual Guinness, but it was the Sam Adams Oktoberfest that hyped it up |
Mmmhmmmm |
Not this time lol |
Really? |
Honest |
God i wish i could get drunk with you right now. Anytime, but especially now |
You know what's more fun? |
?? |
A couple drinks, a few hits, strip, and scrump like bunnies! |
I love it! |
Oh that's no problem. And it enhances the timeline! Am a fan of nibbles |
Still want me? |
I wish you were here |
So is that a yes? |
That is a yesssshhh with extra sauce |
Oh good :) |
Damn straight |
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You are also cooking |
😋 |
Yep |
Not for me though |
Lol |
OMG peak 80s Cure -- I love this era |
I drove around much of lower Michigan listening to this. Prob 1987 summer |
That was a good summer. I learned to walk, lol |
Yay! |
Now you just need to flip that feeling upside down and wear black makeup! |
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I ALWAYS have black makeup on |
Hey you |
Haha my sweet baby! |
Hieeee! |
I might have some news |
What is up? |
It's likely that I'll be here all alone for quite some time next weekend, the last one of September |
Ooooooooo |
Mmmmmmmmm |
Now it's your turn to tell me something |
!!! |
I got things for my project |
Very exciting! |
*guttermind |
I processed some other wood today whilst thinking about your omfg beautiful pussy |
Fully processed? |
Yeah! |
Fuckkk yes! |
Ikr? |
Compared to a year or two ago,I make bigger mess somehow |
Bigger as in more voluminous or a broader covered area? |
Yes |
Lol awesome |
I am a good boy |
If you get to pick one place to finish, that would be....? |
Well my fave is pussy |
Haha I feel a little perversion |
Good |
But why? |
I want you to be more depraved, if there's an option l9l |
And that's where i like it best too |
Somwthing i literally just now heard as a "try this ro go from vanilla to ghost pepper" is missionary but then my left ankle over your left shoulder, then slow, purposeful, and deep thrusts |
Sign me TF up for that dolly sweets! |
I can put hand on you easily that way too just saying |
Mmmmmm |
I need more of what carnal cravings you have please |
I adore when you get in the zone, like coming in for a messy landing, so focused |
I was so so confused |
Not sure if that was apparent |
I felt so blessed |
:) |
What was i like in that moment? Everything you remember |
1 sweet baby said she had never been on top, but here we were; |
2 oh my she grinds with such a passion I love this girl |
3 my god this ass feels so good in my hands |
There might be more |
I hope so, those were fantastic |
You're welcome to grab fistfuls of my ass anytime |
Yay! |
4 |
Girl if you find your vibe get all you want |
Get it all |
I dont really understand that one? |
I am asking you to take me here, by getting off on me. Literally asking you to cum on me |
And you did!!! |
Fuccccc ck |
Me grincing and swirling and rocking and spelling with my hips on you, it still feel good? Do you chafe? Do you lose to finishing at all? |
I ♥️ the way you grind on me ♥️ |
You |
So |
2024-09-22T00:24:06 |
nvm all that |
I had a good cry listening to, yes, Girl In Red. I actually love it when someone hits this nerve. It's one of vulnerability, but relative safety. I like smart girls like her. |
2024-09-22T03:38:37 |
Hiiiiiii |
2024-09-22T08:50:21 |
Bon matin mon chou! |
2024-09-22T09:54:44 |
I really wish i could spend time with you tod |
* today |
Good morning ☺️ I would love to laze with youuuuu |
Omg saaaaaame |
If i have the house to myself next weekend, would you like to cum over? |
Keep in mind, i have a full length mirror that's moveable |
Ooooo that does sound nice! |
A mirror you say 😈 |
Indeed |
Fuuuuuuck |
Yeah, i hope so |
2024-09-22T12:56:31 |
How's your day? |
Activities that involve you bouncing or bobbing up and down on me are going to put a smile on my face for sure |
What else would you like? |
I should like to yank your panties to your knees and pound you from behind |
Yes! |
I mean it when i say you can do almost anythingggggg with me |
I wish i could express how good it feels to be wanted and that someone thinks I'm attractive |
Ooh that's a cool trick! You will have to show me how it works |
From every angle |
I'm borderline Rx high right now and i want you sooooo much more. I want to be this way and beyond next time we intertwine |
I have a request too |
Name it! |
I want to make out. A lot. It's my favorote thing in the world |
I have an idea you might like, too. Unsure if it'll work but "nothing happens unless forst a dream" (that's a Carl Sandburg quotation) |
DoI get to kiss your neck while we make out? |
Fuccccxkkkkkk yes please |
And nibble your ears? |
Oh, yes |
May i do the same? |
I may want to make you food |
How is the project going? |
2024-09-22T16:07:07 |
I like food sometimes! How do you feel about cooking naked? You can wear an apron though. |
I've bedm a sweaty mess almost all day lol |
Yay! I will bring the sausage! |
Lol okay |
Make sure you stretch too. I have ideas that mighy involve you needing to be bendy |
Oh, happy equinox |
Thanks, you too! |
I've decided to have labs drawn tomorrow, which means no food. So of course all I can do is think about food lol |
Tou can eat until midnighr, cant you? |
How can i help? |
No, 12 hour fast for me. Lol the struggle is more in my head than in my stomach |
Think about other things, lol |
Like people who text you |
Who have excessive lingerie |
And matching libido for their slutty fashions |
Imma eat you! |
Good. I fucking loved it |
Nom nom |
Take all the time you want at the downstairs candy store |
Lol that's a new one for me |
Project? |
I'll probably put a coat of polyurethane on it before bed |
Is that safe? |
You doing alright? Did you asphyxiate on polyurethane fumes? |
Lol I feel asleep on the couch with a cat on top |
Actually it needed another round of stain. Poly starts tomorrow. |
So you were being catsphyxiated. Got it. Been there, lol |
When do i get to know what the project is? |
Oooo guess what happened 11 years ago today, apparently |
I shall model the piece when it's done! |
First transplant call |
It did not work out |
Oh wow |
Actually, most people get at least one false start call |
Alors, je me dors maintenant |
2024-09-23T05:59:50 |
Aww so sweet! Good morning! |
Good morning to you too! |
I've done my SANGuin deed for the day |
Yay! |
How did it go? |
What kind of stick are you? |
I'm eeeeeeeeasy |
I'd say I could do it myself, but that would be a bit difficult |
How are you this morning? |
Pretty good |
I mean, yiu can judge |
null |
How are you? |
O snap |
Awww thanks! |
All yours |
Damn I wish I could plant my face right there, right now |
Soon |
null |
Ohh dolly so pretty |
😊 |
null |
He says you have to fight him for me |
Aww what a guy! |
He's the chonky one |
Do you have any favorite games? |
Oh my goodness it's been so long since I've played a game. I used to like some card games like spades, hearts, gin. |
Any board games? Drinking games? |
I never really played anything like that |
Maybe we'll change that |
I'm game lol🤣 |
Lol i see what you did there |
I just didn't come with a yen for competition |
That's not the point of games! |
Perhaps, but sometimes people make it that way so I generally avoid/do not join |
Given the option, that is |
Im not people lol |
Do you happen to collect or enjoy Japanese ceramics? |
I certainly don't collect them, but I've admired them |
Well if you happen to want some, i have them |
Things for tea? |
Yes! And larger things for more tea |
I find things in the wild and don't neceaaarily have a need or pirpose dor them but they're beautiful and need rescuing, so i bring them home and hold on to them until i find someone i deem deserving |
Aren't you sweet? ! |
I tend towards the utilitarian, much because there's room for little else around here lol |
But nice things are nice 😊 |
Yes, nice things ARE nice |
Well here we are... Another work week. Let's make it a good one! |
For sure! I only work most of it, lol. Lots of friday off for me |
I think this will be my between calls project today |
null |
No remarks? Fine, no Paris croffice wall updates for you. Dommage et tant pis |
Wow that's quite the homage! |
Guess who has accesd to bcr4 and claimscenter!!! |
Well aren't we spiffy ! |
I know, right? |
OMG my morning meeting is starting with football banter... |
Mime was imsaaaaane |
The one person nobody likes basically had a rant about how we were too coversational and her power is out and "everything and everyone is really pissing [her] off" and evvvveryone muted themselves at almost exactly the same time |
I speak futbol if you'd like to interject that |
Just found a very squishy part of me |
Youll love it |
Lol when the guys start talking sports I literally go silent and wait for them to come to the inevitable conclusion: "the so and so team is going to have to get more points if they expect to win" |
I told you it's yours for the taking |
2024-09-23T10:55:08 |
I found your phone! |
Clever boy |
You working all of wednesday? |
What are your favorite foods and sweets to consume? What about to create? |
One of the perks of being an employee of 19 years with a unique title is I can say things like "hey all, something just came up and I need to duck off for the day". |
"it's a really hard situation" |
Lol. Very nice |
Might happen friday, who knows |
"gonna be tough to beat" |
Do you actually want to come over? That's a question you've yet to answer |
And is it feasible |
I actually do want to! Feasible is another matter, but I'm not saying no |
Tell me what fiblets you need and I'll make it happen |
Are you luring me with food? |
Maybe |
That isn't necessary |
And new tiny skirts |
You shall be my food |
Omggggggg |
I'm best with cream filling |
We can make a pie! |
Yeah but I'm having you clean it up lol |
You have no idea how much I want that |
Saaaaaaaaaame |
Up to you if it turns into a snowball |
Now about those skirts, I need more information |
What would you like to know? |
(Laptop for scale) |
null |
Ohhhh that is tiny. And adorable. I bet it fits perfectly! |
Looks better without anything but skin underneath too |
I am literally trembling rn thinking about this |
Excellent |
You dont need to escape forever.... make a pharmacy run or something |
Not today, just to be clear |
Maybe a grocery run? Food in general? I can always order it to get here so you have it to take home |
Oh don't worry about that... Just keep me, uh, posted |
For sure |
Thursday night at the earliest |
I would say tonight but this house is atrocious |
House? I don't see a house |
Lol youre so cute |
What would you need? Utilitarian |
Maybe a clean towel? |
Seriously? Here's the info you'd need: |
I would literally come over rn but for having a decent alibi |
That's amazing to hear |
No for today. But, for example a Friday afternoon would be super easy, if that were a possibility. Or a Saturday afternoon. Sometimes I go out looking for camera gear and have to spend hours, you know? |
I most definitely understand |
And no I am not meticulous anything lol |
Ummmmm you packed your things in separate zip topped baggies |
You saw my office |
Ok lol in fairness I gathered that stuff from 10 different places because I didn't put any of it away properly |
😂 |
😘 |
I did not see your office! |
💋 |
The pic I sent Friday morning? Me doing it with a highlighter? Was it just a yellow dream? |
Anyway the chaos increases exponentially as you move to the floor. Some say there are buried treasures down there but all I ever find is car hair |
Lol car hair |
I happen to love cleaning |
Just sayin |
😊 |
It will be appreciated. Truth is, the only thing I would have a problem with is wallowing in cat hair. I would almost definitely break out in hives |
Um, what are you doing that gets EITHER of those hairs in your teeth?! |
I will get you some damn floss but i cant help with how you provide your automobile and pet servicing |
Eating cats? |
This is NEVER ohio! |
Lololol |
Btw do you wear flannel a lot in cool weather? It really suits you. I like it |
That's an interesting perspective |
Have you seen me in flannel? |
You had a flannel shirt one day, I just thought it looked good on you but we squirreled off before I said anything. I was just randomly reminded of that by the universe |
Oh! I did! |
I haven't before but if you like them then i do too |
:) |
Lol |
Is there really nothing kinkier you'd like to inform me of? |
I mean flannel skirts and optional panties is always a good look |
Flannel bra and optional shirt |
Or vice versa |
Oh boy do i have an outfit planned for you |
I think at some point I should be saying plaid here lol |
It's already plaid |
And green |
With suspenders |
And maybe a tie |
Ohhhh nellie |
I dont have to wear the bow-topped jigh highs with the 'fit but i cannnmmm |
Whew it's getting hot in here again |
Yeah i thought i migjt make it hard |
Mmmmm boy, girl |
You're aware i had 3 different sets of lingerie with me that night? |
I guessed you had something, but we kinda skipped that step lol |
You didnt even see what i wore there! |
I saw parts of it! |
Tell me what it was then |
Green sheer spaghetti strap Cami and black padded bra |
You are incorrect on half of that |
null |
Strike out "green"? |
And "sheer" |
What were my panties like? |
It was kinda dark |
Did you take them off me? |
I sure did |
Fuccckkkkk |
Do it again |
Sweet thing you bet I will |
I will ALWAYS want you to be the one to take them off me |
If im wearing any |
Yay!!!! |
I actually think assertive (not aggressive) is incredibly hot |
Show me and tell me what you want and you can have it |
I waited in that chair for aaaaaaaaages, lol |
I'm picking up what you're putting down there sister. Now that I understand better where this line is, there will be less waiting. |
I say this with just the slightest pinch of caution - for you i dont think there will be a line. Ever |
I got you. I respect boundaries, nuff said |
Sure, sure.... i dont know how to explain this better but i have seriously few boundaries and sometimes want some fucked-uppery in my life |
I think we have many desires in common. I can't wait to see you again |
Yes, me too |
But i also know there are some things i might want that youd never do, so i do my best to refrain from stating or asking |
You don't have to not ask! Besides, I may change my view. I feel like I'm coming out of a closet here, but I started long ago and haven't been able to explore this new world yet. Old world ideas may--or may not--be relevant |
Old world such as? |
Seriously, I've heard it all |
I'll tell you some if you want |
After you tell me some |
BUT ALSO |
Hearing that, to me, implies that i have zero control over my body in that it would be yours |
Make or procure something... I like cute things for my hair. Is that direction enough? |
Nope |
Barrettes? Big clips? Tiny clips? French combs? Vivid dyes? Tinsel inserts? Feather extensions? Headbands? Bobby pins? Volume rollers? Curling wand? Flat iron? Scrunchie? Disney princess brushes? |
Hahahahaha you kill me sometimes |
Mayhaps |
Though i have spiral things that rip oit way less hair than hair ties |
But are you opposed to those listed above? |
I know what some of those words mean haha |
Yes yes yes |
Black and neutral. How delightfully enjoyable |
No no not like that |
Speaking of that, I found a picture of the crop top I want, but it's not available here 😭 |
Show meee |
Wish me luck! |
null |
null |
null |
And good luck! |
It's cute! |
Lol. Id invite you iver to help but alss i am now only alone in my head today |
:( |
Add these guys to the project mix |
null |
Chickens! |
Yep |
Well my labs are coming in |
I say youre fine |
Brain scan: none detected |
Ty Dr Becca! |
Check the other head? |
🤪 |
Nope |
null |
Jeeeeeeeesus |
He's not gonna save you Hun |
Not from me |
Fuuccccckkkkkkk |
Ok we got the verb |
Subject |
& object |
(-Ify) |
Ok, nominative case of proceed |
Are you googling? |
Non, this is retrieval of Latin from an extremely shallow pool in my head fr |
If i wasnt sweaty AF and rearranging a curio right now you'd be in so much trouble lol |
Or this could be imperative mood, in which case we only need perhaps an object. Anyone? |
I am your object |
Duh |
Now we're getting somewhere! |
"sweaty" is an ... Hinga? No. What is it? |
Lol |
It is |
Sweaty is anhinga? What kind of absurdity is this? |
The fuckery kind |
Yeah you'll def have to come here friday or saturday |
You are indeed asking for the proverbial it, Missy. We shall see to this swiftly |
Well it could be more swiftly I suppose |
You shall accrue interest |
Literally |
I certainly hope so |
What is this "it" of which you speak? |
A good tongue... Tounguing. And probably a pat on your bottom dear girl |
What else? |
I dare not corrupt your young mind with such thoughts |
Psshhhht like i haven't thought worse |
I need to know, dear sir |
Well, your makeup is going to run, but you won't be able to do anything about it |
I warned you |
My nakeup is always waterproof |
Well, you'll need dry, er, clean knickers |
What a curious thing to say |
Pourquoi? |
Which is to say you'll need an extra set. Two would be a good idea actually |
Because the ones you have on are going to become soaked |
How many pain killers do you plan on me needing after? |
The idea is you will remember this |
So, 10? |
### |
I just have no idea what your plans are |
You dont need to tell me super specifics, but some things i def need to know |
AMA |
Lick your neck |
Kiss your eyes |
Suck your nipples |
Lick your ear |
Or maybe we could just talk about the fabulous History of jams in Belgium and have tea! Yum! |
Anyhoo |
I'm going through this HARD drive and found a bunch of outtakes or "might post later" stuff. Idk how you feel about unsolicited things like that |
Sorry for the delay, almost had a disaster |
Please share |
And if you want to hurt me, we talk about it first is all |
Whoa is everything ok? |
That's like, even if you want that, I'm not going there |
Okay, these are solid answers, thank you |
Though i will say it's a tiny bit confusing because aside from your 2 reasons, why would there be pain? |
Ah--i see the issue. |
I am threatening you with the idea that we're going to go long, hard, hot, and maybe more than once |
*TAPS |
Lol at taps |
No need to be sorry. Too much is lost in translation in text |
And |
I want your make up to run because you are sweaty asf from grinding on me |
Bring it Missy |
Lol okay |
Here's a big |
I don't think you believed me before and I'm not convinced you believe me yet, that yours is half the fun for me |
You're correct |
Welp we just have to keep trying I'm afraid |
If you say so |
😘 |
😛 |
Lol seriously though, please don't let your questions go unanswered. Hard to track for me bc booooomer |
Gen exxxxxxxxx |
Do you want to know why it's hard for me to believe the your pleasure is mine thing? |
Yes please I would |
Because it usually starts that way but then you like what i do more than anything else, or i get easier to manipulate and then it turns into an IOU feeling situation |
That's the short version |
Ok |
You in general are jot a part of it at all, it's just learned from experience |
Thank you I appreciate that! |
null |
Awwwwww |
Hahaha! Happy accident ! |
Mmhmmm |
Besides I can't even put in words how much I want to cum in you. |
That makes me feel so, so good |
I will probably collapse awkwardly on you |
Totally fine |
I cant tell if/when you're hard or not |
You tease! |
No? |
Can I get gat hard now and you will tell me? |
Only if we're touching the maighty places |
What if i send you a reasonable facsimile thereof? |
It is very reasonable, I assure you |
Whatever you want |
Aww it's ok |
❤️ to “ Only if we're touching the maighty places ” |
Wait a sec-- I unconsciously parsed that as "let's dismiss this issue" |
Your interpretagion was incorrect |
I have a lot of streams of thought that are like ping pong balls. If they get knocked off the table it's nothing. You can tell me if I should change the subject 🙂 |
Lol same |
This might sound weird - do you still feel good things if you dont finish? Like, actions that night still felt good on you? |
Fuck yes I do |
You are welcome to use me as a grinding station any time |
Even if it takes me forever? |
"Tightness" and i have an odd relationship, and that's enough of my take on that for now. |
I have no thoughts, and no information about your relationship. That is the simplest question answered |
As for your tightness |
You have the experience |
That's what id like to know |
This is new to me |
I would lovvvvvvve that. Please please please please play with me. Explore me. I am 10000% serious - i know how to do things for you but next to nothing about myself |
I just did actually |
Hmmmm |
I am unsure how to respond |
Too tight? Not enough? |
Girrrrrrrl wait one sec |
I love every inch of you |
You answered :) thank you |
Yay! |
We should fuck more often, you know? |
I agree |
😈 |
Find some seclusion and I'll def shake our worlds up |
I'm going to be a mess by the end of the week |
I hope you make me one too |
Deal! |
I want so so so much from you. With you. |
BRB in 10 ok? |
Sure |
Please don't be afraid to say/ask me anything. |
Thank you. I have never felt purely wanted like i do with you |
Oh noes I feel mushy |
You. Are. Valued. |
You are too |
Thank you 🙂 |
I like telling you, and I like showing you. It's not all for the man. You fucking send me to the moon when you cum on me |
And I appreciate we want this for each other. It really is fantastic |
I have so much more to share with you. Things i font even know i don't know |
All good babes. I am also fading. Please be at peace, and know I am dreaming of the next time we meet |
Same. Very much the same |
2024-09-24T06:58:48 |
Bem dia! |
GM lover how are you? |
Ok thanks |
Little sleepy but good |
I woke up thinking about you. It was really lush |
Oooooh say more! |
I was so. Damn. Hard. |
Mmmmmmmmm |
Yes please |
You'll have to tell me of these "ways we would get on" |
Pretty please...? |
For one, I replayed the scene where you climbed on top of me, slowly but surely taking me in. Your face said so much to me in that moment...I wish I could hold that forever |
I would kill to know what it said, what you thought and felt |
Really |
null |
That looks super nice! |
Your face had a lust that I have not seen in a long time. I was so happy to be there for you |
I was thinking about taking Friday afternoon off. You busy then? |
Unknown at this time. Dependent on spousal decision |
I'm crafting & thrifting tomorrow. Suggestions? Ideas? Desires? |
Cute cat things? |
❤️ to “ I'm crafting & thrifting tomorrow. Suggestions? Ideas? Desires? ” |
Para te? |
PAR-TAY? |
Lol close |
null |
null |
null |
❤️ to a photo |
Day going well? |
That is super cute! |
Like a fun hackathon or a "lets try and break AF again" one? |
I would be ao glad if you could come hang out here instead |
Stupid phones |
Today is everyone's due date so it's nonstop. Shopping + drinking for me later for sure! |
But more about my face.... you tell me more and I'll tell you something you'll like and may or may not know |
null |
❤️ to a photo |
I saw lust, passion, and determination. And maybe surprise? |
And you were fucking cute af |
Surprise, yes |
It's my new dino geadband lol |
*headband |
If like to think the experience was new for you and that you were enjoying it |
Yes.... and ao many other things |
I was also worried about hurting you |
Really? |
Yrs |
You had no such fear? |
Ps i organized my washi tape |
null |
Dang look at all those |
Is there a way dor you to describe "open up"? |
It was really just about how tight you were. Obv not your first rodeo though (in a general sense) |
Did you know at that point? Like, you'd felt already? Were you concerned I'd crush you? |
Ive been told before that I'm painful or uncomfortable to be in |
I don't think I'd actually felt you yet, but I was more or less expecting it based on conversation. I was not afraid or concerned, more like cautious. You were an absolute treat and I want mooooore! |
Mmmm yes please! |
Silly vain rebecca always wants to be the tightest anyone's had, and i try not to overexaggerate how ive heard i am |
But i honest to deity didnt think you'd fit |
Anyway, comical commentary: if i can't angle right, is me reaching for you and putting you where you need to be with hand placement what I'm supposed to do? Does that make sense? |
Oh you're just so wonderful 🥰 |
So it's a relatively normal thing to do? |
Where did you look while i was on top of you? |
Can you see without glasses? |
Normal? Lol it's better than me randomly poking you 🤣 |
Yes I can see fine. I just can't read lol |
I asked before and I'll ask again and if you need clarifications, please ask |
What scarring could you feel in any capacity? |
Tbh i did not notice any--although I am not sure I would recognize internal scars. Is that a thing for you? Someone I once knew had an SA experience and said her vagina is scared as a result |
*scarred |
I have an incredible amount of internal scarring |
Guessing that means you couldnt feel an iud either lol |
I didn't |
Actually I did not expect that at all, not that it changes anything for me |
Didnt expect what? |
An IUD. I Guessed you had a hysterectomy |
I have not |
There's plenty more complications that involve several stories |
You're welcome to know, you'll need to ask |
Which part would you like me to know? I'm not sure what to ask about |
I dont know what's tmi for you |
I'm not sure I know either. I've honestly never heard a story like the one you've told me so far. I've had a fairly sheltered life |
Okay. Which story, because i dont know thar youve heard the worst. And that's a subjective term |
Short story is blahblahblah damage and blahblahblah it's nice to not exsanguinate and blahblahblah no one wanted to do a hysterectomy since there wasn't anything malognant or biologically "wrong", hence iud |
I see. You told me about your dad advising you and your brother--that's the worst I've heard from you, or anyone. |
*abusing |
Fml |
In all fairness, both worda were correct |
Is that the only one you've heard frim me? |
You also told me about your brother's "accident" |
Meaning? Literal words here are fine |
Burning the house down with himself in it |
Oh, yes |
But.....i haven't told you a lot |
I want to know things that are important, but I have no way to prioritize because I don't know what I don't know. If you think it's important for me to know, I will listen |
Does that make sense? |
I think so |
I'm ok with that. Also, if you just want to get something off your chest, or just need to rant, or just need to cry, or just need a hug, I got you |
❤ |
Because i dont know if this is clear, my father's actions were just that once, or at least not more than that week. It was 7 more years of my brother and it only stopped then for really shitty reasons |
Wow. I definitely had times when the folks weren't home, but they were well defined and expected. You were pretty much forced to grow up fast |
I literally do not remember not being in an adult mindset. And that sucks |
Yeah I'm sorry. I mean it's easy to forget what childhood was like sometimes, but there are definitely bits and pieces. Not all good, not all bad either. But memories of not being an adult and all that entails is not something I would want to just give up. |
So you're clear on the last big text i sent, right? |
And thank sweet baby jesus it's after 1615 |
Today was A DAY |
Yeah that totally makes sense. |
He is still walking the earth. He calls once or twice a year. I get a check twice a year that's dismal based on what i know. |
At some point, you must have had a medical professional notice signs of SA. Or did that not happen? If they did, why is father not in prison? |
I didnt ever see doctors except for diabetes, and that wasn't anything that was addressed |
At one point you insinuated that mom was complicit in father's actions. Or I interpreted it that way. Is that correct for me to say? |
I think I'm actually making a lot of assumption there. If I'm way off base lmk |
And maybe it's super obvious what I'm looking for here.... Explanations and justice. I know this is all ground you've already treaded. And maybe the perverse answer is there is no reason and no justice in it. Idk. I am sorry these things happened to you. |
Your statements are correct. I don't know how much she knew about what my father did - i can tell you more later (decided i needed to wscape the house for a sec) but i/we (brother) were walked in on more than once and her/their responses there were abysmal at best |
Ok thanks. I need to process this for a bit. Thank you for telling me. (♥️) For you |
If you processing this means you dont want to be physical anymore then you'll need to tell me that very specifically |
But i would not blame you |
No babe that's not it at all. |
It makes me want to be with you more. For hugs and stuff. |
And it's a heavy story. I don't get a lot of those |
But I want to know everything! Lol |
You okay? |
I am good! How do? I wasn't sure if you were escaping or something |
I mean, kind of escaping. Just temporary, am back home. Was close to your house actually. I am quite a lot |
Yay! |
I have no idea what that means in real people speak, but sure |
Fair |
"salutations" is a close translation |
Part of me being weird and awkward AF is not understanding too much nuance |
You are intelligent and quite sharp of mind |
And cute af |
Haha, thanks |
Ditto to you as well, from the department of redundancy department |
🤣 |
We open at 6am in the morning |
Dammit! |
EST RIGHT? |
Yes, when it"s EST in the eastern time zone |
Yo, speak American plz |
Do you know this one? |
I've seen that one, always good! |
Did you want to ask a question or should i ask you one? |
You ask this time |
Level of weight, |
? |
Like, my weight? In freedom units? |
Lol no. As in how heavy do you want the question |
But you're welcome to answer that so long as you guess mine too |
null |
I feel like 482.4 is incorrecy |
Yeah the contrast sucks. It's 182.4 |
I am amazed that i was mostly on point there! |
Throw the heaviest question you have ever thrown at me. |
I have no idea what that might be, but i had said you need to guess my weight too |
And next, what made you assume I'd had a hysterectomy? Other than me telling you pregnancy wasn't a possibility |
Sure |
I assumed you had a hysterectomy based on a few statements, and my own assumptions. Which were wrong lol |
You are... |
I'm freedom units... |
140 |
I'm just curious what i might have said for those assumptions |
Just like me then |
You fit me perfectly |
I'm reading that a few ways |
Which is the right way? |
The one where you don't freak out because you figured out I eat babies every day that I grow in my basement |
As long as you dont care that ive swallow millions of babies myself |
Touché |
So then i read it as |
Aaaand you've swallowed a lot more than me and I'm sorry but I actually have none to offer, as I mentioned before. Cauterized. Shut. Vas. Defrens. |
Is this your worst? |
Not really |
Missy you a need a lot more points... |
Points? |
I have 2 questions that are harsher |
Now 3 |
Casual reference to last night. |
What made you decide to do some..... things with me? |
In general and me specifically |
One, you're cute af |
Haha, thanks |
If i hadnt fucked myself over a lot, id be a hell of a lot smarter |
Plzzzzz |
No, for real |
You're a very intelligent person. You know that, right? |
Sometimes, and in some ways, yes |
Ok so me, why |
So 32-34 ago |
Whew |
Yes, it was |
Yeah I needed someone. I just had a bad breakup after a3-yr relationship where we lived together for much of it. That ended about 7 months prior |
I was a wreck. I'm met a hippie chick and we spent the summer together and and it was great, but she was too free to be with me |
I dropped it off college at the same time the big relationship ended |
And so lost my nice job on campus. I found my way into plasma center phlebotomy |
And there one day was this cutie making eyes at me |
¿Continue? |
Absolutement |
D'accord |
Well we managed to plan to ask each other out at the same time. My coworkers were helping her lol |
Did you ask her to get married? |
Well, she asked me. I hesitated. Iirc,I delayed response. At the time, I told myself I felt like 3 years was some kind of limit for me, and with us at two years, I wasn't confident in myself |
NB |
I had two prior relationship that lasted 3 years--the one that just collapsed, and one that ran from around 1980-1983 |
You were 12 when that one started? |
Did i math wrong? |
And a 18 month between those even FML I may have forgotten to count something |
Yes 12 is right. End of 6th grade |
That's interesting |
Sorry--beginning of 6 |
Ever do anything with her besides hand holding? Not meant to sound sarcastic, it's a literal question |
We made out (French kissy) a few times. I felt up her boobs a couple, and sucked them once((my first, not Mom's)), but she was uncomfortable later so that was one and done |
Church girl |
Very sweet |
How am I doing? |
What else would you like to say in relation to what ive asked? |
I will say I hesitated to marriage partly because existing kids. But I did not see another option, so I committed |
Why didnt you see another option? |
I didn't see myself as anything that anyone else would care about |
So it wasnt that you wanted to make your own kids |
*Your own bio |
Sorry can you repeat the q? |
O wait I get it |
No, I had no such desire |
Interesting |
What did you & she use for bc for those 16ish years? |
She had pill and then whatsit in the arm for most, then a year or so of condoms, then snip meeeeeeee |
What are your thoights and feelings and whatever on condoms? |
Not a fan generally, especially now when I feel like I need more sensitivity. Not opposed per se, but prefer to avoid |
How many women have you told you loved them? How many have told you? How many were overlap? |
I have count my 3rd grade girlfriend as the first I told. Lol I think she was a little freaked out. I was one grade ahead, but if you understand how the age vs calendar thing works in public schools, you would know that might only be a month in actual age |
Here are all the names, probably in chronological order... |
Heather (my cousin) |
Of them, who told me? |
Suzanne |
There you are |
Has anyone told you and you not reciprocated? |
Not in a serious way. A couple at work have said it in a purely worky way, but that is literally all |
Here's something for you |
null |
I have more questions (always will), but would you like to say or ask anything right now? |
❤️ to a photo |
I know where linden is |
Went there a few dozen times |
Lol we might be talking about a different Linden. I only lived more than 5 miles from where I am sitting right now, very literally, before I was 5, ever |
Map fact! |
Lol okay. My referent is in genessee county |
In East Lansing, there are three thoroughfares called Linden. I lived on one of them for about 10 years. Childhood home, basically |
Gotcha |
I only ever had one childhood home |
Ages 0 - 30 |
Wow.. 30 |
Yes. Did you not know that? |
You may have told me but I do not remember this |
It's clear to me, so i may not have |
But that's the house that caught fire |
I lived other places but that was always my home base & permanent address |
If you need more clarity, please ask |
One sec |
Dude |
Nah, you're fine |
Do you happen to know how long ive worked at the same place you do? |
Did you say seven years? |
About |
♥️ Daniel |
Samesies |
He and my neighbors are friends |
They're cameroonian |
And i am french fluent |
Fucking a right? |
I'm a little inebriated so i apologize if this gets weird. Youll just have to tell me |
Did i tell you when the fire was? |
I honestly don't recall. But I do have Andrew's obit. |
Hmm. Interesting |
August 8 or 9 2016 |
It's literally in front of me |
Says 9th |
That was around the time an old school chum came around, and his dad had just passed |
I think it also depends on perspective, the date |
I'm just reading the obit. What would you say? |
I need to know more of what this question means |
Ok it is a bit weird |
You said "what would you say?" Like, if i wrote ab obit for him? What do i think of that one? What would i say in regard to _____________? |
Hmm |
Oh, yes. |
I am so sorry |
There are so, so many more stories. And i know there are more that i do not remember right now at all but suddenly I'll |
Have that random memory |
Being held by you is nice |
❤️ to “ Being held by you is nice ” |
I will probably get weird abiut ut at points |
I dont typically do well with touch even though i crave it |
Tell me what you want lol |
Friday |
I asked you once if you had any clue what my mental health diagnoses might be/have been, or if you even wanted to know. What would you surmise now? |
First I am not conversant in this subject area. I may say anxiety. But I'll stop there |
It's cheating to just say one of the ones i already told you, lol |
I have the next questions ready in my head whenever you choose |
Or you are always welcome to ask |
Youuu ask |
Would you have really just let me keep grinding and doing whatever on you? Until when? And then what happens? |
Oh! My goodness! |
I can keep it darker |
Actually... |
A touch brighter pour moi |
Anyhoo |
Yes you are welcome to grind from dusk till dawn |
And dawn till dusk |
Until one of us says |
So you would have let me keep going? |
Fuck yeah |
Maybe i should have |
Get all of that you want |
I can't |
It's too good is how i can describe it |
We llllll lookie here |
I do hope you enjoyed |
Fuckkkkk yes |
I sure as fuck did |
I want to experience more and know i can go farther than i did but it's a super insane amouht of scary for me |
Dude there are a lot of licks left on this one |
I. Could. Die. |
Take that every way you like |
Am i remembering accurately that you said you might want to actually look at me? Or did you just say explore? |
I said both things, and not to be taken exclusively |
There's so much to that last yext i dont understand |
Say more? |
Well, i dont really understand the wanting to see all of me |
Big |
I am sorry |
It's ok |
I know it's a nkce thing, and it dies make me glad... it's unfamiliar |
I shall ask you this: |
I'll have to use more vulgar (Latin reference) words i think. Tell me when |
Oh ok, job done |
?? |
I will tell you no worries |
To confirm (or deny) |
Whew |
Right? |
In my mind, all i can picture is very straightforward and medical-ish. That's not necessarily a bad thing, just very different |
Kitchening for a bit -- DONT PANIC |
But sweet jesus do i want you to explore me. And us. And vice versa |
Got my towel! |
I was just handed a unilateral decision from the wife. I smell bs with her kids, big time. |
Sorry for the channel change |
Remain calm... |
I am here for everything, yes, calm |
Hey btw.... Friday |
Yes please yes |
Stuff comes up for me all the time |
Just sayin |
Maybe it does for you too |
I don't wish to be overly dramatic but |
There is this certain mannerism when she knows I'm questioning her decision, but does not give a fuck |
It's wild |
Like I would actually rather have discussed this |
Rather than be informed |
Would you like to say what it is? |
Her kids are staying a couple days... Starting tomorrow |
We have no accommodate |
Accommodations |
Fuck, I'm sorry |
Wild |
No it isnt |
For now it is |
Then that means I'll let you know the second you can be here Friday and you can stay till i sort if have to kixk you out |
❤️ to “ Then that means I'll let you know the second you can be here Friday and you can stay till i sort if have to kixk you out ” |
I know the exact mechanism here but it's too long to put on these margins |
They are also your age |
She will do anything for them |
Including look past me |
Not bitter lol |
Hmm. I have many similar i thoughts and experiences and wide differences to your plight |
Not to make this the rebecca show but it makes me incredibly reflectively sad |
A camera shopping trip would be so cathartic! |
And just in time |
Yep it sure would |
You know i like to add truth to things |
You would, therefore, be welcome to take pictures |
Fucking aye lol |
I set the rules though |
Duck me I will bring camera if you want to play this way |
Maybe we just use your phone this time. My rules are really simple so please try to not fuck them up :) |
No worries this is not a prereq. I'd rather spend time fucking you but if you like photography and lead on. Phone only |
I would also much rather fuck |
Porque no los dos? |
Yay!!!!! |
Loa dos aokoa buenos |
*sonos |
Last time..... |
Your state of sobriety? |
Done& paid for |
I don't think I addressed your question |
Or you did and i didnt underatand |
Two ticks over drunk enough. And eating and running upstairs |
I dont think we're on the same page?? |
Oh |
Do you wish you had been different? |
No I don't |
Any reason? |
Quite the opposite |
Better memory retention |
And better control of my erectile situation, for what that's worth |
Thanks |
I think i know one part that still really throws me off |
You won't crack me Missy |
You were just.... happy. And enjoying. Undetermined when you were thrusting in me. Like there wasn't an end goal and you were just there and living it |
So please tell me .. |
What is it that is so important that we have to get there to succeed, rather that relish the path |
It was entirely new |
You know thar |
Oh, your person? Very beautiful |
My person? |
Would it not be a waste to duck off right through there without witnessing this beautiful creature |
You |
Your visage |
Oh |
Your silhouette |
Your curves |
I think it probably looked weird and dumb, so.thank you |
Your squish... Don't get me going |
You saw my face when i finished? |
I will fuck your Brian's out |
God i hope you will |
Anyway, my question above |
Kinda |
You're good |
Few minutes afk |
Can you describe them? Good, bad, any and all between |
Ok I am in upstairs place |
Good |
Are you asking me to decide you? |
Decide? Idk. Describe? Yes. What do you think my face or body or both were expressing? |
Oops describe |
I fucking like this and I want more |
So |
I am laying underneath |
First time in aeons |
And you are so beautiful |
So perfect in my hands and in my eyes |
What objection could I have? |
Fucking use me you tart |
😈 |
Come and get it if you want me |
Sound familiar? |
Mmmm |
Yesssss |
I'm starting to make sense of a few things, i think |
Meanwhile |
https://www.google.com/search?client=ms-android-verizon-us-rvc3&sca_esv=7cd1e08dbde2eff0&sca_upv=1&sxsrf=ADLYWIK1WLqEc3QVGROL1bnwWsslXcbluw:1727234541150&q=facial+expressions+emotions+wheel&udm=2&fbs=AEQNm0B3WNFCYvaBrNDHYAL-6rQSsFLQdEBB_H1bSYTxvkCOnEcUtKfg_kGGL5C3GRQpmB7wWvrOnyNEEuyWAh-lALtvDaniWf4IvHdU3wmpHc-TgsgAJCIYMTdYCXEMbp5R71NEJ8Vc4WMDjIROrMt0cpLT-RaqKZ6uq2wAWzo8lKtAso61LgcYeOixy75BB-BDZFP3_vHSIVzQSqwJDQYOHgTtzgSl724nh0-vS5HffUF8tgDtmXM&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjGhJOKkt2IAxVCpIkEHUQ9KQQQtKgLegQIGBAB&biw=384&bih=701&dpr=2.81#vhid=dbzOiySljx4RjM&vssid=mosaic |
The entire wheel was involved, lots of outermost spokes |
Facial expressions is something I desperately need to ask you about and I'm very serious |
Okay |
Do you pick up disapproval from my face? Ever? |
Heavy subject |
I dont think so? Your words, yes, but that's been intentional |
No, I don't think you've missed anything at all |
This is a weird little trauma for me.. |
Fuck lol |
So many words, and none at all |
Fascinating chart BTW |
It's absolutely okay to not tell me, to tell me now, to wait, to do all of those |
Thank you |
Therapy tool |
Yes I can see why. Very helpful |
I don't have the right words to talk about the facial thing yet, but I am certain I will some day |
Okay (also a book reference) |
Your Cliff hangers are murderous |
Take me Missy |
This one is dark |
Throw me the duck over the edge lol |
You sure? |
No actually |
Lol |
Okay then we wait |
null |
Ja, katze |
Catses |
Adyin kiska, da |
Kiska, I have heard this one |
Russian |
Kiska = kitty |
Prost |
They say "koskiskiskiskiskiskiskisk" to call them like we'd say "here kittykittykittykitty" |
Koshka = cat |
Aww I love that! |
Gato en espanol |
Si |
Though gateau en francais in cake.... |
Someone get me to ohio! |
? |
Gateau and gato are about the same sound |
Fml lol ewwww |
🤣 |
How are you unaware of his quasi-latest blunder? |
Oh yes I do know this one, I was just slow to draw the inference |
Fucking prick |
Did i ever tell you about the township supervisor i knew growing up? |
Was that overseas? |
Nope. Hometown of Brighton (just a littlw bit super.ultra hardcare republican) |
Like, hosts ew45 rallies and was an actual Tea Party stop |
Ick times infinity. I know that part of the state has a lot of that though |
Hey can I tell you something? |
Yes |
You are fucking hot the way you are. Don't let any one tell you otherwise |
Thank yiu |
That was an interesting choice |
Anyway, that supervisor and my father are one and the same. He was a trustee for a few years too |
Wtaf |
He actually said one time that fox news was his fave but getting too liberal |
Why the wtaf? |
Your father was the twp supervisor? |
Yws |
Go ahead and ask the google |
I'm serious about your body btw |
Sorry to make a big deal about it but you keep self-deprecating |
Yes |
Dont be sorry |
It will take a very long time for me to "get it" |
Ok, I am nothing if not patient |
Babes... |
I need to put phone down and sleep so I can wake up thinking about you again |
These are words I want you to hear |
Oh fuck |
Fuck now I'm swirly again |
It's good |
Like, really good feeling |
And i audibly gasped |
(♥️) |
Friday will be so unbelievably good |
This is weird but i feel really calmish now |
2024-09-25T07:04:12 |
Good morning sweet one! |
Good morning to you! How are you? |
So far so good! |
That's good! |
When you asked me to just lie on you... How did that make you feel? |
My instant answer is "better" |
Calmer, at peace happy, cared for, listened to, valid.... after you did, ofc |
Haha I was kinda like one of those heavy blankets? |
Yes |
But a person is way better |
❤️ to “ But a person is way better ” |
Connected - that's another word |
Undissociated? |
I'm glad |
I cant tell if you can tell when I'm disconnecting orpanick-starting or anything like that |
No I don't think I've learned all the cues. I will in time, if that's ok |
Please |
It's so so helpful |
And it's almost always nothing you will habe done |
I hinted at one thing but you couldnt have known and i was fine |
Thank you for telling me these things... It allays my paranoia |
Do you want to know one thing that transpired that could have been better? As in, i probably could have panicked but felt safe enough? |
Yes please |
Me audibly hearing the door lock when i didnt know that was going to happen |
It is not a big deal |
And you are fine |
You did bring that up--i have not forgotten your reaction |
You also dont know anything about that story |
I figured |
My reaction.... can you explain? |
I thought i was showing calm but maybe not |
You were calm, but oddly sarcastic, and you told me it would be nice to let people know when I'm locking the door. |
I knew instantly there's a story there |
Oh. I dont think it was sarcasm. I dont have a word for it though |
Ok |
You're right. It want sarcasm |
Kind of screaming in panic while maintaining decorum and trying to be happy-pleasant and still make a pount but not ruin any mood |
That's more than one word lol |
Lol it's fine--you are full of surprises, and I thank you for trusting me. I believe by now you know I had no ill intentions |
Fml is it really time to work |
Bah |
Ew i kkow right |
I only work for an hour and a half but still. Yesterday was enoughhhhhhh since everyone's invoice was due on 9/24 and no one reads our emails so they were all the same 4 or 5 questions nonstop all day |
Hey btw..... |
1 - i work on the floor for now |
I am envious ! |
What do you mean you work on the floor... My mind wanders |
Omg |
null |
null |
Like.... i sit on the floor now |
Much more comfortable |
😂 |
good on ya lol |
About friday.... |
Yes about that |
Please tell me your realistic thoughts plans ideas etc |
If the idea is that you want me to come over to your place, I can be there right after noon |
That was previsely what i was looking for |
Ok! |
Yay! |
null |
Wtf lol |
I thought I accidentally tapped the microphone |
Hahahahaha |
I cant guarantee how late you can stay, just so you know |
I will take what I can :) |
Lol okay. All I'm saying is probably not more than like 6 or 8 hours. Probably. |
But who knows |
Could be morw |
I'm melting over here just thinking about it |
I gotta go in to a bunch of meetings ttyl |
Okay, good luck |
Im off to an appt then doing what i feel like |
❤️ to “ Im off to an appt then doing what i feel like ” |
2024-09-25T10:59:46 |
I did a thing. Be proud. It always sucks |
Good job! |
:/ |
That's just me trying to smile |
Do you have any idea what it was? |
Hinestly |
I don't, but I'm proud of you! |
Lol okay thanks |
Boob-o-gram? |
Lol close |
How is the day? |
Boring lol |
Balanced for friday?? |
L9l |
Balanced, yes. Balanced |
Beyond belief |
Wanna tell me dirty, lustful things? |
I hope you believe I'm into you because I plan to get into a whole lot more |
And do dirty lustful things to you |
Thrustful things |
I very much hope so |
I do believe you |
Vain as it may sound, the positive reinforcement is amazingly helpful in me wanting to let you in more |
In every sense |
Oh |
Yesssssss |
null |
I'm going to polish it a bit more but it's basically done |
null |
Oh it's lovely!!! |
But seriouslyv- tell me I'm pretty, im fun, that you want me, that you cant wait to break into me again |
Hehe break in |
Oh! I thought of something else i like & want & need |
Yeaaaah? |
I might have a surprise |
You tell me and then I'll tell you mine from above! |
I'm not telling. It's a surprise! |
Well fine! Lol |
Can i still say mine? |
Sure you can! |
Cum warning(s) |
Wwwwwwhat lol |
Oh, you want them |
I want youbto tell me |
Yes please |
No matter where lol |
Yes I remember |
I will be a good boy |
So you think you'll be able to tell me? |
Oh yeah no worries |
You want more spicy questions? |
Done for the day yet? Fix the systems so i can stop phone calls yet? |
Lol I'm on a call that's running way over |
Yours aren't angry customers and agents and idiot BDCs |
Truth |
Mine are excitable data developers in a blackout environment |
Tradesies? |
Lol |
I'll be back... |
Bon chance |
Ohhh i hope you're okay and you come back soon |
Whatever it is still hasn't come out yet. Let me set the scene for you: |
You walk into a room where you are the only one who doesn't know what conversation has been taking place for the last 45 minutes |
In fact, it's probably been gong on for several days, and only you are out of the loop |
There were a couple distractions when I got off the phone, which is convenient for me, but I know they are all waiting to bring me their sad, sad news, and need my help |
It must be pretty dire or they would not have driven all the way down here |
And must be pretty bad or Mom would not have already decided they are staying here tonight , and not volunteer any information whatsoever |
It's all over their faces |
The inaudible conversation is deafening |
I'm prepared for the worst, I think, which would be that they need a place to stay this winter |
But we'll see |
I'm sitting in Kroger parking lot, drawing out the timeline, and I'm sure it's killing them |
I'm going to keep playing stupid |
So I'll be just fine. There will be no flights or anything like that. There may be unpleasant consequences for some, and I don't expect that will be me |
I will catch you up when able |
I wish i could invite you over |
:( |
What else would you like to say? To get off your chest? |
How can i help? |
Babe? |
Okay, well, i hope you'll be alright |
2024-09-25T20:34:16 |
Not to be clingy but are you okay? |
Yes |
Zero issues, but will need to explain later |
https://open.spotify.com/track/40yMUaAV1fEX7NUUQ8owoB?si=SZERUCtSSySTfbIDL79UNg |
I will ttyl lover! |
Okay thanks |
OMG I am so wrong |
Okay um, I'm very confused but i hope you can tell me soon. I can go get coffee after work or something if youd like tomorrow |
Friday still a plan? |
Yes everything is cool |
Everyone |
Everything |
Okay. Im glad. This was a wild amount of confusion |
I apologize.. I really do not like being bringer of drama |
Right |
This is weird here |
And much in my head, which is also weird |
So no drama right lol |
Jusr know that i do actually want you to tell me, dramatic or not |
Ok |
Will I addressed my step sons separately |
I am paranoid, basically. But this is not what they said. I asked them if they were in any trouble ,(what I'm used to) |
They are not |
So I totally fabricated a freaky situation, detailed up there^^^^^^ |
All is peace full here |
Duck me I never actually thought I was paranoid |
Paranoid and prepared have the same amount of letters |
That's my life rule |
Thank you this is a really of moment for me |
Odd |
Moment |
And remember, just because you're paranoid doesnt mean they arent out to get you too |
That's kind of how i always think |
|
I did a bit of bonding, |
And I am a stingy bastard with these guys |
I am pretty confused rn |
OMG I am a rambling fool |
Dont be sorry! I'm glad you're telling me things for once instead of me yammering on and on |
I'm not really so great but hopefully it passes by morning |
I hate how i feel now but all i can do is wait |
Did you go anywhere beaides the parking lot at kroger? |
Nope |
I'm sorry you feel bad |
I just learned a very important lesson |
Please share |
And I'm sorry for drama |
Please don't be! |
It makes me feel like less of an outsider to the common masses |
Seriously I don't usually drama |
I kmow i complain a lot and I'm sorry. Just as a ne perspective on me, being so fucked up for so ling really really sucks |
Sorry, i was all sorts of disconnected and dissociated for like half the day. I think I'm finally coming back |
Oops |
Sorry sorry |
If I dialed you |
Huh? |
Oh wow |
Accident |
Haha |
No prob |
I am in a weird place |
Text is not the right medium |
Tell me all you want |
I can go upstairs |
It's fine |
Seriously, im up.for the night |
I need to quit alcohol for a bit. Starting now. Please feel empowered to remind me |
Okay |
Ty |
Just alcohol? |
No |
Let's go sober |
Can you explain why? |
Yes |
I just had an experience like no other that I would call paranoia |
Because I cooked up a horror story that didn't exist |
Okay |
What else would you like to say? |
Thank you |
I'm this moment I am ashamed |
That is all, except thank you for listening |
I'm serious about reminding me. A softball "hay remember, no stuff today!" Is probably sufficient |
If you are willing |
Okay, i can do that, I'm happy to |
I actually dont drink exceot like once or twice a year |
☺️ |
I'm not worried about that--i mean I am, because you are bit more fragile than most |
I will not be jealous or whatever |
I can abstain |
Can you explain fragile and how that relates here in this comtext? |
I just need to be reminded why I care to |
And you are the absolute best reason why I should |
An yes I can |
You have borrowed organs |
I want you to be well |
And suddenly I want me to be well too, where I didn't give a shit a month ago |
I understand that mentality |
I wish I could hoooooold you rn |
You can in like 36 hours or something |
Oh please let it be so |
Did you get even a little close the other day? No is fine |
The other day, like, hmm |
That one? |
Me? |
Ooh yes |
I did |
That's the one |
Yes it was |
Delightful |
Do you recall what was happening when you were closest? |
Yes I do |
I'd love to hear it |
It was one of the later sesh |
I was on top of you, |
And I was certain this would be the key for me |
I asked you if you wanted me |
Or maybe where |
I wanted so so so much |
Do i want you. Yes. Probably too much of you |
To cum in you |
I wanttttttt you to cum in me. That's an always yes answer. I love it |
I wanted you to tell me |
And you did |
I didnt want to pressure you |
So fucking hot |
It's ok |
You can't pressure me kiddo |
Imma fuck you all day and night off that's what it takes |
I love the feeling if you being in the moment and needing all of me so carnally that you cant stop going faster in such an intense rhythm |
Sweet baby are we on the same page lol |
I want you to takkkkkkke me |
Deal |
Lay your claim |
Deal |
Fuckkkk yes |
Naughty wicked girl |
Dirty older boy |
Lol |
Tell you what |
Help me get off alcohol, or at |
Least back away down, |
Yez |
Will be better for both of us |
Wanna know a (good) secret? |
Yes plz |
I'll explain this the only way i know how: youve been allll theyl way inside me. As in, hit the top |
I did not know I bottomed out |
Luckily |
That is basically what you get from me |
Maybe a stitch more sans beer |
I'm really glad you liked it |
That's a big reason i was weirdly positioned on top. I didnt know what would happen if i rested all the way on you |
Oh you |
You are invited to do whatever you like to there |
Please duck me any way you like it |
Ditto |
I mean that |
Yay! |
I've never enjoyed such mutual invitations to duck. This is really enjoyable |
You |
You |
Nou lol |
Fucking hot mouse |
Mouse flambeau |
Yw |
Ok please help me remember this: |
Remwmber what? |
Last intoxicants 2 hours ago |
I sleep now, and will be groggy AF in the morning |
Thanks for hanging with me on this |
You've hing in with me on plenty and i am happy to return the favor |
You know where i live if you feel the need to bring by coffee lol |
Sweet baby I got you |
Thank you |
Love |
I will tell you something very sad but very true tomorrow |
Okay 👍 |
2024-09-26T06:14:24 |
Good morning to my favorite flavor |
O hai! |
How are you? 🙂 |
Sleepy lol |
For sure. You dont start work for a while though so you could resleep |
There might be a 20 minute power nap in my future |
Efficient, lol |
How would you feel about receiving a Scottish teddy bear? Not your tartan though |
Girl, if that matters |
I would love that! |
For realsies?. |
Yeah! |
Im so glad! |
Yay! |
I am really embarrassed about yesterday |
I got all worked up over nothing like a fucking drama queen |
You dont need to be embarrassed |
The mind wanders where it wants and recognizes patterned behavior. Jumping to any, all, and worst conclusions is natural and works well if you need to be prepared for the worst. It's a pre-defense |
At least I didn't do anything truly stupid |
Such as? |
Cause a scene |
I am still unwell-ish. No idea what to do about that :( |
Do you want to tell me about your situation? |
I can. Maybe you have a solution. We're talking about you right now though |
Well the first step for me is to get un-fucked by alcohol and weed for a while |
This will help matters tremendously |
A play date would be a nice recovery therapy |
Give me something else to focus on |
Another puzzle piece: |
When I finally got off the meeting call, I went to take a shower. I got short of breath in the shower... That does not happen to me ever |
Anyway, I'm at a relative low here, and will be better soon |
I'm glad you want to improve ;) |
Were you short of breath because of anxiety? |
I am wondering the same thing |
You're welcome to one of my inhalers |
What kind of gift bag do you want? |
Thank you! I have a few inhalers (thankfully) |
Lots lol. When i see one i like, i get it |
Excellent coworker today |
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Aww! |
I officially have tomorrow after 12pm off |
I also need to know your preferred shirt sizes, please. I'm aware this is unconventional.to ask |
I usually choose xl fat a loose fit |
So we're getting off at noon huh |
Well, kind of lol |
Getting on? Getting off? Hmm |
Getting off work |
You do have a way with words |
It's the polylingualism |
Bye, i can touch the tip of my nose with my tongue |
Fun fact, right? |
It sure is |
Teach me your polylingual ways any time |
You have your own skills already, sir |
We can swap secrets |
And cum |
Oh fuck, that was lewd |
Sorry! |
Anyway, i hope you devour me in every sense |
Hahaha I intend to |
You lewd girlie you |
It'll be lighter, even if i draw the blinds |
Oh goodie! |
Are you okay with me being about the same as last time, body-groom-etc-wise? |
Oh yes, absolutely. Just please don't tear up your skin ! |
You are considerate |
Haha, thanks |
What if i decide to never remove any hair again? |
Pfft |
Hehe |
That's not an answer! |
That's the answer to the question, "what is the last sound a public hair hears before it hits the floor" |
Damn public hairs |
Lolol |
But also..... IF i had any, they wouldn't make a sound |
They'd stay stuck to the wax where they belong |
But honestly i meant my legs mostly |
Thighs, if that matters |
Your creamy succulent thighs? Those ones? |
Yep |
Lol |
And soft, downy fuzzes? |
This is an ultimate stressor for me in all seriousness. Causes a ton of anxiety |
I give you my assurance you will not yuck me no matter what. I love you smooth, but I do not require it that way |
I thought i was kind of bristly |
I thought you were creamy and delicious |
Creamy is good? |
I need actual words for how i taste, and if i can improve that over the course of 25 - 26 hours, wink-nod |
I know you're probably thinking this is just more lip service from me, but whatever you did (or didn't do) was perfect |
I didnt do a damn thing except be showered lol |
You taste very delicate, quite exciting actually |
I have no idea what that means |
But I'm hlad |
*glad |
You realize you were all over my face right |
I did not realize that |
I actually had a lot of concern id be too dry for anything at all |
Maybe you missed the part where I was licking you off my fingers too |
Same!!!!! |
You actually wanted to lick your fingerss??? |
Yes and I did so quite thoroughly |
This is a whole new world to me |
But hey, you could at least tell i was enjoying it all |
Nothing makes me happier than to know that |
So if someone made you use 10 words for what my face said at the finish line? |
"wtf just happened" |
"I think I just left my body" |
Close? |
Very |
So you could see that |
? |
It was really likw i stopped existing for a second and then there was a puddle and i had no clue what had happened |
Oh yeah you did mention puddle too |
Weird. Like, not something i controlled at all. Didnt even sense it was about to happen |
Thank you for answering my incessant questions. It really helps |
You seemed veritably wracked with pleasure. I'm looking forward to doing that again |
Mmmmm |
I might make you straddle my back and paw at me til it feela better again too lol |
Want to hear something exciting? |
Anytime! |
And yes! |
My house has all my toys and any games |
Might have a new, semi related question |
Is it about toys? |
Lol |
😅 |
I was going to ask the latest you'd want to come over/latest you'd want to stay til |
My intention is to make a swift exit at noon. And I should probably leave by five |
Sounds good |
What are you up to right after work? |
Or shortly thereafter? |
You mean tomorrow, yeah? |
I meant today... |
Oh lol |
I dunno |
Gotcha |
I also have a question |
Yes? |
If by stroke of bad luck hubby walks in, is my life in danger? |
No. And he will be up north |
I will be down South so I guess that works out |
Lolllllllll |
I'll explain that and all of that unbearable stress at some point |
I was thinking of eating out when I'm down South. |
I lovvvvvvvvvvve thst menu. I was going to go to town doing the same thing pretty much |
I like the way you think |
Does anything at a bookstore interest you? |
And am i correct that you do not need to go to reotown this evening? |
Actually, there's a place there you should check out sometime |
I no longer have a connection to reotown, so there's that |
I dont know what your first statement means. Sounds heavy |
It's not at all. The kids moved out of town a month ago |
Out of reotown? |
Yes |
You know you can just go there as a normal member of the public.... |
I do occasionally. But there isn't much I'm interested in |
Not even the record lounge? |
I should go there sometime |
Yes! And allllll the thrift stores lol |
😊 |
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Cute! |
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Same |
In goblin mode today lol |
Doing my best |
Hey cutie! |
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And you really dont care what the house looks like? |
I really don't |
Here too |
I ain't gonna judge |
And the pets wont make you sick? |
Well it's hard to take care of basically 3 people and 4 animals when no one else does a god damn thing |
My only concern about pets is if we end up rolling around in heavy dander, I probably will have a reaction. Easily mitigated with a sheet/blanket, or just sticking to relatively safe surfaces |
Hmm |
It's hard to explain over text and be thorough |
Ahh yeah, just curious |
I am so sleepy |
She has 647739916 problems if she has one, and i really cant explain 14 years of this without vocalizing it |
Are you planning on showering here? I will not be scented, if that matters |
Hmm. I had not thought about that. Probably not necessary |
Up to you |
Don't worry about it |
I can also give you nice biy smelling things |
My wife smokes a pack+ a day. If that tells you anything |
So.does my mother. Always has |
Even when i was nothing but a clump of umbilical stem cells morphing into blastocysts |
So you started early |
Kind of |
Never actually smoked anything |
Good for you! Quitting cigarettes is the best thing I've done for myself in a long time |
Not going back |
Anyway I'd be surprised if she smells much. She soaks out smoke for hours on end |
I'm far enough removed from it now that if I stand in the room where she smokes for literally one minute, my skin and clothes stink |
I watched my brother chain smike an entire pack more than once |
And eat an entire loaf of bread in one fell swoop |
Youve seen part of his pic. Do you think we looked alike? Could you tell his height at all? |
Also watched him pick up half a presmoked cigarette butt off the sidewalk say "oh fuck yeah a pall mall" and light it as he was walking away from class because he thought his teacher was dumb. I mean, they were but still |
I have a related question next |
Oh my |
Tall |
I have a demonstrative pic, i think |
Him with his prom date |
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6'7" |
Oh shit! |
Yep |
I am less than 5'5" |
He weighs less in that pic than you do now |
Have you ever seen skinny Rebecca? |
Idk? You looked kinda skinny in that pic I saw of you at the bar. But that was just a head shot |
Here are some.... and some are just because i liked them |
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I am between 19 and 30 in them |
Traveled some, lol |
Wow thank you! You are such a cutie! |
Is the pic with the butterflies in Argentina? |
The answer is yes, and maybe |
Border of Argentina, Brasil, and Paraguay |
Ive travelled..... a bit. Lol |
2024-09-26T17:53:32 |
Got a question |
Wow I just hard napped for an hour. Whew! |
I'm am dazed |
I am so tired |
Ready for that question? |
I am ready |
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? |
Is that where you sleep? It looks like days of fun! |
With youuuuuuu |
It is where i sleep |
So the mess isnt abhorrent enough to dissuade you as of that picture? |
Hell no! It looks like a proper play room! I love it! |
2024-09-26T23:37:29 |
Lol that's good because all i did was sleep this evening |
Potential good news! Though it may just be neutral |
2024-09-27T06:00:25 |
C'est le matin!!! |
Oui! |
Vous etes excite?? |
Mais oui Bien sur!! |
Alors, voila: |
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Oh la la. Je suis excité |
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Worthy tart |
Love it |
I see what you did there |
Well, i fo like words lol |
*do |
And I'm right |
Truth |
Maid je ne sais pas les regles |
And you ARE a worthy tart... |
...i even quasi cleaned just for you |
Tu es une souris chaude! |
Souris?!? |
Peut etre |
Et je suis le chat |
J'aike beaucoup la filme < |
Et je te mangerais |
Voici une challenge: vous essayez m'emproiviser |
(Sp?) |
Merd |
Quoi?? |
(Et c'est avec une e au fin) |
Je peut rester sauvage si vous le voulez |
Lol I've fucked myself into a French corner I can't get out of |
Le choix, c'est pour vous |
Lol |
I speak english too |
But so we're clear - no google translating here |
Thank goddess |
Oh I know you are legit |
I'm standing against my half wall trying to motivate myself into the shower lol |
You dont happen to know where the upstairs vacuum is, do you? |
If you wanna wait I will join you |
Someday |
The upstairs vacuum is upstairs |
But I'll still be wearing socks in thay shower |
✔️ |
"Czech" |
Lol |
Okay, showering now and have a silly committment at 8ish. Will talk to you then bv i have no willpower against exciting distractions |
Yay! |
I just had the odd experience where a random event reminded me of a snippet of a dream. So weird how memory works. It's not even a profound scene, but the feeling it evokes is powerful |
Shower now for me! |
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Ohhhh hello boobie I love you |
I might have a semi-serious thing |
I see from my need minder that I forgot my meds yesterday |
*med-minder |
The only issue of import is the effexor. The last time I skipped a day it cost me half a day of pretty bad vertigo. I'm praying that doesn't happen |
Maybe more boobies is the answer |
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Sorry, gotta work l9l |
I didnt even put makeup on yet |
Anyway, I'll take my meds if you take yours |
I took mine. I don't dare skip two days |
You look pretty this morning too! |
I do? |
Duh |
I have a very clingy assistant today |
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😀 |
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Yes, i work from my floor |
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You're really going to do some of the really good same things as last time?? |
Your hair's at least way better than mine! |
I onlywashed mine this morning so it would be clean when you grab and pull it |
Oh goodie! You bet I am going to do all the things. All of em. I can hardly wait. I can wait hardly. |
Fuck I'm excited! |
I need you to pick a pattern/print/color |
What clothes do you want me to start in? |
Are stairs an issue? |
Stairs are only an issue if you think you might lose your grip when I'm eating you out |
Ambience.... |
I see purple, or indigo, or crimson, geometric pattern, softness, ... Not sure what else to say here |
Clothes... Anything that provides the "accidental" possibility of a nip slip and or feel-up |
I might show up in character |
...a service call, if you will |
Mmmmmm |
Just an fyi, you can stay as late as you want |
Pleasssssse wait for me to give you an okay today, ok? |
What I can't just show up with a package for you? |
I was going to install it and everything |
I need a lof of seevjces |
And servicing |
Aaaaand i have a tiny set of stairs you actually COULD eat me out on.... we should maybe figure that out |
Do you think you'll overflow me? Do i make a lot of mess? |
Might need your help adding a blanket lol |
I am a good domestic servant |
Lol samesies |
And I'm sometimes obedient |
Maybe you could teach me |
M' emproiblviser |
Lol the brat teaching the brat |
That should work out |
Gotta be firm |
But seriously, i want you in control |
*of me |
I have a couple more logistic-y things please |
Sure np |
You got the message that you can stay as late as you want? |
Do you want lunch or what kind of drinks, snacksand stuff can i have on hand for you? |
What color do you think i look best in? |
Can i wear like 58 layers? Im cold lol. And i like when you take clothes off me |
Will you be upset if i slam a quick adult drink right before you get here? |
How are you doing with the noninebriating? |
I got the message |
Thank youuuuu |
You're welcome |
Am i making you nervous? |
I never intend to |
You're fine babe |
Yes |
But the vibe changed |
So i wondered if something was wrong |
Wait what changed? |
Yes |
I'm literally just trying to be efficient and address your concerns quickly |
Ok cool thanks |
😊 |
❤ |
Hypersensitive to environmental changes |
Imma vibe you Missy |
It's a thing |
Lol maybe |
With my mouth |
😊 |
Watch me |
Cant. My eyes roll back too far |
😈 |
😛 |
But seriously, too much is lost in text. Please never assume the worst and please don't be afraid to ask for clarification |
I have another request |
I've been nothing but 100% honest with you |
😊 |
Ditto |
Fair! All is as well as normal, whatever that means, here |
Comma challenges today |
Cambridge ones lol |
You have another? |
Request, yes |
😂 to “ Cambridge ones lol ” |
I want you to do what feels best for you, and whatever i can do to help that magical release, please let me know |
Deal! |
I will let you know when I know how you can help me get there |
Actually looking forward to it |
Me toooooo |
Did i mention i LOVE the feeling of cum? |
Hmm. You may have hinted at this |
I have a thing to tell you as well |
It's kinda funny to me but I feel like being sexually alone for so long has helped me understand how to be more vocal and guiding. |
More expressive, and all in a good way of course |
Maybe some name calling, as we have discussed |
OMG do you play Wordle? |
I do not |
Why, may i ask, did violence make it into the discussion just now? |
I just wanted to emphasize that as a reminder just in case me rattling on about being vocal created any doubt |
I just did an amazing thing in Wordle |
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Solving in two is very uncommon |
there was this bizarre thing going on in my head |
Great work! |
Are you telling me the vocal thing because you want me to be at ease or because you think i want violence and you're trying to f?discourage it* |
*discourage |
And i forget, "daddy" or never? |
Don't overthink the violence thing. All I'm really trying to say is I think I've grown comfortable with being vocal |
Okay |
I am totally comfortable knowing we can work out these things together. I'm not opposed to getting physical. Maybe even rough. There's a line somewhere between rough and gross that I've honestly never even approached. I'm not worried about it. We'll deal with it |
Okay :) |
I will more than likely want that at a point |
A discussion to have: what is "rough"? That's honestly something i dont know |
I'm using rough as a lesser version of violent. I honestly don't know |
This is a literal chat i want to have :) please |
Sweet christ baby jesus these people are driving me insane |
---people at my place of residence |
Tell em to GTFO lol |
You've got people to do |
I can feel the effexor working at the base of my spine. I think I'm past the danger zone though |
Well i have the worst fucking news |
Besides maggie smoth ofc |
*smith |
I could not imagine being more infuriated and disappointed and sad and upset with so many expletives at the same time |
I am so so so so so sorry |
You are beyond welcome to be here then |
Fuck it I'm taking meds too |
😐 |
Quelle triste |
I'm sorry babe! |
No, iiiiiiiii am sad and sorry |
I hate how thay family always gicks things up fore |
*for me |
*fucks |
I will be happy to pick you up for a coffee date anyway |
Sorry, typing really fast and thriugh a lot of fury |
♥️ |
Know any dark alleys around afternoon time in lansing? |
I only know them at night |
Hehheh |
Not even joking |
At either of those |
I know some quiet turn outs out of town! |
I *might* know perfectish places for you to get glorious road head once dark hits |
After 4 is impossible for you today, correct? |
Yeah that gets pretty tight |
I would literally suck you off as soon as the door closes if i could |
I guess i might have kind of good news |
Ok you let me know how and when to pick you up. We'll sort this out |
What you got? |
Weekend after next (12 & 13 i think) |
Ohh ok! |
Allllll weekend should be alone here |
Fuck. I am so sorry about today |
I even got myself babysmooth |
And might be extra flavored |
Upgraded l9o |
*l9p |
Jesus |
L o l |
Poor baby I am sorry! |
It happens way too often |
I will lament and bitch and moan and complain for days upon days about these people, and be completely justified in it |
But hey, look at this! |
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They're way improved |
Oh my goddess your boo boos! I miss them 😘😘😘😘 |
*KISS |
fml |
I miss you, too |
See what i did there?? |
Did you have time/place for coffee? We can just postpone it all too |
Hey I'm free at noon so whatever works |
No matter what, I do have something I want you to have. |
Oh interesting |
Yeah, totally family and work friendly |
Have you ever been to Blue Owl coffee? |
Actually no but I would like to! |
Would you like to meet there in kind of a little bit? |
Yeah no doubt! |
Sure thing! Where are you headed? |
Anywhere you want , including your address |
I am in the car baby |
It's not really important for me to go to that shop, but I will to kill time as needed |
Ive never been there but have been interested |
I'll pick you up and take |
Fuckkkkkk |
Stop being perfect |
I will meet you somewhere at about 115 |
Ok? |
Deal |
Where do you waht to meet? |
Choices to meet: |
Hey mega mall!I haven't been there in ages |
Does that work? |
Yes 👍 |
But apparently no one here has any time management skills |
I'll be there... eventially |
Ok just let me know where to find you |
I just stepped into the MM |
Where does one step in? |
Literally their only entrance |
Oops I am wrong place I will be there in 5 |
I can go elsewhere! |
2024-09-27T19:15:37 |
You good? |
Yep! |
♥️ |
Thank you for a very enjoyable to if not a lascivious once |
Word: day |
Thank YOU! See? I can be fun outside of sheets too |
Same |
Your pants? Yes, you should have encouraged me more. God i wanted to |
Fwiw the record store was not only awesome in RL, it made a long and rambling, but very coherent story as well |
For an alibi? Or just funsies? |
FunZies mostly, but I also ramble like this in RL,so it's not acting |
Ohhhh got it! |
I feel you |
Yes and that kind |
I just have to get mildly creative |
And sing you back to drown in more of me, lol |
C'est excitè |
Lol |
I happen to not be busy tomorrow evening or sunday at all..... |
Just putting that out there |
You mind if i share random thoughts throughout the evening? |
Please do! |
I think you give off magical pheromones or something |
I stopped eating meat when you told me you were vegetarian. Unsure how much of it has been concious |
The Princess Bride is a fantastic answer for favorite film. So is The Breakfast Club. Or Titanic. Or Babe. Maybe a few others |
I reacted very poorly (for me, at/to me) after our first get together |
I don't understand it a whole lot, but you are 1 of 4 in my list of mutual love yous |
You taste like nothing. Literal nothing. It's strange but very very very welcome |
I want to know more exciting things you've done and more of everything you want to do |
That's some of my ruminants lol |
OMG I want to be with you and talk for hours of these things |
Same here |
And then |
Do you know "Monty Python and the Holy Grail"? |
OFC!!! |
We've also kind of had this discussion |
Ofc lol |
Yes yes |
There isn't really a way to explain this but I'll try |
Deserving, almost? But it's a good hygiene thing too |
Which is.... kind of stunning to me that someone like you and your upkeep are possible, but here we are |
That's a good thing |
In case that was unclear |
Thank you! Glad to know some things are simple lol |
Sorry was of text!!!! |
WALL!!! |
Never too much! |
Or are they uninterested? That would be asexual |
Or Acr |
*ace |
Well that was him to a t. Lovely guy. My also knew his mum via. Msu and they were like minded people. |
Ase (depending on grammatical preference) |
You said muk |
My dad ..oopS |
*mum |
I say mum |
What brings them up? |
I use mum a lot. Also Mom. For literal moms |
Idk why I thought of the old boy. Something you asked |
Oh yeah--the offer. Very kind |
He spoke this way about two people he really liked, at different times. Three, actually lol |
Offer? |
This one |
Oh. I don't really think of that as an offer |
Fair. |
They are both super intellectual and nice people. It was really hilarious |
Are you clear why i dont think of it as an offer? |
Ok ok let my study and reset |
How do you feel about it? |
Ok |
I appreciate you telling me |
I took the notion of "WANT" AND TURNED oops that into you are offering |
Im not disappointed or sad or mad or anything negative at you, if that was a concern |
Okty |
Is that it for your explanatiom? |
Yes actually |
Okay, thanks |
And also correct |
I want to and i also have already and i intend to again |
Offer is kind of a level before all of those, i guess? |
It's better than and beyond an offer |
Stipulated |
But not in a bad way |
Would engaging in that when you were leaving have crossed a line? |
No, it would not. Ty for the above--this is sinking in, if slowly. I do understand. I'm kind of amazed I fit the right needs.. albeit not completely yet |
Aw well fuck. I didnt want to cross a line so i didnt even try. We need a code! |
I am kind of a pussy |
That was ME in this situation |
I'm kind of helpless and incredibly gullible too |
Yeah no, again, that's ME |
I would not have understood |
These days, there's little more than a Down-Down needed to humiliate me |
Or just expose me |
Je ne le comprens |
So you click the shorts, yeah, and click down and down again to drop 'em to the floor! 500 points! |
With opportunity for really big bonuses |
I do like cream filling |
But you used the word "humiliate" |
So shall you have it lol |
I did use a word, I'm not ¿Sure I actually meant, but I'm not sure |
To me it meant to embarrass in a negative way |
Possibly shameful |
I mean if you randomly dropped my shots I would be surprised, maybe embarrassed for a moment, then sucked in as it were |
That's all |
This would have been realllllllly beneficial information loo |
*lol |
Ohhghg |
Loooooookie loo here |
Roman shades |
I do realize I could use a little reprogramming. I've learned to be very self-sufficient over many years. I'm not incapable of change though |
That's beyond excellent |
And i really would have fucked in your car |
Or here |
I am 100% serious there is a very reasonable chance we can do that, or car-adjacent, out of town. places I have visited many times over the years |
We can have a picnic of the other |
With |
For the same purposes? |
You wanna fuck outside, on a binkie,innice grass, in a secluded place? Hell yeah |
I know |
Where |
Times 10 prolly |
Omg yesssssss |
Bugs tho just sayin |
But amazeballs fun |
Thrilling even |
Is there a question that would be too awkward? |
At this point I don't believe that is possible |
Why not? |
I have answered 100x level questions from you that no one has even approached with me, and I've given you my honest, unpolished answer every time. |
I realize that's "my opinion" at some level but it's true |
Yes |
So i can ask? |
Yes ofc! |
Did I ever insert anything in my butt? |
Actually, kind of |
Please present any and all views, explanations, etc |
Why yes, yes I did. A few times. I tried to make it fun, but it wasn't. Might try again later. |
And any other experiences of yours, if youd like |
Why wasn't it fun? |
Only in my own, in case that isn't clear |
Were you never inclined to try on/to/with/in a partner or not allowed/encouraged? |
Exactly once I was inclined to try. Choose not to. I have never had the discussion with anyone (until now obv). Probably would not have worked out well |
With that person you mean? |
That person, in that moment, yes |
Fuucccckkkkkkk |
Hell yeah. Pussy power is underrated |
And I mean it's rated highly |
Not enough |
Can you tell what's happening based on how i taste? Do i change during? |
I did not notice a change in your taste |
It was faint--i said delicate before. I stand by that |
Not nothing. Very delicate. Very nice, I will add |
Thank you |
Ofc |
You taste good to me |
You saying all of these amazingly nice things make me want to give you evvvvvvverything you ever want |
This next one migjt be an unpleasant query |
Pffffff |
I'm imagining you've experienced, erm, not as smooth as i sometimes am. How does that work? Any of it. Your thoughts and opinions? Any and all kinds of sexual activity |
Side note: habing a drink or several now |
Ah, busy reading your new book now i see.... lol |
Lol |
Ive been imagining way too many good things over here |
Can you say more about "not as smooth" please? |
Fml I forgot the gloves. I think they will fit you |
Saskwatch-ish lol |
Those women who might be unfamiliar with waxing, shaving, and other depilatory means |
Fml I also forgot to check the size of my hot goo injector thingy |
Youll live |
And at no time did I think to apologize if my car smells like smoke. I do not smoke in my car anymore, but other people do |
It does nor |
I would tell you |
My goo injector |
Yes? |
It's practically brand new |
Why would you think it's not okay? |
And I'm headed to a place tomorrow you may or may not find interesting. It's new to me but looks kinda fun. If not, i guess i leave |
But still, more questions i have! |
I asked you first :p |
Nope. Upscroll! |
Dammit! |
Ok |
I've never been intimate with a super hairy girl, but I've known some and I found them quite hot |
I have no prob with natch, whatever that means |
C'mon really? |
I think you're serious |
Yes ofc |
I adore smooth baby too, don't get me wrong |
Two things can be true |
Everything you say and do is mindblowing |
Do you know why i am how i am? |
Smoith-wise |
You said wax iianm |
Yes, but why i ended up that route |
I did not, then |
My glue sticks are too small lol |
Long story short, i was the talk of a boyfriend's froend group for having too much hair. I shaved, whatever, still didn't end up doing much with him but that's kind of a different story. Kind of. |
Cut to now |
This is why I hate boys |
It is what it is |
Kind of how an upbringing of nonstop diets and remarks about weight can almost kill your teenager a bunch of times over |
null |
A new sleepover pal you got today |
?? |
Proper Manchester lad. Learn some manners dear girl. |
I'll wait |
Terribly sorry, m'lordship, sir |
*Mouster Smiths |
Lol |
😛 |
I long for your passion |
Ditto |
Hey, ever see Ghost.? |
You are such a brat |
But fuck me I cannot get enough of you |
Ues, good, see above |
Ghost, like Whoopie right? |
Morw like Demi & Patrick, but yes |
Fml. |
Swaaaayzr yeah |
Familiar with imdb? |
I asked you about trailer park boys, right? I think you said sorta tangentially? |
Lol I'm getting close to your level of happyiah |
But anyway |
Yes yes I am ready for you now. Take me |
Always |
Which is in common with ditto |
Hope you like the puzzle lol |
They're both single line movie quotes |
They can mean anything |
Between characters, they mean "i love you" |
Im getting drunk and really wish you were here |
I am so envious of you in your soft plushy castle |
A light ulb b unshatterable glass and a flared base with a complimentady bottle of baby oil? |
Close. It's not this: small tube -like container for these fine stands of copper that served me well in the small wood project |
null |
Do you have it? |
The thing I desire is probably more costly |
Did i ask a price point? |
And holy fuck i want to tell you so much en |
*rn |
No, I'm telling you what to expect |
Im ready |
For all of it |
Yes |
Btw I just put 3.785 liters in a cat. Vat. Car. Bar. You choose |
I have legit no idea |
<< |
Should i call the aspca? |
I do not need any more interaction |
You should not be driving in canada right now |
With them |
The vatican rejects your interaction |
That leaves me with bar |
Unfortunate. Those liters and you should be in me |
You do have a way with words |
Linguist |
Professionally educated |
Yes yes |
Linnnnngual, ammitite |
Lllllllllllingualllllll |
Gotta get the L along the shaft |
Swirl at the top |
Back down again |
And be sure you relax your soft palate so your throat opens better |
Dont be afraid to salivate a little too much |
Maybe we should try that 69 thing you've talked about |
Wanna hear what else we should do? |
Oh, but you were telling me about cat vat car bars |
Oh no noo mooo. Noooo moo moo please go on |
You |
null |
Ama |
Ama? |
Yes, id tap that |
But you were saying something |
I decided something maybe you could do for me right now |
I asked once before too, and you obliged |
Plus im kind of mapping out something perfect with you in my mind |
There are like 7 things or more i came up with that I'm curious about us trying too |
That list keeps growing |
But are you serious you absolutely will not do some things? |
Hmm |
How many fingers have you had in me at ome time? |
Fuck i want you |
Im in the "wanting slow, sensual, passionate lovemaking" memtality at this moment. I see it with you. Every millimeter of youslowly sliding in, heartachingly cautious as you look into my eyes, take a brief pause, and ask if I'm sure and if I'm ready. I almost cry, or maybe i do. I hear my heart thump in my ears until youbstart going again but you havent gotten all the way in yet. I breathe in slowly but markedly as you make sure I'm full, then you kiss my face as i exhale and you get into a very slow rhythm. I feel you in and out, over and over again, and the intensity is overwhelming in the best way as the weight of you and the thrill and newness and realization of this all hits me and i start ramping up with you, getting ready to explode into release ive never felt before. My sounds are gutteral and musical and twinged with longing you didn't know was possible and ecstasy i didnt know could be there |
It's more words than I'll ever say and it's none and it's racing thoughts and quiet ones and everything that's ever existed and i feel calm |
Sorry but fuck I just kicked a cat by accident |
She's ok but fuck |
Should you check on her? |
null |
Literally on my knees |
My Rama witnessed it he was a little unsure wtf |
What happens now? |
And walked past me a few times and flicked her tail on me. I think she is ok but still processing |
Fml *she walked past me and gave good feedback, then walked off |
I will check on her rn |
She seems fine. She has a tough persona as well. Very odd girl. And I am not making fun of light of this. Her female character is nothing I have seen before in cats or people. She is extremely cool. I probably forgot to mention she is Nitya's baby. We are babysitting for prob all winter. I'm am actually thrilled |
She has come to visit me several times now. I think we're ok |
In case you were still wondering, I am pretty sure my shortness of breath scene was most likely seasonal allergies exacerbated by the cleaner in my not so well ventilated room. This is about my worst time of year for pollens |
Sigh |
I've got A fucking hot mouse over here and I can't fuck her wtaf |
That's quite the statement |
I approve this message lol |
So ooooooo |
Yes? |
What was your question! |
I got blown |
No |
Yes |
No |
Anyway |
I'm back |
You were blown when and how, now? |
Blown off course. I'm sure you have ready access to OED |
Yes |
I'm unsure if you read that message of mine or not |
That one. No, and I do apologize, the whole cat thing really tilted my pinball, if you get me. |
Remind you of what was in the message? |
That message of mine, as you call it |
null |
null |
Im in the "wanting slow, sensual, passionate lovemaking" memtality at this moment. I see it with you. Every millimeter of youslowly sliding in, heartachingly cautious as you look into my eyes, take a brief pause, and ask if I'm sure and if I'm ready. I almost cry, or maybe i do. I hear my heart thump in my ears until youbstart going again but you havent gotten all the way in yet. I breathe in slowly but markedly as you make sure I'm full, then you kiss my face as i exhale and you get into a very slow rhythm. I feel you in and out, over and over again, and the intensity is overwhelming in the best way as the weight of you and the thrill and newness and realization of this all hits me and i start ramping up with you, getting ready to explode into release ive never felt before. My sounds are gutteral and musical and twinged with longing you didn't know was possible and ecstasy i didnt know could be there |
In your earth language |
It's more words than I'll ever say and it's none and it's racing thoughts and quiet ones and everything that's ever existed and i feel calm |
Ooooooh she's ready lol |
Ok reviewing now |
O |
My sweet baby |
You are in my head I don't know how you do it |
I want you this way |
All day |
Always |
This is how I love |
I want you this way more than i have wanted so much of anything |
It is the best, IMO |
Then you know it only exists in my imagination so far |
I am like drooling stupid |
So awestruck |
What makes you awestruck? |
You just wrote my sexual fantasy |
The one I want every day |
I know I have proof to deliver, and you cannot know how all this is so |
I am absolutely serious |
There is a difference between getting off, and getting lost |
At some point, you hover above me and look at me again while you can't help but stop and cradle the back of my head with your hand, starting at the top of my neck, you reach me up to your lips for the best and most quiversome kiss youve had in your life and i struggle to make my lips meet yours because of the lack of control i feel ocer myself since id alreacy given it all up to you |
After we reconnect and you gently place my head back on the pillow you finally see it |
You should write stories. Write my story |
You'll feel it too |
I have , in a way. Perhaps |
What is it you felt? |
Did you forget? I will tell you again nbd |
I did not forget |
But i like hearing it |
Reminds me you're real |
I will say it another way then |
When you were, I guess for the first time riding a guy? |
Mostly, yes |
And you said eventually you thought you felt me relax |
Yes that's right |
You did relax in a very specific way, closest to your cervix actually. Did you realize that? |
I did not realize that |
It was amazing. Never been there before |
Yeah it was super clear to me |
It wasn't voluntary |
And you lubricated as well |
Fucking amazing |
What I'm saying is that YOU made that happen |
Amazing fucking, even. 10/10 will do again |
I dont know a better way to say this: did i do what i was supposed to? |
I kind of thought i was supposed to bounce up and down or something but i dont habe that kind of muscle strength |
null |
Let me address girl on top |
One moment |
When I was a kid, my parents (not squishy people, but smart and supportive) had this seminal hippie lifestyle catalog |
I really liked those pages |
One material exercerpt they they featured was a passage about the woman on top |
It was fascinating to a6th grader let me tell you |
I did not even know the thing in real life until I was prolly 17 |
It's fun for the guy, but the girl gets to drive right |
Get what you want |
And whenever you want, it's totally fine and encouraged to call the next shot... How do you wanna go next? |
And fall asleep right on me |
Get. It. All. |
Oh i honestly could have fallen asleep on you |
And i know i told you i had only actually ever sleep slept with one person |
I have something else i wasnt really sure about til today |
And then what will seem like a random statement but i don't think it's common knowledge |
null |
I am kinda sad about the sleeping. It's a really good bonding thing as long as both are happy |
And I was ready |
Really |
Profoundly happy to envelope you and hold you |
I hope you dont take this poorly: i didn't know you were telling the truth |
This is weird and has taken me until right now to figure out and I'm piecing it together |
You are the only time, ever, that anything or any part or anyone has not had me hurt after having been in me |
I really fucking hurt right now and i think it's for a few reasons but famn if wednesday didnt suck and I'm still feeling it |
Did you know that SA is sometimes the worst physical pain imaginable and sometimes feels like nothing? |
Sorry |
I know everyone's name too. First and last. |
Whew |
Sorry |
It's okay 🙂 |
There is a lot here |
And I want to know it all |
Not all at once |
Are you aware that it doesnt ever seem like a lot to me? I dont think that really registers |
Why are you hurting now? |
Now |
But it also feels like that's all i am is a combination of a binch of abuses |
There are a lot of things that have happened to me that i will also never know but it doesnt mean my body doesn't remember them, if that makes sense |
Sorry I've been out recording a drug transaction a couple doors up the street |
Should you be doing that? Is it safe? |
So far yeah it's been safe. I told some idiot a year ago idgaf why you're here but ffs turn that shit off and don't draw attention to yourself |
Anyhow they're dog killers over there |
Duck em |
Horrible people |
Tell me about your gyn please |
What is wrong? |
What do you mean? |
Why are you hurting RN? |
I just want to understand |
You're familiar with what a speculum is? |
They always try what they think will work best and end up using literally the smallest there is |
And so all of that hurts for a bit. They also usually have to numb me to get the equipment to be usable, which hurts to get and then the numbness wears off and i feel any remaining pain |
And my body recognizes that similar pain and i freak out a little in my body without actually panicking in my brain but there are some parts of me that i know have been traumatized and in pain before from SA and my whole body feela awful because it's like a lifetime of tension picks back up in just a day or 2 back to 30 years of it |
Goddamn |
What part? |
Also, it is, to me, the most humiliating thing in the world to have people and even strangers know really ultra intimate details of what must have happened based on literal physical presentation and evidence especially when you yourself dont know or remember or you didnt want them to know but they ask anyway |
That ceeling is the epitome of wanting to shrink down into yourself and die |
First, hugs for you ((♥️)) |
There is nothing in my life experience that helps me understand this--the why part |
I wish I could erase all the shit. I cannot, but I truly wish I could |
And I understand it hurts on multiple levels |
I don't understand how you trust anyone...? |
Fml I hate to complain about me but I just got accused of the lamest middle school shit by my wife. Already written off |
Swas=service with a smile. Quick Fab for her and I am out of this room |
Please let me know if you're ok when you are able. ♥️ |
2024-09-28T03:48:59 |
You are the only time, ever, that anything or any part or anyone has not had me hurt after having been in me |
2024-09-28T08:17:25 |
Hi :) |
Good morning |
I fell asleep |
The trust aspect is a little bit hard to explain. The short answer is that i don't but i also keep an absird amount of control tucked away in my head. It's really, really dark though so you'll need to tell me if you want the words |
That last but, the one you wanted me to say more about... boys and men and a couple women and medical professionals have had digits, dicks, equipment, whatever else inside me, in therrrrrrre. I always physically hurt or at least feel really uncomfortable during or right after or the next day or for a few days later. That did not happen with you. At all. |
2024-09-28T09:42:30 |
What was the 7th grade nonsense? |
Might need you to co.w snap my neck. It frigging hurts |
*come snap |
Good morning! |
I also want to allow for getting my fee-fees hurt while I'm drunk might be a me problem. But I'm pretty sure there was some foolishness there |
I need more deuga for this today lol |
*drugs |
Are you hurting still |
2024-09-28T13:03:39 |
Very much, but my whole body hurts sooooo much |
Ive been with my mother all day |
null |
She has taken over you! |
2024-09-28T15:09:43 |
Omg dude I'm still out with her |
Poor baby! |
It's been nonstop walk & shop.... |
2024-09-28T16:45:12 |
Finally seated :) |
How's your day? |
Oh my you poor thing |
Love keyboard shopping! |
I am finally home. She left. I am somehow supposed to feed and water myself for the first time after what was basically 9 hours of thrift shopping. Cool stuff, yes, but holy fuck i hurt. Not so much as a tylenol |
And if i happen to be ultra broken down right now, what would your plan be for me for the evening? |
null |
null |
What it is? |
Powerpuff girl pillow (bubbles), turned backward |
Why is she in time out? |
Lol I started doing that because the car hair made it look like she had a beard |
Hey I'm omw to Kroger you need anything? |
You lol |
And a bucket of morphine |
I can start my own line |
Why you headed to kroger? |
Beer and chips, chips, and more chips. One of these items is for me |
Chips as in crisps or fries? |
I can shop with if you really want. Be forewarned i look less than good |
Crisps, and corn chips. I done the Brits have a. Concept of corn chips |
Very sad but i hope you enjoy the trip |
I think they just call them fritos |
Literally translates to "fried" |
More of the stout? |
Do you happen to want a soft sided guinness cooler? |
Hmm! Maybe! |
Happened to procure one today at a weird but cool place |
I have guinness glasses, shit glasses, and s&p shakers. And tin art |
* shot glasses |
I would lovelovelove to chat later. Please. |
Haha stay tuned! |
null |
null |
Like a puffy tote almost |
I got my ballot in the mail! I've never been so excited to vote lol |
That's a cool chill bag! |
It can be yours.... I'm never offended if you decline. It's new, if that matters |
null |
Oh, and Bubbles |
Can you squosh your faces and kiss? Lol |
null |
It's adorable! |
So then? |
😂 |
You have like 10 things to which to respond! |
Gosh |
I actually got out of bed around half ten. |
Oh |
And exchange morning salutations with my mistress |
Very fine girl. Very fond of her |
Weird. She probably loves you or whatever |
Possibly half sleep 30 minutes just before noon. Coffee. Couch and cat again. Rama decides he wants a piece, Xana exits. Rama is unapologetic about booting other cats off me. He usually just nudges them out |
Sorry long station break |
Can you tell me what that means please? |
Call mother to wish her happy bday |
Yes, good! |
Back in old school TV and maybe radio too, broadcast often paused in late hours. I think it was referred to as a station break |
I actually had to ditch the phone for a minute that turned into 15 |
Unplanned |
Yes yes yes |
I think it's supposed to be announced. FCC is pretty strict. So I kinda would get dinged there |
It may not have been clear the drug deal next door bad and I got |
Jk |
Nothing happened |
How are you? I didn't say |
Oh, mother was away from phone so I left a message. Return to word puzzles. Still with cat. |
Mother returns call. We talk for 50 minutes |
Ah, gotcha |
She is well, doing water color classes again |
Teaching them? |
Taking them |
Learned new techniques |
You saw her site yeah? |
Yes, I did |
I love me mum she is an amazing woman |
I like yer mum on the interwebs from afar |
Quicm interruption permission?? |
Que? |
Quick, vite, pronto |
Ofc! |
Da, spasiba |
🇷🇺 |
Nice knowing you |
Jk |
So what should i do to feel better this evening? |
Your mum interrupted that thought earlier, lop |
*lol |
Oh me grande mum. Turns out her birthday WAS yesterday, so this is twice I've fucked this up. Have taken steps to prevent errors in the future |
You wish to feel better |
Yesssszssss |
Is there a kind of better that exists that you are aware of! |
? |
What is your pain level rn? |
null |
You were born on a Tuesday? |
null |
I was born on a Tuesday! How did you know! |
Pain levels are really hard for me to asses ans convey. I have symptoms if thay helps? |
The calendar is as you have noticed, for the month of my appearance! |
Of course not I should expect |
I don't know |
Zero clues |
Lol |
It was in my house when I bought it |
It is in my office now |
Fantastic! |
On that whiteboard behind me |
My mom noticed it lol |
That's amazing |
Drake was a lovely boy ty |
These are common when I'm in pain, not sure about other people |
I hum constantly, without noticing |
Mother is with you? |
No. She left at 5 or 6 |
Wanna know something funny? |
That spouse of mine who ruins my plans and crushes so much more? I havent seen him since last night |
Is he expected back home? |
He has been home this entire time |
After maybe 7pm yesterday |
I think i am sad too |
But anyway, i have lots of meds and havent taken them. I have alcohol, i have some gummies a coworker made |
Nice coworker! |
Coworker knows enough about me lol |
You should take the meds you should, ok? Any compulsory items, ok? |
Yes, and will,and mostly have been |
Does a warm bubbly bath sound good? |
I'm wondering what extra meds. I want them all and i want none |
Whyyyyy? |
Because the tub is not in my bathroom and i wont go near his bathroom without a basic hazmat suit, then i would have to clean it and then it would be hoursssss later |
Well poop. |
I also cant tell if heat will help or not |
Xanax |
Mostly back pain, sometimes into my riba or my chest, and my joints. But i hurt everywhere all the time |
If any of that helps |
Honestly i want to chew a few mummies and lay back and have you hold me and fall asleep to very soft kisses in perfect warm arms |
You deserve this option |
Put your teddies around you they love you too ♥️ |
You think i have teddies? |
Stuffies I mean! |
Teddys |
Lol |
I know, i just dont have actual bears :) |
So I'm still cleaning. If i take the drugs i think I'll need to stop |
I kinda have a new thing. Youre basically a doctor, right? |
Why cant i swallow right right now?? |
Im sitting now. Mildly better |
I am a doctor inasmuch as Smaug is a dragon. |
Dream it, try it, do it? |
You have trouble swallowing? |
Right now i am. Only sometimea and randomly. It's gross but not really a huge problem, only irritating |
Is it just the conscious act of swallowing because you're thinking about it? Or if you casually take a drink you can't swallow it? |
Fun fact: I can't blow my nose properly since effexor about half the time |
I can mostly swallow, i can't really keep swallowing. So it's like my stomach or my esophagus are unaccepting of whatever i try and intake and i just get a swirling regurgitation of food and foam. Not stomach acid or anything, just whatever my innards feel like they dont have space for i guess so eventually i get frustrated of trying and i keep spitting out the foam and whatever. I feel like maybe its a remnant from earlier in life but it's also different |
Normally, we do something to force air through the nose |
For whatever reason, I can't exactly control that thing any more |
Only in a forced exhale |
Huh. Interesting. Can you sneeze? |
Yeah. Been sneezing today lol |
I order words good |
Your mouth does lots of things well! |
And you did tell me, yes |
Are you upset with me? |
No not at all |
Okay |
Pretty buzzed. |
That said, I still do not understand what is eating you |
?? |
Mange mange mange |
What do you mean? Il n'y a rien que me menage |
Lol |
What disquiets you? Why unhappy/uncomfortable? |
This moment or in general or...? |
Rn |
I'll try and explain. The ideas are always there but mo4e pronounced when they're freshly stung. It's like theyre a news ticker but none of the stories are ever new |
One is the physical pain i have |
Another is how much i want to do something but am constrained. Like, i wanted you yesterday and today and more. I really want to get buzzed and get high and talk for hours and be physical. It isn't anywhere within my control (continuing) |
I don't understand why those constraining me intentionally cage me and then leave me to myself. And i dont understand why i dont have like or love or anything given to me, esp when I'm forced to not be around anyone else but also not experiencing any closeness with anyone else. And i cant clean or cook or chill or do anything |
That sounds silly. But it's true |
It doesn't sound silly. I understand |
I haaaaaaaaaaate the mess here but have to be quiet to clean it and I'm only one person |
It kind of slapped me in the face tonight: why don't they care? I just dont get it. It is an awful feeling |
I dont feel like a person anymore |
This is a new realization, you're the first to hear it |
I applaud you. Not even joking |
Clarity is a gift |
Do you know what i feel like i am though? |
Maybe. I will not say though. tell me |
I am typing. Please tell me your thoughts |
Uplifting or no? |
Either |
As if lol |
Both |
Good choice |
Failure |
I feel like a collection of traumas and an exhibit of what can happen as a result. I feel like I'm absorbent for ick so that it doesn't get all over everyone else. I feel like there is no purpose other than to see how far the universe can push |
I feel like there's no way all of this could be true |
Let's start at the end of that |
Many things can be true at once yada yada |
You are correct. You did not earn this. |
But it keeps happening ir happened or whatever even though i did was i was supposed to and succeeded and functioned and gave happy outer appearances anr all that |
You have been treated like a disposable person. it runs in your family |
I could be so, so much more abnormal |
How do you know that |
Ofc it could be worse |
You did not always feel empowered |
And still not |
I never pushed back |
But you are intelligent |
You are able to stand your ground |
Well that's not true. I tried to push back a lot and it never works |
You and i do not see eye to eye right now |
Ok I might be going off script a bit I apologize |
No you're okat |
I just.... i dont fight back |
The day we met |
? |
You barraged me with facts. They were all impressive--every single one. But why? |
My answer is a few reasons. To impress you. To prove to myself I'm more than nothing. Because there's always too much going on in my head so i had to let some of it out |
You are exceptionally intelligent and articulate. Did you know that? |
And it does impress me, so ty for showing off! These goodies are too good to keep to yourself |
I know that but i also don't. It's very rarely that anyone appreciates or recognizes that everything (to me) is connected |
I have something that i dont know if you have any awareness of |
You has a something? |
It'll probably lead to more history. Still want to know |
Yes ofc |
Obv my mother walked in on my brother on me. I told you. We can go more into memories of that later (not graphic unless you want them, just thoughts and wtf realizations) |
She just doesnt know any ever happened |
I see. Thank you, I am going to contemplate this |
There's more that may add |
Will add |
Did you know that actually you can be smart, and pretty, and be respected? |
No |
Do you know this now? |
Not quite |
I am trying |
Do you wabt me to say more about what you're contemplating? |
Not yet |
Huh. Okay |
Not yet |
?? |
Something something How we learn |
Any hoo |
Are you ok? |
Not really |
I'm not being an ass |
I hope |
I cannot see you |
Not at all! Why would you think you would be? |
It's hard to know if my questions are ok |
Oh. Yes. Anything at all you ask is okay |
I am going somewhere fwiw |
Lol |
Ok |
There are lots i want you to ask, btw |
Did you know that actually you can be smart, and pretty, and be respected? |
So about that |
And yet, you are in fact and all these things |
At the same time |
Right now |
By 1 person |
Better than zero as amiright |
The information is still settling in. Being very sincere |
*shoe |
As a forewarning, i am feeling very open rn and may just blurt things out |
You know 2 of the 8 now, right? The ones i count |
Actually no. You mentioned the numbers, but I have forgotten the things they are attached to. You have a few such cyphers. |
Oh wait |
I love yous? |
No, you're only the 4th mutual i love you |
Oops |
8 is the "bad" SAs i count |
Offenders |
Not times |
So, you know 2 stories, right? |
Theyre also kind of the same story for a bit |
I am trying to ascertain if I've told you more than that in any detail |
Ok ok I think I am up to speed |
I think 2 is the number so far |
But idk always what qualifies. |
As a strong among the eight |
*story |
Right now i was just trying to figure out what actual facts and things you know about any i "count" |
"Counted " in the 8: legal, moral, psychological definition of R. Penetrative. Absolutely non consensual. |
I am with you |
I didnt know if you needed that clarity |
Did you have more questions right now? |
About anything |
Yes |
Is there something in particular you want me to know rn? |
You often lead me |
But I do not always follow well |
A few things. Some, you've said you dont want to know yet |
That was then |
This is now and |
I dont know what to tell you because i want you to know it all |
It just nevvvvvvvver stops though |
Ashually |
Can you tell me things you know or suspect I've done as a result of all my self loathing and whatever? |
You are 14007 days old |
Okay, thank you |
For remembering my birthday and all too |
Why you mention? |
I will allow 5 stories for each day so you have 70035 stories in your bank. |
Excelllent deal |
70035 is not infinite, is it |
T/f |
Mmmmmm idk |
/ |
Lol the answer is no, it is not infinite |
Oh, okay |
It is, in fact, finite |
I suppose |
Great! |
Guess what? |
What? |
Imma give you the next 70035 times you wanna that I should know something. |
I appreciate your business Miss |
Happy to patronize local merchants |
Excellent personal touches |
Well please feel free to reach out and grab me if you need any more feedback |
Thank you so so so much |
Oh i intend to |
Btw, how busy are you tomorrow? |
Duuuuude I am never busy |
But tomorrow I think I shall go see a despot about a shelf |
Whereabouts does the shelf reside? |
Fml I might have to go to fucking fuxkoffville near my nothing to get the size I want! |
Shelf to reside in basement |
Adjacent to hobby bench |
Ooooooh i have a fun secret fact about fuckoffville!!! |
I might be really interested |
Yours truly was almost the Fowlertucky fair queen one year |
null |
Lololol |
It's 100% true |
I luv me some corn fed girls. NGL |
Omg NO |
Whyyyyyy |
I was 17 and weighed mayyyybe 100 pounds sopping wet |
I won a $500 shopping spree af Tanger. Better than a stick in the eye! |
Yay! |
That's bc you are such a cutie! |
Omg |
I had all my yeeth lol |
Lolummmm |
Did you actually know how many days you have graced this planet? |
Nope! |
Haha |
What have you broken before? Bones and stuff |
Sheak |
?? |
Sneak fml |
Nvm I am stupid |
Bones: |
Left 2nd metatarsal, 2017 iirc |
R knee debridement. Worst medical calamity for me ever. Got over it |
Who stomped your tarsal?? |
Oh, 2022 |
Tarsal injury was self -sustained. Got a treadmill. Have poor posture and pronation in feet, plus inappropriate footwear |
I have kind of a funny, neutral, serious sex thing to share that i should have pre-told you but didn't |
I'm actually decent breeding stock. Chose not to |
Oh sorry. Lol. |
Remember me telling you how obscenely clean you were? |
You HAVE to MAKE ME p3e after. I usually wont drink enough so you kind of have to encourage that but i woulf love to not use this port for anoth3r stupid sepsisy uti. |
Yeah point taken. I even thought to tell you to buy water |
There's a boat load of perfume on these things from your house. Just saying |
Confused |
Are you telling me i wear too much perfume? |
Nope |
Scrunchee is pregnant |
With a glade baby |
Omg |
Lol |
You loofah your new self yet? |
Not yet |
Not with princess glade anyway |
Can i see shelf idea? |
Sure what part? |
Product/solution or problem |
Yes! |
:p |
It's really gross but give me a minutes |
You saw my wild rainforest gilth desert house. I can handle some shelf mess |
Also, side project |
I dont love that nickname l9o |
*lol |
null |
Nice! |
null |
Water bath stays. All else negotiable |
Lover dear, you have been to my house.... |
But i make an excellent maid ;) |
Shelf to the left, thinking 36" wide x 60 or 72 tall |
I need room to work here lol |
Yeah... how else are you going to throw me down? |
null |
What size does it need? |
Or what's the model number and stuff? |
Eyes are too sucky |
A good way to organize hardware |
Tools and materials, fasteners, etc |
I got my goo on no worries |
You wanted something expensive ish. What was it? |
Lol an election microscope? |
Hru |
Ewwwwwwwwww |
Please please baby |
Fml lol |
Ok |
U r sooo hawt |
Problem statement no. 2 |
❤️ to “ U r sooo hawt ” |
null |
Camera equipment stays |
Albums stay |
Tools stay, but get better |
I got you |
Other box crap up top goes to basement shelves |
Do you need gloves lol |
It's taller |
I need someone to give me gloves yes |
null |
Oh well I am clearly the one 4u |
Fuckkkk |
Unnnga |
Why fouler ville? |
I made that up |
Maybe I went to homie despot |
But they was out |
In the okemos( |
So I went on down the road |
And that fucker was out |
Brighton |
And do you know actual truth? |
For real |
You passed a lot of empty roads with small blanketable opw meadows?? |
By the time I drove all over the place,I could a fucked my sweet baby right over here. Probably twice |
What a shame that day |
All them homies up in here but I should a stayed right here, |
Picked up my sweet sweet baby and just went on you know? |
Yesssssss |
I still havent seen him btw |
He has elected to sleep |
Poor baby |
Do we know for sure there is a homie despot in fowltuckey? |
Howell |
No wait that's lowes |
Heh |
I could just add easily say Jackson |
West side? |
Jack that fuck |
Idk |
Menards, despereaux, etc |
Jack em both |
L'Oubliette for all I care |
I do wanna shelf |
Just my size |
That's the west side lol |
BRB! |
Have fun! 😄 |
Behold, the power of electrostatics! |
It's not great conditions to demonstrate, but watch the foil leaves at the and of the copper rod |
Final inspection |
Ok bye for a little bit |
Love it! Amazing! |
Lol prepping food, quickie visit 🤪 |
Alley will be revealed |
Haiiiieeee |
I look for things that I know and love. I also look sometimes with no fear at something adjacent |
I am usually rewarded |
I am funny about something I guess |
Like looking at weird stranger girls who yap on and on about carafe coffee at work? Gotcha |
THE H AS T IS ALL |
I LIKE |
Me too |
Sometimes |
Me too too |
Only with boys though |
They're so pretty with their button up shirts |
What did you comsume in the last 20 minutes?! |
Nothing actually. Been cooking |
I still havent really been fed, medded, or watered over here.... |
Fml |
Who do I have to blow to fix this |
Me, |
Maybe? |
null |
Combien de quoi? |
Ummmm |
Did you know there are only 5 platonic solids possible in this uni? |
Never went past algebra, so i did nit! |
How many sides of you do you reckon |
Physical, emotional, mental, academic.... what makes a side? |
Id like to show you infinite dodecahedrons worth |
No - tell you alllll of them. I do not want you to see them all |
Haha I knew it |
I look forward to hearing them all |
Ummmmm not really but you'll know my crazy better |
Really? |
Yep |
Do I not get access to your gooey inside |
For sure. In fact, you make it gooey. And yes, in literal and figurative ways lol |
Ps |
I am patient |
I know |
What side are you hinting at seeing now? |
What do you think im not really show8ng you, or do you think you havent seen? |
You said this |
I do not want you to see them all |
End quote |
Yes. Telling you about them is one thing. Showing you, me being in throes of some of the slides, is not something anyone should see |
Ok that is very fair |
Yes |
I just want to know you. All |
Here are 2 things that have been on my mind for a few hours.... |
Do you own a tiara? |
More than one |
One that's fir grown ups lol |
Anyway, i asked if you knew how psychotic I've been to myself, like what i do when it's just me and i need to. Or in past tense. I havent seen a response |
I also gave a generic feeling all the time and i cant tell if you know what it is |
*have generic feeling |
How |
I did kind of tell you once. In tect. Vaguely. |
Dude |
Are eating tide pods |
Me asking you gives me a feel for how much to tell you and over how long of a time |
Nope |
I smelled it |
Gain all the way |
Ewwwwww |
Lol |
Ok ok |
I am sorry |
It's okay 🙂 |
Would an example help? |
Always riddleses with this one |
Okay golly |
Teeses |
😊 |
So for an example, you know that there have been chunks of my life where i just stopped eating or drinking. At all. Got me an official anorexia diagnosis once upon a time (it's kind of like a psycho contest with yourself to "earn" that title). I still have a hard time on occasion |
Make sense? |
Yes it does |
Should i continue ( |
Please do |
So then knowing I've self induced vomiting shouldn't be a surprise |
When i had an ng tube once for a long time i just hated the feeling of anything in my stomach so I'd swallow and contort myself to throw up the TPN and Boost they put through the tube so they eventually moved the anchor to my small intestine so i couldn't do anything at all |
Are you OK? |
I'm sorry that sounds awful |
Ty |
Those weren't the worst either |
I have not |
It's intentionally omitting insulin. Blood sugar stays high all the time, body builds ketones, ultra rapid weight loss because your body goes into diabetic ketoacidosis pretty quickly and so for energy in that state your body feeds on itself, breakdown muscle and tissue anr anything it can just to stay barely alive |
How did that work out |
You know this already |
Ofc |
So you did this thing |
If I need to lick you.... |
Yes |
To make you understand you are fucking awesome , |
I will |
That's not the end of these, jsyk |
I know |
Mmhmmm |
What else are you expecting? |
I do know |
I have no actual idea based on fact |
I have a niece, and a coworker, who were cutters |
I had a friend in high school who killed himself in college |
I had a friend in college who also killed himself because his dad was fucking chief of police in meridian twp |
And had a weapon |
Bring me your worst |
I dont have any surmising from you yet. Not stated explicitly |
And i am not yet ready to tell you my worst |
I still have shirts in my closet that my ex gf mom recovered from a house where the dude hung himself. I have his shirts |
I'm so sorry you witnessed all of that hurt |
I stopped eating meat after watching faces of death and hooking up with a cool veg |
I was friends with a cool frood who's dad was a pilot in the IDF and killed people for a living |
Are you really okay right now? |
Yeah kinda |
Talk to me about it |
Are you in tears? |
I feel like you might be |
I want desperately to understand and hear you, but I think you want to shock me |
I dont want to shock you, total opposite. I want you to be prepared |
Prepared for what? |
Whatever you want |
I do not want that lol silly person |
You mentioned 2 specific mental health challenges |
I do not doubt it |
Of whom? |
Friends of yours you'd known. The cutting and the suicidality |
I am ok btw |
Right, yes |
Why bring those up specifically? |
Only to tell you, I've faced some ugly truths. I am not afraid to face more |
I already know people are shitty |
It's not because you suspect those are part of this story? All the stories? |
I am not sure what you mean, I'm sorry |
Super directly, do you think i am or was or have been a cutter? Suicidal? What would make you guess so? |
I would guess 50% each |
Partially my ignorance of your Gen |
Also just fyi my phone is being dumb, in case i stop responding |
And partially the degree of your trauma |
Ok ty |
Borh are correct. And became more self injury than strictly cutting |
My ignorance does not understand the difference |
There are a lot of ways people do it. Some are almost ritualistic and set up sad music to make specific lines or whatever. Aome carve actual designs in. These are usuallg xacto or box cutter blade users |
Some like tge pain, some like the reminders of the pain after the fact (like if sweat hits a cut it's a sting |
Hopefully that helps a little |
I will go into whatever details you want about any of it |
Yes |
Please |
I hope you are sleeping |
I figured something out |
I've known too many people that killed themselves. |
2024-09-29T08:34:12 |
I wish i knew what to say |
Guess what i just found out?? There really IS a funtgelllin F off ville today, lol |
If i go anywhere, would you like to be my date? Kol. |
Function, btw |
PSA: dont text and sleep sumi I m |
2024-09-29T11:11:20 |
GM! |
Ahoy! |
Yarr! Aieee! Urrrrr! |
Mr Bell wanted Ahoy to be the standard, common phone greeting. People liked Hello better ao we all went with that |
Haha I forgot about that |
I actually answer with "ahoyhoy" in a victorian era uptick |
How are you today? |
Honest answers only please |
Lol I am alright. Slowly but surely clearing the haze |
What else? |
What else? |
You sure? Open forum for anything on your mind |
Make any shelfish choices yet? Loo |
*lol |
Lol selfish choices in the loo |
No not really. I mean there are so many conversations we can have. my brain is not completely engaged yet tho |
What are you drinking? |
Now? Nothing. One coffee down though |
No non beaned water? |
Bean free. Bean free. No alas none is within reach |
I keep trying to tell myself i need to try and boost my dihydrogen monoxide intake to above 0 |
It's just so unfun |
That stuff kills babies |
Terrorists drink that shit |
I think theyve actually proven that everyone ever who has died has in all throughout their body |
Fucking molecules dude. |
They're everywhere |
I seen em in the sky too. Little white trails of doom |
For sure! I feel like even you and i are comprised of ancient stardust combustions |
It do be that way |
It is so |
I feel seirdly related to bananas too. Maybe that's why you have the aversion? They taste too much like peoples? |
Lol I wouldn't know |
LIESSSSSSS |
🤪 |
I do like banana bread |
Speaking of |
It's about time for my neighbor to bring zucchini bread |
I make decent banana bread..... |
Mmmmm |
Ooh! New question!!! |
You found one? Woohoo! |
I have more. Always. |
Food while being indecent. Experience? Thoughts? Questions? |
Chocolate syrup works really well |
Except for you I suppose |
Oh |
Whipped cream ftw |
Really fun that |
She's like brb gonna insta-cart a case of whipped cream... |
Was i not supposed to?? |
Well this is awkward lol |
So is that a yes, you've tried? |
Yeah, only a couple times tho |
I'm not sure how an entire sesh would work or whatever but absolutely sign me up |
Right on! |
It's kinda like paint by number, sort of |
I obv need some activity description |
Lick by number |
Just.... everywhere? |
I mean I'm not gonna stop you |
Or some targeted areas |
Will you also be an artist by number? |
Je suis l'artiste de numero |
I can do one thing well |
Remind me? |
Of course |
I can thoroughly remove the whipped cream from your body using nothing but my mouth |
Oh fuckkkkm me |
My tiny fucked up brain says that maybe eventually we could try that but we use some restraints |
ooOoo |
That is an interesting proposition |
Sorry totally off topic-- first thing that comes to mind when I say |
Spider |
Web |
K |
Charlotte |
Arachnid |
Whycome( |
? |
There have been a lot of macro shots of bugs and spiders on the photog subreddits I follow. Spiders are particularly wild |
Anyhoo |
I think most are beautiful and do impressive work |
I had a pet tarantula once |
Whoa really? |
And wanted to be a forensic entomologist for a good few years |
Nice! |
Not sure if it's still true but for a good chunk of yeaes i was the only documented brown recluse bite in the state |
Wtf! |
You some kinda femme fatale? |
Tbd lol |
No wonder you're so gooey |
Nope. That's a YOU factor |
Fecking recluse predigested ya |
That's actually true |
It's where ive had official plastic surgery on my body other than teeth |
Remnants... |
null |
Still a chunk missing |
Quarter sized patch above the mole? |
Yes |
Dang |
It's a divet now |
Was almost the whole calf thay was affected |
And fasssssst |
Yipe! |
It's also how i quicjly found out i am allergic to gentamycin |
....which can only be administered IV |
Fun night |
That spider meant to eat you |
No antibiotic necessary |
Pairs nicely with whipped cream though |
You're vicious, lol |
It's a sweet way to go |
I might take a quick nap |
Involuntary lol |
Okay all good |
Funny you mention that |
You have any more about me? |
Since I last mentioned it, yes, but was a few days ago |
As I sober up through the week it's likely I will have more |
Are they always pleasant? What usually, transpires? |
My dreams in general? I would not describe as pleasant, but they are rarely unpleasant. Clear as mud yeah? |
You're amazing and fantastic and perhaps a figment, you know that? |
I did eat fig once. Made bagels with em. Pretty tasty! |
Do you think figs are vegan? In your opinion |
No figs are definitely meat. Tree meat |
Do you kmow why i ask? |
I'm afraid to find out |
Trees do eat dead bodies, so... |
Oh I get it now |
Yep |
And a lot of chocolate is a no go for them |
Yes I'm aware |
Mewamew then, aren't we clever! |
Pewpew? |
Nope, it was ontomontopoaeia |
Hahaha yay! |
Just imagine me saying it, kind of high pitched while bobbing my head left and right |
OMG lol |
I know, right? 🤦♀️ |
My little cousin Abby and her hubby abruptly became vegan about 8 years ago. It was really unexpected. She and I are the only non-omnivores in the blood line. |
Nomnivores lol |
They're not preachy about it and they've actually been really resourceful and clever with it |
And now they has two bebes |
How does one feed a vegan bebe? |
Legit question |
She is actually about your age lol |
So are your stepsons lol |
Yes yes |
Whatever it's hot |
I don't actually know if the babies are vegan. But quite certain no meat |
My step sons have been veggie since birth |
Proof that it's possible, for the h8ters |
Oh i know it js |
So that's how i learned l9l |
We went camping not too much later that summer and he ate his first meat (100000% his choice). It was hot dogs. That was our first ER trip in those 4 days |
Ohnoooes |
I often have so many questions about that relationship. It was a good one, no regrets, still friendly all these years later. He went to the funeral and gave me old pictures and stuff |
Oh, yeah. He was suuuuuuper sick |
Like ill? |
Like his body didnt know what meat was for all those years so it got rid of everything it had ever ingested and then some while trying to reset itself or something |
Just that incident |
Like food poisoning |
Wild |
I've not intentionally broken my diet. Accidentally yes, many times |
It's a bit of a head scratcher, that relationship and espwcially that trip kow that i look back on it |
null |
I got a call from Buddy's Pizza the other day |
He's HOOONNGGRRAAAYYYY |
Oh?? |
Customer relations. I logged a complaint because I ate meat on a pizza that was supposed to be veg |
Cheese pizza that is |
Right |
They're going to inspect the store and send me a gift certificate for the restaurant |
It was an excellent response. That was the last time I accidentally ate meat... Just a couple months ago |
I have pics of a second, unopened, and obviously contaminated pizza |
Ask for a few hundred thou because you're a fundamentalist and so now you see yiurself as a murderer of one of God's creatures from the meat contaminant. Get a few million $$ more and we can jet off to our own clothing optional permanent destination?? |
😻 |
The fundamentalist ideology is true |
Oh I'm aware |
You know those lovely people who are legally my in laws?? |
Pentecostal |
I should have acted like my throat was constricting right then on the call |
Oh lordy |
Yeah |
I am super glad my fams are chill about religion |
My dad is on the board of the friendship society |
Chillest frood I know |
Like Ben Franklin's people Friends? |
Yeah |
I think |
Quakers |
Quaker |
Yes |
Haha |
Or Shaker to sime |
Yes indeed |
They're dying out as a religion, i believe |
Yes |
He didn't gravitate to it until his dad passed |
I mean it was always there I'm sure, but he got active only recently |
Interesting |
Fun fact: i know a LOTTTTT about/from the bible and Christian history |
The best defense is a good offense or something like that |
Plus, I've been through plenty of relgious questioning |
I applaud that! I see people pulling out Bible refs to tear down zealots and know that must be very satisfying |
Yes. Facts be factin |
Right! And they don't care about your feelings |
I love how linguistics plays into it all too. Translations and basic languahe evolution really changes things |
Orrrr |
When someone is like "blablhblah name is too hard or weird" I'm like uhhhhh Zahavit is the same letters and same era as Rebecca, it just didnt stay popular as a name |
Yiu saw my history offocw cast (like a podcast in my office one day where i rambled about history). I do the bible and religion ones too ;) |
You get that shelf yet? |
OMG people and names.. |
No I've decided I'm going to prep the area first. |
Ok doc holaday |
I need to clear out the junk and clean the floor |
Lol |
So I can move the shelf straight in when I get it |
Omg guess what |
What? |
I want you |
Aww! |
I miss you 💌 |
I really wanted to be with you last night |
Me too |
You're aware there's more |
There's always more |
More... Lascivious ways to get on? Yeah |
Oh well now you have me on your hook again. Go on..... |
Hehe that was easy |
I know you're not a fan of chocolate. It's too bad because it takes considerably more effort to remove from skin |
You really have to lick a lot |
Salivating helps |
But still |
Caramel is a thing |
It might be an hour on just one spot |
And chocolate is fine |
Imma make you my ice cream cone |
I think you'll have me literally begging for more of you, all the time |
Ohhhh what fun |
I just wannnnnnnnt ut. You. Endless. All of it |
Youve somehow turned me into a selfish nympho rather quickly |
OMG how did you know that is exactly what I wanted? |
I read books. And i know things. Lol |
Yours or mine? |
null |
You should have them so we can have matchy matchy stuff , just like twins! |
Lol |
And maybe more stuff idk |
Oh noes however will I get them back? |
Maybe we can work something out |
I'll show you yours if you show me mine |
Sir, i believe this is a solicitation trope |
And i think you saw mine first |
I mean somebody has to be first |
I will let you undress me next time |
Ohhh no |
I love being undressed by you |
Im going to wear more layers though |
I like the anticipation |
So good. So so so good |
What of it? |
[Becca enters the room in a parka and ski pants] |
Scarf, gloves, mittens, kmit headband |
4 pairs of panties |
I'm sorry all I heard was "mmf fruh ppr he muv ruh" |
Those sounds dont make words to me lol |
You ain't a kidding |
I think she said "have you seen my snorkel?" |
❤️ to “ Scarf, gloves, mittens, kmit headband ” |
Removed ❤️ from “ Scarf, gloves, mittens, kmit headband ” |
Here's a question i know the answer to |
OMG I am a giggling idiot over here |
If you're going at me and it feels amazing but it might feel orgasmic-er, can i grind hard against your face? Like, whiplash hard mayhe? |
Yes |
I might protest a little, but yeah go for it |
It's just.... it was SO. GOOD. |
you wouldn't have time to protesf |
And youd be busy wiping off your chin by that point |
That sounds amazeballs |
Ah fuck |
Did you know |
You can get on your knees and I can slide my face under you from behind |
Or the front |
Either way |
Fuckkkkkk |
Maybe especially on tiny stairs |
And you can ride my face like a little pony |
null |
I would crualshuffocate you |
Yeah those little stairs are really intriguing |
Or maybe you have a chair you like and I can spread you out there |
And you can spread you all over me |
You just have to help me learn |
It's just like riding the birds and the bees |
No problemo |
Which i am still relatively confused on |
Birds? Or bees? |
Yep |
The lessons shall continue, no worries |
Fabulous |
Need to eat snd falling asleep... ttys? |
Ok sweets! |
Yo |
Yo yo |
null |
null |
Which thryffte? |
That was Capitol discount on Friday |
Ah i see |
I finally slept a little :) |
Well that is asstastic! |
Interesting adjective choice lol |
null |
At 7pm on a work night?? |
Yep! |
Fun! |
Idle q for you |
Daylight savings time? |
I have some letters for you too, for real |
Savings or saving |
Hmm. That's one i haven't given much thought to. Are you asking if i think it's diectically refereing to the subject Daylight so there should be a verb ending in singular/plural agreement? One could argue both ways |
Daylight is singular to me at first, but you could argue plurality based on it being more than one occasion over the course of time because in order to ise the system properly you need to have DST twice a year and then it happens every year |
Thanks for the thoughts. I would argue against twice a year being a requirement, but that's a different matter |
I agree with everything you just said |
NB every year we hear about the idea of switching to DT year-round. I favor this, even though it is wildly out of line with natural time |
As soon as you said it i questioned it lol |
I think i am team singular on that |
Do you know what "time zone" we would be in if the zones followed a strict definition based on longitude? |
Oh gosh no |
Central would seem natural |
But i doubt it is |
Actually you are correct. Central would be more "natural" based on our longitude |
It had something to do with banks and lumber and shipping and nyc/chicago |
So to think that we would switch to daylight time year round is kind of funny because it takes us even further away from the "natural" choice |
I agree |
Fun fact |
Oh weird! |
Part of the UP is central timw |
Oh yeah that is true! They're practically in Wisconsin/Minnesota |
Poor buggers |
They dont leave their towns, so I'm sure they're fine lol |
Lol! |
Ok I've exhausted that topic! |
Maybe.... arizona or NM dont observe |
I knew about AZ. Did not know about NM |
I said or lol |
and weird stuff like China is all same tz |
Yes! |
I do not have the fortitude for that subtopics branching rn lol |
☺️ |
If and when you feel like it, my letters for you are C-PTSD |
Complex post-traumatic stress disorder |
I actually did not know the C part |
It wasnt ever on my radar and I'm probably hetter off not diving down the research rabbit hole on it |
It's different than ptsd |
No worries. This is not a surprise by any stretch. And I will be very interested to familiarize myself |
I know. And thank you. Still working on letting some of those bricks frbarmy barricade go away |
Well the Berlin wall did not exactly disappear overnight either |
I suppose |
The important thing of course is to remove the bricks, not as to them |
*add |
Interesting approach |
It would be much more exciting to blow them up, sure! Maybe you will. |
Maybe. Actually, i alreafy know an example and a half or so |
That's good, right? |
So far, yes |
You know at least one (and I'm speaking very literally) |
Then YAY--YOU WIN! |
Thanks! |
♥️ |
You're aware of the already brick removal, yes? |
You told me a few things that sounded really positive and involved me. I'm not sure which one qualifies though |
Honestly probably all of them. My mind went for the kost obvious ones to me |
So maybe it's a tiny section of bricks |
Im interested in hearing your list |
Yes! Yay you! |
Like actually sleeping together |
Very literally my entire body relaxing during sex |
That was my most obvious to me |
Yes! |
And its good repercussions |
Wonderful ! |
I also believe you for some things that you'll think are really trivial |
This one is new to you and might seem silly but it's pretty big... i can make eye contact with you |
That sounds like a big deal to me ! |
It really does |
How does it make you feel? |
Weird for now |
Like it's a good thing but i might be being too open and vulnerable |
Are you talking about in daily life here or during sex? |
Daily life |
Gotcha |
Could be both? |
Hardly anyone will make eye contact in sex |
But it's something i really wanted |
Huh. I don't know hardly anyone. I like to see your eyes |
I don't mind if you have to zone out though |
Just please don't stare at the ceiling like a zombie |
Zoning out to me is bad. I can tell you how to tell if i do it |
I'm pretty sure I've seen you zone in. I like it |
❤️ to “ Zoning out to me is bad. I can tell you how to tell if i do it |
Haha it's a good thing my accidental taps are legit |
Hahahahaha |
I'm going to get a quick shower |
Back in 20 or so, ok? |
Sounds good |
😘 |
❤ |
null |
Then they work on you lol |
Did you try a mouth and finger combination roughly 2 weeks ago? |
I sure did |
Fuckkk |
I just remembered and it sent a sweat wave through me |
Yummmm |
Yeah I was definitely exploring |
Found a spot I think you like, but |
Do you recall how many digits at once, ever, with me? |
What spot? |
I mean also yesssssssss |
A few, but you were saying? |
Will need to repeat, for science |
Would you ask or just go for it? |
There was a spot right close to your pubic bone. Not as far back as I was able to go, that seemed to get your (positive) attention |
Yes |
I told you before that i am poorly designed |
I might ask. I might not. But I would never just jam on in there. I'd probe and push a little. If it goes, it goes. If not, do something else |
You are not either |
Atypical then |
Perhaps |
Delightfully chubby |
To whicn part of me are you referring? |
Do you use your tongue on more than just the outside? |
Your pink girly parts |
Only a little. I could not keep my tongue off your clit. It was too fucking hot |
Why? |
I mean sexy hot |
Right.... but why? What makes you think that way? My reaction, taste, feel...? |
All the above actually |
I didnt realize any of that was different |
Different than what? |
Than at any other point we were doing anything |
Oh. I think I understand. |
I really enjoy eating pussy |
It's intoxicating |
So you've said |
Okay okay - to me, i am the same amount of squirmy and vocal and reactive from the second we start til after we (you in this case) stop. You're saying you can tell differences |
Ahhh |
That's fascinating |
Unreal |
For you see, I am tuning in to find out how to give you a really good time. So I am looking for signs that I'm doing a good thing |
Btw I am not saying here that you need to change any thing |
It's just how I operate |
It's strange to me that it doesnt register that I'm doing anything different |
Case in point... When I was exploring with my finger, you actually told me "there" a few times. That's how I learned that one. |
Sort of? |
It was really fun |
You told me i could have fun and i believe you, so i guess you pre-de-bricked |
It's a silly little dream of mine to have someone devote time to literally explore me in a good way |
Ooh that sounds like fun! |
I would LOVE that |
I have always felt like it was way too selfish to even entertain that as a partner possibility and I'm not comfortable with my own self |
Well I would be thrilled to provide such a service |
For science |
Lol |
I will always over reciprocate, if you'll allow |
I'll allow it! |
Hurray!!! |
We win! |
I have other exploratory ideas for you but we'd need to set a few really simple guidelines between us first |
All good. This is supposed to be enjoyable, not make you uncomfortable |
I meant for you, actually |
I am confident you'd only do one thing I'd maybe not be okay with |
I don't know what that would be |
Right, but it's also maybe something i want, so it's confusing |
It would be getting too much pleasure and feeling too intensely good at one time. I've gotten that feeling before and i described it to you as like if i kept going i would explode and die and the world would end |
I don't think you would die. Better not! |
I did feel something like you describe though, once. Not even sex. LSD and music. I was "falling" into a space, with an intense feeling, and suddenly was terrified I would not be able to find my way back. Very odd. |
Yes! |
That's exactly it |
I think you should play with it. I will be there. |
Turning inside out |
That was a bit brah of me lol |
*brash |
I want to play with it. I need you to be there and to talk me through. And reassure |
100% |
I got you on this if you want to try |
Thank you |
Yes, absolutely, please |
How exciting! |
I kind of know it'll be an orgasm but those are new in general and this is so ampligied |
Sounds like an epic orgasm |
I do too but I'm really apprehensive. And scared |
I will want alcohol at the very least |
🥂 |
I really want to be drunk with you |
Tee hee! |
Pray tell? |
We need another play date. It's abundantly clear. |
Like you wouldn't believe |
We need a whole damn daycare nanny servjce for us lol |
Lololol |
That sounds luxurious |
I happen to know of a record show happening close but far enough the weekend of october 20 |
Fair warning... I'm getting a bit fadey. I might drop off without warning |
Okay :) |
So a record show eh |
Exactly |
A for real one |
Where is it? |
Ann Arbor |
Nice |
Indeed |
I know i can get plenty of leeway to get to A2 on my end of things |
Yes let me noodle on this! |
Even if you just need to plant idea seeds.... easier to decide not to go than to wish you had made plans.... |
Yes indeed. I just put it on my calendar |
Yay! |
https://www.annarbor.org/event/ann-arbor-record-%26-cd-show/13914/ |
And there are 8 zillion secondhand stores and a ton of music ones too |
Oh snap thanks for that! |
You're welcome! |
Ok I'm putting the phone down |
I love ypu too. Sweet dreams |
2024-09-30T05:23:09 |
Good morning sweet one! |
2024-09-30T07:35:36 |
And to you as well! |
How are you feeling this morning? |
Assessing that now lol |
While i work on that, how are you? |
A little hot under the collar ATM because I just got off the phone with a med provider about their billing... |
Not excellent... boo med provider billing. Constantly. |
Good sleep, not hung over. Prolly |
Both good options |
What's on your docket today, aside from the obvious meetings and tasks? |
Might go get that shelf |
Plus it's trash/kitty litter cow day for me |
Cow...lol |
Cow? |
I have no idea lol |
You go get milk? |
You eat grass and clovers |
No milk comes to me lol |
All the boobs come here |
You do just that one yoga pose |
I believe i was advised no boobs of mine should bare tnemselves there |
Well I wish anyway |
I recorded the whole conversation. There was a pretty telling moment |
I asked the gal in the billing office if they were always this incompetent? |
I see |
She said "I have nothing" she seemed embarrassed |
I've said that soooo many times |
I understand mistakes but this team.. ugh |
Right |
Where is this shelf? May i see? |
Yes. But first... |
Clever pink panthquirrel! |
This is the one I am thinking |
What are your criteria for shelf sources? Eg, no Bezosworld, waltonfamalot, need it today/not shipped, etc |
I don't have a lot of source requirements other than WallFuck is always vendor of last resort. Chrome works best here IMO. It's not a living space. No wheels (I thought a lot about that option yesterday), although the choice can easily accept them if I change my mind. |
Doesn't have to be today. |
Ooh walfuck, i like that one! |
Lol |
Benzozon |
https://www.target.com/p/fdw-wire-shelving-unit-heavy-duty-storage-rack-metal-shelf-garage-organizer-wire-rack-with-casters-black/-/A-92750666 |
Might be the same?? Didnt look that closely |
But it's half the cowt |
Get 2 lol |
It's also half the size 😊 |
I'm looking for 48 wide, 72 high |
Pshhhht |
Depth is flex, prefer at least 16 , no more than 24 |
I appreciate the extra search help ! I tend to get overwhelmed and itch on top the first good looking option I find |
48, 72, 18? |
https://www.menards.com/main/storage-organization/garage-outdoor-organizers/freestanding-shelving-units/designers-image-trade-48w-x-72h-x-18d-chrome-6-tier-commercial-grade-wire-shelving-unit/a29017/p-105478432248-c-12652.htm |
Well hot damn |
😊 |
I dont think they're in stock right now but free ship to store is always an option |
Thank you |
Sorry! Lol |
Mine too..... but he lives here so it is what it is |
Lolol |
I mean funny/not funny |
Like.... dude you're well into your thirties and i have to walk down then bavk up 2 flights of stairs because you dont wantvto answer your phone after you're already late for work?? |
Oiye |
Fhl |
I might actually appreciate it more if you could be ruder |
This has been the entiiiiiiiiiiire relationship |
I do literally everything |
Sigh..... |
I can be a royal bitch if I need to lol |
I really do try to take the high road most of the time through... Much better for my inner peace |
I noticed something about me this morning |
I think you'd find it interesting |
Ever since I realized my major paranoia moment last week, I have not been ruminating on home life, in spite of all the whack-a-doodle going on. |
This is very good |
It's not that I like it more (I don't) |
But keeping in touch with you is preventing me from circling around absurd other things that I cannot solve right now |
Is that good? |
It is good, yes |
Because that circling is unproductive and just makes me irritable |
I'm guessing you have questions... Feel free to ask whenever you wish |
What would you like to tell me before i ask? |
Sorry for the delay... godbless-ed phones and needed a break and all |
All good |
That was really all I had for now |
Kind of same |
Anyway, whackadoodle things at home, you say |
Boys still there? |
They left Saturday |
What remains is the usual |
I have no idea what that is |
I never did recall what sweet me off a few nights ago. Something my spouse said. That kind of stuff |
*set me off |
Right |
What would be something typical? |
Ugh. Meeting soon |
Lol get yourself tarted up good for them |
Pssshhfffft |
No new makeup, just a hair clip |
Just whatever is still there from last night |
I'll show you soon |
Oh, wild night? |
Actually i have no idea what my hair looked like after you, come to think of it..... input? |
I don't remember tbh |
Like I'd be worried about that lol |
Just curious |
Take it as a badge of honor, lol |
❤️ to “ Take it as a badge of honor, lol ” |
I am really looking forward to the next time I see you with messed up hair, make up running, and looking for your other sock. |
{you can keep the one on if you need to} |
Lol. Both feet are terrible |
But i think I'm okay with you seeing them |
How are those weekends looking? |
Wait I remember about the 20th. What's the other? |
Next weekend is a maybe but would just be here chez moi |
Got it! |
And I know this is a way out to but there's a maybe for a week or so of free me in late November or early December |
Always nice |
Dont forget to observe your own religious or cultural dat |
*day |
Wait, you said a week!?!? |
Does she just skip out at such auspicious a day near december 3? |
Right. It's a terrible day. Terrible. It's the day after Cash Askew's death. Poor little songbird. |
She wants to visit her mum in Arkansas around then. I have been known to back out at the last minute because "work" |
So yeah, a week and then some. Like maybe two weeks |
It's a maybe |
But she did mention it a few weeks ago |
Tantalizing, huh? |
Yknow what else goes on around then? |
You might not register this |
Holiday party fuckery? |
Well maybe but no |
Yeah not for a while |
What is it? |
Mommy kissing Santa? |
Dont vomit when i say this |
My mother's sluttier than I've ever been |
😆 |
On what lips??? |
Wait... |
That's not how the song goes |
Lol not really joking but it's fine |
Anyway, hunting season |
😂 |
Oh fuck me silly |
That's the plan |
Right on queue! |
Perfect |
Mmhmm |
When the hunter's away, the dears shall play, innit? |
Something like that |
45th parallel? |
Like, Actually up north? |
Could be |
Or could be souther |
Still, a treat especialle |
Closest would be a vile little town called evart |
Lol I know exactly where that is |
Moi aussi |
Spring Hill camp? |
It exists there, yes |
Been there. 6th grade |
Why do I remember this? I have no idea |
Hey same! And some high school |
It was horrible |
We stayed in the cabooses. You? |
Once a train cabin, once the plane |
I was already a seasoned rustic camper at that point. So that part sucked. And as an awkward 11yo or whatever, it was ... Horrible |
Awww |
Do you know Whitehills neighborhood in EL? |
Aren't i in that neighborhood? Sort of? |
Old timers like myself would not say so--you are in a was-a-cornfield not long ago. For all practical purposes when I was young, East Lansing ended at lake Lansing road. |
Nevertheless, all the majorly rich kids live there in palatial houses. I did not know they existed until 6th grade. It was quite a culture shock |
When was your house built btw? Do you know? |
Give me just a sec - between 2003 and 2005 is best i can do for you right now |
Why do you mention whitehills? |
2003 but moved into a year or 2 later. One of the first in my neighborhood- "phase 1" |
I brought up Whitehills because of the stark contrast to the neighborhood where I grew up. We were not in poverty, but we didn't have anywhere near the affluence you see in WH. |
Which is why 6th grade was so awkward for me |
How are phones? |
I grew up in a variety of means, believe it or not |
A variety of varieties |
Phones are meh |
I took this position 5 years aho specifically to not answer phones |
Well crap you got bamboozled |
Yep |
But at least i know what I'm saying |
Not everyone thrown on phones overnight has a clue |
Right? |
Oh good, new garbage news for us today |
Lol my manager told me to put my PTO in Oracle last week. I guess I caused "some issues" |
Haha 😂 |
Hope I get paid this week |
Is there real potential for you not to? |
I don't it |
Aaaaa lol I doubt it |
And we all have just been hoping.... no oracle for us at all |
Anyway, office fuckery for me on wednesday |
Oh no |
And mandatory OT next week |
Whattt |
Mmmhmm |
Whatever. It's finnnnnnnnnnnnne |
You decide on going anywhere tonight? |
I have not decided anything. Trying to get things set up on VDI |
Ew |
It's like laptop all over again lol |
Are you not already on laptop? |
Yes but certain applications can only be used with VDI. |
Data access, from my point of view |
Gotcha |
I am merely a whiny dick without data |
I'll take it |
I'm a useful whiny dick with data |
I'll take that one too |
Heh |
Im a greedy slut no matter when or where |
Yeah but I like you |
Damn. I like you too |
Quite a team we are |
Um, yes, i believe it's the winning one?? |
Well hot damn! |
What does OT look like for you? |
Processing activities in my own time, so def not a bad arrangement just.... meh |
This isn't at all what i normally do and i don't love asking questions that are valid but annoy other people because they're used to things. I have more of a get it done once and correctly than pass it off kind of work idea and i troubleshoot before there's an issue, so i guess i cause problems because I'm not paid to think in anticipation of anything |
Are you rocking boats? |
I moved ALLLLLLLLL the cheese |
Iz mine now |
Lololol |
Do you have a favorite cheese? |
Sometimes |
Let me think |
I have least favorites |
What about you? |
Same. Can really name one above all others. Love sharp cheddars, there's a nice VT white at Kroger sometimes. Also Colby... Plain but yummy. And feta |
Emmentaler is nice too |
I really like edam |
Some chevres |
Well those are marvelous |
So hubs is a hunter eh? |
Omg |
Like, i cant even stomach thinking about most of it |
He is from evart |
He also does not eat vegetables |
Like.... at all. No, potatoes and corn do not count |
Oh wow |
My dad is a hunter 'lite' I suppose. But he is also a nice person who likes real food |
Does he drink no less than 2 litres of mountain dew every day? |
I dare say he's never had that sum in total over his 75 years going around the sun |
I think i am staying in tonight |
Literally every single day. Minimum |
I did that in high school. I rarely have soda anymore, except for plain or tonic in my drinkses |
Do you use go out? |
Use or usually? |
Usually lol |
Actually no |
I think about it a lotttttttt |
I am also confined to this godforsaken room all day |
Do you not like to work from your room? |
I do, i do not like habing to be glued to this screen and unable to move or do much of anything else but answer irritated callers |
Yeah |
And it may be better once i get ir cleaned |
But literally cannot leave because then i cant answer |
I do not do well being tethered |
Ick |
I'm sorry. I hope you at least get to do your regular stuff soon |
I hope so, too |
But i think cleaning will at least help. Maybe i can craft in here while working if i can accomplish that much. Or write on my personal laptop |
But.... idk |
In a state of overwhelm kind of |
I'm sorry you're in this crap situation |
Thanks. You too. |
No... The collective crap |
Hmm. Thanks |
It does have a way of pulling up sometimes |
Dang it! |
?? |
Piling |
Makes more sense |
I want to tell you more things lol |
Okay 👍 |
Anything you want to know right now? |
First thing that comes to your mind |
How did you meet the hubs |
I took a Russian history class for fun during one of my many senior years in college. I'd studied abroad in Russia twice and wanted to learn more. He was in it because he was a history major. |
Ohhhh I bet you were quite fetching! |
I actually agree |
Something about Eastern European traditional dress is really attractive to me |
I will wear almost any costume anytime |
Hell yeah! |
Fall semester 2010, iirc |
So were you two pals for nine years before getting married? |
That was some quick math |
Yes |
Oh. Pals. Ummmm |
I might have the date in front of me. Thank you, wedding registry |
Omg delete thaf |
Pics ew |
There are none, no worries |
Anyway |
Williams-Sonoma site |
Anyway |
Yep |
Pals not pals, or? |
Met. I invited him over for food and to color (no, really). Watched a Disney movie, ended up making out on my floor, blahblahblah (continued) |
Second "date" went to a movie, ended up back at his apartment, slept together (yes a euphemism) |
That was in November 2010 |
And that was that |
There may be parts here that are obvious to me because I've recounted them a lot to myself but what do you want to know? |
Is this date correct? |
Depends. For this house? Yes. For me living here? No. We are the second owners |
The house was built with the plans the first owners set, they moved into it later |
When did you live in okemos? |
Mid to End of 2016 to wnd or 2017 |
What else are you finding while stalking me? Lol |
Fair warning you may come across a not-great article. I dont know what key words will bring it up and i have not read it. I am not mentioned but it's def my family and |
Def might make you cry? Be angry? No idea |
Will lead to more, obv |
I did not find much more. Your awesomeness at 7-11. Brother's obit. Go fund me appeal from Mom colleague. I think that's it actually |
So did you and Loren move to EL after that? |
For some reason my phone cannot get cell signal today. Not liking this |
Yes |
It's a national outage |
Fr? |
Lol |
Yes |
Funny because my work phone is fine and it's also Verizon. But it's old timers don't know more than 5G DEATH RAYS! |
Lol |
Got it |
It means we started dating and immediately exclusive, not really ever just friends |
From your perspective, what was the value of continuing beyond the ons? |
Hmm. Well, i didnt know until years later that i was supposed to be a ONS |
Ok, thank you |
What else? |
I take it your relationship is not really close now. You even mentioned no sex on the honeymoon. Is that right? |
You're correct. I can also tell you exactly how many times since we've been married |
That must be a kinda low number I'm guessing |
Yes |
So do you know what changed? You seemed to enjoy each other's company for a while |
A few things, and i know a decent amount of them. If there are more then i dont fully know them |
If things get to the unpleasant point do you want to know before i say? |
The way he or i are painted in this saga |
No, just tell it like it is. |
Okay, I will |
Thank you. |
Thanks. You too? |
You absolutely did, yes. |
I agree wboleheartedly. And there's more that's very very similar |
And a shitty thing, for me at least, is I will be judged very harshly for this someday. Will I care is another matter |
How do you mean? |
The most simplistic answer is my wedding vows. Broken. Lied. Cheated. |
Okay. I understand. You're positive you'll be outed one day? |
No |
Not positive |
And honestly I'm not thinking about that either for the most part, but this is something I think I have to be aware of |
Okay |
You can call it off whenever you want |
I'm not looking for that, just to be clear |
Okay |
I don't want us to have secrets |
We have until stories, that's fine |
Untold |
Oh. I like that a lot better |
And we are working through those. There is obviously a lot to go through. This is all fine. |
Okay, thank you |
But subversion is no bueno |
I would like to ask 2 things of you then, at this time |
Absolutely. I am an open book for you! |
Before those, are you still in a train of thought? I'm working on interrupting less |
Thank you! No, I actually got to the closer I wanted there |
You're sure? |
Positive |
First is that i need you to swear up and down that no matter what i tell you, you won't act on it without talking with me |
NGL that is a bit tough. But if those are the conditions, I will swear it |
This can be a negotiation |
I worry about your safety. That's where this is coming from. |
Say more |
I don't want to find out that you hurt yourself. I mean going forward. What you may have done in the past is part of your story and I want to know about it. But please, not part of your future |
I can mostly agree to that |
I will swear to bring my action to you first, and have faith that the worst possible outcome is not going to happen |
I think you wont get to this place in my mind, so I'll explain a little more if you'll be okay with it |
As you wish--sorry I didn't mean to derail your questions |
I dont think you did |
Meanwhile farm boy fetch me that pail |
Lol |
You're clear that I've cut before, yes? |
Yes |
And you can ask what you want in this. Anything goes |
And you're clear I've hurt myself in other ways physically? |
Not if you mean intentionally |
Yes, and unintentionally |
That makes me unsure how much or how seriously you think any suicidality was |
I haven't estimated it, other than to believe the seriousness is non-zero--enough for me to worry |
I don't know how to continue with this conversation. I want to, i dont know how to |
It's ok. You don't have to |
Do you want me to stop? |
I have a bizarre question now too |
I want you to stop if you're not cool with continuing. Maybe some other time is better |
I literally dont know how to make the words go together in a cohesive way is all. And i dont want you to hear too much too fast or start panicking |
It's ok, really. Let's park this one and come back to it later |
Okay |
So you have questions veritably piling up |
Yes but it's not as many as usual and some i cant ask yet |
Would you like to know about the heat death of the universe? |
Sure |
I can't explain it really well. But over the course of the next 10^gazillion years, there are predictions that super massive black holes will consume all matter in the universe |
Due to Hawking radiation, the black holes will emit all that matter back out as incoherent atoms, which will be spread so thinly that they cannot form larger structures |
The atoms will lose energy and eventually decompose into their consistent quarks and such. |
The first time I got my head around this I was dumbstruck |
The good news is, in terms of when this will all happen, the universe is but a newborn baby, with almost all of its life ahead of it |
Physics can be profound sometimes |
Physics is literally everything and its meanings |
I would say it's everything and its definitions. It's up to philosophers to impart meaning |
It alls ends up meaningless |
Strangely enough. |
It's like there is a truth that cannot be known |
Yes |
This is how i think when i get really depressed |
It does honestly. And I'm sorry to have chosen this gloomy topic |
Kind of. I mean, yes. I have more on that for when we continue the aforeparlayed conversation |
I will say one more but, and then I think you should ask me something |
One more bit |
The answer is there is no why. So there is no point in putting energy into that one. It would be like asking what is the mpg of an electric car. It's a silly question, if you will. |
May i please have a topic? |
Lol I thought you had questions |
I kind of have one in mind but meh. Maybe a few |
I alllllllways have questions |
Do you want it about you or about you as related to me? |
The latter |
Hmmmm |
If we assume i get pleasure from everything and a night is allllll for you, what do you want? Anything goes. Everything. Enthusiastic consent across the board |
Hmm I think I do understand |
Right now, I would say I want to spend all night with you. Have some dinner. Have some drinks. And get high and fuck all night, maybe sleeping little bits between. I mean fuck so much that the next day, we can't even think about sex until like 7pm or something |
A little actually |
But to keep me entertained.... |
What acts are included solely for you? |
You get everything you could ever want |
Because i want it too |
I mean I could just enumerate all the things we did or tried, and maybe a couple I didn't get to. We didn't do costumes (school girl anyone) so put that on the list. |
And actually cum this time |
In my mind, we didnt do a ton. Am i wrong? What did we try and not do? |
I think I'm getting to understand something but idk |
I can give you my normal, that's all I know |
I would say primo sesh perhaps 90-120 min, including a good hour of warming up, making out, oral sex, etc, and a nice long duck |
Lol the duck! |
Yes definitely bring your best 🦆 |
And then do all that again in a few hours |
Oh, service is back! |
Hurray! |
That's good to know. Thank you |
Make sure it's the right kind of duck tho. A cute one. |
Ofc |
No ruffled feathers |
Nope. Youuuuuu ruffle them |
Heh |
What else? |
I want to know what you want to tell me |
What are you aching for me to know? |
Guess what I did when I worked in the toxicology lab at MSU? hints: it was very naughty, and not at all sexual |
Drugs |
Close! 1/2 point |
Etoh |
Ooh--close and related to a different incident lol |
Freed animals |
Sadly it was too late for them |
I need hints |
Improper use of equipment |
Test tube shot glasses |
Dark room film work |
Good guesses, but no |
Sterilizing non standard issue stuffs |
Using mounted insects for a prank |
Lolol |
I am far too pure of mind for this, obv |
Sweet and innocent here |
Alright |
Dna tests |
False results for Maury |
So first, I was trained in a variety of specimen preps for diagnosis analysis |
Okay |
This was the vet tox lab btw |
One summer I was growing a couple of pot plants at my apartment |
Oooh nice |
And one day I thought to myself you know? I've watched (dude) fire up the GC/mass spectrometer. I bet I could do that |
So I brought some leaves in one weekend |
Worked up the entire extraction and, shot it in the gcms. |
I confirmed! THC present! Woo |
For science! |
What I did not know was is my dilution was like 1000x too strong |
That ducking gcms cranked out THC over the first few specimens on Monday before (dude) was like this is not right |
Three people asked me about it over that week. I denied knowing a ducking thing about it |
Hahahahaha |
Until? |
It was forgotten |
I contaminated a$100000 piece of equipment for FunZies |
I thought you were supposed to be a terrible liar? |
They were able to clean it out tho |
I am a terrible liar. I'm almost sure they knew I was lying |
Gotcha |
Well msu sgonna be msu lol |
Related.. I did bring home about 300 ml of ethyl ether and got "drunk" on it |
And not die? |
It's about the same feeling, but way way more stinky |
I was dosing carefully lol |
Otherwise I was a really good worker there. I just loved it and I got to help out on the diagnostic side as well as with pesticide research that was funded by money ordered by a court arising from a lawsuit of the people of Hawaii vs Monsanto or some such |
Very very cool |
So pineapples are safe, I guess |
Lol okay |
The lawsuit had something to do with an unapproved use of the pesticide. I can't remember what it was |
The people were all like NOT MY PINEAPPLES! And won in court |
Yes |
Pineapple is contains papain |
It's a meat tenderizer |
Too much will dissolve a body |
Thats why enough makes your tongue feel weird |
So again, not tooooooo safe lol |
It's also THE swinger symbol |
Right? Lol. Pineapples ftw! |
All things in moderation, you know |
Pineapples or no |
Please |
So what else? |
You tell me |
Do you like my silly stories? |
Yes, I do |
Do you like mine? |
Most definitely |
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You can hopefully make it the dime -sized divot in the center |
A short..... scar? |
That is my left shin btw. Yes,a scar, sitting below the surrounding skin a bit |
I hit myself in the leg with a hatchet when we were camping |
Hurt like a sob |
Ohhh my |
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"left a mark" |
That's a long one! |
Not my longest! |
Do I see two scars? |
At least |
But youve defffffinitely seen the longest overall lol |
Where they flipped you inside out |
I feel like that should be an obvious yes to me... |
Lol aaaand service is gone lol |
Yeah I'm thinking that was not done with a laparoscope |
More like a Labrador |
Nope. Only 2 of my scar sites are from laps |
10 scars / 2 laps |
All small ish |
Whew |
Within not that many months of each other |
Well I hope you got that out of your system, if you don't mind the pun |
Lol |
Only ever had 3 ? Things removed |
Well that's two more than me |
I am not counting wisdom teeth either lol |
Ah, me neither |
What are you missing? |
Foreskin |
Kinda |
Not my choice at the time |
True |
I dont think you can name my removals |
I did not count teeth or skin or tissue |
Transplants don't count?? |
They do not remove your native organs |
Oh damn, 4 |
Holy shit really. I did not know that |
Yep. |
Oh. That might actually double that then too oops |
Do I hear 7? Anyone? 8? Thank you sir! |
Ok |
1 |
Spleen? |
Nope |
I am rapidly running out of guesses here |
Lol |
2, one each eye, lens with replacement |
Ok crap |
Help me understand that with your left eye |
Which led me to question if vitrectomies count as removals because it isnt teeth of skin or tissue, more like gel |
Ok, the left one doesnt see |
So... Lens because why? For a more normal appearance? |
I had cataracts taken out when i was 13. Maybe 14. |
June and august right after i turned 14 |
Separate surgeries |
And i saw well enough after that recovery except not habing focal power, which was standard for 1999/2000 |
And then away at school for college i all of a sudden had weird huge black spots that never went away and were straight in my line of sight. They never moved around or anything |
Anyway, that's what retinopathy is and i sat through a literal full day of eye testing and (details redacted for time) and eventually the solution was needing a vitrectomy in each eye after like a year of steroid shots in my eyes that wasnt helping or maintaining |
Both eyes were fine for a while but idk how long. Then I only ever gained vision back in my right eye full term |
That all happened in my early/early-mid 20s |
This just brought up a really weird and not good memory. Really vivid too. I might need to be quiet for a sec. Might need you to distract. Unknown. |
Okay let's change topic |
I have always been really good with maps and finding things |
123 rue de grenelle |
Until it recently got torn out I could show you the exact apartment at Spartan Village at ages 4-5 |
1416A was the number |
Very cool |
1418B |
Then 4804 |
Door codes lol |
I have been back and forth to Kalamazoo so many times I've probably taken every conceivable route |
Nice! |
My mother grew up outside Erie, Michigan, which is between Toledo and Monroe. Strausburgh road, just off M223. I don't remember the number, but could draw you a plan of that house and the acreage. I have not seen that place in 25 years |
Orienteering is such a lost art |
And cartography |
Did I mention rose lake? |
I love maps |
I know rose lake lol |
Kinda |
Love love love them |
Then i have something to show you |
I used to want to save up to get the most detailed USGS maps you can buy. But then Internet happened and you could see them online. |
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I've tracked dozens of walks and bike rides with my phone and have all the data that can be plotted on Google Earth or similar |
Hey! |
Watcha got there |
What does it say? |
What moght this be, framed here? |
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Oh geez is that another atlas chilling on the laundry?? |
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At least more up to date than this one |
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Aw shit, is that ANOTHER cache of maps still to be framed ?? |
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Lol |
I misunderstood what I was looking at... Thought it was CDs of maps |
?? |
Nice collection! |
Nope, a literal tote of maps i have from places ive been |
That is so fun |
Remember the other day how i was going to say something impressive before you came back here? |
Yeah! |
It was more impressive the further back by even just a few years but anyway |
And to add to that, gofundme can only be designated to one person/entity |
Right. |
That is wild |
I do forget that was only a short while ago |
Yep |
Anyway, i made dis. All dis. Lol |
Yes! And here you are |
Indeed |
I am glad you are here |
😊 |
I'm glad you're here |
Idk why you thought picking me was a good idea, but I am glad you did |
Me too |
Why did you pick me? |
You're going to hate my answer lol |
Nope |
Because you asked |
That's almost always my answer |
Lol I can put some context around that |
Only if you want |
I have been in the process of resigning myself to a reclusive, sexless life with a morbid goal--to outlive my spouse. For all few years now. |
COVID made the reclusive part really easy, and I rolled with it. I don't dig social scenes for the most part any way |
Sexless, practically a done deal |
The rest is just waiting |
I imagine that sounds terrible |
And who knows, I may be surprised |
But I do not think her future is bright |
And go goes my own |
It does not surprise me but I'm sorry it's your existence right now |
So yes, I'm wanting what I can't have after all |
And maybe I see "life is too short" in a new way |
One I did not see in the realm of possibility |
And here you are, all cute, and smart and and serious, and deep, and funny, and wicked smart, and fucking hot AF. |
What is a boy to do? |
Many many answers |
Kind of a rhetorical question, but yeah |
That podcast I told you about. I have not been able to get it out of my mind for 1.5 years |
I don't know if you remember me telling you |
Refresh, please? |
I am in marriage where only one partner is functional |
Ohhhhhhhhhh yes |
But I can't/don't want to lose who I am for want of want I can't have |
That's basically suicide, supporting terminal illness in solidarity |
A little hyperbolic perhaps, by my telling of the story, but still |
I am in very much the same state, if different |
It does appear that way to me |
And until she gets her head fixed--if that is possible--i have that unpleasant feature on top of the rest |
What else has there been? |
All the snipey weird conversations I've alluded to. It's not a constant thing. We are civilized most of the time. Hell I don't even mind being a domestic servant. But she gets in her head that I'm intentionally trying to make her life difficult it's just nuts |
I'm really sorry |
Ty |
The good news I guess, is my reflexes are getting really good, and I can usually shut down those things quickly any more. But that solution is just putting distance between us, and resentment in me. But it's better than dealing with a tantrum because, day, I forgot to renew her driver's license |
Yes that's right |
Fucking tirade because I forgot |
Her license |
I dont have words for that |
It seemed bizarre of course until I figured something out. And I confronted her with it too confirm |
She actually thought I did that deliberately to screw her over |
She admitted that |
Dis you have a response? |
I try not to throw the word crazy around but wtf is it? |
Of course I did--why on God's green earth would I even do that? |
And then I remembered what I actually did forget |
I tried to renew, but the online process asks a lot of questions I could not answer and wanted Affidavits I was not comfortable making. So I stopped, had 6 more beers, and the memory was flushed |
So |
Now I've shared one of these. We get about one per week. Not all that wild, but all have some have of distrust |
I stopped writing them down after a while |
Better to simply forget |
Well |
I feel like I'm yelling at you |
You are nit |
Not in the slightest |
That's me, the louse lol |
What else would you like to say? |
That is all about that, for now anyway. I do want to say more, but I would rather be with you. When I say it |
Can you say why? |
For information purposes, it makes me think whatever you will say next will be negative to, for, or at me |
It's because I don't know how it will be received, and I'd rather be able to actually talk in real time, have to face |
Face to face |
Okay |
Still nervous, but okay |
Are you upset because I'm also crazy? |
Not in the least |
And I don't like that diagnosis either |
Okay. Fair |
There is a huge difference |
I just have an enormous amount of issues |
You do indeed |
Which i am sure you've guessed a lot of but maybe not all but then again maybe |
I believe it |
There is a difference though |
She has a freight train full of issues too |
No way |
I cant here either |
Because I will be cruel to remind her that she is broken |
And instantly make that conversation about herself |
And she can't this, or that, and she's trying, and am I taking to girls in the office??? |
I got shit because David likes to group chat with Cristin and me |
So now I am cheating fr (absolutely not before) so it's a little more complicated, but I ran out of fucks. Plum fucking out |
Exhale |
Crikey |
Are you okay? |
Yeah, I am |
Are you sure? |
Yes, I'm ok really. |
I didn't want to unload all that on you because I didn't want you to, well idk really. I didn't want this to be about the icky spouse who, if I'm honest, is not at her best rn |
It is always okay to share whatever you want or dont want or need |
You're welcome |
So I think I've painted a decent likeness of the worst of times around here. It's definitely not always like that. We also have our own spaces, and mostly get along. I can tell she's trying not to assume I'm out to get her, sometimes |
That's good, i think |
But I don't know where this is going either. She's not bouncing back from setbacks like a spring chicken |
And I'm not afraid of issues |
We all have them |
Do you? For real |
But let's be decent and empathetic at least |
Yes I'm a whiny entitled bitch |
No |
Ok |
Well I do have a wide jealousy streak that I've been monitoring for about a month now |
It's actually much less than it used to be |
Dare i ask more? |
Sure...I used to twist my guts into knots hearing my GF/wife so much as talk about another man. I've ruined a few good times doing that and causing a scene |
I can stop |
No please don't censor yourself |
This is far less than it used to be |
I need to learn how to hear appropriately |
I dont know a better way to say this |
So it's not like I'm thinking of good things you should be jealous of if or when i say anything |
I get it |
I cant say if it's growing up, but ive learned, and that's really evident with what i say and how i act and things with you |
Aren't we both lucky? I feel that way |
Yes |
I might know the less than part, but would you say why? |
Lots of reasons. I'll call them all "history" |
Ahh. I was thinking about the present, not the past. |
Well yes |
That starts in the past |
Your reason, i think |
And mine, i just labelled it differently |
😊 |
I think i might be getting better with my panic attacks |
Just as an aside |
Yay! Let's keep working on that. Get you some nice endorphin releases |
Yes but also some different ones |
I don't think youre aware of when i was about to not be great at the not panicking tonight. That's good. |
It's good I wasn't aware? |
I think so |
Was it the eye topic or me not wanting to continue ranting about my wife? One of those? |
Was one of those what? |
The time when you were " not about to be great .." |
No, i dont think so |
And i dont know how you keep being able to not have me stay peeking down the rabbit holes like i would normally do |
Idk. I just like you I guess |
Typically i would (being honest here) give myself some hurt or zone out and down reliving things or asking dumb what-if type questions or trying to see what i missed or a lot of other things |
Or I'd just really suddenly be a bitch til it was a lost cause rrying to stop it |
Right. How'd that work for you? |
Jury's still out on that. I was more productive and felt more like myself, i can at least say that. I don't really know how to do a lot of what's happening right now |
Ok that's fair |
I'm not some bastion of mental health here just so you know |
Always learning |
thiat were you hoping for as a reply? Or what would your reply (as me) have been if you predicted it? |
First word is "what" |
A lightbulb moment perhaps. But maybe we need to clear some more cobwebs first |
Yes |
But now there are also a few things i dont know if i can or should say because i dont know how okay youll be hearing them |
Oh! |
Maybe |
I really want to tell you some things but i think they'll make you too sad |
Dude you're killing me here |
Besides |
I'm going to be sad at some point no matter what. Don't know why, don't know when. I'd much rather be with you when it happens instead of, say in my basement crying because I've convinced myself you're a suicide risk |
That last part is ambiguous to me |
I think probably it's an in person thing, so nvm for right now |
I have thus far told you what 2 people had done. It's still very subjective if either of those are the "worst" offenses. You already know that right? |
Yes, and thank you |
For what? |
Saying nvm for now |
Oh, okay |
BRB 5 |
Okay, good luck |
I'm back |
That was like 5 seconds lol |
Idk |
Your text confuses me |
I honestly don't want to cook up answers to that. I was convinced there was something in your past. That evolved into believing it was tape. I did not conjure up scenarios, or scenes, or anything specific |
Tape, rape |
I'm just trying to listen, and learn. |
One sec |
And I don't continue to dream up possibilities, and cryptic questions like that are very confusing to me |
Ok |
Sorry, was interrupted |
I think I have a more direct answer |
Ok |
Can I think of something worse? Yes |
What's up buttercup |
Let me try and explain why i was confused. |
I'm sorry about that |
And then i got more confused because anyone else in that list of 8 "worst" that i count is also rape |
So i wont tell you more stories for right now, but what questions do you have? |
Ok I really appreciate what you told me it clears up some things for me |
It doesn't bother me if you use it |
It's exceptionally hard for me |
I understand |
I wish I could give you a hug rn |
I feel really mean for saying that stuff above |
Like i slapped you in the face |
You were not mean. |
I think we were both a little frustrated and confused |
Yes |
Now it's out |
I had also been operating under the assumption that you knew this before we were in dewitt too |
Maybe |
At least for a few weeks |
We only knew each other for a couple weeks (: |
Yep |
Well |
I dont really know |
My mind is a little bit darting right now |
Can I help |
Maybe |
It would be better in person |
Maybe |
But i also couldnt have said this in person |
Ok |
Said that which i had said above, rather |
I follow |
I can't tell what is new information for you |
You don't need to worry about that. I'm listening and learning |
I do not know another existence, and I feel like all i have ever been and will be is this giant mess of trauma and assaults and abuse and i dont know what to do with that feeling |
I would like to help if I can. Even if it's just to hold you when you are scared, or lonely, or down, or tired |
And tell you that you are a really cool person |
Who has bad things done |
That she did not and does not deserve |
That you deserve to be loved |
And love the way you want to |
I really, truly appreciate all of that |
I literally measure how old i was for stuff going on in normal everyday life based on who had done what nonconsensually right before or after or at the same time something else was going on |
And because it's in my head all the time just replaying and trying to rewrite or maybe make sense or find the key moment or find a reason or anything at all, it's consumed everything about me |
I am tracking all that |
Guess what |
What? |
I am not going to follow that model |
Do you know my knee jerk reaction to that? |
I might guess |
Which i actively talk down, btw |
"that's what that all say" |
Verbatim |
But for my typo anyway |
Yeah |
Thanks for giving me a try |
Ditto |
I just don't have it in me to be those people |
I'd rather jump off a bridge than do half the things you've told me about |
I believe that |
Because everything to me is/has been "normal" or at least common |
It's ok. I hope we can redefine normal for you |
Me too |
I want to try |
Okay |
I want to let you |
That is the best thing I've heard today |
I know what i really want too |
Got a little misty ngl |
Just now? |
Yes |
I'm sorry |
Dont be. It made me happy |
Oh okay I'm glad |
😊 |
You accepted my offer |
I did |
So I'm happy |
Yes |
You are in luck! |
If we can find the time& place, I guarantee all the rest for free |
Because I also want to have great sex with you, and for me that's about having a great time with you, not all those judgy things, and we can get high if you want, or not, is ok! I just want you and your infinite cuteness and your passion and your hot body and to hold you while you rock and quiver |
I want you to have fun too! I want you to get off doing what you want on and in me. I really can't tell you that enough |
Oh and I do look forward to that |
Your gonna make me have wet dreams now lol |
I want you to very literally explore me. Show me things. Tell me what you feel and why and how you think i like it and what made you think that way. Ask questions. Ask what would make it better |
It will be so fun! I will love doing that with you! |
Thank you thank you thank you!!!! |
Make me your fuck toy! |
I'm asking you to be the toy and the observer lol |
Oh goodie! |
I hate to say I need to drop off |
Oh thank gods! |
Ok lover please sleep well |
I love you too |
More now than before too |
Excellent ♥️ |
❤ |
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Idk but I was curious about the pineapples lol |
Curious? |
How are you babe |
And yes I was curious about the pineapple icons/emoji. They looked fancy |
I am okay thanks. Just woke up. Kinda oww but idk why. Might give this cbd cream a go. Feeling positive in general |
Good! I'm feeling pretty good |
Creaky back stuff but I'll work that out soon enough |
Doin my end of month spreadsheets |
Psht must be nice |
You too can have spreadsheets! |
I typically do! |
I lack new information to their fulfill needs and purposes |
You may think I'm nuts but I track every account balance every month for over 10 years now |
For you personal life, yes? |
Yes. Helps me understand when I might be able to retire |
Can you believe I'm even talking about that? |
Doesnt aound nuts. Sounds woefully responsible |
Oh yeah I turn data into insight... It's what I do irl |
How do you like to wake up? Not with data,I presume |
Can i have examples? Yours, please |
And.... i have a term for you to look up later. Sapiosexual. Very relevant, lop |
*lol |
Hmm! |
Well |
I was thinking maybe a little coffee, a little lounging in bed, and a nice, gentle fuck sesh |
To set the mood for the day |
Do you get pokey nipples in the morning? |
Sounds like a mostly fantastic way to wake up! |
Well you can expect I will pay attention |
I will measure them |
With the tongue test |
Do you know that one? |
You lick them? |
More like flick, but yeah that's the idea |
Maybe that test works on other areas too! |
Oh yes! They are quite versatile |
Better try |
For science, ofc |
For science ♥️ |
I like the new word btw |
Dang it why does 800 get here so early |
No kidding |
How about whyyyyyy am i responsible for waking someone up when I'm the chronically ill one and they opt to work earlier than i do and then not charge their phone so it's the stairs saga again and then the pets because they like me better and then can i do this or that and hey we dont have these unhealthy groceries i want and every god damn day |
Sorry |
OMG you live with a fifteen year old! |
Disagree |
You are an exceptional person |
If i wanted children i would have made them an option |
Actually he sounds a lot like her ex... Always blaming anyone else for his problems |
It's different. Cant say of better or worse |
I ordered my shelves today! |
Hurray! |
Owners are Christian fanatics |
I mean all the big box shops are deplorable, but some stand out more |
But I do appreciate the lead! That item appears to me to be the exact same thing I found at HD with a different brand name on it. Probably made in the same factory |
Yes. And yes. Forgot about the owner thing for a hot second |
Yes. And yes. Forgot about the owner thing for a hot second |
Chix for Jesus 😂 |
Sent twice. Weird |
Sent twice. Weird |
Which one is Satan store? |
Hoblob |
I am not in a good mood |
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Does this camera make me look fat? |
Not even a little |
Ok thx |
Thx |
I could send a door dash your way with a clown or something |
Lol thanks |
Maybe with you |
Sure. 10:00 work for you? |
I wish |
I could put on my strap on |
Strap on anything you want |
Some other time |
What if I posed as Beaselybub and called Loren. I'll tell him I need him to meet a prospect in Marquette ASAP |
It's only an 8 hour drive |
I can do a decent imitation, and it is not flattering |
Hahahahahaha |
Except L has his number and L doesnt recruit anyone |
Omg |
Guess what today is!? |
No cheatsies |
Jimmy's 100th |
And my sister's 52nd |
And veggie day iirc |
Well I'll tell L this is a super secret assignment and there's a promotion for him if he doesn't bollocks it up |
Big promotion |
Big, with a B |
Oh crap my labial fricative is showing again |
Fuckkkkkking hot |
Speak nerdy to me anytime you want my panties moist and dropping to the floor |
I'd still rather you take them off me though |
😘 |
Just you wait |
That act in itself is fucking fire |
We are going to have a little labial training |
Bbbbbbbbbbb |
Now, with extra tongue! |
Yay! 🎉 |
Bbbbby the way |
Yes |
?? |
Fucking aye right |
It is a hot look, esp with no bra |
I want the bra |
Ok I'll allow it |
I need to be played with |
Maybe teased a little |
Relished |
Anticipated |
Drenched |
Lol |
Feeling mildly better now |
Ooh I like the way you verb |
It's not for just anyone |
I like verbing you |
I like the way you verb me. And i like verbing you. |
Okay okay okay questions |
When you were verbing me, on top of me, were you just enjoying? You seemed so happy and like you could go on forever without a goal |
Does that make sense? |
You are so smart! |
That fulfills none of my curiosity lol |
It is kind of funny (weird) for me, but since the SNRI and I've had some problems getting to orgasm, the sensitivity is still there, and maybe even more so |
Fuckkkkkkk |
I dont think there's a way for me to explain to you how odd and different this is to/for me |
But it's fantastic |
Even if i dont understand |
Like, you kept talking and everything |
Lol sweet baby |
?? |
I can do cave man if you like! |
Anyway I am glad you liked it! This will only get better as we practice |
I dont think you can do cave man |
I really dont |
But then some of my own reflections based on some responses of yours yesterday were... astounding |
Say more? |
I asked how long a sesh lasts for you |
I couldn't think of any of mine that were close to yours |
That's been much much much more of my typical experience |
Let's change that! |
I mean unless we need to be quick bc we're in the copier room or something |
Or an office with a remote light switch and frosted doors that lock |
Or whatever |
Lol |
Btw did I get today's date right? |
Yes! |
You got distracted lol |
I knew it was Jimmy's bc my sis shares the date. Reddit told me it was his 100th this morning. Helluva guy |
Yes |
Ah yeah that's right. Today we host the veggie dog flag and proudly display our lettuce cape wraps for all to salivate over |
Lettuce is merely a vessel for tasty fats lol |
I'm going as a cucumber HBU? |
I agree with your statement btw |
I am tomato |
Slurp... |
Ketchup = smoothie? |
Correct on so many levels |
Hmm. Curious |
Ready for a question/request that's a little bit pensive for you? |
Is it? Is it thinking time |
It is 👍 |
Lol |
I have an unspeakable need to make and procure something(s) for you |
Also, may be dying. Does not feel good while trying to function |
Wait what?? |
The dying? |
An overexaggeration but i do not like how i feel rn |
Oh I'm sorry. Did you eat? |
Yes |
It's a very sudden wave-wall but idk why |
Well goodness what is the matter? |
Dizzy swirly sleepy lightheaded weak spacey |
Eww |
Like, what am i even supposed to do? My eyes keep being weird too and I'm breathing funny. I have no clue what's happening |
This is just out of the blue? |
Yes |
Cool cool. Now I'm just laying on the floor after getting yelled at |
Ohhhh I'm so sorry |
It is what it is |
I asked for help and i didnt have an immesiate answer for how to help so it makes m3 frustrating and annoying |
:( |
Yeah |
Dude, i cant do this anymore and i have zero options |
And i feel weak AF for not going hard enough at this but i absolutely hate kt |
Can we tell Kirby you need to sign out for a bit |
Idk |
I hate not being able to do what I'm supposed to |
I really do feel like I'm having teenage girl whiny tantrums because i just can't keep going with this and i have nothing left |
I put myself out for now |
It sucks |
What is all over everything |
Just my mess of brain and my stressings |
Are you still dizzy |
Yes. I went into the next room so i could lay flat |
Fuck. I hate this |
Ok no apology needed |
Cold towel for your face? Would that help |
Hey how are you? |
I hope you are napping. Lmk what's up when you can ♥️ |
Hey |
Really sorru about that |
You're back! |
I am |
How are you doing |
Okay. A little better |
Whew |
Had me worried |
Im sorry |
Did you sleep |
For a quick minute yeah |
Breathing ok |
Yeah |
Okay |
Good |
Quite a spell for you! |
No solid evidence but i think it was just pre panic |
Another day, another mental breakdown |
:( |
Work or something else? |
Yes |
I'm sorry |
It's okay |
But thank you |
I think this weekend approaching is really setting me off a lot |
But also work |
You are anxious about the weekend? |
Yes |
I havent told you the plans yet |
Oh ok |
It is L's birthday. He likes my mother's lake house. We are headed up there Thursday after work and will return Monday evening |
Oh |
Me too |
You seem disappointed |
That just sounds like a shitty time for you |
I'm not sure I would have been able to do anything this weekend, but that's better than being dragged off to purgatory |
It reminds me a lot of how I feel about going to mil's sometimes |
Thanks |
Hugs |
Thank you |
Just told someone that today is nuts (at work) and they said "what's nuts about it?" |
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Well that looks tasty, Missy tomato |
Indeed |
Cheezez |
I approve |
Thanks! |
Do you like grilled cheese? |
Most definitely! |
The best secret is to add a teensy bit of shreddded cheese to the outer bread sides once youve applied the butter/mayo, then that gets crisped on |
In fact I just added slicing cheese to my grocery list because I saw that sandwich |
Awww |
That's a cool trick with the shred! |
Some of my homemade breads make grilled cheese that is over the moon |
Lovely! I like a good hearty tomato basil bread to elevate it. Maybe add spinach and pickled onions |
Fancy! |
Or how about cheddar bits right in the loaf... |
I like to put peppers in too, but I would leave them out for you |
Very sweet |
I can improve pretty much any kind of yeasted bread, with or without accoutrement. Just let me know what you like |
*impvov |
Or improve I guess lol |
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I can't remember if I told you but I started seriously baking in 2017 and I've made literally hundreds of batches of bread, rolls, buns, bagels, even pretzels. Mostly improvised |
Fantastic! |
That's my one talent |
All I got for ya |
Liesssssss |
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You know it too |
Dont you?? |
Hmmmm? |
Oooh questions! |
I also love to use special flours. I've used white and wheat ofc but also rye, soy, quinoa,and buckwheat |
Nice! |
See above l9l |
It's all I got dude. I get kneady and then start to get a big rise going. It's very exciting |
Think bigger strokes of talent |
It's like 10x bigger afterwards. I can barely get it in my mouth |
Can't even get my hands around it |
I mean you can try if you want |
Fair warning: you might salivate a little |
Then or now? |
Absolutely lol |
Back to questions |
First time you went down on someone? All details please. And how did you learn? |
Sorry David is rambling |
What a surprise! |
Tell him his bones are wet. And that if you lick a human bone it will stick to your tongue like sandpaper because of how porous it is |
And his tongue is older than his teeth |
Lol! |
True |
I have silly but good news |
Ok 45 minutes later, David's 5 minute update has concluded lol |
Lol |
Need anything from the frandor? |
Do they have any sweet sexy girls? |
Psht tons! |
They might be waiting on a text though |
Oh ok. Well if you see one in a reflection somewhere let her know I am off the phone. |
I hear there might be one at Panera or World Market in just a few |
Perhaps already there now |
Omg you need these |
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Those are cool! I like botanicals. |
Mais bien sur! |
In other news I've hauled 100 lbs of junk of my house just now lol |
I've been on a cleaning binge the last few days |
That's great! |
And 7th load of laundry about to be folded |
Congrats! Very proud of you |
I'm glad you feel better! |
Thanks! |
How's it going there? You're missing a good time! |
Oh I did my shopping for the month last Friday lol |
I found a relic you might find amusing |
That was a different month! |
Relic, eh? |
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Dang girl in red in Cleveland the day after my b'day! I was just at that venue in January |
And I know a great place to stay |
I can makes lottttttts work |
Plenty of Great Lakes book clubs, yknow?? |
Lol! |
Where were all these concerts hiding |
I think i like you |
You just want my dough |
I'm crusty |
Im kneady |
I'm baked |
Im curious |
Lololol |
I'm not really baked fyi |
This is my first week of sober work nights |
In too long |
I am essentially begging you for us to get really, really high or drunk or both and then fuck out brains out |
That cool with you? |
That is definitely on the menu |
I might eat you alive |
B E G G I N G |
HOLY FUCK the psychedelic furs are the headliner at Frankie!!! |
And Jesus and Mary chain |
Damn! |
I think you would find me amusing at live shows. I tend to really let go |
I don't know how you'd think i am |
You haven't had a lot of opportunity |
No biggie |
At long as you like it |
Yes |
You still shopping? |
I am |
What makes interesting shopping in Frandor? |
Lots of places, variety, large but small, i can walk around, also has food, idk. No one vats an eye when i come here |
I might bat my eyes at you |
I'll make them close with great fervor in surprise |
Oo baby! |
You feel welcome to do the same |
Surprise me in the best ways |
It'll be soooo fun! |
What else you got?? |
A terrible need to take a shower! Wanna sniff? |
I just made dinner and I am tapped. Gonna shower and sext with this hot chick I met |
I would still lick parts of you |
Tell her i said hi! |
Oh sure! |
Oh maybe she has silly good news for you? |
I hope so |
You wanna see now or no? |
Yeah let's have it :) |
null |
Yay! |
Lol thanks |
Silly and stupid but i feel better with results |
100% |
So i might be a giant slut but at least I'm a clean ish one! |
So |
You're not gonna be dirty anymore? |
Oh please |
I'm just not the dirtiest anymore |
One of those classy whores |
Don't go changing ok |
Unsure how much truth is in that |
Take your shower |
Ok lol stay classy |
Ok ron burgundy |
Heyyyyyyy |
Howaya |
Still pretty okay |
You? |
Much more better |
Clean and in clean clothes and clean bed |
Thinking clean thoughts |
Liar |
Idk what you are referring to |
Tell me these clean thought |
Well my mouth is so clean RN I don't even want to talk or I might get it dirty |
Good thing you can use your digits instead |
They are as clean as can be. And nails trimmed |
I dare not get them dirty |
Good thing you told me |
Oh I think I owe you an answer |
Id hate to tarnish anything |
You owe me a few |
Lol |
Oh! |
Well I just inhaled a big so I guess I'm not clean anymore |
A bug |
Im your bed? |
In |
Wait-- you are my bed? |
Yes |
I think you said t that on purpose |
Mayhaps |
Well the bug was invisible, microscopic. But I'm sure it was there |
Ok |
Where to begin |
What are you in the mood for? |
Filth |
What were you going to answer? |
My first time going down |
How's that? |
Perrrrrrfect |
So this was my late HS-to-college GF. |
She has a single mom (entomologist trained in Malaysia), younger bro, and Mom's mom living in the house |
All of Chinese heritage |
Anyway |
Her mom was always out on weekends, hanging with her boyfriend. She actually encouraged the kids to have friends over, so they would be drunk there and not running the roads. She'd even cook for before she headed out |
Cool mom basically |
And she knew we were fucking |
Cool with that too |
So where else would I be on a weekend lol |
Anyway one night we were watching a movie or whatever, making out |
I guess I was fingering her down her shorts and just got the courage to ask if I "could kiss it?" |
And so I did, and I think she came? |
But I had zero idea what I was doing. I knew what she tasted like well enough from my fingers, but this was a new level of course |
She told me I did a pretty good job for first time |
And that's the story |
Oh-- |
It was always A possibility that g' ma would come downstairs |
She spoke no English |
It was hilarious when she did because she'd start washing dishes or whatever and my GF would yell at her in Mandarin. |
I learned "wo shi" -- I will wash -- to help usher g'ma back upstairs |
Exvellent story time, thank you |
No problem! |
So you'd already fucked? |
Yeah--i think I told you this a while back but she took me by surprise in my own bedroom. I lost my virginity with her on top of me |
I sort of knew that story |
Did you do this through her shorts? Take them off? |
I think I pulled them off |
This was in the living room. |
They had a bunch of plush sectional pieces |
Had she had that before? |
So I got on the floor and got my face wet |
I think so? |
She fucked a dude I was band friends with, before me |
Btw |
Have you been someone's first time for something? What? |
That's one moment where my jealousy really got the better of me. When it really sunk in that she had been with him I bawled like an idiot for two hours |
It was truly ridiculous |
I'm not like that any more |
It's okay to be still |
Well a little maybe, but that was kinda excessive |
Anyway |
I've never been anyone's first fuck, but I guess I was a first something or another else |
The prior GF, also in HS, felt my fingers on her pussy, a first for her. We were so not up to speed it was funny, but it was pretty hot and I still think about that sometimes. |
She was at the only reunion I went to and we actually had a good time |
She was also a band chum |
And the GF before that, spanning late middle school to early HS , |
I pulled her shirt up and sucked boobs one day--surprised her. |
She wrote me a very polite note where she said she really enjoyed my hands on her but she wasn't ready for the oral part yet |
It was really cute |
Also a band chum |
Also at the reunion |
Also had a good time |
Guess who was not at the Reunion? |
Boy band mate? |
Other R? |
Chinese gf. |
Ah |
She married a guy in my grad class. He was there, we had been friends before, and we had a great chat |
She refused to come with him because she knew I would be there (it was organized via FB) |
So I've literally never seen her again |
I did get a three page letter from her at some point. |
I never read it |
Oh |
Interesting |
One more fun fact |
You know at some point i will ask for that story |
She and her mom are the reasons I got the tox lab job. |
GF was actually getting out of it, but her mom was full time |
I literally worked with her mom |
My mom literally fucked my friend who dated me for a few. Brother's pal too. And took my pseudo sister's virginity |
Wowser |
Lol |
My rebound summer fling with the hippie girl was fun too, but not as much as I wanted |
She had huge boobs, and one time we went camping I think I spent the entire night with my face between them |
We never did fuck though |
I know |
Yeah |
Did you want to say more or next? |
One quick add |
Strange as this seems, I did not know my way around a pussy, even at that point. |
That came later, no pun intended |
How did you learn anything? Like, even how to fuck? |
I honestly don't know. I'm not sure when or how it happened |
And I'm also not sure when I realized that I wanted to do more than just fuck |
And figured out that watching girls get off is mind blowing hot |
Especially from a distance of 1cm |
Anything else you think is mindblowimgly hot that i dont know? |
Your clit prolly |
Wow |
Does my clit look any different or do you just like the splash zone? |
I honest have not had a good look at it yet. To dark |
You actually want to look look? |
I do. |
Actually let me clarify |
I'm not talking about like an inspector and gawking |
I just want to know what she looks like |
Okay |
Besides being cute, it helps me understand what my tongue is telling me |
Hmm |
I don't think there's any wrong |
If you like something else that's cool |
I think I'm sensitive in literally the wrong areas. Too different from other girls |
Hmm. You seemed like you enjoyed it. Clearly we need to repeat this more carefully |
Yes please |
Yes indeed |
I really love being fingered sometimes. A lot of times |
Ohh good |
You're the first to honestly give me oral. Like, more than just give a lick or spit so i would be wetter. And that isn't everyone I've slept with. |
I actually did not. I'm surprised! Who gets a fat pussy like yours and doesn't want to kiss it??? |
TF is wrong with ppl geez |
It didn't serve their primary purpose |
Bah |
So i really am confused AF when you're down doing stuff |
I hope it's not a bad confused? |
No, it's not |
Mostly it's great |
The other part is literal confusion |
I didnt even know oral for any women was possible until pretty late in life |
Interesting |
I take it 69 is not in your experience either |
Correct. I think i tried to try with someone but jist about died suffocating and being compressed |
Yipe! |
And none of his mouth really touched me, ao there's that |
Oh, well shit |
I think you'd be perfect on top of me |
You can do as you like with me |
So I'd be on top? |
Absolutely |
For just normal sex, do you know why i struggle with being on top? |
I sure don't |
Oh for real? |
I will guess: bc the guy usually does the work and you count holes in the ceiling tiles? |
Why would that be a hinderance to me wanting to be on top? |
Because it flips the script. |
You aren't wrong there. I'll continue |
♥️ |
And i didn't have a plan if i couldn't get you in. I always need a plan |
What can you say in response? |
Everything, I'm just not sure where to start :) |
Simplest answer: don't worry |
Don't panic |
It can get messy, but then so can missionary |
With any luck I'm six or seven inches in you anyway |
You are always, but always free to lube, toy, finger, whatever you want. Always! |
Im not saying this to boost your ego |
And it's not unflattering for you. You are beautiful this way |
Well hopefully we proved that I do fit |
Obv need repeatable results, for science |
For science |
So are you willing to go again? |
Yesssssss |
If you'll go again |
And try other new things |
Sweet! Yeah! |
Don't overlook what I said about lube & such. I'm not going to be weirded out in the least. Same goes for toys |
I don't know how for either |
How? |
Do i ask you to pause? |
Or make me do it! |
I will make certain you are well covered to ensure maximum comfort |
So sliding in is as effortless as it can be |
What if I'm too wet after I'm lubed? |
Might even practice run with a finger |
Are you trolling me lol |
No |
Because i want you to still feel something enjoyable |
There is no. Such. Thing. |
Oh, I will feel it |
No worries babe |
:) |
Bc you are still tight. All good |
Wish i couldve been your tightest |
I mean you might be |
I want to be your best everything |
You are so sweet |
Hopefully with me |
I want that for both of us |
I swear these shorts were dry when I put them on lol |
Lies |
🍆 |
You know there's a decent amount of stuff we'd do that makes me feel like i failed or am failing? |
Like what |
You know one |
Pssht |
It's ok to get accoutrements |
It makes me feel old and broken |
I think you will feel much better the first time lube turns "oh no" into "fuck yes!" |
I get it |
Don't worry, I'm not grading you |
Okay good |
Thanks |
Of course |
Just want to have fun |
With you |
And lots of it |
Very very same |
Side question when you have a sec |
And I know you are self-conscious, and that's ok. All you have to do is trust me and work with me. We will do our best together |
Here's an odd thought i cant really explain |
I want to trust you |
Like, hand it all over to y9u |
I feel like there's a "but" next |
There isnt |
I think i do; i have no way of telling |
Ok! |
❤ |
Imma do my damn best to handle it with all the care it should have |
You deserve that |
You can kind of think of it with me as a borderline consensual virgin. Almost every experience with you is new |
YOU know what to do and how and what it should finish as and stuff |
That is more or less how I'm hearing it. I hope this is super fun for you! |
I know. I want to be your best though |
You are already on the path babe |
First time is just a little warm up |
I have a weird observation, and a little crude |
Gasp! |
I know, right? |
You said you felt me relax inside while i was on top |
Wowi think that is awesome |
It really is |
Let's do that more often |
Okay! |
🥰 |
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I am fading fast here |
Is there more you do with your mouth? |
Lol |
More that you didnt yet |
Yeah I reckon there is |
Really? |
There are more places to lick, for sucking, |
Lol |
If it isnt gross, I'm curious about having you suck my clit |
I enjoy that tremendously |
I think i will |
And get a finger in you at the same time... Is usually a good time |
I can kind of imagine it |
Sweet! You'll have to guide me |
I was going to say the same |
I might build slowly over time rather than keep raw and reactive |
Sure! That's a good plan |
Please make me cry |
A good cry in orgasmic relief |
It is my goal now |
I know i have that in me. I havent ever seen it |
Sounds like catharsis to the max. Let's do it! |
It'll break me for a little bit but you'll be there to hold me too |
Yes absolutely |
You will be safe |
It's in my headspace plan for "making love" |
Aww I'm so glad you see it that way! |
I can't wait |
You are spot on |
I feel pathetic begging you to love me like that |
I havent ever wanted anything more |
It's how I want to, so no worries there |
❤ |
❤ |
I think i am faded now |
Backatcha |
Me too baby |
Sweet dreams lover |
I love you too |
2024-10-02T05:40:39 |
Hieeee! 😘😘😘 |
It's earlyyyyyy |
How are you? |
What are you up to after work? |
Hey yeah I woke up early... Another thing that happens when I don't drink I guess |
I'm going to pick up that shelf |
That's good! |
How are you feeling? |
Sleepy but okay thanks |
😊 |
And you? |
Pretty good! Catching up on some financial tracking lol |
Nice |
Finally able to get paystub data |
Woo! Lol |
Dont go breaking that! |
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Camo cat |
I am raising such a smart boy! |
Is he? |
He's well read |
Already on top of his books today, so yes! |
Hee hee! |
I need to wash milk bottles.. today is milk day |
Back in 10 |
Enjoy! |
😊 |
Did you say you have to go in to the office today? |
And tomorrow |
Ick |
No shit |
Am i correct that you would not like a book rec/loan? Brain still slow. Words not wording |
Books are pretty, but I don't really read |
Thought that was correct. These would have been for reading |
Thank you for being honest! |
null |
Oh np |
This may shock you but I'm considering getting a textbook on signal processing. |
Cool! |
I'll allow it lol |
Take onnnnnnnne guess? |
You like bodice rippers? |
Fluid dynamics? |
Is that a secret? |
Hmm |
What's a fluid dynamic? |
|
It's the study of how fluids like wind& water behave and move |
😆 |
It's true |
You fiend lol |
Not really |
We'll nevertheless to have one of the finest collections I've ever seen |
*you have |
2024-10-02T08:34:05 |
Awww thank you! |
Youre missing a great time here lol |
Kinda fetch looking girl in my office |
Heavy eye makeup and a low cut shirt |
WhaaaaT! |
Right? |
So she's cute huh? |
I guess so |
Let me see her |
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Dayum she's a hottie! |
Lol |
She's hot because she's beyond burnt out |
I did manage to clean some this morning though, so that was nice |
Did you figure out what i can procure or make for you yet? |
I tell ya I am tough to buy for because I don't really want material things. Except when I do I go to the record store and buy them lol |
I will try to think of something for you though |
Cause I know you want to |
I pick things up when they remind me of someone |
So if i knew you loved ceramics and cats i might get you a weird looking cat doorstop if i came across it in the wild |
Or if i saw a shirt from that lake i would get it, craft it, and make it yours |
Actually, i already have a zip up fleecey thing for you. We can match since i have the same one! |
I also want to give you THE BEST services possible, so if that's what you're after, you just say the words |
For real. I'm into tons more kinky shit than you'll ever be, so it's 100% beyond okay to inquire or ask |
How does a girl know so much about kinks and not know she can ride me all night lol |
Well |
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Do you know his intended function? |
To amuse me? |
I have no idea actually |
And i know a lot about kinks because... i talk and listen a lot. I dont know about the rides because it's never been top of a list |
In my experience, your cat is a ring holder |
Btw, except for i think 2 people, my "partnerships" were only ever 2 or 3 occasions |
Fair! |
We tried a buzzy cock ring once. It was kinda fun for a minute. Then it broke 😁 |
I have at least one lol |
How does one start that? Who puts it on and when and stuff? |
I don't remember how it works. A little twist or something. It can be a team effort. Best to get me hard first |
Idk if you can |
God i hope that's a joke |
YES IT IS |
Lol okay thanks |
hottie |
Cross any more finish lines thinking of me? |
Not today. Yesterday! |
Fucking hot |
Absolutely! |
Other toys..... and you thoughts please |
Did I ask you about clit buzzer? |
Sucker I mean |
I've seen some very impressive results with them |
I tried nipple clamps. I could maybe get used to that, but I'm still kinda sensitive |
I have at least one air thing for the clit |
I have a lot of (unused) toys |
I have something i kind of want to do. It would involve your physicality maybe |
If it's possible, i want you to spread my legs as far apart and back as you can, holding my thighs apart and then you enter yourself reallllllly slowly until you're deeper than deep |
Fuuuuuuuck |
When can we start |
Just started my union allocated/mandated break...... |
So you're cool with holding my legs back? |
Oh yes I am |
Oh fuckkkkk good |
I think you know exactly what i want for thar |
I'm fucking squirming here |
Fuck |
It would be my sincerest pleasure to assist you in this matter |
Once you're really in, I'll move forward and thrust my hips up just the slightest to get you angled in just that much more |
Ohhhh fuuuuck |
I want all of that |
Me too |
Finding angles is fuuuuun |
Yeah? |
Yes yes |
We can also put your pretty little butt on a pillow to play with angles |
Okay! |
The thought of squeezing your inner thighs to spread you and hold you back is driving me insane |
Good. Me too |
Fucking hottie! |
Im thinking like a quarter of the way between my knees and my fun zone is the perfect place for you to grasp and push to spread. I'll stretch better based on the pressure there and you can really control me |
I'm sweating here lol |
I might need to sneak a lick first |
Think of the tiny little yips and sharp gasps I'll make while you graze areas ot me that have never been touched by anyone or anything |
I like little noises |
And creamy thighs |
You just got me hard |
Brat |
Got my boxers wet |
Awww so sorrrrrrry |
😘 |
Just the precum? Shame to waste it. Maybe you imagine me getting tighter and tighter before my inner walls clench down on you and release a waterfall so you can have a happier day at work |
It was just the pre |
Fuuuuuuuck |
Better take care of the rest of that |
It'll happen at some point |
Pretty soon all my muscles will contract and push me bavk up off you because you're just too much and too deep and soooooo intense |
Oh I hope you are ready for that |
Are YOU ready? |
Oh yeah |
Have you ever just really pounded someone? |
Yes. I lack stamina sometimes. Probably need practice. Lots and lots of practice |
Also I think my shitty mattress has something to do with it. |
So would you try with me? |
Does it appeal to you? |
I'll pound ya! Just whisper how hard you want it. |
I want to share something with you... something positive |
That makes me happy! And.... same |
Of course I am |
What kind would you like first? Kinda sad but good or possibly upsetting and good? |
The latter |
I think i might try not being borderline suicidal for the first time in a few decades now that someone feels like i should stick around |
But now i feel like i shouldn't have said that |
In all seriousness, if you had not said it, I would still be worried that it's true without knowing so, and that is pretty painful for me to carry around. |
♥️ |
I got this babe. |
You dont have to. It's not your responsibility, ever. But thank you |
And i thought it was pretty plainly obvious but know it's touchy, or i would have told you sooner |
You can still ask what you want. Jusy a new topic now, kind or |
I'll use this analogy. You have a warehouse. It's full of things. Some things are really dope. Some are scary af. You invite me over, but we only have an hour, and you can only show me a fraction of your warehouse. So you choose what to show me that day. I'll come over again and you can show me more. Maybe there's a part you don't want me to see. Ok. Maybe there's a part you want me to see, but not yet, or not until I've seen something else first. It's your choice. You can do it the way you want it the way you are most comfortable. |
Thank you for that |
I was 10 the first time i tried. I think that paints kind of a picture of how engrained this is in me |
But i also need it to be an option. I know that's scary and weird sounding but it makes sense to me |
And it astonishes me both when people do notice and when they do not |
Just know there's a huge part of me that does not want that outcome. Selfish perhaps, but still. I don't think I can truly say I understand, but you've told me stories that are literally the worst human experience of anyone I have ever known. So in some way, I think I do understand. |
I'd also like to say that I have never, but never had so much clarity of mind about my feelings for someone. Never. |
As I do for you |
That's confusing and clear to me because i feel the same way |
I just love the mutual appreciation society! |
Me too |
You had one other thing, did you not? |
What do you mean? |
I asked for "the latter" (more serious sounding) option earlier. was there another thing you wanted to say? |
I said them both. That taking my own exit is a comforting option to me and i do not remember not knowing there was an out if i felt like life would always be too much |
Ok! |
I did have more questions for yesterday but they're escaping now. I need to retrace my thoughts |
Okay! |
Hubs, I think. But not positive |
Oh. Okay |
I have something maybe disturbing if youre open to it |
Ok |
Are you sure? |
Involves a scar |
And a non story story |
Duuude |
?? |
I seriously don't know how to respond. You ask me. I say yes. You double dare me. Now what? |
Lol. Not a dare. Just making sure |
I'm big on consents |
Sometimes i forget how psychotic things jve done have been |
But how can I be? |
You've seen the scar |
I appreciate the warning |
I did it to myself. That's kind of the story |
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That one |
Yow |
Double yow |
Cutting emerged after my childhood. I think I mentioned I know a couple people who did it, now three. Is there anything you can or want to say about it? I lack understand |
It makes me feel better instantly, and more ashamed. I dont do it like most (a lot of people do it ritualisticallt, straight lines and straight blades like razors or x acto, quiet, methodically, maybe to a sang on repeat or at a certain time). I do mine impulsively and in kind of a fever fury. Mine has to be instantly painful (not like sinking in gradually or later), most of the time it's because i want to feel different than i do in that moment. I direct the rage or spin the sad against myself so i dont look or act worse on the outside. I remember my first time ultra vividly and it's the only trauma story i have sair, start to finish, for a therapist |
I are word good huh? |
I do it because i dont know what else to do with too much or too little feeling |
You verb noun adverb! |
❤️ to “ You verb noun adverb! ” |
What else? |
Thanks that does put perspective on it. Can't say I've never been inclined to be.... Mean to myself before |
I've got a meeting with David in a couple minutes so I'll probably be quiet for a while |
Enjoy! |
Are you ok? |
Yez |
I forgot how cold this stupid office always is |
And i guess i just have to keep shoveling food away in my mouth to keep up on the energy |
If I need to come up there and feed you let me know |
I had/have food but thanks! |
Heh heh naughty |
Indeed |
How's david? |
He's good. We're reviewing a policy we are responsible for. Very exciting stuff 🤮 |
Anyone i know? |
I mean an HR policy |
Interesting |
Thrilling. Absolutely riveting |
Glad that's over! |
Yeah? |
Meetings like that make me think it should be 1600 already... But I see that is not the case |
Could you do me a favor? |
What's up? |
Can you call the waaambulance for me ? |
Sure 🙂 |
Better ham it up |
Waaaaaaaaaah |
WAAAAAAAAAAAH |
Yep 👍 |
AM I doing it right? |
Yes! |
Oh! |
What are you doing next Friday? |
No idea rn |
I'm knifing |
Knifing? |
Planning |
Mmhmmmmm |
So I'm going to try to set up a lunch date with a former IT dude (he used to sit kinda near you actually) and play hooky for the rest of the day |
Happily fucking? |
That's right! Nookie! |
You are so smart! |
Lol |
You're aware I'm supposed to work? |
🦆 that |
Lol |
We'll see, lol |
Just an idea |
Fair warning that i might drop off pretty quick after 415 for a while. I am just so tired |
You thinking my house for this plan o yours? |
If it's convenient, otherwise, somewhere else! |
Get some rest! |
I cant wait to leave here today |
Bright side is that i can wfh tomorrow |
Oh good! |
You hanging in there? |
Basically jist fell out of my chair with a hypnic jerk |
How about you? |
Oh jeez! |
Filled and removed another bag of crap from the house. Cleaned a refrigerator shelf. Refilled the dishwasher |
Depression is a bitch |
I'm familiar |
Remember after that weekend when i called in for 2 days? |
Yeaah |
Couldnt get up off the floor. Couldnt eat, was sleeping a lot and not sleeping. Other stuff |
*It's okay if not |
Goddamn i am so tired |
You can tell some other time. Don't get sucked in |
I'm very sorry |
Thx |
Did i read that correctly? |
Meant to say dick move, but yeah |
Either way |
It's totally cool. Don't you worry at all. Get you some self-care going and get some rest. That's the best thing for you right now. I am fine... This did not hurt me. |
Be selfish! |
Say it with me..... WAAAAAAAAAAH! |
But seriously |
😘 |
Still working :) |
Jsyk, my post-us depressive episode was actually kind of a good thing |
Just complicated |
I know you're surprised, lol |
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Hommmmmme |
Yay! |
I also just returned |
Hey you |
Yo |
Things ok there ? |
Yep. I'm making a shelf! |
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You doin ok? |
Great work! |
Yeah. Better. Less like i am dying. Spouse just left so that's a bonus i guess |
Lol |
He's going to hang out with his boss |
Are you fucking serious? |
Bwahahajaja |
I thought I was hard up for company. Damn |
Movie night |
I would rather eat glass |
I know |
I think I made this dude's day at Menards. The gate keeper (literally) for the lumber/pickup yard was this meek fella. I praised him up and down for being so helpful and on my way out I told him I appreciate you man! He lit right up with thank yous. It was kinda cute |
That's wonderful! |
Right on! Tryna keep the good mood rolling |
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I'm just roughing in |
That's amazing and very accomplished |
Thank you! |
2024-10-02T19:53:52 |
I wish i could have a few thousand kisses all over from you right now |
Aww! I wish I could give them! |
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Featuring Rama in loaf mode |
Idk.... looks very helpful! |
Oh yeah. Mr helpful |
As good as any other supervisor I've ever seen |
Innit? |
Omg yes |
I think I'm done down here |
It's kind of weird |
I understand that |
No idea lol |
I picked up some yogurt and apples on the way home. I legit might have that. I am back on yogurt and fruit. I've been off for far too long |
That's almost my breakfast every morning but mines a little more fancified lol |
Cut up apples, caramel, peanut butter, some sort of crunch, and yogurt |
Deluxe! |
For sure! Esp when i crumble biscoff on it |
Or add cinnasugar |
That's downright bougie lol |
So easy though |
Or a smash a nature valley while it's in the wrapper |
Or make my own granola |
So resourceful! |
When i have extra cookies i dont want, i save them and pulverize them to use as crunchies later |
Will you be my mommy? |
Lol |
Pweeeese |
Idk.... i already like calling you daddy..... |
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Cat is not vegetarian!!! |
Correct! |
Except when I call him the doodle noodle |
He's trying to crawl on my lap |
I do too! Let the poor thing! |
Oh he's there |
Here |
Damn lucky cat |
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He opted to watch me make shelf instead of napping at the usual time. So he's really persistent |
Silly boy |
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He. Is. In. My. Spot. |
Yeah... Sorry about that |
My tongue still feels better |
Oh my does it ever |
What would have elevated that part of the evening? |
Me being a lot closer to orgasm |
But what can i do |
Be your beautiful self |
And the meds |
But I should be able to get past the meds |
But i want to be better for you. I dont know what you liked and could use less of. More of. Everything. You want to learn about me, right? Same here, about you |
That's fair. In a sense, I don't actually have the depth of experience to know what's what. But I am very comfortable giving gentle feedback, suggesting we change up or whatever |
I guess what I'm asking is just improv, with me doing the same. You'll make me smile, I'm certain of it |
Okay :) |
We're almost the same there |
Twins! |
Lol yes! Except I'm not really entirely sure yet how to give feedback |
I think you know more than you realize |
Kind of. I can tell you where feels good or what. I'm not used to being able to offer feedback |
It's ok |
Nbd |
😊 |
I dont want you to feel bad |
And why would I? |
If you feel like you're not doing well enough or if you're doing something i don't love having done |
It's ok, really. You can say so. Or you can push/pull me where you want me, or tell me you want me to do what you want in that moment |
You gave me some very detailed instructions earlier |
So I know you can do it |
In person or in text? |
Text. Today |
Hmm. Okay, excellent |
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Awww |
I'm headed to the shower and then to my bed |
Me talk good er then tooo |
😊 |
Alrighty then! |
So, what's up? |
So .. question for you: did you have any idea how old I am when you lured me to your office? |
Not really, and didnt care |
And you, when you stepped into my web? Lol |
Well I knew you were younger than me for sure. |
Not THAT much younger |
I thought younger still, not that it bothered me either |
You thought i was younger than i am? |
Yeah, like 35 |
I get that a lot. But i always appreciate it |
I thought you might be mid40s but it didnt occur to me until a few times meeting you that we might not be the same age |
Lol was it my girlish figure? |
Something like that |
🍃 |
Lol that's "flutter" |
Oooohhhhh |
This reminds me of something! |
Of what? |
Well I have to tell a short story to connect all the dots |
So |
Okay. I will wash dishes while you script that out |
Ok Cool. There's a recommendation in it for you! |
Older step son (TNT) was friends with this cute gal in HS. they went to prom. They weren't lovers, but two alike so to say, and they became prom king and Queen. |
Some time later she had a baby by a deadbeat, and then another by another, and she would bring the babies around sometimes |
Many years passed, and then I saw her working at the Frandor Kroger right around the beginning of COVID. I chatted with her a bit, and then started looking for her every time I went in there. |
This is when I started fantasizing about her coming around the house , wearing a sundress, and as in all good porn stories, we immediately have sex |
Out of the blue, I realized I have a thing for sundresses. Idk where it came from, but I'll and behold there's a subreddit dedicated to the idea, so there must be something to it |
When I saw the pic of you with your "I'm 21!" drink, I actually thought I was looking at her for a sec. You two look a lot alike. Very hot. And would look ravishing in a sundress! |
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Wow I'm really fadey already |
I |
Thank you for sharing |
Sundresses are for sure "a thing" |
Yknow, i never did watch the porn clips you sent (sorry!) |
Lol you're not really missing much but ok :) |
I had this idea that we could do a Google chat or something with video and make our own own 🤪 |
Own *porn |
You figure it out and I'll probably be on board ;) |
I'll see what I can figure out |
Nevvvvvvvvver |
Nope |
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Oh shit what have I done |
Go back to the nursing home, clippy! |
I'm sure Cortana is looking and worried |
Right? |
Btw |
I would never torment him |
Wow |
I have a cruel streak |
Nope |
Pull wings off butterflies |
TF is wrong with me |
But you wont slap me ecen if i want it?? Not a cruel bone in your body |
L9l |
Hey, change the subject for me please! |
No I will not slap you |
I see that in porn sometimes |
I immediately nope out |
Like wtf |
That's fascinating |
Butt slapping, ok |
Face slapping, nope |
Clit slapping? |
Tapping maybe |
Although the number of videos where guys are just railing on a girl's clit is boggling |
You can sometimes tell it's not appreciated |
I nope out of those too usually |
Too much clit is not pleasant |
Or too much directness for me |
Right! |
A basic sex ed should teach that. |
Weird. I do not |
And never had any sex ed |
Most guys would not appreciate the tip of their penis being rubbed like Aladdin's lamp |
Those structures start off the same way |
The same bundle of nerves in the guy are completed into that small organ in the girl |
That word was supposed to be "compressed" |
Made sense both ways |
So then it makes sense that if you hit a specific part that it actually hurts me? |
Sure it does! |
I dont think so |
But i always thought it was more of me being miswired |
Well everyone has their preferences and sensitivities too |
I have a really quick few line story to share. Seemingky from nowhere |
One time i was staying in charlevoix and it was obvious the guy and i were about to do stuff. I was excited and expressed how i was really looking forward to making love since it seemed like the perfect time and setting and all. He got upset that i ruined the mood because he only wanted dirty slut hotel room sex |
That's all |
Dang. Why do people suck like that... |
I dont even know. That's just another fleeting memory |
Years ago we used to see these bumper stickers that said "mean people suck". I always thought that was appropriate |
Very |
Do you know Happy Bunny? It's a brand. Kind of |
Oh that sounds familiar floor some reason |
Circa late 90s/2000 |
Like old school Hot Topic a little bit |
Oh yeah! |
Happy Bunny used to have a common one that was "boys are stupid, throw rocks at them" |
Wise ol rabbit |
Lolol |
Of course In charlevoix you're apt to run into people with severe affluenza |
I am very aware |
Also..... im from brighton |
So there's that |
Lol |
TNT was born in charlevoix |
I usually tell people "a town kind of outside ann arbor" |
Oh wow |
I think they were living in East Jordan iirc |
Why not kids? I mean, i know they were both young but you never felt the need to plant seeds? You said babies aren't your thing |
I never felt the urge. And being around other people's kids was all could take. |
Ever had a pregnancy scare? |
Once. My ONS. |
I think she was faking it though, but I didn't think that at the time |
Wow. I sorry. That must have been terrible |
You were okay without a condom with me. I think i already asked, but why? |
Isnt it supposed to reflect negatively on me if i don't make you wear one? |
Geez I dunno about that |
I could have been riddled with disease |
I mean, i didnt know you long before we hopped into bed |
The reverse is also true, yeah? |
Kinda. But i live with a lot more reckless abandon |
I guess I felt like by the time we got there, we discussed a lot of things, and I trusted you |
I used everlywell. It's online, no insurance, and essentially as anonymous as you want it. I've used other similar ones before. And i knew i had a gyn appt so i felt okay casually double confirming with them. |
Good to know of resources. I kinda expected my doc to haul me in for an annual, and at which point she usually will ask if there is any reason at all why I would want to be tested. |
Just trying to be thorough |
Sure. Yeah, i will not put anything i actually question thru my med records, if that statement reads correctly to you |
Ok fair |
So im fine getting the real tests wherever and on my own |
Oh for sure |
My spouse is extremely not connected in that way,by choice |
Oh darling |
I need to drop off |
I am zoning out |
I hope you have a pleasant sleep! Wish I could be with you for it too |
Good night sweet one! 💕 |
2024-10-03T05:27:38 |
Allo! |
Bonjour mon amore! |
C'est un peut tot, non? |
Peut etre |
😘 |
Did you fall asleep at the keyboard? |
Kind of |
*lol |
Aww 😉 |
How was your night? |
Good! I slept well. Except I need to figure out what I'm doing that makes my shoulders so irritated |
I do mean things to my posture in my sleep lol |
It's working itself out tho. Will be fine |
Do you know how you sleep? |
Position |
Side mostly, with lower arm outstretched, under my pillow |
So yeah |
Contorted |
I sleep pretty poorly myself |
Yes, you did sleep fetal. It was cute af |
You watched me sleep? |
I could just wrap myself around you |
No I didn't watch as such |
But you were right there |
Psht. Weirdo. Lol. You noticing that is cute AF |
I mean there was a girl in my bed! I wasn't going to not notice! |
Ofc |
I happen to be sorting some books and look! |
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See the name? |
Yeah--wow! That is cool |
Thanks! I cant wait to get it all really well organized but that'll be next week i guess |
I think I'm going to try reading this weekend for the first real time in more than 3 years |
Send like a good time to pick that back up |
*seems |
I've been too depressed. That's another reason my house is how it is. Things are maybe getting better though so i figured id try some of my old hobbies |
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Good for you! |
:) |
Painted that last night. Plan now is to make it multimedia i think |
You did??? That is so cool! |
Thank yoy! It's no Eileen Holaday but i do decently with acrylics. I have a handful ive done in the last few years. Most were at Wine & Canvas. I had a lot of talent my 5th year of high school when i took a ton of art classes |
So good! I am really impressed! |
Whatever. I tried lol |
How many of my relatives can you name?? Lol |
Lol |
I think more |
Without consulting my notes |
It's more than one |
You just dont realize it maybe |
Do I use the force or what obi-wan? |
Lol. Inductive reasoning and the socratic method |
Whose name do you know |
Andrew Martin |
Mmhmm. And where did he get his first name, maybe |
Hmm. Dad! |
You are so smart! |
Oh yeah. Lauri |
Yeah, mostly |
Not her legal name but yes |
Does Mom have a sister? |
Yes |
Marcia |
Yes |
How are you finding these ? |
Obit for Rosemary opperthauser |
Indeed |
What else then? |
Can you come vacuum please |
Right after I finish here. Every. Room. In. This. House. |
I almost started yesterday |
I dont need rug burn lol |
Lol we have a lot of bare floors actually |
Somehow that might be worse lol |
Yeah |
What else have you found on me? |
A mole |
Nevus keratosis? |
The same |
Yes. I have lots. Some call them freckles. Perhaps you saw them |
Some, yes |
I didn't catalog them. I was too busy enjoying your soft skin |
And |
Wanna know something funny? |
Yes I do |
You first. And.....? |
Your amazeballs tight pussy |
Which apparently needs tightening |
I just shuddered do hard I almost fell out of my chair lol |
Why? |
Memmmmmmories |
Oh, okay |
I'm back on earth now |
Hey remember when i made a puddle on you |
And you topped out |
And i got your face wet |
Remember those? |
You made a puddle on me? |
Yep |
Do you not recall? |
No I definitely need to have this repeated |
Well i climbed on top |
Fumbled around because i couldnt figure out how to get you in |
Eventually we succeeded with a tight fitting entry |
I moved my hips, rolled around, grinded up and down on you |
Really found things i liked doing and feeling |
Oh my god... |
And all of a sudden you were as deep as anyone had ever been |
I relaxed and you were at least halfway up inside, practically to my throat |
And then i opened just the sliiiiightest bit more |
And you hit the perfect spot |
Then before i could blink there was a deluge |
And i was in a puddle of our own making all over you |
Maybe you remember more now? |
Wowwwww |
I felt the wet inside you |
I know i do. My legs are even shaking |
Again |
Oh i was sitting on your dick and a tiny lake for sure |
🥰 |
This reminds me of something i was going to ask |
Anything |
It felt like i had random minigasms almost the whole rest of the night. I would twitch and shudder and have this fantastic whole body shiver type thing but in an amazing way |
What was that? |
I think that was exactly what you just called it--mini orgasms |
My understanding is some women can have multiples of orgasms |
Is that a normal thing? Or am i extra broken? |
But it was random |
I'd call it blessed |
I honestly feel like i could almost think myself to the precipice now if i tried |
Or if you kissed me in the right places |
Oh my sweet baby! |
I want that for you |
Thank you |
Youre the one who gave it to me |
I have never been so turned on by a written description of sex |
Fucking amazing |
I'm so happy I could do that for you |
You just don't even know |
It's very strange to me |
And wonderful |
Yes. And very foreign |
I believe you but i dont think I've really believed someone ever before |
I cant explain this, but i actually feel that you love me |
I want all good things for you. Yes I do love you ♥️ |
I'm sure you've heard these lyrics |
Does it make sense? |
They arent immediate to me |
Girl In Red |
Ohhhh yes |
In my head it was a man singing, hence confusion |
What does it mean to you? How would you explain the lyrics? |
Well I think the song is about girls cheating with other girls |
"did she make you come better than I do?" |
Said one girl to another |
And you think uis somg migjt be a bit apropos? |
I think it just proves that some girls have multiple orgasms |
Girls talk about it on OF too |
When was it really actually evident that i hadn't had good sex before? |
More richard scarry |
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That is so cool. I've never seen that |
Thanks! No evasion though lol |
Lol |
If it wasnt, that's fine |
I think you said some things before our meet up that made me think along those lines, but when we really got going with the sex was when I was pretty sure |
And when you were certain? |
When you started saying you weren't sure what just happened |
Because at that point I was thinking |
My response would have either been "i dont know?" Or "i thought jd had" or i still would have been like "wtf?" |
You're my first good sex. Congrats |
You don't have to say that but I'm glad it was good! |
I dont have to say anything |
Yay! |
And I want to give you more and more and more |
OMG |
I just figured something out |
Shoot |
You and I are a lot alike like that: |
You're used to being the giver |
Yes |
You see where this is going |
Maybe |
What a fucking perfect setup |
Two pleasure-givers who will not take no for an answer |
Yes |
I don't know if lol or cringe is the right reaction |
Lol |
We both want to out-give the other |
It's a love fest |
Lol yes! |
So when I said I'm just a little subbie I was really expressing a part of me that seldom gets relief |
But I don't mind playing to both sides |
And i meant im available for using |
Especially since you have new things to learn and experience |
Indeed |
OMG we are going to have so much fun |
Let's play that we're hedonists |
PERFECT |
insatiable pleasure seekers |
I have never been so aware of my sexuality in my life |
This is very inspiring |
I didnt know it was okay for me to want pleasure for myself |
"you will learn" |
:) |
Be back in 20 or so |
Roger that |
Came back. Kinda |
Back to work. Whoopie! |
Yep! Sitting in a different room today so i can get some house stuff done |
You lovin the job today? |
Oh posiroutely |
I'm going to send you something on teams in a minute. Don't worry... Sfw |
So how I feel about work is in the teams chat lol |
I have a face for those identical feelings |
Yiu know the face of mine |
"Unamused" |
Fiiiine |
Go ahead. Tell me you cant picture the face on me |
Oh I can see it |
I like your amused face much more |
I think you like my cumfused face best lol |
Hahaha |
We should word on that |
Yes and work as well |
I've never done that btw. Dreamed about it. |
About what? |
Cumming on a girl's face. I should say 'fantasized' not dreamt |
We can get there I'm sure |
Oh ok |
That is to say, i cant guarantee if I'll like it but we can try everything as long as you're okay, knowing i might not be a fan |
We dont have to |
All good. I'm a fan of try, then decide if it's in or out next time |
That felt really confusing to say lol |
I get it |
Thanks for being a good sport |
No no no thank YOU for all of this |
Same goes for me btw |
Uh, within reason lol |
I need more please |
Your list is almost positively shorter than mine |
I want to try it all |
There is something idk if you would try or not. I crave it |
And i still want to know what you have to say about rough please |
On the last point... Even though I may fantasize about kicking some dickhead's ass, I really try to curb my violent thoughts. I never want to hurt the one I love, and I am afraid of what could happen if testosterone takes over |
I've never really lost it like that, but I don't want to start |
And honest to goodness, I've only had vanilla sex. Various positions, but practically zero exotics |
I experimented with a dildo (on myself) a few times but never really got into it. |
So please lead the way! I'll experiment with you |
I kind of want to do it all |
I dont really know positions, that could be interesting |
Well let's have a field day with all of it |
Please! |
Are you willing to pin me down in a fun and consensual way? |
Yes absolutely |
Fuck yes! |
And fold you like a pretzel |
?? |
And go to pound town! |
Yesssss |
But i fold how? |
Like you described yesterday... Which I cannot get out of my head... With your legs spread and pushed back |
Mmmmmm yes |
I want all of me to be fully open to you, for you |
Ohh baby |
2024-10-03T11:45:02 |
Oh, yes |
Too many meetings today. Aargh! |
Too many calls & requests |
And incompetent coworkers |
Aargh! I say! |
I am ovvvvvver today. Home, work, otherwise |
((♥️)) |
Wanna see our "2 week communication"? |
Oh yeah let's see it |
Just sent it |
I want to sleep while working all day every day during restoration. How do i sign up for that? |
(Separate issue) |
I don't think Roni is very well in tune with her staff |
For us or the world or...? They are vastly different opinions which is why i ask |
Right? But invoicing 'sure is big innit!' |
I am just.... ugh |
Lots of thoughts and unpleasant "feelings" about the whole damn day |
I know: ( |
You getting rid of any furniture? |
Funny you should ask |
I'll have to tell you about the collector cum hoarder over here |
I am finally speechless |
I just wanted a fun upcycling project! |
I might have a few for ya that are not gross |
Im still shaken l9l |
There is a pair of dining room chairs that has been in my basement since my parents moved out of East Lansing in.. idk 2003 maybe? "For someday" |
Hint: someday does not happen here, but we're waiting for about a hundred of then |
I can probably sneak those out. I'm sure they are dusty, but they're wood mostly and need the seat recovered |
Hmmm interesting |
No, I've thought about making them into a bonfire |
What do they look like rn? |
There's nothing shelf -worthy on them |
I'll go dig em up and take a pic |
Meh |
Oh I really should do that. And we can run away! |
Did it before and I'll do it again! |
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The one the right is the one I was thinking of. I thought there were two |
I think the one on the right ia very shelfable |
It's yours! |
I'll make it for you :) |
Comme ca |
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I see ... Our definitions of shelf are different lol |
That's why it's a small display ledge lol |
Synonym: oubliette |
Mdr |
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I can to harder |
You tell me ;) |
I'm going to stick with my interpretation |
Like i said, i can go harder |
Smh I can't wait |
It's funny how well that actually works |
... Smh |
How are you holding up? |
Ugggĥhhhhh dont even |
I'm sorry |
Same |
Are you leaving for 4 days of isolation with..... someone?? |
But yes. Also sorry for you |
Just know if you need to be rescued, I will come and get you |
Not even joking |
But I hope it's ok |
Thank you |
I'll be several hours away but i appreciate that |
Sorry if this is majorly age-wrong, did you ever watch howdy doody? |
And i wonder if you jnow what I'm asking next |
I never did. I think that was a little dated when I was a kid |
And I actually don't know what's next lol |
Your message seemed genuinely concerned with rescuaged? |
I just want you to know I'm there if you need me. ☺️ |
You're the best! |
Managed to clean some even after our my early morning rising. And framed some stuff |
Good job |
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Amazing! I found some extra Sendak today too |
I survived the work week :) |
And i found american chocolate that i think i like |
Yay! |
What's the Choco? |
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Semi sweet even huh? |
Yes? |
Is that unusual? |
Just kinda surprising a non chocoholic liking semi-sweet, but hey! |
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Alright cool! The vegans will hate but that's what they do lol |
For every vegan who doesn't eat cheese, i have 3x as much |
Me too lol 🤣 |
So the shelves in the basement are also enabling rehab of the shelves in my office so I can actually see the things I have and have a place to put my camera stuff. That extra tripod really threw off the chi |
Do you need a dehumidifier? |
Unsure, but you and i live in an identical climate. You dislike it? |
And thanks |
I used to need it in the basement. Not any more because we fixed water issues |
At great expense I might add |
Like $16k |
That's a lot of playdates lol |
Ikr? |
But only a couple months o electric bills 😂 |
Oiye |
I've also got a bunch of hydroponic stuff. I grew some decent veg a few years ago. Then depression showed up and told me to stop paying attention. The dead remains are still all over the place |
Maybe you and i can both get our residences clean lol |
I definitely feel motivated to attack "my" areas, which is substantial. Unfortunately the entire house needs it, and I will not touch her spaces |
I understand some of that mentality |
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A jack |
Jacks |
Jax |
?? |
Word of the day: Caltrops |
I've got two kinds, and bunches of em |
So now i have to look them up? Unfair! Lol |
Lol that's all I'm going to say about them |
Oh! I do know those! Romans, i think |
You didnt die from the wound but from the later infection |
Bunches of em, eh? |
Yep |
You know the next question |
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Riiiiight |
We are leaving shortly i guess. I have no idea how reachable i will be |
Ok babe. Good luck, keep your sanity, be safe out there, and I love you. Looking forward to to your return! |
Bon voyage! |
Thanks |
I'm sorry babe |
I know |
And now, the departure |
Bon chance a vous aussi ce weekend |
2024-10-03T22:08:58 |
Arrived |
I love you, sweet dreams and whatnot |
2024-10-04T05:04:02 |
❤ |
Allo! |
How are you? |
I woke up and started cleaning lol |
I am doing that too! Will be scolded for it. Oh well |
Ok. I was a little cold. I don't always realize it until I wake up tensed. I did some stretches. Better now |
Woke up thinking of you🥰 |
Omg twins!!! |
Yay! |
I bet you didn't have a hard-on tho |
No. Damn. |
Lol "shoot" |
You too lol |
Would it be okay if i woke you up by pleasuring you? |
That would make my day :) |
Really? |
It would |
I'll be doing that then |
So this house, right...? |
Totally normal stuff laying around |
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Oh how.. fun |
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Purely from an object count perspective, reminds me of your room |
Hahahahahahaha |
It's also so fucking dark in here no matter what |
Ah yeah cabins are often dark, it seems |
How are you doing with the isolation? |
Yes, but this is a small house (not a cabin). She just likes dark |
I will think on it |
Yeah? Then i have something perfect in mind |
Also |
Ty |
😊 |
Send the bat signal if you need rescuing! |
Will do thanks |
I actually do kinda like Michigan stuff. I'm a michigoon through and through |
I am feeling more positive about being okay |
Ooh never heard that! |
Always thought that sounded better than michiganian |
I'm glad you're feeling better! |
Michigander.... |
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Argentina!?!?! |
Yes! Iguazu to be precise |
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Dang how cool! I never got to go anywhere... Except Kalamazoo |
And that one (russia, along the volga) |
Oh wow! |
There's another from Malta and one more from a Carolina that have been some of my better snapshots |
They're in the sleeping room tho |
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That one is me in Capri, near the blue grotto. Also where Tiberius' ruins are |
OMG I so would have kidnapped you |
Which? |
Me with my mellophone, right?!?! |
Yes, and in Capri |
100% |
I was legal loo |
*lol |
Fucccck |
19, about a week before i turned 20 |
Still a virgin by my standards |
Drool |
Such a hottie |
Omg no but thanks |
When I was a freshman in college I remember writing in my notebook about the girls I thought were cute as I sat in some gathering place. |
You're such a pretty girl |
Oh. Thank you |
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That's how i went to work on halloween 3 years ago |
Some others you might like |
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And to finish |
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Hot fucking damn |
Hmmm? |
The Halloween outfit 👌 |
Worked all day in it at AFHQ |
That's the only thing I like about Halloween |
Same |
I think i showed you a few of me as dorothy? |
Hmm. Did you? |
I'll send it again lol |
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It was supposed to be slutty but ended up being cute because i was small |
Made the Belle one |
Kissing paper was a sex Olympics event that i & we won |
Oh, that's always my real hair & not a wig. Fun, right.? |
Definitely fun. Would like to see you do this again in person :) |
OMG you make me shiver with excitement! |
Lol so I got up at 0500 and RLH was still awake. She just dozed off half an hour ago |
I have 6 fucking hours of meetings today |
That's excessive! |
On a Friday no less lol |
Nbu be that way |
Right! |
I do recommend getting out of bu jobs if you want real upside monetary potential |
I want something that i can actually show my potential at, if that makes sense |
Ofc. That makes it more enjoyable too |
What kind of things do you like? |
In a job? |
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That's the back yard |
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Actually looks nice :) |
Yeah job... What kind of things would interest you? |
Writing |
Organizing |
Im not sure what else to say? |
Have you ever thought about exec admin? |
Kind of, i dont think i want the intensity |
Makes sense |
Wanna be my sexetary? |
I wish |
It's intense, but you'll do great |
Fucking yessssss |
I do 1-1 team building regularly |
I perform outside normal job duties |
I can wear whatever you pick as a uniform |
You seem pretty enthusiastic about it |
Above average lol |
Nice |
Late nights are possible |
But well rewarded |
I work best in those hours |
Hmm very good! |
I also run a tight ship, take direction and feedback well, and sometimes suck up to the man in charge |
I'm not just lip service |
🥰 |
2024-10-04T13:21:19 |
How ya doin? |
I have 2 things for you to look up later |
90 minutes to go! |
Yay! 🎉 |
Then? |
Groceries |
What are you getting me? |
Tasty foodies! |
Oh, fun! |
I make delicious salads |
Take your ingredients and get a tupperware or bowl with lid or giant jar with lid, place all ingredients in, add dressing, shake |
Perfectly coated |
I also dont necessitate lettuce or leaves as a salad ingredient, just in case you wondered |
I dont do that well with leaves |
Hmm. I am a leaf lover. but I never buy plain lettuce. Romaine for plain days, fancy kind for fancy days. |
I also make a yummy lentil salad |
Nice |
The last meeting is OVER!!! |
2024-10-04T16:43:18 |
How has the rest of the afternoon been? |
I am finally done with my work! |
How are you faring? |
Office of...? |
Une Chaise Executif, as it were, for the place where she spends most waking hours. It's also where her computer is and she smokes in this place also. The chair arrived in a ledge box today. Much assemble. |
One so far. Oktoberfest in glass now |
I really miss you! |
You are correct about the okt. This may be the one and only. 3 is all it takes to drill me to the floor |
And I will save some for us |
I cannot wait to sink a beer with you. A little smoke. And fuck, and fuck, and then fuck some more. And then eat. |
Some of your spectacular grilled cheese |
Can I pick you up and bring you home so you can make your grilled cheese? |
I don't have much money. I can offer you some other compensation for your services. I am very reasonable and like to provide great value for your troubles. You can ask me anything |
Yes to alllllll that |
What would you ask in return? I am not physically flexible, but I think you will find that you are unlimited in terms of what you want me to do for you |
Omg you're so terrible and perfect |
I can be those things. Do you like Dad jokes? |
I tried to start a hot air balloon business but it never took off |
Isn't that perfect? |
Lol very |
Pssht lol |
Does your phone have Gemin? |
Something to consider: if i want to be totally shit faced, borderline blackout drunk and then fuck...? |
And we need to figure out how I'll imbibe my cannabis, which type, etc |
Reverse first. Sure. I got the vibe you'd prefer edibles? I can get some. Cookies? Candy? Or I can cook with it. Pasta or pizza sauce is a good substrate in my opinion. Does this appeal to you? |
Don't really have a preference. I don't know what I'm doing. Probably sweet. And I've never smoked, so def edible |
Well! |
Any q about that? |
I don't know what to expect it to feel like |
Fastest way to feel it, that's smoking? |
Yes |
We could do something fun |
I'm intrigued |
I'll take the hit, and pass you my lungful |
I'd still get some of the thc? |
Yeah, especially if we're quick |
Yesssss |
Please |
If you'd rather not smoke tho, this is not what you want |
I mean it when i say i dont know what I'm doing. Ive never smoked anything |
That's a good thing! I don't want to pressure you into it. Smoke is smoke. Maybe you inhaled some at some point in your life? I don't think the risk is any worse. |
Ive inhaled a lot if it actually |
So yeah. We are still here (confirmation bias, but who is keeping score?) |
So glad I quit fr |
And yeah this time is different |
Sounds excellent |
Roger, so if you want to get blind drunk, you do you. Is that a practice you know? |
Say it differently? |
I was actually probing this. Badly lol. |
You're asking if i get black out drunk often? |
My question is, right |
Do you have any idea, right now? Im typing my answer |
Yep I do |
Ok sorry |
I'm ready, after you |
Rarely get drunk and not not much anyway. BOD is fantasy. Or a taunt. Or a RFI. |
I have maybe 1 or 2 or 3 drinks maybe once a quarter, sometimes less. It does not take much for me to get tipsy, then more than that. Ive been blacked out drunk just from alcohol twice ever. Maybe just once, and even then i remember the last thing i said was that i wasnt going to remember anything after that sentence. I stay fun for a long time and get more fun |
RFI? |
Request for information |
Ty all makes sense |
Typing with left hand sucks |
Lol |
Dare i ask? |
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BBQ potato chips |
Cute |
Gutter mind |
And.... that wasnt an answer? |
It was! |
To my first question of the later evening? |
I was working backwards. What q are we at? |
The scenario is that I'm totally gone to the wind... can we fuck then? |
If you can! Then we shall |
That doesn't give me enough answer |
But I'll let it slide |
Nonono, are you asking is it possible, acceptable, flexible, or ? Maybe someone else? |
Fml someone. Sb something |
What should I listen to? |
What mood do you want? |
The one you want lol |
Uplifting |
But not crazy |
I want to know if i want you to do things to and with me in that state, will you? |
Yes I will! Anything you want* you know the disclaimer already |
Sing |
Sing a song |
Wonderland |
Taylor swift |
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In case it's not apparent to a girl with one working eye |
The area adjacent to the black pump and underneath the spindle were torn off 10 months ago and look perfect |
Ohhhh |
I am kinda doofy |
Good i like it |
♥️ |
I am a good boy |
The goodest |
Thank you |
Do you have a wonderland link by chance? |
https://open.spotify.com/track/2ve0kuaWUCt4Zx8x4bf1MR?si=-faDLGQhRam45UBdKbHcyA |
https://open.spotify.com/track/1wtOxkiel43cVs0Yux5Q4h?si=vsLsVYzhTGKg-uLF9h3z5w |
Thank you! |
😟 |
Wrong face |
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Tree testicle! |
Lol!! |
What does Taylor's Version mean to you? |
It's actually a legit thing |
Her old producer guy Scooter Braun sold her entire work without her knowing ir getting paid for that sale. So she rerecords Taylor's Version when she can and she gets ownership and royalties and whatever if it's her version |
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Taylor_Swift_albums_discography |
https://www.wikihow.com/What-Does-Taylor%27s-Version-Mean#:~:text=%22Taylor%27s%20Version%22%20means%20the%20album,owns%20the%20rights%20to%20it. |
Yeah I read about that. Huge respect for Taylor for pushing back! |
Which song? |
Wonderland, Taylor's version. |
Gotcha |
All good |
In a cheesy synopsis, just be happy in your daydream with whoever joins you |
And it's all probably fleeting anyway |
But the song in general just makes me happy and feels like im dancing in panties and an oversized button up with a messy bun while making you breakfast and dancing around a living room |
I have no further questions |
You are amazing |
Why? I mean, what for now? |
I love to see a girl turning l genuinely feeling free |
Wow thanks autocorrect |
Love to see you feeling free |
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:) |
Sweet baby |
I need to do kitchen things... Afk 30-60 ok |
Same! |
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Who has the guttermind? |
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Wow my mind is stright out in the ocean right now. Flat iut left that gutter |
Do tell |
Euphemisms for |
I'm sorry. What ever are you talking about? |
Gnsc |
Is this secret code? |
Good night sweet cherry? |
Just a list |
Is that it? |
Letters mean nothing |
Gonna nookie some chick |
? |
You kids |
Omg |
You are truly |
Truly |
Scrumptious |
Mmm |
It's not peeing is it. Your secret kink. |
You think i have a secret one?? Lol |
Thank full. I am allergic to pee |
I get quite silly smh |
Which smh..,? |
Lol |
Try me. Free samples! |
Good. I like cream filling |
You have such good taste |
Hey, why do you think I'm "scary smart"? What makes you think and say that |
Scary does have the wrong tone. |
But you know that lol |
I dont disagree with the descriptor, i knew what you meant |
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2024-10-04T23:29:55 |
You still up? |
Down baby girl |
Jeeeesus |
Down your dark alleys |
Cats aight? |
This is how I address my beloved fur babies actually |
Omg |
I don't care you have me, you I'm dtf however you want |
Sorry, got dizzy, too many words |
How you doing? |
Ok. You? |
Splendid |
Anything you want to share about your day? |
Idk |
Hi body! Why on earth were you scolded? And the punishment? |
I like you |
Because i spent too much time looking at stuff and getting what i felt like without permission |
I like you too |
Boys |
I am a boy as well. As much as I'm unsure I like the label |
You told me you reject the label |
But also.... we shopped at the same places, just separately. He didn't like that i got what i felt like |
Ohhhh |
Did you offend him? |
Did you buy A dildo that says "Daddy" on it? |
Nope |
Housewares mostly |
And frames |
And books |
No knickers? |
Thrift stores |
So painted ceramic dildos |
Obviously |
Speaking of toys |
Eh? |
You think of what you want to use on or in or with me yet? |
Sure! |
Do you like vibe with your dildo? |
I dont know enough |
Oh ok. All good. |
Honestly all I want |
All I really really want |
You've seen in my closet too |
So tell me more taboo things |
You are so amazing |
I have this new thing where i give what i get |
Ooooooh aren't you sweet |
I will give you what you like |
As long as i give you more |
Or take, depending on the act ;) |
I want you more than that |
Ha ha now what |
Anything you want |
So whatll it be? |
Will you surreptitiously reveal yourself to me |
You turn me on so much |
I apparently dont know what this means |
But yes |
Haha |
Fiiiine |
I know surreptitiously, i know reveal |
Maybe you set up a scenario where I see down your blouse |
Ooohhh i understand better now |
I have something much better in mind |
Ohhhh |
You'll have no idea and then |
Tease me all you like |
Are you having naughty thoughts |
You're a lyrics girl. I think you'd like this. |
https://open.spotify.com/track/3N2UhXZI4Gf64Ku3cCjz2g?si=k73gLJbfRQWr9sQdkcqfRQ&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A49MNmJhZQewjt06rpwp6QR |
And this |
https://open.spotify.com/track/0oeEqyEAavgPfFxDYvjAP6?si=NG0rpdJbRhmbIssC7E4wHA |
If you only listen to one of the above, choose the second |
2024-10-05T06:46:09 |
Good morning babe! |
2024-10-05T09:05:43 |
Good morning! |
How ya doin? |
A little spacey yet |
Yeah! |
Still spacey whycome? |
Just woke up |
Plans?? |
Pick one please |
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The bird! |
Fun! |
Fave animals? |
Oh gosh I dunno |
Headed on a boat tour :] |
Watch out for sharks! |
2024-10-05T13:21:08 |
Esp the salty ones! |
Animals and fairy tales or lore please! |
2024-10-05T14:23:16 |
I always liked the story of the crow and the pitcher |
https://aesopsfables.org/F69_The-Crow-and-the-Pitcher.html |
2024-10-05T16:10:43 |
So how YOU doin? |
Pretty good 😁 |
Organized? |
Slightly more than before |
I keep getting distracted. Clean a little, draw some workspace plans, organize a little, repeat |
How was your boat ride? |
Fine thanks. Organized tour |
I am playing geologist now |
There's a cool vintage record store jn downtown alpena, just fyi |
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You think about me much today? |
I've thought about you all day! |
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Whaddya reckon it is (or was)? |
No idea! I just picked the ones i thought looked cool |
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That was coral |
So these thoughts about me today.... completely pure & innocent? |
As pure as the blue blue waters of Huron |
As pristine as a new snow |
Ohh I'm sure lol |
Any less than squeaky clean? |
Oh it was very squeaky. As innocent as a newborn baby |
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I'm going to remove the little vertical shelf sitting in the back left corner of the bench |
But I would like a regular shelf roughly where the amazing likeness is drawn in green |
I'm thinking kinda diminutive... Maybe 12 long x 8 deep |
For putting down phone, pipe, beer, etc. Off the bench |
I've been repairing some things. About to fix this lamp cord |
Sorry, had to be afk suddenly |
I might fall asleep for a quick sec but would love to hear every thought you had today |
😘 |
Scoff! Denying me!? You know i love for the details |
Live for. Damn Freudian slips |
Well I've made the most progress on bench & shelf org. And I repaired a lamp cord, and replaced another. I also drew my little work area in SketchUp (ever used it? It's the only way I can draw lol), and modeled adding a shelf, but ruled that out. But ruled in a 40" power strip to be mounted on the wall at the back of my bench. |
Absolutely! Hopefully we can make some of next weekend a little better ;) |
I have not used that program. I am very very old school |
Moi aussi! |
I have A yen for mechanical drawing. SketchUp is so fun for me! Lol I still have my drafting board from HS |
I knew how to use CADD a bit in high school |
That sounds lkke a fun project! I have modeled a couple in SketchUp too! |
Whatcha doin now? |
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Looking good! |
I have a surprise I will show later... Remind me! |
Okay! |
I have one I'm thinking of saying |
Ooooooh? |
Yep! |
You wanna guess or should i tell you later? |
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Fantastic! |
This is making me feel so relaxed for a change lol |
Mmm yesss |
You didn't call a man cave as such. What did you call it? |
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I am planning to make a tape rack--or two really, to hold all the tape spools |
Spotify loves me |
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*valance |
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Perfect! |
I may habe an addition, kind of |
2024-10-06T00:30:01 |
What is it? |
I am so interested to know! |
Just a sticker |
You awake for a while? |
Yo |
Yes? |
Hieeee |
Missed you |
I missed you, too |
How is the night? |
Really good, low key |
Did you nap |
For a few hours, yeah |
What are you doing now? |
Colon |
*chilling |
Lolol |
What kind of mood are you in? |
Also, just saw some The 1975 records in a video and they're liquid filled and omg |
Sweet! |
I'm really happy to hear from you |
Im so thankful youre around |
Mellow or not right now? |
Of course babe, no worries. Very mellow here, yes. |
Want a mellow ish soundtrack? |
Yeah hit me up |
https://open.spotify.com/album/24mCiOTIF5Ob1uwluRFERv?si=zZdmkxlwQmabjZzX7Mee0g |
I wish i could be with you right now |
*idea |
How would you make me feel better if something was wrong but i couldn't say much more than that? |
Pretty bummed |
What's wrong? |
Whoops I misread that |
I would whisper in your ear |
Fuck that I would lick your ear |
And kiss your mouth |
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Very nice! |
Give me your tongue girl |
You're cute |
I really liked it when you sucked my fingers |
Which time? |
Vinnie's |
And the other time |
I liked doing that |
You make me melt |
You do more than that for me |
How was your day? You seem somewhat in agreement with current environs |
It was alright thanks. Struggling now. Dont know what i should do |
Say more? |
Hmm |
I would hug you if I were there rn |
Thank you |
Do i sleep? Clean? Online shop? Take meds? Drink caffeine? |
What kind of meds? |
Anxiety meds |
Ok! |
How can I help? |
You tell me first |
I believe I was licking your ear |
What makes a pretty princess feel better? |
I like your nipples |
*pretty |
You're far too good to me |
You needed help with something... is this it? |
I need your crafty skills! |
I will give you free use of me |
Guess what I got in the mail?! |
Shoot |
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I will let you borrow it if you want |
Cuuuuute!!! |
I might wear it to bed tomorrow |
No one might notice? |
Nah |
She doesn't sleep there most days |
Oh, okay |
If you were allowed to buy me 3 things regardless of their monetary value, what would you choose? Obv why too. Like granting 3 wishes, which will be the next topic lol |
Not my best time for critical thinking lol |
Are you off with the substance fae or just sleepy? |
The former |
You can pause til later |
What did they choose for you tonight? |
I can still be a good boy tho |
Same as last night actually, but in somewhat improved ambience |
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Fabluelous!!! |
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Very very cool |
Like its daddy |
Aww |
Pop quiz: do you know the 2 names you're basically never allowed to call me? Unless we're obviously kidding around |
I'm not sure actually. Did you point them out? |
I thought so but could be mistaken. I know i didnt emphasize tne point |
I shall not. |
What made you think of such things |
I dont care if you use them, i even throw them around, just don't spit them AT me |
Ok no worries babe |
Why say that last part? Just reassurance? |
Yes |
Okay then. Thanks |
You never told me what getting high is like |
Well let me try! |
Haha okay |
For me anyway |
Sometimes it's like pulling out the ghosty icky part of me that worries and squabbles and fixates on things and gets frustrated by it. |
That sounds beyond amazing |
More to follow |
It just drifts away from the top of my spine |
And for me |
I start to get really fixated on what I'm doing... With one huge caveat |
?? |
I'm lucky if I can remember what I'm doing from one moment to the next unless it's literally in front of me |
I get very forgetful |
And yet I also get good at cooking, or cleaning, if I'm in the mood |
I also have theory I've been waiting over a year to try out |
Okay |
I think sex would be so amazing |
But alas |
Here I am |
Without |
Anyhoo |
I'm confused now |
Is sex not in our future? |
And all the rest? |
I hope so! |
I want you now |
I love you, and i love being wanted, and it would be amazing to have you everywhere in and on and around me |
Have you fucked high before.? |
No |
Ohhhhhhh |
I had no idea |
I had a 20 year gap in smoking weed |
Also didnt know that |
And in the 90s good weed was not always around |
Right |
I have a statement query |
You know that i want to tell you everything but some stuff i absolutely can't, right?? |
So i release it to you in the universe. I hope you feel what i need you to |
I did not understand there is something you absolutely can't tell me. |
It's ok though |
I pick up what you're putting down |
Did you nod off on me lol |
I would love to feel you next to me |
2024-10-06T07:15:15 |
Good morning my sweetest! |
You have plans today? |
One of my very silly purchases yesterday was less than $1 but really cool. It's an old photo. Says "peru" on it but who knows?? |
2024-10-06T10:10:31 |
Hieeee! |
2024-10-06T11:27:45 |
How are you? |
Doing well. Starting to organize more |
I ordered a small lathe! |
N95 where are youuuu? |
Tell me more! |
Just a small bench top wood lathe so I can make lathey things |
Round things |
It goes around |
What's on your agenda today? |
Chilling out, cleaning some more, going into town to grab a little food, idk what else. Still thinking I might try reading. Will prob sleep more |
Also, you needed ceaft assistance maybe? |
Kinda. I'll be on the lookout for a couple things for the hobby bench |
I might have things youd be welcome to, depending on aesthetic |
Are you going for a decor theme? |
Yeah that's the idea for sure. I would rather find or reuse something |
No theme here |
Well |
Maybe industrial? |
I mean my theme is cardboard & plywood so yeah 😉 |
Lol not forever |
Colors & patterns you like & dont? |
I'm pretty easy |
Lol |
I got you! |
Yay! |
How many? Rough sizes? |
I also have lamps if you want any |
Do you have a dremel? |
Par example.... |
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Nice! |
Thanks! Made of literal trash |
Napkin + spam can |
Spam can ftw! |
Exactly! |
I thrive off of repurposing |
Tshirt i like but cant fit? Starched wall art or new tote bag for me! |
Or I mean you could just wear it for me |
Not if it gives me trex arms |
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Well shoot |
Lol |
I should have a couple Dremels. Maybe I will unearth one today |
I actually need it to fix my dead bolt |
Interesting |
Isn't it so |
I bet you wont guess the 2 reaspns ive used a dremel |
To cut your friend's nipple ring off |
And to break into your car when LR locked the keys in |
Not so much, though both are equally likely for irl scenarios lol |
To grind down mug handles when i dont want them on the drinking vessel |
Ahh! "High speed", as we say in the biz |
Haha, yeah |
You expected something less?! |
Not at all lol |
Have you or a partner ever been physically hurt or otherwise injured in any sexcapades? (Not intending this to be sfunnjust real life info) |
Not really. In later years, her back would hurt, but that's kind of a given. No injury from the sex per se |
Congrats! That's kind of uncommon to hear no injuries |
I wish I had sexcapades |
I'll tell you mine :) |
Im good time |
In |
Going to sift & thrift soon. Requests? |
Lol you are a good time too |
Well then i have exciting news for you!!! |
OMG I just found coriander seeds I made from a hydroponic grow. Was not expecting that |
Great work! Do you enjoy cilantro? |
I love it |
Seeds are tasty |
I will put unreasonable amounts of cilantro in things. It's so good |
Hahahahahhaahaha |
Just found something excelleht for you |
Uh oh lol |
2024-10-06T17:22:21 |
Oh shush. What havent you liked from me so far?? |
😗 |
How's the day been? |
Good! I made another area ready to be more productive And less dusty |
Lots more to do but this is a really good advancement |
I am done for the moment though |
And I feel absolutely filthy. Only in body though. Not in my thoughts at all ever |
Oh im sure! |
Well I've showered |
What would the opposite of those thoughts be, then? |
I |
Such a shame |
What can you tell me of such things? |
Havent had the experiences i thought might be prudent to gain such sweet, carnal knowledge between two similarly subby sluts |
😋 |
Did you triumph at thrifting? |
Obviously! |
Ooh! |
Might need to know more preferences of yours but there's time |
I am dying to know your weekend thoughts |
I need a good reason to be out of the house all day! |
Well yes, but i was more referring to what transpired in that cranium of yours this past weekend |
I'm excited to have space for hobbies. There is still lots to do but today I felt like I saw real progress. |
I'm glad you've been able to stay in touch! That made it so much more fun |
Glad to hear! |
Jsyk, it's actually taken me a considerable effort |
Youre worth it |
How's the week ahead looking? |
Hope it's been an okay evening for you |
2024-10-06T23:49:38 |
It has |
You sure? |
2024-10-07T04:33:33 |
Yes absolutely! |
2024-10-07T05:47:36 |
Hallo! |
How's the coffee? Do you drink a specific brand? |
Yay! |
Hey you're up early innit? |
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Actually a bit late for my usual |
But you are! |
True that. I wonder if I am slipping back into getting up really early. |
What time is normal for you? |
Usually between 4 and 5. If it's before 4 i try to go back to sleep |
Nice |
That was me today |
Yay! |
😊 |
Are you happy to be coming home? |
Yes mostly |
Here I am! |
What's on your mind? |
Lol I'm trying to organize my bench a little. I just found a container and some tools I didn't know I had. |
Oh fun! |
May i male a suggestion? |
I'd rather you female it but please go ahead |
Lol whatever you say |
When you have all of your tools and implements gathered, collect them in one bucket or otherwise large vessel. I will clean and sort them, you'll pick your new storage stuff from my curated selection and they'll look so new and spiffed up |
Wowser |
That would be awesome. I am cleaning a few select items but the whole lot could use some love |
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What am i doing?? |
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Cleaning the bejeesus it of something |
Baking soda or bleach powder? |
Think chemocal reaction |
NaHCO3 |
Possibly physical? |
I didnt have silver polish/tarnish remover. Alukinum foil, super hot water, baking soda |
Ah yeah right. The ol' silver treatment. What is the object? |
A few trays |
Nice! |
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Best of luck! |
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Cuteness |
Enjoy the work! |
Oh sure lol. I have two "tentative placeholder for interview" today. HR masterminds at their finest lol |
Ofc! |
2024-10-07T12:46:42 |
And now i depart :) |
😊 |
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You having a day? |
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When are you less busy? |
Yeah it's a day. Some down time between 1430 and 1530 |
Lookit these two cuties right here! |
Lol |
Probably around 1730 :) |
And the rest of the week? |
Who knows lol. I have a coworker who has a proclivity to set up meetings for every. Little. Thing. |
And after work, I got nothing but time, except sometimes I make dinner. |
Tiny meeting suckkkkkk |
Proving it is possible to be too inclusive |
2024-10-07T16:18:35 |
Oh definitely |
Made it back! |
Yay! |
Welcome back! |
Thanks! |
2024-10-07T17:40:49 |
It is 1740 now |
Sorry I got caught up polishing the plane blades. I'm quite amazed at how well the cutter kept its edge. I'm sure it hasn't been seen to in over 30 years and was covered in rust. |
So the elecrolyzing went well? |
It sure did! |
My bucket now looks like somebody pulled up a gallon of root beer and sprinkled cinnamon on top |
I dont think it tastes the same |
Please resist the temptation to try the concoction |
Yeah I think I will not be trying that |
I slept, so it was alright. Forgot how bad this house is but it's fine |
Bad? |
Messy and dirty |
This is why I don't allow people in my house lol |
I lovvvvvve cleaning though |
And i dont care what anyone's house looks like unless it's too clean then i get uneasy |
It's just a thing |
I get it. I've been cleaning some really bad corners lately. I'm fine with doing that. Crucially though, they had either my things or neutral. What I can deal with is the 75% oh the house that is literally her things her there and everywhere |
Unsure what i would be pointing out but you're totally fine |
So what kinds of goodies did you find that made it worth the trip? |
Tons! I have lots of craft and upgrade things to do now. Some new wall decor obv. A few books. Maybe things that'll help you |
Nice! |
Do you like plates with pictures painted on them? |
Sometimes, depends on the picture |
China service? |
Always like that stuff, but kinda still depends on what the painted thing is. Floral? Nature? Swirls and stuff? Yes. Too much late 1960s? Not my thing |
Oops lol |
Sorry |
I meant PLATES |
Lol |
I realllllly like other things from then |
The late 60s are not really known for refined taste |
I know |
Lol |
Hey that reminds me... Do you have a couch? |
Somewhere |
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Lololol |
Because? |
Well I've never screwed on a couch but it looks like it could be fun |
Absolutely |
So you're still up for these activities? Most excelleny |
Like you thought I changed my mind or?? |
Yeah |
Why because you have Alpena cooties now? |
Maybe lol |
Just me thinking again |
I should probably stop that |
Just stick to positive thoughts |
It's hard |
I know it is. I struggle too. I am glad you are back though! |
Me too. It wasnt great up there |
How do? Was it the isolation? |
Kind of? It was suffocating and some things are more obvious in a cage, of thmt makes sense |
Is the house really small |
Yeah |
https://www.realtor.com/realestateandhomes-detail/3729-S-US-Highway-23_Greenbush_MI_48738_M43335-00036 |
But there's sooooo much that crowds in the space in the meantime |
Would it be better there with someone else or is it just terrible no matter what |
I was there with L for his birthday |
I know that |
Sorry meant with someone besides L |
Ohh. With most people it would be just fine, enjoyable even. There's just nowhere for me to go or anything i can do when I'm with him or my mother. Esp in that setting. And I've already been scolded by each of them for cleaning and reminded how i am this and that and other hurtful things and cant do anything right and i know there will be more to come of that |
Makes sense |
Maybe you should hook up your mother and L |
She likes him vetter than me and i anyway |
Intentional grammar |
Wow |
?? |
It's just an odd situation |
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Oh |
Me too |
I just unboxed an order I placed on Discogs.com a couple days before we went to the record store |
Oh that's amazing! |
So I have four empty jackets if you want them |
There were two packages. Two jackets each |
Perhaps. Thank you! |
I can't bring myself to toss them! |
Would you feel better if i just went ahead and said yes? |
Lol it's fiiiiiine |
You mean until you do? |
I can also explain why id say pegaps and not an immediate yes |
Either way |
Because i never wabt you to think I'm taking too much and i feel greedy a lot of the time |
I can assure you I am nowhere in the realm of such thoughts |
Okay :) |
😊 |
Okay |
Besides, you've been very generous to me :) |
I dont really think so (from my perspective) but thank you |
Well you have been in my opinion. In any case, we agreed! We will say something before icky feelings get the better of us. As best as we can. |
Thank you 🙂 |
I tried to smile in an emojibut chonky thumbs lol |
Lol |
Almost have a kitchen corner done! |
Yay! |
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Wonderful! |
Which are you looking forward to most? |
Which what now? |
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Nvm I am so dense sometimes. Mine is on the right with the feta & green olives. And jalapenos cut fine. |
That's how i learned i was allergic lol |
Ah. So that's out |
Vegetable wise, basically nothing peppers |
Mmm flavored fat vessels are the bomb |
Yes! Black olives are one of my favorite foods lol. And kalamata |
Lol you just answered my next question |
Rama and I both love green olives |
Nope |
But he only has one at a time where I have like 40 |
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A bell!? |
Yes. Possibly an old telephone ringer |
There are just a few oddities like this that the old man who built the place left behind |
It's awesome! Thank you for thinking of me :) |
Any idea what it's made of? |
All steel but for the two coils. The plate is also coated black. I'm not sure if it's paint or this old time black tool finish I can't think of the name of RN |
Oh yeah -- it was called Japanning. It uses a substance called asphaltum and some other smelly things. I watched a guy make some on YT |
Interesting! |
Some of the YT refinishers/ restorers are quite good |
Any sort of glassware, animal, weird kitchy sort of things i can locate here for you? |
Cats are usually a safe bet :) |
At some point I will be in the market for a glass stirring rod, for the chemistry side of the hobby bench |
I do not have one of those |
Not really require... But glass is keen bc it's non reactive. Also makes a good pouring guide |
Yes, just trying to imagine what you'll be doing there lol |
No worries. I'm not going to do anything dangerous |
Famous last movie character words |
Cannnnn you tell me? |
Btf? |
No... Star wars lol |
A whole lot of movies lol |
Lol |
Bambi |
Lol |
I have better questions tonight i think |
Ok sure! |
I need some sweet dream material so I might have a couple as well |
I think you were in a dream last night actually. But it wasn't fun |
It wasn't icky either. Just weird. Like dreams are |
Since you're away I'll just tell you ... |
We were in some big city, in a part where people don't really walk. And it was dark |
Sorry, had to climb stairs |
And I felt like I had to go somewhere. But you didn't want me to. But I needed to. So I started walking. In the dark. In a place where people don't do that |
But I had to get something. I don't recall what, but we needed it. So off I went |
I didn't like going against your wishes, to but I had to get the thing for us |
You're positive this was a dream? |
Yes last night |
Hmm. Okay, weird. Did you want to say more about it? |
I did not feel scared. I knew it was a scary place, according to people. But I felt nothing but determination |
You have no idea what you or we needed? |
I don't have any idea |
Huh |
I've had a lot of little vignettes lately. All but forgotten now. Random things might remind me of one, like just now |
I could use more romantic dreams. I don't often have them |
I dont dream |
Really? |
Yes |
After me |
Oh. Yes. I have ideas why. Lots of emotions even though i don't usually feel, finally relaxed for a bit, didn't have regrets, slept for 2 days basically. Almost 3 |
You felt a big wave! |
Several. Of varying sorts |
Good? Bad? Indifferent? |
Yes. And just weird and maybe confused |
Everything was to me with you |
Dang we need to practice |
Yes |
And i missed the word "new" up there |
Everything was new to me with you, not just because you were a new partner |
I want to be so good for you |
Am the time |
And there for you |
I want so so much of you |
This isn't a fair question but I will ask anyway |
*see |
Why isn't it a fair question? |
Ok I was not sure |
What's your mood rn? |
Fat,happy,and sleepy |
Full of fresh veg |
For a change |
What do you usually eat? |
Often some kinda fake meat like veggie burger, and frozen veg. Or pasta and sauce. |
Thanks |
I feel like I need to cut back a bit on some of those things though. Not eliminate, but I don't like to get too dependent on them |
I need to start making bread again |
And soup |
And beans in the pressure cooker |
It IS that time.of year! |
Yesss! |
Seriously.. I will make a pot of beans and eat burritos for a week. I like em that much |
And cilantro. Lots and lots of it |
Dont forget rice! Rice + beans = a complete protein |
Righto! |
I like to make rice too. |
Straight up, or with tomatoes |
Do you know how to make super easy burrito casserole? |
Hmm! I know something like that but enchiladas-like... Using plain old corn chips |
Mine is easier |
I want to know! |
Get frozen burritos (or maoe your own) |
That is awesome |
Thank you |
Nice! |
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Yes....? |
Oh! A soup bowl! |
So... weed, right? |
So weed yeah? |
I am beyond excited |
But anyway, how does smoking it work? |
Where does youra comes from? |
Does it just get chopped into tiny pieces and dried and put into paper like a cigarette? |
We get it from one of the dispensaries, I don't even know which. They're everywhere lol. RLH picks out 5 or 6 that look good to her. I am not so picky, but it's kind of incredible what variety is available. I like to put it in a pipe. I have a little grinder that makes a nice even consistency |
Thanks |
It's lights out time for me sweetest one |
I love you too! |
On the intertext lol |
😊 |
🥰 |
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2024-10-08T04:56:26 |
Good morning my sweetest one! |
2024-10-08T06:36:08 |
And to you as well! |
So you have to go in to the office today? |
And tomorrow |
Blecch sorry |
I will be T W Th next week |
Chez AFHQ? |
Si |
Grupo AF |
The only company that's AF af |
Yeah you aren't kidding |
What color top should i wear? |
Black with tiny hearts |
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You look great with a heart on! |
Lol. Similar sentiment here, for you! |
Aww thanks |
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Have breakfast yet? |
Not yet |
I was just thinking of that |
Been working on a reconciliation for almost 90 minutes |
Sometimes i do recs that take literally 3 work days |
It's pretty utilitarian. But I'm trying to brighten it up. I need lots of light in work areas. So lighter, brighter, or reflective is good! |
I can make all of that work! |
Sweet! |
Okay well no images, but i have options and spray paint and can always get more |
Did you need floor shelves or anything? |
Another thought for some hanging shelves is to get a hook/finneal/nail and repurpose a shower caddy. Works well for succulents! |
Do you need any kind of furniture? |
I might actually want floor shelves if they're sturdy. I know I just bought some. They're full lol! |
I would take a rolling stool if I found one. I have an old lab chair I salvaged but it kinda sucks lol |
Maybe, you'll have to be the judge of its sturdinss lol. It is little but held a lot of book weight! |
Yeah perfect idea for the shelf and stool. I go to D&D pretty often, but I don't think I've been to April's |
Oh wait, yes I have lol |
The ones next to each other |
It's been a while |
There is also D&D on cedar South of Mt hope |
Was coscarellis restaurant back in the day |
I haven't been to either lol. Probably paying a visit to April's today. Maybe. Thinking about Habitat Restore but i havent been there before |
I have some excellent wall decor for you now too! Or i could refashion it into a tray |
2024-10-08T11:31:28 |
Omggggghhhĥ |
What's happening? |
More of the new norm, i guess? |
😊 |
What are they feeding you? |
Tacos e mas is what the email said |
It's always fucking Mexican food |
Fine, just...... i am very limited in what i can choose |
Peppers e mas amiright |
You betcha |
And depends on the cook what peppera and how many are in anything |
What we need is some Becca e mas |
And most mexiseasoning is a mixture of peppers |
😃 |
I am tiny and small and can probably fit under your desk |
I am pepper free |
My lips are well lubricated |
E mas |
Where do you like to go out to eat? |
I can find something almost anywhere. That's the best i can give you. I'm kind of a mood eater and usually dont eat at a place but I'll have it at home |
You? |
I rarely eat out unless I'm working in the office. I can also find something almost anywhere, but there are a couple places I will never go (Meat, for example). otherwise I'm not really picky. RLH can be hypercritical at times so I usually avoid the whole idea |
Well now I'm crying all alone in my stupid office with a stupid plate of chips. Chips. |
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Well shit |
And the taco choices were chicken or beef |
And my director didnt know i had allergies |
Everybody in this damn service center knows about me and peppers |
OMG this is like every other good day for me everywhere |
*FOOD DAY dammit |
Good day? |
Lol okay |
Queso? Pepper chunks |
I am so flippin let down every day i come here |
Is there not a single vegetarian in the service center? |
There are |
Sounds like a fail |
It is always a fail |
So shopping after work it is |
Spouse of line decided he didnt want to work (his pto so totally fine) |
I'm so sorry. What a shitty shit show for you. |
It's always this way. It would be nice to not expect and be exhausted by this all the time |
I am sooooooo tired right now. I think a wave smacked me. Rude. |
Took a shot of caffeine. Here's hoping! |
Disappointment is disappointing :( |
Very much. And i added to it just now but whatever |
Guess what i just did thatll be good for me?? |
Ate chocolate? |
Psht |
Nope. Better |
Esp because.... how much do i love chocolate again? |
You want to bathe in it |
I want you to bathe it off of me, but that's different lol |
You have to lick and suck a whole lot to get it off |
Just sayin |
Good |
You drizzling it or am i? |
That's an actual question - who sauces whom? |
Let's practice with whipped cream. Much fewer consequences |
So I hand you the can |
You |
Next I have the can. What shall I do? |
I will draw a bead from your knee to your hip. Yum yum |
Are you still playing? |
Fuckkkkkk that's intriguing! |
Sorry, actual work beckoned |
You MIGHT need to hold me down, steady me. Nice, firm, assertive... while i squirm and contirt and flex ecstatically |
PSA: i might have a ton already but i have decided i need more frames for some projects |
Oh definitely. I'm not letting whipped cream go to waste now. |
Do you need pics for the frames? |
I have tons of flowers |
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Very nice! |
Ok lol |
One day though! |
What kind of art do you like? |
Meh mostly |
I like Escher I guess |
I'm not full of culture |
Idk I am generally put off by things people do in the name of art |
And Wally world kitch is absolutely the worst thing that ever happened |
I basically agree with you |
So do you not gravitate toward one movement or another in terms aesthetic pleasure either? |
Say more? |
I like impressionism is an example |
I don't really identify with anything like that |
All my friends in HS fawned over one artist or another. I just can't |
I get it |
Where are some favorite places youve ever been? |
Up state Michigan (near Wolverine/Vanderbilt), Ozarks, Ireland, Scotland. Oh, and Olympic nat park area in WA. |
I'm not well travelled but I've mostly loved the places I've been |
Cool! |
I'm freeeeeeeee |
Yay! |
Narrow down like how? |
County Wicklow, for eg |
Braemar |
/Cairngorms |
pigeon River State Forest |
Elwha river |
That's somewhat more precise |
Okay okay thankd |
Was hoping there was a favorite favorite |
Finally home |
Do you have thoughts or opinions on animated movies? |
Generally like them |
How to train your dragon was killer |
Saw it in 3d |
Don't forget the last Airbender! |
Epic |
Epic as an adjective or a proper noun? |
Both actually |
Sorry no |
Non proper noun, and adjective |
I grew up on old school Looney Tunes |
still favorites |
Old Disney animated movies ofc |
I bet RobinHood is a fave |
And Sword in the Stone |
It's been a long time but yeah |
Jungle book! |
I have the soundtrack to the first Disney production! |
Oh nice! |
I am ever building a disney collection. I know you're surprised lol |
That's a great collection to have |
Mostly books |
Please come rescue her |
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Aww! |
She is tidying prohibitive! |
Wanna talk about anything? |
Sure babe! What's on your mind? |
I asked you first :) |
Right lol |
Well I just got rid of another bag of trash and junk from the basement |
Feels good |
Yay! |
And I think I've figured out what my first serious project will be with the lathe. I'll make another hair thingy but I found a small piece of very fancy purple heart wood |
Have you ever been to Johnson's in Chartucky? |
Haven't even heard of it |
It's full of wood and woodcraft tools. Everything you could imagine. Most of it rather expensive, but small pieces of fancy wood are not too dear |
Oh fun! |
Yes that's it |
There's a thriftiquey place there that looks cool |
I'm sure lol. It's Chartucky! |
You could also always find a big piece of wood being randomly used (frame, shelf, whatever) and scrap it for parts lol |
That's a great idea! |
I'll be looking on the ground too |
Well always! |
Might find pennies to fund my newly revitalized hobbies |
Maybe! |
I just bought $210 of stuff at Amazon lol. Glad I waited for prime day... Saved over 70! |
Also, think of things as components and not as what they are. Awful art in a gorgeous frame? Now the frame is yours and you can put whatever in it, even just a mirror. Or a calendar. |
You're so resourceful! |
Super worn out books at thrift stores make awesome wall hangings too |
You should open an Etsy store lol |
Pins you like but wouldnt wear? Cool. It's a magnet now |
I've thought about it |
I also spot valuable stuff pretty decently |
Nice! I've bought quite a few things from that shop |
I could perhaps be persuaded to sell you goods and/or servjces... |
Omg cleaning, you guttermind! |
Ummm, I was only going to suggest batting for some of my services |
*bartering |
I told you I'm greedy now lol |
Entirely your fault though |
It would be hilarious if I hired you as a maid. RLH is supposed to be looking for one... Like the weeks ago now |
Three |
Weeks |
I reallybhave cleaned professionally before. For homes and for a cruise line and restaurants and hotels |
Although honestly I would not subject you to that... Or house that is |
It's a great porn setup though |
I would milk that for all it's worth |
"I'll just be showing the maid where we keep all the poles" |
Lol |
And weird places the bed is lumpy so she can fix that |
"how would I know she's not wearing panties?" |
"She sure LOOKS like a traditional maid... feather duster and white gloves and heels..." |
The bed does have a lot of lumps and bulges |
Weird |
Lol |
So this weekend |
Bum bum bum |
Yes indeed |
Looking to get out? |
Your thoughts at this moment if you could do almost anything? |
I would rob somebody's RV, pick you up, go someplace quiet, and fuck your brains out |
Why an RV? |
It has a bed! |
Mmhmm mmhmm |
And what if i had an open house to myself? |
I could maybe avoid Grand theft auto indictment |
That'd be nice |
Yeah, I agree. Never been to prison. Not a good look. Don't want to start |
Maybe I'll tell you all about my brother going to jail and me finding out and why no one in my family talks to me |
Unless you already found that out on the google |
I did not. Your family is so dysfunctional |
So your house... |
Without a spouse |
I dont even think that describes my family |
Do we need a new word for your family? |
Yes we do |
So I wonder what I could say that will get me out of a house |
I dont know what's possible for you, so thought maybe a few days notice might help |
Maybe I need something at the Despot |
Of Homes |
Restoration efforts migjt be unpredictable |
Or Chez Merdard |
Indeed |
Maybe you need to check all those stores |
And lowes |
Something just popped up oh dear |
Where ever shall I go? |
All the way out to Mt dew pleasant I tell ya |
I'm going to leave that typo l I'll l |
Then they might tell you to check howell. Who knows!? |
Right?! |
Crazy |
And you might feel weird so decide to stop and eat and take a minute |
Ofc |
I don't know why there's whipped cream in my ear actually |
Are you thinking Saturday? |
Unsure as of yet |
Right sure |
Np really. I got nothing but more cleaning and organizing to do |
For sure |
And this silly old bed |
I would like to try under the sheets if that's a possibility |
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All the ways! |
Lookit all the babies! |
I'm very popular lol |
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Whatcha got there? |
Egg noodles, cream of mushroom soup, peas, faux chicken strips, white and green onions, topped with tomato halves and crispy onions for FunZies. |
Sounds yum! |
I dont think i would have added the chx but not sure if i would replace it with anything |
It would surely work without as well! |
I would add cheese lol. And maybe something cruciferoua |
Oh sure! That would be good. I thought about cheese and decided against it this time. We had an obscenely cheesy casserole a few weeks ago |
Fondue? Raclette? Lol |
Uhhhh Krogé Sharpe Cheddar |
What are you having? |
Unknown |
Had spaghetti squash and gummy uniocrns when i got home |
You must have been starving after the lunch disaster |
Kinda. I had my own stuff like i always do but when i get strong emotions i get really unhungry. As in, actually feel like I've eaten way too much |
Oh I am familiar with that phenomenon |
No better way to lose your appetite |
Yep. Basically any lunch they have catered is something i cant eat most of. It doesnt matter to anyone so i just have to let it go. Same with required in office time when im only supposed to be physically at afhq one day a week |
Does anyone really check that though? You've got Kirby in your court to some extent right? |
It's only been since this systemic fiasco |
Sigh. Control freaks |
It's literally one person. To whom i do not report but who will report me to whomever he wants |
Who is that? |
The one and only Travis Miller, employee of the . Who i trained. And who takes 49476478 smoke breaks a day. And thinks he's the ultimate gift to af and mankind |
JFC did he pass 3rd grade? |
Nothing except factory floor labor after high school, i think he passed that though. |
Hmm. Sure would be a shame if someone smelled weed when he was out there |
Oh that's okay, i think his mom keeps air freshener with her. Or maybe all his manager pals. couldnt tell a difference anyway since theyre all attached at the hip |
Oh FML who is his mom |
Pam Miller |
Noooooooo |
No wonder |
Why do you say that? |
She didn't believe it when they told her that her face would get stuck like that |
Hahahahahahahahahaha |
Literally my firat thougjt about her |
I know her vicariously through a former employee |
Miserable woman |
Spreading the disease |
For sure |
Only ever wears pink polos, or generic tshirts, and tight joggers |
I need a shower so I'll be afk for a while. Feel free to leave me lust and loves |
When you get back, I will be in bed thinking about you |
Are you all pretty now? Nice & clean? |
I wish I could kiss your neck rn. And lay you back on your bed and squeeze your pretty boobies |
And I'll slide down so I can take your nipple in my mouth |
Until I feel your slit getting wet |
And then slowly I slide all the way in as your hips rise to meet my hand |
I can put more or less pressure on your mound as I finger you. How do you prefer it? |
I also love to suck your nipples at the same time |
Can you come this way? |
I'm already hard and dripping precum |
And now I'm fading out thinking of you |
Fuckkk |
I love you too |
Have you pressed against someone's mound before? |
You are fantastic and i cant wait for more of you |
I have never in my life craved crying and lovemaking with someone as much and hard as i do right now and with you |
2024-10-09T04:55:17 |
I can't wait to satisfy your cravings |
2024-10-09T06:25:02 |
I woke up thinking about lying next to you, wrapped around you. I was so turned on imagining you were there, wanting me. |
Aloha! |
That's so hot. And indeed i have not but would love to try this |
It's a good "under the sheets" position :) |
Please please please show me new and wonderful things |
Ofc! All of them! |
Hurray!!! |
Sweet baby:) |
Sweet daddy :) |
😘 |
You getting ready for work? |
Indeed |
Puffy eyes and all but I'm very clean and soft! |
Aww so yummy. Why are your eyes puffy? |
Just because it's early? |
Usually it means a cat slept on/near my face or i slept really well |
Ok lol I hope so |
Big plans for you today? |
I am having lunch with an old work chum. He used to sit across the way from your office |
Ooh who! |
Patrick. He was a director. Had the office on the right side by the corridor |
What did he do? Where's lunch? |
Well he got fired lol for lipping off in front of his idiot of a boss. We're going to Jerusalem Bakery |
All sounds good :) |
Jerusalem has the best falafel in town. I will die on that hill. |
It's a wife/husband team. They're from Haifa. |
How do you eat your falafel? |
Any way I can lol. Usually a sandwich. They fry them to order--this is one reason they are superior. They also bake pita |
Sauce. |
?? |
=tahini |
Or just hummus |
Could have been something different! |
Whatchoo talking about? |
The sauce! Maybe you like garlic aioli or mustard or midwest bloodlife, idk |
The girl wants sauce lol |
Matching, but color doesnt matter |
I want to be overfilled and dripping with sauce for dayssssss |
❤️ to “ I want to be overfilled and dripping with sauce for dayssssss ” |
I knew it lol |
Well duh ive told you |
Bottomless sauce refills guaranteed for life. How does that sound? |
Literally thrilling in all the hidden places |
That makes two of us |
Just another couple of days |
Right!!! |
So your shelves |
Idk but between April's and D&D I would think you could score something |
Thanks, my thoughts too |
I'm craving so much home organization and furniture project stuff |
Guessssss who has all of Thanksgiving week off!?! |
No excitement?!? Triste |
Sorry meetings @@@###$$$ |
That's awesome you have that week off! |
For me, my step kids usually come over and destroy my kitchen |
Same as always - i clean, cook, and shop |
They are good cooks though |
This year i hope to craft and read |
And maybe fuck a Sagittarius |
🤔 |
I approve |
Lol you better |
How are the ideas for tjis weekend coming along? Know what you'll be doing yet? |
I'm thinking about going to the Despot of Homie, which might turn into unexpected visits to a variety of destinations |
Not really what i was asking, young sir |
All of which is to say I'm going to get literally one thing somewhere and fuck a Gemini |
But howwwwwwww |
I hear geminis like play and mindfuckery and details and imagination and whatnot |
Queue last night's soliloquy |
Or maybe |
More, always more |
I bring my nice rope over and strap you to the bed |
Or maybe |
I pick up some whipped cream |
Hmm that sounds good rn |
Or maybe |
I ask you to put on the sluttiest thing you own and then sit on my lap |
Or maybe |
I just take you in your closet |
What on earth am i supposed to do with wet panties in my office now?!? |
Take me on tha damn floor |
Try not to make a mess dear |
Oh no, i want mess |
Surely you have a spare pair |
This sideways thing.... i have lots of ideas now |
Oh good! |
All of them involve you topping out |
One thing that's fun about it is I can just massage your pussy with my dick ... Up and down your slit |
From behind |
Oh my godddddd |
Until you can't stand it |
I cant stand it now! |
Or I explode on you |
Which may well happen |
Nope. In me first |
Yummmmm |
You can judge the yum factor if you want |
In you will be so amazing |
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I think you'll like how my body reacts |
I can't wait to find out |
I'm still begging you to make me cry |
From sex? |
Yes |
Yep just checking |
If I'm behind you laying down, you can't escape. I will grab your tits and pull you into me, and I will pound you as you squirm |
Fuckkkk yes please |
Have all of your ways with me |
It hurts how badly i want you right now |
Lol yeah my jeans are feeling really tight rn |
Please do everything. All of it. And yes, i want more and more still. Plenty of things i havent even told you |
There will be much fucking bi can see no end to it |
Lolol bi |
Bi="I" |
Now make sense of that lol |
Hahaha |
Do you need a router? I have a nice one that I outgrew |
Here's something you can help me with... A more appropriate way to keep hair thingies |
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I dont think i need a router but thanks! |
I'm thinking drawer bin |
I have several! |
I'm heading to lunch, so afk for a bit |
Scrunchies also work on a paper towel holder or between 2 hard surfaces with a tension rod and hanging shower hooks. Not explaining well |
Quite the song! |
What did you find me at the bakery? |
How do you feel about quick "activities"? |
Choose some songs for when you and i get epically romantic in bed together? I'm basically asking to set a mood |
Remind me later to tell you what i want to but am bashful about |
C as in Christ |
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Thanks! I might record the song and leave it on an anonymous USB stick on his desk |
Actual person called! |
Ah, the superlative of depravity -- that's my girl! |
"So is it an endorsement or a change or is it additional premium?" |
Twenty six minutes on that abysmal call |
I feel like getting wrecked but also like hyperfocusing on cleaning |
Anyway, no guesses? |
I have no clue lol |
Do you think anything would surprise you? |
At this point, probably not! Unless you tell me you have a sex swing and only use it via the piercings in your ears |
Hmmmmm |
Well i obv want more than anyone youve ever met lol |
I really don't think it's normal for me to feel apprehensive at this point yet here we are |
You're aware you can say no to me, right? |
Are you apprehensive? Why? |
Because i feel like it's not a normal or maybe acceptable thing to ask and this would be my first time saying it |
Girl you can ask me anything |
And neither one of us has experience in it, I'm pretty sure. But i still know things lol |
You are like a box of chocolates, only the kind you like , I suppose. And I ain't done eating you |
How's that lol |
Mmmm |
So, then, i will make a small proposal here |
That at some point and some time, i think it would be fun to add my ass into some fun. Yours if you want - I'm offering mine and excited for some possibilities |
Ok! You tell me what and when if I don't ask first. Sounds good? |
I have to take my car to the tire shop so I'll be afk for a few |
I want all the (nice, gentle at first at least) ass play you'll give me |
Thank you ❤️ |
Ok I'm back. Had to walk home. I've a screw in me tyre! |
Thank you for the guidance there. I am willing to play this way but will confirm and consent in the moment. Deal? |
Yes |
Yay! |
Question on that |
But first |
null |
Ooooooo |
Hello |
Anyway, you said "willing" to play. Dors that mean you dont actually want to? |
No, it means I have no idea how I will feel on the moment, but I'm not going to show up with a preconceived opinion |
I love your tits |
You can have them |
So fucking cute |
I want them |
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Oh sweet baby |
So delicious |
Cant wait til i close the door once you're here |
Oh yeah |
Door has to be closed. Thats the rule |
All good |
And you may lock it if you wish |
Without telling me |
But either way |
So what are you up to? |
Just got home |
Making dinner and cleaning while someone doesnt feel well |
And you? |
Cleaning! |
Yay! |
I have no real idea how to show you your options |
Which day(s) are possible for you? |
Saturday or Sunday |
Yeah somebody better remember he had somewhere to be this weekend lol |
Hahaha yes |
That's a definite no for friday then? |
Maybe possible? My story won't work well though |
So let me think on that |
No prob. Just helps me to know |
But planning on a no for Friday might work well |
Okay |
I might be able to actually clean! |
I might leave myself covered in fur though |
Eek! |
See if you were telling the truth there |
Fur baby! |
Yes. Very hairy. Basically saskwatchian |
null |
So cute though! |
The N95 really makes a statement, doesn't it! |
It turns out Patrick and I legit have a lot to catch up about. I might "spend all day Saturday" there |
Or Sunday |
Maybe you talk and decide you should continue into sunday |
Lol that is a possibility, but I need to test this water a little |
I have stayed the night there after a long drinking sesh |
But idk if he still does that |
At any rate, it should clear a huge chunk of time for me |
Amazing! |
If you know what an earliest time might be, that's great. If i can get high, even better, if neither.... i still want you to fuck the life out of me |
Probably like noon or one-ish |
I will confirm later |
I am absolutely not trying to stress you |
No stress here babe |
Happy and looking forward to this |
Me too :) Very much |
:) |
You decide what i wear to start if you'd like, or i can |
You pick this time,then let's take a trip to your closet again so I can pick the next one |
Kinda hoping i wont be able to regain strength in my wobbly shaky legs lol |
Heheheh |
Logistical question: is it ok to park in your driveway? |
Yes |
If you're more comfortable parking elsewhere, let me know |
It's fine with me. Just wanted to be sure it's ok in case of nosy neighbors |
It's fine thanks |
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Bahahahah! |
2024-10-09T19:39:53 |
How's the cleaning? |
Really good. I am pooped now, getting some pita, hummus, and falafel sandwich:) |
I am... murr. Not great but idk what to do to improve at this moment |
Tired? |
Not really. I feel stomach sick and have tons to clean but cant figure out how to beat tackle it. Obv alone in doing it all too |
Oh poo, I'm sorry you feel icky. Did you eat? |
I did at lunch and havent felt great since. I dont think i ate after that? Cant remember |
You're not nerved it are you? |
Nervous? |
Yeah that's what I was trying to ask |
I dont think so. Stressed is a better word for it |
Dang I wish I could de stress you right now. |
Lol. I agree. By any means necessary |
Argh. That sucks |
Yeah. Got more tasks thrown at me without anything taken away. And yelled at by someone really dumb on the phone. And mandatory ot this week and next for jobs that aren't even my department but whatever. If everything worked like we need it to it would be easy but it's just so disjointed and incapable of being efficient or effective |
Ah yes the "af" in AF af |
It's insane |
Do you at least get to wfh |
The rest of this week yes, then back to normal next week, but that doesnt help as much when it's phones + do loss reports + bcr4 billing inquiries + run bcr1 loss sensitive losses from june - now, which won't be possible to bill how we wabt because they set up the billing and collateral system for those accounts a really stupid fucking way, plus make new specialized reports for those, plus draft new communications to those policyholders plus enter 30 new policies, plus make an excel and formulate it, do all this without the system that houses rhe information (you have that saved somewhere, right rebecca? Like when we forgot we would need everyone's email addresses for these loss sensitive notifications but oops we figured you'd save our asses again?) Plus jump through a hoop of fire and try and survive at home and sorry we pick food you cant eat and... and... and... |
You need a break :) |
Like you wouldn't believe |
I think tonight may be a no sleep night |
No, why? |
That's not good for you |
It will make me feel like I'm productive and getting ahead of things, like i have a few seconds where it's me not walking on eggshells, and it kind of makes me feel normal-er |
I just don't want you to make yourself ill. Piling no sleep, no food on top of stress is just stress x 3. :( I worry about you |
I know you do. It's never my intention. I dont know what to make of it that you're the only one who does |
No I'm not |
https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/gastroparesis/symptoms-causes/syc-20355787 |
Shouldn't be a surprise that I've had it for a very long time. Used to land me in the hospital about once every 2 to 6 weeks, no joke |
I got you |
Yes please |
How can we do it |
Realistically? A few ways |
Your ideas? |
I asked you first ;) |
What kind of ideas do you want? |
Lol you are too crafty |
Can I tell you how much I want you? |
I would really like that |
You are perfect |
Very much not |
I've been unable to think of much else besides pinning you to the bed since you sent me the pics earlier |
Very much yes |
I cannot tell you how much i need to be wanted by someone i want. And with consent. |
I want all of you in my hands and in my mouth |
And feel your heat and your heart |
And taste your sweet skin |
And make you melt |
I want to do and be all of that. And not think for a while. Only feel. |
Yes I want to feel you too, outside and inside, and I want to feel you feeling me too |
To feel, and to feeeeelllllllllll |
I am so hard for you right now |
I wish I could fuck you right now |
I wish so too. So badly |
We have much to look forward to |
How is the stress? |
About the same, possibly a bit less |
What is it? |
I need to be okay not being as perfect as i want to be and like i think you deserve to fuck |
The only thing I'd ask you to change is stop being so hard on yourself |
You are beautiful |
You are sexy |
You are desirable |
You are worthy |
And you are deserving |
And I am overjoyed that you chose me |
Thank you |
Ofc |
I am overjoyed that you're willing |
And I'm happy to share with you |
I don't expect you to be anything but yourself |
I realize this is not really what you're used to |
Who i am and who i have been and who i wish i was are all very dofferent |
That's fine |
But don't trash talk who you are, because I like her a lot |
You ok? |
Well i hear she's pretty seriously damaged and having life crises, and literally all she sees are traumas and responses to those that built and keep building. |
Are you ok? |
2024-10-09T23:31:47 |
I'm ok |
I feel asleep. |
2024-10-10T04:48:41 |
Good morning babe! |
2024-10-10T05:51:43 |
I want you to know something |
I want to make that journey with you, and all I ask is that you be yourself, nothing more and nothing less. |
Will you accept my offer? |
And in case this is any worry, you can change your mind at any time. |
There are no conditions, no strings attached. No money down. No credit check. |
Good morning, best thing ever! |
I did sleep. Just woke up |
How was your night? |
Yay! I had a decent sleep, 7/10 I'd say. That's good enough! Feeling good this morning |
I accept your counteroffer:) |
Thanks! |
You're the best 😊 |
We can both be each other's best then |
That is perfect! |
Ugh. I need my head and face and whole damn body rubbed down. Hard. |
Do you have a favorite oil? Or I can bring some. Did you like the nag champa? |
You dont need to do that but thank you! |
Twins! |
For real? |
Not even joking |
Especially the lavender and patchouli |
I thought you'd like patchouli |
Blecch |
Nope |
Overrated |
I will react very very very poorly if even the idea of a whiff crosses my nose |
Lol you won't find any in my possession |
Oh thank gods |
Any reason you hate it? |
Cliche, overrated |
I am also somewhat averse to scents in general. Some are fine in moderation. Today's scent -crazed bozos are brain dead |
They literally trigger my allergies sometimes. Esp breathing, and make my eyes water |
The light scent you wore was delightful |
So don't worry |
I like wearing fragrance. If i ever have too much, please let me know |
Okay |
Is there one you like that i can wear? I dont remember what i had on before. I change them up |
I wouldn't know the names. It's ok |
Never! |
Nailed it |
Yesssssss |
What does RLH do? (Intentionally left open ended) |
Literally or vocationally |
Oh, you did say open-ended. She's permanently disabled and gets SSDI. not much though |
So then what does she do? |
I'll tell you in a few -- gotta go get my car |
Bundle up! |
Lol I grabbed a Lime scooter. Wiped out on my first turn. I'm ok-a little scrape, but mostly hurt pride because I did it in front of people 😂 |
Glad I wore my Carhartt hoodie! |
So anyway, she sits on the back porch, which is completely isolated from the house but is insulated and heated. And watches streaming stuff and smokes. |
And buys things from bald guy zon |
And t-emu |
Sorry you wiped ouf! Bike flashbacks? |
What kinda of stuff? |
Lol the wipeout was nowhere near that bad. I mostly hit some part of the scooter on my way down with my shin, so there is a bloody spot on my jeans (I just cleaned up the wound; it fits under a band aid). Tiny road rash on my right palm. Carhartt took a beating but doesn't have a scratch on it! |
What kind of stuff does she buy? |
Yes |
Ohhh shame that CC doesnt want to work rn and i forget how to install updates |
Aww :) |
Well, we get daily deliveries practically. Not an exaggeration. Sometimes small. Sometimes 2-3 things. I pile up packages in a chair in the living room. |
Interesting |
I also stopped reminding her that her dreams are contingent on us being able to save money lol |
Ain't happening |
And this year, I stopped trying as well lol |
So 🤷🤷 |
What are your dreams? |
Side note: what are you doing tonight? |
She wants a bigger house. Idgaf |
I didnt ask about her... . |
Oh |
Heh |
I just want to retire early and be comfortable and secure financially. On track for that ✔️ |
I'm probably cleaning ,,... Again! |
Always a good time! Would you like to go anywhere? No is a fine answer |
Hey our boss finally logged in |
Lol |
No problem! |
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That's cool |
Lol that's an interesting power strip |
I do prefer |
So shallot be |
Bone apple tea |
Shallot bees and bone apple teeth |
😊 |
Omg so helpful |
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:) |
Ive also heard that if they lose interest in something that you should move it instead of getting rid of it (cat condo, for example) |
Nice idea! |
Omg the issues are AF AF at AF today |
Lol yes! |
Omg |
Hahaha |
Sorry I'm being a brat. My calendar is getting stuffed up with irritating meetings and I have shit to get done |
No prob |
I'll leave you alone if that's what you need until you're free |
You're good. I'm realizing I need a vacation. The last one I took was right before the network downtime and it was shitty because I was not getting along with my spouse |
You used past tense |
I could take a couple days if I wanted to buy there's too much I need to be around for rn |
Sorry babe |
Aaaargh lol |
Ty |
Maybe give more thought to next weekend? Or this one lol |
Oh I'm thinking about it, yes indeed |
Do you have any idea how much PTO I get in a year? |
3 weeks? |
Seven. Fucking. Weeks. |
Not bragging, but it is so unrealistic. And I cannot do anything with the excess over 80 hours. It just goes away |
I'm an American so I can complain about things like that lol |
Jesus I need to de-rant a little bit |
I absolutely understand that! |
Im up for you ranting while fucking if that appeals. Thrust your cares away |
Lol that is actually the last thing I want to do, and the last thing that will be on my mind. |
This is more like the printer scene in office space if you get my drift |
Lolllllllll |
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Cute! |
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What delicious irony |
Literal LOL |
Without expectations (ever), may i please have a generic idea of activities you'd prioritize this weekend? |
Kiss, lick, suck, touch, feel, rub, and fuck, not necessarily in that order, but pretty close |
Always a good time |
Probably romantic to start, crescendoing to vigorous with a healthy allowance for adventurous |
I am so fucking hot for you right now |
I can't wait! |
😢 to “ I can't wait! |
Back! Thank goodness at least for efficient meetings that break early. |
Never heard of em |
They are a rarity |
I may have 2 very tiny project based things for your engineer mind |
Oh! I was just looking in the mirror and thought of something you dont know at all yet |
Ooh! I like the sound of that! |
Yay! |
Sizes? |
Sizes--qué? |
I was thinking you unearthed screws and tools and like hairdryer sized tools? |
Oh, yes, exactly |
In fact a heat gun was one of those objects. Looks just like a hairdryer |
Lol i know! |
What else? |
A soldering iron I forgot I own, a box cutter I didn't know I own, sundry useful materials , abrasives, clamps, marking tools, measuring tools, |
Lubricants, plumbing stuff, electrical wiring stuff, multi tester leads, ... |
How much of each? I am brimming with ideas for storage! |
I can take a fresh picture of my new shelves. That is basically the volume of stuff I just discovered, consolidated, and organized |
You will have to tell me more about what you found in the mirror |
Nothing new to me, i just realized you didnt know |
Ive broken my nose a lottttt of times |
It was especially evident this morning |
Oh noes! |
Lol |
Well let's make it a point not to break your nose this weekend. |
Solid idea |
Are you more inclined for a yes or a no? I am leaving this intentionally vague |
That's it? Just a what to you think about __________ |
Should i do the thing or not? |
You can ask questions |
Poison my coworker? Well, actually no, but sometimes... |
Psht. I dont even know your coworker. How would i poison them? |
Well let's not go down that path, which might be very slippery and full of snakes that bite. We can send someone else |
Ok then |
So do i go do the thing? |
I guess mayyyyyyyyybe i could tell you |
Imma say |
Okay thanks! |
Would you like to know something silly? |
I'm gonna need a few minutes |
Oh no |
For the sweet love of christ baby jesus. |
Thank you |
Are you sure? Are you okay? |
I will let you know. I should be able to process this off by then , but I'm not sure what I'm going to do about my housemate |
Please let me know how to help |
If you need to call me you can |
Ty I will let you know |
I'm worried about you now |
It'll pan out. I have been down this road so many times. |
I'm sorry |
Can you tell me in literal terms what happened? |
If you need to be radio quiet for a few hours just let me know |
I can tell I'm angry at her for manipulating a simple statement I made (I'm going to hang with Patrick this weekend) into why this is about her and everything bad I've ever done. |
And I'm not accepting it and pat pat it's ok. |
Not this time |
I have to duck into a meeting for a while so I might be quiet at this end |
Understandable |
All of it |
Eerily twinning in situations today as well |
Yeah, it is peculiar! |
I am very upset here |
For both of us, if you'd like |
Thank you babe I love you too |
Yes, when you're comfortable i would love to understand more |
To add to today's home fiasco, because i am one of like 8 people who can call out from webex, i am lucky enough to be responding to voicemails this afternoon as soon as i hear more |
Ai Yi yi |
I will send the story to your personal email. Too much for text! |
Yes, please do |
The corn flake girl |
Did you want the news sooner or later? |
But later please |
A bit :) |
Ok I sent you the deets |
Okay, thanks |
I'm sorry thay transpired |
Thank you |
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How would you like it to be instead? |
It's not terrible. I'm sorry I forgot why I was going to send that to you. Little trauma or something. |
What do you mean? |
I think I was just going to show you the scope of things I was organizing. I honestly forgot why thiugt |
Because i was going to help think of how you might want it to look |
So then that is my new question to you |
Ok will have to think about his later. I'm going to do some mindless activity for a while to help flush this. |
Have lego? |
Knex? |
Sort screws into baggies? |
Count fibonaccilly? |
Need a music rec? |
Lol you'd never believe this but I have a front porch full of delivery boxes that need to be broken down and taken to the recycle bin |
It's a good activity for me. |
Have fun! New box cutter activity! |
Do you know if cap discount would have photo frames or any furniture or weird stuff i might like? |
Not so much. They have lots of tools, guns, old stereos, jewelry |
Bah |
Water break. |
Yes. That's the plan. MM tonight because i kind of just want to kill time out of this house and situation |
But how are you doing? |
I am good. Just finished cardboard. It was a lot more than I thought. I've basically been working steady since I told you that's what I was going to do |
How can I help? |
Great job! |
Thx |
I dont drink water. I probably should. I hate it. Fix plz :) |
Lol I've downed 3x 16 oz water in the last two hours |
Which is a lot for me |
Do you hate it because it's plain or does your water taste bad? |
Plain, i think. I dont drink it at all |
Not even the renowned 3 am water? |
Nope |
Huh |
It's the diet coke |
Right electrolytes. Ok |
Phenylalanine amiright |
Phenylketonurics too |
You never gave me a fave animal |
I'm sorry I do not remember a lot from before 1300 |
Or after lol |
How much have you had? |
Zero |
Oh my bad |
elephant |
Seems fitting, no? |
But in all seriousness I do admire elephants more than other animals. |
Omggggg |
I have a tiny collection of weird elephant stuff |
And just put a cute one in my cart lol |
Yay! |
And how are you now? |
Much better. Just had first interaction with RLH and she's acting like nothing happened. I've been occupying my time reconfiguring my work bench. Distraction has been very effective. |
I'll be here for whatever you need |
I could definitely use that perspective. Ty |
2024-10-10T20:13:12 |
Sooooo |
Heyy |
Tired |
And tried |
Lol |
How are things for you? |
Do you have any feedback regarding my diet entry? |
Just got home |
Diary? |
Yes, that |
Been shopping? |
Yes |
I kinda invited tou |
What kind of feedback would be best? |
Straight up |
I think it's nor as angry as you should be, but i also think she won't understand because there's not much she actually realizes she's not doing well with |
I think it's too nice, kind of. Like you're holding back |
Interesting. Anything else? |
Maybe. Let me reread |
Sure, of course |
I dont know how to respond best. What was her shitty behavior? I dont know what actually happened |
All good. You are correct I was holding back. She would not have heard anything I said correctly at that point |
First, she disapproved of me hanging with Patrick this weekend because of a distorted memory she has of him being a drunk. There is a kennel of truth there, but she was also clearly conflating him with someone else from work. And he did use to get drink with Toni 's husband Brad, who became abusive (Patrick was not though, and ended his relationship with Brad at that time) |
Second, after I got that clarified, then she changed her argument to Patrick was always bad-mouthing AF, and that rubbed off on me. Which is basically true, but this was my first time hearing it. I've been friends with Patrick for like 8 years or more. |
She stomps off. I go back to work. Then she comes back to apologize. I ask her if she remembers me saying I can't have simple adult conversations with her? |
Finally, I never spend time with her. I never ask her on a date. I never ask her if she wants to get dinner. And she can't say anything to me because I get mad. |
So, thoughts? |
Oh, and she didn't say anything to me about going to lunch. I think I was supposed to interpret that as grace. |
I held back because there is no listening. She cannot, it will not hear me |
So it's pointless unless she is actually paying attention |
Lol I said summarize. I guess retell would have been a better word. Sorry |
I'm really sorry you've had to deal with all of that |
Thank you |
I appreciate it. |
What else would you like to say? |
I will find the right opportunity to try to explain that I don't feel like we're friends anymore because she acts this way. And maybe that's why I don't want to hang out |
I don't know when that will be |
She is painting this as "we both did this". I will correct her on that as well. She did this, not me |
I understand |
She can deal with that however she wants |
Have you thought of any negative outcome that could befall you? |
There won't be. Just her being a banshee |
What did you hope and expect my feedback and reaction to be? They can be 2 different things too |
I genuinely wanted to know if I am missing something. I still do. I understand this is one side of a story, and there was a lot of who heard/who said. In the past, I usually would find enough wrongdoing of my own to apologize. I feel none of that this time. I have never been this clear about what is going on. |
I think you're right. I also think she might think you're blindsiding her because you usually say nothing |
I can see that. She interprets push-back as anger. |
From me anyway |
Do you outright say (in a calm voice) " I'm not angey, i want you to know that first... i feel _______ because ________" |
And it can't be "im not angry BUT" because that negates it |
And you cant actually be angry |
If you are, then say that but back it up with specifics (not "always" or absolute language like that) |
Dont throw sensitive topics and past behavior at her if it isn't relevant |
That is all extremely helpful! |
I know these things, but they are not always the first things I think of, and certainly those were not words I used today |
It takes actual, literal practice |
Say it out loud |
As much as I've said I've gotten good at sensing an argument, I blew right through the cues today |
And breathe in 3 to 4 counts then out the same before you say anything at all. Look away, close your eyes if you need to |
I'm with you 100% on all this |
The reminder is golden |
You are such a gem |
You can actively say that you do not have the capacity to engage in a productive discussion at that moment but you realize that there's a valuable exchange that needs to take place and you want to dedicate the time it deserves later when you have that |
Thank you so much |
You do not have to qualify which type kf capacity either (emotional, temporal, logical, etc). Capacity is enough. |
Yes |
Agree |
Dont antagonize with repetition though. If you have to, resort to real reasons why. People are counting on you to do your job. You don't want heated emotions to hurt either of you. You know it isnt healthy to get worked up. You're hungry. It isn't a one off thing. |
This is *very* helpful |
Hey babe I am fading fast |
2024-10-11T04:57:14 |
Good morning sugar lumps! |
2024-10-11T06:01:14 |
Good morning baby |
Oh did you? |
At least an hour lol |
That's good! |
Right? |
I guess :) my dream soundtrack is still playing in my head. It sounds like 6 radio stations playing at the same time. Very confusing. |
How are you? Aside from habing cacaphonous misophonia |
Love that :) |
Lol. I do okay with words. |
Did you sleep? Still feeling icky? |
I think so? I at least tried hard to sleep. Icky, yes. And not a good day yesterday |
Yeah |
Let's make today a better day |
We can try |
Let me know when you make successful hot water salad :) |
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Ive been up for about 2, 2.5 actually. Cleaning. Thinking. Book mindfulness |
Any resounding thoughts or findings? |
Yeah |
Hey, did you know ive had an upper GI bleed from ulcers before? |
That is awful! Can't say I'm shocked though. Are you having symptoms? |
My stomach hurts but that's not too abnormal |
Poor baby! |
Aside from my stomach being in pain, the stresses I'm having. And i just like sharing things with you |
Ok I'm glad you told me. Do I remember correctly that capsaicin is paradoxically a treat to mention for ulcers? Or is that a perverse memory? |
I'm not trying to be funny |
But I guess it would not be so great for you for other reasons |
How about chamomile, or peppermint tea? Do you like either of those (or the blend!)? |
Peppermint tea and the finest phenergan for breakfast lol |
Maybe some compozine |
Well la ti da! |
You working today? |
Yep |
I've got profit sharing stuff to do |
Oh wr have profit? Ha |
Right? It really is corny how much effort we put into giving money to agents |
"partners" |
Not my type of partner |
Nice |
Ill probably be afk until 0800 or so, but you're welcome to say whatever and I'll respond in a bit |
Ok I did not remember that. I would like to hear your news when you are able |
I came back |
Me too lol |
Here we are again |
Where did you go off to? |
The shower :) |
Oh very nice |
What day is hair day for you? |
How often do you shave your face? |
Where do you take care of special thoughts i may or may not pop up in? Lol |
Great questions lol |
Oh interesting! Really? Office? I kinda like that |
I can't in the shower actually. I get completely shut down. Believe me I've tried (by myself only) |
That's so fucking hot |
Here i thought you were crying yourself to sleep or whatever |
No, I literally wore myself down working so much after work. And I'm past the crying anyway. I just need to move past the indignance, and on into confident knowing. |
Good for you! |
About that news of mine though..... |
Yes what is it? |
I was (verrrry unpleasantly) surpised with a SIL and spouse here chez moi for the weekend (starting yesterday). So that's a no for here this weekend and i am infinitely sorry |
Oh, sigh... |
Possibly |
Cool, cool. Let me mull this over |
For sure |
Do you like any kind of visual art at all? |
Wall stuff |
Yes, but |
Ish |
I have no wall space for it |
Omg be more impossible lol |
There is always more space |
I just have something cool. Thought perhaps you'd like it, mais non |
*somethingsssss |
I really struggle with space in my office, which would be the best opportunity, really the only opportunity |
How big is the thing? |
Command strips |
There's more than one. Let me check the one nearest me |
Do you want to see it? I dont even know if it's halfway close to your style |
Sure! |
It's pieces, kind of |
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Pieces, see? |
Interesting! Are those little pieces of stained wood? |
I think so? I also have this one |
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Little pieces of "parkay" is what i think of |
Well! Myrtle must have been a special gal lol |
I didnt really get that vibe from you, so thanks! |
I feel like you'd be more kf a Keith Haring fan |
Or band/concert posters lol |
Not really either one |
Celtic designs and landscapes? |
Hold on- this is one wall. All my own photos: |
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I love it! |
I choose a photo from the same month in a previous year for each calendar |
I do like landscapes but , and I don't know how to articulate this, they need to be right, not boring. I don't know how to define this |
I think i get that |
Ungeneric |
I am getting more into photography. Doesn't have to be nature scenes, but that is where I've done most of my shots that aren't cats lol |
I told you I'm photographically available ;) |
That is a really intriguing idea there. |
I do want to learn how to take portraits, and boudoir shots would be hot af |
I want those types of photo. Any kind you want of me, you should take. Any. |
Ok we'll do it! I will need to go shopping lol |
For lighting |
Or not |
Baby oil lol |
Ohhhh yes |
And I will give you this promise because this is how I am |
And if you want I can shoot us fucking too |
Time lapse is awesome |
Ohhhh yes. I want that. Ane maybe we get some close up stills of you in me upon entry. maybe some drips in the aftermath. |
Ohh! This is all sounding very fun indeed |
It is! |
Did you have any guesses for what you said yes to me doing when i asked yesterday? |
"should I adopt this baby rhinoceros?" |
He's really cute! |
"does this mini make my butt look fat?" |
Rinocerante piceno |
But sadly no |
gigante picante! |
No mas! |
"would you fuck me, in a boat" |
I would fuck you anywhere |
😆 |
would you fuck me, in a tree? |
I would fuck you anywhere, anytime, for freeeeee |
Will you fuck me, in the morn? |
I will fuck you all day long |
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Bahahahah! |
Did I ask you if you know Eddie Izzard? |
If not, do yourself a favor and look up his name on YT with "control p print" |
I do know him |
Of him |
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Truth |
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Oh cool! |
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Sneky sneeeeeeeehhhhhk |
Why. Is. He. Still. Sleeping!? |
Sleepy snek? |
Nope |
Plz do not step on snek |
Will not |
Snek play at your house someday |
Explore, yes |
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And by rough pass I mean putting them on the same shelf haphazardly |
Great job! |
Wanna know my immediate impression? |
Sure 🙂 |
I usually get more booka than that shelf in one trip, lol |
Lolol |
I know it. I just don't book much |
I like them. Still havent read in a very very very long time but I'm hopefulish now |
How is the day? |
The day is not quite what I needed it to be, but it's fine, I will let it happen, and I will push off for Monday that which I have been unable to accomplish this week without a giving a damn. |
Would you like to say more? |
Well sure, any di-erection you would like me to grab? |
I dont even know where to start |
Let's start with a simple question |
Always |
Hmm |
Do you really prefer one over the other? |
This is purely a self-care preference. |
Because you are right hand dominantM |
? |
Do you have an opinion of me using my hands in such a manner with you? |
2024-10-11T15:57:43 |
Sorry I just got off |
Phone call with? About? |
Friction is definitely one issue. Too much pressure is another. And speed is a third. There is a sweet spot! |
Lol |
Some guys hate hands |
I think you're a nice person who will be nice to me and my things, so you can play if you want to! |
Oh yes please! |
Why do you think they hate them? (I already know) |
I feel like I should know but it isn't coming to me |
Because if they wanted a hand to take care of them they could do it better and faster themselves |
Theyve know the sweet spots since they were like 12 |
What bozos |
I kind of think the same! And you dont know what I'll do next |
Exactly! |
Guys are so weird I swear |
What an embarrassment |
Yeah |
Well I'm off to Krogé |
Have fun! |
Im off to April's |
Cool! I want to hear about it when you get back! |
Okay! |
2024-10-11T18:04:53 |
Ca va? |
Si ca va |
Ca va bien. Et tu? |
Pas mal, merci |
I sure wish I spoke French as pretty as you do ❤️ |
Sorry adverb! |
C'est facile! |
What did you get at Kroger? |
Whipped cream and caramel???? |
I so wish! |
That could mean a lot of things! |
Oh how delicious! |
Maybe |
So back to kroger |
Yes yes |
You were telling me things, i believe |
Was it quail eggs poached and served in half avocado, maple syrup drizzle, cilantro garnish, Sriracha optional |
90 |
BOGO this weekend only act now |
Someday I should like to see you in pigtails |
You know what else I like? I just remembered some things today |
Gingham jumpers |
How was your do? |
2024-10-11T22:25:28 |
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que-ce qui se passe |
2024-10-12T00:34:13 |
Bonjour! |
O hai!!!! |
2024-10-12T08:22:48 |
Haiii babe |
2024-10-12T09:28:40 |
Hi How was your night? |
It was alright. A little restless. |
I'm ok, a little groggy yet. Making coffee |
I missed you, too |
I feel eucghh and you would have made it so much better |
What are your plans today, tonight, and tomorrow? |
Cleaning... Need to make space for plants that are outside to come inside |
Would it be easier to call off any plans for tomorrow? |
Remind me what were you thinking for tomorrow? |
I thought you had a house full |
You're good |
Alrighty then thank you |
Omg same but weather changes for me. They seriously suck |
This is the time of year I start wishing for a hard frost |
I start wishing for nice cuddles |
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A liter down already |
OMG you are sick! |
Right?! |
You're hitting the dihydrogen monoxide??? |
With extra chemicals added |
Babe do you need help? |
Nah just drugs and a lobotomy but thanks |
Oh my |
**Please |
Awww sad |
By nobe id sawe |
Just drugs? And a lobo. Will that be all today ma'am? |
Did you want chips with that? |
Obviously! |
Rawrrrrrr |
Raptor needs chips? |
Yes |
But alsi |
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Lol! |
Rawr! |
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What kind of science interests you the most? Physics is too broad lol |
I will say electricity and magnetism. Definitely my favorite classes in college, and I've watched an entire series of lectures from MIT as well |
Thanks! |
Yes, I wanted to teach high school physics lol, 100% serious |
Do you think you would have/still have made a good HS teacher? |
I do think so. |
What happened when you were no longer at msu? |
I took a job as a phlebotomist at a plasma center |
I know that |
I dropped out which is to say I didn't re-enroll for classes in fall 1989 |
Oh, i see now |
Oh it's fine really. But I am really stuffed up. Thinking about taking decongestant... Which is not my favorite way to be either but probably better than this. |
Thanks for that |
I haven't been able to start cleaning yet. The thought of stirring up dust is kind of a deterrent |
Is it everyday average nicotine & tobacco or more fun plants or both? |
Just dont clean today. Be you. Make a soa day or whatever |
*spa |
Probably both. I don't pay attention |
Lay back with music and a face mask |
Hey i love you |
Hey I love you too babe! |
When these symptoms die back I will be able to deal with a little bit at least |
Or not |
I know lol. I just want to get the basement area to a certain point of done |
It's close now |
I know. Sanm here, different house level |
Can i ask a perspective/experience? |
Of course you can! |
Topic: fingering me |
Ooh lovely |
Interesting |
Middle finger is the best. Not only is it longest, for the most reach and flavor procurement, it's nice and centrally places so I can pull up and put pressure on your clit/mound and even stroke your pretty lips with adjacent fingers |
Oooohmygod amazing |
One nice feature of side fucking is I get excellent access to your pussy. I can rub it while I fuck you, either by reaching around, or by coming up from behind and between your legs. It's amazing. |
Might even try to put a finger in you but it would be a pretty tight squeeze |
Have you been double penetrated in this way? |
All very hot, you have no idea how much i want to try that |
Idk I just get a yen and go for it I guess. Plus whatever feedback I might be picking up guides me. |
Ohhh fuckkkkkk |
Yes |
I can also really grab your hips and pull you into me , hard , while I thrust |
A thousand times yes |
I feel like i could think and climax at that rn |
Mmm |
Already breathing very hard |
And when I cum I'm going to tell you and I'm going to tell you how fucking amazing you feel |
And I'm going to tell you your pussy is miiiiine |
Fuckkkkkkkkk yes |
I'd like to paint your pussy with it some time, spreading it around on you |
YES |
And some time I'd like to give you a pearl necklace too |
We'll figure it out |
I believe snowblowing is also on our agenda |
Ooh I don't know this one |
You do. Maybe |
We talked about it (typing) |
You cum in me, suck it out or lap.ot up, kiss me, and then it's your choice who swallows after any more fluid exchanges you want |
Oh yes! A little swapping |
Jesus i want to be licked by you right now |
Yummmm I would love to lick you up and down and right on your little fuck hole |
I hope you get me sloppy wet |
I hope so too I want to schmear you all over my face |
Mmmmmmmm okay! |
2024-10-12T17:15:28 |
How is your afternoon? |
https://open.spotify.com/track/55Hlg31EQDXQn71p1KIr8r?si=gKQ_4nUHR0yn4RR3jfNtFw |
2024-10-12T18:38:49 |
Hi love |
I hope you had a restful sleep! |
No nose. I have no nose. I only have this thing on my face that runs like a faucet sometimes |
Poor baby! |
I refurbished 5 casters from my office chair. Got all the crap out, cleaned and lubed juicy parts. |
Used those to replace the casters on my lab chair in the hobby area. Cleaned the height mechanism so it actually slides |
Now I'm making semi-permanent light installs, tacking up the cordage with hot glue lol |
Probably ruining another hoodie 😅 |
Noooooo!!!!! Hoodies are THE BEST |
Lol I am so with you. It's kind of a sacrilege to willfully boink then. I'm going to take this off actually |
Awesome |
I have a few fave hoodies, but not enough honestly! |
I have a very excessive amount |
♥️ that! |
Hurray! |
I'm curious what you think of Beach Bunny. Whenever you're in the mood , or if it's a hard no. |
Which should i listen to first? |
I literally head the catalog once. Rec starting at the spiffipy start! |
OMG this |
Wow....intense! |
Sometimes I like a growly grrl |
What kinda mood are you in that you want to go further with, or what kind of mood do you wish for rn |
Ooh tricky |
https://open.spotify.com/track/3vpzJwxVjwcbuqPclqOX9I?si=5icqT4hhRqGwhmmNg2JO7Q |
I have a state of mind where i just want to feel better |
Good choice so far, i enjoy Massive Attack |
I learned of them from the theme to a once favorite TV show of mine |
Was the song "angel"? |
Show? No |
https://open.spotify.com/track/2SDswD3RdceDWthkgCrCCU?si=K9CrCd3DSjS13DyqXpRbQg |
Just for you ❤️ |
❤ |
Thank you |
Any time |
I randomly downloaded RisingSon from a binary repo, rest is my history. I probably missed a tour in Detroit by a year. |
Ohh sad |
https://open.spotify.com/track/52TEZQ5bTDa5qhnHD0hLQb?si=V0Dx_oNpRLKsGFi8BNZ1Bw |
You get that too |
Will queue Julia now! |
Nope. Different lady |
I can relate to this sentiment 😊 |
Yeah |
I get that |
I feel bad saying this but I don't often click with contemporary male vocals |
Have to say too, l am usually 80% focused on the instruments and 20% on lyrics |
Dont feel bad, music isnt always mean to appeal to everyone |
Esp my earky aughts ones lol |
I have a pic to send. Cropped out the parents. Immediate reaction & thoughts please |
null |
Pretty lady. Very hot |
Anything you'd like to add? Not a trap, just asking |
You and me |
Your fav black panties |
Omg |
Emmhmm? |
Anyway, that's whay today's homecoming court wore |
ooOoo |
How delicious |
Lol you know her mom, I'm pretty sure |
You imbibe at all yet? |
Yes |
I feel properly anesthesia adjusted now |
Oh?? |
Allergies really wrecked an other wise healthy day |
Happens every year. This one is sorta exceptional imo |
You still want to get me my first high? |
I do want that. I'm not comfy I can do it tomorrow though. I'm going to me medicine-wrecked |
Damn let me see how I'm feeling at noon ony |
Ok |
You are so fine |
I was still thinking next weekend |
I really wish we could have sex right this second |
Roger that sweet baby |
Why |
Hahaha |
You'll be on 3/3 of us soon enough |
Oh life would be a dream |
null |
null |
Thoughts? |
For me? |
Hesitate means no? |
Thoughts... |
Ok I will follow your lead now |
Are you just rando snapping girls at the store? Lol |
See above |
I did , yesterday. First time honestly, felt like a creep. But I had my hair way up in a bunny thing with my new stick as cover lol |
This was at some distance, 3 or 4 aisles |
You realllly liked the outfit? |
I love the length. I love the fit. I do like the color as well. I love the white blouse under. Love the pigtails too |
Why the blouse under? |
You never told me your first Massive Attack song |
The blouse is bonkers cute in public |
Teardrop, i think is the name |
Blouse is optional |
Rawr |
Rawr |
So you would modestly present with jumper and nothing under? Just clarifying here |
Mmhmmmm ofc you are |
Harrumph |
I could proooooooobably be convinced otherwise |
Sweater puppies are the best |
I only wear a bra like half the time I'm outside tge house anyway |
Oh sweet baby |
null |
🥰 |
https://open.spotify.com/track/3kKVqFF4pv4EXeQe428zl2?si=YyznHaiZSoyTRmffcj2rpQ |
Say more |
Please tell me your current familiarity with the song. This context will help! |
Read the lyrics. Felt a way. That's about it. |
😊 |
Cool. Ty 😊 |
Can you explain how you felt? As plan or poetic as you think it might be needed |
I feel I am the speaker |
|
Is there a continuation to that? There doesnt need to be |
I love and appreciate you for you, yknow |
I could lounge in that song for hours; You would make it complete for the first time for me |
That's one of the closer connections to my heart ❤️ |
I would live to do that |
Soooooon sweet baby |
I have unfortunate news in that I feel the need to stay in tomorrow because I feel like a cesspool after a day of blowing runny nose |
That is 100% fine |
Will do |
In your mind's ideal, do you think of yourself rescuing me? I dont know how else to say that |
null |
Protecting. |
I am so glad i cant tell what that image is |
Thank you. Yes. This makes me wonder what your working list is like. That from which i need protection |
I made a picture |
Well I asked ChatGPT to make one |
Have to go to another device to get it brb |
null |
Not at all |
Ty! |
What did you tell it? |
Lemme see if I can share the sequence. It was progressive if you get me |
OMG I will have a link for you shortly |
Lol the best |
https://chatgpt.com/share/670b3ad0-10e0-8007-922e-741780859f18
|
Thank you ❤️ |
Please tell me anything you want to say about this |
I have a lot of thoughts |
Did you ask it to make the savior also a girl? |
No, but I went with it. |
So you did notice |
Oh yeah. See Problem in first frame |
I'm aware.... i thought that was ironic |
Lol nooo |
Yep |
More for you in the morning.... falling asleep as i type |
Sweet dreams! |
Ok babygirl |
2024-10-13T07:11:20 |
null |
2024-10-13T08:43:10 |
Omg i have some totally awesome stuff for you |
Hi beebee! |
Yay! |
How you be ? |
Pretty good so far |
Aw |
You got big plans? |
No, need to nurse myself back to a semblance of health |
That IS a plan! |
You would be better:) |
I will be next weekend...... |
You could count down the hours now |
Would you like a spice encyclopedia? |
Only if it has you on the cover |
I dont have boudoir photoa yet |
Hmm. We need to do something about this |
I agree |
null |
That looks pretty cool |
It can be yours! |
Are you organizing books? |
Cleaning the kitchen |
null |
Cookbooks |
And signed ones |
null |
Wanna see the magnet i have for you? |
Yes, please! |
null |
I also habe a decal/sticker for you that's entirely different but you can wait for the surprise ;) |
Hehheh nice one |
Indeed |
2024-10-13T13:18:16 |
How's it going? |
Kinda meh |
Bummer |
Same but different here |
Enjoying being left alone (mostly) but kinda want to go somewhere but can't |
null |
Think im about to build my cubbycase |
Lol that joke is so wrong |
Finally made some hot food... Oatmeal with chopped walnuts and honey |
Nice |
Is that your fave flav? |
Sometimes I'll just eat it plain with salt lol |
Sometimes I will chuck blueberries in there. Hot blueberries are kinda weird tho |
Like far, sour bugs |
Fat |
I am also shopping for winter boots |
I have none |
Yeah? What type? You can have mine lol |
Lol nice |
Not these lol |
I'm looking at some Carhartt s and a pair by Danner |
I'm not an experienced boot shopper |
9.5 men's size |
Not $400 |
https://www.supercasuals.com/category.cfm/674 |
Thank you! |
2024-10-13T16:36:29 |
Thanks I ended up ordering from that place! |
Yay! |
How are you? |
Oops lol |
Yeah it's fine |
Accidentally bought a stack of books |
😅 |
null |
It just happened! |
They just jumped in my bag! |
I know! |
And how are things going there? |
All is well. I did a little bit of cleaning, then took a nice thorough shower. Having leftovers now |
Working all week? |
Yes. And we have on-site all-department agenda Tuesday -Thursday as well |
Maybe I should weasel off Friday afternoon |
Omg ew to the work week! |
So no more phones? |
Not what i said |
Oh I see |
Significantly fewer calls now though |
Where did those books adopt you? |
Schuler in Okemos |
Had to leave some of their rescue siblings behind sadly |
Aww! |
We can go back! |
Lol rescue mission! |
Exactly! |
Do you want to know when I'm home alone this week? |
Well sure why not? |
Tomorrow just for a few hours, afternoon/evening |
Any chance on Wednesday? |
Unknown at this moment |
Oh! Are you officially part time? |
Nope. Never have been. |
Maybe I should start taking Wednesdays off lol |
I have internet lol |
So what is your normal schedule? |
MTRF 0700 - 1715 |
So maybe i leave the door unlocked and rell you when it's cool to come over and we make out and you leave after getting some m7ch deserved head or whatever |
Oh how I'd love that |
2024-10-14T04:05:02 |
Hallooooo! |
2024-10-14T06:00:31 |
Bonjour mon amor! |
❤ |
Hieeee |
I miss you |
I am missing you too:) |
How are you this morning? |
I feel really good! |
I sort of see that lol |
QOTD; "omg why are you up so early??" |
Lol |
I finished my word games already |
Yay! 🎉 |
Glued some Popsicle sticks lol |
Ooh nice |
Getting ready for the lathe. Should be here next week or maybe earlier |
I figured I'd better start with cheap materials lol |
https://www.reddit.com/r/Satisfyingasfuck/s/DhpnFXdiWa |
Lol |
Have you ever played an organized sport? |
Not willingly |
We'll sort of. The marching band had a contingent that played flag football. I joined ned under duress lol |
Lol |
Academic teams? |
https://open.spotify.com/track/5sTsbKMuBuIZoGHfoFXdwU?si=zL7ZKEn8T3epf_nc73odug |
Happy wake up music! |
Zippy! |
It's what i wanted for waking up lol |
Here's something new... |
null |
Interesting |
His sister. I cant even describe all of her to you |
Lol got it |
I will get to it one of these days |
Anything on your mind? |
So is your mom getting rid of things |
HIS mother |
Idk |
I think it's more manipulation |
Ohhhhhh |
She claims she's dying roughly every 6 - 8 months |
Ah ok lol |
She got a new phone number because i blocked the other about 2 years ago |
And my mother uses proper grammar lol |
Hahaha |
I'm thinking about how much I am not looking forward to this week. Tomorrow all day in office for hack a thon, followed by team building event, followed by dinner with team |
I am so sorry |
Weird! |
I wonder who |
On the bright side.... you'll get to unleash a massive amount of pent up sexual tension and cum in me as much as you'd like in just a few days |
I sure hope so |
I'll suck you off tonight if you feel like it.... you iust have to let me know |
I might have to take someone to dinner |
You know I never do that right |
??? |
Ohhhh right |
There's an Applebee's close by |
Lolol |
I'm just going to skip off to the loo for a quickie |
Happy fuckaversary btw |
Oh for real? |
You.too! |
Thanks for changing my life |
Of course |
My pleasure ♥️ |
null |
Well great. Your nerddom rubbed off on me |
I have a misc tech nin now |
*bin |
Muahahah |
2024-10-14T10:12:52 |
https://open.spotify.com/track/4dTVgHZFPlaq9nPbLVVLSG?si=lObpvgeOTnaScfchaoSe_A |
Aww! Thx I like Tegan and Sara |
I have their signed book |
Nice! Where did you get all the signed books? |
Some i find in the wild, some i go get signed, every year B&N and BAM have a signed section around black Friday |
Cool! |
I like them |
I have a Christopher Paolini that was $6 |
He wrote the Eragon series |
The Veronicas? |
Hmmm? |
That's a no, lol |
https://open.spotify.com/track/438GLukPRpTj8VbdzPImMg?si=dxSIN3XwQNOZ9A2UXFNtqQ |
https://open.spotify.com/track/4ECvB9frSDegHfKNRh9dwT?si=mOLsA6zhSISA7X_P1eFUXA |
null |
Hieeee cuties! |
null |
Now he is in mommyjail |
Oo bad kitty |
He thinks he is my IT support |
Cat stenographer |
Oh you have one as well! |
Well kinda 3 |
Lol I only have one and the only thing he knows is |
2024-10-14T13:03:09 |
Eyyyyyyuu |
Wassup |
How you doin? |
Tired lol |
Awws |
What are you thinking still about the weekend? |
It's on my mind lol |
Which day do you reckon is better for you? Saturday will definitely be easier for me |
Tell the hub there's a gun and knife show in Chicago. That oughta do the trick |
Lol |
oooOOOooo |
I can do more than one day.... |
By best shot at getting the hell out of here is definitely Saturday |
Noon-ish that is ool |
I'll just wait with bated breath |
Huh huh you said bated |
I did |
You wanna do lots of things saturday?? |
Maybe even see me naked |
Leave me dripping |
Get a little inebriated |
All the things! |
Dammit my furnace will not come on |
It's not a big deal rn but dammit anyway |
I'll cuddle you to warmth |
Perfect |
Nope |
Lololol |
Maybe some fluid transfer |
Ok just not too much friction |
Awww! I do too |
Internal momentum? |
As long as there's some lubrication to moderate the friction we good |
Now you're making me all bothered |
You and your internal fluid transfer plans |
I'll take it all back |
All. Of. You. |
Guarantee you'll sweat |
But i also want under covers so there's that too |
Maybe you hold me and fuck me at the same time :) |
Maybe I will do that it would pretty good right now |
(You'd be the first to plant that flag) |
The more the merrier! |
I know already exactly the sound that'll escape my chest |
Oh? |
It's delicate, sweet, hot, and gutteral. I can feel it now but can't make it myself |
Oh I can't wait to hear it |
I wantttttttttt this |
Omg please restrain me |
I have ribbons that can help |
Like 3 feet each. 8 of them |
😊 |
Yay! |
Can you tell me what turns you on about this new possibility? I'm stoked - i didn't think you'd do it |
I guess I've long thought a little restraint would be fun |
Never had a chance to try it |
Everything you want, i want, and then i want more |
There has to be more.... what woule you like to do while I'm restrained? |
Depending on how much restraint we're talking about, I could eat you out, lick your ears, etc. |
What about for YOU? |
Whatever mood strikes me I reckon. |
Yeah i need that |
What you need is a proper pounding :) |
YES |
And I think your boobies need nibbled on |
Might have some neck spots too |
You should explore for all of it |
Oh yeah |
Ohh fuckkkk |
You got that right lol |
Maybe I'll get so into it i break your face lol |
😛 |
I kind of really want to do something similar |
Omg anxiety or something is killing me rn |
Oh noes! |
I know i know |
But i am now free! |
Yay! |
null |
You should come feed me lol |
I was that as |
Lol |
So no on the food? Sad |
I will feed you Missy |
Lol |
You stopping by my office tomorrow? |
I will! |
So far away! |
Tomorrow is going to be such a cluster. I don't think I will get home until 2030 |
Really?? |
Yep |
But why? |
From work to escape room (team building), and then to dinner |
Ohh |
Yeppers :( |
You plan on having energy left for this weekend? |
Fortunately no extracurricular events Thursday or Friday:) |
Maybe you swing by here on your way back |
That's why I was asking about Wednesday. It will be much easier to get away earlier |
Mmhmmm |
I dont work |
That's all i know for now |
Well then you oughta be fresh as a daisy at 1800 |
Perhaps, just not a location to speak of |
Right right. |
Yep |
What if i happen to not work Friday afternoon? |
I may also happen to not work at that time ! |
Really though - i think I'm off Friday |
Lol you think so eh |
I know so |
Well then |
Yep |
I could meet you! |
Indeed! Where? |
I dunno! What kind of meetup should we have? |
The weather might be nice |
My house will probably be fine if you'd like - just saying anywhere might be an option |
That's going to be tough to beat! |
I'll need a time is all ;) |
Let me confirm I can get the afternoon free tomorrow.. should be no problem. Is noon too early? |
You mean for Friday, correct? |
Noon should be fine |
Yeah sorry that was confusing of me! |
Sounds good! |
Fucking you under the sheets sounds good |
Omg yes please |
Think you can be slow and sensual or do we need to shelve that? |
I can be slow and sensual |
Sure |
You dont have to |
Pin you down kind of requisites? |
That's a request |
Kiss your neck |
Just the first word is an all the time requisite |
Finger |
Not necesarily, but you do have to be sure, somehow, that I'm ready |
Tell you before I come |
I am aware that it might just happen |
Don't feel bad! |
I want to take care of you |
So you want to know the rule |
I sure do |
It was going to be that you talk to me later that day and the next |
Ok! |
Aftercare is part of the package |
No pump and dump |
That's why i feel awful right now |
No need to feel bad about it |
And have it you will |
I feel bad about myself for not knowing that isn't so normal, for assuming I should only be good enough for the other or whatever |
Don't even worry about it. |
I dont think I'm expreasing my feeling well |
I feel like a dirty, godawful, cum dumpster whore of a loser slut |
And you don't like that |
You would like to be cherished |
Not when it was purely about being used because i was easy to manipulate |
You are in control now |
And i want to please you |
You know i don't understand why |
I know |
I just hope you enjoy being treated like an equal |
Like a gram |
Gem |
Thx phone |
I dont think we're equal, in a lot of ways |
But we can treat each other as such |
It's in my head that i havent gotten you off yet |
No worries at all babe |
We will figure that out |
I feel inadequate and insecure and like i failed. And that it could easily be used against me |
I will never do that |
I understand your fear though |
I dont think you would, but like your mind would tell you it's a good reason to not stick around |
It's not even a thing. Tell your demons to bugger off, we have fun things to think about |
Lol okay |
You can laugh at them later |
When you prove them wrong |
And know that even if I don't get my way 100%, I will still protect you |
And I will still love you! |
null |
I really wish you could protect all of me |
Me too |
I also wish you knew what you didnt know but that neither of us knew it too |
Sadly the world is full of bad news |
That's very strange, and very lovely |
I like being with you. |
You are such an amazing person |
You are |
I love you |
A lot |
null |
You know it actually hurts to love you this much and feel it back |
That's why we need to have some hugs :) |
Yes. And more |
2024-10-15T05:09:57 |
Good morning cutie! |
2024-10-15T07:22:38 |
Heyyyy |
Did you sleep in? |
How are ya? |
I slept late. Unintentionally. |
Getting ready to leave the house in a minute |
Well I'll be here! You want food or bev? |
I'm all set thank you! See you soon |
2024-10-15T08:53:23 |
null |
null |
Wanna go to paris? |
Oh let's!!! |
On y va! |
Cold & rainy there in March. Better find creative ways to warm up |
Oh la la! |
Ca va? Maintenany |
*maintenant |
Pas Mal |
Vous venez ici... quand? |
Je vous manque |
Je voudrais vous demander une question tres importante |
Si? |
Je suis arrivee |
Langue torte |
Revenez! |
2024-10-15T13:12:29 |
What time are you escaping this building today? |
About 1630. Then off to the escape room team building event lol |
Yeah i know |
I'll add the lip gloss now just in case |
You are making it hard to escape lol |
I said BEFORE |
Lol |
It's not like i have an entire bag of spearmint lifesavers in here begging to be consumed |
Oh wait.... |
2024-10-15T14:53:57 |
Lol |
We have brownies, choc chip cookies, and trail mix bars. |
Maybe if you feed me |
Cookies! Plz |
Thank you for feeding me :) |
Friday might be overly lonely |
Whyy lonely? No lonely no! |
I hadnt heard |
It should be a nice day for a nature experience |
Nature, you say? |
Well yes i do have an enclosed backyard! |
Maybe you can convince some chick to make you a dish |
Lol |
I was thinking about a real birds and bees experience |
Sounds lovely |
You'll have choices to make, you know |
When do i start compulsively chomping these lifesavers? |
https://www.shopeastwoodtownecenter.com/directory/ |
There might be no less than 2 places i was thinking of going in there tomorrow |
I forgot how you taste already and so maybe you should come back?? |
😘 |
null |
Anyway, 2 places there. I was going to go to one last week and that fell through |
Oh such the conundrum! |
You tell me where to go before Friday |
Questions? |
Breaking free now :) |
You want me to tell you where to go shopping?? |
There's more than shopping in eastwood |
(Yes) |
Maybe meridian mall. Idk. Not thrilled right now |
Grab a screwdriver so we can lobotomize me already, please |
2024-10-15T19:28:04 |
https://waxcenter.com/ |
One option for this week or tomorrow |
https://www.torrid.com/ |
Another |
https://www.victoriassecret.com/us/ |
Another |
( fin ) |
2024-10-15T20:32:40 |
I'm in the mood for something spicy. What's at torrid? |
How spicy? |
Idk |
Tease you now? Then? Always? |
I will |
Happy ro |
Gooood newssssss |
Newses? |
Yep |
You will tease me? |
I suppose, lol |
I might need guidance in that |
I want you |
I know you do |
I want you too |
What newses do you have? |
What would your choice of news be? |
I get to pick! Like choose your own adventure? |
Choose your news indeed |
Chews my nose |
Indeed |
Does it start with L? |
I can make lots start with L |
Leav |
Lol? |
Light |
Lick |
Lingual, perhaps? |
Lovely |
Lively |
Listless |
Lustful |
Looking forward |
Longingly |
Languishing, lad? |
Like yes |
Laugh |
For friday |
When do you have to leave? |
Did you want me teasygothic then or Saturday? |
What do you want me to have for you? |
And i cant decide on what i should do thursday night. You need to decide for me |
2024-10-16T00:25:53 |
I would so love for you to be awake right now |
2024-10-16T04:22:36 |
And a very good morning to you whenever you wake up ❤️ |
Hieee sweet baby! |
Are you ok (stairs) ? |
What have you been thinking about? I'm so wanting to know what you are like when you are greedy! |
2024-10-16T07:51:15 |
The stairs... totally fine. Took a tumble, didn't actually fall.... i was thinking about you and the things you do SO SO SO well and my legs literally git weak and tried to give out |
How are you? |
Ready to hack the thon? |
Hahahah! |
Need be to think outside the box for you at all? |
Imma think inside your box missyy |
Hope there's a lot more than thinking but i digress |
2024-10-16T10:16:53 |
Hey! |
Think dirty thoughts |
Lol |
Arrgh I am trying! |
Not hard enoughhhhb |
Something nsfw to look up later: lightning bolt. As a position. |
Enjoying the day? |
null |
I'm getting through it lol |
You bein cute and whatnot? |
You just lmk when you want more teases |
I am |
null |
Fluffier please! |
Dirty thoughts yet? |
2024-10-16T16:03:17 |
Omg your work is killlllllling me today! |
Ok I am now sitting alone on the ninth floor. What are you up to? Should I go to happy hour or maybe not... |
Are you completely spent? |
I might have spent the day unnecessadily thrifting |
Nope , I am good to go |
Drinks on AF? |
*now? |
I hope you're having fun |
Just having a lemonade on the house. I could leave any time lol |
But where to go? |
What do you feasibly want to do? |
I happen to bea few blocks away and can go just about anywhere if you need company |
Leaving soon.... |
I will meet you! |
Where are you sugar lump? |
I am seeking for you! |
Lol |
We drinking? Could be fun! |
Be there in 5 |
I'll wait on the corner lol |
But nah. In front if that's okay |
Just as long as you know i am perfectly willing to go home then meet you wherever |
On my own |
2024-10-16T19:18:15 |
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Downward dog |
Very enticing actually |
Lol |
Rug burn avoidance |
Maybe |
Foot traction though |
Stairs |
The yoga mat places a good traction between your feet and the carpet. You wont slide around |
I reckon that's important if you're wearing socks amiright? |
More for you |
Is baby oil involved? |
Omg no puff daddy |
But if you pound me like you claim you want, you'll move backward after each thrust if it's just you & carpet |
Thank you, btw |
Thanks for what? |
Everything tonight, silly boy |
What comforter should i use? |
*we |
And would you like a synopsis of what the huge family divide on my mother's aide if the family is-was? I can do it by sending you a link, then you can ask what you want because there are a few sides and i know them all |
Tell me about the comforter options first please! |
Solid color or print? Fluffy or coverlet style? |
Tell me when you're ready for the link |
Fascinating |
https://www.lovewhatmatters.com/andrew-didnt-make-it-for-the-first-time-i-felt-free-sexual-abuse-survivor-healing-journey-sobriety-motherhood/ |
That's one |
There's more |
I guess i cant find the other writing oonline |
I just reread a lot of things between my cousin leslie and me. I think i might share them with you sometime. God i miss her. And i forgot things that have now made me..... pensive |
Anyway |
What say you? |
I just finished reading the article |
Oh okay. Is it long? |
The one i was thinking of initially is what i couldnt find |
I'm a slow reader lol |
Still the same "falling out" |
I legit have no idea how long it what it says |
I can tell you about it if you want. Either way. I can tell it was probably somewhat cathartic for Lauren to write it. It's not actually what I would consider intense. |
It does make me think of a question |
Yes please |
A fairly serious one. Maybe I asked something like this already |
Go ahead |
Do you have any concern that you may be seeking the treatment you received as a SA victim? |
I think that would be profoundly unhealthy |
And I do not want to harm you |
I have an answer and that answer will not change and i will tell you |
I don't mean to suggest that you want to be victimized. It's my armchair psychologist understanding that there is a pattern of behavior in which victims of SA, DA, etc., unwittingly find themselves in such situations again in part because they don't know better for themselves. It's not that they want it as such, but they can't break the cycle |
My response (typed as you were typing too) |
I think you are very correct in your armchair |
I know you are |
Ok thank you for that--i needed to hear this from you and I am much relieved |
Damn typos! |
Another idea that explains it well is that i am my own person with my body that i get to make my own decisions for now |
Said another way... |
Okay :) |
You are such a lovely person 💖 |
I really do admire you |
I do you as well |
You are sweet |
Why do you think i am lovely when i am so obviously fucked with issues of all sorts? |
Do you know why i think you're admirable? |
Because of your relentless pursuit of rising above your challenges, bettering yourself because you can. You are intelligent, you are quick, you are funny, and on top of all that you are cute as a button and extremely hot |
You are too much |
😊 |
Lol YW |
What was your "plan" if there was an open pull off? |
Why havent i had any kisses in 32+ hours? |
Snogging was part of the plan |
You sure do count well |
Oh?? Math isnt my thing lol |
And still... nary a pout to be nibbled |
I am so not good at cues |
If I put myself in your mailbox will you bring me in? |
I literally asked you for lifesavers |
And obviously |
I would bring you as far in as you can come |
I'm slow like that |
In appropriate seclusion, you can ALWAYS kiss me |
So you think you know my plans tomorrow evening still? |
I can confidently say I have no clue |
Eastwood |
Service and shopping :) |
All for you+me |
You hadddddd to have the inclination |
Oh! I thought of some very pertinent details to the cousin drama thing |
Do you know why i like you to be in charge? |
2024-10-16T23:12:09 |
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2024-10-17T00:15:26 |
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2024-10-17T04:33:19 |
Good morning my sweetest! |
Privyet! |
Kak dela? |
😋 |
How are you? |
Feeling good! |
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What are you up to? |
You like me to be in charge because... You want to be freed and I'm nice to you? |
And it did think you were going to go to the East town qood center but you're tricksy with your language sometimes 😜 |
Sorry, i guess i took an early nap?? Lol |
Yay! Pleasing you pleases me and makes me want you even more. It's such a fun spiral to go down |
Or up I guess |
Go into? |
Fuck I'm tired |
Have you been up all night lol |
Nope |
Woke up like 34 seconds before i texted you this morning |
😘 |
Do you need shopping ideas? |
I'd love them! |
I currently have 3 destinatiojs as priority |
Here are a few things that caught my eye |
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Those are definitely my style! |
Had to ultrastream the caffeine today. But i balanced it with healthy breakfast! |
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Haha! My favorite mixed veg :) |
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Those pics were just random hits on the interwebs. Size men's large should work for me for undies, if you are ever so inclined |
Do you have Google lens on your phone? |
Ofc! |
Why you ask? |
Also, need neck broken so there's less oww there and need kisses and need extra fluid and need so much more |
Ok lol |
Pic 1 is at amazon |
I can find similar, thanks! |
No problem |
I will not wear anything that isn't stretchy. Just a general rule you should know i guess. Lol |
Fair! |
How different do you think our panty size is between us? |
Prob not much lol |
We should experiment |
Another rule for garments - if it could be restrictive enough for a panic attack at some point, i wont own or wear it |
Im perfectly olay not gettjng completely naked too |
Thats just a good point of information |
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😂 to a photo |
Thoughts? |
That is hilarious |
I meant the partially clothed thing but sure |
Kinda thought you'd be hard set on thoughts of what we can do in less than 1700 minutes |
I lovvvvvvvvvve when you think of me |
You know how i mentioned ice cream a thousand times? |
Quick question: where do you want me to be baby smooth and hairless? Endless options |
What kind of room/setting/environmental/ambient scents do you like? Dislike? Keep in mind that lilac is wayyyyy out of season now lol |
I going to try to do better with clues :) |
I think about you all the time babe |
Thank you! Ive been working really hard at making it better and more inviting for you. Vacuuming lots because pets and dust and i want you to breathe. But i do have a nebulizer and an army full of albuterol and alb inhalers |
I'm also cleaning off the couch |
So the ice cream references make more sense now or still no? |
Id like to explain explicitly so you tell me when |
Ok we're cramming for a presentation but I will get freed up later! |
Okay! 👌 |
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❤️ to a photo |
Woke up to scowlcat |
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1. Room scent? |
Ok this is going to take me days to respond to lol |
Nope |
Numerized for convenience |
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2024-10-17T12:14:31 |
Less than 24 hours |
Just sayin |
Yay!!!!! |
Pic makes sense? |
What is lunch (you & me)? |
2024-10-17T14:41:03 |
Heh, the pic makes sense :) |
Good. Remember it lol |
Dealing with a little cluster fuck and I will be done here finally |
Yay! |
I have key info i need before 5ish from you |
Ok |
1730 at latest |
Enjoy the Cluck! |
You will have my undivided attention soon |
😊 |
What are your questions so I ponder |
Last minute attire requests |
I have an awkward question too |
Depends. I think most lubes are basically inert or very light tasting. Don't worry about it |
I'm sorry I don't know how to answer the panty or color question rn |
No prob |
Damn fire drill is irritating me |
Sorry |
Ah fuck that means I'll get all the calls |
What a convenient break time |
Not a literal one |
Ohhhhhhh |
How do you fix? |
Excel calculations |
So not ideas or reallocating funds? |
We do nonstandard things for a few agencies. Guess which ones are error prone lol |
Mine lol |
Lolol |
I will fix yours for free |
Just saying mine are nonstandard |
Who were you thinking? |
Keystone |
At the moment. It was High Street earlier |
Oh okay |
I'm just bitching |
Guess who just did the leg thing again? |
Oh no. Do you have skin left? |
Yes - havent touched the skin - mindfully weakened the legs again ;) |
Ok the fire is out and work |
You have no idea how badly I want to swing by your bedroom right now lol |
Lol. It's still messy and dirty and so am i. Didnt even shower yet. Didn't brush my hair either |
But it's also empty |
I'm just going to get you all sweaty anyway |
With your persperation? I hope so |
I wasssss sorta free this evening |
Still am, kinda. Work til 515, skip on outta here, secret mission, then appt at 630, then cleaning more |
Cleaning me and the house |
What am i supposed to feed you? |
Time constraints saturday? |
You free yet? Escape the terrors of 200 n grand ave? |
Better! |
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I am free!! |
Yay! |
Digital portals functionally restored?!? |
If you consider a spreadsheet a digital portal, then yes! |
Well we just got an af comm saying so.... |
Do you want to go select lingerie with me |
I would like to but I will bring suspicion on myself if I disappear now |
It's ok to surprise me |
Feeling peckish so I scared up cheese and crackers with pretzels lol |
Are you free yet? |
I am free! |
Changing then leaving |
What about you and your salty snacks? |
What about em? I like them lol |
Obv! It's all ive ever seen you eat |
So, you joining in the selection process or.....? |
I can't leave the house without paying a suspicion tax, so not a good idea for me |
I know you want ice cream and mints and stuff |
I get it. I'm sorry |
Yeah! |
Right. Totally the point of my ice cream references. And THOSE mints |
You know the distractianax? |
Lol |
No |
To which? |
Seriously, what should i spell out? |
I'm sorry you lost me |
I need help lol |
My brain is frazzled |
It's okay |
Ice cream.... |
Mints - that brand increases the amount of saliva you create like crazy. More for me to use than you |
But I'm so pure... Surely you meant real ice cream? What is your favorite flavor? |
What do you think? |
Are you bringing whipped cream or am i getting it? |
I got you |
Mmmmkay |
Well it ain't chocolate lol |
Bring everythinlol for sure |
So proud you're learning! |
You do like caramel though |
Yes |
I do not like pieces of anything exceot peppermint stick |
Pick a flavor please |
Sweet |
You said strawberry before |
Wish me luck! |
Took a before ;) |
12 minutes btw |
Whew! |
? |
Where ya been? |
I nodded off |
Well you need rest before tomorrow |
Lol for real |
Here i am running all sorta of errands and activities and nonsense lol |
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Well how dis that end up there!? |
What was that 12 minute and before all about!? |
All sorts of mysteries this evening |
. |
. |
. |
. |
. |
Omg you're killing me |
Sorry! |
What a pretty pic! |
I wonder what's in the box |
Bag is for the box lol |
Oh it's a bag. I see! |
What 12 minute? |
Sorry I'm confused |
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You had an appt |
Lasted 12 minutes |
You're eyes are so pretty |
Idk what kind of wood East center town things last 12 minutes |
Thank you |
I hear they speak a lot of things for me and xan be quite expressive |
La langue |
Quelle evet? |
Trying to decipher short appointments at EWTC |
EWC |
(It's a clue) |
it's been a couple years since I've been in there |
Evacuated water closet |
Do you not have the interwebs? |
Early weather conditions |
Extra wet ____ |
That's up to you |
Hmm |
Every |
Which |
Witch |
Watch |
Extra wet (very dirty word in the US) was good with me |
But still up to you |
I'm down |
Do you not use the google? |
Consultation now |
Oh, okay |
Lol |
Google is useless |
Try ewc and eastwood maybe |
But it was literally my first google result |
When i typed in ewc |
ooOOoo |
That Ewc |
Was it really not obv? |
I was trying to see what stores were there |
On s map |
It's a smaller place. And not a store |
Ok. I'm not familiar with it |
Do you need me to spell it out again? |
Wax, I got it now |
Yes |
Took 12 minutes |
I took a before pic too |
That's good science. We can compare |
For science! |
And so you can tell me how much of a deterrent it is/would be |
I told you already it would be ok |
May i say something vulnerable? |
See above |
Yes, feel free to say |
I think i logically understand you'd actually be okay with it. I wanted to feel comfortable enough to let you see, touch, feel, taste, and explore any of me you want. Being waxed is what I've done for a very long time and because i want you to have and see and feel everything you want, i wanted to feel comfident as i could to let you habe that part of me and being waxed was the only way i would be okay with it |
Absolutely! Thank you ! |
Im never going to complain about this |
I also kind of know that |
And thank you |
And my tongue loves it |
But just because you dont complain doesn't mean you dont feel negatively about it |
Your tongue loves what? |
Your smooth skin |
I am so excited and so good anxious and so conflicted! |
Why? Because I want to lock you all night and day? |
Lick you!!! |
A little |
I will try and explain |
I dont know what to expect |
And i cant turn my brain off yet |
Ok :) |
I dont think you know what i mean though |
Spouse home, possible intermittent afks |
Ok no prob |
I cant decide what im supposed to tell myself for tomorrow |
What do you mean? |
FYI I will have spouse interruption at some point |
Okay! |
I mean i dont know what mood to set myself up for. How to prepare, kind of |
Ultra fun and experimental? Sensual and kind and exploratory with lovemaking? |
I dont know what to think and that's uncommon and a little wary for me |
But i will calm down tomorrow and just go with it |
Do you feel like you need to know the script beforehand? |
I just want to be with you and have fun :) |
You will be smashingly wonderful |
I just dont know how to not overthink |
I want to let it happen |
And i want you to want me, love me, think I'm pretty, hear that I'm the tightest youve been with and you'll never get enough |
My poor baby! |
And I am wanting you every day |
Every night |
Really? |
And I am so excited to see what you've done |
YES!! ♥️♥️♥️ |
it makes me shiver with delight when I see you |
I just want to grab and hug and squeeze you |
And roll around with you and kiss you |
And lick you and and and and |
Yes I do |
And tell you dirty things |
And lick your ears and kiss your neck |
And let you have your way with me |
Because the passion in your eyes cannot be denied |
And I want you so badly too |
Mmmmmmmm |
And I want to taste you on my fingers |
And taste you with my lips |
And I want to be smothered in your dampness |
And I want you to cum all over me |
And I know you want me too and I'm really excited about that! |
I want a lot of you |
You can have all of me |
Please |
I'm begging |
Take me! |
I will take you too |
Promise? |
It's been too long since we've been together |
We have a lot to catch up on |
It will be so fun! |
We can do anything we want |
And I want you |
I want to be inside you |
Feel you around me |
Feel you squeeze me |
Feel your beautiful skin |
Smell you and taste you so close to me.... I'm going crazy here lol |
Ohhhb my god yes |
How necessary is the couch tomorrow? |
Your bed will be fine babe |
Thank you :) |
Will it upset you if i have a drink? |
No not at all! |
😊 |
Ever look up nsfw lightning bolt position? |
I have a position logic question too |
Sure go ahead! |
How do you change into a new one? Like, if indont kkow how to move myself into it? |
Sometimes we just disengage, reposition, and go again |
So disengaging is okay? |
Isnt it awkward? |
Tell me qhen you want a serioualy hot and very explicit photo of an unidentifiable me please |
Possibly 2 |
Disengaging is fine |
And you might want to taste yourself on me for a sec first. That's always an option |
I still have basically one idea of how sex ahould go and so this really is new information |
I can do that |
I get concerned about getting too dry if we're doing too much |
If that happens, we can pause, bring on the lube, or tongues, or both, ... |
And you wont be offended? |
No not at all! |
It's nothing to worry about |
I will have to put the phone down soon |
Maybe you could send me one of those pics when I'm afk so I see it in the morning :) |
You walking me through everything and explaining ultra basic stuff is so unbelievably helpful |
It's fun too! |
Telling me/reassuring as we're engaging will be tremendously more helpful too |
I enjoy it |
Ofc you got it! |
And if i want something different, i can tell you? Guide you in the moment? |
Yes yes, you sure can |
♥️ |
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I'm fading out babe |
Good night sweetness |
I will see you soon |
Goodnight! |
Less than 15 hours |
Yay! |
Good night! |
🥰 |
2024-10-18T04:24:55 |
Good morning babe! |
2024-10-18T06:23:54 |
OMG lightning bolt position... I have only seen in pornos. It looks so damn hot. I love being so close to you 😍 |
Today is today! |
❤️ to “ Today is today! ” |
I didnt clean any more (got sleepy lol) but the bed is clear and I'll be freshly showered so there's that! |
😊 |
I can't wait to mess up your makeup |
Maybe my hair |
Done with my appt :) |
Oh you had appt today as well? |
Yep! Thought you knew |
I alluded but maybe didnt outright say so |
I've been so scattered the last few days I probably missed it |
Everything copacetic? |
Yep! |
How's everything today for you? |
So far so good |
Are you home alone? |
Not yet but absolutely will be later |
Trying to get earlyaccesss? Lol |
I'm just daydreaming over here lol |
Besides whipped cream , anything you want me to pick up? Drinkses? |
Ice cream? |
I think I'm good thanks! |
Oh, green grapes? |
Seedless |
😋 |
Oh for the love of hades |
Have something to tell you |
Oh noes |
Oh nellie |
Ermagerd |
Fluckin ay |
Summer down ya nut |
We may have to pause early is all |
Is L returning after the drop off? |
L has to take SIL to an appr in ann arbor. They leave here at/just after 1130 |
I still want you today if i can have you |
Just needs a pause or an early dismissal |
I am eternally sorry for these nasty shenanigans |
You think on that and i will be showering |
Whatever you choose, know that i will make it up to you tomorrow |
(: |
So, still coming over later or did you want to hold off til tomorrow? |
I will come over ... You lol |
See above |
Sorry, tax would be too high lol |
It's all good babe |
We can have fun disrobing each other |
Mmmmmmmm okay! |
Okay :) |
Anything that would keep you from me today? |
Filthy house, unclean hair, messy bed top, cold.... |
L coming home even earlier is about it actually |
Nope :) |
But christbabyjesus they are still sleeping |
!!!!! |
Yep! |
Do you think i have anxiety? If i hadn't told you, i mean. Would you notice? |
I would not have yet |
Thanks |
Really though? That's odd to me |
I'll let you know as soon as we're clear here, btw |
But NOT YET |
I didn't think anything until you appealed to the underworld lol |
I thought I might part on front and pose as a political canvasser |
Hahahahahahahahahaha |
Anytime you want to start foresexxting is cool :) |
Babe? |
Sorry one more fire popped up |
Torally fine |
And has been extinguished |
Hurray! |
What happened? |
$&$&&$-" profit sharing |
No worries |
So the coast is clear? |
Not yet |
Did they remember to get dressed? |
Oh ok lol |
But you can bring your laptop... i conveniently have internet here |
Maybe you SHOULD |
FUCK THAT SHIT |
No work |
*personal laptop |
For..... reasons |
Ohhhh |
Yeah? |
Maybe |
Lol |
What on earth might we use it for? |
The Internet is for porn |
Weird 👾 |
Must be true though |
You think you can calm and relax me maybe? |
15 minutes and you can show up :) |
Please text when possible |
I am going to leave shortly and stop at Kroger |
Okay, be safe |
I will ping you from there! |
Remember, don't maul me til the door is closed |
Lol |
Leaving driveway now |
Migut enlist you in a chore lol |
Wassup? |
Not much, you? |
Need anything at Krogé? I will be treading water soon |
Nope, nothing |
Im readyizh |
Sexy ir resting |
Need choice now plz |
Choice? |
Can I come over and play? |
Yes |
Yay! 🎉 |
Sexy or lazy |
Choice? |
Lazy |
Does it work? |
Yep |
Lmk when you pull in |
Okay 👍 |
I'm heeeere! |
Ysy! One sec |
Come on up to the porch whenever |
Bon jour Madame! |
2024-10-18T15:27:34 |
Love you! Here I am at Kroger again lol, finishing weekly shopping |
Hahahahahaha |
Love you too! |
A thousand thank yous |
I feel weird |
I think it's good though |
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All the cuties! Mwa! Mwa! |
I want to make a literal list of firsts please :) |
Let's do it! I think I started one at home lol |
But you havent had any with me yet |
Well I will look anyway lol |
Okay |
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Lol |
You should be proud of me... I just bought eye drops and dosed them in the car |
Wonderful!!!! I have them in every room lol |
I think this makes the third time in my life I've ever done that, and you saw the second |
Yay! 🎉 |
How are you doing? |
Very well. Seamless transition to the abode. The boys will be staying another night , which is actually perfect because it means the distractions create themselves and I dont have to |
That's great! |
How are you doing? Alone again? |
I'm still a little fuzzled |
Onnnnnnnnne guess what he's doing rn |
Running late lol |
Obv but that's a constant with him |
End of guesses? |
Sleeping |
I knew you were smart |
You're kidding right |
Not even a little bit |
Cant you claim you need emergency drinking asylum? |
Sometimes I wish I had developed a habit of drinking with the guys |
For this reason |
Same reason i wish i had friends |
But at least maybe now i can clean for you |
Wanna know one reason i was scolded upon his arrival? |
Smells like sex? |
Nope |
You look tired |
1. Dishes weren't all the way done |
Some trad wife you are |
Sheesh |
How do those 3 match up? And like, the laundry only goes so fast and.... whatever |
I bet he does a lot of dishes huh |
And laundry |
Mmmhmmm |
And grocery shopping |
Cooking |
General cleaning |
I mean I'm a good tradwife |
Maybe. You're a better tradslut for me though lol |
Too far? Im sorry |
A better compliment I have yet to hear. Thank you from the bottom of my dirty soul 😘😘😘 |
Of course |
Hehe no not too far I love the hat |
The hat |
Okay theo |
Ok I know I recommended this to you a while back |
You would like the lyrics :) |
Want me to listen rn? |
Sure |
It's chill |
Oh i already heard and read this one |
Ok |
It made me extremely melancholy |
It makes me think of you |
Lol fitting |
Not because melancholy |
But because sincerity |
And caring |
Theyre all related |
Yes |
Did you ever tell me why rlh is sex averse now? I know what happened that last attempt since you told me today (thank you) |
I know a lot of it is because of chronic back pain. Her spine is legit fucked. But it was around that time she started getting legit mean as well. Paranoid. Projecting (more) about her insecurities. And that got steadily worse until now basically. Sex was one of first things to go |
What are her insecurities? |
Worthlessness |
ADHD |
But also, you're aware i have chronic unspecified pain that's mostly in my back, right? |
And she is internally very angry that she physically cannot do things she used to do. And lashes out with projection |
Yes you told me about your pain |
And believe me, I do not want to hurt you |
You won't |
Not even for a score or whatever |
I respect you |
Score? |
I'm being intentionally crude here |
and ironically |
See she thinks I do things In order to make her life miserable sometimes |
Because I don't care or whatever |
Meds are helping |
Sorry of |
Sort of |
She is just so wrong, but I literally cannot talk to her about it. We went over that a few days back |
Sooooo |
I try to coexist |
Not t right now |
She is not a friend to me |
In a way, this is a culmination of attitudes we've both been brewing for years. What changed is I'm not willing to capitulate the way I did before. Because she is completely manipulative and I'm not going to deal with that at her level any more |
I understand and I'm so sorry. And in a very similar situation |
When you have a minute, i have something i would like to share. Kind of off topic |
What else would you like to say? Ask? Demand? Lament? |
I'm good for now ty! |
It's kind of a lot of screenshots. I'll tell you when I'm finished sending. I wish i knew why i want to show you. I just do, idk |
Ok! |
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That's quite a rap sheet Missy |
You've seen some shit |
Kinda |
Yeah |
But you really think it's not great? |
Not being glib |
I think what I'm trying to say is that, this really isn't everyone's experience? |
I'm guessing you have some idea of how many people have a transplant, let alone two or three, and an amputation, and a port,and .... |
Uh no, this is not everyone's experience, babe. |
But here you are |
Such a sweetheart |
So worthy |
So smart |
And funny |
And talented |
And dark and twisty lol |
I think you're entitled to that |
A lot of the time i wish people (*ahem af group ahem*) had even half the idea here |
Just a little devil's advocate here |
I believe you try hard |
I believe you pull 2x your weight |
Not sympathy, more like understanding |
And it's twice as hard |
Maybe recognition is the term? |
But I'm not a brown nosing kiss ass who jumps up and claps like a circus seal every time i do a single task correctly |
BRB in 5 |
It would be lovely if i could just be like "hey, my personal life beyond sucks and i feel worse than death today so i cant be 100x more or even half as much as my usual self cheerful as the rest of these dimwits who dont even pretend" because.... ow and stuff |
I think i wanted to show you for a few reasons |
I also dont ever think anyone believes me because i "look healthy" and i wanted you to 100% believe me because i want to share everything with you and a lot of my everything is basically unbelievable |
Trains of thought keep running around my head for you |
I never doubted you |
And you know what I saw? |
A lot lol |
I was going to ask what you wanted me to clarify |
And that's just my adult record |
What specifically do you think I saw? |
I will tell you, but I want to know what you think it was |
Is it something like "still alive"? |
That is part of it, yes! And I am so glad |
😊 |
What's the other part? |
Lol that's all? |
Umm |
Ok I will bail you out |
, |
That's a comma |
😋 |
You lick commas? |
You hesh lol |
I didn't read them before i sent those |
I have ideas of what i was worried would be weird |
I saw a woman who is remarkably intelligent, deep, attentive, and is super hot and exiting! |
100% |
Thank you |
And you have drawn me deeper into this canyon of abuse and illness and |
And OMG hot |
Omg thank you! |
You keep saying abuse |
Yes |
You have been abused for many years |
I don't know when that ended exactly |
Do you find it odd that I say this? |
Say which part? |
The ultimate answer is no but it makes me wonder a lot |
I keep saying abuse |
I understand what you were saying/say |
I might share some more stuff with you in this vein if that would be ok |
You do not have to share anything babe |
You have told me enough to know already, and it's ok |
You can tell me this one if you want to though! |
It's ok 😊 |
What i read in that is that i said too much and you hurt because of it and you'd rather i not share more |
No no, you did not hurt me. I worded that badly. Srsly! |
Please freely share anything |
I am fine |
How did my text come across though? The statement before the last one |
It is totally cool! What is it you want to share in that vein? |
Oh dang |
? |
Oh hai lol |
Yes I am smoking |
And you are smoking hot |
You're the most amazing person |
You have no idea |
Sorry, i was screenshotting |
Love you too! |
I felt it today |
But maybe i say it to everyone |
This makes me happy |
Me too |
You think i say it a lot? |
Nope |
Why? |
I do not think you over say it |
And I appreciate them all |
You amaze me |
I really appreciate that |
Do you know which "i love you" person you were for me? |
I recall going over this. But I forgot the number |
5 |
Youre the 5th ive told |
Let me know when you want |
Ohh! So I was correct? |
Yep! |
I thought you legit knew |
Next choice? |
Tell me a statement if you please! |
Mind if i yell it? |
Not a bit |
Thx for the warning! |
STILL FUCKING SLEEPING!!!! |
Apparently leaving will commence in the morning |
I am kind of amused |
null |
Wild! |
I love sleep |
But wow |
I am continually so, so let down by so much |
But anyway, next choice? |
This was your statement? Just trying to be clear |
Oh nope, it was not |
The sleeping thing was tho |
Lol! |
Please ask me anything |
What was every item in your bag today? This isnt my only question |
What you have there is literally what I bought at Kroger, round 1 |
Backpack |
Receipt probably in there |
Oh |
Laptop, charger, mouse. |
Permanent resident items: |
Cordage |
Pencils |
USB cables |
Rescue inhaler |
Oh inhaler! |
Boner pills ( since 2024-09-14) |
Albuterol, yeah |
Alka Seltzer or generic |
What a coincidental date lol |
Bits and bibst |
Ikr,??? |
Bits and bobs o what? |
Why didnt you take them? |
Boner pills you mean? |
And do they make you feel any kind of way? |
It was an experiment. Last time they kinda failed me. So I wondered if they were rh problem |
And yet this is now inconclusive |
Bc I wonder if they are expired |
Ohhh |
But still |
Anyway |
They feel like nothing at all |
Which is wild |
But if I get a boner, and entertain it a bit, I can really keep it going |
I was thinking about doing this tomorrow |
What do you think? |
Am i putting too much pressure on you? |
Not a bit babe |
Press |
PRESS |
LOL |
Mental pressure silly boy |
you good babe |
No worries |
And yes |
Back in 5-10 |
I had a swarm of cats telling me something |
"for we are all tiny and small, and we shall surely perish' |
"soon" |
Poor babies |
My chonsters be hunnnngry too |
I know that's true |
How's L by comparison |
What are we comparing? |
Catses and doggo |
I have a totally segue q for you |
Ok! |
Maybe effort level |
Gawd Im actually being sleazy. Nvm |
and I keep forgetting the nitrile gloves |
I will tell you everything you want to know |
List them out |
The questions |
Will you have |
Of course |
Mt question is about the relative effort you regularly make between L and the pets |
Your first time - where did you cum? |
Lol have you ever looped a * song radio" on Spotify? |
If you mean used the feature for "songs like this" or whatever it says, then yes |
Babe? |
Sorry I got drawn into stepson convo |
All is well |
Washing my eyes now! |
I'm so happy |
Is everything ok |
Yep |
Thanks |
Why are you happy? |
Had a damn good day with my mistress |
You're too much |
Why else? |
I keep thinking of and then forgetting the thing I want to say or ask |
You are so special to me |
Ditto a thousand times over |
Why am i special to you? |
So much delight and so much depth and so much pretty |
I know no other like you |
But how am i supposed to un puddle now? |
I'm sorry :( |
For what? |
You are puddle girl now |
In many ways |
And yet you are a flame |
If I go dark, don't worry |
Just keep talking |
Okay |
If i ever hurt after you/us, do you want to know? |
And you didnt answer my last batch |
I want to know everything |
Especially owie |
Is it! |
? |
No |
I thought i would be |
Yay? |
Is it? |
So you actually think you feel me when i relax and stuff doing intimate internal things? |
You said no. Not hurting I hope??? |
I am not hurting. |
Not hurting sounds good to me? Yay? |
I'll tell you when I'm done with this series of thoughts about it... |
I feel like i/it should hurt |
It makes me realize that not hurting was almost always a possibility but i didn't know that |
I also feel like i deserve it |
OMG I thought of the thing I want to ask |
Go |
My bad knee |
Will you kiss me there |
Ohhhhhh yes |
Please |
I would cherish that |
Is that why you keep kissing me at my most injured spots? |
Idk |
Not consciously |
But now that i mention it? |
It's a vulnerability for me. It's been a long time for me |
But I would feel safe |
A thousand times yes |
Which is it? |
Right knee |
Thank you |
Thank you! |
Back to one more point about me being unsure of hurting being good or bad please? |
Yes, please elaborate |
It isn't a turn on, not really in any kind of good or concious way at least, but if i hurt really deeply (there are just some spots, i know happen all the time and where they are) then i get really wet and physically aroused. It's fucked, i know. I have 2 basic thoughts behind why my body does it. Make that 3 thoughts |
Where are they? |
In this order: |
Well |
What is your preference,? |
For what? |
How do you look like being treated like a queen? |
It's wonderful and it's confusing |
Lol |
Just meeee |
I need to ask |
I'm actually embarrassed about this |
Go ahead |
I want to fuck you properly |
I hate my issues |
It is weird for me |
Maybe I'm too used to porn |
Which is wacked |
No pun intended |
I'm not really proud of this, but maybe this is what I need to get foung |
Going |
Might be 5 - 10 afk |
What is 5-10 afk? |
Me rn |
Oh, okay |
Lol gotcha |
Sorry, not my choice |
No worries |
I do have some deep pools as well. But I am kinda shallow dude. So kinda relative |
Why do I dream so much about the place that |
Been there a hundred times |
Backward and forward |
Get this lol |
I find something new every time |
So |
Satisfying |
Will be back soon! |
I lost you a little |
Yay! |
What news?! |
Yes I fell deep in your pools of delight |
And I am so happy |
I feel kind of embarrassed asking for porn. Ngl |
How do you mean with me and pools? Please say more |
And.... the good news! |
Ohhh babe i hope you didn't fall asleep but totally fine if you needed it |
Nope I am |
Hieeeee |
Lol |
Is that still part of tomorrow's plan? |
If you like! |
Yes to high |
Ok! |
You are such a goer |
I want it |
I will insist on being your mommie when I am around |
Yeah |
I will take care of you |
Anything you need |
I dont know what that means |
Just tell me anything you e |
I might be a little hovering |
Did i miss a word? |
Yes |
Oh okay |
Why would you hover? |
Bc I love you |
I'm full on romantic now babe |
I'm blushing |
For real |
And aroused |
https://open.spotify.com/track/3P0KuuB3mwx0ToMj7tEI38?si=JG2iQG3aQjWlOAVsI2gJ3w |
Want some symbolism? |
Yes! |
Today i felt like all.sorts of amazing feelings were passing through me like a moravian star at my core. Literally and figuratively |
I love that I turned you on |
Thank you |
You do it all the time |
Moravian stars are lovely, spectacular! |
I knew they would be |
The moravian star is a dodecahedron. Did you know that? It also has 26 points |
null |
Minus jesus of course |
But i think innocent and inexperienced and pure are all applicable in some form, esp today. And light and dark and all that |
https://chatgpt.com/c/671329cf-2cd4-8007-b780-452c7ff2b1b0 |
So cool! |
I do love you so |
Your chat wouldnt load :( |
The chatgpt |
I shall try again! |
https://chatgpt.com/c/671329cf-2cd4-8007-b780-452c7ff2b1b0 |
Can we talk about today more? |
Still a no loading error |
Yes! |
I'm sorry |
Can you screenshot? |
Yes! One sec |
1/? |
Okay |
null |
null |
null |
Thanks! |
So. Today's escapades |
Mmm hmmm? |
Where did you look most of the time? |
Hai |
You, too! |
Ok |
I focused most on your face and environs, and your pussy |
Many other things that I was fond of as well |
Can you please say more? I want to be in your brain for this knowledge |
Yes |
One moment |
You are intoxicating to me |
It's such a sweet and powerful and wonderful thing |
I've never felt wanted like you want me |
And you are so perfect |
So admirable |
So adorable |
I hope you could feel what my face wanted to say when i was somewhere else |
Can you tell me everything about that? |
Yes |
Thank you |
You were profoundly relaxed |
Yes |
So at ease |
Yes |
And I was near you, or on you |
Really? |
Yea |
What do you mean? |
Literally on you at times |
Or across you |
Why dont i recall that? |
Idk? |
I remember some of them |
And you were placid |
Yes |
And saw Moldavian stars |
Omg |
You |
Yes |
I tasted ungreat today |
Says who? |
I would use the term Acrid. Or Sour. |
I spent a lot of time you know |
There? Yes |
But you're also very kind |
You spent a very, very long time doing things with your fingers |
And I'm not exaggerating to say I would do it again a thousandfold |
Your fingers is what interests me most rn |
Oh wait |
That sounds bad |
I was switching subjects |
Because i have more questions about them and their doings |
How did you do it? |
Do what? Make you come with my fingers? |
Such perfection and feeling i didn't even know it could happen |
The first time |
I put my middle finger inside you and licked across your lips |
Im squirming at that |
Where I thought your clit might be |
You have large pussy lips. |
And you guided me to the place inside you, curled up and back "out" with my middle finger |
You loved that both times I fingered yoy |
That made me roll my eyes back in my head |
I do love that |
An insane amount |
You werevery peaceful for perhaps 90 minutes |
How long did i take to climax? |
Oops I left out a part |
First time, idk, 20 minutes? Not actually counting |
Second time |
Maybe 15 |
Wow |
Are you sure? |
Found a really special spot for you ! |
Yay! |
Can i know more? |
Yes!!! |
What can I tell? |
Well first, about this special spot |
Oh yes |
Is that a long time, btw? |
For me personally, at the long end |
Not way out |
Im sorry |
Were your wrists or whatever basically broken by the end? |
Lol not at all |
No apology please |
Not accepted |
Same to you then |
Lol |
And in spite of your apprehension, I found a sec and magical place on you! |
Kinda wondered about that. Couldnt quite figure out how to ask |
Ohh it was really magical |
I have no idea if that's sarcasm |
No! |
Not |
It truly was |
Because? |
Do you remember asking me an embarrassing question |
I think all of mine are embarassinh |
And you spread your legs |
Oh! That one |
You with me? |
Yes |
And I found your clit |
Yes |
So sweet and pretty |
And your pussy has her perfectly in protection |
So beautiful |
And when I licked you just so, |
Ohhhhhh |
Was that the first time you had touched her at all? |
Oh no, I was all over your pussy a month ago |
I recall |
Mostly |
When I licked in newfound place, it seemed sublime for you |
Yes, it was |
Entirely something new |
🥰 |
I thought i hated her being touched |
She likes delicate |
Yes |
❤️ to “ Yes ” |
You were so, so gentle with me |
It's respect for you! |
But fun and gentle dont have to be the same at all |
And i feel like i have maybe been enjoyable but not fun yet for you |
I think we proved that one |
Nooooo |
What awful timing of my comment! |
Lol |
I still want to cum again and again |
Like now |
🥰 I love making you come 🥰 |
When you touched my clit, could you feel her on your side of things? |
It was so, so delicate of you |
She is so delicate |
I was a little surprised how big she can be ! |
And then I gently sucked her |
Ohhhhhhhhhh yessssss |
I liked that. A lot. You know this. |
Yes |
I am literally moaning for you |
Soon, babe. Soon |
I want to give you all the things |
I want to give them to you |
There was something else kind of new and i dont know if you did it purposefully |
You asked me an "embarrassing question" |
And then I found your clit |
This is something else, silly boy |
Oh sorry! |
Is that a no, then? |
I'll tell you when you want |
null |
I hope i get to enjoy you again in a few hours! |
Yes allllll your meds |
Make sure i know when you're ready to hop over please, maybe with some foreknowledge |
2024-10-19T06:26:19 |
Good morning! |
2024-10-19T07:42:30 |
Hallo! |
How are you? |
I am feeling good |
How was the 0200 viewing? |
Ohhhh thanks! |
Might have another... |
But you wouldn't want it, now, would you?? |
I want it |
null |
Holy fuuuuck |
Hahaha 🤣 |
Your ass is so fine |
You still want to come over maybe? |
You can lay me face down, ass up, spread what you need to,and head to pound town.... |
Eventually |
Oh fucccck |
Maybe you slide a digit or 2 or 3 in and see how much of a waterfall you get |
Just a casual suggestion |
Your butt is heart-shaped! ♥️ |
For you ❤️ |
Aww |
Ty |
Feel welcome to grab and grip |
I will |
Hey btw |
STILL SLEEPING |
!!! Lol |
Not kidding |
I havent even been upstairs since you left |
Oh? |
Is that strange? |
Did you sleep? |
Yeah a few times |
I have recliners in the living room |
His room is messier than fuck and SIL is downstairs so there was limited sleep space |
Your room? |
What about it? |
What's wrong with it? |
He's sleeping in there |
Oh ffs lol |
Right |
I'll be scolded for "manic cleaning" and not sleeping even though neither is true |
Good grief lol |
"you clean too much!" |
Yes |
Very literally |
When i ask for help it's either weaponized incompetence from him or " I'll clean my stuff when it bothers me, any of your stuff maybe I'll just throw away so there isn't anything to be messy anymore" |
Sorry |
But i WAS trying for you |
I still need to shower, try and clean my room, and WAKE THEM UP, and i was going to run a quick trip for ny friend but omggggggggg |
I am sorry you have to put up with that |
Sounds like a lot of "rules for thee, not for me" |
And a lotttttttttt more like that |
But you know what i started thinking a while ago at one point? |
I am a fucking catch |
I know some of these things :) |
You're smoking hot |
Fuckkkkkk |
Hell yes I mean that |
And i have lots of orally-driven skills! |
Polylinguist here! |
Haha I'll say! |
Am i yiur best at that yet? No lying please |
Note i said YET |
Kind of an unfair question |
See I think you are by far the most skilled |
And when I come I will know it |
Would you be interested in an anonymous pic of me? |
Unidentified, rather |
Yes? |
Mine are kind of anonymous above |
Also.... still noonish? |
null |
See I can do this! |
Lol |
Ohhhhhh fuckkkkkk |
That's porn hot dick right there |
Oh! Thank you 😊 |
I'm dead serious |
You'll top out again |
And i lovvvvvvvvve that |
I want to do it for youuuu |
But what about for youuuuuu? |
Really |
Well that too |
So you will or won't enjoy that? |
Enjoy what exactly? Cumming in and on you? Yes |
Ohhhhmygod |
That gave me such a ruah |
Rush |
I meant topping out |
I dont know if you can feel it |
Inside you? Like hitting your cervix? |
Yeah |
I didn't notice that, kinda surprised actually |
It's unmistakable |
Some hate it. I love it |
Yeah I've read plenty of comments from girls that say it's painful. For you, how is it? |
I am so excited for you to look in my eyes when you cum. Mine go crqzy and i want to seeeee youuuuuu in that place |
It's like a game reset for me |
Yessss |
I shiver |
I tingle |
I meant when you hit it lol |
Any time you want to wake me up with that insanely cute ass you are welcome to do so |
We should really get you your own copies |
Yummm |
I'd like that |
What do you plan on the plan being? |
Sexy, cozy, dressy, casual...? Fashion choice please |
And how many articles you'd like to remove |
How about something sfw on the outside, super sexy underneath. Around 10 items if that works. Don't worry about your hair unless it bothers you |
Just didn't want you to have your hands feel gross if you grab and pull it |
Is noon or a little after still ok? |
Yeah no sweat |
Okay awesome |
Do you know how long you can stay? |
Several hours I imagine. |
I should probably leave around 1730 |
Aww sad but okay |
Is before noon a possibility if i can swing it? |
If I can get my ass in gear lol |
Mmmmmkay |
I was going to head somewhere but will stay here and wait if you think you might be able to escape sooner |
If you need or want to go somewhere that's cool |
Your call |
1130 is about as early as I can do |
ooOOOo! |
Yay |
So you tell me a time |
I am free all day |
Realistically I'd say noon |
Sure, no sweat |
That makes it easier for me actually |
Do you want food as soon as you get here? |
No I will be fine, but maybe later! |
Okay, cool |
If i need extra time I'll let you know |
Lol more or less :) |
Lol okay |
Need any furniture? |
What size shoe do you wear? |
1230 would help me calm down a touch if that's ok? |
Sure! |
Thanks! 🙂 |
I wear a men's 9.5 |
Thanks! |
If you're out somewhere I can meet you if you want |
Nope I'm good but thanks |
Fiiiine lol |
You can if you want but I'll make you wait downstairs while i get ACTUALLY ready |
How's it going? |
Good! Just found some things at habitat for humanity |
On my way to you now? |
Yeah?? |
! |
You should have habitatted me! |
I need maybe like 10 extra minutes? You can prob head over now but you might beat me there lol |
Door is open |
Thoughts babe? |
Other than that i have poor time management skills |
And im sorry too |
But I'm loke 5ish monutes from home |
And i love you! |
null |
Ok I'll be there right after you |
Are you mad? |
*how mad are you? |
Am home |
Come on in, not up |
2024-10-19T17:54:51 |
Thank you again, infinitely |
Bear is sad you dont love him |
null |
Aww! I love you too |
I love you too |
Everything copacetic? |
Copa! |
All is well |
Ty |
Ty a thousand times for today! |
Nopenopenope the thanks is all for you |
❤️ to “ Nopenopenope the thanks is all for you ” |
null |
You're missing the lovefest! |
And I'm sorry for falling asleep. I dont recall much immediately before then. Or how i got to the other side of the bed |
Might need a play by play |
For realsies |
You are nothing short of amazing 🥰 |
Thank you, but i do not understand. I didnt do anything today |
Not being humble, just how i actually feel |
Nope. I love the way you love me |
I do love you. A thousand ways and more |
But i dont feel like I've shown it enough |
My little pleaser 🥰 |
I so, so, so hope so! |
Btw, i have Brian Greene The Hidden Reality or Until the End of Time or The Elegant Universe (i actually think i have 2 of those) in a box around here somewhere |
I think Light Falls: Space, Time, and an Obsession of Einstein was the one i saw today |
Sweet! |
null |
Pretty rad label |
Ain't it tho? |
What else are you up to? |
Oh! New experience notice! |
General improvements to the hobby area |
Nice nice |
What is the new experience? |
Probably more than one honestly, but one for sure... |
Haha! And how was that for you? |
It was awesome |
And still very confusing |
I should warn you that i aleeady have blank spaces in time from today and there will be more in the next few days. I wiuld love if you could remwmber things for both of us |
Ok :) |
Literally dozens of times today so far |
I am broken |
Most you had in me at once? |
Fingers? Yes! Yummy two! |
Just 2?? |
This time |
I kinda gave them to you all at once. Was that ok? |
Yes |
It felt like more |
Have you ever had more than that in me? |
Nope. Today was the graduation from one to two |
Yeah |
It kept going lol |
How did you feel at 2? |
Today or last night? |
Lol oh yeah! |
Both! |
At 0200 |
Lucky as hell |
You are such a hottie!! |
Omg stoppppp |
You were surprisingly wet |
So fun to taste |
And you relaxed quickly |
I didnt taste like yesterday |
And then you gave me 3 or maybe 4 floods over 10 minutes or ao |
Have i hurt you at all and when and how do i fix that? |
No you tasted much less tart. I have enjoyed all |
No! |
Those floods feel amazing to me too |
You have not hurt me |
Not in the least |
Where is the question coming from? |
I dont control a thing about flooding or any kind of wetness. Not sure if you're aware of that |
Because of perhaps "blueballing" you. Being uncomfortable/too closed off for you on your tip when you would get all the way in was a thought i had. |
At no point did you hurt me. Didn't happen :) 100% fact |
And didn't blueball me either |
I was thinking about that earlier actually |
Thanks :) |
I feel 80% like I got laid, and that is fab! I want everything of course! |
I think that's good? I mean..... you DID, right? |
What else is everything? |
When I get to come with youuuu ♥️♥️♥️ |
Am i correct that you haven't finished your marathon with me yet? |
What do you mean by marathon Missy? |
It's a good thing |
Crossed your finish line |
Marathons take dedication and endurance and support and hydration lol |
I am NEVER trying to make you feel badly |
Oh right! |
null |
Many tomatoes died here |
Many more dried here |
Many more were eaten ALIVE |
2 new questions: |
Being done with me and my question are not even close to the same but ok? |
I can tell you the bed story! |
We fucked for quite some time on the East side of your bed. You had a pillow under your butt. |
You were so fucking hot |
And eventually you came -- I do not know how many times |
A lot. A lot a lot. And when i thought i would ramp down they got more intense. Stacked. |
And I flipped to the other side of you |
And you were cold so I covered us |
And we slept for perhaps 30-60 minutes |
For real |
And I was holding you and it was magical |
And you were so dreamy and quiet |
So calm |
So serene |
Wow |
Really sweet in a way that makes me want to celry |
Cry |
And eat celery apparently lol ol |
That was long fuck period one |
Thank you for that |
Why would you want to cry? |
Because thinking about it now makes me have feels |
Can you identify them? |
I long for it |
I want this one |
I feel so happy |
Same |
How do you know i came/havent faked? |
Not a trick |
I want to know how you know. Sometimes you knew and none of you was in me |
Hmm |
Ti |
To ffs |
Second |
But yours is not like othera |
How do you mean? |
The slow build up is familiar |
You climax so differently than what I have even known, even in porn lol |
Maybe that's not so surprising though |
I know what it is to feel paralyzed after coming |
After a 8 or 9 or 10 ,out of 10. Fucking sweet |
I hope I got that kinda right |
Yes |
You genuinely seem like you let go |
I am so pleased to bring you there |
You maybe don't know how happy that makes me |
I wish i knew how you see me when im there |
I really don't move |
I need weight or pressure kind of urgently sometimes to help |
Yah you asked me to lay upon you on our first night |
I kinda did that today, sitting on you so I could kiss you and play with you your boobs |
And then lo and behold |
Someone has a wet pussy |
Verrrrrrry wet |
None of that was your cum, correct? |
Much as I wish it were, no |
All you |
Well with a teeny bit of slippery strawberries |
Pretty buzzed here and not necessarily making the best decisions, but people like me find amateur couples porn really hot |
Feel free to shut this conversation down if it's not cool. I will not be offended or anything |
It's just a fantasy |
null |
For science |
I am a little lost.... what about porn? |
It's a drunk question asking if you have any interest in making it |
Full disclosure: I know next to nothing |
And you can just say no, and I will respect that |
The short answer is yes |
Longer.... i have to see it first so i know what all can jeoparsizijf moment |
No vlue what that word is |
I am cery very tired |
Lololol |
Kiss kiss baby |
You should sleep |
Yes please |
And I hope you have sweet dreams |
null |
I am thinking of you |
It's an axolotl |
^^^ Your butt looks like |
♥️ |
I♥️ axolotl |
Mmmmmmm ofc |
I love you |
I love you too beebee! |
2024-10-20T08:13:28 |
Good morming to my favorite love muffin! |
null |
Dis how i woke up |
And i had this shallow tool thing if you wanted it |
null |
2024-10-20T10:11:34 |
🥰🥰🥰good morning 🥰🥰🥰 |
I slept in a bit! |
Yay! 🎉 |
How ya doin? |
I'm still waking up lol |
So far so good |
That's good! |
When i said "oh, inhaler!" Yesterday it was because tou saying that reminded me why i wasnt feeling great/how i could help myself. Lol. So thanks for that |
Hahaha |
Happy to help a girl out |
Oooooohhhhhhh i know |
I feel like you do too |
So sweet! |
My dude - you felt me come even when it was just out of nowhere, me laying under you |
You. Know. |
null |
I sure did! |
Hiee cuties! |
Impossible skills, you have |
https://open.spotify.com/track/1azxOUjt2VSjhqRvgRDryg?si=QpCUvKsWR-i3BE4X_yT8cA |
2024-10-20T13:00:12 |
Will listen soon, thanks! |
Trying to fix some wiring |
You out and about? |
Lol obviously |
One guess what i did |
And now headed home to cleeeeeannnnnn |
Wanna come over? |
I do want to, yeah |
Studio Killers is good cleaning music btw |
I need to fix this wiring |
Do you for real want to come over? |
You have been... Um... Shopping |
What!? |
WhaaaaT lol |
I know |
I want to come over but I'd have a hard time making a good excuse to disappear |
Completely up to you |
If you were ever free on, say, a Wednesday, I could literally take every Wednesday off till the end of the year with days to spare |
What a coincidence! |
Wow!! |
That's my favorite day to not work |
And not have a spouse around |
How about that lol |
Does L go to the office much? |
Requosite 3 days /week |
0730 to when he leaves.... supposed to be 1745 but sometimes earlier |
You said nothing of my lovely tooltray! Thought of you at an inanimate object and everything |
As an aside, you headed to a store today? |
The tool tray --yes! That is perfect |
To store idk but probably not |
Yay! Want me to spray paint anything for you? |
Sure! Is it metal? Looks like maybe it is |
null |
It IS metal! |
What could i have done yesterday to have it all be better? |
I mean self.... lol |
And i have an embarassing q |
I honestly dont know what to tell you |
It's not you |
We *will* figure this out |
It sucks, but I'm okay with it, honestly |
Sure sure! I didn't think of it at the time. Not my usual thing to think about when I'm actually with someone |
Oh really? |
I thought you were supposed to watch as a couple or something together |
What did you do while you were waiting for me? |
Idk if there's any "supposed to" in porn, but I think watching together would be much better than watching alone |
Not that I care |
I talked to the cats and doggo, did my word puzzle |
As long as we set basic expectations :) |
Looked around a lot |
Totally cool with basic expectations |
Do you have any to set? |
Any ground or house rules absolutely respected |
No violence |
I assumed you would be selecting them. I want to give you that power |
Thanks |
No peeing on people |
Lol |
Nothing to worry about |
I will show you what I do |
And ofc in the unusual event you find something objectionable, just say the word and it's blacklisted |
I'll tell you who makes some of the best porn ... Women. 100% |
All good, thanks |
And I'm not put off or surprised |
I'm kind of semi bi, if that's a label |
Omg these animals arent feeding me nearly wnoigh |
*enough |
Lol animals!! |
Women make nice things because guys are often just crude, and that doesn't do it for me |
I agree |
Bur there are some guy things i love too |
For sure. I'm generalizing |
Yes |
Side thought: can i wash brass? |
I think so? Baking soda and scotch Brite? |
Rephrase: can i put water on it? |
The google says yes basically, or can be made shiny again later |
I still haven't been fed |
Water? Surely |
Do I need to feed you??? |
I did not know that |
I just need to know what i would like to forage |
Here's a fun one |
Sappy but true |
Aww |
You're getting good at this |
I actually am good at this. Just not always appreciated for it lol |
Hmmmm |
♥️ |
null |
But anyway |
Food |
And shorts |
Oh. And inhaler |
2024-10-20T18:12:02 |
Hi sweet babe |
Whassaap? |
Fell asleep kinda |
Oh I thought you went foraging lol |
You must be ravishing |
Lol |
Lol. Some adjective or another |
I've been very productive. Mending wiring hither and you |
Yon |
Yon dammit. Hither and yon |
null |
Not dither, too? Or thither? |
Do you or rlh use candles in glass containers? |
null |
Yes we do |
Candles |
What do you do with the glass thing when youre done? |
Nothing comes to mind. I bet there are many containers in this house with candle scraps in them |
Related: I found a pound of tea candles |
Which is cool because I like to keep a couple for tools |
May i have the glass things? Please. Whatever condition. |
Yes 👍 |
For tools as what? |
Sure if I come across them. I think there's one in the bedroom actually |
Going forward etc |
I keep them for a lubricant and rust prevention |
Ohhhh the wax |
Well the flame is useful, I guess. We'll consult the cave man later on that. |
Nah it's cool |
Plz |
on what? |
Verb clean |
Oh lol I thought I was confessing something |
Verb come too |
Do you have a confession? |
Aux verb |
🤔 |
Ok I did it |
What is it? |
Not telling |
Please, |
? |
Sadddddddd |
You want a Schaefer beer brand circle tray? |
Assahammanah? |
I'm not telling |
I said please! |
Oh poor baby I fell in love with you |
Awww damn. I did the same thing with you |
Harrumph |
That's an excellent thought i hope |
Lol.... got these today. How apropos |
null |
My girl is ready to light some candles |
Hahahahaha not quite but you mentioned tea lights |
I have a fat sack |
Ummm |
Yes, kind of |
Of tea lights |
It's not really |
I think i have the same ome |
*one |
You have ideas for the next rdv already? |
Go on, excite me! |
I know it exists |
But I have not located it yet |
To which are you referring? |
Rdv, as you say |
I wish it was in like 30 minutes |
If you can get here and leave witjin an hour then i say we rdv |
:( |
I can't! |
I know |
I'm going bowling honey! |
Yay! |
null |
Imma get me some cichlids! |
Nedd a ratchet set? How about wrenches? |
Interestjng! |
I may take you up on that offer ma'am |
Get some arachnids |
I happen to habe the tools in my possession as of today lol |
null |
Ohhhhh |
Plus they are cool |
They are! |
I also adore fancy goldfish |
And this thank is actually kinda perfect |
Did you know I've paid $60 for a goldfish? |
I did not! |
How much have you paid for porn?? No judgement |
null |
I will tell you € bear with me |
Ooooooh |
null |
Yum! |
null |
Ok what now |
What are you electrolysing? |
Yessssssss |
null |
Ok let me think |
So first, I literally paid for porn the first time in Jan 2023. That is correct |
Now |
null |
Your guess? |
null |
Ok I really need a guess now |
Sorrysorrysorry! |
500? |
Miss |
Ohhhhh um no |
Only saw the first pic |
Yeah lol |
Add a zero? |
Nah |
290 to-date on OF and all subscriptions cancelled |
Why cancel? |
Plus last year I think I did a 30$ trial of a female-produced outfit |
And I paid a girl $20 for her online folder she was only asking 10 |
Now what |
Why cancel |
To try and sum it up, I will try |
It's not straightforward |
I also dont really know what any of that jargon meant |
Which bit |
You can explain to my face or my.... lips, later |
Okay |
Lol |
I just totalled porn for you |
Expenditures |
Mmhmmm |
Thank you |
Do you count nights in hotels with mistresses? |
No. Why should I? |
Not porn |
True |
I will count it as (personal) work. Not porn. Big difference |
You know how much porn i watch, right? |
That's a zero, I understand |
Yes |
You wanted to know |
I surprised myself, twice lol |
What else surpised you? |
The same fact surprised me twice. 1805 at OF last year |
I *am* a good tipper |
But anyway I quit subbing |
You asked about that |
Here I am |
Rocking you like a thunderstorm |
Yes |
No love for color dots though |
:( |
Huh? |
I missed something |
Bump! |
Oh! I didnt understand |
Beep beep!! |
Haiiii |
Lol |
Yes |
And my paint pens are my good friendses |
Lovely! I need to get some |
I only have mettalic rn |
A zillion colors of sharpie though |
Sharpie is a bff too! |
Omg take some! |
null |
So now I owe you something |
What question have I not answered? |
Why do you owe me something? |
Also.... l just got home so meh |
Oh my poor bebe |
And he is upstairs now |
Before he relegates fo the basement |
Ok so he doesn't need to possess your room |
Not this second i guess |
Or talk to mw |
But anyway, back to you |
Hieee |
Yes? |
Oh yeah the dot shot was a shit shot no context retake to follow |
Yeah sorry one second |
I'm |
Oops |
Spotify stopped and it's like my world sort of turned off |
Huh |
null |
I'm back! |
Yay! |
Now what was it? |
Why do you owe me anything? |
Are you aware my name is on this kroger bag? |
Lol I am now! |
Is it so? |
NOT my handwriting |
null |
Very convenient lol |
OMG that is totally rlh |
Hahaha |
Well i wiped it out do it's clean :) |
Ty |
I wipe down every bag every time |
You are a better woman than I am |
Thank you 🙂 |
I know I should |
Well, kinda no immune system |
But again, you owing me?? |
I know what I need to do. For sanitizing |
Right! |
So I totally owe you something!!! |
What is it??? |
Make me pay! |
Make me pay dearly dear |
But why do you think tjis |
I know! |
Why did I quit |
OF |
INNIT |
And if you say "oh yeah", you might be a stoner |
Nipe |
Am still confused |
https://open.spotify.com/track/6rYgEHuyhO064Lgj48qlIe?si=1rByC3gbSvimejIgORhCsw |
I will absolutely keep to the backseat from now on |
What do you mean? |
Lyrics, my boy |
Back seat girl prefers what? |
Maybe that is the answer lol |
Have you used a backseat for such shenanigans? |
No, sadly |
Oh really? |
Then this happened |
Truth |
Well.... take me there |
That one brings me to tears straight up |
No! |
If you ever want to make me cry, |
Why would i? |
It's fun sometimes |
Ish? |
I still want to from you |
In a lot of the ways |
Do you understand what i mean? |
Your statement no verb |
Press any key! |
I (subject) still (temporal indicator) want (assist verb) to (explicit infinitive) [deictic referent of infinitive for "cry" as stated above] from (subject object linking preposotion) you (object ( of my affection)) |
I totally missed the deictic reference. |
And i, you |
Except for me I literally mean toe |
I can diagram it out too, the phrase |
You get me right |
Obv |
And I would never intentionally hurt you |
I dont want you to |
Oh no I didn't kill you did i |
Kinda yesterday |
Not just now |
Nope |
But i still have questions about yesterday |
Lol |
Always morw |
Not resentful about my swipe just a few minutes ago |
? |
No, thought it was hilarious. Something i wouldve said |
Ty for clarifying |
Ok |
Because I did not come for you |
I would guess |
What about that? |
Have you seen my plot? I seem to have lost it |
Do you know what things you've said (while we're naked) that have made huge differences to how i respond and interact? There are a few |
I would love to know |
I love cuddle time |
Pre or post? Whicb do you like better? |
Bam |
I can't choose!0 |
Pretty is raw excitement |
Post is pure feels |
I'm melting a little bit |
Because? |
As a note, i would like to try something with the cuddles next time |
Emotional triggers are abundant in Girl In Red's music |
Hmmm |
No need to be sarcastic. I don't think of anyone in particular. But I still feel it strongly |
I'm saying it because it's me |
And no judgement request to know what you were thinking of |
Oh lol! |
♊ |
Thought that was obvious |
Yes |
Do you actually cry a lot? |
No, not a lot |
And I'd say 75 % of the time it's self -induced via intentionally listening to trigger music |
Maybe once or twice a month |
Why do you do it? |
"It's fun" lol |
I like to feel I guess |
And I feel better after |
Calmer |
It's a release, ! |
Yes |
And i want you to make me cry in a few ways for the same reasons |
Ty! |
Ty |
Yeah of course |
Well |
Well that's weird, because i am yours |
I'll be fading soon, but can we char about one more thing first? |
Yes |
Can you tell when, if, or how or where or whatever I've been physically hurt in your presence? |
Psst - i can see that you read the last message. I'm not trying to tricanytu |
*not trying to.trick you |
I know of no such time |
Thanks |
Is it accurate? |
Not really but there's also nothing you've really done to inflict any oww |
One part for you to know is that i always hurt. Always. |
I will need you to be more specific |
I have chronic paim syndrome.and fibromyalgia and peripheral neuropathy |
I am sorry for that |
And what I can do to take it away I will do |
I thought you knew that about me ? |
You did say so. It's been a while |
I am confused about this |
Nvm 🥰 |
Sweetest dreams for now! |
Sweetest |
2024-10-21T06:36:39 |
Good morning |
Hieeee! |
Do we have to work today? |
I think so |
Attend the profession at least |
"Work"..... meh |
Lol |
How doing? |
A bit sleepy, but good! |
Kind of same |
But also motivated to accomplish things |
Yay! |
Anything going on for you today? |
Nuthin honey |
Then what are you choosing to do to occupy your time? |
While I'm not pretending to work? |
Yes (and same) |
Wait.... maybe same? |
Feeding cats apparently lol |
AM pretending to work |
Not not pretending |
Wordseses |
Brain.exe has failed |
Da |
What's the tallest thing that your escapemobile can fit? Like, say, a bookshelf |
(Or maybe 2 people, for science of course) |
I'm not actually sure. I know I've put 8' boards in it |
I can also escape 2 people |
2 mostly flat and stacked backseat people?? |
For science |
Btw, still no BU insurance info. At. All. |
Might need to be a little creative with positioning, but yeah |
Gotcha |
Importantly, people must be very close together |
Well i hear some women get bendy in the right mood and setting |
They'd have to basically nest in one another, i imagine |
Come together, even |
How poetic! |
Plus my bubblz has blankets in case people get cold |
Psht. Who gets cold in that situ-- |
Maybe she could use another one that's nice and fluffy to smooth out the ride a little |
Hey wait a sec |
Are you suggesting something |
Only the nicest nice people would tend to someone cold and post coital |
Oh well now youre brazenly suggesting we have intimate encounters in my pure vehicle? |
Yep |
I forgot to take my meds yesterday. Ugh. Vertigo creeps |
Ohh that sucks! What do you take for it? Have you ever done PT or OT to help? |
It's only a thing when I skip a day of effexor and then take a regular dose |
It's not bad so far but I feel it at the base of my skull. It's weird |
I just ate and that might help keep it at bay |
What was food? |
And where is mine!?! |
Cereal, bran flakes, with milk, organic, pasteurized |
C'mon over I'll feed you |
Eh. Kinda doing stuff. And not lol. And it would be so much work |
Heyyyyyyyyy |
Hieeeeee |
What's up? |
Just you |
Am i? |
You am |
Not even sure what me being up might entail lol |
Do anything yet? Esp without any profit sharing networktivity |
Oh there's a barrage of emails rn about profit sharing |
You looking at them? |
Or just flipping through pics of me, lol |
I don't have any more pictures of you. I need more! |
Sounds like a YOU problem with a pretty obvious YOU solution lol |
What else are you doing? |
I just doctored my eyelids. They're in rough shape. Lotion burned going on. Eye cry. |
Thinking about the fish tank in the basement |
I want to excavate it and see what all I've got in there |
Might be prehistoric fish still swimming around, who knows? |
My boots came! I need to try them on |
Hey boots, start walkin! Lol |
Some kinda nuclear fish at this point |
Dang these boots are going to walk all over me lol |
Drole |
My newish aloe has flower buds! |
Oh cool! I didnt kmow aloe flowered |
I didn't either lol |
null |
You're sure that's an aloe? |
Looks like a little anake plant kinda |
Guess i forfeit and go feed myself |
Nope not snek plant |
Ugh. Not feelin it |
Now mildly better |
What made the difference? |
Food |
Hadnt eaten today |
Da |
Well someone kept promising to bring it to me since i wasnt really well enough to go get it but it is what it is and i managed to not keel over from stomach pain today |
Someone? To bring to your room? |
Well office but yeah |
Something stramge just happened |
Your cat started answering phone calls? |
Actually, the system has had a lot of for real issues today so it's fine |
No. Went downstairs to get food. While I'm about to come back up, the garage door opened and there was L with some food |
I guess he went out?? |
Better check the car for sidechicks |
Lololololol9l9l |
Heh! |
You doing anything after work? |
Monday chores |
What does that mean? |
Excavating aquarium |
Maybe hardware store for a couple things |
And i feel like such a jerk for not asking already: how was the boys visit and whatever? Why were they here? |
It was fine. The distraction worked in my favor |
They were nominally here to help RLH organize some clothes. |
3 hour job literally over 3 days lol |
And shit is everywhere now lol |
Cupboard doors open.... You like? |
We had this talk! |
Lol I know. Your reaction was priceless |
Youve had a lot of priceless from me lol |
Truth |
You have a singular favorite instance? |
Hmm |
Watching you roll your head back when I kiss your neck is waaay up there |
Hearing you come is ... Sublime |
But I undress |
Digress |
Mmmhmmm. Slip of the tongue at first there?? Lol |
How do i sound? |
Maybe |
You sound deeply impassioned |
I thought i was basically silent |
Oh hell no you are not silent |
For real? |
You are by far the most vocal I've been with. No contest |
In the moment though? I really dont think i even breathe |
There is some of that too |
It's intense! And cool af |
Okay 👍 |
Can you tell when you find THE SPOT if i dont say it? |
I think I could now. We have some repeatable evidence |
Plus now I know better how your clit plays into the scene. She's quite juicy |
That's not actually where i was referring but good to know |
I know. That was kind of spot #2. To be used gently |
It's still very strange to me |
Which hardware store & whycome? |
Ace in Frandor, if I can remember why lol. Something I thought of in the basement and have now forgotten |
Uh-oh 🤭 |
Lovely wrench or ratchet set? Semishiny metal tool tray? |
Lol some kind of fasteners I think |
Semi shiny tool tray sounds kewl tho |
Like my new kerry framed thing? |
null |
I did it :) |
100% thrifted |
Put pieced together par moi |
I like it! |
Thanks! 🙂 |
It's roughly 16 by 20 |
Very nice! |
2024-10-21T15:49:23 |
What did you have for lunch? |
Blueberries with yogurt, organic, whole milk, Greek style; chips, tortilla, white corn, with melange of nightshade vegetables ala capsaicin |
I was with you (very pro nightshade) and then you ruined it |
I will make you a c-free version |
Corn & tomatoes? |
Salsa lol |
Lol |
It wasn't the best |
So tummy sick from possible yuck. Lm Fix please |
Ohh I'm sorry! |
2024-10-21T17:05:11 |
Beyyer niw :) |
Lol |
Somebody tried to yuck my baby! |
Ohh? |
Yeah--you! |
I am both? |
Idk you said you were yucked |
Yep |
How is Ace? |
I'm not going to go today. Maybe tomorrow! |
Always a fun time |
I'm pooped out, stayed up too late last night, allergies are bugging me |
Omg literal same |
Waaaaa! |
But i was debating store trip for stupid household stuff |
I'm fuckin gross though. Need a shower, not so motivated |
SAME |
I didnt even change these sheets yet |
Like..... GIRL. Get. It. Together. |
Lol |
Whyyyyyy is it already 1900 |
And feels like bedtime for me ! |
Yeah, for serious |
And the tummy meds knocked me out for a hot sec |
Oh wow. What do you take for that? |
To help my agony tummy and nausea? |
Yes |
Whatever it is, I wonder if a nice tongue on your pink parts is better |
Lol |
Promethazine and compazine |
Promethazine is also phenergan |
Penguins are practically chickens |
Oh, and zofran |
This is a whole new lexicon for me lol |
Zofran |
Lol I literally just did |
Do you take these PRN? |
Yes |
What do you take for pain? Also curious what you take for neuropathy |
PRN right now (Rx) i have norco and oxycodone. Oh, and tylenol 3 + codeine. I think that's all? |
Sumatriptan for migraines prn |
It's imitrex |
Do you get flack for being a long term opiate user? |
From your docs |
No |
They don't work so much anyway, and dont give me any kind of high. And that's not a tolerance thing, i just have too higb of a baseline for pain i think |
I'm glad to hear it. |
Does she go to a pain mgmt clinic at all? |
Asking bc they can do higher doses and quantities and all that |
Yep. Anesthesia injections to lumbar and t-spine. Just had some about 6 weeks ago |
Hmm |
No my knee is fine, albeit lacking some fascia. But the joint is all good |
Thankfully! |
Good 👍 |
I will gladly accept kisses regardless |
Definitely |
Some of the area is numb, while some is hypersensitive lol |
That's my entire body - i actually understand! |
Wild! |
Even parts of my back |
Usually it's weird combinations like the skin and fascia will be numb over the worst pain points internally |
Oh! I've heard of that |
Oh, really?? |
I have a very miniscule version of that on my abdomen |
Hey same! |
What is it? |
Like whyK |
But it's not pain underneath, but an itch I can never satisfy |
I think it's surgical tools left behind by the aliens |
null |
Possibly |
There's an antenna on my ear too lol |
Idk what they have planned for me |
Does it link with dental work? |
Surprisingly no |
Bummer |
I have decided to shower soon |
I highly recommend it |
It's been a crazy long time since i really washed my hair |
I feel so much better |
You showered? |
Yep |
1900 or thereabouts |
But we were chatting? |
I'm quick if I'm not doing my hair |
Oh |
Mine needs to be an everything shower tonight |
Damn office tomorrow |
Oh yeah |
I'm thinking I'm going to make a bowl of ramen |
And mixed veg |
What do you use for noodles? |
Whatever I can find lol |
I hope so anyway! |
This one has rice noodles |
Why would you not have a veg one? |
Do you use any animal broths? |
About to shower - will be away a while. Remind me topics when i get back: |
I guess my distinction of ramen was a bit silly. Animal broth is right out. It's a little tricky to find vegetarian ramen at Kroger |
I can't do anything this Wednesday. Maybe next! |
I'm pretty proud of my lentil salad. That is one recipe I basically ad-libbed until I got it right. I use dry lentils and all fresh veg. I make tabbouleh as well. Bread is my #1 accomplishment. Once I actually gained an understanding of what's going on, it opened the door to basically make bread any way I like it |
Popcorn? |
New joisey |
You're right, i do feel better |
Yay! |
I actually really hate the process of showering. I know that probably seems odd |
Really? |
Solid no but thanks |
Alright then |
I can tell you |
I have seen you naked you know |
I meant me disliking showers |
Im not explaining that well. But the you having seen me in my full nakedness is wild to me |
Can you help? |
Can I help you? |
To understand how your mind works at having seen me naked. Something along those lines |
I think the key thing is I'm not judging, just admiring and possibly a little ogling because you're relatively new to me. |
You turn me on! |
Human bodies are imperfect |
I didnt expect you to judge, but thank you 💕 |
I expect that, and still can admire |
I don't understand what you're admiring or where you look or any of that. And when |
Soapy boobies are fun |
Why do you think and say that? |
I guess for the same reason they look good in wet t shirts |
Why do you like them so much? Genuine question |
I don't have a definitive answer |
Is it look? Feel? |
One way I understand my attraction is via the Sugarcubes: |
Hmmm i see |
At another level, they are erogenous places that are not so concealed, and I do love to please you |
Neck and ears are 100000 times em better for me |
That's a lot! |
Yep |
What else can I tell you? |
I will tell you this |
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I love you too |
2024-10-22T03:40:00 |
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2024-10-22T06:18:37 |
You too! |
How are you feeling today? |
Good, albeit sleepy for now |
Wonderful! I've already done more in 3.5 hours than I did all day yesterday lol |
Lol fantastic-ish! |
Big plans today? |
Lol working |
Big working |
That'll probably suck the life out of me |
What does "big working" mean? Headed anywhere tonight? |
Idk x2 |
My big plan is not to make a big plan |
Good plan lol |
Did you get my OneNote invite? |
Idk? |
It should have gone to your Gmail account |
Nsfw |
Thanks |
Smartin slacking? |
Hmm |
Tis odd. Maybe the sharing link doesn't go anywhere. One sec |
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Lol! |
https://1drv.ms/o/s!BBmaJsW-JN1whPRrZUP6zHWG6-4SAA?e=GSKpee |
You said nsfw |
Its fine to test the link. |
Says the IT guy |
It's just OneNote |
It worked lol |
Ok Cool. So far I'm just using it as a place for links |
Well if it's FOR SCIENCE then it's very important work! Research! |
Lol glad you agree! |
Yeah! |
Whoever just showed up next door needa a cologne spritzing lesson |
Ewwwwww |
Time to microwave some broccoli lol |
At least that's semi appetizing! |
Well he has finally gone and I'm ready for some albuterair, lol |
I was thinking of heading to ReStore tomorrow. Wdyt? |
Well like I said, I can't take tomorrow off, maybe next week? |
You could have a double holaday erection Day celebration! |
I will :) and i was going to just go solo but was asking if it's worth my time? |
Definitely Worth it. I spent half an hour in there, bought some things, then realized there was another room I didn't even look at lol |
Place shmace! |
Do you have a garage? |
I do.... sometimes it has extra room near that nasty galf occupyer of the garage cave |
Lol |
LIESSSSSSSSS |
So I'm up on 4... Whyyyyyyyu can i smell someone's aftershave through my n94 mask?!? |
Sick |
10000000% |
Aftershave is the worst fucking smell |
I scored you a couple lilac candle jars |
Even if i like the scent, i dont need to smell you |
Oh awesome! |
Much nicer than aftershave |
And ambergrisses! |
I clean the wax out and make the jars into pretty things |
Whatever, beaverbutt |
Whale poo! |
Potayto potahto |
You could probably make a couple small candles too |
I could indeed |
I'll throw in a free teal length candle for ya |
Oooh measuring in hues! |
You might like to try my aubergine special? |
Tried it before, absolutely love it, cant get enough |
Oh you have tasted of the 🍆? |
It has no taste |
So it's the best atound |
Leader of the year email.... |
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Much less emotion |
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Par example |
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How is the aubergine aujourdhui? |
Quite tame |
Could use a little spicing up |
Make it so! |
I need another cook in this kitchen |
Make. Ir. So. |
You don't mind if I start cooking in the back seat do you? |
How is/was lunch? |
Not at all! |
Quesadilla with Colby and green olives |
Ews |
Eet Was Scrumptious |
Lovely for you |
I only wat black olives |
*eat |
But i eat them by the can/jar |
Yknow that new leader of the year.....? |
I do know her |
Do you get the jumbo black olives and put one on each finger? |
Sometimes! |
Lol |
Aaaaanyway, yknow how money from outside this org keeps us afloat and paid and whatnot? |
She is the service center director of billing |
Lol |
That's my point. Leading whom?? Oh, billing? Who knew!? |
Just another day, another grievance |
I want drugs, sec, and shopping |
#lifegoals |
Well ive been promised 3/3 and so far it's only a 67% |
Plus i rounded up! |
Still seeking the D huh |
Only always |
Who gave you sec? |
Some guy from work |
Fucking IT guys lol |
The worst! Always being nice and considerate and shit |
You know why right? |
Sounds about right |
Yeah! |
Fuckin IT |
Have you ever experienced ASMR? |
Not in any real capacity |
The strongest I ever felt it, I was sitting at my desk, and this gal wanted to show me something on my computer so she knelt down next to me and basically leaned into me to use the mouse. Way up in my personal space. I thought my head was going to explode it was so intensely good feeling. Not really sexual even, just so close. |
Oh, i can put that on lockdown. I can basically breathe words if i try |
You've heard me breathe before |
Yesss |
And my tongue separate from the toof of my mouth when i try and swallow |
*roof |
Wet and dry at the same time |
Wild! |
You know there are YT videos and spotify lists for it |
I know. I've been pretty disappointed by YT efforts so I kinda fell out of love with the idea of watching it. Haven't bothered with Spotify. I still catch posts on Reddit from time to time and the story is always the same... "Why did ____ mess up her schtick?" |
2024-10-22T17:23:11 |
One 36 minute phone call later and I'm outta here |
Crikey! |
Yep 👍 |
Super busy this evening? |
Nah |
What are you up to? |
My default position is not making plans lol |
You get one guess..... will be at home |
Book rehab |
Not so much. Well, at least prob not what you're thinking for book rehab |
Where should i clean? |
Maybe your x-rated bed? |
What are you in the mood for? Grubby nasty, dusty, laundry? |
I've done all of the above today lol |
Laundry is almost all done |
I just want this place better |
Would you feel better about improvements to personal space vs shared space? |
I have no idea |
It's all about the same priority in my head so my gears freeze up |
Your bathroom is small, manageable. Does it need anything? |
Like what? |
Short answer is yes, longer answer is that it can wait |
Plan B : Fold laundry and enjoy free time |
Can fold laundry! |
Do you cook for rlh too? |
Off and on. More off than on rn. On weekend nights I often do though because I'm usually in a giving mood |
What would you make for me right now? |
Would you prefer pasta with Alfredo sauce, mushrooms, and peas/broccoli |
Roasted asparagus spears with grape tomatoes, garlic cloves, and lemon served with mashed potatoes? |
Hard choice |
What's your dislike ? |
Most Alfredo I've had tastes like paste. Never cared much for mashed potatoes |
You don't have to eat the roasted garlic btw |
Ok, I was going to suggest couscous or quinoa as an alternative to mash |
Would use plain couscous and flavor it up a bit. |
Can you come cuddle me? |
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Lol those two |
Softer |
She looks whacked |
Who is who though? |
I assume she's the one getting "cuddled" lol |
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There you go |
So what say you |
2024-10-22T21:29:06 |
Good night sweet baby! |
2024-10-23T01:54:10 |
I love the cuddles! Ty! |
2024-10-23T03:54:59 |
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2024-10-23T06:16:28 |
Bon matin!!! |
Same! I woke up last night thinking I was with you 🥰 |
It was wonderful |
Awwww! |
What's on docket today? |
All maybes rn, but I need to take a bunch of Styrofoam to Mason for recycling |
Been cleaning since 0330 |
I think I'm possessed |
Are you going to the ReStore today? |
Havent decided on restore. Im going somewhere, just unsure of agenda atm |
Think i should go there or elsewhere? |
Depends on what you want to browse I guess? Hab4Hum has some nice big things, tools, handy things, but not much objets d'art |
They have a couple beautiful cabinets and tables! |
Too big for Uber tho |
Unless your Uber is a U-Haul |
Not today it isnt.... also kinda have to sneak these things into the house |
Lol sneaking a dining room table... Maybe not |
Exactly |
David sent me this poetry reading last night. It's nerdy, but I found it fun, funny, and touching. |
That's really cool, thanks! |
Glad you liked it! |
Workin actual af stuff today? |
Oh yah |
AF af |
Euxhgghh |
Anything good? |
Survived my appt today |
Oh! You had appt already? |
I did |
And already back home |
Wow! |
Yep! |
Just more problems to add to my ever-growing list of maladies |
In search of anything? |
Wait what maladies? What are you talking about? |
I mean what's new |
I can't remember if I told you I'm looking for a mirror? For the medicine cabinet. |
Now I am also looking for a sheet of clear acrylic, preferably 1/8" thick or more, minimum 27" square |
Lol I should just send my hardware shopping list |
Yes! |
Got me some cysts. Dommage. C'est la vie. |
Dang |
Can we ask where? |
Left side. Ovary & kidney |
Well that's a bummer. Any pain with those? |
Yeah. Hence the necessary appointments |
Oh well |
Phooey :( |
Why sorry? |
It is what it is |
I knew but this was more confirmation. Cant do anything about them. Meh |
Just sorry you have to deal with all that on top of everything else |
Hahahahaha |
I like you on top so, so much though! |
Ok. Just for you 😘 |
You still didnt tell me if you understand whyyyy i like you that way |
I think I did? Idk. It's for comfort, like a heavy blanket |
On top in a more active way.... why i like you being the more dominant of us subbies |
So be it! |
Ohhhh yesssss please |
It makes me think less |
2024-10-23T12:16:04 |
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Lol good kitteh |
It's his boat |
😆 I keep Chewy case lids and scatter them around the the house. It's hilarious how much use they get |
Chewy case lids? |
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Oh la la! |
Enjoying your day off? |
Yes! Making lots of progress. Enjoying AF? |
Not so much lol |
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😆 |
2024-10-23T17:05:46 |
How's it going? |
Good day? |
It's been ok I guess! |
Tell me more |
Nothing to write home about lol, even if I were not at home already. |
Now I'm wondering if I have strength remaining to do anything else useful today |
I've done a lot in the basement |
I can't believe I'm still breathing |
Keep talking with me :) |
I've been thinking about how I want to make this basement space actually fun to be in. Spiff up the aquarium. Get a love seat and chair or two. I have a spare stereo I'm babysitting indefinitely I could bring down here. I'd need to get some speakers, but I've priced that out and it's only 100 bucks |
Maybe pull one of the area rugs out of whatever closet they're in |
Also thinking about doing hydroponics again down here. I'd have to really set a plan, but I've been able to grow lettuce, spinach tomatoes, parsley well |
I tried cilantro several times but it never worked out. Not sure what went wrong |
Make an indoor raised herb garden! |
Also grew some weed plants RLH had. They did ok for a while, then the plant Holocaust happened and the basement became a desolate area |
I do think I should grow some things in soil, yeah |
And having nice oregano, parsley, etc is fantastic |
O the other hand |
I could pack up all the hydro stuff and reclaim 120 SQ ft |
I have a lot of stuff for it. |
You can make the aquarium a small garden |
Lots of lights, big trays, etc |
The aquarium I want to set up is deep rather than wide--but I know there is a long tank back here somewhere. If it holds water lol |
You can make it a candle display |
Or anything, really |
Wanna see something cool? |
Yeah! 👍 |
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Complete set.basically perfect |
I think 1952? |
Wooeee! That's quite a set |
Did you just get that? |
Friend dropped it off |
Same for some s&p if you want any vintage plainer ones |
S&P? |
Salt and peppers |
Haha lol I wouldn't deprive you if the opportunity |
Lol |
Fancy! |
Want to know how many salt shakers were liberated from Holiday Inn South? How many plates? Forks? |
Ummmmm yes? |
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Am i missing something?? Feels like if |
We still have a dozen plates. At one point there were salt shakers in every room. I think they are like cat toys--there's probably a big pile of salt shakers under rlh's chair. Most of my flatware came from Holiday Inn. |
Wasn't the "let's talk about" series a tool for parents to discuss difficult topics with their kids? I don't really remember it well. |
I bet you can find the books |
Ohhhhh yeah i kkow those |
I just found that book bag in a pile of weird stuff |
Oh okay |
So we're good? You and i? |
OMG yes! I'm sorry did I throw you off? |
It was just a silly joke |
Yeah threw me off but not because of you, if that makes sense |
Yes it does. Sorry about that! |
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You're okay thanks |
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Interesting! |
How is your evening going? |
Oh, so you do or do not know what that is? |
Yours? |
It looks like a phallic salt shaker or pepper grinder |
My eyes are actually ok for a change |
It is absolutely not that! |
All good. Pretty chill. I did some low key work, inspected the aquarium. Determined it needs a lot of cleanup, but it's doable |
Cool |
Ohhhh! |
Is it hollow? |
Yeah, it was on a stick thing |
null |
Yeah, kimd of! |
Would you like it? |
Unless you have plans for it. I think it's neat 😁 |
I get things i think are neat |
So i think you'd be perfect |
Well thank you! |
How can I repay you? |
Never any need - i only give freely and without expectation of reciprocity but you can keep hanging out with me. Occasionally entertain my need to procure more unique or old or weird things |
Happy to take a look! |
The hands need to be tightened is all, i think, i just dont know how to make it work. They're open |
Alrighty then |
What's up for the next few of your days? |
Not positive yet. I'll see if I can keep this energy up |
So much to do here |
Whoops I just faded out for a minute |
Same here |
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Love you babe! |
Love you too! |
Yes pretty quick too lol |
2024-10-24T03:43:33 |
Good morning! |
2024-10-24T04:48:28 |
Heyyyy baby! |
How are you? |
Feeling good! |
How is my sweet cherry lump? |
Pretty good |
Been busy already have you? |
Yep! |
Wish i had someone 4ish inches taller.... |
Oh? |
Yeah. Being fun sized isnt always as great as it sounds |
But but but you're so yummy! |
Do you have a little step ladder? |
I could put you on a pedestal? |
You could sit on my face? |
Yes to all!!! |
I found a solution so you cant look up my skirt on that pedestal |
Harummmph |
Fiiine |
You dont even want to hear about it? I was so creative! |
Yes I want to hear all about it! |
You stood on a stack of encyclopedias? |
Encyclopedias? |
Dammit autocorrect |
Lol |
I just dont wear a skirt ;) leave it all off |
Hahahaha! |
I'm a problem solver! |
You sure are! :) |
Want or need some mugs? |
Oh boy idk the mugs kinda overfloweth as it is. I might take some bigger ones if you have them? |
So far these, maybe |
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Oh! I have one for you :) |
Secret, lol |
Sleeping? |
Shopping lol |
Ooh! Where? |
Bozo mart |
Bezo |
Beelzebub |
I think I have too many projects in flight and I'm shopping for equipment to take on even more |
Calling me a project?? Rude! |
Are you feeling like you need some maintenance and attention? |
Of course! |
Well next time I come over I'll lube you up |
Speechless |
Does your mouth need lubricant too? |
It was working really well last time I saw you |
I never create enough mouthe moisture |
Let's work on that together |
Yes please! |
When? |
ASAP! |
But I have to warn you, my hair, body, and mind are all clean and pure now |
Okay cool |
You would defile me? Meeeeeee? |
You will find none purer |
Same here |
Ohhhh myyyyy |
Too deep and dark in there for you? |
I'll let you ease in. Maybe start with just the tip |
Finger, tongue, other extremity..... |
Mmm mmm mmm |
Fuckkkkkk i am tired |
Coffee & pastries please |
Pastries you like? What kind? |
I decided pasta and caffeine were ok |
null |
Yay! What you got on that rotini? |
Butter, parm, herbed oil from horrocks |
null |
Wanna do exciting things after work today? |
What.. are you licking there? |
Haagen dazs, i think? |
null |
Lololol! |
What kind of excitement did you have in mind? Please remember I am pure of body and mind, and I need both hands to drive |
I can do plenty with and without my hands.... |
I do maybe have to take a little trip to Mason |
For real? |
Indeed. To perform my civic duty as a responsible recycle person. And carpooling is the most efficient way to drive. |
Hahahahahaha always is |
I was probably going to find a rescue store for things that need me to foster them lol |
How is the work? |
I'm kinda of ignoring one work while back vacuum in the basement |
Kind of same |
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Such helpful coworkers lol! |
How goes things? |
null |
Nonstop calls. Literally backtoback, 10 seconds between |
I am in a meeting that is going to cause my head to explode |
Pompous assholes |
Name the nammmmmes!!!! |
Guy who sits in the office next to me sometimes? |
No |
He's a jerk |
I'll say |
Oh I'm right!? |
Stereotypical IT know-it-all acts like everyone below his level is an idiot. |
Jesus. I cannot take much more of today |
What's your meeting about? |
What purse do i want to use nextN |
Pardon me while i chew open my chest in the meanwhile |
Whew |
Well I've calmed down |
I should have known that meeting was going to get my dander up |
Yeah, what is it about today lol |
What did you decide to do after work? |
I might head over to Michco, and Ace on the north side. Both are just a couple blocks from HfH. If you were thinking to go to Habitat I can probably meet you there |
I work too late for that but thanks |
Lol |
Ok I probably misread where you were planning to go |
But I will be outta here much earlier than you so I can get some things I need and find you |
What are you trying to do silly boy? |
Maybe just find where i put my cards and I'll escape lol |
What are your sunday plans? |
You usually work until 1715 right? I just need to get out of the house for a bit, was going to pick up some things I need |
You're correct |
You can always step in here quick and steal some kisses |
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Ooooh nice! But no thanks |
Found wallet!!! Hurray!!! |
Yay! |
I can escape now lol |
Woohoo! |
Where are you going? |
Well, in like a half hour |
Unsure |
Lol |
Unsure huh. That's what I'm doing Sunday! |
Hahaha |
Twins 🤜 |
For sures |
How much longer can you be out? |
Hour? Two? |
I have your candle jars too |
Ooooohhhh nice |
Yeah? What you need princess? |
What do you want? |
Omg may i have a new spine please?!? |
Couple gallons of hydromorphone maybe |
Lol |
**pleeeeeeeeeassssssseeeeee |
I got yo hydro |
I have plenty of hydrostuffs, just not what i want lol |
Need a straw? |
No interest in road trip to Mason? |
Idk.... i would love to but suddenly feel kinda sick and there's the matter of finding an excuse |
Probably just anxiety |
Stupid self brain |
And L just messaged that he's on his way home. Lovely. |
It's ok babe I'm just peer pressuring you into the magic of Styrofoam recycling |
The cool kids are doing it |
You can always tell L to pick up something at Horrocks |
That's not anywhere close to here |
I feel awful all of a sudden |
I'm sorry |
Phone call adrenaline |
Any chance you're like a mile away? |
More like 4 |
I am actually near AF |
Ugh. Him too |
Well this sucks |
Can I meet you somewhere? |
Thought about it. Couldnt be til later though |
He's supposed to be working for another 20 minutes |
I would have been happy just to have you sit here while i clean |
Talk about crappy timing |
Always with him |
I've noticed this pattern. With him |
Yeah |
There's a lot of patterns |
Can i tell you something unhinged? |
Please |
Please do |
Feel free |
I really want to throw up right now |
Oh I'm sorry! Why so tense? |
The usual |
Aww my poor baby :( I understand needing me time |
I dont have that |
Or if i do, i use it cleaning |
This too sounds familiar |
Does L expect you to wait on him? |
I dont know. Sometimes and some things but not really |
I wish you could hold me |
null |
Yeah that's close to how i feel |
Idk if it makes you feel any better but I took the next two Wednesdays off |
Really!? |
Yep |
I sure did! |
That does make me feel better |
null |
Sizzling!! |
Big ideas for those Wednesdays? |
Hmm |
Idk something might pop up eh? |
Guess we'll find out |
Okay, i think i need more sleep for now |
Ok babe sleep well. Sweet dreams! |
Still not home |
Ffs |
2024-10-24T19:21:14 |
Hey babe |
Hiiiiieee!! |
Are you ok? |
Afk45 |
Back! |
Hay I want to share a code word with you but I don't know what it is yet |
It shall mean "absolutely do not contact me from this moment. I will contact you". The reason for this is protection for both of us. |
I want to anticipate the need to reveal my phone. I can quickly archive this conversation and I expect that is sufficient to protect both of us in this case |
So ack word? |
Idk thinking on it now |
Gotcha |
Freeze? |
I can get behind that, but suggest heavy abbr like FZ |
Im good with that too |
I'm not trying to sound crazy lol just want to be prepared |
Agreed 👍 |
Have you rested? |
Xxxoxooozzxxxoxxx |
😘😘😘😘😘😘😘 |
You may also want to consider deleting this convo and /or saving me under a very nonplussed name |
I did rest |
I hope you are well, if sleepy? |
Maybe? I hooe so too |
Kisses and cuddles! |
You, too |
I want to ensure you are well |
Don't make me lick you |
Like a mama kitty |
I am well enough, mamakittycat |
Ty baby |
Sleep well, mon chou |
You, too |
Are you doing alright? |
I am! I broke my beer and weed restriction, and I feel very nice |
Hanging with the cats, Spotify, electrolysis, camera, ... Missing only you! |
2024-10-25T07:02:09 |
Heyyy you! Good morning! |
Heyyyy babe |
How are you doing? |
I am okay thanks |
null |
That would be very nice, thank you :) |
How are you? |
I feel like i need massive help waking up. This is awful |
Also, sae spouse one tike last night. And he wasnt home til after 1800 |
😐 |
I should have zipped over there and abducted you! |
I wouldve been asleeo |
You swinging by with caffeine & yummies? |
I wish I could! And take a nap with you too |
Omg yes please |
But at least i am not phones today |
On the plus side, i finally threw on some make up |
😘 |
null |
Did you want to make any plans for sunday? |
Ooh! What are you thinking? I guess I thought you were going to be in Brighton all day |
Trying to make those choices now |
I can probably get out for a couple hours |
Nbd if you can't, legit just wondered |
I will if I can! |
Okay. Just unsure of how to have the weekend planned and it sucks |
Finally figured some stuff out |
I'm doing ok. Up too late last night lol |
You should tell me about last night |
Not much to tell. I was just focused on cleaning some tools, listening to music, and drinking beer |
Are you in a not good mood? |
Good enough Id say? I don't feel spectacular... Sore throat since I woke up, a bit dragged out from beer and allergy meds. But my mood is good. I am happy to hear from you 🙂 |
That's good :) |
It's ok😊 |
You didnt say anything, meanwhile i thought you were upset or didnt want to chat, so i didnt.... again, i am very common sense dumb. It's directly connected to ky booksmartness |
Text pause for a few... spouse fixing phone glass |
Thaw :) |
Lol shiny new? |
Yep 👍 |
I put screen protector on this phone a couple days after I got it. It's now cracked in at least 3 places (the protector!) |
My basement floor is unforgiving |
Lol. I put a protector on mine the day i got it. Cracked it the same day lol |
My thumb got a little too raw the last few days |
Im in the market for fake rosemary |
Fake? |
Like, an artificial rosemary leaf thing |
I have a plant in the backyard |
Not fake tho |
Thanks |
Hmm. Ok |
Yeah, my thoughts exactly |
How come you weeded last night? |
I was blowing off steam from work. Basic escape technique ngl |
It helps me to focus on other things |
Tell me more about work |
It was that encounter with IT dude. It settled down, but I needed to get it off my mind. I don't like hanging on to things like that. Too much fight/flight drugs, too much blood pressure, not enough serenity. |
Today, work is just full and lifeless lol |
*dull, definitely not full |
Same but it meant i got some cleaning done! |
Fight/flight drugs? |
I've been circulating water in the fish take for a couple hours now |
Exciting stuff! |
But what are the f/f drugs? |
Hormones |
Also, are you aware those are not the o ly 2 responses? |
Powerfull |
Be eaten? |
Oh. Yes. But not externally taken drugs in this instance |
Fall out of tree |
Get smooshed by dinosaur |
Okay then |
Idk, what options are there? |
I suppose there's have intelligent discourse |
https://images.app.goo.gl/rUPMQi3PJhykLwSEA |
I'll be darned. I've never seen that. Makes sense though! |
I am neither of which you mentioned |
I'm thinking you are freeze, based on what you've told me |
Why do you say freeze? I know you just said "based on what i told you" but i need more |
Your response to trauma, eg from father and brother, was to freeze |
That was my line of thought |
Are those the only 2 you know at this point? |
There was also the fire |
But that specific type of instance |
Yes |
Okay, thanks |
You're coreect with freezing |
For the most part, at least. I have done all 3 "new" ones and more often than not my response is a combination |
Makes sense |
I think my response was more like "become a snotty b----", but that doesn't fit the f-model so well |
"Flippant fuckery" alliterates just fine |
Lol! |
Fair warning that i will be slower to reply starting after like a half hour until in a few hours from now |
Ok got it |
You heading to Brighton soon? |
Yep |
Safe travels babe! |
:) |
Well you can chat me up... I'm at the grocery store |
Oh. Unsure! I love them though |
You can do that???? |
Yes |
If the stems are long enough |
I've seen this done. It astounds me |
Completely self taught, lol |
More often than that i would ask if they like how my lipgloss tastes |
Bahaha! |
Or ask if they knew what flavor it was |
Cherry obv lol |
You sure about that? |
No lol |
You usually taste like mint and yummy |
null |
Would you tell me if i tasted bad? |
Maybe |
Would you tell me if coffee mouth tasted bad? |
Yes |
I know I've tasted bad when attached to your lips |
I legit do not remember that |
I think you're being a bit tough on yourself |
You're positive? |
I never once thought you tasted bad, anytime, or anywhere |
Oh. Okay. Thank you |
I really am convinced i have |
On no less than 3 occasions |
Possibly more, because i was only referring to my tongue just now |
I mean absolutely zero times my tongue has been applied to you in any fashion |
I understood after i read it and tjoight about it lol |
*thought |
I will always feel like i taste bad |
I never once thought that about you. |
Lol okay |
I swear i have decent oral hygiene most days |
Lol most days |
True |
I fixed my basement lab chair woo! |
Wooo! |
Handoff relatively successful |
As in.... i was passed off in webberville |
So now I'm fuckin sad again |
Oh my goodness |
Poor baby! |
Finally left the parking lot |
It's a long road to Brighton |
Meh |
There's a Spotify playlist in that OneNote I shared |
Can i have the onenote again please? |
And a gazillion pounds of morphine |
Maybe mix it with liquor |
Step 1 |
null |
I present, the morphine martini! |
Step one commencing |
I dont know any of those artists, save Massive attack |
Too vibratey to listen right now but i have finally arrived chez mere in brighton |
I am dying now |
🥰 |
No no, I need you to come back |
Feel free to add or delete as you feel |
Is needed |
I really cant listen now but i will |
I am so much ow right now |
I'm sorry you are hurting babe! |
Don't worry about the other thing |
Other thing? |
null |
The playlist |
Oh. I thought it might help, so i will listen later. But literally cant right now |
So how do i make the ow stop for now? |
Tell your mom you need a love slave stat |
Oh that'll go well |
Do you have any idea how she ends every conversation? |
I do not |
"Be niiiiiice" |
No matter what i say |
Or how many tears were in my talking |
She's letting the neighbor's dog out now |
I just have my phone |
How old is Mom? |
71 |
You know my rents are only 5 years older |
L's parents are very kuch a lot younger |
*much |
And i knew that but also didnt |
Does Mom let you down? Like dismiss you? |
Your rents are both the same age? |
Dad born May 1948, mom born September 1948 |
What can I clarify? |
For a while, we had 3 generations hanging out each 20 years apart |
Let me down...? |
I anticipate tonight being a long and unhinged-ish conversation with you |
Please say when you need a subject change or to be done for the night |
Okay |
This is what I was thinking of in re your mom |
Right |
Yeah |
Just "be nice"? |
It isn't though. It's something you might have to hear me say to get the point across |
I dont know how to get through tonight |
Can I ask why you are there? |
null |
Library volunteer thing tomorrow |
Sorry, phone died |
Good progress |
Ty! |
It's an all over activity. And I've done it for decades, as has she |
Please tell me to take the drugs |
What drugs ? |
Does it matter? |
But you want me to pull the trigger? I want to know what I am committing you to. |
I do not make this promise to everyone, but i swear i will tell you before i attempt to actually harm myself. Ive told you every time since i promised you a while back |
In any event, all i have with me is norco for anything illicit-ish |
Take your meds babe! |
And I really appreciate what you said above |
It means a lot to me |
Just be aware i will actually use it |
I will not abandon you |
I dont know if you've realized when ive used it |
I agree. I don't think I know the moment |
It's been more than once |
So |
Ty for telling me |
Let me help when I can |
In the future |
I care about you being here |
I want you here |
You're welcome |
What are you feeling right now? |
I dont think it has a word |
null |
Always adorable, you |
Your Guinness seems far away |
Smoking? |
You have Mastermind!!! |
And are you wearing denim? |
Ew |
Lol! |
No I'm wearing sweatpants |
Very grubby ones |
You don't like me in denim I take it |
If you like mastermind, and you like words, you probably will like Wordle! |
This is one of my word games |
I am familiar with wordle |
Denim is fine |
Just not comfy to wear |
I'm going to lick you in 45 minutes |
You dont even know where i am lol |
No matter |
null |
What am i looking at? |
null |
Um |
You amended your hair |
Did not |
You're also correct ;) |
I am all natural I'm kiddo |
1st to 2nd pic, hair is different |
I rly |
Je pense que ouai |
I rly |
null |
Was supposed to be o rly |
I want it down next "time" |
(Please) |
Has mine been down for you yet? |
Lol make me |
Okay |
You might need to pull it a bit |
I will if you will |
null |
Have you thought of the word yet? |
For what ? |
Ayo? |
Hiee had to escort bags of gross out of the House! |
Eww |
Would you like to know about my other escort services? |
YES |
OOOOH! |
WELL |
what is your ideal evening? |
Dinner and dancing? |
Dinner and fucking? |
Dinner and you for dessert? |
Or me maybe? |
Tell me your ideal |
Chill day in nature |
Rewind and repeat |
Want to dress me up? |
Maybe |
Ooh I might! |
Did I tell you about the glamour shots? |
Def not! |
It's not what you think prolly |
I would like to dress you up! |
I've never done that |
Tell me alllllll of it |
Are you ok with a sad story? It's not terrible |
Yes, please go on |
7 years ago or so, RLH wanted money for some glam shots. 400 went to this. Apparently a cool female photographer. Then another 400. |
I do have proof of the expense, whatever it was. I have no reason to doubt. But damn |
I was not as big in photography then as I am now |
I would love to play with you |
null |
He. Looks. Petrified. |
Thank you for sharing that |
Also.... i want details for playing with me, pretty please |
This is kind of a choose your own adventure deal |
I will ask if you want to take some photographs |
You answer? |
Yes |
It's kind of a nice camera. Would you like to hold it? |
I dont know anything about cameras. I trust you to show me what i need to know and tell me what to do |
I've never had ay "real" pics taken anyway |
What are you picking to dress me in first? |
Oh! So glad you asked |
I did say i want every detail |
I am in such a better mood thanks to you |
I want to know everything you've ever imagined with me, from me, for me.... |
null |
Yes |
With a black bustier |
Until this my moment I thought black lipstick was not for me, but I might be swayed |
Red bows in your hair |
Black lace hose |
How are we doing? |
You would be SUCH a doll |
Why do you like me like this description? |
I would lick you endlessly |
So pretty |
What makes this one more appealing vs, say, all white and pastel? |
Show me! |
Show me this one immediately |
You do recall I'm in a different county rn? |
Oh. This is perhaps a legal concern? Fml but please do not break the law |
Lol no |
Anyway |
Sorry! Had to make a snack |
Where were we |
You tell me allll the things |
Ok but please keep your clothes on |
No promises |
You like me better without them anyway |
May I keep shooting? |
You are fun |
Ohhhhh yes please do |
I mean with the camera you perv |
I didnt stutter |
I like you a lot |
I like you a lot too |
I actually love you |
Xoxoxox |
So you care? |
Yes |
But also.... ??? |
What is also? |
What "care" is in question? |
And a question or million to follow |
You actually love me? Tell me more |
Tell me this isnt a trapand that you're you first |
Lol girl I asked you first |
Other than my "big" head |
What's something only i would know? |
You tease |
More specific |
I asked you to first |
Unexpected "to" |
Leaving it |
Mmmmmk |
What's your first question right now? |
Bring it pink bebe |
My question actually was |
Tell me more about you love me |
And i will, as soon as you prove you're you |
Hey now |
What can |
Nope |
Wait |
3 ninutes |
Ninu kind x 3 |
I dont get it? |
Lol you're not supposed to |
Dislike |
null |
Okay.... why did i think your name was funny? |
My name is funny? |
I thought it was. To me anyway |
Ironic, maybe |
I see. |
Okay, spell your best coworker mate's last name |
Wait a sec here Missy |
Give me a 2 letter codeword in my preferred language's quotation marks |
Follow it with an all clear |
In a specific term i used earlier |
What's my least favorite number and why? |
"FZ" |
All clear babe |
What did i say earlier when i was clear? |
Oh my I am lost now |
All was in the Interest of pleasing you |
I want to be sure you are who i think I want to text this to |
Think of it as MFA |
Fair |
Oo:00 |
Oh. Earlier i had you pause texting |
Just sayin |
Yes you did |
When you could unpause, what word did i use? |
Unfreeze |
Do you think somebody took over my phone? |
It was a possibility |
And no, that wasnt it |
null |
Oops? |
Thaw |
Also.... |
< |
Would have been my preferred language |
L a n g l o i s |
I believe? |
Yes |
Your name |
Ma'am? |
Why did i think it was funny in an ironic way to me? |
You are killing me |
I have zero short term memory rn |
Here's a clue: whom do you think 90% of this house's photos are of? |
Cat(s) |
Im at my mother's |
Oh right lol |
I don't want to say |
It's just a fact |
Anyway, your name is 2/3 the same. Hence irony |
You don't know my least favorite number? |
I'm sure I forgot. I'm sorry |
No worries |
8 |
If you and i had an anniversary it would be...? |
(It's a date) |
I am sorry |
Name one of my pets |
Didn't I already prive my identity |
Until I'm closer to 100%, it's a no from me |
I also really hope you're okay right now |
Mama kitty |
You are being so hard |
I'm really really concerned |
Wait what? Why |
You seem off |
I'm just happy buzzed flirting |
Is is ok |
You're positive? |
Yes ofc! |
I like fantasizing with you |
And about you |
I'm very glad |
Should we get back to it then? |
Sure I reckon? |
You are ok too? |
I think so |
I put a bra on and took a pic to prove I am me |
I did see that |
But also could have been taken at any time and saved |
Fair |
But I am literally here now thinking about you picking at it |
Picking at? |
Don't you want what is under? |
Ah, i see our confusion |
OMG I want to be there rn |
And then i tiptaptaptippytap my fingertips along until i very gently undo each delicate feature of that brassiere and i rock back and forth underneath you, me feeling you swell as i drench down all the more |
And i barely touch you |
And barely make noise |
And you cant take the tension and suspense anymore with all my teasing |
So then i look into you and you gaze back into me and we know |
And you take me |
I want you like this |
Me too |
Please |
Yes |
Every moment |
I want to feel love like this |
Passion |
And longing |
And deserving |
I love you this way |
I love you this way too |
I want this from you, to give you this because no one has claimed it from me or offered it to me |
I feel it with you but cant adequately explain it. It's literally a carnal need |
I want this for you! |
And me! |
Youre the one who gets this. That was my decision a while ago |
Am I so different |
It's going to hurt me and break me as immensely as it will show me love and complete me |
You are that different, yes |
I dont know what might happen in that cathartic event but i know I'm okay with whatever it is with yoh |
I long to truly couple with you |
I dont think i know exactly what you mean, but i know i want it too |
null |
I want you to break me in a good way. I didnt know that at first |
I thought it was just going to have to be pain |
But it isn't so |
null |
Gnight sweet bean! |
null |
2024-10-26T07:54:18 |
null |
Good morning sweet prince! |
null |
2024-10-26T12:27:10 |
OMG hieee!! |
I slept in so bad lol |
I love those pictures! |
Heya sleepy! |
null |
IT COULD HAVE BEEN DRUGS! |
Lol looks pretty sus to me! |
Noooooooo |
Ma'am where are you taking those books ? |
Ummmm |
A loving home? |
There's even at least 1 for someone i love intimately |
Oh rly? |
Fo sho! |
How ya doin? What are you up to today? |
Well Ive replaced the socket on an extension cord, polished the edges of the acrylic sheet I got as a table top protector, and turned two small pieces of wood to hold tape spools and the like |
Feeling good! |
Pretty good |
Very owwwwww and sick feeling now but at least headed bavk to her house from adventures |
Did not sit |
Heyyyyyyy |
Heyyyyyyy babe I just got out of the shower. Need to make a trip to despot in a bit |
What are you buying me? Loo |
Lop |
Lol |
Getting wood for ya |
Yay! |
Thought you might like it |
Nice and stiff |
You know what? I dooooooo like that kind! |
Lemme know when you want more fun secrets. Took a bunch of drugs so i should feel decent again pretty soon |
Ok lol! I'm at Chez Despot atm |
What arrrrrre you procuring? |
Wood, tools, plunger |
Quelles equipes? |
Chisels! For lathing |
Wood! For rehabbing the aquarium stand |
Stain and sealant? |
Paints and primers? |
I got poly yeah |
Have stains galore |
Fish toys and buried treasure? |
NO |
A ventilatiom system and extra n masks? |
Your fish will be so sad and deprived of joy |
actually got a pack of ns from amazeballs |
I might install a little swing set for the fish |
And a merry go pule |
Puke |
Carousel!!! |
Yes! |
Get em a friendly neighborhood axolotl |
Lmk when you want some chatter |
Ok home again |
Chatter me up babe |
Did I ever ask you what would happen if you told your mom you had a side-not-chick? |
I will in a few hours.... gotta do some stuff with L & mum here now :/ |
That's a very long story i actually do know the answer to |
Oh! Ok |
Tell you soon |
Yeah. Literally abandoned since i got home and nowwwww i am busy |
Aww :( I will be here all night! |
Jesus fucking christ. Maybe not. Those 2 are hanging out and idk if I'm even visible anymore |
Huh. Can we sneak off? |
Tomorrow |
Kid book |
null |
Yay! |
Want it? |
Heck yeah |
Yay! |
It's a very small book |
Buuuuut i have some ar home you might really like along the same lines |
And thise i hand selected today |
|
I love anthropological stuff |
Knowledge |
Yes! Me too |
My mother's degree is in sociology and anthropology |
Who knew?! Lol |
You should probably keep me away from her lol |
JUST KIDDING |
null |
I god |
Oh |
Noooo |
Well i love it |
I memorized clement c moores book a long time ago |
Won monies for a few poetic parodies i wrote too |
Yay! You were definitely the cool cute girl I lusted after that while time |
Lol thanks! |
Okay i guess we can finally eat?? |
Ttyl |
Ok bebe good luck! 😙😙 |
null |
Xana =/= icthyos |
Correct |
null |
Hey sexy babe! |
Wawa!!! |
Hiee!! |
No Wawa in this state! |
You get your Wawa where you get yours! I am ok with that lol |
https://open.spotify.com/track/68Azu5ktU8uFdyQ3pixt7H?si=77BGKn4FRaKwGd-ogTwuZA |
Did I send you this already? It is so spastic and the lyrics are right up your pink alley |
Nope! Give me a few to get in the actual house lol |
So tomorrow.... |
Idk what my plan is yet |
No worries |
What constraints do you expect in terms of time frames and anything else? |
My house is occupied so it would not be here. Perhaps platonic-ish. Or hidden fields or sark alleyways or whatever |
You're welcome to decline.... i am here alone and not working all day Wednesday |
And i wfh Tuesday this week when he is in office |
Ty |
I will be in office Monday. PTO Wednesday |
😊 |
And I will find a way to find you tomorrow! |
Haha okay |
Where are you atm? |
null |
null |
Chez moi |
Hieeee sweet baby! |
Haaaaaiiieeeee |
Did you have anything you'd realistically like to do tomorrow? |
Besides continue to get stuff around in my lair, make out with you for a spell |
But if it should be difficult to make a meetup happen, Wednesday should present many easier opportunities |
We can makeout anywhere lol |
But it's completely fine to each den dwell separately |
Ty! |
Is it ok if we assess feasibility if a meetup tomorrow? |
I do long for your sweet kiss |
Definitely |
Can i give you a travel cup? |
I will have you as my travel cup |
null |
Oh lovely! |
Might have another pail for you |
Much simpler this time |
And but sir i cannot be your travel cup |
We have yet to see what it takes to overfill me |
null |
What would you like them in? |
I have it lol |
What color cup? |
For your travels |
Oh! I can choose? |
You know me by now? |
This one requires a straw. Is that okay? |
Or you can have a different choice that is side sippable |
null |
?? |
Lol |
null |
I recommend exploring the Adobe color site for funzies |
Ohhh gotchas |
I recommend planters and bins and the like frim dollar stores, thrift places, and my stockpiles |
Please tell me what is the answer to the mom question? |
And then I want to know all about you your stockpiles |
The mom/side not chick question? |
Yes |
Short answer is she is no longer my mother |
Please explain this to me |
I will..... apouse. Rn |
👍 to “ I will..... apouse. Rn ” |
Je retoure! |
Oh hello! I'm sure how are you |
Rephrase that? Lol |
I kiss your face now |
Thank you |
I want to get high |
Like, really really want |
And to fuck but 8 still have more weed questions |
null |
We could do a very mellow first time for virgin weeders |
Very cool thing! |
But please do ask your questions, right after you explain mom please! |
I make round things now |
Well, the first time i cheated, L went to her and told her what i was doing, she wrote a letter that was 3 pages long, said she wouldn't have any contact with me if i continued. That's the very short version. I still have the letter if you decide you want to read it |
No further questions at this time. Thank you |
I specialize in |
Hard |
Stiff |
Smooth |
Stains |
Stains, eh? |
Any other ideas come to you? |
Ideas of what nature? |
Oh does the mind wander on stains? |
What are you thinking? |
Ask your questions lol |
null |
Babay!!! |
Not today, hemachromawhatsit |
Blood metals? |
Well my jeans were blood stained pretty good |
I need full guidance here, ok? |
And I waited on ike 3 days to deal with it lol |
What you need sis |
Well you obv |
What kind of high are we having me be? |
If you want, we can do literally one hit. And evaluate! The blend I have rn is very easy to sink in to |
but |
If you would rather not smoke, I can get some nonms |
Nommies |
I think I'm asking how we're tying to make me feel. Or what experience we're going for |
The target hovers around |
Oh, and |
How long til the feeling starts? When does it end? |
Smoking, onset is immediate. First time one hit may last hours, but will fade steadily |
How do you "take a hit"? |
One moment |
https://photos.app.goo.gl/hvKajkPocyESPApA8 |
Okay |
Thank you!!!!!!!!!!! |
Really? |
YES |
Yes exactly |
But it will not be as friendly as an inhaler |
And you want to go very gently |
Did you change the speed on your recording? |
Gently how? |
Nope, that was straight from the camera |
Gently like a very short burn |
You moved quicker than i thought |
The burn is hot! And it can easily irritate your mouth and throat |
Yeah i absolutely want to fuck you this instant |
Ohhhh wow I so wish that is happening |
I feel so oddly comfortable |
You are so deliciously wonderful |
I would literally smother your face rn if you'd let me take a seat there |
Ohhhh please do it |
And i want you to toss me around like a rag doll so you can have your way after i soak you |
OMG please |
All of it |
I want your fingers doing their magic dancing too |
Do you mention petticoats? Like wide at the hip? |
And that amazingly conspicuous (in only the best way) head of yours needs to hit where he did last time. I want more of his painless pain |
Educate me plz |
Look what I found on Etsy: https://www.etsy.com/listing/954567624/rainbow-skirt-petticoat-tulle-petticoats?ref=share_v4_lx |
That's what i have |
Black, white, and pink. 22 inches in length. From her |
I have a few short short ones too |
55cm for non freedom units |
I think 22cm is the second shortest length she does |
*22in |
She's in Ukraine |
It's beautiful! |
https://images.app.goo.gl/9zJwxFtG3UxCT6PE6 |
So fruffles are black |
There's an idea of their putpose |
Holy fuck |
That is so hot |
I have ome in black and one in light pink and one in white and a different short short one in black and an additional short short one in white |
I require all of these |
Get them down from my closet and maybe we can lace up a corset around, say, december 3rd |
Fuck me silly please! |
Imma be a full on pillow princess wearing alllllllll the skirts |
Fuck me bring all that |
Have you always been on the bed with me when you go down? |
Yes |
How come? |
It's just where we were |
My logic brain says there are much better, easier ways |
Like i sit atop a towel on my couch with my legs spread wide open and you rest on some pillows while you drive me insane before fucking me on that very same couch. Or move me against the door and fuck me standing up. Dealer's choice |
Yeah |
Holy fuck that is so hot |
You offer this why? |
It's so amazing |
I have a few answers |
I fucking love your body |
And your witty mind |
And your wicked tongue |
Because i love you |
You are so sweet |
I appreciate you so much |
Why do you say my body is amazing? |
Body |
Because I am not grossed out or put off by so-called imperfect. I love honest, unedited girl. Hair and makeup options do not count |
And you are soooo hot |
Haha, thanks |
There was a literal chuckle here |
I still dont really understand but i kind of do? |
I invite you to wallow in it |
I dont want to be full of myself |
Wriggle about like a heathen lol |
All over me |
Just do it |
Oil? |
Haha, sure |
I have some off the cuff insights for you maybe |
Tell me now! 😄 |
This one is weird: last time, you got really innnnnnn and i felt like i was hurt but wasnt and should have been but didnt? And i know you saw my face when it was happening. I feel like i still feel you at that spot |
Words? |
You told me this kinda before, and here now |
How do you feel about it? |
It feels physically amazing to me |
But you want to know where this fits in your headspace |
Lol *I want to* |
I'm still in the feeling of disbelief about it - a little bit like I'm in midair suspension because i don't know what to make of it |
Ok if I say Yay! Will you be weirded out |
Not weirded out |
How do you feel? Lay it all out, everything you thought and felt before and then and now |
You are so fucking hot |
Yummy |
You ask a lot of questions |
Very smart girl |
Haha, thanks |
What else then? |
So sexy! |
Your other thoughts |
Your physical sensations in the act |
And you keep wanting to draw my fantasyw |
What flashed in your mind when i had weird anr questionable faces |
When i take quick cuts of air deep into my core |
Can we pause here-- I have a few things to say |
Of course |
Ty |
When I started tracking you coming once or twice, I definitely picked up on the breathing. |
You are so pretty and so hot when you come! 💕💕💕 |
Oh mic down |
I tried to mimic my cum face in the mirror.... i looked awful. Why do you say pretty? |
your visage makes me smile, and your body is so desirable |
Rewind a sec, because i dont think i got my point across about something |
We were diagonal on my bed, my head up near the head of it and in the corner nearest the signed books and you were on top and about to really get deep. Remember this? |
I sure do |
I winced when i relaxed and you went as far in as I've let anyone. Remember or no? |
Yesss |
There is a spot deep up in me that you passed and hit and kept going, and i was positive of what i would feel because that's always like the last part that feels good, the rest always has a stabbing ache for me no matter what and so i was ready for the first time we slept together to have been my only painfree sex at all |
It's magical for you? |
And i felt you at that spot and was fully bracing myself for the ow and it was still there in my heads because i was so prepared for it but that stab-shock didn't ever happen and i keep looking for it, basically. |
Magical isn't a fair term yet, but what made you think of that term for now? |
I am saying i dont know why i didn't feel like someone stabbed me at my trauma spots and it's really thrown off all of me and my thoughts |
I also used to/maybe still get really wet and hyperaroused feeling or reminiscing that pain |
So my head is all sorts of fucked up over it and i just want sex 24 hours a day and that has never been me |
Your dick should have hurt me, i expected you to, and that just did not take place |
Pause |
Wow! And Yay! |
I am beyond overjoyed that helped in this way |
And you are also fucking hot |
And to fuck you is to love you |
So you were sitting on my face yeah? |
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2024-10-27T05:00:58 |
Boop! Lol |
2024-10-27T10:02:45 |
Hi love! |
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How are you? |
I just woke up! |
Woo! |
Awww |
And I'm surrounded by cat noses! |
You're adorable |
Nah, that's you |
😊 |
Would you wear a quarter zip fleece? |
Probably |
Lol |
Decide how you are yet? |
Mmmmk |
Oh shit I zoned out |
You're okay i hope? |
I'm ok just napped out with cat by accident |
Awwwwws |
What else did you decide to do today? |
I'm thinking dicker & deal |
You could always just house elf yourself |
Are you saying my ears are pointy? |
Not in the least |
I have no idea what they look like l9l |
I actually left the house lol |
Interested in going for a ride? |
Great work! |
It's ok babe, I understand |
It makes me really upset though |
No matter where i would want to go or do, i cannot |
And why is that? |
L decided today is a garage day, so he's out there |
I get it |
Some of it, I'm sure. Thanks. |
You can just leave and go where and when you want. I cant. I really hate this. |
Maybe I'm just hungry |
Yeah. If RLH weren't sleeping, I probably would have stayed put. |
I thought I sent that a half hour ago oops |
You are right that technically i can go wherever whenever, but the suspicion tax is high and the price is usually devastating if I get accused of anything |
What's the price? |
Fixed hunger |
The price is dealing with her total emotional breakdown, and the you never do this and you never do that, and so on |
Will you fix my hunger too? |
The mutually felt hunger to which you are referring is one i stopped feeling eons ago and do not know how to fix |
I am somehow very sad and very motivated rn |
But but but j'aurais toujours fame de toi |
*faim |
Peut-etre |
Alors.... vous m'adorez encore? Deja? |
Oui! |
Merci |
,"l'avais besoin de ca |
You are so cute when you French |
Actually, yesterday i was almost entirely french brained. Speaking and everything |
Nice! |
I dont know why |
What did you end up doing? |
I picked up a pair of small speakers at dicker & deal |
Cool cool |
Yep |
I havent been to that one |
Anything else? |
That's all I got. But then found it the amp I intend to use them with has a blown fuse lol |
So what you're saying is that you scored an awesome project too? |
Basically, yeah! |
You thinking you'll come over wednesday, probably? |
It's all good. I hope it's nothing more than a fuse though |
Sure! |
Hump day!!! |
You can be here literally all day if you want |
Porque no los dos? |
Si, los dos es asi asi - noto < |
I'm thinking I will treat the day as if I was in office all day. There's so much work to do! |
That was kind of my offer lol |
Yay! |
What would you do if RLH initiated some intimacy? |
It's so far fetched |
You dont foresee yourself initiating again? |
OMG |
Meanwhile, you ok? |
Yep. Fell asleep on the couch |
I don't know if I would or could initiate intimacy with her now. She stopped acting like a friend some time ago. Doing better now but I know she's only one wrong word away from an emotional firestorm |
I dont know what that means or who/what that would endanger |
I don't like feeling like I have to be a certain person around her just to maintain civility in the house. It's not right |
I agree |
Did you ever figure out the major thing i did illegally when i totalled that car? |
No I didn't! Dang it |
Start guessing again lol |
Noooooo |
You had a fake ID |
Getting closer! |
You had your friends fake ID |
So much more obvious than you're thinking |
You hid a fake ID in your butt |
Sigh |
You were drinking an alcoholic cider |
Didnt drink at all in this country til 00:00 on may 25 2007 |
And when was the car incident again? |
I was 18, nayhe 19 |
Humph |
You peed on the car |
You're really not good at this |
Truth |
May I have a clue? |
What's a very basic bit of info about me that everyone learns early after meeting me? For the most part, at least |
Transplants |
Yes. And what else? |
One eye |
Yes! |
Keep on that track |
What facts fo we have so far? |
You totaled a car |
And you have vision only in one eye |
You were not supposed to be driving in the first place |
I don't remember when you said you lost your vision |
You are so, so close right niw |
I wish |
You drove the car |
I haven't had depth perception since i was 13 is part of the vision question |
You had 15 Guatemalans in the back seat, all of whom were here illegally |
You knocked down a light pole |
Nope |
I really don't know what you want me to guess here |
I've never had a license |
I thought we established the licence thing early on! |
Established what about it? |
That you have never been legal to drive |
Lick you |
Mmmk |
Totalled a car - driving alone- without ever having a license |
Lol I guess so |
Was the accident a direct result of lack of proper vision? |
No |
Whose car was it? |
My grandpa's. No one cared that i drove it and i was just going to work so that wasntia problem, really |
It was his and not being used then |
Aww geez |
He was still alive, if that's a concern |
So how did you avoid law enforcement action? |
That's still a really good question. Honesty, i guess? And i was nice? |
Apart from speeding tickets, I've had two run-ins with the law I think |
What was it? |
Of speeding tickets I have had 4 I think |
The other 2 run ins? |
Ive kind of had some but not for me |
The first time, my chums and I figured out how to get on the roof of the University Mall in EL. We were throwing snowballs at jocks in the street. Everybody was having a good time, but we were hauled into the station and warned about trespassing |
Nothing really came of it |
Fun! |
With much of the same crew, I was driving around town and they were spray painting a stencil that said "US out of Nicaragua". Got busted for that, fined, restitution, and a couple trips to court. Oops. |
Giant smile from me |
Lol |
For real |
Well I'm fading out here sweetie |
Ot was a sleepy day for you |
It really was |
Heading to bed? |
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Same. |
❤️ to “ Same. |
Sweet dreams |
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2024-10-28T04:19:20 |
Good morning babe! |
2024-10-28T05:23:45 |
Hey babe |
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Hella cute, amiright? |
🥰 |
Hella cute yeah! |
Hahaha |
How are you? |
Doing great! |
Not really wanting to get ready for work but I guess that'll be ok |
How are you? Did you sleep well? |
Kinda same but a little unwell |
This is my laptop space... |
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Featuring Helpful Helperton! |
I'm going in bc RLH has an "organizer" coming over for a few hours and I don't want to be around for it |
His face is just like.... nah mum. We cuddle instead, no work |
I professionally organized for a time |
You could retire from the income in my house |
I also have lunch with Patrick today, so I don't have to be in the office all day |
Nice |
What are some of your fave greater lansing eateries? |
We were talking about going to Fleetwood. That is one of my faves. |
Others include Aladdin's |
...? |
Jerusalem Bakery, |
Such as? |
I have local adventure ideas if you're ever interested |
Hard to even remember names lol |
Sorry that's Capitol BBQ |
Kelly's has a nice grilled cheese too |
How abour Horrock's (esp the soup bar and the olive bar... sold in to go things and amazing choices plus just cool food and they have gelato and tons of cheese and lots of cool alcohol and a legit bar!), Ozzies (ozzys?) in Okemos, woodys over near mt hope rd..... |
Not local but i kmow how to customize the best grilled cheese at Panerai |
Nice! I've never partaken of Horrocks on site offerings. It's always so busy. I have been to Ozzy's a couple times. Panera is funny... I've literally never set foot in one, but I've eaten it a dozen times. Unfortunately had a bad experience with the grilled cheese because they did not leave the bacon out 🤢 |
Well that makes sense about you avoiding panera |
And i HAPPEN to know of good thrift and/or book shopping near all of these ;) |
Haha what good fortune! |
I'm actually not all that picky or tied to restaurants. I can find something to eat in most places, even if it's just junk food. I have no problem with that at all. |
Same! |
Ugh. Can you come find my cord please? |
Nvm |
Under your desk? Why sure. |
It was lol |
Can I plug anything in while I'm down there? |
Yes, please! |
😘 |
❤ |
Fave chips/crisps? |
Probably Ruffles sour cream & cheddar. Better Made any flavor is a fave too |
Sour cream and cheddar is correct! Lol |
S&V would have been okay as a treat option |
Oh yah! |
Onion cheddar is the best answer but alas we arent in The Isles |
I love the variety offered on the right side of the pond |
Yes, the RIGHT side indeed |
Ikr? Funny how that worked out |
Did you ever tell me if you have fond memories of storybook characters? Like Velveteen Rabbit, classic AA Milne, R Scarry, Goodnight Moon, etc? |
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Sadie's fall dining area |
Well isn't that lovely! |
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I made a magnet this morning |
Oh you made this one? That's fun |
Decals + trimming + old business magnet i covered |
Kewl! |
Me too |
A lot of fiction. And I read every astronomy book in my elementary school library. Twice. |
I definitely read Narnia, wrinkle in Time, you know about PT, but I'm drawing a huge blank |
A Wrinkle in Time? All 8? |
There were lots of books in my room |
They're sooooo weird |
The WIT series |
WIT no just the first |
Hitchhikers Guide? |
And a bit of the second |
HTG around 7th grade |
A Wind in the Dood |
*door |
I know that title.. |
Ofc |
I never owned it. Borrowed from my pal |
A Swiftly Tilting Planet |
WITD is WIT #2 |
Htg? Meaning Adams? |
All 5/6? |
Sorry HGTG |
HGttG |
Uh-oh |
42 |
Yep |
Lol |
So long |
Thanks for all the fish! |
Maybe we should dine at The Restaurant at the End of the Universe |
We totally should |
We can share The Salmon of Doubt |
You'll be pescetarian for a night |
Lol! |
Who was the character that wanted to be eaten? |
Soandso from sunnybrook farm? |
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Almost entirely dragons here |
When I was younger, the "What makes it go, what makes it work .." title was a favorite for sure |
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Lol there be dragons |
Ope - fixed the hazard |
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Part of this one is getting better |
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Gotta move the oldest pub in ireland away from Disneyland and put her with her iriah kinfolk |
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Lol I think I have to get over my loathing for Harry Potter |
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You should |
I should be more into The Shire but it's so in deoth i would never lwave that rabbit hole |
Besides, i kinda have these rabbit hole things already |
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Literary literalness |
I like me some books & merch |
Maybe got you some stuff & things along the way |
You still wanna learn how things work and whatever? |
I still do |
Kid books for you then |
Not a bad choice actually |
When I was in 1st grade I often volunteered to read to the class. I loved doing that. |
I could even hold the book open for the class to see the pictures, just like the teacher lol |
Omg same!!! |
I can write upside down too |
I know a lot about a lot because of kid books |
Ok I cannot write upsidedown but your description of the reading aloud is EXACTLY what I would say and do |
Like.... no Tim. I font want your monotony and missaying in my life today. My ears are happy, let's keep them that way |
Dammit Timmy |
True story |
https://recordshowsofamerica.com/category/michigan/ |
Lol small world? |
Why small world? |
You know Timmy? |
Timmy knows you? |
A particular Tim, and yes. Once a nemesis |
All my homies hate Timmy |
Do you even know the person to whom i am referring? Lol |
What's your work today, btw? |
I am dual working - rehabbing books and reviewing claims |
No, i do not work in claims. And have not. |
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My work today is mostly for profit sharing |
No play today :( |
I'm surprised you don't have a cat up in there lol! |
Garage jail |
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You have carpet in the garage? |
No, this is my croffice |
Oh lol! |
Yeah |
Broken shit isnt so great |
Whatcha doin after work? |
Monday chores |
Then ? |
Mhmm mhmm |
Do you know what you'd like for food on wednesday? |
I don't know. Are you dessert? |
I have not been eating much lately tbh |
I have yet to eat in your presence |
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Found a toy! |
Haha nice |
Between pink, chrome & floral, tie die, and blue + dipsy dots, which would you prefer? I have an idea but you know you best |
Tell me more about blue + dipsy dots plz |
Royal/navy background, randomly placed and organically shaped (imperfect) white dots all over |
It is plastic, other choices are mostly metal |
Remind me to describe something absolutely ridiculous |
Ok we're not talking about clothing here |
Nope |
Let's roll with that one then |
Blue? |
Yep |
Cool |
Ps - if you need to focus you have to tell me to shush |
I have a fun fact about my appendix! |
Is it that you still have one? |
Or did someone use "vestigial" in a sentence? |
If you were making progress on a goal, which preposition would you use? Not use? |
Oh - the appendix answer is that we can't figure out if i have one/part of one, or none |
Sorry can you please clarify the preposition question, and perhaps propose a preposition par example? |
Say the progress is 96% happy and goal is 98% |
Preposition indicates direction, literally or in mental perceptjons |
In that choice I would definitely say "making progress toward". It's vanilla, but it's clear what it refers to, where the second option is unclear to me |
That is not what the AF org chose |
I can see that too. I'd have to think about what, if anything, drives a preference for 'against' |
I just realized I read the example wrong lol |
It's grammatical but not the preference of tone for my idiolect or vernacular |
I'm headed to lunch though and will be radio quiet for maybe 90 or so |
Something new and not so great just happened |
Oh mo |
Enjoy!!! |
I'm fine, just couldnt convince my bones to move for a few because my brain and body were on separate wavelengths or something |
Lol go bones! |
2024-10-28T13:47:36 |
I'm baaaaack |
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Pretty! |
Try not to set the place ablaze |
Eyyyyyyy |
I somehow acquired a brain full of stuffs today |
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Kind of a fun hobby of mine l9l |
Post work adventuring this eve? |
Sorry for my crazy energy levels |
I think I just had a sugar crash and I'm coming back out of it actually |
I got really sweaty all of a sudden |
Got myself a kind bar and I'm sort of waiting this out in my car |
The best way i can describe them is that all of a sudden your whole body is weak, focused on finding sugar and not on anything else, yiure sweaty and feel a deep shaking like every cell is now vibrating to alert the others |
I didn't get that far along but I could feel dizziness coming on and my legs were a bit shaky |
Just remembered I have a few ricola in my bag so having one of those now |
Ive been insanely far before and it's awful |
Load yourself with quick sugar to a point (i try to stay around 30 carbs but that's years of practice) |
Perfect I can load some yogurt when I get home |
Whole milk kind lol |
Yep |
Wait until you feel better, then time at least 10 or 15 mins from that point to start to drive |
How are you doing? |
Much better |
Good 👍 |
I was already driving when I saw your advice |
Are you breathing okay? Heart racing anymore? |
Vision? |
All feeling good, perhaps high pulse still just a bit |
Is all your fine motor function vack to baseline? |
Fingers slightly jittery is all |
The racing pulse might linger |
Dang |
I need to watch these lunches |
Did you eat at all today? |
I wont chastise you |
Yes, reg breakfast, then lunch |
Can you tell me what you had? |
Bran flakes and milk |
I really thought about being a dietician. I have more than enough knowledge |
What was lunch? |
Tempeh burger with side order fries |
The burger was on a white bread bun--something I don't usually eat |
And I don't usually eat French fries at lunch |
But I know from before this is about half again as much as I really need to eat at a time, if not 2x |
I felt the carbs starting to swing in me within about an hour |
I have an inkling why you went hypo, or at least had the symptoms |
Side note: are you staying in now? |
No wromg answer |
Just me and my anxiety asking |
Am I staying in tonight? Yeah |
Not sure what you meant though |
I'm interested in your theory |
That's what i meant |
Theory (because it happens to me a lot): too many carbs at once without enough of a satiety nutrient to accompany them. Your pancreas dumps out a bunch of insulin to unlock your cells so they can receive the sugar as a nutrient but your pancreas doesnt get the "stop sending insulin" message until after you've been done consuming the carbs for a while. The extra insulin makes your glucose drop more and your liver is balancing with tiny amounts of glucagok to keep your levels steady but the macros are way off from your norm so your body sends alarms (shaking, sweating, etc) to let you know you need external input to help itself regulate because your body knows something is "off" and your survival brain can find a way to fix itself faster than relevelling between hormones, so it makes you food focused and all that |
Oh I also had more caffeine than usual today, about 2x |
Very interesting! |
TLDR: too much sugar, spiked glucose, adrenaline dump from extra caffeine, unsustainable energy levels, insluon compensates, you fix it |
It happens to me probably once a week |
I can always test you if you feel like it |
Could possibly use your help.... and i still have talkpics lol |
Ty Dr Becca! |
Tempeh is good protein, but I don't think overall that lunch is what I should be eating |
And it was a lot more carb load than I would feed myself at home |
Ideal macro is supposedly 40-30-30, carb-protein-fats |
I have a differebt but similar theory |
I dont eat pizza, not really (variety of reasons) |
Anyway |
:) |
Thank you |
You ok? |
Yeah, ish |
That kinda knocked the wind out of my sails |
Did i do something? |
Please expound |
No no, not you |
That spell I took has left me listless and a little depressed |
I just want to go to bed |
Oh. Yes. |
I will. It will be an early night |
It isn't just recovering from needing sugar, it was pumped with survival instinct that used stores of hormones and energy that was saved and is now depleted |
You could have been being chased by a wolf for all your hippocampus knows, all that brain spot knows is that there was a threat and now you are safer so it's okay to rest and regain what was spent |
Well I'm glad you are feeling perky at least |
I will explain this in relation to me at some point. Now isn't an appropriate time |
What else is going on with you now, or do you need some space? |
(Some quiet) |
If it won't be a hair hazard (falling out of your mouth onto a pillow and into your curls), chew some gum. Or ice. Trust me on this |
Ok I can do that |
Sour gummies or spicy, crunchy things work work too |
If I'm being terse its only because I feel about 30% functional rn |
You are ok |
All you have to say is quiet and I'll know not to expect more chat from you today |
Dealing with spouse , one moment |
Ok all set once again |
What's going on? |
Oh she ordered food via door dash and expected me to be waiting by the door. I was elsewhere |
Im sorry |
What else is going on? |
Not much |
You're not a burden, you know |
Thanks because I feel like one right now |
I am well aware, lol |
Please tell me more? |
Really? |
Yes |
Is it so obvious |
Well I don't know what to do with myself, and bedtime is my go-to response for that |
Which works because the sugar coaster left me feeling drained |
And here you are being nice and I'm a mood because hormones or whatever lol |
Wild 😄 |
I know |
I decided not to press a point on RLH that I was not and was not interested in waiting for the delivery. Instead I say on the toilet for 5 minutes just starting at the floor |
Icky depression feelings |
But better than a fight, especially now |
So I'm processing that off as well |
I feel very vulnerable like this |
But I know I will feel better in the morning |
What feels vulnerable? |
My soul lol |
My heart |
How does it feel vulnerable? |
As in, what fears do you have about what might happen in this state of vulnerability |
That I will lose my temper and snap back if I'm provoked |
Okay, then what would happen in the worst case scenario |
I really lose my temper, cause a fight, and one of us leaves the house. Or both. |
Good night then? |
You don't have to go |
I want whatever is best for YOU |
But if you need to it's ok |
What would be negative about losing your temper |
It's extremely unpleasant for me, physically, because of the adrenaline |
Which in turn screws up my emotions |
It's difficult to recover from that |
It's not worth it |
Not today anyway |
Oh, and serious, yes you are nice otherwise |
If you were here I'd ask for a hug |
And probably cry this off |
Tomorrow, whenever youd like |
I know I will feel better tomorrow, but I'm happy to get the hug anyway! |
Believe it or not I'm getting a bit fadey already |
So xoxox for you! |
And I hope you have a good night |
❤ |
Very sorry to ask, but... do you realize you're not saying it? |
I love you babe! |
I love you too |
❣️ |
It that what you meant? |
Indeed |
😊 |
Ok |
I love you deeply |
Me too |
Beaux reves (de moi)! |
🥰 |
2024-10-28T23:49:31 |
❤ |
2024-10-29T01:05:19 |
Okayokayokay sorry that I'm really unhinged as i type this but I'm a little bit super rx hiandisj and omg i want you and i want you to be here and i want to try all the things. And I regret to inform you that you've transformed me into some kind of greedy little monster of a slut because all i ever want to do now is have loads and loads of sex and snogging because i know what's waiting and why do people ever get out of bed if they can have orgasms? |
My mind is obviously racing in an attempt to live out its current realistic fantasties with you in a shorter duration of waiting than possible and holllllly fuck am i sending requests up and down to every force and deity in this and any other universe that you'll still have me and take me and not be thwarted by how much love i have in me for you and how much more of you i want to take in |
Just please stay with me when i cant figure out what to do with all the radiance emanating in the heights of high from the seratonin, the dopamine, the oxytocin, the you and the me and the love and the weed and whatever else. You arent even here and I'm still yet clambering for how to make it through this fleeting instant without needing an inflict of pain to ground me back down from this floating cirrus circus space |
Fuck |
I'm ready to feel nothing and to feel it all with you and for you |
Alors, je t'aime |
This will be weird and i dont know how well I'll handle it but i think i feel i trust all of you |
You need to absolutely take every reign for this magic carpet ride, genie |
Once this swirl storm of temptress tempest builds to an eye, i wont know what to do |
Desole, mon cher petit chou. I am safe just lost in a forest of bewilderment and searching for my companion to bring me back |
I dont have a way to know if you feel these thoughts of think the emotions - both of which are intended as their opposition but so are the mixes of life and love and hurt and heart and heal and pain and pleasure left here with panic and pleasing and pining |
2024-10-29T05:49:52 |
Et bon matin, monsieur |
My dear! My dear darling good morning! |
How are you? |
I feel well, rested! |
I'm okay thanks |
Perhaps a touch less crazy |
You write with fierce passion my love |
Possibly |
I want you to have everything you desire |
And apologies for typos, as always |
Do i detect hesitation at anything? |
I hope not! |
There is no hesitation |
Okay :] |
Any further commemtary? |
I'm awestruck really. |
I love knowing this is how you want me. |
I wantbyou a thiusand other ways and more too |
I want you to have all the things |
Have you ever had rough sex? |
Intense, but not rough |
Can you tell me all about it? Play by play, even |
Honestly no, not accurately, it was long ago. |
But it lasted a long time. *I* lasted a long time. Many positions. Much sweating. |
Pretty sure it was after a night out drinking |
Thanks |
Anything in particular stand out from my manicifesto? |
It can be negative too |
What stands out with the sheer passion is how freely you express yourself. You don't seem to be holding back/reserving some part of your desire or story. |
It's very hot! |
Okay, thanks 👍 |
You seem to describe yourself as "crazy" when you wrote that. Can you tell me more? Why is it crazy? Or Why were you crazy? |
I dont think normal people think or feel that way |
Well I think normal people can be dull |
You mentioned Rx. What was/were they? |
One hydrocodone, one oxycodone, two methocarbonal |
I was in really intense pain |
Which makes me think i wasnt actually high, but that's close to how normal people deel evwry day at a functional level and i just dont get fown to the zero pain baseline anymore |
Does what i just said make sense? |
Sure does |
Thanks |
I think i told you once that i should be a whole lot smarter |
Perhaps you already are ;) |
What is your typical, day to day pain level, sans opiates? |
And you must know I'm not judging for using them |
I know |
Is that what you're asking? |
Yes, precisely |
Thank you |
I take narcotics once a week maybe. Sometimes less. Rarely more |
Thank you. It helps me to understand your pain to know these things. |
Are you at work already? |
I wish I had not slept in quite so much lol |
I am wfh today since i am in office on Thursday this week |
Oh cool! |
I dont take the drugs not because of any fear of addiction or because i hurt less but because they just don't work unless i take a massive amouht abd i would much rather be a contriburing and productive human |
I use a lot of otc lidocaine patches and almost always have a heating pad/pack and instant ice packs with me. And i have weird needs to just stretch RIGHT NOW or use a roller or rennis ball against the wall or floor to address a specific area |
When i am overly pained and nothing is helping it's really evident in my mood, speech, body language, and attitude. And pleasantness |
All makes sense. Thank you. |
A little |
Ok (: |
Did you know I'm usually shaky and sometimes stiff because of that and pain, esp in the office setting? |
Awkward question |
I think you mentioned something similar to this. It's not very noticeable, but I totally get it |
Why do you think that's an awkward question? |
It's not - i meant that i have one to ask |
Ok, fire away |
If i beg, barter, and plead, would you rub the life out of a spot or 2 that i cant reach? I might cry but the hurt would be so, so good |
All you need to do is ask :) |
Okay 😀 |
This is me asking |
Will do! You just need to guide me there |
Put your hands on me and I'll be happy to |
I can't wait! |
But I will be gentle until you tell me not to be |
Not gentle. Hard. |
Need to get to the right spot first, but yeah |
It's very possibleni will cry |
Thx for the warning |
What time do you want me tomorrow? |
Well, first i was going to ask if you wanted to do anything this eve. No prob if you cant |
This evening is a possibility. Let's entertain that today! |
Okay cool! |
Yay! |
Do you feel like i use you in any negative capacity? |
Certainly not |
Okay :) |
Did you ever fix RLHs licensure? Just wondering how it went |
null |
Puployee of the year! |
Her DL? No, she did it. It was fine. But took her a bit |
Shit I have to do mine |
I can do it for you |
Did you vote yet? |
I did! And I confirmed it was re received but the clerk |
I was gonna look up yours too lol |
Because I'm nosey like that |
Mine is on my kirchen passthru lol |
Better get that ballot in Missy! The courts are to trying to fuck around with early and remote voting. |
I planned on taking it to the ELPL |
Good 😊 |
Omggggggggg |
2024-10-29T11:27:56 |
Wassup? |
What are your actual plans after work today? Assume i can do mostly what i want |
Honest answer is I have none |
I am going shopping (surprise) |
Well I'm stuck here until at least 1630 fwiw |
I should probably stick around here. Gotta get up early tomorrow:) |
Oh? Whatever could you be doing?? |
Workin that thang you know |
Jesus fuck that's exciting, eapecially now in my state of mind |
And are wr prepared to elevate my inebriation experience or not so much? |
Oh yeah! Thanks for reminding me. I gotta get that in my to go bag |
I feel so dumb not evwn knowing how to smoke |
😉 |
Is it going to hurt a ton? |
Not as long as we go easy with it. Will not hurt a bit. |
Though i still like the idea of you heting me in a good way |
I take it you said hitting and not hating |
Or heating? |
Hurting |
I think i know why |
If that helps at all |
I'd be interested to know |
I say oh my goddddd i want you now |
I'll ask if you like it |
When Daddy spanks you |
I think i like the idea of you hurting me for a few reasons |
I also like the idea of me making the decision and controlling if i have directed pain or not, and i have trust in you that's necessary for me to believe I would be in charge of what i feel and when and how intense. I've never had that kind of control at all |
If I can make that pleasurable for you without feeling gross, I will do it. I think I know where my line is, but I've never actually been there |
You are indeed in control. |
I also know that SAed people can force their bodies to engage in sexual activity even when they're petrified and unattracted. It's natural defense so there isnt more damage |
The control i seek is for me to trust you enough that i dont think about anything and you have ultimate power over me while i trust you entirely to make the best choices. It's surprises and excitement without actual fear lurking anywhere |
I actually believe I understand that, even though I have not experienced it |
I think I've made myself clear though. As long as it's fun for both of us, I'm down. You can always yell stop or safe word or whatever and I will respect that |
I understand |
I am Sure it is. All we can do is trust each other here |
This might razzle your brain and I'm sorry: i do not understand that someone does not have a R fantasy |
I hope this didn't flip a switch that I'm too weird now |
No, you're every bit as weird as I thought you were and I absolutely love you for it still. 😘 |
❤ |
When you met me, did i give off "totally fucked by lifetimes of intense trauma" vibes? |
Not right away |
Tell me more |
What did i give off right away |
Spouting facts across all fields of knowledge. Clearly a lot going on in your mind. Needing to tell stories and I was not sure why at first. |
I still dont know why |
They honestly just fell out of my brain through me mouth on out to you |
Spouse doesn't even know everything you so |
*do |
That makes two of us doesn't it lol |
I developed an interpretation the following week |
Oh? |
You liked me and were testing me |
To see if I would run away or stay |
That does happen |
But it isnt an intentional test |
Im just desperate to talk |
Well I thought I wrote something down about this but I guess I didn't |
And you knew what i thought about it going anywhere, when? |
I'm not exactly sure. Probably sooner than me |
Lol. That's a thousand percent true |
Lol she says. Day 2, my guess |
Yeah kinda |
😊 |
So, what's up? |
I just about fell asleep at my desk lol |
I Need some tea! |
The verbal or potable kind? |
I've heard of herbal tea, but verbal tea? |
(Gossip) |
null |
Mmhmmmm |
Go find the drink drawer in my office |
You'll want the tea box labelled TEA |
Do you have tons of spray paint laying around? You kinda seem like the type |
https://bad-world.co.uk/products/the1975?fbclid=IwY2xjawGOA2ZleHRuA2FlbQIxMQABHX2ktTqLBEP0UpozL7l-ckzm_eqNdKgnShSkETlVPkbSI8mvyJW0chaTbQ_aem_jPWFvK9wfqdTpTDSUs8WOQ |
Coolest vinyl ever |
That is sweet! |
My guys ❤️ |
Aww! |
Massive help.desk headache. Well that was fun |
Oh ya |
Dude, your infidelity is dangerously close to showing in Teams |
You want some good news? |
Aaaaaaaand is the house organized now? |
Wanna give me all sorts of sweetness on my diaversary weekend when im here all alone? |
Possibly Wednesday night or thirsday morning theu that sunday? |
All alone on weekend? Hunting widow? |
Yep |
What a shame |
Might have bad-ish news on something else |
On phone now finding out |
Oh boy |
Yeah :( |
Well now I'll just sit here crying |
Plans changed? |
More complicated than you'd be able to just think up. Total plot twist. |
Still good for tomorrow |
It's on my calendar |
Next week..... possible change of plans but not canceling unless you want |
None of this involves L |
Just figuring out of and how i want to tell you |
You're not in any danger of anything |
Ok thx |
Yes. Dont panic :) |
It just sucks |
I would like some crying cuddles but they are unattainable for now |
:( |
What did he ruin for you? |
This has absolutely zero to do with him |
Oh |
Mom made plans for you? |
No. Just me and my medically failed corpus. |
I'll tell you, i would just rather it not be a thing |
I feel really vulnerable and embarassed and exposed and apprehensive of unknowns and i dont like this. And i dont want you seeing or treating me differently |
Damn. Im so sad now. And it was a good day :/ |
I don't think you can tell me anything that will make me see or feel about you or treat you differently. But I won't force you either. If you want to tell me, I will listen |
Kinda got not a great test result so now i have to have another biopsy and it sucks |
Bummer :( |
Yeah |
It's not like i can even talk about it or ask for support. And i hate the feeling of loneliness |
And the procedure sounda barbaric and totally awful |
Hey i love you |
Hey I love you! |
And I'm super sorry to hear of this upsetting news |
You can talk to me about it :) |
Do you think you know anything yet? |
Other than my unintentional intentional vagueness |
Did you mention a cyst a few weeks ago? |
Last week actually |
On a kidney? |
Or ovary |
Actually each |
Crickey |
This is separate |
Oh, a new something |
Kind of |
Something I've been avoiding |
Ah |
Is this a new dx for you then? |
Yes |
A new page of the ICD10 manual for you to put your name on |
You really drew the short straws there |
Do you want to know more? |
I do |
Always I do |
Abnormal non hpv pap tests for a few of the last years, this year it came back with light indications of hpv with markera 16 and 18 |
I would love if you could say something even if you hate me |
I will |
I do not hate you by any stretch of the imagination |
I'm not unfamiliar with HPV, but it's been a long time so I will get up to speed again |
Working in medical lab you get to know some things anyway |
You are still as precious to me as ever |
I care a lot and love you no less |
Sorry you have to deal with all this |
How do you feel about it? |
I dont know what I'm supposed to think or feel or do |
I honestly just want to crawl in bed and die now |
I don't feel anything yet... Not that I don't care though |
I dont know what that means |
Are you upset with me? |
No! Where are you coming up with these ideas. |
I don't know |
I don't think anything different |
Than I did yesterday |
I want to see you |
And more |
Are you sure? |
It's okay to not want me that way anymore |
Quit it Missy lol |
I know you're not laughing, and I'm not either really. But do calm down |
You're fine |
I want you all the same as before |
I am very deflated feeling |
I know you are |
null |
This is how I feel about it |
I just don't know what to think or do |
I'm sorry babe |
Let me know what I can do for you |
I will not say so |
I am befuddled at you though |
I just brushed up on HPV. I am not giving you up. Nope |
Any more thoughts and feelings? I feel like you're withholding |
I am not, not at all |
Seriously though, I feel bad for you. I do not have personal issues with this |
Okay |
Maybe you just have to wait until I kiss you on the mouth |
I'll believe..... after |
Ok :) |
And you're still getting a hug too |
FYI dont panic! If I do not respond promptly for a while |
Okay |
❤ |
So..... ALL your plans and intentions for tomorrow would be the same? |
And are the same rn |
So my new dx doesnt deter you? |
No. It does not. |
Did I ever tell you what I used to do for delivery people? |
Probably what i do lol |
The first summer of COVID I started putting out snacks |
Soda, water, crackers, candy, potato chips, etc |
For anyone bringing something |
It was fun. The mailman praised us, and we were thanked by the FedEx and Amazon drivers, many of whom we saw weekly or nearly so |
I kept it up pretty well most of the time |
I had to end the festivities last spring because the fun was gone |
Our mailman of many years took a different route, and the drivers we see are random |
And the kids and wife were consuming most of the stock |
But it was a fun 4 years |
There was a guy from Amazon bone time he said "oh yeah everyone at the yard knows 519" |
That's exactly what i do lol |
Hahahaha! |
That's nuts! |
Idk if you're the bad twin or the good one |
I don't know anymore |
So how are you doing |
Yo |
null |
Heyyyyy |
What's up? |
null |
How are you babes? |
I'm doing well |
I am better |
Did you have dinner? |
Not yet |
Me either |
Any idea what you'll have? |
Actually no |
I don't think about food much lately |
I like my simple yogurt, blueberries, pumpkin seeds |
And bran flakes, but I'm basically out of milk |
Why dont you think about food? |
I don't know |
This has been a couple months |
Maybe 4 |
I mean I do think of it from time to time, I just don't eat as much |
As soon used to |
Vis: yesterday's glucose episode following a thing I haven't eaten in basically 4 years |
Anyhoo |
Idk? |
Is it a med side effect? |
I don't think so. I have not changed meds in well over a year |
Depression honestly |
Like don't care |
I get that |
I will rescue myself with a bowl of cereal (the last one available) or yogurt last minute |
Probably |
Do you have food chez vous? |
What would you like in the morningM |
Yes we have food. Just nothing I want to deal with lol |
Ah, so you have ingredients |
I will have yogurt almost certainly! Which doesn't bother me a bit |
Right |
We have pasta and sauces |
Veggies in freezer |
Eyc |
?? Lol etc |
You should keep ready foods |
Also tortilla and cheese .. which is a viable option |
So there's leftover chinese in fridge from last night. I don't want to deal |
And Amy's frozen thingies too |
It is ok really |
I have options |
What are you thinking for yourself? |
I don't know |
What's on your ready, or nearly ready inventory? |
There's a decent amount but i kind of feel like cooking |
Might end up with some fruit and a birdseye pack though |
I have a ton to do |
Wow! |
My mouth feels allergic but i havent had anything. Weird |
I am having a pickle |
You got pokey mouth? |
That's my favorite food |
Allergy mouth is sometimes like pokey and numb for me. Doesn't happen often |
Mine i would describe as sandpaper rubbing against wet carpet |
That is my "oh, im allergic to something I've eaten" mouth |
I have new news |
Please tell me |
I'll be alone all this weekend |
Ohhhhh |
Is it so |
And what would you prefer to be this weekend? |
Hmm, good question |
Hmm |
I also had some of those little green olives with pimentos |
How confident are you in this statement you made? |
Almost 100% |
He told me he is going |
So he'll be leaving Friday morning most likely |
🤭 |
What would you like to do? I actually do have some ideas |
Please share! |
Idk what is feasible fyi |
But would be good too think about now |
Sry too/to |
I obv like shopping. Lansing area and surrounding |
Ok no worries babe |
It's only Tuesday |
These are separate streams of consciousness |
Aha |
I'm convinced it's cancer |
Have you been previously dx HPV? |
No. Abnormal non hpv pap test for a few years and i avoided the colposcopy |
Now i get to have that done next wrek |
Right |
I would rather die |
Oh babe! |
Did you happen to read up on that procedure? |
I did not |
I read about HPV dx and prognosis |
That was the lesser of my anxieties between these |
I see |
How can you be convinced in this way? |
Because of my non hpv but still abnormal results from the last 3+ years that i was supposed to get the colp for and didnt. Kind of familial history but kinda not. Other symptoms. |
Sigh |
?? |
When it it possible to know something concretely? |
I'm so sorry |
I know this is horrible for you |
Youre the only one ive told |
Colp is next friday. Results are supposed to be 3 to 5 days after that |
I'm basically apathetic |
Ok |
I dont think apathy is an appropriate response |
Babes I'm sorry |
Or ambivalence |
Not really numbness |
And i wish life would just give me a break. A small one. Any time |
And it sucks that i cant tell anyone |
I wish it so too |
I'm sorry |
Thank you but i dont know why |
I would change it if I could |
This is just what was always going to be |
And I will if I can |
It makes me sad to see you get so put down |
I dont know how to explain that it's probably my fault soni deserve it but that it might also not be. I have no way of knowing so i just stay straight faced |
That's the truth |
The latter |
You're used to taking the blame |
But i also had to have acquired it from someone |
And if i wasnt such a whore this might not be happening |
I really wish I could hug you now |
I dont know that i could hug back |
I'm pretty deep in the self hating pool right now, that's why |
I know |
I really feel like i have just been a waste of time and space and energy for the last 38 years. Like it was all some sick joke and for nothing |
I don't know how much time I have in case RLH comes up here. If you need space tomorrow, just let me know any time. I would like to see you fwiw. |
I was set into the world as a punching bag and a garbage dumpster for the universe to have fun with, abuse, and cast aside when i no longer serve any purpose |
I would really like to see you actually |
Ok Cool |
My head has this banner of |
Nothing has ended |
I think it has |
I wish I knew how to respond |
They're better than what the alternatives were ao thank you |
Ok. Yay? |
Idk. Yay is good. |
I don't think so |
That i played stupid games and won stupid prizes and being permanently tainted and dirty forever is because i decided to be a giant cheating whore so it's justified by the universe |
And so I'm also sitting here on the couch now, i need pm pills and bed and some food and I'm freezing but wont even let myself get a blanket |
Babe I know you're angry |
Im actually not angry |
I dont know what i feel yet, but that isn't it |
Alright |
I can tell im hurting you |
I just wish I could actually support you some how |
I'm also fading out |
I love you babe |
I love you too |
I'll talk to you in thr morning? |
I will come see you |
Either way, I will talk to you in the morning |
I desperately want to see you and spend time with you |
Let's talk about it tomorrow ok |
I want it too |
I wish i knew what that meant |
Every thing we planned on |
What about it? |
That's what I want |
Still? |
Yes |
Okay |
Okay |
Love you babe |
Love you too |
2024-10-30T06:17:37 |
Good morning :) |
Good morning love! |
How are you doing this morning? |
Im ok thanks. Little frustrated with L but whatever |
I'm doing alright. |
Still waking up |
Had an icky dream right up until I woke up, which always leaves me kinda dazed |
What happened? |
Maybe I'll tell you later? Too many details for text |
Okay |
How is L bugging you? |
He has yet to wake |
Why bother? |
Why bother with what? |
His schedule |
Why bother waking him up, you mean? |
Lol yeah |
Because he needs to go to work and keep his job |
Fair. Im sorry |
I'll physically go wake him up after i take my temp and normal wake up stuff, then need a shower, then depends on what you want to do |
I'd like to see you if you'll have me |
Yes |
Talk about what's on your mind |
And if you were being purely selfish, what would you want? |
One sec, spouse |
Am back |
O hai! |
😊 |
I would like to engage in those activities as well. And possibly assemble shelves or tidy this house or resale adventure. Maybe cook |
Ok I'm going to take a shower :) |
Same |
Ok |
Just hopped out of the shower |
Getting dressed and putting on mascara now |
😘 |
So I'd say 15ish is fair |
Just lmk when you're here |
Fair warning i am not as ready as usual |
No worries |
Hello I'm here |
Down in a sec |
2024-10-30T17:23:10 |
Heya |
Well hi there! |
How are you? |
I am doing great |
Im okay thanks |
Go wash your face |
I was thinking the same thing. How did an entire work day go by so fast? |
I did wash my face in your sink :) |
Mmmmmk |
Im still not gross to you? |
You are absolutely not gross to me |
I even put you in my mouth |
I tried to chew you but restrained myself |
Am i correct that i like when you suck on me? |
You are correct. Especially on your neck and near your clit |
I knew about my neck lol |
You really enjoyed that |
My neck? Yes |
Heck you enjoyed that so much you turned me on! |
I became aware of that lol |
Was not my intention |
I was selfish and wanted my neck kissed |
🥰 |
Eat yet? |
Just snacked on some peanuts until I can figure out for real what's good. |
I am at a loss for what to eat here |
Oh! Your venmo or cashapp or paypal or....?? |
Ok I just set up venmo. Smartin108@gmail.com |
You didn't have to set it up just for me if you did, but thank you |
Nbd I had an account already, just needed to get the app set up |
And thank you! |
By the way |
When you tell me you want me inside you |
It insanely hot |
And I liked it when you called me Daddy |
What about when i tell you i had to shuffle my feet sometimes today because i felt you drip out? |
😋 |
Iirc you said you like this? |
Yes! |
Well, in most cases |
Def in this one |
I find that very hot indeed |
What can you tell me about it? |
Sorry, got delayed |
What would you like to know? |
Tell me why you like cum dripping out of you. Plz 🥰 |
It reminds me i helped get you off, that you enjoyed me, and in general I'm back to being relaxed. You were dripping out at a remarkable speed..... not too quick (which would mean my body disnt want you in all the way in the first place) and not too slow (if i wasnt relaxing back to a good place) |
That is so amazing ty |
What else? |
Does it ever soak your panties? |
Fwiw I don't think I gave you a big volume today :( |
I can do better |
Yes |
Yay! |
Ty |
No, thank you |
Accurate that it's evident i like you cumming in me? |
I. Love. It. |
And I got your signal loud and clear |
Not a single thing about it was concious |
Can you say more? |
Sure |
I just let myself react today |
I didnt play anything up or down |
And whatever sounds and moves i made, i didnt think about doing them |
You make the most adorable sounds |
I don't think I've told you that yet? |
Nope |
Word. Every time you are in what I think is a happy place |
It makes me want you more |
😊 |
It's magical |
So are you |
Do I understand correctly, there are periods where you have conscious memory lapses? |
Or was that more a today thing? |
What do you mean a today thing? |
Specifics, if you can |
Sorry I'm not asking questions well |
Um, my paranoia is showing lol |
Sorry babe--its the weed |
You weeded? |
Yes |
And I'm not really paranoid |
Can you please drug me this weekend? |
Just overwording because brain |
I would be overjoyed to drug you |
Do you think i am non remembering or mis remembering something from today? |
No |
I'm trying to deeper 💤 understand "nonconscious" -- I think that's what you said? |
Oh, for that i meant i didnt tryyy to do any of those things |
But also yes to the other |
I have gaps in my memory a lot. More than i should |
So i cant even tell you how thrilled and amazed i am that you keep talking things over and explaining them and reminding with me |
Ok ty babe 😘😘😘 |
What else? Or do you need quiet? |
I don't know what else, but I'm not quiet lol |
:D |
They are very nice! |
Yay! |
I do see things no one else sees lol |
Also, your arms are hot as fuckkkkkk |
My arms?!! Lok |
Lol |
Arms are my thing |
Wowser!! |
Like guys are boob men or ass men |
Dang I've never heard of that |
About guys? |
Yeah |
Arms?! |
Some guys are leg men |
It's arms for me |
Golly |
They're lean and muscular for starters |
They hold you above me for obvious purposes |
They protect and embrace |
They can wnd me or elevate me |
*end or elevate |
Haha! I do kinda like them. They're infinitely scarred from mosquito bites as a kid . .. I always picked the scabs 😬 |
Thank you for explaining! |
You're welcome |
Thank you for using them for the ultimate good lol |
Did i still take too long again? |
No, you're perfect |
Are you sure? |
Girl I love licking you |
Haha, thanks |
But i dont get it |
Too bad 🙃 |
Doesn't it hurt your jaw or your mouth? |
Jaw/tongue gets tired after a time, yes |
But we loves it |
How do you know what i like best? If i was silent |
Lol |
This makes twice |
You said you were silent |
But you were not at all silent |
Sorry 🙇♀️ |
But in an AU in which i am...? |
You were saying "yes" and "please" a lot |
And other encouraging words |
And chirping sometimes |
It was quite lovely |
And when I find the place you like |
Actually places, for there are two |
You double down your gyrating |
So |
I had no idea i did that |
You're quite involved |
It's fab |
I am the best of the pillow princesses |
😘😘😘 |
Where do you think those 2 prime places are? |
One is inside, one outside |
The inside one is a bit more than 2/3 of my finger deep |
And anterior |
From inside you |
Questions on that one? |
Kind of |
Mostly I'm floored and impressed |
I think there's a sympathetic connection as well, in that the other parts of my hand make contact easily at that depth as well. 🥰 |
So much fun! For me |
Really? Why? |
I like your pussy |
Lol but you like the parts that arent the most fun for you |
Well I'm not sure how you're going to document that one babe |
Do you have handgasms i am yet unfamiliar with? |
No silly |
Lol |
Ok but really - what else do you notice while youre 2/3 in on one finger? |
Well on the outside |
Roughly opposite the finger within |
Which is to say, anterior some more, to the skin on your fupa |
Dont love that term, fwiw |
Got it |
Or you can re-name the abbrev |
Actually a little lower, closer to your clit hood |
Do you have a preferred name?:tbh I only use that because Reddit does. I've never been with people actually talking about such things |
I'm in the same boat as you there |
At least whatever version I read yea |
I dislike the "fat" portion |
Noted! |
I could also say Fun |
Didnt know that was a meme |
I was thinking lupa |
I'm probably misremembering anyway lol |
Ok to continue? |
Def |
Yum! |
And this is where my face gets messy, because you want my tongue |
Haha |
And I want you to have it |
But whennnnnnn have i said that? Hmm? |
You didn't |
Your positive feedback tells me this |
And you actually do say |
Yes you do |
Hahaha |
And I am happy |
And keep going |
Thank you |
If I had more mouths they would all be on you |
All at once |
Neck & pussy..... christ that would be too much |
I did that exactly for a spell |
Because you're fun sized! |
Lol yes |
I don't remember this |
Must have been ultra intense |
You made fun noises! |
Oh - i kind of remember wondering where a noise came from at some points |
More words please |
Making snack one moment:) |
Almost done |
I had to pee as well |
Lol |
Heh |
I still feel changes inside you, before you come |
Not as obvious today |
Did you even (come) properly? |
What changes? |
Did you come? |
I came as much as i wanted... for today it was perfect |
But it was me controlling it |
It is ok to respond "no, i did not come" if it is so, FYI |
That's good to know. Thank you |
So at that, my answer is still yes. Today was more of a steppe-plateau vs mountain peak. I can tell you how you would have noticed |
Please tell! |
I hold my breath and get super stiff/rigid and stay that way til i cant resist breaking it |
Yess |
And then you vibrate |
It's so cute |
But is it distressing |
Can you say more on that? |
I also get really cold |
And my mind goes completely blank for a while |
Oh! |
And all my hearing is muffled |
And my eyes want to sink into my head |
I have a theory on that one |
Oh shit I'm sorry. I could take quicker and more appropriate action |
On what? No? Whatever you did was fantastic mostly. I have notes but you were saying..... (keep talking) |
As in.... please tell me more about everything that made you distressed |
2024-10-31T07:33:40 |
Good morning ! |
Hey |
Sorry I fell asleep, and woke up late |
No worries |
I also woke up late |
How are you? |
I'm good! A little dazed yet, but feeling happy. Need coffee |
Sounds wonderful |
How are you doing? |
I feel like garbage but I'm ok thanks |
Cool cool. about to cry at work |
Oh I'm sorry! |
It is what it is |
I've never heard why bcr1 exists |
...still? |
So is bcr1 all about support for Diamond policies? |
Yes |
Dear god |
Which, i may add, no one even noticed that zero collections efforts had ever taken effect on until i said something 2ish years after some policies had expired |
That's a cool few milly i got AF back |
I remember that |
In addition to the almost 3 mil from just "oh let them pay when they want" UH nonsense |
Dont worry..... im BU so no raises or awards or acknowledgement needed |
Tmill and ksmith get those because they're louder |
I will give you recognition and praise |
Yes pleassssssssse |
So good |
And thank you, btw, for doing the one thing yesterday |
You get to guess now |
Ohhhh?? |
Hmm! |
Was it right about when you said "deep"? |
No, but i def want and need more of that |
Hmm! Was it during round 1, round 2, or neither? |
Either 1 or both |
Something I did... Something I said? |
Did |
Idk, flipping my hair around? |
Bumping noses? |
Ear nibbling? |
Blanketing |
Over you |
But i always need more ear nibbling |
I am mid makeup and you're missing a good time |
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Damn girl! H00t! |
Lol |
Woke up after 0630 |
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Just got that in a group text |
OMG lol |
I am not lol |
Diiiiiiiiiid you have any guesses? |
Guesses for what? |
Why i am not lol at that pic |
Or the additional 4 |
Well I see arch-enemy dwarf on the right |
You know which team this is then |
Not really. I don't know diddly about how things are divided up |
Right |
Ok I wondered if that was Kirby. 6 dwarves |
And you would be the seventh? |
That's correct |
Im so fucking done with this nonsense |
Yeeeah |
I used to be on a team like that |
Meaning you're in literally the same building and they opted to not allow you 10 minutes to finish an actual work task before taking the group pic, the costume choice of which was decided without your inclusion whatsoever and the individual costume of which was the leftover but you dragged yourself into the office in agony and without really any sleep in a while and who the fuck cares anyway |
Dont worry, i was scolded at 0811 for being snarky when i monotonously said i was not in costume and would commence such a task as soon as i could manage it |
I'm half in costume. Was then too |
It's some kind of wacked virtue signaling when people get together like this in the workplace. |
Not my point but i don't think i care enough |
Im going to sit here all day and do not very much |
I hurt |
Im sorry |
((♥️)) |
Just found out there isnt a timeline for bcr1 because they need to deploy it first but cant figure that out |
I need allllllll of those drugs |
You just missed me straight up ugly crying here. It was great |
How are you doing? |
Noooo way are you ok? |
Noooooo way what? |
Ugly crying?? |
Well..... i thought i was |
And I'm meh |
Did you want to know the new and interesting fact about me? |
Not new to me |
I do! Surprise me ! |
I cry without any noise at all. Like sometimes when i need to, ill engage in full on silent sobbing |
It's bizarre |
Has it always been this way for you? |
I think so |
Poor baby! |
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2024-10-31T13:34:48 |
I am mildly better now |
However... |
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Zeroooooo people |
And i am much cuter not as a dwarf |
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Found you some cute ideas |
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Scrolling back through pics, these are courtesy moi |
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❤️ to a photo |
Very cute and very crafty! |
Where'd everyone go? |
Not a clue, no one has been here all day in my wing |
Did you know if you were going to be able to interact this weekend and in what capacity/ies you might like to? |
I wish I could say right now. It would be so much easier if I could say "I'm going to hang with my GF for a while byeeee" lol |
Early Christmas shopping?? |
Going off to clear your head? |
Heh. If only I actually did that kind of shopping prior to 12/20 |
Head cleaning/clearing |
I like it |
Omg what kind of coroboration do you need? |
I need some knob polishing? |
Idk |
I will literally send you home with 100 new fish for your aquarium ir you want |
Whoa lol I need to finish construction on some things first |
The stand is in pieces rn |
I need to replace a bunch of wood parts |
I might actually have to go to despot to return some stuff .. |
And then get flustered, just leave there, try the other despots and have a terrible long day that takes several hours away from home? |
Ikr? |
She needs to go spend a day with Toni dammit |
Gift it to them as a surprise? |
Maybe a coworker found a deal on or was giving away (whatever) and no one else was biting on the offer and you felt bad for them being so nice at offering and you'd had a great day so you were feel8ng generous and wanted to gift (anywhere thay keeps her/them busy) as a nice gesture....? |
Yeah if they hadn't just gone and rented a place a month ago I'd definitely consider it |
Well that was fun too lol |
When you blanketed - intentional because you kmew I'd wanted it or not? |
At least once I asked if you were cold, but maybe I was just being nice :). You look very cute cuddling with your blankets 🥰 |
Lol thanks |
BUT |
I wanted to have sex under a blanket, if you'll recall |
I do recall! |
Kinda started going that way, but things got hot very quickly, in more ways than one |
Youuuu started it! |
Silly neck kissing boy |
Oh i have a new escape idea! |
Break your washer or dryer |
Hehe |
Love the creativity! It would be odd since there's a coin op laundry 3 minutes from here |
But that is an intriguing plan |
Laundry takes time is the point |
Yes, got that, but I probably would not hang out there if home was 3 minutes away. |
Omg you're killing me |
In any event, please let me know when you're available to help with something acute |
Like you? Like now? |
Like worky? |
Or something of a more personal nature .. |
Like i feel crazy and ragey and trapped and cant stand today any longer and am at a loss for how to proceed |
:( |
I'm sorry |
I know |
Inhaler. I can try that much at least for now |
I always forget that |
I love you and i miss you and i hate being crazy |
I love you too! And I miss you too! I wish we could be together more often |
Yes |
Decided i needed to leave |
Good girl. Escape! |
Am home now |
Think good thoughts |
I'm doing it! |
Thanks |
Ended up taking benzo tablets |
I am so screwed with some things |
I might be faded if you respond but I'll fade back in soon enough |
Ok babe. ♥️ Take care of yourself as you see fit. |
Love you! ❤️❤️❤️ |
I love you too |
I am calming down |
How was your work day? |
It was idk 6/10? |
Not terrible nothing special |
We're pretty chill generally |
Sounds wonderful |
I regularly interact with 3 , and now 4 people. That includes mgr. |
I interact with about/less than that regularly within afg |
I also attend several meetings every week with 4-14 people |
I have no job and all jobs while my statis quo is schroedingered |
It is insane |
We should pretend work is just normal for now |
I wish i had an answer. I know that's vague |
Change of perspective |
It's not possible for this one, not that i can see |
I do love you |
I will ttyl about it some time |
Are things ok? |
With you, now |
This has me concerned |
Yes ofc! |
Okay |
Okay abs |
I want to let you wind down and relax :) |
I am ultra relaxed |
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I am in a we4od salpq e |
Weird space |
Maybe the final straw i need |
Fair the morrow |
Or maybe sooner |
But i am safe |
Good. I love you babe |
I l9ve you too |
I hate how my story is going |
And i am refusing to repeat chapters |
Je dors |
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J t'aime |
Okay |
Je taime aussi |
Omg sorry about that first one |
It was an autoreply |
Sweet baby 🥰 |
2024-11-01T06:30:47 |
Good morning! |
Hi babe! |
How are you? How was your samhain? |
My Samhain? |
My brain isn't working yet lol |
Halloween |
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Samhain |
Pronounced more like "swain" |
Well I'll be |
Yep |
I went to some traditional night storytelling and folk music things when i was there plus i love that stuff in general so pretend to know a lot about it |
But yours was....? How are you today? |
It was good! I had a productive evening, wired up the speakers I bought last weekend. Mini stereo amp arriving today hopefully. So my hobby room will have nicer sound |
Very cool! You working all day? |
As much as I can be lol! |
We have a brainstorming sesh this afternoon for a couple hours. I will probably detach after that |
HBU? Things calmer today? |
So far so good! |
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Trying to figure out what i want to do later |
Things were just uncalm in my head, mostly |
Hi pretty baby! |
Thanks! |
Other big adventures planned? |
Today, tomorrow, this weekend...? |
Setting the clocks back an hour lol! |
Yay! 🎉 |
Are you habing lunch or late donner or anything today or this weekend that i may companion with you? |
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Could be a thing this weekend! |
Love the books! |
Thanks! |
What's the thing? |
Habing a good work day so far? |
So far so good. Except I have no motivation lol |
The thing being me sneaking out to have you for lunch |
Maybe this weekend |
The world will not cease rotating on its access because you didnt have motivation today, lol. It'll get done ir ut wont |
You trickster! |
Lol |
I'm trying to organize my to-do list so I know everything I blew off this week lol |
Do you remember my suggestion for where to dine next time? |
And i can help prioritize if you need (for real) |
Hmm |
Well yes... but if you dine at the kitty cat cafe. I had a positioning suggestion |
Oh! Well I love me some of that! |
I had a seating suggestion |
No I don't :( |
Totally fine. I migjt not have told you |
I lay with my legs off the side of the bed, you spread them, then you arrange yourself so she's face level for you |
Could do the same on the small stairs in the bedroom |
You did mention this! |
Even spicier if you're wearing a skirt |
An entire side of my closet is skirts |
Excuse my drooling plz |
Better save that saliva |
Would you be able to measure your trunk, please? |
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Lol! |
You want my trunk, as in length? |
Maybe? |
I'll barter services, l9l |
😃 |
21 glorious inches? |
Unlikely |
What part of me should I measure? I got that one from YT |
And you thought 21 inches was an okay idea!??! |
My dude, i am 64 inches tall on a good day |
Where is that 21 inches going |
Sternum to crotch |
Precisely qhwre ive been pre-filleted |
See? Relevant! |
Oiyeeeee |
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Lol the pink beans! |
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Iirc, it's a fave of yours? |
It is. I think I can recite this entire record from memory lol |
Cute! |
Which character do you like best? |
Probably Baloo |
Nice |
The vulture barbershop quartet is a close second |
Modeled after The Beatles |
Yeah, they're hilarious |
Aww |
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Newish random thrifted art i thiught you'd appreciate |
Ha! That's cute |
I love him! Super unique. Will refrane |
*reframe |
Am erasing books now |
How is your day? What evening plans do you have? |
So far so good here. |
I might try to finish repairs on the aquarium stand. I'd really like to get that set up and start cycling water to make ready for fishy guys |
Very cool! |
I also need to get the aircons out of windows lol |
I've been blowing that off |
I have one i need to get that done with |
Do you have one in your room? |
Croffice |
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Nice! |
Do you ever want big ol' speakers? Functional or aesthetic or (finding the idea i have, one sec) |
null |
Something akin to that |
That is a great idea for a media shelf |
Thanks! |
What are you doing rn? |
Sitting in a meeting |
What would be in a data glossary? |
Definitions of business terminology and metrics at first. Eventually (maybe) data quality parameters to display in reports as well |
Hire me! |
That opportunity could happen! |
I am beyond qualified |
We may well get approval to expand next year and if I had to guess, it would be for support and Jr analyst roles |
And not bu |
Hurray! |
Yeah |
I know how to use salesforce/tableau/more things i cant remember |
One of the good things that is coming from the network breach is there is real concern for data governance |
Have badges from them and everything |
*attempted breach |
?? |
There was a real intrusion |
Mmhmmmm |
No ex filtration that we know of |
Interesting |
Yeah, we will be ramping up a lot of work on my team and expect to hit resource constraints next year |
Creative, technical, figure-it-out skills are what we like! |
And nice. Nice is good. |
And weirdly friendly and exceasively tolerant? |
Omg such a helpful assistant |
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Lol! |
Ted e Bear huh? |
Sounds legit to me |
You done yet? |
Mentally, yes |
Lol |
Having some raw walnuts |
Ew |
Not into that I take it |
They make my mouth insta dry like citric acid does |
Ohh wait |
That might be more than a dislike of them |
Citric acid makes your mouth dry huh |
I thought we established that?? |
I'm alleegic to acidulate |
Not like dying but it makes my mouth and throat weird |
Like aandpaper rubbing on damp carpet |
Guess I didn't remember |
I might not have said so |
But now i wonder about walnuts |
My mother is allergic to pecans in that fashion |
Walnuts can definitely do weird things in your mouth |
Huh |
They can be ascerbic for sure |
Ive never heard anyone use that in real life! |
Hottttt |
Hee hee! |
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Either for you? |
Already in my possession |
Def the JW telescope! Probably the anatomy too :) |
😊 |
Which ntl parks have you been to? |
Geez idk. Not many |
Olympic |
Always a good time |
Superior? Isn't pictured rocks one? |
Oh - have you been to california? |
I dont think there are any ntl parks in michigan. National lakeshores, forests, etc |
I sit corrected - Isle Royale |
https://www.nationalparktrips.com/parks/us-national-parks-by-state-list/ |
I've been to San Francisco twice on AF group business. That's all the Cali I've seen |
More than i have |
Can i go with next timeM |
I would love to! |
Im dead serious |
I am too! |
I did not get to see much, but I stayed right near the bay bridge. It's a neat place |
Too bad Compwest doesn't have offices there anymore |
Yeahhhhh |
Ive been to Cape Hatteras too. Idk if that's a thing |
Omg same! |
Just look at my skin lol |
So whatcha up to the rest of the eve? |
See about that aquarium stand work, smoke, beer, ? |
The last 2 should be over here |
I know! |
Please? |
Believe me, I want to! |
Another day, another soner ending for me |
Sigh |
Maybe i should just go shop |
Darn it all |
I am literay begging you to take my marijuana v card |
🥸 |
😢 |
Maybe I can sneak over tomorrow afternoon |
Me and my high strung sober self will likely be here |
And Sunday |
And alllll the weekend of the 14th thru at earliest that sunday night |
If i skip over to frandor tonight do you want to join? |
I can't. I'm sorry I'm kinda locked in |
No worries |
I would rather offer/be offered than leave someone out/be left out |
Thank you :) |
I treat others how i like being treated |
If you feel like chatting, I'll be available |
I'm totally open for chatting! |
Yayyyyy!!!! |
Woohoo! |
What's on your mind? |
Well my aquarium project has hit a snag |
Oh no! What? |
I can't assemble the bits properly without adequate clamps. And I have always been clamp-poor lol |
I just need to bite it and buy them |
They're a bit pricey |
How pricey? |
I'm thinking 40 ish the pair, and I need 3 pair |
That is, at most, like 3 hourw of work for you |
A meeting and a half |
Bite the bullet |
Want a reward? For a good boy? |
Hee hee! Maybe |
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Yesssss |
Very nice selection |
Oh yeah? |
I just copy things i think you and i would like |
Google "lazy doggy" |
Yes ;) |
Am familiar with this |
Both i mentioned? |
Easy on your back |
Familiar in what ways? |
The side position , this is the lazy doggy yeah? It's a good late night , easy going fuck |
Nope, i sent you 2 different ones |
Are you including the stairs option? |
Nope |
The next option: you should google "lazy doggie" |
Ok |
So |
I know the text you sent , I know first hand |
The second one I shall look up! |
Ok the second one I have seen but not done and it looks fun! |
I had hoped you were going to try on wednesday |
Dommage |
Now it's your turn |
We nearly did! |
I kinna think you wanted to flip :) |
Ohhhh i wanted a lot |
Still do |
Yay! |
I wanna |
If you had me right now ...? |
100% I would |
Any day babe |
Oh |
I want to know what you want tho |
Oil? |
And lazy dog |
Trust me on this |
YES |
So then what else do i get? |
Well! |
Let me think a moment |
|
You tell me |
Ok just to be clear, your fave body oil is on the list |
Where are you? |
In this scenario or right now irl? |
Irl lol |
On my bed |
How about you? |
In my subterranean space lol |
Sorry if this is oddly familiar |
Wish you were in my metaphorical basement lol |
You smoke yet? Drink? |
A little both |
Mmhmmm |
I have a question for you |
Shoot |
If you could be any character of any book, whom would you choose? |
I don't know right now. Ive never been asked or thought of that |
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Steaming off lol |
❤️ to a photo |
Hey it's a joke |
Lol |
And no fair not answering me |
I love the pic! |
And i am still thinking |
Debated just saying things that are on my mind |
I have no answer lol |
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Yes! |
I may see a typo thoigh |
But i could be wrong about that |
I think there are both kinds? E vs O |
Came out of Sparrow |
In that case it's almost certainly wrong lol |
Lol! |
I still have the lab chair I got in that giveaway |
It's the chair in my hobby area |
Very cool |
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Which creature? Lol |
Yes |
The platter is surprisingly solid and heavy. Like a milk jug |
Oooh cool |
I think it's silver |
But I don't see any marking whatsoever |
Can't you test that somehow? |
Hey wanna see something? |
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Sorry, none of that here |
Ma'am I am required to view your escutcheon at this time |
Well damn when you put it that way |
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That is quite top notch |
Is this live? |
Yep 👍 |
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I'll be here all night |
And tomorrow |
And tomorrow |
And likely monday |
Allllllll alone |
I will change this if I can 🥰 |
Wanna do somethibg for me right now? |
You have very fine features. So beautiful! |
What can I do? |
Thank you? |
I want either more descriptions of what you'd do if you had me all to ourselves right now |
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I am a good subbie because one thing I can always do is lick you |
Any time of the day or night |
Maybe you need a little cleaning |
Maybe it's pure pleasure you seek |
Because at some point you will flip to hedonism |
And I am a |
Very |
Cheap |
Slut |
I dont entirely know what that means but gods i want you more |
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Im so proud of you! |
Thanks |
Now come eat me out |
Ah yes |
Thank you for reminding me |
And you can just call it out like you just did |
And I am right there |
**please |
If the day was entirely about your physical pleasure, what would it look like? |
Waking up having sex because morning wood is a thing |
Pleasant time for coffee, cereal, toast, or whatever com a to mind |
Studying whatevs for a few hours |
And sweet baby might interrupt |
And that is so fun |
Bc she is so hot |
And leisurely lunch of fresh things and pickle |
And proper siesta |
With sweet baby of course |
Bc fuck me she is so hot |
And when we are both refreshed |
We fuck for an hour |
How am I doing? |
Believe it or not, we collab on things. Not just sex. Although that. Is. Fucking. Amazing. |
How do we fuck? |
Every way we wants it |
On such a day of days |
We can cover a lot of ground |
I. Want. Details. |
Hahahaha!!! |
Which time was that exactly? |
When we wake up |
You find me hard |
What do you do? |
I reach down and see what im working with |
How delightful! |
Should I insist you mount me, or if I push you off, do you want me to flip you on your back |
You know that answer |
Well? |
I do indeed |
You've become quite wet! |
I know because you're soaking my knee |
Ummmm |
https://open.spotify.com/track/6ScAlEJMG9blbwk8wXTkjl?si=G3qOzVTTTBSWlzi_qEB6dw |
Just a weird happy suggestion |
Sorry what were you confused about |
Your knee is wet |
I know why i would think it is, why do you think so? |
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Gorg |
My knee is wet because it is in your crotch |
Oh yeah? |
And I feel things |
Tell me more |
You cant be here now but i want you and i wanna do things and fuck but that's not possi le so i need details and dirty imagery |
I am basically humping you with my leg |
I extend towards your crotch |
You press back and we find a nice thing |
So nice |
So I can kiss your neck too |
And make little noises |
And lick your ear too |
And |
Lol lotsa langue |
And touch you as you like it |
I like that |
More please |
I want you to be a little selfish |
I'm about to do a time lapse |
But it's of a different sort |
Think of this as a rehearsal |
Mmmmkay? |
Lol I was foiled |
I be selfish alright |
Do you not understand every lick and nibble and kiss is a selfish act? |
I cannot get enough |
But neither can i |
And i literally cannot understand that from you |
Understand, you know the words I assume? So do you mean "I cannot understand why/how/ " or something else? |
The latter |
As you have told me. And I believe you. |
So why are they selfish acts? |
I get so buzzed knowing I'm turning you on |
But why? |
It's like bees on honey babe |
I can't not do it |
What if i told you i was about to start a little drinking for the night? |
Well |
What you got goin? |
null |
Very nice! |
What would you suggest i drink? |
I might say cider, but you and citric, is it ok? |
Guinness is always a good choice |
I am okay with cider |
Idk I don't drink liquor much |
What else would you like to know? |
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Fine i suppose |
Lovely |
As usual |
What thread would you like me to pick up? |
Well thanks but i legit do not feel that way |
Any open questions I can close? |
Do you like doing things that make me feel good because you know it means you'll get reciprocated or more? |
Not because of any expectations |
I just like it |
I love loving on you |
And oh what hey??!!?? |
You are a hot hot hot fucccck and everything else |
I think you mean that |
Haha how do I spell bbbbbbbb |
Ofc I mean that |
I've had a lot of time to think about this |
Nah |
I don't just mean around you |
Okay |
No worries babe |
But can you explain that? I don't do much |
Yes two moments... |
For one, I am not used to reciprocation |
That's been gone a while, like years, save a couple times |
I don't seek it anyway |
And that was true before |
But any participation is more than I am used to anymore |
And |
I drool all over you lol |
Indulge me in that last part a bit? I mean that for actual reasons |
You are so shapely and so cute |
And when you want to |
Come hither |
So expressive in all cases |
So pure |
Delight! |
Thank you 🙂 |
Pardon the intrusion, but how would sex witb rlh go if there wasnt reciprocation? |
So |
I do things |
And have fun |
And maybe get off or not |
But without any help |
I occasionally have gone down on you |
You do it very nicely and every sesh! And appreciate it |
Every time |
Haha, thanks |
Still nothing debauched and depraved and kinkfucked you want? |
No, thank you |
Oops lol lol |
Haha |
Damn button |
No me no kinky much bc cant |
And years now before I even knew |
Or admitted lol |
Dude pal lover friend |
Please |
You can fo whatever you want with me |
Yay! |
And so you have told me repeatedly |
I WANT YOU TO WANT EVERERRRRRYTHING |
I love loving on you so much |
All of you is yummy! |
Tell me more on your ideas of making love to or with me |
Reflect on the other day, if you can |
You get I'm just an escapee right |
Um |
Idk what that even means |
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Okay then |
Ok missus research grant, what is the question? |
Heyy |
I adore your skin |
It is so soft |
It's ok another level |
Mmmm |
What's your burningest question for me? |
Your book character, please? |
I still dont know |
😢 |
It's a hard question |
Triste |
Et vous? |
Vous avez une idee qui je suis en cette sujet? |
Sobbing over here |
Going to cry myself to sleep |
Get over here and use your tears as lube and I'll make it up to you |
Promise to pull my hair |
I will gladly rub my eyes in your pussy |
Only if you do the same |
Do your worst |
Want me to unlock the door now? |
Fml I am locked in |
Why? 🤷♀️ |
Triste |
Wife in the kitchen? |
And too not right to drive for real |
I figured |
Just know i can always uber you wherever ;) |
More getting high questions |
Yess? What is your question |
Yess! |
How long til it stops? |
What? Weed? |
Depends |
Yes? |
Please explain |
Dose-dependent ofc |
And modern strains are typically strong |
Smoking is quick onset |
Cooking with is much slower, and mellower |
1 or 2 puffs of good things should be noticeable in moments |
And will escalate for perhaps 30 minutes |
And then cool off slowly |
Next day should feel not high, but might be sleepy yet |
How is that? |
I think good |
Thank you |
Why do you like weed? |
So it's a slow elimination |
I like |
Because |
It helps m focus on things |
Not always smart things |
But I will be very attentive to some things |
And unaware of others |
And I can train this balance |
When you smoke, what's the process? |
My little pipe holds 3-5 hits (doses) |
It's herbal greenery |
So I put some in thert |
Didn't I demo this already lol ok |
Dude I am baked I will explain this to death |
You showed me that, yes |
So you taje one puff, then do what, then come back later or |
Sure |
Take one |
Let it settle |
Maybe take another |
It's not wicked hard on you, apart from the smoking part |
Which does not have to be crazy bad either, but burning is burning no matter what |
I have no idea what to expect for that part |
My little v-card |
It's easy to go easy |
Youve been given a few of my v experiences so far |
And I can help with go easy np |
Be a buffer and whatnot |
I really, really, really want this |
Do you typically want to fuck more when you're high? |
Well here's the tuing |
Whatever you focus on can totally absorb you |
So maybe |
If you are with your baby |
And you snog for a sec |
Ohhhh noooo |
Mmmm |
??? |
Now you are wrecked bc you are in heat all of a sudden |
What is your next move |
Irl i would probably lay there still and silent and staring into your soul until you take me like i crave |
Yeah lol |
I would absolutely tease you though |
Get high and fuck is an almost most day rhingt |
Show you how i could move or bend |
Sunday |
Be here Sunday |
You are amazing |
You are |
Porn |
How would you know lol |
I like girls |
I dont |
Niw |
Lol |
I'm serious |
Please? |
Please what? Porn? Now? |
Yes |
Me or prepackaged? |
No wait |
I want you to be jere for my first viewing |
But would absolutely watch you cum again and again |
Wow! |
Ok first viewing idea noted |
I have nothing of me actually cumming |
What do you have? |
What do I have .. examples sought? |
Do you want me porn? |
I have this |
Im very intrigued by this |
Why no cumshots? |
Or maybe just tea for two? |
I sorta do |
Hold up one sec let me give you a link |
Getting there |
One sec |
Ok well crap |
Then I'll save more of myself for you |
Did you think of using any toys on me the other day? |
I did briefly |
Yes |
Which? |
I wanted to play |
I thought about very slim vibe |
Purple maybe,,? |
Possibly |
How would that have not had us play? |
Oh it wouldn't. I just wanted you for myself |
Omggggg yes |
Have you ever had someone sit on your face? |
Sort of |
69 can easily go this way |
While I don't like losing air, being smothered in pussy is really special |
How was 69ing with me? |
It was soooo goooood |
You dont have to say that |
But it is so |
You think not |
But I love being smothered in you |
Describe our 69 please? |
Will do one moment |
Sorry so long! |
I am back |
Where'd you go? |
Hauled my ass from basement to upper level |
Do much wirk |
*so |
Oh ya |
I have to go up & come back down and ugghhhhh |
null |
That's hot AF |
You like it |
You know i do |
null |
You have me squirming |
null |
null |
Please fuck me |
2024-11-02T07:24:17 |
Ohhhh baaaaabe |
I am so sorry i failed you and yiur deliciousness with my silly mind wandering to the lands of arousal and repose |
I hope you slept well? |
2024-11-02T08:34:45 |
Wanna go have breakfast? Coffee? |
2024-11-02T11:34:57 |
Good morning! |
Yay! 🎉 |
Sooooo how are you? |
Pretty good! Can't believe I slept so late lol |
I kind of have that effect on you |
Bringing is some coffee?. |
It's the porn ∆∆ |
Lies |
Making coffee now! |
Making porn is hard work I guess |
Maybe you need a partner |
Hey, do you have an opinion on Stanley Tucci? |
Amd does that mean I'm on my own for coffee? |
I could sneak you in at 519 |
I do not know Stanley |
Who is Stanley? |
I don't know that I've seen anything starring Stanley, but idk |
Errrrr....? |
Box of stuff? |
null |
Or one of these? |
null |
This thing? |
null |
Nice hardware collection! |
Idk what most of it is lol |
null |
Well do you want it? |
Oh shit that's a pneumatic nail gun in the black box |
I could not use it for I have not an air compressor |
That's purchaseable somewhere in the universe |
Sure is |
Would knowing the price make a difference? |
Haven't decided if I want one in the house yet |
They can be noisy |
So can mistresses |
True, true |
Mistresses are far more sonorous |
Sirenous too |
And cute! |
null |
Cute! |
Where are you hunting today? |
Free cheap and antique store |
Nice! |
I'll bring you here sometime |
Sure! |
2024-11-02T14:39:56 |
null |
Love it! |
I am so fucking cold |
Hey babe? |
Yo! |
How you be? |
Good! Cleaning floors! Woo |
Wahoo! |
Been doing that all day? |
Last 90 or so. Wrapping up now |
What else have you done? |
Mostly moving stuff around down here so I could get to the floor. And spot cleaning everywhere along the way |
So |
With loud music |
Oh and I spent some time looking at clamps online |
Need to go to three if not four places to inspect options in person |
And wouldn't you know it, they are at four distant corners of greater Lansing |
Clamps for...? |
Woodworking clamps. Specifically the ones I need for the aquarium stand |
Mmhmmmm |
You having a good night so far? |
Yes babe |
Ummm |
When? |
1600 ish. Nvm though, I am in a time warp lol |
You asked if i had slept |
The answer is essentially no |
Ok luv |
How are you doing? |
null |
Chez amis |
Buuuuuuuut |
Ighhhhh |
Is the feeling |
Mmmmmm |
Is that a long or short vowel? |
?? |
How are you pronouncing lghhhhhh? |
Ick |
Elongated |
null |
Have you eaten? |
Why jailed? |
Not lately |
But I feel good |
How come? |
How come what now? |
How come no food, how come feel good? |
I have newsish things for you too |
I yam what I yam |
I have a sign that says Electrophoresis |
And it has a secret |
What? |
There's a right hand print in the finish over the letters "pher" |
I misted it |
Lol |
Daddy needs a subwoofer |
Umm |
The sign did clean up nicely |
null |
null |
What are they for?? |
Something something jewelry I suppose |
Teeny carabineers |
Mm scale for scale |
I love how my mat ends at 420 |
Lol |
Sooooo |
I need you tokorrkw |
Wanna go for a ride? |
I shit those clasps are hematite |
Oh shit |
They're quite lovely, if utilitarian |
Kinda busy en but i need to meet mary jam3 tomorrow |
Pardonnez? |
Anyway, busy now so cannot ride |
I need you tomorrow |
To meet miss Mary jane |
Maybe more |
Ooooooooh sweet baby yes yes |
What is best time |
You tell me |
House is a disaster for now |
So |
You tell me when youll be over |
And what our time will entail |
What do you want to get done? Anything? |
What do you wish to happen? Anything? |
Anything you want |
This will help me fine tune |
NOT THAT WAY |
🤪 |
Eez joke bebe |
Btw I can't say how much respect I have for this album cover https://open.spotify.com/track/39iMBFepK3VfesTCF2ENP2?si=G21lDbPyTA2wdl62YNyMTw |
I may well have been listening to this album--which is to say the original version by The Cure, when I had my Bad Day In Brighton |
Still with friends.... will ttys ok? |
Yes yes ofc |
I wasn't sure if you had friends you ordinarily hang with |
Literally 2 |
How are you? |
Very well, mistress! |
Et tu? |
Que? |
Comment ça va? |
Daddy also needs a phono preamp |
An old fave |
Je suis chez moi |
Mwa mwa mwa |
Hey babes |
Sorry for neglecting you |
It's no bbdd |
How was your visiting? |
Kinda weird but good |
How was your day? |
Let's talk about tomorrow |
All good |
Cool 😎 |
Kisses and hugs |
I love you too! |
So are we chatting or are you too far gone? |
I'm good to go |
You have a plan or hopes for tomorrow? |
I sure di |
Do do dogs dummy dummy autocorrect lol |
Get clmps |
Somewhere |
Drive around a kot |
Interested in a ride along? |
A for real one? |
Yes absolutely |
You're aware i am alone til monday evening? |
Well then |
Better bring extra panties |
Well then color me confused |
Do you want me to be a pussy hungry slut boy or something else? |
No judgement here lol I am willing to be put in my place |
What confused color,? |
BRB! 5 |
Heyyy |
Syy |
Swyyooooo |
Why a drive? |
I need to find tools |
Clamps |
But maybe I can adjust the route |
What are you up to rn? |
Kind of cleaning, kind of fading, thinking about you & maybe tomorrow |
Yummy! |
I'm thinking about you too |
And maybe tomorrow |
Say more |
If you had your hand on the knob |
That adjusted "stay home and fuck" |
To "go out and be flirtatious" |
To "curl up and sleep* |
Where would you move that knob? |
Between SHAF and curl up/sleep |
I can do both |
For you! |
Mmmmmkay |
Please!!! |
Ok then sweet baby |
You ok eating in tomorrow? |
Yeah? |
Ok!! |
No worries babe |
I got you |
I need to sleep |
Sure np |
Sleep well! |
You, too |
null |
2024-11-03T01:28:28 |
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2024-11-03T05:46:58 |
Bonjour mon artiste! |
2024-11-03T08:53:30 |
Oh la la! Haha! |
Good morning sweet bean! |
How are you? |
Feeling cute ooly |
Lol |
Really? |
I mean you are but lol |
Kinda |
😊 |
Any reason? |
Can't see straight yet lol |
Pssshhhht |
Your plans for the day? |
null |
Lolol! |
I was thinking about spending some quality time with you |
Yeah? |
Yeah |
I like that |
I need to run out to the west side first |
My clamp mission |
Oh i see |
Where at? |
Harbor freight |
Where is that? |
Grand River past the airport |
If you say so |
There's one on saginae |
In waverly |
If i have disclaimers, would you like to hear them? |
Cool, I know where that one is. Ty |
I am in absolute dizzying agony so far |
Oh no what happened that you are in so much pain? |
I dont know. It just happens |
Chronic pain syndrome, fibromyalgia, broken bits and bobs |
Would you like A massage? |
Kind of, but i feel awful asking. And i can't guarantee all the noises i make would be happy to you |
*please |
Ok just for you |
Thanks 🙂 |
You procure it, I'll push it |
Do you have any inclination of an eta? |
Sounds like a deal |
ETA ... |
One sec |
Too soon lol |
Lol! I'm thinking 11-12 |
Okay awesome |
Nope, you're always perfect |
But do to suit you :) |
Haha, thanks |
But i may be merely a vessel today |
Aww |
That's not necessarily a bad thing, loo |
null |
Hehehehe |
So helpful |
null |
null |
null |
null |
null |
Ohhhhhh they know |
OMG so cute |
I would love if you could give me as much notice as possible |
Are paint thinner and stripper the same thing? |
Np |
Thinner and stripper are different |
Thinner is added to paint or stain to dilute it |
Stripper is typically gelatinous and applied to a thing to melt paint |
Ok thanks! |
😘 |
How do you feel about soup? |
I love soup |
What kind sounds good if i feed it to you today? |
Obv veg |
Yay! |
I meant vegetarian |
Like broccoli cheddar or a northern bean one or maybe potato? |
All of those sound amazing! |
Broc cheddar is especially decadent |
Oh lovely that's what i would habe picked! |
null |
Lol |
null |
Lol orange orange orange orange |
He knows lol |
You have a status yet ? |
Lol! |
Yeah I just left the house. Probably an hour out |
Okay cool, thanks! |
Need me to get anything for you? |
Nope! |
Mmmmk |
On my way to you now :) |
Okay lovah |
Im going to pretend to get ready |
Haha okay |
Beware! |
null |
Oh noes! |
2024-11-03T17:46:31 |
Heya |
Hey all is well but can't talk now 😘😘😘 |
Hieee! |
How are you doing |
I think good? |
It's all blurry lol |
I am calm though |
Good! Have you eaten? |
Spouse decided he would come home in abt 2 hours |
Have not eaten |
Not hungry, still knda swirly |
https://open.spotify.com/track/6RUKPb4LETWmmr3iAEQktW?si=xwZNwl34Qxuesc3Jv_r9oA |
https://open.spotify.com/track/6oJ6le65B3SEqPwMRNXWjY?si=w4YyDkepRyK94xqvbSZNzA |
Oh lordy speaking of the SIL, here they come |
Kygo is current mood. Chainsmokers too but also generic sentiment |
Listening the Chainsmokers first |
That was thr most enjoyment i have ever had |
Yay! |
My actual memory recall will be sketchy at best |
My throat is still a little raw feeling |
But fuck i love you |
🥰 |
I love you! |
What did i tell you that was new info? |
I feel like you gave me veritaserum lol |
I love this Higher Love version |
Yay! |
Lol you know Veratassium is a YT channel right. Very popular. Very cool science |
Did not! |
Anyway, your answer? |
Specifics of a 3-way |
Yes |
One of them |
That you can come for 2 hours |
I guess l9l |
I didnt think i could get there at all until verrrrry recently |
That you like your cervix prodded |
Mmhmm |
Anything worthy of concern? |
"worthy of concern" |
You'd know |
My back hurts lol |
The actual in and out sex part was magnificent |
Yay! 🎉 |
I didnt know that's how we're supposed to feel together |
Just like lil subby lovers |
I dont know that we're that |
Haha yes! |
You want the question i dont want to ask? |
Donnez moi |
What signs do you notice (internal, external, visible, tangible, etc) that there's been trauma? |
Second q first: I absolutely love it! 🥰 And hey wow it's getting better! |
I notice much tbh |
About trauma |
I kinda assumed your tightness was a product of trauma, but |
While I still think that, i think it's not as much as I assumed |
Especially today |
You took a lot of me inside you. |
It's because I'm safe with you |
I do yes |
And I appreciate it so much |
I like to explore inside you |
It isn't super conscious of me |
And you literally opened up /twice/ today |
And let me come in you |
And pushed me out later lol |
So incredible |
I really dont know how you got innnnn |
Can you talk about my faces? |
Good and ugly |
Mostly your head was tilted back |
Weird? What about before we got into stuff? Rather, before you got into me |
Endlessly deep stories about your experiences with people, places, subjects, experiences, and survival tactics and strategies |
You've got a lot going on Missy |
What will you do with me when vanilla sex isn't fun enough? |
Step it up lol |
Sorry, i keep falling asleep |
Lol correct answers |
I don't usually smoke on Sunday. So glad I made an exception |
Oh I'm sorry! |
:P |
I feel like i might be a lightweight? |
I am too |
You're also was a v card or so you said |
I absolutely was for all intents and purposes |
lol it's cool |
Sweetums |
I have more odd wonderings |
But yes, I lovered smoking with you |
Oh?? |
Hell yeah |
Any reason? |
Because I finally got to get high, and have sex with my bebe and it was so wonderful |
Lol for sure |
Do you ever see fear or anxiety or apprehension on my face or in bidy language? |
Sometimes |
Any times you can recall? |
No no, I don't keep track of this |
There would have been some today |
Perhaps!? |
But it's not all face |
Face and body |
I think you recognize mine |
Yay |
I likes em |
Can you describe my body in climax? |
I will try |
You alternate between almost flaccid to stiff and yet convulsing |
In 30 s cond cycles |
And you usually cannot speak |
Yes |
And you definitely have a falsetto that is a joy to hear |
And your innards have their own things going on too |
I have no idea what that means. Sounds kinda gross? |
I really appreciate this line of chat |
I'm referring to the very significant work being done I presume by your vagina and your uterus |
Seriously hard contractions |
I can sort of control that |
And your abdomen I think too |
My core IS a bit sore, if that's what you mean at all |
Makes sense |
null |
She pretty much claimed me |
One time you might have seen apprehension or fear or anxiety today would have been right before i started giving you head |
I. Will. Fight. Her. |
She's a lover not a fighter lol |
I did not know you felt anxious |
It passed quickly? |
Yes it passed |
Oh? I am sorry |
No worries |
I didn't know |
I know you didnt |
But i really didnt know what you were doing |
Got it got it |
What is the hesitation related to? |
When? |
You "worry every time ...' @ 2032 |
That i am gross, taste ick, look bad, am smelly, etc. Not wet enough. I have something to say to that not wet enough thing btw |
Ok all fair |
Ohhh yay! You as well. Seriously |
I have another diagnosis. Kinda pisses me off for no real reason |
How is it so? You've been dxed to a criminal level |
Perimenopause |
and going strong lol |
Felt like a death sentence |
Do you think ive made up anything ive told you? |
No I dont |
Have you? |
Hint: it is ok either way |
No. If anything, details and additions and continuations would make it all worse |
Got it, as expected that |
Aside from not having a reason to not believe me, why do you? |
Im actually really curious what kind of answers you expect here |
But I will answer nonetheless |
Never known anyone with a litany this large that actually could repeat it |
You are perhaps |
An insanely well trained spy |
Or a good girl with bad luck |
Howso? |
Lol |
Yea |
And a smart mind |
I could have been so much smarter |
For real |
You are already |
And you can definitely learn more!! |
I did a lot of damage to my brain in my teen years |
You want it, I can tell |
And yet |
You learned so much |
True |
Because my thought was that if i can't be pretty and hot, i need to be smart |
Answers i kind of expected: |
No one in their right mind would make up the level of fucked up that my stuff has been. And no one wants it or would repeat the words |
Yes |
Agree |
I also know and have all the details and can tell you what happened without thinking back much (as opposed to someone who would have to think up a lie) |
You have a yen for specificity |
May i have an example? |
Is this a joke?? 🤣🤣🤣 |
Good sense of humor noted as well |
Not a joke |
Hmm n |
I'm cracking up over here lol |
Lol |
Would you like some water? |
In a sippy cup? |
Or a mug? |
Or a glass? |
Lol |
,pint glass? |
Also I folded up this newspaper so it will hold. Glass of milk for 34 seconds with 16 imperial oz |
Ready? |
I kid you |
Lol |
Like the lady making the goat imitation |
Thank you I will be here all week |
Me too |
Lololol |
And al9ne again this saturday |
Ok |
Whoa really |
That's fucking hot |
Could be |
You helped me accomplish something huge today and you have no idea |
If you'd like to know, it will involve a new to you story snippet that is not in the happy realn |
Well I would definitely like to know what new first you had! |
And please include necessary plot elements |
Well, i absolutely trusted you (still do). That was one part of the new thing |
I wanted to be high and for someone to have complete access to me while i wasnt in my head at all. So thank you |
I essentially wanted to allow someone to have control over me |
It sounds horrible. I am so sorry |
It is what it was |
I wss completely incapacitated and trust you enough to want you to have every bit of access and control over me |
You could have done literally anything you wanted |
I will always respect you |
Pretty baby |
I have a few anecdotal points that make that story experience worse. Like stabbing the knife a little deeper for each one |
I love that you tell me I'm pretty |
Thank you |
Mmm you are pretty! |
My eyes smile |
You're amazing |
Aww ty! |
Thank you |
You are a remarkable woman |
I was thinking of telling you more |
I want you to be my girly girl but you deserve so much more |
And I just love you so much |
I told you before |
What do you mean by girly girl? |
I love you in spite of your challenges, not because of them |
😊 |
Yes I want a plaything |
So you dont always feel like you're just another entrant for the "i got off in rebecca" club? |
Consensual and not (when combined) is kind of a high number |
Yes you threaten me. Lol |
I want you to feel special |
Ty |
I hope I am, and in spite of my slow starts |
Why do i shake and convulse and twitch after i orgasm? |
I dont think thats normal |
Idk |
Yes |
It's still new and confusing |
Esp when i squirt |
You kinda warned me things might happen |
That's a mindfuck in itself |
Squirt.... |
I have not really seen this one yet |
You have |
But I can imagine |
First night |
Ok ok |
Poor baby was so confused after this night lol |
I was on top, i came really suddenly, then told you there was a puddle on you that i was sitting in |
YESSSS |
I squirted that puddle onto you |
yay!!! |
When it happens.... i dont conteol or feel it |
It usually seems to be a surprise |
It's not like an ejaculate per se, more like a release valve |
GIRL GOODIES |
YAY |
I almost did today |
When i told you i felt like i was just going to pee all over everything. That's the intensity of the buildup |
Whooooo! |
Usually you fingering the right spot does the trick |
Haha I'm not into peeing for peeing sake, but squirting is a different kinda fun |
It isnt peeing - That's just what the feeling is |
Like I'll burst |
Such a good girl |
You should look up booktok boyfriend ideas |
How to be one in the bedroom, basically |
They're common romance book tropes |
And sooooooo hot |
null |
Looking good! |
The bottles of fluids need a little caddy |
Just keep a look out! Plz |
Do you have an area that would fit a tension/curtain rod? |
Hmmmmmm |
Even in a cabinet |
Yes actually about 38 " |
Door height |
The tension rod needs to ho horizontal |
Understood |
My tension rod is sooo ho horizontal |
That reminds me of something |
Please make me all hard again and do the sword swallowing |
I might be able to ask |
But I might be shy about it |
If it will not hurt you |
I don't want that |
I want not hurt you |
Yesssszzzs |
Real quick - where did you put the lube? |
In the box |
Box in closet |
Thankkkkk youuuuu |
Cap included |
🙋 |
Box is semi hidden? |
(As it was) |
It's where it was |
Fantastic |
I love you more each thing you do |
Np sweet babe |
Does anyone look in the closet? |
Nah but it would be weird if it was right at the front |
Yes too right |
Good girl |
Can you describe what you thought about my back? |
I have concerns about that disc/bone growth. Idk what it is exactly |
It's quite large |
Brb |
Birb lol |
null |
Lol? |
I sure do not know why that was linked to birb lol |
Because there we are |
Back to the back... before i really fade out |
null |
You have a significant amount of tissue overgrowth there |
And seems like your spine is not straight there |
Any actual medical exams/imaging/dx? |
And when did this injury take place? |
2024-11-04T07:25:02 |
Heyyy babes |
Heya!! |
Xoxoxox |
How are you? |
A little sleepy but good |
And you? |
Pretty good |
Mouth feels weird but whatever |
Oh? |
Yeah. Dry. A little carpety. It's fine |
I recommend liquid |
Lol |
So I've heard! |
I'm still in a little disbelief about yesterday |
Haha |
It was! |
I've been thinking about it for an hour |
Yay! |
Any new thoughts or rumination? |
Ideas for next time! |
Yeah?? |
Yeah |
Okay! |
And I think we need to start closer to the middle of the bed lol |
Or wherever we end up |
Heh! |
Yeah i could see that |
How do you feel about the weed? Any lingering effects? |
I wouldn't expect any, but you know, science |
I was really sleepy all of yesterday. And wobbly. Nothing else, really. Was not particularly hungry. Or thirsty. Still pain. Talkative and thinking about how talkative i was at the same time as me talking and circuitous logic like that. In fairness, that happens to me with any and all drugs |
Perhaps a little fog, if anything |
I cant tell if there is or isnt |
I dont remember some of yesterday but i knew that was going to happen as it was happening |
null |
You're missing me in a pretty-feeling state |
😞 |
Yay! Hi pretty baby! |
Wtf sad face??? |
Hahahahaha |
I did not do that lol |
Damn "helpful" suggestions |
Do you have a favorite instance of me climaxing? |
I'd have to say it was when I had just come moments before |
That was soooo hot |
I tried to have it be the same time |
Very nicely done babe! |
Oh |
But cum literally gets me off when it's someone i like |
🥰 |
Idk if you understand how sexy that is |
2024-11-04T09:32:16 |
How sexy what is? |
Wednesday...? |
null |
Lol |
Yes Wednesday |
What are your plans? |
Get up |
Lol |
Well I usually try to leave the house around 0740 but I'm usually late lol |
Interested in breakfast? |
Actually perhaps |
I still don't think I've eaten in front of you |
Any concerns? |
What do you mean? |
Are you worried about eating in front of me? |
Yes and no |
Ok |
That's fine |
How's the day? |
It's ho hum. I'm bored lol |
Stop that - only boring people get bored |
And i dont fuck around with anyone boring |
:) |
Want some questions? |
Lol |
I want a nap actually |
So do it! |
But i obv always have questions |
https://milogin.michigan.gov/eai/login/authenticate?PolicyId=urn:ibm:security:authentication:asf:basicldapuser&Target=https%3A%2F%2Fmiloginci.michigan.gov%2Foidc%2Fendpoint%2Fdefault%2Fauthorize%3FqsId%3Dc5e37056-3300-4fcb-85d5-1d458cdda904%26client_id%3D1825aafa-fdcb-4cf8-8266-a5cffe3a24ab |
In case you needed a reminder |
And oh! I figured out why i knew december 3 as a date (before you) |
Oh, what's that? |
Someone else's birthday |
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That one lol |
❤️ to a photo |
Yay! |
She'll be SIX |
No wonder she's so cute |
Damn those sagges |
Fml the air conditioner gets heavier every year I swear it |
Is that what you're doing? |
Wanna do other stuff in a bit? |
One ac down, one to go |
Whew done. |
Hmm |
Walk over here. It'll cool you off lol |
Temptress! |
*alone temptress |
What happened to SIL? |
They're on their way to her appt in A2 |
They'll be back in a few hours but i can do you - i mean, i can do stuff in the meantime |
Lol |
Is that a no? |
I can't come over now :( |
😞 |
I know |
Tristessa |
So |
Is that |
The former |
Well I'm cleaning cat boxes rn, so |
What i want is not available (multiple options) |
Ok I am done with chores! |
Do you have anything in mind or on your mind first off? |
Not at the moment |
How is your day going? |
Mixed. Overall good. Weird at points. |
Uneventful, unimposing. I'll take it |
Done now? |
Nah I've got a 1500 meeting |
That's soon |
I want to tell you things |
Sounds ominous! You can tell things. I'm not sure this meeting will have any substance |
I dont know what i should tell you |
You seem conflicted |
I have a lot of thoughts. They rotate. That's all. |
I see. |
I have a lot i want to tell you and i dont always know how or if i should |
You've spoken of some reasons why you might hold back. I respect that. But remember you've also told me some pretty ugly stories too, and I'm still here to listen. |
I dont know why ive said i might hold back? |
Np, this is about what's helpful for you first |
Be selfish |
It will help me to know why you think i migjt hold back |
You told me about father & brother SA, |
Yeah, i know those. Any other? |
Lol I had to talk a lot in the meeting |
Awww poor baby! |
What was it? |
I'm explaining reference and cross reference data to our new employee |
Sorry hard to think about ATM because I've been talking for a half hour |
Np |
So |
Sorry babe 60 minute meeting |
Aw |
Ok |
So you told me about crashing grandpas car |
About being sick in Portugal |
I know you dont know Portugal yet |
About wild people feeding you LSD and fucking with your head |
About your mom's shitty attitude |
I dont think they fucked with me head |
Attitude toward some things yes |
And I haven't cataloged everything you said so I'm sure I'm missing something here |
I don't think so. You know about things I've done to myself. I think? |
You've mentioned cutting, and I think an eating disorder? |
A few of them, yes. And then the other that i really hate labelling because it's more complicated than anyone understands |
I don't know what will happen if i tell all the stories |
What do you fear could happen? |
A few things |
Or that I'll remember too vividly |
Do you feel a need to recall them, or share them? |
Hmm |
I havent done either so i dont know |
I think it is both |
I think i want someone to know them and to understand that i really shouldnt be here and be functional |
I thought i wanted something else too, but here you are and i think maybe i want to tell you instead |
But i dont want to break you |
I see this as -- |
Schroedingers closet monster indeed |
That is almost what I told my doctor when I was about to quit smoking. "I worry about what I will do with my time". |
Maybe |
But do you have any examples? Any daydream idea you've thought of or fantasy you've ruminated on? |
I might not ever speak to my mother again |
It's also a closet monster possibility that i engage in self harming activities and i told you i would try really hard to not do those or worse |
I'm not really understanding why telling me anything would create that kind of fallout. |
Thank you |
Ofc |
I feel like I'm pushing a wedge towards you, and I don't want to do that |
... Last note as a standing PSA |
You are not pushing a wedge |
You're actually being very helpful |
Where do i start then? |
ok good to know ty |
Maybe let's establish some things |
Okay |
First, I don't believe you can break me. I am a sponge. I can handle anything from you, except rejection. |
Okay, same |
I think some of these might make you cry |
Quite possible. I'm not concerned about that. I cry when I have feelings and I'm just fine with it. |
Have i made you cry yet? |
Close, but no |
Not yet |
Okay, good |
Do you remember which? |
Yes, I was very worried last Tuesday night. You were really down on yourself about the HPV test. |
You said worried |
Right. That was as close as I've been to crying |
Interesting |
I think I was a bit worried once or twice otherwise, nothing serious. Mostly when we don't get to finish what feels like an important conversation. Sorry that's not super specific. |
That's vague |
The last part you said |
Do you have examples? |
Wait |
Maybe it would be okay |
Sorry no I don't have a collection of trigger words that I can give you. But I'm always going to try to make sure I understand you before doing anything rash |
Okay |
Rash, to me, implies acting on impulse and perhaps in heroics |
As of right now, i can only think of maybe 2 or 3 scenarios i feel like you would have imagined now that you would intervene in, and i don't think you would need to because i think i would go into it first with you and there would be a mutual resolution |
TLDR ... |
I think we're on the same page. Yes it has occurred to me that you may try not existing at some point. I've never thought that was remotely imminent. We agree on definition of rash |
Okay. Thank you |
It helps if you ask questions, you know |
I actually think hard questions are the best |
Right o. |
For now, please know that I think you are an exceptional and wonderful person. I will never wish I had not met you. I know you've endured like 50 people's worth of pain, hassle, abuse, neglect, and I'm sorry it happened to you. I wish I could stop it from happening. And if I can I will. |
And yet for all of that, I see you, a wonderful person, passionate lover, well learned, witty and fun to be with, and I want to amplify all those things |
Thank you :) |
I also think you have a lot of demons following you around. I see you swatting at them from time to time, as if they were so many wasps. I hope you get to put them in their place some day. I hope you free yourself of the worry and pain and nagging and distractions and ill will they bring you. If I ever can help, please tell me. |
Can you say that in more specifics? |
Because i dont really know who you're referring to |
I'm talking about you metaphorically |
Yes |
These demons of mine though... some are people, I'm sure |
But i also dont know what else they are for the most part |
Neither do I irl. But do you tell me they're there. Again, metaphorically |
I wish i knew what metaphors you've interpreted this way |
yay! |
Here's a tangible example of you and how it's been helpful and different so far: three fingers |
Oh Im sure I wouldn't know anything about that 😊 |
Me either |
Lol |
Aside from sexual achievements (which I think are fantastic), anything else I've helped with? |
Yes. Let me think in a sec |
Kind of similar but also not is that i sometimes think I'm attractive now |
Yay! |
There's still a lot I'm trying to understand about you and your approach of me and how it all works |
And you absolutely are desirable! And deserving! |
Thank you |
Sorry to spoil your rotten mood princess lol |
You havent yet |
:P |
Imma lick your nose for that |
Anyhoo |
Whaddya want? |
Racism? |
Other kinds of inequality? |
Mean people suck |
I want to share at least one personal story. I am sad. I need a prompt. |
Ok give me a moment |
Plz |
Always |
Do you know who died today? |
No? |
https://apnews.com/article/quincy-jones-dead-a9e31c7e39c448d8971519f47a22dd21 |
Oh, yes |
This man's name is on so many things I own, many of which I bought in that last few years |
Boo hoo dammit |
Yes |
Did you know we had fancy goldfish? For yeara |
We literally cried when they died |
I knew a snippet of that |
One we called Fatty would blow kisses to me |
From the surface |
She'd come right up, and blow bubbles at me |
I love that |
They're like little water cows |
What brought this to mind? |
I'm trying to darken the mood |
I see |
Idk how to be goth |
You dont have to be. I take care of it |
But I want to be a slutty goth slut too |
I keep trying to give you trauma to use as inspo |
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You in? |
I cost more than that |
Ohhhh rlllly |
I'm saying I'm going to sell tham |
What color would you like? I can paint them too |
Stain & poly will be $20 |
3 for 50 bucks |
Add preqorn panties for another $50 and I'll be your partner |
Helluva deal right there |
Nice idea! |
Plus 20$ off the video of a hour long orgasm |
Would you like to know something kinda sad about that |
Dammit ok |
I only remember a few bits from the epic orgasming |
True, true |
Oh right. That's not too surprising. You definitely have a heady experience sometimes and don't always remember details. No worries luv. You were so into me being in you. And sometimes I should move, and sometimes not. And sometimes I was licking your clit and you were really jazzed about that. Then later she was a little fatigued. So cute. So hot. |
I am so thrilled |
But it doesn't seem like the me i know to be so demanding |
You knew what you wanted. I loved it |
I have to go be domestic for about 30 ok? |
Yes |
✔️ |
How'd I do on timing? |
I think well |
I switched rooms |
Oh . Switch eh? |
I stood up for the first time in a long time |
So anyway |
Yea |
Yes |
I am having a meh night |
I am sad |
And unmotivated |
I'm sorry |
It's okay |
I wish we could just hang |
Me too |
Pensive and empty and questioning is a lot of how i feel rn |
Do you write at all? |
No |
I definitely do understand having a house full of things to do and amuse, and yet nothing to satisfy |
Do you sing at all? |
I bet you have a lovely voice |
Why do you ask & say that? I promise I'll answer you |
Sometimes I wish I had a female voice to round out the rare musical idea I have |
I have some nice recording stuff too. Not pro quality, but v nice |
And I bought a guitar (my fourth) a while back and have not been motivated to pick it up for want of space |
Long ago music was an outlet for me |
Me too |
In any event, i do sing to myself |
Middle school me won a lot of choral competitions my teacher enrolled me in and i wanted to be on Broadway or equivalent for a long time |
Yay! |
I have a dumb question for you |
And another unrelated question - what would you relate the volume of 31 or 32 ml to? |
32 being oz in a quart, and the 5th power of 2 |
Sigh |
? |
Oh I missed a detail lol |
31-32 ml is about 10% more than one fluid once |
I was looking for volume |
Like for something you'd need diaplacement for |
But i basically found my answer i think |
Ie, a blueberry |
What are you making? |
Nothing |
Is a measurement of one cyst in my report |
Oh wait maybe not |
Idk. Doesnt matter |
It's about a shot glass |
That's not rigjt, though, based on measurements. Idk. Doesnt matter |
Was it reported in ml or mm? Big diff |
I know |
Okay, read it wrong but also not really and now I'm even more confused |
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Hang on one sec thay wasnt the right shot |
Ok |
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How is that right?? |
There's no way |
Don't think of it as a cube. The first one is a 60 ml cube, but when the corners are rounded off, it's about half that volume |
Same for #2 |
But amaller |
Sure.... my "no way" is for the relation in size of one to the other |
If you expect the dimensions to be 1/2, don't. You have to cube that ratio |
Idk. Too much mathing |
Np |
I need to conceptualize it in objects. Like fruit |
The second one is about grape sized |
No thanks |
You asked .. |
Yes i am aware |
And the first? |
Grape tomato maybe? |
Small plum? |
Really a very small plum |
Ping pong ball |
Somewhere in there |
So there's an unwanted grape that's harassing that unwanted apricot |
Right |
No thanks |
Agree |
Sorry |
I mean I'm sorry. You are the bearer of the unwanted fruit |
It's so cruelly ironic |
But again, sorry |
I am not?? |
You have boy parts |
Whoa I did not know that last statement |
Yes, you did |
I am missing context. Help? |
You are cis-male |
Sorry but that is verifiably false. |
You missed my disclaimer part |
I guess so |
... in all of my experiences ever... |
Got you. Sorry I read that wrong way |
Understood now! |
Yes |
May i have a question please? |
From me? |
Of course |
Deep or not so much |
Your choice |
Pffft |
Deep |
Lol |
Orange or yellow |
Orange |
Mmm |
Interesting |
7 or 13 |
7 |
But my instinct was for 13 |
Cake or death? |
Uhh |
Thank you for flying church of England |
Death |
Right |
Not going to change our mind are we? |
Very good |
Ah ah |
Well i AM a gemini |
No, sorry |
Off we go |
How do you see our relationship surviving? |
Ah fuck |
And please no analysis of Romeo and Juliet |
Lol |
Maybe you should answer first |
I mean |
Lololol |
I have an answer, you just wont like it and so i dont want to provide it for you |
https://youtu.be/rMMHUzm22oE?si=pGU3s6ufShuZSKEb |
Dont jump to any conclusions though |
Yes? |
You said i cant look at relevant shakespearean works |
Oh noes! |
I mean yes I did but I'm really concerned about the clichée |
Why are you concerned? |
Do I need to brace for impact lol |
Darling I am feigning silliness |
As a way to deflect any emotional damage |
But not well |
Damage to you or me |
Me |
There's no need for you to fear any damage or rejection or anything of that nature |
You said I would not like it and that scares me a titch |
Because i know how it usually goes and you wont like it |
You'll be the one to end it |
Can I cancel? |
Just blissfully not know |
That's always my out |
Well in fairness I do not have a clear vision |
What does that last bit mean? |
Mmmm okay then |
I meant to clarify that I have no vision of any future, not specifically one that does not include you |
I meant what changed |
Nothing |
You literally said "Much has changed." |
Lol that! |
Much has changed in my existence in the last 24 months or so, and leaves me wondering what's next as opposed to perpetual static |
Interesting |
More adjectives plz |
Kind of same |
Same is true for you? |
But also not really |
Sorry, turned out my internet stopped for a hit second there |
Kind of same for me but also not really |
Roger that |
24 months |
That's an odd amount of time.... what happened then? |
It's rough measure |
But |
24+ months ago I fucked up my knee |
I end up in hospital 3 nights |
I |
Then I quit nicotine 23 months ago, and everything changed |
Smoking is in an isolated addition , never in the house |
No shared HVAC, |
and I don't hang out there anymore |
Waa |
Idk if I had a point lol |
You're telling me why you narrow down that everything changed in the last 24ish months |
Yes |
Thank you |
So I'm like the cigarette widower |
Goofy, but |
We are physically separated most of the time. |
I understand |
And then I tried to be cute and attractive |
And slutty and odd and fun? I was having fun |
And she went with it for a time, and |
Then couldn't keep up. Not an issue with my habits or kinks or anything like that |
But physically cant |
And th n just switched off and got icky about it |
God there's something i absolutely want to tell you but i cannot. At least not yet. Just know that i want to tell you and i wontcant. Just know. |
Dammit |
Not at all? |
Unloading my wife story? |
Nope |
What cant she keep up with? |
She is losing mobility |
Met helpful suggestions with hostility? |
And stated she knows the solution |
Dude you dont have to be nice about her |
That was about 3 months ago, maybe 4 |
The last time you... tried? |
No, when she said she knew exactly what bed she wants |
But here's the thing |
That's not what she wants |
Right |
Because here we are, with no change |
And ok I am very slow at times |
Verrrrt slow |
Looooooow sloooow lol |
Th bed is not th point |
Right |
If i have to dash suddenly then i apologize |
Sorry I just hit a singularity |
What else would you like to say? |
At a point in time, I specifically did not want to rant about my wife |
I understand |
Please rant all you want to me |
My dumb question from earlier: pro choice / pro birth ? |
Well thanks |
Walawala lol |
What do you guess? |
Told you there are dumb questions lol |
Have you always been that way? |
That way what now? |
Have you always been pro choice |
For as long as i have been aware of the issue yes. I think that dates to the year of birth of a sweet girl I know |
Doesnt mean you share ideations |
Lol dad taught as well |
Well we do share |
In they way that they did not impose |
Not much |
I think they both rejected something from childhood |
Wonder what that could have been like lol |
Happy midnight |
Is there any issue you wonder my standings on? |
You too |
Woo!!! 🎉 |
Well I can tell you as a kid growing up in a liberal house |
I hated it |
I mean not really really |
But I was seldom happy |
Really? |
I had to figure out shit for myself |
And things don't always work |
And are not always as advertised |
Haha |
Correct |
I can't honestly say I hated it |
But teen brain is wild |
I am certain I would hate 18 yo me |
Mostly |
I actually kind of know that teen brain is wild, but please share more |
I've been uneasy about one thing or another my almost whole life |
Sometimes trivial shit |
Do my pants look cool |
I have a counterexample for you |
Oh? I'd love to know! |
I was so insecure about my legs not being smooth enough that i essentially deplaned them to be good for you |
You have also now seen me at my worst hairiness |
Really? |
That amount of minutiae consumed me for days leading up to how to prep for you |
Yes, you have |
I'm still rdally, really, really insecure about a lot of trivial shit |
I get it! |
As in, will i taste okay if i dont actively have a freshener in my mouth while he is kissing me |
Aww :) |
Very literal |
Yo do, and it's ok |
I still havent fully fully relaxed for you because |
Can i ask another? |
Of course! |
And I hope so too! |
Do you have an idea of your perfect making love session? |
I can tell you why I'm not able to fully relax yet, if you want |
I think you and I are going to that place. |
I think my question isn't quiiiiiiite clear |
U prob lol |
Maybe it was and I didnt read your answer well enough |
Come at me bro |
I think I've told you before what one of my ultimate desires is, and with you |
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Now i feel like you're looking at my soul |
Maybe? |
You trying for real? |
I can fake it till I make it right? |
I'm just taking cute hair pics |
Lights |
❤️ to “ Lights |
(From a swift song) |
Love that |
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Lights camera bitch smile, even when you wanna die |
You're so damn adorable |
Thank you:) |
So then, referencing above, what do i want most? |
And from you |
You want me to love you for all time |
You are fast acquiring this |
Idk how you do it |
I'll think on that |
In the meantime, i want something more immediate |
And I've told you what it is |
But i dont think we're on the same page yet |
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Surely this is the page |
Says right here |
May fez iz yo feZ |
Well it's something you've had but not me |
Oh you're gonna make me think |
It was entirely this most recent chat before the lyrics |
I can just tell you |
Relaxing? |
Ye of cryptic incantations |
Ok I need to make food. This will take 15-20 |
It is nearly 1am! |
Have to sleep here... sweet dreams babe |
The answer is that i want to make love. Not as an equal term for having sex |
Oh ofc! |
Sorry I thought that was inherent |
Gnight babe! |
I love you |
I love you too |
What do you mean you thought it was inherent? |
I want to make love to you |
I want that sooooo sososooo much |
Silly question - do you know how? Can you tell me how it's different? |
Not allll the specifics please |
In my opinion |
Does that surprise you |
No |
A moment? Can you say more about it |
It'll be when I'm relaxed |
And kind of serious but light |
And we'll just know |
Slow, eye locking with you above me |
Yeah I hear you |
Ohh? |
I mean look at you go! |
And me |
What do you have planned? |
As if I did hehe |
I forget everything when I kiss your skin |
I can remind you |
Ha |
My plan is to show you a good time |
By whatever means called for |
Asterisk lol |
And hopefully I get to come in you too |
Yes, just not Wednesday |
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Good morning! |
19 more :) |
Are you occupied tonight? |
2024-11-05T07:13:24 |
Baaaaaaaaabe! |
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Yay drugs |
Aside from that, As of this morning ive lost about 50 pounds since march :) |
2024-11-05T09:18:11 |
Want something cool? |
Omgggg be more awake plz! |
2024-11-05T10:35:37 |
I'm awake now! Hieee! |
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Haaaaaiiiieeeee |
How are you? |
I'm not thinking lots yet lol |
How are you miss perkyness? |
I'm borderline high on oxy and have been for hours (but actually i think this might just be how non chronic pain people feel everyday? It's fucking amazing) |
Woo! |
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Rehabbed some books comme ca |
Cleaning the croffice still |
Very nice! |
Assembled a bookshelf |
Organized some of the kid books |
Voted yesterday |
But it was late so i count it for today |
Did some OT |
Sleepgasmed |
Found some cool stuff laying around here that is now destined for you |
Woke up around 4? I think. May have been closer to 5. Idk. |
So |
Wowow! So productive! |
I cannot believe what i can do when I'm not on the verge of unaliving from agony |
Also rehabbed a chess set |
I think i have some random unhinged thoughts to share. Theyve been ruminating worse than bovine cud |
Lol! |
Worse than bovine cud |
Exactly |
Just to clarify something |
Oxycodone |
Esp since nsaids are a permanent no for me |
I also have gabapentin thay i take scheduled every night. And pramipexole but that's kind of a dufferent one |
I am mostly familiar with your alphabet soup of drugs lol. Makes sense! Ty |
I take more than that lol |
May i make my random & unhinged statements? I think they'll make you think |
Yes please! |
Even if they arent traditionally happy things ? |
That's ok :) |
Okay cool for now: |
Have you had rough sex? |
What is cnc again? |
I've never had rough or angry sex actually |
Consensual non consent play |
And it blows my mind that you dont have that fantasy locled & loaded |
I just don't like meanness |
I can dig some role play probably |
Right |
I will have to tell you about this couple we met at a show in Flint |
From what i hear, it's about power & control vs anything else |
Oh i look forward to the story |
Remind me in a couple hours |
It's ultimate power for you to do whatever you want even if i say no or stop |
What are you getting me chez kroger? |
This is just a decir piece - what should i put where my thumb is? |
null |
How about a pie? |
Where my thumb is? |
Oh! Like literally that spot |
Hmmm. Maybe? I was going to put it with my other chickens, and they are solely poultry |
What was kroger for? |
And why kroger vs meijer? |
I hates Meijer |
Groceries and a mop! |
Daddy needs a mop |
Daddy is getting 2 mops! Lol |
Hahaha |
Gonna mop the hell out of that basement lol |
Nice |
Poll: |
In general, cashier |
Line & # of items are factors though |
You? |
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Lunch in bed |
Thank you that is perfect timing!!! |
?? |
What about it? |
Bc I just waited what felt like forever for someone to clear me to buy alcohol |
And then you popped up cute af |
Awww |
What did we get me? |
Mop and mop! |
Also.... havent showered or put on makeup or even brushed my hair lol |
Mops =/= alcohols |
Heyyyyyy |
Alcohols! Beer and beer |
What's tomorrow's plan? |
Watchu wanna do girl? |
If you'd rather have a chill day of shopping I'm down |
Sounds good to me |
All of it |
If you want to roll into the sheets and do things I am down for that as well |
You know my restriction |
Yes I do |
I always like doing that with you |
Though I'll miss the special sauce |
Maybe you make it a glaze instead of a filling |
Precisely! |
That will be a first, jsyk |
Oh! |
I might not have any idea how to react |
Goody me too actually |
Fr? |
You've never finished on someone? |
Truth |
Another question - have you finished innn all of your partners at some point? |
Yes |
I think that's insanely hot |
Rly? |
Yeah |
Does it feel better for you to finish inside rather than anywhere else? Is there a difference? |
I don't actually know, right? |
But mouth and pussy feel different |
And I think coming on a girl would be hot fun |
How are they different feeling? |
Oh, i have additional "news" |
Hard to describe. Pussy has a sort of consistent pressure, mouth is more uneven |
Mmmmmm |
Interesting |
It'll be your choice tomorrow |
I HAVVVVVVE to take a nap now though. I will ttyl |
Think about everything you want for tomorrow |
Ok! TTYL ❤️❤️❤️ |
😴 |
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2024-11-05T16:31:12 |
Je me reve |
*reveille |
Oh! |
Bon soir! |
Xoxox |
Ça va? |
Ca va. Et vous? |
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Happy |
Yeah? Whycome? |
Idk, just having a good time |
How was your nap? |
Lovely I hope! |
I love naps even if I'm a bit weird afterwards |
It's usually so refreshing |
I really needed it |
Yay! 🎉 |
Do you feel better? |
Mostly yes |
You make choices yet for tomorrow? |
And what are you doing this saturday and maybe also all next weekend? |
What is the earliest I can come around? This will help me decide plans for tomorrow |
I have no idea about weekend yet |
Or any weekend lol |
I think 8ish is probably earliest |
Okay! |
L is working normal hours |
So 10 then |
Lololol |
Works for me |
Lol |
No srsly |
But he's supposed to start at 0730 |
As in, be at afhq |
Ok I will plan by 9 to arrive |
If to want to get bfast we should do it first |
8 is fine if that works better for you |
Where? |
If you have a spot, there |
Havent ever been but probably |
It has lovely options for veggie me. So I like |
Excellent |
Ofc they have diner bfast it is a duner |
Diner |
I dont eat as .uch meat as you think lol |
I've not really had a thought about that actually |
I also have no idea how much i might eat in general. Might be straight carbs & coffee |
Does it bother you that meat isnt 100% gone from my diet yet? |
No it's fine. |
I'm not judgy like that |
Lol I reserve the right to gloat if it's not to your liking. That does happen. |
If what isnt to my liking? |
I'm describing a hypothetical |
The meat |
Nvm I'm being a brat dick anyway |
Lol i kinda figured all of that |
Hey sister it's your choice all the way |
No questions asked |
Ope, boys just walked in |
I might be afk randomly |
Mmmk |
You get that that was innuendo? |
Oh lol |
🍆 |
Haha 😂 |
🐷 |
Je suis cochon |
Je suis vegetarian |
Bahahahaha |
Mais.... le jambon? C'est exceptionel |
Svp |
Vites |
Vites? |
On dit "vite" si on veut dire "fast"... |
Ou "hurry" |
Lol |
Et merci |
Vite avec.... quand je vous donne de la tete?!? |
Ohlala |
Et la tete! |
Lol |
Apres le petit dejeuner au matin? On fait quoi? |
null |
Oh, it's a pipe tool |
For packing |
Sure it is |
After I sweeten it with my ass lol??? |
Thought you didnt like that kind of play on you? |
I dont |
But I can still talk dirty right? |
Ofc |
So then you would or would not consider making that implement more saccharin with my sweet ass? |
Besides I need to make the next one longer |
And I think the one I made last night would be better, don't you? |
I dont know if we've established if it should be tested with me or not |
Ok no worries |
Do you really like things in your butt? |
It's ok |
If so |
I think i would like to try it |
I think i would like it |
❓❓❓ |
I thought this was already known to you |
Nope. Just the plugs for the pics i showed you, which weren't procured or placed or photographed by me |
I want to try exploring that world |
Ohhhhh |
Well |
Ffs |
Fuck mep |
Meep |
Lol |
Is that a no? |
No lol |
What do you think then? |
I'm fine with playing. |
I might be weird about it, but I'll be clear |
And you? |
Lol |
I dont want you to do anything you dont want to |
Sorry--i will Try to be clear |
I might like a little a little is what I'm saying |
I'm talking about me receiving. Just me for this part of our conversation. You lead. That's the rule |
Do you need more clarity still? |
I have not made all of my feelings known yet |
All clear here babe |
Okay |
Nanana |
No weird, only truth |
What do you mean? 🤔 |
Let's be Frank |
You are Frank |
I am Frank |
Pleased to meat you |
Hahahahahahaha |
What would you like |
Lol |
And don't worry about anything I ever said ok |
Let me say.... i have friends who do plenty of this activity and a thousand things you would never do (nor would i ask) |
What are you thinking for tomorrow's activities? Where do they take place? |
Please clarify what you mean by "where" |
Examples range from "on the bed" to "somewhere near Mason" to "near a meadow in the back seat but actual coordinates tbd" |
Got it got it |
How critical is it for me for know this now vs later? |
Not, unless i need to somehow prepare |
No prepare worry |
Let's keep it to familiar things for simplicity ok? |
Except I will take you out for bfast if you like |
Yes, good, i wasnt thinking anything else - should i have been? |
Nope all good |
I actually might have more niche requests but all familiar and normal and whatever |
Ok I love all that |
I'm just trying to simplify requirements |
Bc I am in no way ready to set an agenda |
😘😘😘😘 |
No prob |
Why did you think i was trying to? |
Your answer will help me |
And havejt we been setting agendas or mm |
?? |
Idk |
So about cars |
And your back |
That sounds like a bad combo to me |
Do you have relevant experiences? |
Asking for a friend |
As if |
Lol |
Ok I need to know more about story #3 sometime |
But point taken. You've convinced me |
But there's a lonely bed in the upstairs here too |
And might need that for my secret selfish plans |
Wella Wella poor poor bed |
I love your bed |
I love you in your bed |
Remind me please: |
Lube ready |
Oh wow |
Lol |
Can I still pussy fuck you as long as I don't come in you? |
Yes |
Ok just keeping abreast of options |
Sounds good to me |
No worries luv, |
Do you have ideas in that pretty lottle head of yours? |
No |
Oh yeah and I owe you a nose lick for something |
Nonsense! |
It's true |
Scroll up like 10,000 messages |
It's right there |
L just got home, in case i am suddenly quiet |
In plain view |
Ok |
It's established |
So then you should know what super selfish chore i want you to do |
Ohhhhh? |
Ppleas say more |
Start guessing |
null |
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Yes! Can i take you somewhere to look? |
Can you take me? And look? Abs |
Lol |
Better start guessing what i want |
You want me to shave you? |
Um no |
Fold your panties? |
Lick your bra clean? |
Suck your fingers? |
Clean your ears with my tongue? |
Clean your teeth with my face? |
You've quite thw dirty mind tonight! |
Plz |
I wanna be slutty and perfect |
Then make me feel good |
AOh!!!! |
The story |
You forgot to ask lol |
Make you feel good eh? I will break the previous record of coming for 2 hours |
For you |
Consent? |
Yes l9l |
Better incorporate some neck and shoulder kisses along with some ainful back massaging tho |
Deal, deal |
Fair warning, I will probably be tired , especially after eating. Let me have a quick nap? Like 1 hour |
Sure |
We dont HAVE to eat if you dont want |
Will you lie with me |
It's best |
Ofc |
Ok it will be good and yummy |
Yes, I'm just going to be slothy and crude for a bit |
It's ok yeah? I only eat bark and shit |
And I like to hold you lots |
Yeah |
It's good |
Ty |
Ty |
What do you want from our day? |
I don't know |
You canna say that |
No |
You give me one example first |
You say what's on your mind. I already did above |
:P |
It's ok even if not |
I feel very very selfish and entitled saying them |
But i do have some things in mind |
Fine fine fine |
I don't think I will surprise you at this point |
Do you really want me to say them. |
As in |
YES PLZ |
Things that sound wonderful to me that are attainable for tomorrow: |
Yay! 🎉 |
Ty |
Oh. Something else |
I want to talk |
Ok! |
Just know thar most of these stories i havent ever told anyone, and ive only said one out loud ever and that story was of the first time i self harmed and was to my therapist. Once |
Ok np babe |
Lmk if there is any safe space prep that can be done |
Like? |
Let me know if there is anything I should do |
Okay, thanks |
Like should I bite my lip |
Can we rub nipples |
Together |
Just a little |
So I can grab your beautiful ass |
And pull you to me |
Can you be firm? Like, a little forceful? |
Yes ofc |
Ok |
I know what else i think i want tmrw |
Yesssss |
Tell me |
Porn |
Yay! 🎉 |
Lol a fun subreddit sometimes is r/publicreminders |
I'll have to check it out |
Simple premise |
One of us takes a nsfw pic of the other, and displays it on their phone some time later in a public place, such as at a diner having bfast. The phone of the person on display takes a picture of the other person's phone with the subject in the frame |
I'm making it sound overly complicated |
Nope i get it |
It feels like a deliciously slutty exercise |
But takes planning |
Or the presence of mind to snap a nsfw pic |
You know i want you to take them at some point |
Why is that? What's in it for you? |
Grok ? |
Understand |
And you think i feel like i need to trust you more? |
I don't understand why you would offer that up so freely |
A few reasons |
Ok, great! |
I want you to have control |
I don't want to share them anyway |
Because I'm greedy |
Lol okay |
You haven't been pushy for pics from me |
I don't have pics of anyone else |
Except what I got online |
My point there is that if you'll me pics of other girls then i know you'll show me to them |
2024-11-06T05:53:58 |
Good morning! |
2024-11-06T07:19:58 |
Good morning! |
Just waking up.... you have an arrival time in mind? |
About an hour? |
Yeah that should be good. Just needed to know :) |
😊 |
Hello! |
May I come in? |
Are you here? |
I am! |
Okay cool. I'm unready but will come get you lol |
2024-11-06T17:48:24 |
Wow my house reeks of cigarettes |
?? |
The back door must have been open for a while. That door leads to the porch addition where the smoking happens |
Oh no! Im sorry 😞 |
Thank you for all of today |
You did not ruin anything |
No apology accepted |
I really do want to hear your stories |
I'd like to think I'm helping in some small way. I can't change what happened, but I can listen |
Im sure you are. I dont know either, but i dont unmask like this for basically anyone. It's very strange |
I did something i didn't think i coule do so easily though |
Another sort of first! |
Still hasnt set in in any way, shape, or form, but at least it's knowledge to me now |
It's something I'm kind of looking at from outside for now and i dont know what to make of it |
When i was a kid, like a kiddddddd kid, that was rape |
Yep |
It still doesnt feel that way to me and i dont know why |
At the same time, i am never sad that one of them is dead |
Literally never. I do not misa him. Not that I'm glad he's gone but i feel indifferent |
That makes sense to me honestly |
I have something totally fucked to say |
I knew him, it didnt always hurt, tgere wasnt some secret back alley with gang members in the shadows, and i didnt say anything so i feel like i was complicit in leeting it go on for years |
*call that |
Idk, but I don't think that is uncommon |
I didnt open my eyes upstairs when i was talking |
Did that help? I mean, did it make it easier to talk about it |
Yes. Thank you. I dont know if you knew or not |
I wasn't aware actually |
I might struggle with looking you in the eyes for a bit. Might not. |
Thanks for the heads-up :) |
I appreciate you not being all over me while i was talking |
Yeah ofc |
It seemed like a better time to listen |
And hold you |
Thank you |
Absolutely. You are welcome |
Do you have feelings or thoughts? |
Sure |
As always, I am astounded at how many people and institutions have failed you |
Youve added to that list somewhat |
And I'm even more impressed at your resilience. How did you not end up like one of those poor discarded souls in Virginia? It's a rhetorical question, but you have every reason to say life has put you through the wringer, the blender, and the chopper, and you're still here? |
Not without a few metaphorical bruises and scars, and indeed, very real ones. You deserve to be taken care of by someone that cares |
I appreciate that. I have to be okay with that not happening |
It's always wise to have a backup plan, yeah? But I hope the universe is done tormenting you at the least, and that that you find |
Someone who can be a caring friend and everything else you need |
Back up plans are good, yes |
What else? |
I'm sure glad you're here. I'm sorry about all the crap you've been served and suffered. |
And I like feeling like we are friends and not just FWB, not that I really know the latter scenario |
Somehow |
I've been able to provide some firsts and I love hearing you talk about them because I think they make you a little bit happier. I hope I can keep going! |
Yes :) |
Yay! 🎉 |
How do you know how many firsts you are yet to have? |
Hey you wanna see something? |
Lol |
And yes! |
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Nice |
It's kind of a joke? |
Yes |
The board is v nice |
There is a joke to why I have this |
But hey the plumbers I had over a year ago complimented me on it so there that |
Lol |
My buddy in band and high school , Mike, he was a freshman skater |
Lol he was a fr skater |
We'd go downtown and burn quartet pinball Pete's, hit record shops etc |
Jfc |
*quarters |
Well one time he put each of us in a raffle for this board,and I won it |
I knew nothing about boards except I had a couple chums that were tricksy with them, cool stuff |
So I fiddled with it for a while |
Narayan rode it for a spell |
But none of us could do much for real |
But I guess it's cool? Lance Mountain is still a respected name in the biz idk |
Very cool! |
Lol shit I need to put some clean hardware on that son |
Sadly, Mike ended himself in college at UM |
I found out a year or so later. I was not good at keeping up though |
Im sorry that happened |
Thanks |
Those kinds of things are amazing |
So much so. I don't understand it |
I'm sorry it happened to you |
I dont know that you know that, but thanks |
Not awkward lol |
Did i tell you about the day the school counselor called? |
Was it related to the stellar performance by the principal? |
Nope |
Principal was 5th grade |
Juicy |
What guidance did they muster? |
Two acquantances noticed i was depressed. They went to that office. They saw that i had every symptom of suicidality and told the counselor. |
I'm so sorry! What a waste of oxygen |
Sorry I was thinking about the counselor |
And your mom failed you |
I so do not like that |
It's not my place to tell you about your mom tho |
It's okay |
It's confusing at best |
To me at least |
Does L know what I know about your childhood up to say grade 3? |
Yes |
Okay |
Tx |
Why do you ask? |
I am wondering about the inlaw dynamic from his perspective |
I would find it extremely difficult to like your mother |
He and my mother are kind of bffs most days |
K |
Wow |
Yep |
Yeah you did say that before now I remember |
He knows about my brother and my father |
He still encourages me to talk to that guy in florida and to see him when he's in this state |
He's heard my father & me talk live, verbatim |
And has been an inperson witness to our dynamic and how i still get treated by everyone |
And he basically does the same |
So that's awesome |
null |
Harrumph |
Cute |
Ughh |
Wait I thought I asked something lol |
I didn't type it out |
Have you ever had a discussion with L about supporting you? |
Yes, many |
Btw I might steal your "ugh" idea |
It's brill |
Supporting you with your mom |
Let's make it a joint thrifting adventure goal ? |
I honestly hate goals |
More like an extended mission |
Extended missionary...? |
Oh |
I'll take that last one |
I have something stupid to say at that |
I felt like when i was talking today would have been a good moment to go really slow at some lovemaking |
Me too! |
Bc there's so much I still want to do with my mouth around your neck |
And damn I love hearing you tell me yes Yes |
I do like those spots |
I wish you were still here |
You tell me Yes:) |
null |
There is a real application in my basement for this knowledge |
And you can help |
I need a semi-opaque, easy to pass though medium with length L |
Is there an issue with hippie bead curtains? |
Not likely. But my model is incorrect lol so please disregard |
Hey |
Oh?? |
Yeah |
Some day id like to give you a pamper sesh |
You've done that no less than twice lol |
Ok great :) |
More as in you have given me more than the 2 already |
I love focusing on you |
I feel insanely selfish letting you do that |
Pffft too bad |
It is my will lol |
Describe such a sesh, please? |
Make it so |
You will submit to my pleasantries for I will command it |
See what I did there |
I'll get some warm washcloths, some nice cleansing oils and give you a delicious bath |
And make you all squishy and moist |
And |
I work for tips |
Just the tip? |
Nice warm you up, float you away into healing yummy space(TM) where you are free to spread your wings of desire and have anything you want |
And maybe one or two things I want ? Yes yes |
I think this would be a perfect smoking mood |
So peaceful and intimate! |
And gawd I love focusing on you |
Wtf how do you do that |
Oh, riiiiight |
NGL fucking you deeply is incredible, rewarding, experiencial, sexy af. |
A1 10/10 first class |
How do i do what? |
Which is to say |
. |
How do you make me want you so |
Idk |
I am just me |
null |
You are so wonderful |
You're probably the most wonderful person ive ever met |
There are things you havent quite pieces together you get that, right? |
I believe it! |
What questions do you have? |
None ATM |
Ok |
Ok |
Yes? |
Yeah , ish! So I'm just saying thanks |
Can't wait to do an extended vaca |
Or something |
Yes :) |
Still alone, btw |
The B is strong |
?? |
One guess? |
It starts a last name? |
Yessss |
I am so smart |
Yes you are |
You recall what's happening on Friday |
Unpleasant obgyn procedures |
Yes |
L is going to comiccon all day on saturday |
In Novi |
I dont want him here necessarily |
But like, he could have asked |
Fuck I forgot to follow up with the comicon ref |
No shit |
It's possible to have pain and bleed for a while after |
Would L being there help? |
No. It would be worse more than likely |
null |
Yeah, he made plans knowing this would be a difficult weekend |
For you |
Yes |
So with knowledge of medical things |
After the ultrasound results and all of that too |
And so drove from ann arbor to novi to get his wrist band |
With his sister in tow |
Ohhhh that trek |
Fml |
Yep |
I'm sorry |
It's okay |
I didn't finish my B story |
Actually I have a different B story |
No not that one lol |
If you want to know more about my porn habit and it's so development |
YES |
And when am i going to see something? |
So? Idk |
So B |
I was a noob in Reddit porn subs and followed a few posters |
One advertised a "limited special offer" OF subscription, so I jumped at it lol |
And she was like Yay! Totally ty and have fun |
Cool, I actually told her I feel like I am always late to the party for specials, so wow!! |
Well that was my first OF sub |
And I actually liked her. She is not an extravagant or glamour gal. She's a once mom with a fucking good paying job by the looks of things, and I liked the MILF angle |
And her hubbwas a sub whom she occasionally pegged |
And I guess they were all big with friends, but we never got to see that |
They were all *bi* |
She'd often film in hotel rooms on company business |
Anyhoo |
I dropped off OF after 10 months or so, told her peace out. She was always really nice to me |
Then I come back to OF in 3 months, look her up, and there is zero trace on OF, Reddit. Nothing |
She was the first person i remember actually paying for (all of 8/no or some such), and conversing with |
Hay |
Sorry, someone just came home |
Thanks for sharing that story |
Sure yes |
I had a few OF sweethearts |
But not really |
Oh |
You know my hair is long |
Thanks |
I mostly sleep alone but appreciate that |
Good good |
What do you want to know? |
I have no more questions today sweets |
Ok :( |
You like questions |
Does it bother you I have a drinking problem? |
Sorry picked a personal one |
It does not |
Personal in that I am internally conflicted about it |
But thank you for that |
Why are you conflicted? |
Because it objectively falls in the realm of "things I should change to live longer", and yet, I find myself increasingly ambivalent about that |
I know that world very very well |
Yeah |
I'm soaking that in rn |
Not for the first time |
Just a new connection for me |
Connection between us or Connection you made in your mind? |
Between us |
I've been quietly aware of this attitude for ages |
??? Lol |
Topic |
I have a similar line of thought that's a little more extreme too |
I believe |
I am asking of you'd like to hear ir |
Yes, just had to reflect for a sec |
Wtf ''' |
Nvm me lol |
Share your reflections please |
FYI my hair can be up to 600mm in length |
It may be dark brown or white |
Ok |
Yes I avoided smoking cessation for at least 2 years bc I was afraid |
And made it this problem that FML id rather have than face |
And that was actually stupid of me |
So here I am at familiar crossroads. You might think I got smart |
I am .ore scared than ever |
Scared might be a touch strong, but the addiction is real |
I have no worries about what I will do, other than creating a nuisance. I'm a happy drunk, I know not to drive, and I usually don't buy 150$ worth of records |
Sorry if I've veered into TMI |
In case of sleep |
null |
I love you |
2024-11-07T05:55:56 |
Hello! |
Thank you for sharing that |
I am so so infinitely sorry that i fell asleep |
How are you today? Any more thoughts about anything? |
Pardon this interruption: i have a work task that I have to do manually and it's kinda dumb. Any chance you have a workaround? |
Good morning babe! I overslept a bit :) |
Happy to take a look at your process when I have my wits together |
Better get that coffee! |
Working on it! |
😊 |
May i have cheer please? |
null |
Lol thanks |
Still not talking to me |
What? |
Hey! |
null |
Wassup? |
Meh |
I feel blahhh |
You're the last person who's spoken to me and I'm miffed about it |
Will be cleaning today and maybe working |
Wait, what? What is going on |
He's mad that i went to the thrift store |
Ohhhh, and now he's not talking |
Yes |
Is he wfh today? |
Nope |
So what happened this morning? He just left without a word? |
Yes |
Same when he came home and i was in the living room cleaning |
Huh |
Sorry |
Why sorry? |
I don't know |
I feel weird |
It's wild how we kinda share this experience |
Yes |
Can you tell me how to not feel physically eeeuuchhhugh rn please? |
Then work task |
Hmm. Make sure you have something on your stomach, even if it's a plain cracker |
null |
Then try to distract yourself. Last time something like this happened to me , loud music and cleaning was the soluy |
I'm mostly just swirly dizzy and oww |
Alrighty then, crackers, check! |
I keep crackers in every room lol |
Can i show you some stamps? |
Yes! |
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That's a set with cards and an example of one card |
null |
null |
Oops lol |
null |
null |
That's a catchall box for me to sort. Lots of international and firat day of issue |
And these are mostly full |
null |
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And these |
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And i have more that are just kinda hidden for now |
Dang! That's a lot of stamps |
I had inherited my grandpa's collection (lots of ww2 letters and stuff in it) but, yknow, flames kinda got them |
Oh crap! |
Yeah. It is what it is |
Ohhhh i do not feel goos |
You ok? |
Idk |
:( |
Yep |
Well we both know that's lies |
And all my systems are being little bitches anyway and not working and they jist told all of us to get back on phones for the day |
How do i do this nicely and without sounding whony and incompetent at life, |
Well i bit the chomp |
Poor baby! |
I'm sorry |
It's fine |
If you feel like escaping the house, plz let me know |
Sure wish I could rn! |
Me too |
I might nap. Might go roam. Idk. I just feel like garbage |
2024-11-07T11:46:22 |
Hey |
Hey sweetie |
How are you? |
I just took a 30 min nap lol |
Feeling good -ish |
Oh, good |
How are you feeling? Any better? |
Maybe a little |
Do you have any legit ideas for how i can feel better? |
Idk what's wrong :( |
Myalgia |
And mood |
They affect each other |
Chamomile and or mint tea? |
I can try 1 of those, thanks |
I know options are somewhat limited:( |
Weed might help too actually |
I appreciate it though |
I might have a gummy |
What can i make you? |
You want to make me something, like something crafty? |
Yes please |
I also found a small wooden box you might like |
null |
Yes, very |
Yes: |
Do you want it ultra tight fitting or can it be looser, like a spectacle case? |
What am i going to lunch on? |
I'd say looser |
Color or pattern? |
Cheese quesadilla? |
Good idea, no tortilla |
Solid color exterior plz. Pattern good on inside, if it can be done that way |
Which solid color? |
Hard case or soft, meaning flexibility |
I'm leaning towards soft, but not committed. It's easier to find a space for that way. I think pretty much any bright color would be good? Red, green, blue, orange, yellow, purple, etc. Except not white |
Sounds good |
May i have some cuddles ? |
Yes please |
Can we do it on the Internet |
null |
You know where to find me |
Omg im even crying in the gif |
I didn't actually mean to tap that one |
But cuddles anyway |
That one was perfect |
null |
Im up in my tower if you'd like to come rescue me |
null |
I need to go do something that's nothing |
Lol |
Anything you want there? |
You can come visit :) |
He still wont speak to me |
Like, wtf has my life become |
Did you try talking to him or something? How do you know? |
When did that start anyway? |
I've texted and tried calling. Teams-ed this morning. And i just know. |
:| |
I'm glad you're feeling better. What's the right med in this case? |
And I'm sorry L is being that way |
I sure do understand too |
He is always this wah |
Kind of a lot of drugs |
Norco |
Kinda weird - i still hurt the same or worse but i care less |
Like kinda "numb" but not really? |
Like my body feels ow but my mind is a little fuzzy |
No, I don't know that I've recognized that |
I hum, that's a really big one |
Twirl my haor (that's why it's always down) |
Rub my lega together like a cricket or flex my feet |
Ohh I did notice you hair twirling yesterday |
You HAVE to have noticed that i never stop moving my legs |
Tbh I'm not super aware of it bc people do that sometimes, but yes |
Lol okay |
Done with working yet? |
Tick |
Watching clock as if it matters |
Tick |
Fuck it lol |
Who me ?? Yes! |
Lop |
Dang you little so and so |
I woke up thinking about you like that |
Dammit |
Soon babydollcakes |
null |
Interested? |
Hard no |
Ty |
I can't handle flavors |
Awwww sad! |
Whatcha doin? |
Trying to connect my laptop to my network storage lol |
Dream of me instead ;) |
null |
Good! |
Anyway.... |
Think of me naked lately? |
Allllll the details please |
Lol you are too much sometimes 😛 |
Yes I thought about you naked not much later (this morning) |
When I was alone |
And thinking about giving you the best hard on I can make |
And how exquisitely tight you were as I thrust into you, while I looked down, into your eyes |
And your whole face said "fuck me please" |
And we fucked and fucked |
Are we still in dreamland or is any of this realized yet? |
Well it was all fantasy you understand, but the second part was me being a more active participant |
Oh? |
Wait - do you actually irl get harder?? |
Oh yes |
You seen maybe level 4 of 5 for me |
That doesn't compute but i look forward to more |
I want it harddddd at some point |
And fir you to be a little rough and greedy for yourself |
(But i demand aftercare) |
Haha all will be provided |
Im being text yelled at instead of silent treatment |
8| |
Will you engage or no? |
No |
:( |
Sorry luv |
Been there too ob |
Can you just dig in to whatever you were doing? No need to dwell |
What was i doing? |
I was at the dollar store. Now i want more drugs, some caffeinw, and to clean |
Rock and roll sister |
Im so upset |
Surely babe! I know it's irritating |
And sorry too |
I'm lamenting thia all to my mother rn |
I have quite the sailors mouth |
I think she actually understands though |
Told her imma throw myself off a bridge if my roommate sitcb doesnt improve |
Anyway babes |
Yes |
Stich? |
Sitch |
Got it |
Oddly enough, we just had a skirmish here. I walked away pretty quick |
What happened? |
Not worth repeating really |
Wanna know something hilarrrrrrrious |
Yes! |
Guess what happened 14 years ago today |
Uh-oh |
You didnt guess yet |
You were 24 |
I sure was |
There are 2 primary answers |
Syllables? |
What?? Huh? |
1st word how many syllables? |
null |
1 syllable? |
What does it rhyme with? |
Omg |
It was my last first date 14 years ago today |
Oh! |
Congrats? Or ? |
Idk |
And the second thing? |
null |
null |
What about a cat lover mug? |
Fml |
My cabbages! |
Burn them? |
Poor bebes |
No no no such a mean baby |
Why are we exclaiming about cabbages? |
Sorry, avatar last Airbender reference |
Wanna see some stuffs i finded for you? |
Oh wow yes please! |
null |
The mediterranean one has some cool salads |
How lovely! |
It's right up my cranial alley |
😘😘😚 |
❤ |
I notices there's still a James Webb book and a Grey's Anatomy body atlas here |
Ohhhhh |
Beebee |
I♥️all things telescope |
Any other issues? |
Issues? That wasnt an issue |
And isk. Probably |
I'm kinda scared |
What's happening?0 |
Juat about tomorrow and the following |
null |
3 of my best pencils have absconded to the other tray |
Please help me |
? |
You're my only hope |
Do you actually need help? |
No |
Ty |
Channeling my best |
Princess Leia |
I know |
Im sorry |
Not well apparently lol |
Im not doing well |
Oh crap what is up |
Scared for tomorrow and after that. And im so fucking alone and I'm kind of panicking |
Im literally crying while i assemble a bookshelf |
After specifically being told that i will be on my own tonight and i should go to sleep soon |
I'm so sorry |
I know |
Why "on your own", or rather what is the part denied? |
He's still mad |
Sighs |
Taking 2 Ativan |
I probably need food |
Are you at home |
Yeah why? |
Just a status thing |
You at home too? |
I just. Ant |
*cant |
Current pov |
null |
I mean I'm intrigued |
It's bad lol |
What is bad |
The bed |
It's full of stuff and i need to sleep |
No room for me then |
I have a new development |
Yes |
What is it? |
null |
He just decided i dont need anything and threw it away |
I was upstairs, he didnt say anything |
Like put your things in the trash and mic dropped |
I wasnt supposed to notice |
Wtf |
Like you wouldn't? |
What do i even do |
Is this novel |
Huh? |
New behavior |
No and yes and i dont know |
Can i tell you rrally upsetting information |
What's happening babe |
Well I'm alone now and just make some toaster things but i am empty and sad and full of secrets that get loosened with benzodiazepines |
He is asleeo |
Already?? |
Yes? I dont know when he was down here |
Anna karenina but i matter less |
Ffs |
Anyway |
Sry hold plz |
All good |
Okay |
What would you like me to ask? |
Anything you want |
What do you want to tell! |
? |
Random bits that align |
Okay |
Like the time i was cleaning and found a handgun in his nightstand. Cabinet wasnt locked or secured in anyway |
Sorry, my eyes are blurry |
Ok np |
Do you have a theory? |
A couple |
But nothing thay would justify open weapons next to where you and your wife sleep and |
Not twll8ng her they're there |
When was that? |
Year and a half ago maybe,? |
How do you know he is asleep |
Might be playing video fames |
I see |
What are you doing? |
I'm ok. Gonna fade out now |
I love y'all |
Sorry I'm having pronoun issues lol |
Take care! |
null |
2024-11-08T06:31:10 |
Good morning :) |
Hi babe! |
How are you? |
So far so good! |
I am less than well |
:( I'm sorry |
Why sorry? |
I feel bad that you are unwell |
Oh |
What's on your mind this morning |
Apathy to my current relationship at this moment |
And you? |
What's the last thing you remember me telling you about last night? |
Handgun discovered in nightstand |
Oh okay |
null |
That was last night when i went to let sadie in. Anything of mine he decided he was sick of (not sure what the actual criteria were since it seemed just like whatever i had gotten with you and was waiting to be set in the dishwasher that i picked up on wednesday) he just put in the trash |
I came upon it by happenstance - he didnt make a scene or anything. Just threw it away while i was doing something else |
I'm sorry, you did show me that pic |
Did you find more today? |
I havent left my bedroom yet today |
Is L still around? |
I think so |
Idk. He hasn't answered his phone yet |
I am tired |
Hi |
Hey babe |
null |
How is work going? |
It's worky |
Got some PS work to do , finish my self evaluation |
Is L taking you to your appt? |
I guess |
2024-11-08T10:58:46 |
Wish me luck |
Drugs for lunch please |
I would rather die than feel this way or be here anymore |
Good luck babe!!! |
Well |
It's just about done |
Yeah sorry I was late |
It's whatever |
Youre working |
This MA is stipid as fuck and i want to go but cant |
Grr |
It's done |
Thank goodness |
How are you |
Mixed. Energized by anger |
Ready to be done |
When are you done? Plans then? |
No I'm not done |
1600 ish |
Are you back home? |
2024-11-08T16:11:55 |
Yes, am home. Slept all day |
Okay |
How are you |
I think ok |
I'm ok too |
Why just ok? |
Kinda feels like frustrations from the week are catching up with me. |
That's good! Same here |
Elections, spouse crap, price of eggs, whatever lol |
What's new spousewise? |
Nothing today |
Don't get me wrong |
But? |
But nothing I guess. I'm just being morose |
Just need to shake off a bit |
What's on your agenda? |
Your feelings are valid |
Agenda until when? How about yours? |
Nothing here m8 |
Mine is cleaning. Per usual. |
Probably same here lol |
Wish you could come here & help me. Or sit & body double at least |
Yeah that would be nice. I can be a good servant |
Nope |
Whaddya mean nope |
I mean i am kinda sad and tired and oww and could just use company |
Yes ofc |
null |
What do you need done with it? |
The turntable (43cm wide x 36cm deep) needs a shelf above the wooden table. Same height to fit above the mirror, below the installed shelf.
|
Had to be shallow depth shelf |
Like a board and brackets, but I could probably improvise the brackets |
Hdwe store brackets a re meh |
null |
That can be fun! |
I enjoy it! |
null |
Because Velcro is amerifuckingcan |
:p |
I wish i was more fun right now, I'm sorry |
Yer ok |
Idk |
You have soup? |
Yes |
This is a good idea! |
No |
See here is where I would make it for you |
No you say |
I Don't think so 🙅♀️ |
Lol |
Ok |
Maybe |
What do you need? |
I've a friendly cat. I'm halfway there. |
Riiiiight |
null |
Afk up to 60 |
Very curious whst poat pic is.... |
Friendly cat , meet Rebecca |
Short for...? |
King rama of indian lore? |
Lord Rama |
Hindu |
Yes, sorry |
Ramachandran Birch Holaday |
Bc |
When he really gets going on that jumper he talks about it to passers by |
I think he has some sort of emission from time to time |
I wash the jumper regularly |
Always a positive idea |
Poor dude had his balls cut off you know |
You did similar for yourself |
Except I still have hormones I guess ? Idk |
All 2 of them |
Oh I'm aware |
I hope they're enough. There might be three altogether |
They're more than enough |
Are you tempting me? |
Somehow, there is a star fracture exactly where my right thumb should swipe up |
Time to replace that |
I hope I'm always tempting you |
You are always a delight |
I feel like this must be a fubar evening for you |
Fubar yet snafu |
Where's your head at? |
DR is accepting the pizza delivery. Back in 15ish |
Why do you think my evening is fubar snafu ? |
Girl surgery is not my idea of a good time |
Oh. Well yes, correct. Did you want me to make it worse for you to imagine? |
Not really |
What would you tell me if I were there? |
Unsure |
I want to ensure your post-op is all covered |
Sorry, I'm not trying to be coy or chummy i just literally don't understand the chatting because i took a mg of ativan last night and i guess it super affected me |
Ok :) |
So can you rephrase what you wanted a response to please? |
If I were with you this very moment, what would you say? |
I would have already told you about the ordeal. I would just want you to cuddle me and pet my hair and let me cry and probably tell you sad stories |
This is perfect |
I will do it, next opportunity |
I wish I could be there rn |
Me too |
https://open.spotify.com/track/6cbCWhDbKgd8oMV3dRESRt?si=gylbk2pYSKS97n493fetog |
Thanks |
One reason I love these gals |
I'll listen to it when I'm in a different mood |
Fwiw it's an ironic device. But no worries |
I feel like i should just use things that will pull me farther down for now |
Visceral like? |
Yeah |
Do you have faves? |
Sometimes I drill straight into a cry mix |
Yes, depending on why i want to be sad. L9ke what trigger I'm looking for |
But seldom wrote it down |
Old go to for me |
I feel like i know this one but i dont |
Worth a listen |
Also.... you and i are misaligned when it comes to invoking sadness and going farther down |
Haha I kinda expected that |
Tell me about yours |
It doesn't happen that often and i cant make myself sad - it has to have been something that i felt that sent me there. Ir a realization i have. Or a sparked memory or something like that. Then i just get lost in my mind and i feel like im not hurting enough for whatever reason so i augment it with more memory trajectory or relatable lyrica or feels or music from that time |
Yes |
Major outer things can definitely do this |
And random inner things for me at least |
Yes |
And I may latch on and apiral |
Or not |
Yes |
But it can be satisfying in its way |
A good outcome |
And processing |
Of emotions |
Hormones are a mf |
Yes |
Exactly 👍 |
YAY!! 🎉 |
S e e I'm a goth girlet too |
What is your advice |
null |
I |
Good girl |
😊 |
Idk how to tempt you now. Sry |
Whay are you trying to tempt me for or with? |
null |
Oops |
And you think i don't already want and need it, |
Oops... nah |
Wait isn't this Rebecca |
Sry |
Sniff |
Reset |
null |
Ok lol |
Yay! 💐💐💐 |
null |
Aww |
Woo!!! |
How has tonight been? |
Pas Mal I would say |
Cool 😎 |
null |
Fake baby mouseling? |
Idk he decides actually |
Lol |
I do bait them ofc but they will often bring such things to my hangout, |
Whether I'm there, or as a surprise next time |
They love the praise |
Wonder where they got auch a crazy idea |
Fjk Rama is full on fucking the blanket now |
I guess RN I could film l |
Uh wow |
Fine time here |
So how's your low tug going? |
Feel up or doun |
Like music? |
Whatever you like! |
Color? |
I'm not sure what "low tug" means |
Wotd? |
Sotd? |
Where's your head at? |
Sad |
Happy |
Down for the most part |
Perfect |
Overwhelmed and apathetic, simultaneously |
Direction desired? |
Away |
More energetic or same? Or less? |
Idk |
https://open.spotify.com/track/3DZfp14PTnqbFToBnCztfW?si=oEVIpZwMQzyJG2sDHSUm_w |
Yes |
Yay! |
I so love that one |
2024-11-09T00:07:00 |
Hey |
Hello! |
Xoxox |
Xerox |
Xenophobic |
null |
Actually not xenophobic |
Hope your sleep is perfect |
2024-11-09T06:08:53 |
null |
Good morning! |
Explanation of yesterday's poor behavior & attitude #1: no anaesthetic |
2024-11-09T08:39:34 |
Might be afk for long swathes today, jsyk |
2024-11-09T10:26:43 |
You doing okay? |
Hiee babe! |
I've been snoozing long time |
null |
Why so sleepy? |
I guess I was up pretty late |
How come? |
Just listening to music and whatnot |
Nice |
Anything ot anyone new? |
New phone screen protector! |
Cool |
Not this time |
2024-11-09T13:13:41 |
How's it going? |
Did you need a mirror? What size? |
I do need a mirror, 15" x 20-28", or can be cut down (no bevels) |
I'm not likely to be free but hope springs eternal |
Hey i might need some help. Cant really talk this second but... . Idk |
Ok |
Remember my set of encyclopedias? |
Yeah! |
He threw them away |
Wtaf |
null |
Wow |
My mother has been here all day too |
He is at comic con |
I think i would lik3 to just stop breathing and sleep forever now |
But i have to go paint with a friend in a few hours |
I am on the floor and begging for it to just swallow me whole |
I'm so sorry |
I have no idea what else he's thrown away at this point |
Right? |
And i havent told you most other things that bother me but.... idk |
Is your mom helpful or at least supportive? |
In what way? |
The way L treats you, and your things? That's really shitty behavior |
It gets so much worse |
Freaking nuts |
I feel like i should make more sense to you the more you crack me open |
You make sense to me already |
I might, but i will make more sense as time goes on |
Ok :) |
Can i tell you something I've said bit idk if you picked up on it? |
Ofc |
L was the first person i had sex with voluntarily. He told me after we started dating that i was supposed to just be a ONS of his |
I remember the ons part |
This could be interpreted as kind of telling |
I am unfortinately very aware |
He danced with me for almost a whole song at our wedding. His mother got 2 half songs and his sister got 2 full songs |
I am so, so tired of not mattering |
That's understand for sure |
2024-11-09T17:19:43 |
Hey |
Hello! |
How are you? |
My children just walked in. Literally one minute ago lol |
I'm doing well. Fine even! |
That's great! |
How is your day? |
Are you feeling well? |
Oh fuck no |
Oh snap |
What is happening? |
Just blind rage and agonizing pain. The rage is newer. My mother just dripped me at frandor and I'm painting with my friend in a bit |
Just lots from the last 14 years that's zapping me in sharp bolts |
Why rage? |
2024-11-09T19:13:32 |
Lots of things |
null |
Mid painting |
That looks very serene! |
I love this place |
My painting? Lol |
I know where to find it too |
Looks like the swamp near where i grew up |
Lololol |
Nope - not joking |
Is that what you wanted it to look like |
I love your swamp |
Lol thanks |
This is midway through |
😘😘😘 |
Awww |
null |
This hexagon has opened a portal in my house |
It doesn't get captured on camera |
You need a pentagram for that |
Fuck |
We going somewhere tomorrow? |
Are you being sra |
Sra? |
Serious |
For tomorrow or the pentagram? |
null |
Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow |
I wish I could say |
If these goofballs are going to be around, quite possibly |
I will need to gather intel |
If you need a quick decision assume I am spouse -bound |
2024-11-09T21:20:44 |
Eyo |
Bebe |
How is the evening? |
I'm having a good time |
Loud music |
Lathing |
How are you tender sweet bebe? |
2024-11-10T00:00:56 |
All is well |
Zero |
Zero one lol |
2024-11-10T08:10:42 |
Good morning :) |
2024-11-10T10:22:42 |
Hiya :) |
How are you? |
So far so good |
That's good |
House full of boys again? Still? |
Yep |
What do they do there? What do you all do? |
They come around ostensibly to do one thing or another. They end up sitting around smoking and watching YT with their mom. I just do my own thing |
Narayan did make me a very nice gin and tonic last night tho, so that was nice |
And Nitya brought me a cool spider plant |
Any more shenanigans at your place? |
Describe shnanigans |
Have said maybe 2 sentences |
Things found in the trash, etc |
Not that i am aware of |
I did not find the encyclopedias in the trash, btw. I could no longer find them and asked their whereabouts |
Right. What did that mean he "sent them up north"? |
Seems like a lot to get rid of something |
Like if a parent said that about a kid's dog when the dog actually died |
Yeah |
Wonderful |
I knew that |
How can i feel better right now? We'll go for physically to start with |
Maybe a nice tea and a nap |
I would love that |
How do i stop caring about everything i need to do? |
Like eBay o |
??? |
Like what |
The answer is always cleaning |
Did you want to stopyp caring about that |
Well no, but it prevents me from resting |
Resting is good :) |
I dont really know how unless i feel terrible |
All I have to do is open a book and start reading |
That's like me with screens |
But i don't really stay asleep |
So what's new. Anything? |
2024-11-10T17:47:52 |
Just woke up |
You? |
Heyyy you |
I have been puttering |
How do you feel? |
Good nap? |
I feel like it was a good nap. Def needed it. I actually feel "normal people" unwell a bit so maybe that added to it? |
Working all week? |
Yes most likely |
Kinda wish not! |
For sure |
I am an opening weekend orphan starting later in the week |
Thursday right? It's on my calendar |
Awww |
As far as i know, yes |
Woo! |
I think i feel better actually |
Nap was a good suggestion |
And i really would not have done it if you hadn't suggested it |
Aww |
Well I'm glad it worked a little! |
Do you feel like I've been neglecting you? |
No |
I haven't done so intentionally but ive had more going on in the last little while and havent been able to give you as much time or attention like i wanted |
You're fine, lover. I know you've had a lot going on, and I was pretty sure you would benefit from sleep ☺️ |
Yes, but i didnt just mean today either |
Ok |
Why you so poopy head mean to me |
Sorry lol |
:P |
do you have lingering discomfort from your procedure? |
Not really |
Thank you for asking |
Yay! |
Would you like a few thinking tasks? |
This is difficult question |
Why? |
How many is "a few"? Is there a standard I can refer to? |
Idk |
Whatever comes to mind |
Define "thinking". Are we talking about rational expression, creative expression, deep depression, some sort of calliope of all? |
Or something else? |
Vlad is full of valid ideas trust me |
Step one is to stop thinking a la moi, lol |
A la mode encores? |
Yes what thinking shall it be |
How to lessen scarrage - the unraised colors on my legs, primarily |
How to do this one afg task i have to do but i want to do it quicker |
Weed or whatever non rx and non illegal i can use to feel better and be functional pain-wise |
Right |
Re weed |
Bc I have almost no idea |
And I would expect a decent recommendation from those folks |
Ok cool thanks |
That's a good question! |
Scarrage |
Skin care and gentle stretching |
To accomplish both, gently rub moisturizing lotion into scar twice daily |
But i already do that |
Good good |
I will accompany you to a dispo if I can! |
Did you have fun on your painting expedition? |
It was ok |
😡 to “ That's a good question! |
❤️ to “ That's a good question! |
Removed ❤️ from “ That's a good question! |
❤️ to “ That's a good question! |
Removed ❤️ from “ That's a good question! |
Removed ❤️ from “ That's a good question! |
❤️ to “ That's a good question! |
Anyone I know? |
You know of her |
I'm really ham fisted with a paintbrush |
The lathe is starting to feel like a creative medium for me though |
That's excellent! |
Well today I turned a handle for one of the tools I just got on our outing last week. A coat of catching is drying now |
*varnish |
Nice |
And I made a little tool for the pipe yesterday |
Which I fixed today because I kinda screwed it up |
And I'm sorry I'm probably going to fade out any minute |
null |
Love you |
2024-11-11T01:43:16 |
Love you! |
Very sorry i faded out so fast |
2024-11-11T05:24:32 |
Good morning! |
2024-11-11T08:01:49 |
Sleeping in? |
Oops! I sure did |
I forgot to fix my alarm lol |
Ohhh no baby! |
Guess i have to keep an eye on you too? |
Ai Yi yi glad I don't have too much going on today |
What's happening? Anything? |
De nada |
"Nada" |
De nada = of nothing = you're welcome |
My desk area is looking better! |
Yay! What did you do for it? |
Still in progress |
How's the day? |
null |
null |
It should open to a full image if you click on it |
Coffee & a free tshirt, isnt this what you IT & dataphiles live for?! |
Sweet! |
I had to make an emergency trip to Fresh Thyme to get coffee lol |
Meanwhile the fascists are bugging people at Strange Matter again |
New issues to resolve: |
No lol, I am a literal mess. Not in office |
Pics or it didnt happen |
null |
Be cuter if you quasi pretended you were happy to be breathing |
Lol I warned you |
That's actually a smirk 😼 n case you can't tll |
Wtf phone |
Random cats I guess |
Lol |
null |
Also an actual mess |
When did you start eating forks? |
I was done with the veg and still hungry? |
Kids these days |
https://www.reddit.com/r/lansing/s/bDMaD7ujk2 |
This just makes the pain throb |
No, I was tempted to yell a troll in there, but came to my senses lol |
I see |
You stopping into afhq a demain? |
Idk |
Always up to you. I have work to do but I'll be there |
https://open.spotify.com/track/0ND8rF8oirMXtE59n585P6?si=IqCBg4gRQPu0xplgdXwezA |
https://open.spotify.com/track/2rc0AohluQNbc4bnodjh1P?si=xkRoaTr_Tt6CZ2HaY4L7Kw |
Lordy I need a nap |
2024-11-11T14:56:13 |
Lordy i need to fuck |
I mean.... |
Damn intrusive thoughts |
https://open.spotify.com/track/4jPy3l0RUwlUI9T5XHBW2m?si=J8I8Dem1QAGsAOhwYBGoEg |
Omg you're killlllllling me |
Your birthday, btw.... |
Lol wassup? |
Nah nah nah |
Better response plz :) |
Geez babe it's only been a week or so |
More than a week and a half |
Heheh |
So what did you want for your birthday? |
You know that's the worst question you can ask me right |
This is how I ended up with so much Powerpuff stuff |
You know you can ask for services or tasks or favors too, right....? |
Oh goodie! |
I need to hear it though..... |
Ok ok give us a minute |
I've decided I would like to be served with whipped cream. That is to say, you, a la creme. |
And in any other way that seems [in]appropriate |
This is like those cooking shows where a special ingredient will be required. Up to you, chef Rebecca, to come up with a recipe! |
I also like |
And now I find myself looking for carpenters pencils too. Nice chubby ones for marking up my wood |
2024-11-11T21:04:53 |
Just saying |
Too much innuendo lol |
As you wish |
You must be serious |
:P |
I prettified this thing |
null |
Very cool |
But I don't know what to do next lol |
I have at least one idea, what I saw on YT |
Cut it up and make little key fob danglys with some glam hardware |
Panty dropper??? |
Be honest plz |
Do you drop my panties? |
No this hand crafted piece of Americana |
Almost |
Like could we drive around, and every once in a while |
I stop, give you the keys, |
And you wave them and some random on the sidewalk |
Are they gonna drop their panties or no |
I'm sorry these are important questions |
This question is still confusery |
You are no ESL student. |
How can I help? |
Idk |
Hey :P |
I'm just acting something out |
Okay |
Just being goofy |
They're fine |
Took a nap, doing some OT now |
Bueno |
How's the night been? |
Fair. Bueno |
And you? |
Asi asi. Fine. |
Excellent |
Yo |
Ayy |
I'm just crawling in bed |
How is your night |
So when they're there, with whom do you sleep? |
Night is okay thanks. Wish i knew more about upcoming stuff but oh well |
RLH sleeps in same bed. Haven't touched in months. |
Understood |
Did we even go upstairs last wednesday? |
Sure we did lol |
Twice |
Why dont i remember this? |
Like, i dont recall one bit |
My guess? Bc L called that afternoon and you deeply retreated |
I dislike that, but it's possible |
You were profoundly thrown by that call |
Not remembering things sucks |
I get that |
I was kinda late leaving, but nobody at home said boo |
If you need a reminder about the phone call I can tell you about the subject |
No, i can vaguely recall that now that you mention it |
I don't remember much of you being here, in the house |
Wednesday, November 6. Another Wednesday off. Did fun things in the morning, but no fucking because I could not quite get there, but she demoed sword swallowing. Nice. Then we had breakfast, and did some thrift shopping. Then back to her place. She got a call from the hub and then was rather depressed. We laid in bed talking for a few hours. It was good :)
|
Literally my diary |
Thats sweet :) |
Now i want to know what the better entries say lol |
Ofc you do greedy baby |
You could always fill me with more on your own |
More imagination, gutterminded daddy |
Moi? |
Sim |
Dang I really wish I knew when we could spend a day together. A night together |
Make up whatever you need to this weekend |
Yesss |
Seriously |
2024-11-12T05:38:12 |
Good morning! |
Hey babe! |
How are you this morning? |
Pretty good I think. How are ya? |
Okay. Pain per usual but it is what it is |
So when am i seeing your cuteness again? |
As soon as I can :) |
Error 404 |
Page not found eh? |
Nope |
Answer unacceptable |
Is there any work to do under your desk? Maybe I'll just hang out there today |
You can always check |
Maybe I can just nap there? |
Sure thing |
Do you/can you want to do anything the rest of this week? |
Just helps me plan |
Id love to but I don't know how I can or if I can |
Totally fine but i miss you |
https://open.spotify.com/track/4PvD06Pmbm2rHG2JjSlElF?si=ljGav279QiiQJ1EVaO2hwA |
2024-11-12T10:55:36 |
How's it going? |
Meh |
What's wrong? |
Lol major apathy |
I'll see if another coffee will do the trick |
Strange matter - how walkable from afhq? |
The one downtown is 5-10 minutes walk |
Same as hob nob? |
Just fwded you an email |
This place.... omg |
What a shit show |
I also have to trek to the cesspool if i want any since they only booked the huddle room |
Not to mention getting about 6 solid weeks of work to be done in 3 days |
I hope i enjoy my leaves |
You wanna help with stuffs? |
What you got going |
Deciding what to do/where to go during my freedoms lol |
Paris maybe? |
That may have happened a few times before with a few locations... |
Apparently tomorrow night too |
This is very much high school rebecca |
https://open.spotify.com/track/6sqNctd7MlJoKDOxPVCAvU?si=qdlRDgZsQcCKQDWmwZ5Jsw |
I feel like youll like her... |
https://open.spotify.com/track/7ne4VBA60CxGM75vw0EYad?si=NA3wEZ3pQ4uQkTzxXC8t8Q |
Thanks for the music recs :) |
Turns out the boys hit a deer on the way home, totalled their car |
They're ok. Mom went to rescue them |
Oh sweet baby zeuses! |
I don't think so. They actually have another car in storage. They have to get a trailer hitch installed but should be good to go otherwise |
Good good |
I have a kind of serious question |
My fistula arm isnt acting great but it's also not terrible. Idk if urgent care would even look at it? I iust want an ultrasound to check and see what's up, if anything abnormal is going on, etc. How do i know what to do? Ive never been to a hospital in lansing and i dont really want to try it out :/ |
Id probably try urgent care before er. On the chance that they will, might save hours of irritation. |
What is going on with it? |
My arm is cold and clammy but my immer elbow where the graft is is very warm. It hurts a lot and has for a few days. It's puffy |
Yow, that does not seem like anything to mess with |
It's been this way for a few days |
Does sleeping on it wrong cause problems ever? Or is this a completely novel proy |
It's not that i slept on it wrong |
Subject change: would you be interested in taking a day to just go somewhere and do whatever? I know that's vague but i have 16 hours minimum that i need to spend before 2025 and you're a solid choice for good times ;) |
She headed to the arkansasian homeland at all? |
I still want to cook and homemake for you |
Lord I hope she's planning to go. I'll be lucky if I get two weeks notice |
You're so nice :) |
Can i? |
I'm not nice |
Can you what? |
Make you food |
I'd love that |
Be kind to you |
That too |
null |
Yay! |
No joke, earlier I was wishing I could just lay on your bed and stare at the ceiling. If the cats and doggo want to hang out that's all good |
Awww |
I want that too |
And if we make out we make out |
Right |
And if clothes end up on the floor, so be it |
I would lovvvvvvvve if you casually started kissing me when we hang out |
Do you have any desire to not take my top off during ... activities? |
A desire not to? No I would not say that |
I'm totally fine if you want to leave it on |
It's not a premeditated thought that I have |
Being completely naked still makes me really nervous |
Ok then |
But you like it |
😆 |
Naked it is then lol |
I'm kidding ofc |
How do you prefer me? |
I prefer you having fun foremost. I like to look upon you and your sexy self, but that doesn't always have to mean naked |
And if I'm having fun regardless? |
You know there's something i desperately want from/with you, right? |
Which one? |
You want to be tossed around a little? |
Oh, yes |
Yessssss |
And have your hair pulled |
I want you to be more hands on and kinda demanding |
I'm working on being more assertive |
For you |
Omgggg yes please |
And I'll reciprocate however you want |
For you |
You dont need to be scared of crossing any lines |
Thanks. This is new for me, so it takes a bit of getting used to |
But I do like it |
I am absolutely THE ONE you can and should experiment on. With. For. |
Well then |
Yesssssssssssss |
Sweet baby |
Good sir |
Heh I guess I have to put my fantasy of being a slut down for a bit |
Why? |
I like sluts |
Kinda am one |
Why would you stop? |
Can I be a bossy slut? |
Yes? What does that mean? |
Lol what ever I want it to :P |
Tellllll me! |
Idk maybe I'll just make you sit on the floor whilst I jack off wearing only my pink fuzzy leggings lol |
For sure |
I'll throw on my lace mask for extra eye protection |
Masks huh |
Lace eye masks |
Tell me more of your sluttiness |
What do you imagine me in? |
What if I said I want to jizz on your face? |
Quite bold for you! |
I'd do it |
Yes would be bold for me! |
null |
Lol |
Rawr lol |
Lookit his tail 🤣 |
Lol |
So |
Ohhh! I completely missed that |
Yes, yes |
2024-11-12T21:36:34 |
How are you sweet babe |
Very sleepy. In and out of wakefulness. You? |
I'm full of some mix of piss, vinegar, and [redacted] |
What happened? |
Really good though now |
My fake accent doesn't work here. I am fine babe. Sleepy baby |
Sweet dreams princess |
null |
Are you headed to dream now? |
Not yet! I'll be a couple hours ish |
Disruption from childs |
Food ordered late |
Et cetera |
🪂 |
Lucky for you i am somewhat wakeful now |
Yay! |
Tell me about your evening |
Well |
I had to spend some time with Mas Tiks (Rama). Which is normal. He is needy somewhat. He likes to walk over keyboards slowly. Notice minutae indiscriminant and move/remove it and so on |
He's a really needy boy especially when he's tired |
And I also have spent much time with Mas Bala. He's more chill, stays at ground level more often. And he's a chonk. And lately he says "yeah!" A lot which is funny |
I also call him HazBala |
Which is wrong on so many levels |
Lol |
What did you do for you? |
I packed a bowl |
10/10 recommend |
Fairy dust..... |
Sorry it's kinda 1 part weird weed culture 1 part naivety |
To be clear, this is resin from the leaves |
But an exceptionally clean form and made a nice volume |
I have no parallel universe to tell of such things |
I wish i was with you in this journey tonight |
Me too |
Me too |
It's honestly a random walk for me |
Cats usually feature prominently |
So I ordered hi fat & carb food for the fam and they are |
Lol for sure |
What do you suggest i do tomorrow if i venture out of the house? |
There is a good chance I will call off tomorrow |
Which is a thing I just decided |
A little while ago |
Excellent |
!! |
Elaborate p |
Enhance |
Elucidate |
Extrapolate |
Erect a more tangible model? |
Where would you go tomorrow if you were me? It's unclear if or how much of the day L will be in office at this time |
Our boy L Roy |
Do you know The Jetsons? |
Kind of |
Lol |
They weren't wholesome enough for me to watch growing up |
Pppht |
What might the window of opportunity look like |
Let me see what i can find out |
It's a pretty open day |
Well then |
Yeah |
I will have to kill radio soon but |
I will plan to leave here around 0800 |
I will check in ofc |
Mmmk |
Ok? |
My hair might be filthy |
Yes |
Should I cancel? |
Nope, i like seeing you |
Same ☺️ |
Will you love me with filthy hair? |
null |
2024-11-13T05:51:30 |
I will love you with filthy hair under one condition |
2024-11-13T07:02:04 |
Deal! |
Good morning! |
Yes! Yes it is lol |
Ohh? |
I mean it will be |
One can hope.... |
Good luck! |
He's getting ready to leave :) |
Your plans, hopes, and dreams for the day? |
Quality time with you |
What does that entail? |
There aren't wrong answers, jsyk |
Talking kissing giggling hugging ... |
After those 42 seconds? |
Licking stripping sucking fucking |
Oh i seeee |
Em hm |
Did you want to say something else? |
And I can take you if you want to go somewhere |
"Just take me"....? |
No further explanation eh? |
Lol I can't words |
So |
Can I can I can I plzzzzz? |
I thought you'd have been here & gone by now |
Lol I will be heading your way momentarily |
I am here! |
Venez ici |
2024-11-13T17:22:17 |
Home again. Hooray lol |
Lol |
Thank you again :) |
I had a good time with you today. Thanks for everything 💖❤️💖 |
How's your rolly stool working out? |
It's fab! I love it |
😊 |
I feel like I owe you for several thrift trips |
Idk what you're talking about |
I can only pay my debts by being a sex slave so I guess you'll be seeing a lot more of me |
Aww damn |
I still owe you so it's fine with me! |
null |
Lol |
My calendar just reminded me there's something going on for four days starting tomorrow |
What's that? |
Something something Hunting |
Oh how weird! |
Good will? |
Wabbit season? |
Know what else this week was? |
Duck season? |
Weird lol |
My phone thinks I'm an escort lol |
What's a guy gotta do to be an escort? |
Ummmm |
You already do it |
I. Am. |
YAY! |
null |
Wrll yes i AM dance-cleaning! |
And I'm missing it! |
null |
That's a YOU choice |
Hey lol |
null |
How many fingers do you still have? |
Brb |
Jk |
Didn't even nick meself |
Wow 😲 |
I want to turn some handles for that poor little file. Only one half of it is useful. The rest corroded the good stuff away. Such a little survivor |
What a cutie |
Aww shucks :) |
Thank you |
Well tonight's plans may suddenly be waylaid |
Waa? |
Pain out of nowhere |
Why for? |
No idea |
Fell like i might puke |
Super sucks |
Definitely super sucks |
Stabby back pain |
And now all my muscles are cramping and locked |
Hand for cramp example |
null |
Finger locked that way |
You better drink some water girl |
Holy fuck this hurts |
I'm not joking, drink some water |
How much have you had in 25 hr |
Water or beverage? |
Either but you know [gatekeep:] water |
Did you do it yet? |
Water just as itself? None |
Sorry babe |
Drink water |
Now |
8 oz min |
Now |
8 oz again |
I think if i do that I'll throw up though |
Ready? |
Ok no do if barfy |
Glass down |
Good job |
Thank you |
I did nothing. I am still on the floor |
You'd better drink some water girl |
You know what's happening isn't it? |
Not really |
I do know I'm dehydrated |
Ok well |
It's actually better than pain |
I have thoughts at this |
Good |
Ok |
And you are in what condition |
Icky feeling bur could be worse |
I hear you |
Ok. Very sleepy |
null |
Current situation |
Lol it's an orange!!! |
Rest well little ones |
All of y'all |
null |
I |
2024-11-13T23:21:15 |
null |
2024-11-14T06:24:10 |
Good morning! |
Good morning! |
How are you? |
Still waking up |
Awww poor baby |
I've been working for an hour |
Oh my goodness! |
Right!? |
And on an abbreviated sleep schedule |
Just you and the fur babies:) |
Yes! |
I found something else youll be super cute in |
You can wear it with your hair twisty and blue lake zip up |
Ooh yay! |
2024-11-14T09:58:54 |
You wanna see a greatttttttttt email |
Oh no what is it? |
Check your af email in a min |
OMG that email |
I know |
Also.... likely writing off anything and everything that was in PIN/CustInq (any legacy systems) |
How ya doin? |
I am doing alright :) |
Just alright |
?? |
Could be better? I'm just lethargic today |
Omg guess the total |
152 policies |
Jesus |
152 policies with chronically pat due balances |
It's about or less than i expected, actually |
3/4 mil |
Oh. No. |
$1,761,053 |
Owwww |
Yep |
And to think we just non renewed a software license in my dept because it would save 200k per year |
Qu'est-ce vous faites ce soir/cette apres-midi? |
They didnt want us to keep running the old system because it was costing about a mil a year |
Ffs |
Alors, ce soir? |
Je ne said quois mentenant |
Oh la la |
Vous avez manger votre dejeuner? |
2024-11-14T14:13:52 |
Ca va? |
Yeah, boring meeting ended :) |
Hurray! Did you forage? |
A little bit. More is needed |
On y va! |
Lol! |
Thinking about soup |
I have soup |
You did? |
I did |
Well poop! |
I can make more |
2024-11-14T16:08:59 |
Hey babe |
Heya |
Whatcha doin? |
Fixing to feed the cats. They're revolting!!! |
In which sense of the word? Lol |
Right! |
How is your day? |
It was pretty fantastic! Got sooooo much work done |
AF work, so tomorrow should be nice |
Figure out your weekend yet? |
(That includes tomorrow) |
Yay! I'm glad you had a good day |
I haven't figured out anything yet |
Remains to be seen if the offspring will be back |
Fingers crossed |
I think they will, at least for a day |
Do you hope they do or not so much? |
I hope they do, it makes it easier for me to get out without her thinking shes missing something |
That would be nice |
And if you can escape? Your ideal day/night? |
If I can it'll be Saturday afternoon most likely |
Not quite what i asked..... |
Oh! Right. I will ponder. I'm assuming you're preferences and desires are unchanged? |
2024-11-14T19:58:11 |
What would YOU like to do? |
I might lean to get high and fuck |
You're not bored of me trying are you |
Trying...? |
...to be a vigorous lover? |
NEVER bored of that |
As long as you dont get bored of me not being able to satisfy your needs |
It's not a you problem and tyvm glad to know ❤️ |
It HAS to be a me problem |
I really do feel bad about it |
You don't have to feel bad about it. It's old guy synapses and brain drugs. I can keep working it though I figured it out a couple times. |
And probably hormones yoo |
Too |
Lol |
I feel selfish about you going down on me so much |
Well you have feel selfish I guess |
I lovvvvvvvve it and sometimes want way more but i still feel guilty |
My gift to you with gratitude |
Graritude for what? |
From me to you? Endlessly |
My gratitude to you for giving me such a big part of you |
And trusting me |
You think i gave you a big part of me |
So much you've told me. Who else knows? |
You demanded I come in you lol |
It means something to me |
And your friendship |
And caring for me |
It makes sense? |
It makes more sense to me... i never said you were wrong |
Can you explain why me wanting you to get off in me means more? |
To you |
No one ever said that to me |
Straight up |
I crave it from you |
And honestly, the harder you get off, the better it feels for me |
Haha! I finally caught you out. Scoundrel. |
Whaddya say we work out a private compensation agreement? |
I'm curious now |
What are you offering? |
First negotiator never has a chance |
Sorry about your luck |
You tell what you want |
No fAir! |
null |
A peg leg? |
Youre killing me, babe |
Lol |
I'm just playing with this oak Nitya brought me. |
Nice |
Anyway |
What |
Oh my goodness |
I'm just playing with my wood |
Id rather be high and playing with your wood instead but whatever |
Fanks |
How did you know i say that? |
Haha frig if I know |
Get a bit high already? |
I did |
Mmhmmm |
Whycome? |
Boredom escaper |
So tell me all thw things |
I have lathed me out, in front of |
The one which I purchased right wiff me own cash |
And a benefactor who shall remain nameless |
And now |
?? |
Presenting |
I would much rather talk sex and drugs than glaswegian |
Lol mmr |
Err? |
I mean they are kinda the same innit |
Last time you came? |
Good sir? |
null |
She's a beaut |
🤣 |
I'm ded |
∆∆∆∆ this right here is why I love you |
Don't judge me plz |
I wont |
Havent yet |
Do with that what you will buy plz don't dox me |
But |
Anyhoo |
I hope you are satiated and comfortable |
You've said nothing to answer my query |
Oh |
Rly |
Iirc I asked you first |
I asked you something else |
Sbyl |
What? |
Sorry bout yer luuk |
Omgggg please?? |
Straight to bargaining then |
So what do you want? |
I want to be the reason you have the best sexual experience ever |
It's not much |
But |
Fuckkk |
Ok this is helpful |
What's helpful? |
This is literally everything i want |
You are a person right and not BeccaTron |
Indubitably |
I want you to be ao much of what i want that i end up in tears because it's perfextly what i want and need |
That is actually very touching |
It's very true |
I know what i feel how i want. Or something with those words |
OMG babe! I so want to be this person |
I think you are |
Soo |
Remind me? |
This one |
There are no wrong answers btw |
I:ll give you my best experience, that's one |
You are very sweet! |
And I have access to your linguistic brain |
Encyclopedic |
I want you to understand this... |
I adore all these things |
You have access to every twist and turn and happy memwory and dark shadowed corner of my mind now |
Please don't use it against me |
I will never do such things |
I cannot |
So what else are you offering? |
I guess you've read the bio |
Not really |
55 ciswm 185# likes girls |
RENT ME! |
CALL 1800 |
|
Heyyyy |
So you interested |
I am |
I'm needy AF though |
Kinda flat chested |
Sure sure |
I have seen all of these |
Is there something else? |
A little bit seriously fucked up in every way. Even some that aren't so much speakable |
Everything in your stamping up box is an avatar for a bf |
Huh? |
Like are you a cunning mass murderer |
Might be |
Dammit |
Dammit |
I will save your dog |
And the cats |
Sent millions of children to an acid bath on more than one occasion |
Y'all mf need Jesus |
His name has been called at those times |
You are an amazing woman |
In some respects, i agree |
You're quite a formidable gentleman |
Why |
Fanks |
Youve never had rough and consensual, correct? Or have you? |
The former |
Have you had questionable conciousness from a partner? |
No lol |
I was actually wondering if you've ever been way more lucid than your partner who was really out of it |
No |
That stuff is way outside my sphere |
I dont know what to think at that |
Idk why |
I think i expect you to want something a little darker, taboo, fucked up, etc |
Imagining such things is way different than doing them |
That's something i don't understand |
It's a disconnect |
You are a liberal arts major yeah |
Several times over |
Yes yes |
And yes and yes |
Sorry I'm being a shithead |
Ok and when the mind is different than the body it's confused time bc why now? |
What?? |
This might make sense more: |
I get that |
So then also to me, you dont even imagine it |
No |
Clarify please? |
I think you are asking "do I think about violence on you" and the answer is no |
That's kind of it |
Quite possibly |
What's your opinion |
You've been tricked |
Hmmm. Maybe |
I'm serious |
Can you explain why? |
Your protector was also your abuser |
It's no bueno |
Must be unlearned |
I don't recall my father ever being a protector in my mind. At all. |
This will sound arrogant, but I'm too smart to unlearn |
That's fine |
Hence people suggesting i go through electroconvulsion therapy in this century |
Ffs |
No |
You know that story though |
Yes, and |
And? |
I feel like no one understands your story |
I was referring specifically to the ect part |
Do I need to spell out |
I did tell you that, right? |
Yes you did |
Nobody knew what else to do with me |
Many have failed you |
Yes |
Can you maybe do me a favor next time we have some devils lettuce or if I'm otherwise inebriated? |
Name it! |
Ask me lots of things |
Ok |
Thanks |
One of these days I'll get to the r word |
On your time babe |
I dont know how to make my mouth say it. That's all. The words just dont fall out like i want them to |
I got you |
Any way you need |
I'm kinda scared for the day you click so many pieces together |
Don't worry |
Just be you |
Just like you are |
I wish i could be tired at the right time |
Aww |
You understand me right |
Aiye? |
There there |
Guess what |
What? |
I am nearly 56 |
Yes |
I know this |
Yeah I know you do |
Why point this out now? |
Bc I can't stick my tongue in your ear rn |
Try harder |
:P |
Come closer |
Make me come |
Touché |
I love to make you come |
Me too |
But it's still weird |
And i can do it harder but I'm scared |
Oh? |
You don't know why I'm scared though |
True |
Will you tell me |
Yes |
One reason is because to get to that point i want or need more specific areas pressed or sucked or focused on and i dont know how to ask for it |
Another is that i dont know what my body will do. I feel like it could literally explode and there would be grossness everywhere and i would be so embarrassed i would want to die |
I cannot wait to service you in this most important way |
You will be so adorable |
Why? |
Because I love you and want to care for you |
Thank you 🙂 |
But really - what if i cover everything in wee or something |
Lol it'll wash |
And if all sorts of air that's been trapped by you or me or the universe tries to escape at once, youll revive mw if i start to die after being beyond mortified? |
You can count on it |
So you really are okay with whatever happens if i dont hold back? |
I know something i want |
Where you gently tuck hair behind my ears and pull my chin up to you for kisses.... so much more |
I love you |
2024-11-15T07:10:29 |
Aww babe I love you too |
Good morning! |
Well, what do you think? |
Rien? |
I love that so much |
How is your morning sweet babe |
It's ok |
Not bad |
2024-11-15T10:14:50 |
Well my day just took a turn |
Are you working all day? |
I'll probably work most of the day yeah |
Construction outside mt house for odin knows what reason |
Ffs my head hurts |
Oh poor baby! |
Meh. It is what it is |
Yay! |
Wish you could join any of it |
Everything from last week is benign :) |
Yay! |
What's lunch? |
Idk but I'm thinking about it |
I have soup.... |
2024-11-15T13:31:22 |
You want anything while I'm out? |
A nice cute polish girl? |
I am both Polish and polished |
Well how about that! |
Did no one send you to finishing school in Paris? |
Sadly I am too low class for such things |
Nyet! |
What's behind you? |
You know the answer |
A cute polished Polish girl! |
Non |
Maybe we can discover something new! |
Eat yet? |
Not yet! |
The cat and I took a little snooze lol |
What size & sorts of shoe are you? |
Is this another trick question |
I usually wear men's 9.5 |
What styles would you nottttt wear? |
In shoes? I don't even know how to answer that |
I usually buy for utility, not style |
So none of those curly toed elf shoes |
We'll see |
Lol |
null |
You need it! |
Glass ppw |
Ha! He's cute |
Pack of kn95? |
I'll use em! |
Yay! |
null |
Oh I bet that's about right! |
So you have your measuring tape? |
Always |
null |
Whatcha doin? |
Krogering! |
Whassup |
Come get unnecessary stuff! |
Lol |
Fine |
:AP |
:P |
😛 |
2024-11-15T19:08:00 |
Did you have a good day finding stuff? |
Still doing it l9l |
Hehehe |
Et now? On y va! |
Ca va? |
I love you so much |
I love you too |
Everything okay? |
Oh yeah all good |
On y va |
Oh yeah? |
My diary for Wednesday |
Oh my gosh! |
Je suis chez moi encore |
Guess what i lost several hoyrs ago? |
Pic for clue |
null |
Looks like you lost hairs |
No.... that's me right now |
Did you lose eyebrows? |
Je voudrais être là |
I'll speak french all day if you want |
💖 |
What are you doing now? |
I is drilling holes right here |
Why? |
null |
I see |
Yep |
And with newly cleaned and sharpened tool, it's almost enjoyable lol |
😊 |
null |
Mmhmmm |
Pretty average all in all |
What did you get? |
Pickles |
Green olives, but they were out of the big jar and I needed two of those! |
K+ disappoints me regularly |
I got veggie dogs |
And frozen veggies of various nature |
And three chips for her, and crackers for me |
Boyses? |
null |
Hey babez |
Hey you!! |
No boyses |
Ain't you pretty to my eyes!! |
Got me a sleepsapuppy |
Aww! |
How do i get you and a bunch of drugs into me right now? |
I wish I knew |
:( |
Ikr! |
What soup did you make? |
Did you have |
When? |
Oh you know |
At soup time |
Oh right |
Mac y cheese |
Oo yay! |
I should make that |
Mayhaps |
Things are copacetic? |
For sweet baby girls |
?? |
Not really |
Not really |
But it's ok |
Tell me why? |
Pain, not getring enough done, more pain, kind of unknowns, cant sleep, kinda want food but nothing sounds good and i didnt eat much today |
Hangry! |
Me too |
What should i do? |
Favorite go-to snack |
Lol it's frozen |
Good! |
Et vous? |
Excellent choice |
Cracker du snack |
Avec peanuts |
Et sel |
Pas assez |
Still awake? |
Yes! |
Yay! 🎉 |
Hi! |
Hi |
Chomping a pickle salad |
With feta |
And those damn olives are reduced sodium ffs |
But I will survive |
And a fake hot dog |
And jalapenos |
Listening to Depeche Mode |
How can I slurp you? |
Come get me high & see what happens |
Fuck |
That's the best idea I've heard in some time |
You are super fun to get high |
Really? |
Oh yeah! |
Why? |
How do you like it |
Then i have a similar statement and a follow up |
That's right |
Or feel free to ask your questions! |
I loved it |
Yay! |
Smoking is fast |
Eating it is slower |
When did you realize having sex with me was go8jg to be fun? |
In general, high, either, both |
About 2 months ago |
The Anniversary Suite |
Actually before that |
Ya foul mouthed so and so |
But i could have just been all talk |
Can you tell me what makes me fun ? |
Sure could have been all talk |
But oddly specific |
(insert tongue in cheek) |
😊 |
Lol |
Do you remember anything specific i said? |
Something something looks better on the floor |
That's like the tamest thing ive ever said to you! |
Fair |
I like that, thanks |
When we were in the flesh (pun intended), what makes me fun? |
All the squish |
Your adorable ass |
I love to nibble you |
Everywhere |
Please more! |
So tasty |
My neck neeeeeeeds morw |
Your neck |
Your belly is so wonderful and pale and squishy and soft |
Thank you |
Im almost speechless at this |
But |
These arent actions |
I want to be more fun, to do more fun things for you |
Then stay with me? |
I feel like I have a lot of relearning to do, in terms of intimacy |
And some learning too! |
And you are making this all possible |
We're very much the same |
But i dont know what relearning you have to do? |
You know way more than i do |
I know I'm not perfect |
I have never felt more free to be who I am than I do with you |
And it's inspiring, and like lifting a cloud or a veii |
And it's not all at once but it's happening in bits and ways here and there and now and again |
And somehow you are sucking me straight into you |
I really, really want to get there with you |
I distrust myself for trusting you so much, if that makes sense |
Yes it does |
❤ |
Aww my love |
So |
So |
What questions? |
I asked a few |
You have one to answer from last night still |
Sorry what is it? |
Now I'm adding to it (interest, you know) |
Oh interesting lol |
When did you get off? |
I assume you mean last time for me? |
Friday morning around 9 maybe? |
Like not even 18 hours ago? |
I usually think about fucking, and often you |
But sometimes whatever girly is in porn ATM |
Can you show me some? |
Yes! We keep not doing that kol |
Lol |
You could show me now? |
If you want to sully your device lol |
Just my phone lol |
Ok one sec |
https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=6726c089d53d0 |
You're sure that's the one? I havent clicked anything yet |
You're sure you want me doing this alone? |
I mean it's just one I might watch |
There's no one here to kiss my neck though |
Yeah, that sucks |
And the way you react is so. Fucking. Hot. |
I want more of you all over me |
So delightful! |
There are places on my neck you haven't quite tapped yet that you really should |
Oh yay! |
I can't wait to explore this |
I can't wait either |
With my |
Oh gods yes |
Will I have anything left |
Why yes, that's one question i was wondering |
But of course! |
😊 |
I still have to suck ears |
And nipples |
And bellies |
And things |
For girls |
Do you think you/wr can go ultra sensual slow? I described it as tender |
Yes! |
Absolutely |
And thee |
Fuck me |
It's literally all ive wanted for so so sooooo long |
I want you to have everything you want |
Ditto |
I still feel like you have to want something you havent said yet |
I actually think there are many |
I'm figuring them out |
Oh please please please tell me |
I want to know and be the best part of all of them |
You are |
Guess what |
What's hot? |
When you say |
Oh good |
Incredibly hot when you say things low into my ear when we're entangled |
ohh yum! |
I love to wrap around you and pretend nothing can get us |
And you are all mine |
I love wrapping my legs around you so i can get rid of all the space between us and i get more of you into me |
Yessss |
And i really do want you to go as hard and deep as possible when you explode into me |
Yes |
I really do want to paint your cervix |
Among other things |
I need that |
What else do you want to do or do again that's just for me? How about just for you after that? |
Oh I want to make you come again with my hands, and special guest tongue |
And then I would love to fuck you |
And come deep in you |
Yessssssss |
You are so tight |
It is fucking amazing |
It is amazing fucking |
Im so glad |
You're literally the perfect size and shape |
You taste and smell perfect too |
Yay!!! |
Woo! |
Spun some thoughts.on those visuals |
Oh? |
Haha yeah |
Share please |
All the ways we should fuck |
What if I sit on the edge of the bed |
Wyd |
Id go down on you |
Nice |
When you feel like it, id want you to grab my hair at the roots, toss me down on the bed, and fuck me hardddd til you fill me |
Yes yes yes |
What if I wanted you to back up onto my lap |
Yes |
Yess |
You can bounce on me |
I'll try |
Regardless |
I love fucking you |
And nibbling you |
Im curious avout something else |
What is that? |
Is it too bizarre for you to dart your tongue in and out, down into me? |
Not at all and I am dying to do this |
You like your tight pussy licked |
❤️ to “ You can bounce on me ” |
I do |
Too much |
Maybe you just do it too well |
Too much lol |
Yes |
Not even |
There's no way for you to know that |
Not sure we're responding to the same prompt |
I think probably outwardly, i show it the least of your partners |
Why would you say that |
Because i lay there like a dead log when i should be breaking your chin and worrying the neighbors with screaming |
Concentrating |
You think I'm concentrating? |
During.... yes |
I wish i was in my head a lot less |
Be anywhere you like😋 |
2024-11-16T08:42:00 |
🌄 |
Good morning! |
Hiee bebe |
How are you? |
Did you sleep? |
Yes! |
2024-11-16T10:55:36 |
How was it? |
2024-11-16T14:46:44 |
OMG I'm sorry |
I fell asleep again |
No prob |
Aww |
Are you staying in today |
2024-11-16T17:47:24 |
Just re woke up |
What's neq with you? |
Just got out of the shower, having finally washed my hair. What an ordeal lol! |
How are you feeling? |
A little better |
You? |
How was today? What did you do? |
Did some research on lathe tools. Might mop later lol |
Boys show up? |
How are you overall besides disappoihted? |
Disappointed, that I could not see you today :( |
What does tomorrow look like for you? |
Most likely stuck in :( |
I am so so sorry about today |
I ruin everything :( |
No you didn't ruin anything |
Why do you say that? |
Fuck i hurt |
Really wish you could be here ti help thar |
I slept all day and couldn't have come over anyway |
I wanna be there! |
Waah! |
Really? That makes me feel a lot better |
I did the same almost |
Felt like i let you down sincei didnt send an invite |
You are sweet 😚 |
Thank you |
Still sneezy? |
It settled down thankfully! After rawing out my nose a bit |
What was the culprit? |
Mls laundry I sorted on the basement floor. It's pretty gross in the laundry area |
Did you know |
I am the only person in the house that recognizes a used dryer sheet on the floor? |
No one else sees them apparently |
Lol my little gripes |
Cute |
Yeah well I need to sweep and mop over there too |
Do you need any? |
Sweeping |
Yes |
And weeding |
I do tongue sweeping too |
And tongue mopping |
I need both |
I have rarely wanted drugs this badly |
Ah |
As a Druggist I am not well connected unfortunately |
Lies |
Why the "ah"? |
? |
Everybody likes Ah |
I am so tired and weak and owwwed |
My poor baby! |
I need someone to feed me |
And massage me |
What an excellent idea |
Pweez? |
Yessss |
Acqui? |
Y a hora |
I know ❤️ |
Mopping task complete |
😊 |
Except for the one I owe you! |
If I told you the wife and I were going to be somewhere in public at a certain time, wwyd? |
I would accomodate your wants for whatever your desire is in that situation |
The wyd ia for what you doin |
Tyx2 |
What would you want me to do |
Do you need a solid metal leaf? Kinda like a small tray |
null |
Yay! |
Aldi take yeah? |
Yes! |
All veg |
I love mushrooms in so many ways |
But |
Yes! |
We've foraged a lot too in the wild |
Pizza alla funghi con formaggio |
There are fall edibles that have made me violently ill more than once--but not the first time I ate them |
Sometimes this time of year the boys score a big one and make all kinds of stuff lol |
Mushroom things? |
But fresh oysters in the spring are sublime |
Yes all mushrooms |
"hen of the woods" for googling |
No bueno for me now, but was once |
We've found abundant oyster mushrooms around Vanderbilt |
This is a setup for my favorite joke |
Oh? |
We have them in the morning sometime |
Sometimes |
It's the breakfast of champignons |
LAUGH PLEASE |
Honhonhonnnnnn!!!!! |
I love you for that |
You have no idea how long I've been waiting for that reaction |
Non merci |
Baseball caps |
Perhaps in a laundry context |
Oh fml |
? |
Ofc, my Google profile image is me in a baseball hat |
Fun 🎉 |
Probably about the last time that ever happened tbh |
Hahahahaha |
😆 |
I picked up a bunch of cool ones and want to revive them |
I expect so yes |
Or idk? |
I still have my Vonage hat somewhere |
Ok holagoogle.... |
Lol! |
Easy & effective plz |
On it |
Yay! 🎉 |
Ok what I'm getting here is be gentle |
Use mild cleaners |
Spot clean as needed |
Caution that dishwasher or launderer may damage |
Soap and water |
Ok thanks! So spot clean |
Go slow baby |
Back |
Forth |
Etc |
Just remember that for yourself |
no worries I am programmed in this way |
Why? |
It's an XY thing? |
Slow and gentle is def nottttttt an XY thing |
Ok well it is for me so :P |
But why? |
How can I know? It just is in my nature |
You wouldnt rather just hurry up and come? |
Nope |
I like to enjoy my time with you |
Touching you |
Holding you |
Tasting you |
Kissing you |
Me too |
Mmmmm |
I have a lot more gerunds |
Sorry that's familial |
But maybe you do it slow because it just takes me so long to settle down? |
Lol |
- i made gerund a gerund |
Lolol!!! |
This right here |
Is why l like to tickle every bit of you |
Lol okay |
Sex me up |
I cant |
How you like that gerund |
//// me |
You are too pure |
It's not possible |
Your gerunds are the be-uns of the bestest |
How |
How do you grrrrundddd |
I brain it |
I bet you use pronouns |
Clearly I need to lick your ear more often |
It's in Project 420-69 |
Ive only briefly twiddled with that one time |
So you have twiddled then |
Just with you |
Lol |
I really do wish I were with you now |
Me too |
For a ton of reasons |
Just laying with you and talking with the occasional long kiss sounds perfect |
Yessss |
null |
Fucking cute!!! |
Rescued 'im yesterday |
He just got out of the bath |
Wonderful! |
He has friends & fam here |
That is good :) |
Maybe you can be their daddy |
I'm not good at taking care of tree ornaments |
But I could do better |
None of them are tree ornamemta |
Oh! |
Just stained glass thingies? |
No |
Ok :) |
Did I show you the hummingbird? |
No |
null |
This survived transfer from me mum |
Oh yea! |
To my basement |
And I found it in good, if slightly damaged condition |
Idk if the damage was old or new |
Where is the damage? |
Actually four sites I've counted. Most visible in lower right |
Well i just fell asleep on the floor real quick |
Okay! |
I am! |
Just tired |
In your bedroom? |
No |
Need help? |
Maybe |
Ok tell me about this one? |
What is it? |
Do you need help |
Nah |
Ok you |
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1HbaW6tvyRG3AUHZMEAbgcM6M9_GfOsot/view?usp=drivesdk |
Might make an avatar of this |
2024-11-17T02:52:57 |
You're so damn attractive |
Hehheh |
Thank you |
And you are so damn attractive |
Thank you |
Immensely |
I really do mean it when i rave to you about how you feel to me |
Thank you! |
No, thank you |
Sweet baby |
null |
Mood for you |
Yesssssssss |
That's how i wabt to feel with you right fucking now |
Pretty chill ,,❤️❤️ |
Yes |
Bots would link me lol |
Have any devil's lettuce? Jow many guineas over how long? |
Im only curious |
It's also after 0300 and you're awake.... |
Right?? |
Yes, packing it pretty regularly tonight |
Another stroll down music alley night |
How do you stay functional? |
I don't actually know at this point |
But it definitely has something to do with sleeping till half 2 |
May i point something out about me? |
Always |
In the form of a question - do you notice when im sleeping? (More than yes/no as a response, please) |
Sometimes, not always. |
I've heard you fade out once or twice |
I love it |
And often I find out I am sleeping too lol |
Weird but thank you |
Drool and all |
I meant when we are not together |
I meant together |
Oh |
Lolol |
Do I. Notice in text session if you are sleeping |
Kind of, yeah |
Obv I notice better when up close |
You sleep after you come |
Or even just good times I guess |
It's great |
So sweet |
That's true - and i can't control the sleep |
The real answer is that i never sleep and it's exhausting and frustrating |
Well |
What to do |
Do you like sleeping? |
It's tricky |
Sometimes yes because it's a break and a refresh |
Sometimes no because there are nigjtmares and flashbacks and trying to change endings that i cannot |
Yuck |
I like the idea of sleep for normal people |
null |
Not a clue |
Seriously |
I also konk out with you so immediately because i feel incredibly safe and like you could help me battle whoever or whatever ahows up in my head |
Ofc! |
And I will do it |
So how do i sleep? |
null |
Do you know something about your sleep issue? |
Maybe |
null |
O hai!!! |
I also have zero pants on |
Ooohhhhjh hhhhhaaaaiiii |
!!!!! |
My favorite color!!!! |
For reals though - zero pants |
null |
Yummy! |
❤️ to a photo |
I was so hot earlier I almost disrobed lol |
❤️ your chubby pussy |
She's always been puffy |
Anyway, what else were you saying about me sleeping? Or when i get off? Or something? |
So delicious |
Stat |
Lol |
You get sleepy after you come |
Amazeballs |
We discussed that already lol |
And cute af |
I think it's almost immediate and instant |
That's All there is to tell |
What did you want to know? |
If you dont feel my pussy clamp down, what other signs do i present? In the moment or leading up to it |
You provide a lot of outward feedback long before those things |
Body movements |
Vocalizations |
Instructions |
All good and yummy |
And sometimes I feel you get super wet |
That's when I know you are in lala land |
I've never talked during before |
Lol |
Plus that one time you told me |
"that was a fucking orgasm!" |
I think that was the first time I actually came in you, and then you came too! |
Yes |
It was awesome ❤️❤️❤️ |
Omg please give me the crying one |
Let's do it!!! |
I love to make you come |
I can't wait |
You can do it all over me |
I want to |
Still a bit scared to |
I can't wait to! |
Too! |
I mean I'm gonna have one thing or another inside you |
:P |
You can do more than one |
Glad to be of service |
Indeed |
I hope you feel safe with any inhibitions. |
Whst do you .ean? |
Like if you just need to say or do anything during sex or other times, it's ok no judgements here |
null |
Good sleep pretty baby! |
You too |
null |
2024-11-17T11:09:12 |
null |
null |
😀 |
What are you doing? |
Waking up |
Lol |
Wyd? |
Triste |
Word games and coffee! |
2024-11-17T14:39:09 |
Headed anywhere? |
Nope |
Darn |
Ikr |
:( |
What you up to |
Cleaning lots |
You? |
Similar. Cleaning up some tools |
Oh, fun! |
Trying to keep an orderly shop here lol |
What's that? |
Lol |
Turns out it's a relative feature |
Interesting |
And now? |
And now |
Just finished a bowl of soup |
Wondering if 1800 is too early to go to bed lol |
Nah |
It's midnight in Paris |
Perfect reason! |
If i have a vintage tin that has a bit of rust, is there a way to get rid of it and not lose the paint/pics on it? It's decor only |
If it's very light we could use steel wool or fine sandpapy |
If scraping it doesn't appeal I could try electrolysis assuming it can tolerate being submerged for 24 hr |
I dont know if it can or not bit appreciate the info thanks |
2024-11-17T20:05:28 |
null |
I had no idea you were still awake! |
2024-11-17T23:41:38 |
null |
2024-11-18T04:35:55 |
null |
2024-11-18T06:49:56 |
null |
Hi kittos! |
Actually, they prefer kiddens, kibbens, kibbadens, kibibadens... |
How are you? |
Doing well! |
Gotta get a shower and start working :( |
Well I'm already doing that.... |
Not the shower part though |
I know lol |
Imma just be gross today |
Heheh |
True story |
Permission to send possibly not great pic? |
Ok! |
null |
Ouch |
Feel like that cant be good |
It kind of hurts a little but i also dont usually much below my knees, so it must reallllllly hurt for a normie. Kind of a bump there too |
No idea why it would be like that. It's at a weird place |
Did you drop something on there? |
No, and its on the inside just above my arch |
Spend a lot of time on your toes yesterday? |
Or on your knees? |
Feet yea |
Ijdk if it's broken |
2024-11-18T10:34:15 |
Haie |
Hiee |
How are you? |
How's the new day-week? |
Pretty good |
So far! |
That's good! |
2024-11-18T12:04:24 |
How's the foot? Is the bruise changing at all? |
2024-11-18T13:18:52 |
I guess it's fine? No changes to the bruise |
I might have to examine it personally |
My feet suck. So does today. You can just have them |
Aww |
And now my glucose is low |
Hey now |
It is! |
Do you eat caesar dressing? |
Nope |
Little tiny fishies |
Worcestershire sauce as well |
That's why i asked |
When I first started I think Oreos still had beef tallow and lucky charms had gelatin. You just never know what crazy ideas pass for food sometimes |
Oreo are vegan |
Now at least |
Yep they are now |
Do you have to not take a lot of meds? |
Not a lot |
I would guess gelcaps are tricky |
Yeah I just have to deal with that |
Supposedly there are plant based gels but who knows what comes from the pharmacy |
I take one a day -- effexor |
So I'm not pristine :( |
I swear you said you took 3 |
Do you ever feel your heart race when you use cannabis? |
My other prescriptions are tablets :) |
❤️ to “ I take one a day -- effexor ” |
Regarding racing, not really. |
Ok I didn't know I could love my own message, but that happened when my laptop power cord touched the screen lol |
Surrrrrrrre it did |
I asked about heart racing because it is apparently a side effect of ventra and cannabis |
*venla |
Sorry was just talking about an insured ventra |
Which i thought was funny because they deal with foodservice and ventre is stomach in french |
My wit is so lost on people |
Look up 'true meaning of wit in history' sometime |
Lol! |
Vous faites quoi ce soir? |
Je fais disassemble treadmill |
Oh! Ca va etre brouillant |
C'est un piece de junk |
Connaisez ce mot? |
Oh la la - bruyant |
Mais peut etre les deux |
Oui, c'est lea deux |
Les |
?both? |
Les deux |
Merci |
Travaillez vous tout ce semaine? La prochaine? |
Ce semain oui |
Savez vous ma schedule? |
Et c'est son anniversaire bientot, monsieur... |
Tu ne travailes pas, np? |
La prochaine, oui. Et pas ce mercredi |
Son anniversaire? Ou mon? |
Votre |
Oui. 56ieme |
Je m'excuse... nous dommes tres formale, non? |
Merci! |
De rien... Formale |
Vous pouvez me dire 'tu toyer moi"..... mais non :( |
Encore... Toyer? |
Do you know any of the last bits? Lop |
*lol |
"you can tell me 'you ?? Me' but no |
null |
Alors, puis je vous tutoyer? |
On se tutoie? |
Ohh |
Oui, j'espere! |
Youuuuuuuuuu have to be the one to say it! |
What do i want to eat this week? |
So do I simply say |
Idk either about the infinitive, my brain just does it |
But my conjugation!!! |
Oh, I think it's tutoie moi -- imperative 2nd person singular |
null |
Also similar with new year resolutions, if you need an analogy |
That makes sense but aren't they talking about "talking" to one's self? |
It's essentially you telling me "lose the formality" or "be friendly" but that would be weirder "soie amicalement avec moi" and friendly doesn't mean informal and it's way more convenient to tutoyer |
Idiomatics, amirite? |
Fair! |
Sometimes it just comes down to "it do be that way" |
Actually, in linguistic format "it be like that" is most correct as a term because it is most encompassing and inclusive of tense and tone and pronoun and case.... |
A linguist would typically write anything as "noun (be) verb / adj" |
Like how it's rarely |
You vs one in English is mad |
It's always about you , apparently;) |
I know |
Lol |
Tes presents cette annee? |
Alors.... |
Ouai? |
I had some ideas the other day but I forgot them |
:( |
What to do |
Breathe air into me? |
*my |
Yes let's prioritize breathing plz! |
What's got you going? |
It's not a psych thing it's a physio thing |
So you're not coming to breathe me? Sad. |
I've been breathing for 20 minutes straight can you not feel it |
Daen long distance relationships |
Not close enough |
It's so hard |
Permanent statement |
Lol |
Well doc did send a refill for me to Kroger so there's that |
Ohhhh babe! |
Say what now? |
Are you going to be okay? |
I think so? |
What's happening to me lol |
You're the one sans refill |
Oh I'm talking about the vitamin D+. |
I'm set for everything else |
I don't automatically assume much of anything |
That's a good thing really |
And I've noticed |
You've noticed taht i don't assume? |
Yes, several times |
Interesting |
Can you tell me an example? |
No, I can't. I don't keep track. But I can try to point it out next time if you want to know. |
That would be great, thanks |
And you really think it's a good thing? |
Absolutely! |
It helps avoid, you know, assUme meUass UmeASS and all other sorts of potential embarrassment |
Me ass you? |
That's what I heard |
Lol |
Well consider me a fan! |
But I appreciate it when others do. It keeps me on my toes |
Why are we talking anout precision? |
Exactly |
Precision in language |
And btw, that was an example |
That's a line from a kids book |
Oh |
"Precision of language!" |
Dang it!! Lol |
It's in The Giver |
He doth giveth? |
https://www.quora.com/In-The-Giver-whats-the-deal-with-the-emphasis-on-precision-of-language |
Interesting take |
That's what the author has said |
PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS USING HYPERBOLE!!! |
It's an intense book for a kid |
I joke, but it makes sense |
I couldn't help nothing the commenter "works at the Hatch agency" |
Oh |
The Tripod Trilogy |
That's an old fave |
JRR Tolkien was primarily a linguist |
Yes |
Ok sis I'm fading out here |
null |
Love you! |
Sweet dreams! |
Love you too |
2024-11-19T06:18:45 |
❤ |
Good morning! |
2024-11-19T07:37:12 |
Hey |
Hi lover how are you |
null |
Thought that was cute |
I am meh |
That is cute, and so are you:) |
Thanks 🙂 |
Anything in particular going on or just a blah day |
A few things. Some i dont feel like talking about |
I feel pretty good, sorry to hear you're down |
Thanks |
null |
Awww |
Thanks! |
2024-11-19T09:53:59 |
He says it's too cold for air con anymore |
null |
null |
null |
null |
Lol! |
You are wfh today yeah? |
And whaaaat is up with that cake? |
I am wfh today. Mandated in office thursday. Entire service center |
Thiught the cake was pretty |
Yeah it's pretty wild, looks unreal! |
Look like I will be out next Wednesday |
We have a mandatory "town hall" |
Still no words about going south |
Im off in december starting COB the 20th, maybe before that |
Wanna help me pick days to use my volunteer/school time and my floating holiday? |
I need 2 |
Yeah? What do you have planned for those? |
Nothing but fuck if i let AF keep 16 hours I'm allowed to be paid for and not work lol |
Right! |
Im saying i can likely spend it with you if you want but my days remaining are limited |
Fwiw I am planning to be out 12/2, week of 12/9, and week of 12/23, and also 12/30 |
Maybe you tell me what days you do work? |
12/3-12/6 |
Yes I'm working my birthday |
Did you want yo make plans for any of those? |
Oh no did I? |
You already knew this |
It couldn't be helped I'm sorry |
But whyyyyyyyyyy |
Something something important meeting |
Not |
:( |
You can flog me later |
Didnt think you were into masochism |
I'm not into machismo |
I'm into Sadieism |
She isn't even 6! |
...but close right? |
You tell me |
I mean 5 is almost 6 |
So is 1 in terms of miles relative to the next planet |
Yes |
See? |
You're smart. I bet you can even do open enrollment without the job aide |
Unlike me |
I bet mine is already done since BU made it another passive year |
But i bet i can do Medicare open enroll without any job aides |
Well there you go! |
And ecriver du francais sans le google |
Now that feels like a neenerneener |
Pas de tout |
Pass the trout sure |
I'm headed out to lunch with Patrick |
Awwwww |
What are you doing this afternevening? |
Tomorrow all day? |
Nothing I'm sure |
Working tomorrow |
Unfortunately |
Booo |
All day? |
Do you like lego building? |
Lmk if you feel like going anywhere after work tonight. I'm prob headed somewhere |
It's been a long time since I legod but I loved it as a kid |
2024-11-19T14:28:03 |
How is your day ? |
My lovable linguist |
My epitome of etymology |
My Paragon of pronunciation |
My wizardess of words |
Goddess of glottals |
Mistress of morphology/morphemes/morphophonetics |
Nice! |
Mademoiselle des mots |
❤️ to “ Mademoiselle des mots ” |
My beautiful fairy of bilabial fricatives |
Witchtress of wordsmithing |
How was lunch? Home for the rest of the night? |
It was good. Yes I'm probably anchored now |
What's going on in the land of accipters? |
Fucking reports that are all SNAFU |
Ahh yes |
2024-11-19T16:57:11 |
Wait you're fucking reports now? |
The heck |
Heyyyy |
You excited to vamoose for a solid day? |
Kinda? |
But i will |
Oh |
Low glucose got me again. Bad today. |
Oh ick |
I trust you are over the worst now? |
Do you need anything? |
Very much past the worst thanks |
Actually, i could use your help with some ideas if you feel like it |
How can I help? |
Looking for new ideas of food to try and make. Some non lettuce salads is one, idk what else |
I've been eating like shit lately but I am happy to suggest some non-crap ideas |
Yeah, kind of same |
Do you like micro greens like baby lettuce/beet greens etc? What about spinach? Or do you prefer to avoid leaves altogether |
Microgreens are something im not supposed to eat, and i dont do great with leaves so not avoiding but not promoting them |
Got it |
There are also cabbage-based salads (an "Asian" is popular with RLH) |
Does knowing more help? Re greensases |
Pre bagged salad thingy |
Yeah sure the more info the better |
Micro usually cant be cleaned enough to be safe for immune comps like me |
Good to know. What about cabbage or broccoli slaw? NB I'm not a huge fan of either one, just fishing for ideas |
Sometimes, but i need more than salads too |
Ok well maybe we have one thing for your list! |
Yes |
https://www.kroger.com/p/dole-sesame-asian-chopped-salad-kit/0007143000035 |
Oh crap the lettuce |
And i dont like ginger lol |
Oh noes you won't like my tea |
It is ok |
Let's try some things else |
Yeah, no heavy ginger for me thanks, sorry! |
Yes |
So I don't know how to steer you to protein unless you want to try fakey things, but I feel like they are not good choices for you |
I don't need protein ideas. Just food |
Why do you think they're poor choices for me? |
But if I said get some fresh or canned mushrooms, couscous, and green beans or asparagus, steam the veg but cook the mushrooms into the couscous. Dash of lemon juice on the veg to serve |
You have any uncanny timing did you know that? |
Perhaps |
Dude that's what I got if I can't pick protein or potatoes |
Unless |
We can go grains like barley? Oatmeal? |
I don't remember do you care for beans/pulses? |
Or split peas |
Pulses? |
And couscous is a grain |
Or we can just eat ice cream lol |
Kind of |
Kind of |
It's wheat |
Which is.... |
I'm talking whole grains now |
Which pasta is not |
Usually |
So is cinna toast crunch then lol |
Thank god |
Cinna toast dayum girl |
Yum tho I suppose |
Prob too sugary for me! |
That should tell you something |
Your cereal has more carbs |
We've been through this lol |
Yes yes |
Barely barley |
Do you? |
Eat barely? |
Or barely eating knowwhatimsayinnudgewink |
I'm exhausted now lol |
Why? |
Typing that |
Battling autocorrect |
Cats prowling all around |
I dismantled my treadmill |
Hahahaha mf is in bits now |
Yeah |
Ah, but you never said barley lol |
Not routinely but it's fine |
Ahem |
Mmhmmm |
It's fine but takes forever |
I know you like stuffed mushrooms. Right? |
What am I going to feed you? |
Applsauce, peanut butter crackers & celery, stuffed mushrooms, and popsicles. |
Not a terrible diet I suppose. Needs some dairy I'd get yogurt. Hipster kind no fuckery. |
And berries |
I could live on that for a hot minute |
Or jelly I guess |
Preserves for me please! I love strawberry preserves |
Yeah, no jelly please |
Also nope on pb crackers unless there's a side dip |
And nope on Popsicles |
What's a side dip in this instance (the one you referenced ^^) |
Probably nutella or jam |
Oh good one nutella |
So can I ask about bread |
What is your preference |
What do you avoid |
Sesame seeds on top is what i avoid |
Smes bad ok |
Prefer light or dark, squishy or firm? |
Yep |
No smegma |
What kind of breads? |
Omg ew vomit |
Damn autocorrect |
Bread , you , eat ? Care about? |
Are we talking just sliced bread or also buns and rolls and things too? |
Yeah babe. Yes, baked, yeasted wheat products such as bread slices or otherwise, rolls, buns, boobs, |
Yeah buns and boobs, and things like that |
Nothing hard to bite into like pretzel buns |
Those |
I know |
null |
Fml what didn't happen is cleaning that mirror |
Ooh cute! |
null |
null |
null |
You remind me of Claudius in those pics |
Right |
Yeah, cats are following me |
Claudius had pigtails? |
I hate self-portraits |
I hate my self portraits |
Im guessing you dont know claudio? |
I mean c and I go way back dude |
Oh he is way back I get it |
From one of a fave bands of mine from once upon a time |
Nope - claudio |
Wut |
Je suis stupido |
Used to be a favorite band of mine. Kind of still is |
Oic |
Haha |
Fucking aye nice hair dude |
Dude that is your hair |
null |
And that 10 stada stare |
At your service |
Do you believe in reincarnation |
I have go play at scullery maid for about 20 |
Heyy |
Scully here |
You are so behind on q&a! |
I do believe in reincarnation, somewhat, if we're being serious |
That helps |
Have you thoughts on your past life? On mine? On ours? |
Life or lives |
I haven't thought of that much, other than knowing we were somehow destined to reconnect in this life and will again but better in a future one |
I appreciate it |
I don't grok it personally, despite hanging around Hare Krsna for decades |
And my wife |
I like the idea, sort of, but I don't really feel it |
I think it's both simpler and more complicated than i can explain |
Straightup reincarnation? Nah |
Overlapping connected strings and spirit-y things? Yes |
Interventions from beyond the realm? Yes |
Heaven or hell? Not hell. Maybe pleasant afterlife. Nothing actually biblical |
I dont think this is "it" |
I don't see straight history or religion as truth and all of those ideas are kinda the same |
Universal forces that dont have an explanation |
Keep going please!
|
Please? |
Sorry, very distracted |
I like it ty |
What are you up to? |
Musicing |
I don't think I was any help today |
I think you were. And you tried. |
I'm sorry babe |
I need to get off my ass and do things but I think too much |
If you please, |
I can offer a old dude 80s rec |
It's fantasy land |
Relax |
? |
But it's fun, if weird |
Music, sorry |
What about music though? |
Oh it was a fleeting thought that fleeteth |
And so it went |
Oh, no |
Do you do anything holiday-related? Put up a tree, decorate, craft, gift, etc? |
I stay out of the way and participate in gift exchange |
Sometimes cook |
In your ideal world, what's best about Christmas? I'm trying to craft something |
How do you feel about woolen socks on your feet? |
I love wool |
Fave holiday recipe? Baked thing recipe? |
My feet do too |
Ok brace for impact |
Ready? |
Me mum made amazing cookies |
Apart from that I dislike this time of year |
Ba |
Too bad. I'm here now and i like making and gifting things |
One a those eh |
You cannot be ome iota surprised |
I just don't like the excess of nonsense |
And spending |
Mmhmm |
I actually like snuggles when actually snuggly |
If you get me |
Yes |
Sux |
Pick your top hobbies and fandoms and things you like please |
What is your favorite storybook or tale, such that one could find it in a picture book or page length document? |
Could be a scene too |
Oddly specific innit |
Yes well |
I like wood, and woodlands actually. I'm an unapologetic tree hugger. |
I like to collect records, especially those that would have been mainstream in my childhood |
I |
https://open.spotify.com/track/5UFyR8cVjiyIFjOd7PhkBm?si=Z35Fx67dSliF_B2_w4rlQg |
Is there anything else? |
I like cheese |
There you are |
Yes well |
Blitzen is it? |
Do I know you |
That's just german for lightning |
And donner? |
Thunder |
Bring it |
It's where we get "detonate" |
Plosive |
Ppppppppp |
Such report |
Did you get the information you needed |
Llllllllllickyou |
Fine very good |
Clearly someone didnt do all his vocab homework |
Unga bunga? |
Report |
Report what now? |
a sudden loud noise of or like an explosion or gunfire. |
Yes! |
Ppppppppppp |
There will be much more of this |
Jsyk |
Ok I am over and out lol |
Copy that |
And ditto |
And i love you too |
Which would have made a lot more sense if you knew movie quotes |
2024-11-20T06:57:20 |
Good morning! |
Hi :) |
What you up to? |
Just waking up. You? |
Preparing to drag my ass upstairs to start the work day |
Very sad |
Tis |
What are today's plans? |
1) survive new supervisor |
Ohhh |
He's just being weird |
Okay sure, but do you report to him, is he adjacent to you, or do you oversee him? |
I report to him and I'm pretty sure this is the first time he's ever been a supervisor (day 5) |
Internal or external hire? |
It's David |
Internal lol |
Lol |
Yeah |
What are you going to do with your free day? |
Ope, team meeting time lol here we go |
I dont have a solid plan yet |
So no ideas? Sad |
Sorry team meeting |
So glad I'm working a Wednesday :/ |
Mmhmm |
I bet |
It's just wonderful |
Yes |
Two team meetings and worky work |
Gotcha |
2024-11-20T13:13:45 |
Hey doll |
O hai |
How are you? 🙂 |
Meh |
What's wrong? |
Just not feeling it today |
I know the feeling |
Sorry babes |
I have sort of company this weekend but if you feel like an excursion id be happy to be your companion |
Thank you |
Sorry i cant do more |
😢 |
It's ok thank you |
What else is going on? |
It's raining |
Crikey I need an attitude adjustment |
How do i help this? |
Just bear with me I'll get over it |
You've been more than kind and understanding with me |
Thanks babe I appreciate you |
I still think something else is wrong |
Hmm? Something else wrong? Idk I think I'm just grumpy because I started on the wrong foot this morning and I'm in one of those work phases where everything is annoying |
Definitely not the first time |
Okay |
I don't know. I couldn't find my glasses for 15 minutes. |
:( |
Tell me about your day! |
I feel really unwell |
Sorry you're unwell what sort of medical intervention do you foresee needing? |
If i need something it'll be IV antibiotics |
I may have procured some things with you in mind |
Thank you! |
Do you think you have an infection? |
I cant tell |
Ok I trust you will know if you need help yeah? |
No messing around with sepsis |
It's.... tricky with me |
Hence my concern 8| |
I know. Thank you |
Did you realize FCAS = Fellow of the Casualty Actuarial Society? |
I dis not know auch a group existed |
Yep CAS is the professional group that sets the standards for Actuarial training and certification in P&C insurance. |
CAS = college of arts & sciences to me lol |
You gosh darn liberal arts majors ... |
Only some of my degrees are liberal arts |
:P |
Are you wfh tomorrow? |
And would you like to know what i procured you? |
Yeah, and I forgot I have to take RLH to hospital |
And I do want to know! |
Oh dear |
Is she alright? |
This is for lumbar facet joint anesthesia. T spine too maybe? |
Outpt thing |
Like cortisone shots? |
Like but not cortisone, yeah |
Easily the 30th such time |
Ok 20th |
Ill take some |
I'm honestly unsure if this is efficient now as it was 10 years ago |
Or effective |
I dont know why i even bother with any kind of pain killer most days |
So you're busy tomorrow evening as well? |
"busy" |
We will be back home by 1600 |
I will still be at afhq |
I imagine so, indeed |
9.5? |
What is? |
My foot |
Shoe |
Yes |
I missed the opportunity to promote my belt buckle size |
Just sayin |
Oh, did you? |
It's a sight gag, I'll have to show you |
Anyway, i thought these were designed for utility. Ish. |
null |
Them are beautiful! |
Them are yours |
With your carpet as a background |
Thank you babe! |
And nautica |
Lol ye |
*ye |
Damn it |
Youre welcome |
Haha I hope the brand can take it |
I'ma straight up drag em lol |
That was very thoughtful |
💖 |
They'll be sanitized |
Good girl |
null |
Tread is good tho |
Awesome! |
Good to go |
:) |
Nope. Lysol spray ftw |
They feel suedey |
Good good lol yes I believe in microban |
Ah yes |
But yes |
Typically i would literally put them in the washing machine too |
Up to you |
The interweb says theyre vintage |
For reals? Vintage even |
Woo I just went from zero to two pairs of capable boots tyvm! |
2? |
I bought some boots online on a rec from you! But no worries, that set is tall and super duper insulated |
I'm looking for a stylist for me hair |
It's been more than a year since i did anything, i also dont know if gendered stylist matters to you |
Find me a new job yet? |
I need to talk to the boss about that see sexetary |
Sorry HR will take care of that yeah |
Lol |
I just want the dead ends dealt with really. I want to be able to do it up or down any which way! Lol |
You can have my job sis |
It would honestly be better if we both just retire now |
Ish |
Meh |
Hey do you miss ajvar? |
Huh? |
Not so much |
Lol |
It's popular Bulgaria-way |
Wasn't sure how prevalent in Poland |
You know that's the same difference between nyc and kansas city or minneapolis? |
You do have a point |
Damn Europeans too cheap to take vacations lol |
I hope you realize I jest |
null |
null |
Nope |
Haha secret encoded in the pics! |
Turns out there's a smell encoded as well |
Nope. Just me being needy |
Actually... |
Hmm? |
Look at the jackets |
And I wasn't clear, which pic did you prefer? |
Did I mention I hate self-portraits? |
Oh and boys are arriving |
But that could be good news.... |
I did not say otherwise |
;) |
Tell me all about your possible sepsis concerns now please |
Do you feel any? |
Describe plz |
Measurements, give. I know you have them |
Expect prompt response plz |
I am cold and achy |
Have you been spiking temps? |
Kind of |
And |
Examples? |
I will send an ambulance to your house |
You will not |
My temp is always complicated |
Keep me informed plz |
I just dont know what to do, unfortunately |
Tell me what's going on |
Which sector? |
Most important first |
ABC |
You just mean healthwise then |
You are definitely going to be licked for this |
It's actually. ABCD now |
You're killing me here |
It's how they do med stuff now, for real |
Airway |
Princess I know that |
And HRU |
Murr |
I need to eat |
nanana |
Just get some nourishment and rest |
All day in the cesspool is hard on a girl |
Nothing els matters now, right? |
I still have mandatory OT |
Ffs |
Yeah |
You have to disconnect from that shit |
I. Cannot. Do. This. Anymore. |
You can't do anything now either |
I want to say something i havent ever wanted to be true |
To me or ??? |
To you |
Not safe to say it to anyone else |
I am too sick and unwell in my head and in my body to be treated so normal, which is totally subpar if we're honest |
So what |
I dont know what I'm supposed to do |
For now |
Right now |
Just breathe |
Just breathe babe |
I mean this literally |
Right now |
null |
Are you with me or no |
Yes |
Are you able to just vacate your thoughts for a moment? |
Honestly no |
Ok |
No worries |
I'm sorry |
I wish I could redirect your focus |
From afar |
Me too |
Or really, from up close |
But I'm not being lascivious |
I understand |
I thought you were feeding me? |
I know the awful tornado of shitstorme |
Not the same way as you, and I was luckier |
Howso? |
Meds and circumstances worked for me 60% and I was able to change 20% so 80% extra free for me. |
I Don't think you got the same deal as me |
Explain more please |
In whatever terma you need |
For all intents and purposes i am dumb as a rock rn because i nevwr know what you know and what you don't |
I'm just waxing Gothic. |
You know today is the first time I said HRU |
And more importantly how is your |
and you never gave me temp readings |
I know it is to me |
Or anything |
My thermometer is near the food |
And not once |
Not even on e |
Since 1900 |
Have you consulted said thermometer |
True |
Or not true |
Not since before then even |
Nor did i say i had |
How claimeth you spike fever? |
She who is the ONLY |
person who has ever taken her temperature as a passenger in my car |
You are sus dear one |
Has "lookit all the places I stash therms" |
Please tell me when i last told you id spiked an official fever |
1/2 |
2/2 |
Alas - |
Weasel words |
Immunosuppress drugs suppress fevers too |
Good |
Then why |
And a normal fever vs a spiked temp for me are different |
Supressing fevers is actually not good |
I get that |
I have had an elevated for me temp |
Do you not understand I care about your well being? |
Why tell me you might have to go hospitly |
Hospital |
Oh |
And then speak in tongues about what's happening rn |
I was keeping you informed |
I didnt want you to be alarmed |
But i didnt want to lie to you |
It's a little alarming when you say casually that you might need iv ab |
Innit? |
C'mon |
And i dont think I'm in actual danger yet |
I'm sorry |
I might need a minute |
I was earlier |
It's not you |
Why were you crying? |
See ^^ and ^^^^^ etc |
Hey |
I might be starting to get it but not really |
I just want to know you are ok |
I'm not septic |
You know this how? |
You set up pretty big expectations |
Just saying |
Because ive been septic enough times to know |
Ok I asked about that |
And you said "tricky" |
Tell me |
Meeeeee |
Because i go from completely fine to delusional in just a few hours |
You think I don't get that? |
I do understand |
More reasons for me to be concerned eh? |
Keep going please |
What else? |
Your nose is how wet |
Now |
I slobbering in it |
I dont think you know why I'm crying and i didnt like it so i stopped |
Did you wish to tell me? |
I am here to listen |
Why do you think |
No, really im asking |
Hopefully not because I'm being a dick |
But maybe |
I already told you it wasnt you |
Well I have zero context then 🤷 |
It was starting to set it how much no one has ever cared |
Dang dude you are hard catch me up |
I meant with hospitals specifically |
Health care is not in good shape around here anymore |
You are a far better judge than I, but even since 2018 I can see it |
I dont know what you mean by "around here" |
98.9 btw |
Sorry I will let you lead |
Ty for the temp :) |
Uncanny |
No really, what is "around here"? |
In the so called united States |
I am being hyperbolic |
But healthcare insurance is a fucking joke |
Yes yes |
I almost died in Portugal |
Right I know your experiences are indicative of how sucky we are |
But |
You are how now? |
How...? |
😐 |
You well being, to start |
Oh. Better in general |
Good ty |
So why were you crying |
I cannot guess I have zero idea |
I told you |
Thank you |
Or show me because I missed it |
And yes, yes you are worth it |
And you do matter |
And you are important |
And I care a whole lot |
Please |
FML I see it now but I misunderstood |
I connected "hospitals" |
I'm sorry I'm overbearing. |
I care about you |
It's from a place of good intentions |
I don't think you're overbearing |
I think i honestly do not understand |
Understand |
Understand what |
Genuine concern |
Say more? |
Is that why you were crying |
Yes. And i had to shut it down because i do not have time for that rabbithole |
Do you |
But I will wrap myself around you |
Will you pull me in too? |
Yes |
I am really sick of being dizzy rn |
What can we do |
I am trying to figure that out |
Ok |
Blood sugar is up to 99 |
2024-11-21T05:08:24 |
Good morning :) |
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2024-11-21T06:55:18 |
❤️ good morning! ❤️ |
How are you? |
Missinf a good hair day and everything |
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Aww hii!! |
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Want some tasks for the day? |
https://open.spotify.com/track/3xrwXWG4O9uhtRyAd3MCou?si=x6WRMSLKSm-w_sKLd5JCfw |
Thank you! |
https://open.spotify.com/track/34Tmk8gwlRRegVVZDRxXxk?si=tG9FY2QvSaK2wTeovwDcaw |
So you aren't doing tasks para me? |
https://open.spotify.com/track/741UUVE2kuITl0c6zuqqbO?si=plkkpTWJSpKYrzMnYmWo6Q |
https://open.spotify.com/track/735rjks7kQgWCjTQlIHMuH?si=Xa2xb4bBQcunBKEfh3EWKA |
Meetings for me til 1230 |
Good luck! |
Tiny break! |
Anyway |
O no more work? |
Nooooo |
I'm too sleepy |
Personal taskases |
2024-11-21T11:07:34 |
Christ jesus i am dying down here |
Too much rahrah? |
Straight monotone numeroc ppt slide speeching |
This is just half |
null |
Do you want to go somewhere or have dinner? Fr tonight |
Yes I do, I will see if I can make something work :) |
I just read a story on Reddit that could almost have been written by you, from childhood experiences to a now 40 yo figuring things out. |
That's very literally me |
Constantly and not even 24 hours ago! |
Just got some kinda sucky info |
We leave around 1400. Still at home |
Does she go under general? Twilight? Just versed? |
Twilight I think |
She's usually on her feet within half hour of completion |
Well, no. This person went to prison. So did here dad, twice |
What's the news? |
I do not work next week. |
Oh ffs |
2024-11-21T14:17:11 |
Back at the phleb lands? |
You would think so , but we haven't left yet. She is notoriously incapable of leaving the house on time for anything, and I'm done being the timekeeper. |
Ummmm |
And she has been cancelled at least once before for being late |
Oh I think we're ready to leave now lol |
I see |
Do you have, perhaps, a foot or foot and a half/slightly wider and 30"+ long board? |
To top an opentop bookshelf to make another shelf atop lol |
Well we made it lol |
I do have a lot of wood scraps, I probably have something like that |
OMG there were three Rebeccas here in the waiting room lol |
There were 3 Rebeccas in my high school bio class too |
Make a decision yet? |
A decision? |
About getting out? |
Yes and yes |
I also just ate too many cookies. Blerghh |
Blerggh lol |
I need an excuse |
Tell her tomorrow that she asked you to go find a specific food item |
Or you heard of a market David was going to and you wanted to join his quest |
Or you were overwhelmed by boys and wanted a quick break |
Needed office things? |
You can also just say no |
A friend needed a ride since they were stranded in the afhq parking structure and you have a badge and could access to give them a jump |
You just keep these in stock |
Butter is on sale |
I don't have friends, remember? |
Give me a few minutes |
Take your time |
Maybe we just say no for today unless you want to clean with me |
There definitely was a time the anaesthesia play would have worked, but I don't think it will be lol. But I like the creativity! |
I could gobto staples with you! |
Dont you need new shoeboots |
I know! |
I have to go get prescriptions now |
Dang it |
This was a lot easier when rite aid was here |
Here's a fun fact: one time at u of m my fentanyl was $8/mcg for having a temp chest line placed |
$8/ mcg/ml solution |
I needed 250 mcg that time |
Dayum |
So 2.5mg i think |
0.250 miss metric |
Oh is it? I didnt deal much wuth micro |
Eaxh acetaminophen was a solid $3 |
Omg new fave |
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$1209.60 for concious sedation, throughout all of which i still had addl charges for each of fentanyl, versed, lorazepam, and idk what else |
Only $56 each hcg test |
$41 ungodly dollars for each glucose check |
$2500 each day i stayed in my ultra luxury isolation room just to exist there |
$44 for each "iv start supplies" kit |
$795 to wave a wand over my super sick gallbladder. And it hurt anyway! |
Why are oxycodone, omeprazole, tylenol, cymbalta, and gab all $3/tablet? |
I've wondered that myself |
Apap is super cheap too |
I'm about to get some rn actually |
This was in hosp |
I can tell you outpt later |
Apap? |
Having billed hospital services, it's fucking arbitrary |
Maybe those drugs find their way to me |
Lol |
Yes |
M&ms? |
You know they get paid 5 cents on the dollar for most things by the blues |
I'll spring for some mentos |
Hydrocodone |
Blues pulls the lofe outta me anyway. Even deal |
Ohhh yeah |
I woulda just said norco |
I couldn't remember that name lol |
Maybe you need a dollar tree trip tonight! |
Oh gods no |
Noooooo |
Just come clean. I have kneesocks and a duster for you |
Omg i lovvvvvvvve me the $$store! |
Lol |
Wanna head out to birch row? |
Dojt make me shlep you to waltstore |
Not the Wally world noooo |
5 below |
Homegoods |
Mega mall is open til 8 today! |
Down South they used to have the Bent Can store. You could get dented and perhaps slightly out of date canned and dry goods. Green beans 25 cents! |
They're 50c at meijer this week even if they're perfect! All meijer brand canned veg |
Nope |
Nope |
And i grew up with a lot of influence from depression era grandparents |
Same |
We could not go to some grocery stores because they were too expensive |
My mom says she cried when ground beef went to whatever in the 70s (probably 50 cents a pound) |
Yeah |
Yet he died with $1.6m liquid, 3 endowment scholarships - maybe 4? And whatever assets. A house in Farmington hills i guesRithes brother donated a help desk to a university |
Huh |
For saltwater in a syringe that i could do myself |
Nice! |
Get a load of this |
null |
Ive noticed so many things on this! |
Also got you a book |
Maybe more than 1 lol |
I swear they fell into the cart |
Lol! |
Alors, je suis par seule ce soir? |
I'm sorry :( |
I canna |
😢 |
I know |
I'll fait pleut ici :( |
Il y a une poeme fameuse "il pleut dans mon coeur" ...... |
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Je commence |
Eez a beeg job |
Ouai |
Could i interest you in some clear glass oil & vin pour containers? |
May I see? |
I think I have like 6 record jackets you got at Record Lounge |
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Actually the bottom of a cat tree. 1/2" plywood, in 2 squares that are screwed together (yum) |
I also have 2 pieces like the square cut in thirds |
I think they are 10x24 |
I also have 2 of these. I only need one. |
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Oh that would be very workable i think, thanks! |
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Oh those are dandy! |
Just let me know which Woodies you want. Any or all. And I will clean up the dingy ones |
Awww thanks! |
I'll have to see what works |
Np |
How are you? Jow is the evening and whatever? |
So far so good. It's my Amazon day, so sometimes that's fun! |
And goobers are here |
And there was much rejoicing |
I have a sore throat most of the day tho and it mak a me nervous |
What's the rejoining for? What did amasanta bring you? |
But yes, i do need to temp check |
A s xy throw blanket for me and the cats , for the one workable chair in the basement |
A proper ( if cheap) gouge for wood turning |
Some light machine oil |
Dont threaten me with a good time! |
2x2 gauze pads nonsterile |
Hehe!! |
99.2 |
Ok good thank you |
Yep |
A big box of alligator clips |
Do with what you will |
No one likes teeth |
And assorted multi tester leads |
Shocking |
Lol |
You still have that spark |
So watt's up? |
Cirrently |
Not much. Pretty grounded |
Bwahahaha!!! |
That really turns me on you know |
Nothing if not a harnessed force of nature |
I wanna seeeeee youuuuy |
FR? |
I mean I want to be there |
With you |
Somewhere |
Umcanny |
It's been too damn long |
Very agreed |
I wanna talk to you like fr |
If you could take me anywhere at all, cost and logistics having no bearing, where and why? |
Ooh this one s a fun question |
I was thinking it a lot today |
Yay! |
Yeah i miss you |
So anywhere huh |
Yes |
I wonder if I should pick something I know and love, or something I don't know. |
Did you know Uruguay is among the nicer places on the planet? |
Or so I've gathered |
Lcol |
Friendly |
Or at least easy to ng |
Going |
Telecommuting options |
Diiiiid you know it's one of 4 countries in s america i visited? |
What did you think? |
I mean parts are impoverished |
But seems civil |
I think you're very correct |
Ah |
I had the impression its kinda moderate (like a Michigan lite), but of course idk |
So you like cooler or drier? |
What about hot and dry (like AZ) |
Cold and wet (Seattle) |
(Scotland,) |
Seattle is pretty moderate |
It's wetter here than there |
null |
What abute Novah Scotiah? |
Been there too |
Ultra expensive |
Ultra friendly |
Really |
Huh |
About a year ago |
Cape breton |
Oh yes! |
Do you like walking or hiking at all? |
Urban or wild |
Urban or tamer for actual walking |
Urban has always been my default because i can be more independent |
Well, international kind of offers both sonce public transit is a real thing elsewhere |
Ok cool |
Well I think I'm going to choose some places I do not know |
I want to see the Czech Republic |
Been there too lol |
Gorgeous |
I want to know the birthplace of some awesome beer history |
And southern Germany |
For the same reason |
Been there lol |
But my first beer ever was in Praha |
Niiiice |
That's bragging rights legit |
I got to my hostel there as it turned to midnight on my 20th birthday. Got lost in slovakia earlier that day lol |
Hehe |
I also want to see vietnam |
Not funny then but now, sure |
Idk why |
Food |
That was it |
And I need to understand equatorial living |
Ive not been to asia |
Just so I can confidently say that's not for me |
But they do cool things there |
I would want to see there and cambodge for the french architecture and colonial relics |
India ofc |
Same for tahiti |
Goaaaaaaa |
Get me a baby elephant |
Aww |
Goa is where i want to see moat in india |
Most |
Sorry, typing is a struggle after 16 hours i guess |
Back in a bit |
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2024-11-21T20:39:44 |
O hai |
Been bonding with stepson |
Oh yeah? |
Tell me! |
We just gabbing |
Man stuff lol |
In fact I like hearing what he is saying for once. It sounds like real ambition |
I am happy |
https://preservecompany.com/collections/preserves-marmalades-jellies?utm_source=Klaviyo&utm_medium=campaign&utm_campaign=Nov+21+-+Mrs+Claus&utm_id=01JD50HEQHV00YXFBCBJEP36V4&_kx=Pxt8UDJt0GMXTOt0ZCh2n7Pm1j_0nJizkVJQfrsAeU83sEwLuwG61VpNwjfUtEP6.ae7Hu5 |
Please tell me more! |
I just sanitized my phone and case and it was fun |
Yum above ty |
Ive been there |
Tell me about the man chats! |
We talked about oak in the property |
Making things with resin |
Solar powered projects |
The insane she cat of his. We are cat sitting |
Cadillacs |
Deer kills (the vehicle kind) |
This guy,,, wait for it |
This guy that married the kids' aunt |
He's a kiwi who builds, refurbishes, and sails boats |
All over the place, but they live in the charlevoix area |
He just built the place, using boat building themes. Gobs of expensive lumber in th house and his work barn |
He gifted huge pieces to my kids |
It's re really cool |
Like 40 foot trusses |
And 30 foot laminated beams |
Huge wins for these guys |
I am glad |
Wow that's awesome! |
Who is their aunt? |
Dad's sister? |
Yes |
I'm glad to see wind in their sails |
Oh |
And I had to explain why the green olives (yes those) in the fridge are weird |
Why? |
Well |
I'm glad you asked |
You see last week when I went to grocery |
Kroger was out of my usual size of jar of olives |
Right |
So |
Hmmm |
I bought the half quart size right |
A pint |
And |
Yes |
2 cups |
Get this lady anything she wants for |
Roughly 500ml |
Yours sweetheart |
So |
I pulled into my driveway right |
Yes. Your sickly premature baby olives |
And the next thing I know, me and this point of olives right |
Pint |
PintIn |
Ok Eliza Doolittle |
Oh and by the way |
Up your module |
Neenerneener |
So me and olives right |
Yes |
Yeah |
She's going in me and I'm like wfaf |
Dammit |
Olive freak |
Pimentos wtf I love you but why |
What |
Nope |
Not here |
What is this abomination called low sodium OLIVES |
I died that day |
For you |
So you don't have to |
What will you do when you have your way all the time? |
Hey babe i have to be done for now. Panicky. I will be okay. I work AM |
How shall you refer to me? |
Oh ok no worries |
Nvm I'm just being silly here |
Take care of yourself 💖 |
I know |
TTFN |
❤️ |
2024-11-22T06:59:50 |
Eyy |
Aeee |
How are you? |
Good! Slept a bit long |
Nah |
Tell me again about your night! |
It was pretty tame after that. I got some food and went to bed more or less |
Oh did I mention Chopin? |
How's work? Any G memos or important announcements about stars? |
Headwinds and challenges? |
Donating to political action committees and charities? |
How to talk about your employer in front of family |
I really should log in I guess |
How was your sleep dear one? |
I slept well |
I have like 1.5 things to do for work and my brain is checked out already lol |
I might have free time but not sure when. RLH will be driving the dudes back up north at some point |
There's an estate sale kinda near you this weekend. I might go |
It's just a few hours |
Right |
O rly |
But i have no house remember |
I know |
1230 downer |
That's the estate sale |
That is very close! |
https://www.estatesales.net/MI/Lansing/48912/4287621 |
Omfg |
That egg table |
Get there then |
I don't want it, but it is something to see lol |
Well i need basically everything they have! |
Pop quiz: if you could get me any material good at all, what would it be? |
Let's go with Vermont. I'm not sure specifically where, but it's not hard to find nice places there. You can get away from people easily, and the people are easy to be around by and large. Plus it's beautiful, hilly, sparsely populated, and liberal. |
Okay :) |
For material things |
Does she like shiny? |
Precious? |
Fuzzy? |
Blue? |
Liquid? |
Useful? |
Pointy? |
This be your choice |
How about a nice cashmere blanket? |
Why that? |
Because you asked |
And it sounds like something nice |
I did say anything in the world too |
Have I disappointed you |
Not at all |
I might amend the blanket specifics but it sounds very cosy |
Perhaps I'll think of something else later :) |
Perhaps |
Big work day for you? |
Not too bad |
Only one meeting that matters, in 8 minutes |
Good luck |
Thx |
2024-11-22T11:13:56 |
Arent you done yet? |
Been on the phone with VSP and BCBS for an hour lol |
I know I don't need to tell you this but medical insurance is fucking wacked |
Indeed |
So it turns out that when an annual eye exam is billed to BCBS as primary, the benefit is a fraction of what it would be if VSP was primary |
VSP pays as a second payer, but at a reduced benefit |
So when two insurances are involved on a 220 eye exam, I pay 107 instead of zero. Crazy |
Can you switch primary & secondary? It also depends on if it's for sight or med optical care |
Can't. Dr noted tracking cataracts and dry eye (RLH) |
Oddly, even though I have cataracts as well, my claims have been billed to vision payer |
And so 100% covered |
God forbid you have a medical reason to see an opthalmologist |
Wtaf |
Buncha flippity flops |
You tell em |
Well now that's out of the way, I have lost all remaining motivation lol |
Awww |
Well then what am i supposed to do?? |
Entertain meeeee |
Whatcha want? |
Youuuuuuu |
Yes please!!! |
But i am a hot pile of mess today lol |
Meee toooo |
But I did brush my teeth |
null |
Current work sitch lol |
Wow |
Your uniform looks great |
I have a thing for headbands too |
Yay! |
Leggins too |
null |
Over shorts lol |
Very nice! I like it |
Me too |
What time can i expect my getaway companion? |
null |
Non |
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I think the goonies are getting ready to leave |
I will have approx 4 hours clear when they leave (because Mom has to drive them back up north) |
I do like that better thank you! |
But i have to stupid worrrrkkkkkkkk |
Where north? |
Cadillac area ish |
Which municipality |
I'm trying to find that out actually |
Need suggestions? Not even joking |
My bad they're actually going to Claire. Their dad will take them the rest of the way to Grayling ish |
But the bus do have property sort of between Cadillac and Harrison |
Boys |
Fml |
RLH will probably be back by 1700 |
Clare has some cool spots if you ever want to take a day trip |
Speaking of.... |
I've seen the beautiful rest area. That's it |
Lol |
And where my former bff was from |
Anyway |
In the next few weeks, would a day trip with you be possible? |
Maybe yeah! |
I still have at least 2 random days off, plus anything after the 20th this year, and most wednesdays |
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And I have times off as well. I don't usually announce them to RLH, and I havent |
So you want to see how her brain works... |
As they were leaving just now |
I mentioned my aunt/uncle/cousin in Kalamazoo invited us to thanksgiving |
She says I dunno, I don't know if I feel like travelling |
As she steps out the door to travel to Clare |
The driving times are identical |
Yes. I was just typing that |
Also..... she would just step in, sit, and go.... |
The truth, I believe, is she and my sons all think my aunt is a condescending bitch |
Which she isn't, but they won't say it in front of me |
Why do they think that, |
My aunt is salt if the earth, never put anyone down in her life , or repented in a confessional for days if she did |
Because they're fucking snowflakes |
It's bizarre |
I've been around this aunt my entire life, spent time with her, and husband etc, and of all people, she is the one I would never accuse of being condescending |
I actually don't care about the decision. My cousin and her hub have two small and extremely loud children and everything revolves around them now |
I'll see them some other time |
But ffs be honest |
Just say you'd rather have dinner here then make up some patently false story about travelling |
This, coming from me, the bad liar lok |
They all think they have sixth sense and they're just being nice not telling me what they think |
I see |
Sorry babes |
No worries I got over it a long time ago |
It's just stupid, the charade |
On a bright side (maybe?) I'll be by your house tomorrow! Maybe I'll frandor it up too. Dont you need krogering? |
Yes. Ohhhhh the charades |
Anyhoo |
Depending on how the travel today goes (lol) she wants to go mattress shopping this weekend. Idk when, and I'm not going to set the schedule |
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha |
Oh now my core hurts lol |
Are you going to share the new mattress? |
Glad you enjoyed that :) |
I sure don't know |
Don't care anymore |
See here's the other thing |
Bedroom is upstairs |
She hates that too |
Bc far from bathroom |
And no way to make one up there |
Maybe she should live elsewhere |
Sorry |
You're not wrong |
She thinks I'm going to buy her a bigger house someday |
Not gonna happen |
Not with this income |
And this households spending |
Why does she want a bigger house? |
Not necessarily financially either |
I've stopped repeating that a long time ago because her feelings get hurt when I bring up money |
Hey! |
You're pretty damn cute |
And exciting to me |
There isn't much contribution to tell about |
Oh hai a cute gal is pinging me rn right here! |
O rly? |
Pic up there says so yeah! |
Lies |
I saw the headband |
I have many |
The stretchy and the firm |
Oooh |
Nice adjectives |
She wants more house for her things |
You know, the ones that are piled up literally everywhere |
As if that would solve th problem |
Bc she "can't" do things |
It's all a fantasy in her mind |
Hey, i am same |
I'd love a secluded place out of town with land too, but |
I also know I will do fuck all to take care of it |
And I will not go into that kinda nd of debt this close to retirement |
This house is only worth maybe 130 |
And needs 30 worth of rehab |
100 isn't gonna buy shit |
You can sell whatever pics, vids, sounds, and clothes of mine you want |
I'd rather have what I want here and now. I've prioritized the future for a long time. This year I broke lol |
Umm |
I say let's make spending money selling pron |
And have fun |
I mean you and me |
I JUST told you i would |
See above |
Yep, I'm just closing that loop with affirmations |
But i also wanna see it first, silly biy |
Boy |
Like, see anyyyyyy |
Of course! |
I know we keep skipping that |
But I can show you anytime |
Do you wanna be with me or no? |
Up to you, but I would love to be there |
With you |
Then it's settled |
I want sex |
Now, just fyi |
A life of sex drugs and ? |
Hair pulling |
Oh yeah |
Lol |
Sex, drugs, and never enough bookshelves or thrift stores |
I'm down |
There's a reality TV show in here somewhere |
Sex and the Thrifting |
Pawn and Porn |
My BFF is a whore and so am i |
Whoawhoawhoa |
Try again |
Sapio sluts is nice |
Pretty in Pawrn |
Ok sorry I got a little excited lol |
You used the word though |
I do apologize |
It's really okay |
But... do you know what i didnt like or do you need explanation? |
The w word is off limits, I just forgot. I cringed right after I sent that wondering if I remembered it wrong |
And it's an epithet your mom uses inappropriately |
Thanks |
Totally fair. Thank you for being patient. And I will work to cement this understanding so I don't make slip ups. |
Hiring... Lol. Hurting |
I know. Thanks |
Yes makes sense |
Re sex, I know you desire some roughhousing. |
I do. Firm, and tou know what you want kind of stuff |
Can you repeat your q please? |
I didnt have one |
OIC |
You sure? |
Yeah I misunderstood at first, thought you were asking "what is still not ok then?" |
Oh, okay |
I'm clear now you were redacting a word |
Yes |
100% cool |
In sum, never |
Yes ofc |
THEREFORE BE IT RESOLVED AND SO SAY WE ALL, FOR IT IS NAUGHTY AND MEAN AND HAS NO PLACE IN THIS RELATIONSHIP |
Aye! |
lol Google wants to translate "aye" |
Twice now |
Weirdos |
Psht |
Fave olives? Mads produced |
*mass |
You know the answer to that already |
Well maybe not |
But maybe |
Green and not pimiento |
No! |
Green, sour, and pimentoed |
I also like kalamata |
A lot |
I don't know so many other names though. I'm sure there are many in the mix in my fridge |
We HAVVVVVVVE to take a trip to horrocks together! |
Okay, which made by Lindsey are your faves? |
Who? |
Is that a brand |
Aye |
Ok I don't know it |
Use the Google |
I literally eat one kind 95% of the time, and most of the balance is plain black grocery store canned olives |
I see a few Lindsay olives Im sure I'd love |
In no particular order |
Org kalamata |
Cool |
And then? |
Blue cheese stuffed queen |
That sounds nsfw |
Hehehe |
There's one more lemme find it |
Medium green ripe pitted "smooth and buttery" |
Without the sour |
Do you think I could sell olives I had in my ass all afternoon? |
I'd wash'em |
$10 |
Jumbo add $2 |
Speaking of |
I had the biggest crush on a Lindsay |
Still do kinda |
But not so much rly |
How many uninterrupted text messages have you received from a person? Biggest number? |
Dozens |
But you're close lol |
Ty ty |
A different lindsay that she of whom i am grandly aware? |
Right, you know RLH is Lindsey |
Yes |
Hence the L |
And that never bothered you? The hyphenate? |
null |
No it never bothered me. I never understood this patriarchal ritual |
Wherein the woman's name changes |
Patronymic is insanely insane |
I'll have to tell you my great grandma's name story sometime |
☑️ |
🇨🇿 |
Nope |
Google said so |
You dont even know what it was lol |
Clue me up babe |
You want |
That one? |
Huh? |
We're on different tracks babes |
Smooth and butt ery |
Yeah I might have slipped on one |
My newish phone screen protector is cracked plumb across. These things don't wear well. |
So my connection to Chopin |
Awww |
But anyway i meant you dont know the last names |
Of whom? |
Most women in my life lol |
But we were speaking of my grandma's mum |
And patronymoc and patriarchies |
Yes right! |
I do not know the last names |
Or maybe I saw them in an obit |
But I sure don't remember now |
No way you know them |
So say we all |
RLH has begun return trip from farewell Michigan, approx 10 minutes ago ETA 1900 |
You can join me chez meijer! |
Oh no |
Why? 🤷♀️ |
Friday before Thanksgiving |
Empty |
What could go wrong |
Silver bells & msu game |
You won't catch me naked there, I guarantee it |
Il take you clothed |
Can't risk it |
Your loss |
null |
Lol thx |
Revised ETA 1915 |
Im still at meijer.... |
You may turn 40 there |
Fone eith me |
You might get stuck in |
Do you know all the places to find lightbulbs? |
Did you know I have twice as many phones as friends? |
Lies |
Baaaaaaabe |
Yooooooo |
Wassup? |
Beeeebeeeee |
The RLH has returned |
Perhaps 35 minutes ago |
And what is on your mind |
You lol |
@000oOo sweet baby |
I am at a loss to say what question I should be answering now |
Or even |
The answer |
Try harder |
You probably are thinking of something like |
If I have two red balls and 20 green balls, what is the chance I will draw on a green ball if I yank one ball out of a sac |
I have an answer |
Plz like and subscribe |
How much have you had & of what? |
3x Guinness, 1x little pipe , the one you've seen |
That's it |
Just high on life babe |
Be high with meeeeeee |
Yay! |
I wanna |
You are funny buzzy bunny |
And sex was fun yeah? |
Fucccckkkkkkkk |
Yes |
For you? |
Damn it now I'm tingly at meijer |
It was fabulous |
Are you ok |
At Meijer oh noes |
It's a special kind of tingly |
All your fault |
In the changing room at Meijer |
Can you imagine |
I'm sure they're all over that |
Do you daydream about meeeee |
When you select your pickles |
Which wood did you want |
In the right mood, even Chopin will make me cry lol |
I do daydream about you |
Marie curie was Polish too |
Hence the element named "Polonium" that's also associated with her discovery |
That and radium |
So about wanting each other.... |
Yes please go on |
I want to hear more from you |
Tell me all the new ways you want me |
Okay |
Bottoms up |
Tops down |
Depraved and sensual and tender and rough and everything in between |
Inside and outside |
Yessssss |
Details |
Please |
I have so much fun with you |
Me too |
Yay! |
More |
I love playiywith you |
Blargle in large blargle! |
?? |
Vogon poetry |
Nvm |
Yes |
Your skin is so sweet |
Lol i get it |
And your neck so soft |
Made reference to a babel fish today |
Yess! |
This is the way |
Crickets |
Fml |
Fools |
Yes |
Are you out of the Meijer force field |
2024-11-23T00:05:00 |
Hulloooo! |
2024-11-23T08:12:20 |
Top o the mornin! |
Hello! |
How's today? How was the night? |
null |
Bin des elephants |
Wow looky there! |
I know! |
Told ya twinsies |
Í have more but theyre hiding lol |
Quite a collection! |
Lol thanks! |
Ofc! |
What are you up to today? |
I don't know yet |
What should I do? |
Shop lol |
Haha you never told me how was Meijer? |
I thought you got lost |
Can i interest you in a tiny flasky bottle? |
null |
Meijer was fantastic. Hot home at 9ish |
Nice! Do you reckon it's a case? |
Vase |
It is not |
It's very tiny and meant for a condiment |
It's you or recycling..... |
For this space: |
null |
null |
That is painting |
I'd say painting. |
I'll take the glass artifact! |
Yay! |
null |
2 glass open ended cylinders? |
I'll pass on those ty |
K thanks! |
I might really go to that estate sale, did you want to jpin? |
Maybe! If I can get my shit around |
Kinda tuening out that way here too |
What to do, what to do.... |
Is your cohabitant around? It's going to be hard to sneak stuff y |
*in |
The getting stuff in wouldnt be today's issue |
Why not? |
No excuse for where to go or why |
Maybe I'll just leave? |
I think i need a nap |
2024-11-23T14:57:44 |
Hai |
Hi babe |
How's it going? |
Pretty ok |
I actually just had a short nap myself! |
That's good! |
Lol and my kids just walked in again... ?? |
Ummmm |
How? |
Sorry, friends here |
They drove car #2 back here for some reason |
Riiiiiight |
Are they in trouble of some sort? |
null |
Idk lol |
You have babies |
So frickin weird |
null |
null |
Well ain't you a cute mommy! |
Lol thanks |
Auntiw |
*auntie |
Your plans the rest of today? Tomorrow? |
Welp I'm stuck in today |
Tomorrow I suppose I'm on standby for mattress store? Or idk.. the boys may be back tomorrow, in which case I will feel free to roam. I will gather more intel |
2024-11-23T19:59:31 |
I'm watching lathing vids on YT |
2024-11-23T21:03:38 |
What are you lathing next? |
Well I've been practicing honing blades. And it has been a success so far. YT ftw |
And idk what to make next |
There is a lot of practice in this practice |
It's interesting how many variables there are in nice turning |
All sounds nice |
How late are you staying up? |
Late probably |
0200 ish perhaps |
Ok cool |
Ill message after a bit |
2024-11-24T01:59:26 |
null |
2024-11-24T10:01:21 |
Heya |
2024-11-24T11:47:58 |
null |
2024-11-24T14:35:28 |
Hi |
How are ya? |
Murr |
Not bad. Did you sleep well? |
I think so! |
2024-11-24T18:02:51 |
How was your day? How are you, besides very quiet? |
Decent. I've mostly been watching YT Croatian gentleman wood turner. He's a very good explainer. |
Et tu aussi! |
How is your day? |
I miss you! |
No sign of going to the mattress store lol |
I miss you, too |
It's been a bad 24 hours. That's all |
Oh I'm sorry to know this |
It's okay |
Boo |
Tomorrow i have an appt at u of m |
Right. I'm over the holidays in general. Not so much stuck but always hubbub on Thursday |
What might make me feel better right now ? |
Is listening to music an option |
Not yet |
I'm at my mother's tonight, if i didn't say that yet |
I fucking hurt |
Sorry |
Gotcha |
Got amything else? |
What kind of situation are you in? |
What do you mean? |
Are you with someone? Inside or outside? What is literally happening where you are? |
In her living room. With her. L is home with his sister. She gies back tomorrow when he takes her. Tv is on. I cant tell if it's warm or cold. I think I'm thirsty? Also feeling full but unsatisfied. |
Yuck |
So you are very much stuck |
Do you have a semi private sleepy place or something you can go to? |
Or have you been there all day |
I have access to tylenol |
Food,? As in have, had, want? |
Have had. I think i want more but all i seem to want is cake lol |
Caaaaake |
Poor baby where is her cake? |
"Something something too many calories" |
Not for my baby |
For HER |
I mean cake is a lot lol |
I don't keep it around much |
But sometimes there is cake, and that's fun |
What is your favorite? |
Do you like frosting? |
Usually vanilla lol |
Did you launder the BLFAC jacket? |
I like frosting |
I usually launder things, why? |
Do you like sneak off the frosting like it or just lean thick? |
Usually I'll get the frostingest piece |
Why the blfac jacket? |
And you meant vanilla flavor-wise |
Not a Choco girl |
I know |
Oddly enough, my bday cake of choice is typically a queen Anne's torte |
whoa wtf is that |
QA tart |
That's all I saw |
Black forest cake is my choice |
F l that's a lot of frosting |
A discerning cake eater |
at Sparrow, I had a crush on this gal who was a fr cake baker |
She got this expensive oven and did all kinds of things |
That's what i was planning to do |
Ohhhhh rly? |
Thought you knew that |
I have a certain interest in a reliable baking d vice |
As well |
Sry I didn't recall that about you but it totally makes sense |
I can make fr bread |
I make a lot of things decently well. Trying to remember if i had a specialty |
Ppl love fresh baked |
I used to bake fresh for every Friday in college that i had an oven |
Also volunteer baked too much for actual causes |
Yesss! |
When was the last time you baked fr? |
I dont know |
Fair |
I used to fr bake for work every year |
Do you miss baking? |
I do |
I miss a lot of things i like(d) |
null |
What opinion? |
Sorry I misread! |
Real cat? |
What shall you call me in the future |
Yes that's my cat in my room |
Right now |
Very cute! |
What do you mean? |
null |
Camocat |
Yes lol |
I just got that fuzzy throw |
It's cattastik |
Mmhmm |
So, future you? |
More like future you. If I am not around. |
I need more clarity |
You have Astro guy |
Medico guy |
And then me |
Omg |
I have the perfect porn lol |
You know you're not the only other one, right? |
Actually I didn't know that I'm not the only other one |
Well |
Exc or the unicorn |
Wait pause - i meant that there are others who could have nicknames and i just don't |
Lol I am like 5 deg warmer all of a sudden |
But I've been doing little things |
Ok can you please finish your previous message? |
I just dont (give them nicknames) |
Had to put my hair back up lol ! |
Oh so no nick for me uuh |
Yes |
Do you really want to know? |
Yes |
I cant know for sure, and i hope i never end up needing to use it |
May I ask why you would ask, whether I actually wanted to know, if you in fact did not have answer |
There are a few |
Will your appt at um provide opportunity to discuss any port concerns |
For all you know the nickname could hurt your feelings |
Port? No |
Ok |
Fistula? Hopefully |
Ah, good! |
What specialty are you seeing? |
"Access" |
🇨🇿 |
Yep |
Hmm. Ok I hope all goes nicely. Will you lmk what the second procedure is? |
Not a procedure but will do |
null |
Literally all the info i have.... |
null |
null |
Ok thank you I appreciate it |
I was not aware until an hour or 2 ago that it was 2 things tomorrow |
may I ask how you wouldn't know? |
Because all i did was make an appt for the ultrasound |
Ok got it |
Ty |
Return visit access |
I dont think so |
But also thought i would be there for like a half hour |
Guess not |
Then what, back homeses at some point? |
Yes |
At some point |
Cool, cool |
What is next babe |
? |
Lol that's my question |
No other context? |
What is your next move rn |
Possibly lay on the floor |
Mum just went to bed |
Why not lay in bed? |
Much cleaner |
Unsure of that |
Better for breathing |
Rly |
Because i have a few things to do still |
Like ,? |
Also not better for breathing |
Pills, tidy my stuff, repack, snack |
Ok got it |
In bed now |
null |
I love you!!! |
I love you too |
I just need life solutions |
"just" |
How would you feel if we could be together all the time ? |
I think i would really enjoy that |
I want to know |
I just told you |
Lol sorry I have selective vision |
I like being with you! I think I would love it! I think we communicate well. |
Really? |
I'm a pain in the ass to be around |
null |
I have a needy and largely ungrateful cat as well |
Weird |
That's not mine lol |
Lol |
What were you tuping before that? |
Before what |
Before i sent cat pic |
Aftrr i said I'm a pain |
Oh noooo a painn! |
Afk 10 min fyi |
Nvm |
?? |
Here i am! |
Serious question for you |
Yes |
Why am i all the negative things i am? Including and especially the bad kind of slutty |
On whose definitions are we ruling these? |
Iow |
"who says you are those things?" |
Not me |
I might be though and you just dont know yet |
Go ahead and name them then |
Tell me who you really are |
What do think I will say? |
I'm for sure slutty and disloyal |
Why is it every time you are isolated with spouse or mother you are 100% self deprecating |
Is that true? |
Yup |
Oh |
Idk what you did to them but you didn't convince me |
Are you horrible icky evil person |
Go ahead and tell me |
Sometimes and it depends on the definition |
I am selfish |
Do your worst |
Fuck me over as hard as you can |
I am not nice or very friendly |
Always in a bad mood |
Mm |
And? |
Still a whore |
Says ... Who? Oh yeah... |
A friend coming enabler |
A fucking enabler |
Fts |
Which? |
Your mom |
Oh |
Is complicit |
Enables |
Rape |
Fts |
Calls you a whore!????? |
Ha sorry struck a chord |
Tells me i look slutty and that i need to wear more makeup |
Fuck |
I will slap her |
Wish I could but I will not |
Hey |
I tell her about something and she says "well at least it isnt_______" (which i was also present for and do not need reminding of and she doesnt even know.if she heard my whole side of things) |
Sorry |
Ty |
All good |
Thanks |
Jsyk you are safe in this |
With me |
I do not know what that means rn |
I am not going to use vulnerability against you |
And not For my benefit |
I'm angry at those who failed you |
Not you |
Do you understand? |
Kind of |
Ok |
Well this isn't a good way to go to bed |
You understand i will likely never tell you everything? |
Can you tell when i specifically hold back or omit now? |
I understand you will tell me as much as you will tell me. |
And I like you |
Can you please tell me? |
Tell you what |
What you know/"know" about who i am |
No, I can't exactly |
It is quite complicated |
Yes, it is |
And not only am I rusty |
I am slower than I used to be |
B t I feel a great deal more than I used to |
Or should I say, I permit this information |
Bc I blocked it mostly, for a long time |
From me or everyone? |
Everyone generally. For a decade or two! |
Long time |
Do you think you can identify specific negatives from/about me or my life that i haven't told you? |
Not now. I did figure out SA before though, if you will recall |
Why does it matter? |
I do not recall |
You knowing the SA part |
Yet it is so |
Why does it matter? |
You talk, I kistent |
Listen |
Why does it matter? |
You keep thinking of what, more ways to test me? |
I'm just curious at that |
More ways to gross me out? |
More ways to convince me that people are generally assholes? |
I already know |
Jsyk, those first 2 rhetorical questions did not feel nice |
I'm sorry |
I want to know why |
Why you don't just say it |
Whatever it is |
Oh that "why" |
What do you think you are protecting me from? |
Because i do not know what youll do as a reaction |
Or is it something else? |
I think you do actually |
I'm not much deeper |
?? |
What are you confused about |
I would be telling you something i feel the absolute most vulnerable about |
"do. More" like what? |
Actually no need to answer |
Why? |
Because you've seen me, in person even, react |
This is me , that's not a personna, it is actually me |
I have seen you react to stories from my past |
Yes |
I just want to support you |
This would be more like be wordvomiting current thoughts all over you |
Lol |
Babe |
We've been there |
I'm still around |
You sticking around actually isn't the concern |
Ultimately |
Your welfare is what matters |
What did you mean by prior statement? |
Examples please? |
I mean that youve more than proven you're okay with my crazy and traumas and issues and all. My concern is that you wouldn't extend your reach |
What does that mean exactly. "Extend your reach"? |
I want things between us to stay the same |
I want things between us to get even better. |
Lol yes |
And yessssssss |
Yay!!! |
Well |
What have we learned |
You tell me |
Frowny face says |
I will keep finding ways to get closer to you |
Because I love being with you |
And I know things suck and are hard |
But here we are |
And I like figuring shit out |
And I looooooove being with you |
And yet.... you still dont know what i want to and cant being myself to say to you |
And I looooooove talking to you |
Why will you not SAY IT? |
It is hard |
Em hm |
It's ok I guess if it's just a time ng thing |
But plz |
If I'm wrong, cut me loose |
Wrong about what? |
If I am wrong for you |
No, you're not |
Ok ty |
I need a way to start the sentence |
It's ok |
No, it's not |
I mean I want to recognize difficult topics. I cannot undifficult it away with a wave of the hand |
Do as you can, as you are comfortable |
What i want to say does not involve you |
So that's a step |
Ok that helps |
I also don't know what to do about it |
I got you |
I'm figuring out how to say it now |
Nooo |
No guessing games |
Not now |
I need you to promise you'll tell me if you knew |
And you'll say more than "hugs" |
I am always up front |
You can say less |
I've never shared a lot of information that you know |
Except with you |
What do you mean? |
You have asked me many questions that no one has ever asked. Personal questions |
Oh |
I have answered without hesitation, and completely truthful |
I see |
You've really stretched me in this way, but I feel safe sharing with you |
So I will respond as you wish, and truthfully |
Okay. Here goes |
My relationship right now. |
Is there more you want you say now? |
Yes. But i dont know how. |
Thank you |
I have a reaction,but not questions |
Okay |
Whatever you want |
So this is hardly shocking news |
And I could say the exact same words, but they might point to different injuries/grievances |
Please continue |
I'd rather understand better what you mean by abusive |
I dont want to discount what you're trying to tell me |
You won't 🙂 |
How do i start? Literal question |
Abuse takes what form? Physical? Or something else |
It has taken all forms in the last several years. It is typically not physical |
Typically? |
Ways that it has or does are verbal, emotional, physical, financial, i dont have words for the others, and the question of SA or not makes me feel unbearably crazy |
Ok good enough for now |
Ty |
I think i have one last thing to say on it from my perspective |
Yes please |
In my mind and memory and texts and everything else, yes, it was. His descriptor is different. |
I see |
Please talk |
Demise sounds semi terminal. This is bad |
Do you need a different word? |
Maybe I just need to know if you have given up |
Given up on what? |
No it's ok, worry not |
Sorry , *not* one I could end for cause |
I dont really know what you mean by that last part |
I am in a lot of bad situations. I do not see any of them getting better. I don't have a solution, really, because until this point my solution was always just suicide and i dont know that i see that as an option now |
So let's think about other solutions |
What do you need the most rn that you do not have? |
An enormous pile of cash |
Right. And what will we do after lunch |
Yep |
This has been in my head 24 hours a day for years |
Also a reason i dont sleep |
That and fear upon more fear |
And flashbacks and some more of those |
Let's not forget all the physical pain |
But aren't you safe, where you are |
Right now or in general? |
Now |
I think so |
Ok |
What about you? |
What about me do you want to know? |
1. Are you safe? |
I am safe |
And I should pause |
I didn't realize the time |
Im sorry |
Nana no worries |
Fwiw, this was the first time i said anything to you about it |
Somehow it doesn't seem so, but ok |
That's why i was weird about it |
I understand, it's fine |
Are you upset? |
No, not in the least |
Okay |
You'd tell me still? |
I'd let you know! |
Okay, good |
Remind me to tell you about the carpet roll and my mother's reaction |
Oh my |
? |
I mean this sounds like a good plot for crazy |
No. Just sad and deflating |
Ah, this is the thing we endure somehow |
What do you mean? |
Getting deflated by abusive ppl |
Oh. Yes. |
It just clicked that i havent ever known another way at all. There's not even anything built enough to deflate |
This cant be good |
But you are in fact |
An exceedingly intelligent and witty person |
Also highly schooled |
And rather familiar with western medicine, albeit this was somewhat forced upon tou |
All of this was |
You have the power of many |
And I haven't even gotten to the sex goddess part |
I am not |
We'll pick this up in daylight, i hope |
For now, i love you and goodnight |
Okay? |
Ok babe! All good |
Love you, good night! |
Are you sure you're ok to quit tonight? |
Yes I should be fading now very soon |
All good |
null |
What I want |
Me too |
Sleep well |
2024-11-25T07:24:17 |
null |
Good morning!!! |
Hey babe! |
How're you? |
Lil sleepy lol, but good! |
When is your appt? I think you told me already but I don't remember |
Now kinda |
Got here a half hour ago |
Supposed to start at 0900 |
Then the next at 1020 for some reason |
Ok I hope all goes well! |
Thanks! |
2024-11-25T11:52:40 |
Hey babedude |
Hiee! |
Good to go? |
2024-11-25T14:51:22 |
Meh.... |
Tell you in a few |
Am good :) |
Glad to know |
null |
Getting my fistula removed with surgery on 12/20 |
Headed home now |
Oh wow! I'm done for the day now |
Yayyyy |
I am just about home |
Will be alone for 2.5 or so hours soon |
Yay! |
What about you? |
Want to come over for dinner or anything? |
I wish I could |
I'd love to see you |
Am home now |
Yay! |
Do you know if I'll see you this week? |
I can escape Wednesday, maybe we can go somewhere |
If you're free |
Maybe Friday or the weekend too |
Wednesday i shouldbe able to go somewhere |
Woo! |
Ideas where you might like to go wednesday? |
Not yet , I'll think of something |
I have ideas |
What you got? |
Depends on what youd like to do most |
Well I might like to go to Williamstown to check out the H4H |
And find something to eat |
That sounda amazing! |
Yes |
So |
What are you doing? Have any thoughts? |
Getting fistula out sounds like a good thing. Is it? |
I think so |
Yay for you! |
Yep! |
What about you? |
Woo I'm excited for you! |
I'm just skipping along you know |
Nearly 56; whoa |
Talk to me, what's going on? |
Nothing really, just chillin with the cats down here |
Rama wants to nap specifically in the room I am in, so he's near me all day lol |
He wuvs you |
He can be very dramatic too |
Lately when I fuss at him for creeping up on the keyboard, he'll stand up, turn away from me, sit down, and hang his head in complete sorrow |
So I let him sleep for an hour on the (closed) laptop lol |
He is literally in the moddle of dRAMA |
😚 |
Plus I got two throw blankets for the basement area and it is actually semi comfortable |
And cats like ofc |
I also got another copy of the air purifier I've been buying lately. I now have 4. HEPA and Whoopie do. Lots of capacity. It's really helping in this basement even though we had it waterproofed |
Should clarify I have 2 air purifiers in the basement, one on back porch, one in bedroom. |
I stubbed L third toe this am. It's all hematomatamomma now |
And hurts |
It's fine but Imma clean it up rn |
Poor baby! |
Haha thanks! It's actually fine. I have tough nails. Most of the injury is from forcing the nail down into my toe on the distal side |
Ooh I'd also like to keep my eyes open for timber cuts. For free wood |
For I lathe it lol |
2024-11-25T21:44:29 |
Lol yes! |
I will be free kist of friday afternoon |
*most |
Yay! 🎉 |
This is excellent news! |
null |
Nevertheless, do you like these smol candelita? |
I you will give, good |
There are also 7 smol glass units to hold such things, mostly goobered with white wax |
Think about that for a sec |
They're actually gross in the sense that they look like a difficult cleanup job, but these are like chubby shot glasses |
Fucking ai wants "shit glasses" wtaf |
"Here's your Shit Glasses mf PAY ME" |
null |
I've been trying to perfect a new snack |
In a reused 12 oz peanut container |
I'm on like 8g |
Much nothing for sweet baby |
C'est trop mal |
Heyyyy babes |
8g..... of what?? |
Of fuck me silly |
Um sure?? |
I only mean I'm on snack generation 8 |
Kinda boring really |
I am missing something |
It's just me being silly |
Viddie the photogs |
Did you want or no? |
Flame makers? I think I'll pass ty |
See I thought you wanted wax |
Usually has wick |
Even smol |
Want containers |
Ohhhhh |
Sry |
No sry |
Ok I keep forgetting those |
Thanks 🙂 |
Fwiw I only use them as lubricant/waterproof coating |
I found this stash she got oh circa 2008 I keep now |
Lol |
Well |
? |
So how are you feeling? |
Actually a little positive |
Yes |
And happy and well |
And really really wants to again with you |
Wants to...? Missing verb lolz |
Hahaha |
Now you are caught |
In a web |
Of my own design |
Ohhhh pity me |
You will need more than this |
You are well and truly |
Ohhhh noooo am caught |
WhatEVER shall you do? |
Idk but I've NEVER been candle shamed before |
Pretty heated lol |
Ironically such a dark topic |
My irony bone is way up |
What happens if you get really high? |
I just zone out for an hour maybe two, and then either sleep (80%) or something else. |
Zone out |
This is like focusing on something, quite possibly innocuous or silly, and just like losing all reason for even knowing the thing exists |
Which can smoothly change to a semi awake dream or just sleep |
If you reakawaken instead |
It's like you just had a quick daydream |
I'm talking about double plus extra stoned |
Can you tell me again all about me when i inhaled your breath? And after |
Sure |
All of it please |
Yes yes you did! |
And that was wonderful |
And as I recall you got keen on kissing |
And so did I |
😊 |
What else? |
Well |
And I rather enjoyed hugging you and grabbing your ass with more than just hugs In mind |
Did I tell you how I eat ice cream? |
I know how lol |
But please tell me |
Whatever do you mean you know how |
I have a general idea of how you probably lap up the sides and make sure the drips get attention and you lick with intensity |
You are woefully misguided, little one |
First things first |
I eat it in a bowl |
Preferably a large one |
And I like it nearly submerged in richest milk |
And I devour it with a teaspoon |
But if I must lick from the cold cold cone |
You can be sure I want every drip and drop even if I get covered in it |
Mmmhmmmmmmmm |
And i am back up in my room now |
Yeah? |
Does it feel nice to be home |
I was home, just hadnt been upstairs |
Precision princess point no 2 |
Does it feel nice to be in your bed? |
All I've done so far is sit on the edge of it |
Right, I get that |
For sure |
What is wrong with bed |
I like your spaces and noises too, fyi |
Well for basics, i just dont think this bed is super comfortable. I am trying to be positive and make it better that way though. |
Fair |
Do you think you would prefer firmer mattress or softer? |
Kind of both. One that's cushier, like maybe one of the newer nectar types? |
I'm not familiar. Don't know 🤷 |
Casper? Purple? |
On a saatva now. It is ok but not great. |
Thanks! |
Had leesa before this. Wore out quickly |
You might like the saatva. It's ok for me alone. Not ok for me and her |
Why? |
It caves in |
Oh, no |
Right, no bueno |
No, it's not |
I will suck you on mattress |
2024-11-26T06:54:46 |
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Good morning! |
Enjoy work:) |
:P |
Why does work slug have arrow through head? |
What!? |
null |
Lol i thought they were ears |
Hahaha |
2024-11-26T10:07:47 |
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Well aren't you cozy |
2024-11-26T15:24:19 |
What are you up to cutie? |
Been sleeping for a few hours |
Barely working |
Sitting in last meeting |
Who is scheduling meetings this week and why? |
Lol right? |
Actually this has been a standing meeting for a year. We usually cancel |
Which you still should have |
Haha yeah. Dave the new supervisor wants to do show and tell |
Dows he understand that no one will like hom after this? Lol |
Hey you! |
Heeey youuuu |
What's up? |
How you been? |
Well I'm deliberating on the fish tank for the umpteenth time |
Except I've made a decision |
For once |
Good for you! |
Yes |
Woo! |
What it is? |
I'm going to scrap the original stand. I will set up the aquarium in a temp location where I will not need to worry about it and get some water moving |
And shop for a thing to act as a stand |
I actually think a modest lamp table will do the trick |
Now I have to find the motivation to do things lol |
How is your day??? |
It was decent! |
Oh no not the hard thing |
Yep |
Seriously though, hafta do it and don't want to even a little |
You make any choices for tomorrow yet? |
Yeah, I've pretty much decided I would like to go to hab a Guillaume. And catch beer and booze store on way back |
A specific one in Okemos that I cannot recall the name of atm |
Oh, and doing it under the pretense of holiday shopping |
So RLH will settle down |
She fine |
What's going on with her? |
If friday is better then i am totally fine skipping tmrw |
Nothing at all, I just want to avoid a counteroffer of going to the mattress store. Which I don't think she will be in the mood for anyway, it's just best to go as wide around these things as possible |
So unless something changes I am going for it, and would love to pick you up and go for ride! |
It sounds lovely |
I am also very sneezy, if that matters |
Pleased to meet you, also very sneezy. |
Probably early afternoon tbh |
12 or 13 ish |
Okay cool thx |
null |
Did you do the hard thing? |
Awww |
I have not yet |
I made a tank! |
So much as I can rn |
Wonderful! |
It will be for actual fishes? |
null |
I get to buy a bunch of stuff now :) |
Real image? |
Took it just now! |
null |
I was actually kind of surprised by that closeup, which I took with the phone literally on the plexiglass |
Anyhoo, yeah I have my heart set on African cichlids |
Do you know much about fiah varieties? |
I actually had moments when I thought of fancy goldfish |
I've had both |
And they're wonderful creatures |
Little go getters lol |
And lazy fuckers, just like me |
Lol surrrrrrre |
null |
My favorite kinda slug right there |
Kittehhhh |
Toes rubbed? |
I guess? |
No pills for mommy |
null |
Oh noes! |
Right? |
I've never been the kinda person to steal somebody's dog |
Well once I did |
But I might have to steal your dog |
Wait, what!? |
null |
null |
Mine now |
Nope |
She is busy too |
null |
We shall see lol |
I just did a shoot with Bala |
And me lol |
I have yet to look at the proofs on my camera |
Awwww |
Beeeebay! |
What else is happening? |
I am stuffing my face with snacks |
Listening to music |
None for me?? V sad |
Download happens from camera SD card |
What you want? |
I should send camera to house |
Take photo of you and your kitty too |
Check this angle |
null |
There is similar on the other side |
I've never tried to do supplemental lighting like this, so I hope it's cool |
I know I forgot to fix x the floor cus on a whole bunch of shots tho booooo |
You did good |
Lol forgot to fix the focus |
I hope I did good somewhere in there! |
Rando Q here |
Ah. Tricky question. |
Yes, in small doses |
Kind of a thrill |
Challenge |
I also appreciate a total isolation from the elements, at times |
What do you mean? |
Like being in a cozy place where I don't have to worry about wind burn lol |
Oh, I see |
Do you like sleeping room warm or cold |
Cold |
I do not like warm i am not in control of, if that makes sense |
Yes, 100% |
null |
That's my favorite!!! |
Presenting |
I see nothing |
That would be the cat above |
Ooooh |
So who is bala and who is rama? |
That one is Bala aka Balaram |
null |
And rama is ramayan? |
Rama is this guy |
A pretty cool frood, if you are receptive to the idea |
Well |
Ramachandra Birch Holaday |
Yes! That one |
There are many flattering pics of him |
Of his likeness |
I did not know his name |
So rama has your last name |
Indeed lol |
He came here because he was verily rescued from the farm |
Where his sibling/s was carried away by a hawk |
And I with the love of the stripey cat |
So he is a survivor |
And he basically gets anything he wants |
He's has a few scares, but he is doing really well now I'm happy to say |
Lol true |
Sorry for the delay |
Oh? Everything is ok? |
Yeah |
There? |
All is well |
Ty |
What's onyour mind? |
Best way to ground an outlet in this basement |
null |
I know what I will do; I have done same procedure elsewhere recently |
Wear rubber boots? |
Hey, it's a valid solution |
Right! Where's me Wellies? |
null |
Lol |
Wanna stay "with" me while i do a thing? |
How's that? |
Well, how much later will you be awake? |
Idk an hour or two I guess |
Why seem sad? |
null |
Lol I look like my mom's dad here |
He was prof |
Actually no |
He was chemist |
And made a mint at Ford |
Like the color? |
Like the money |
What did he mint? |
Actual money? |
Ford not money |
Is idiomatic; "he made a lot of money" |
Cars |
Lol |
Well anyway |
It's me |
He was well educated ifct |
Ofc |
Implemented some kind of anodizing process |
Was in WW2 |
My mom's dad roo |
Shooting out the back of bombers |
Mine kinda made pacific telecomm and whatever popular |
A n y w a yyyyy |
null |
Is gummy bear? |
I am keeping him warm in my tummy now |
Haha |
And maybe a kin of his. Maybe not |
Lucky bastard |
Better luck later this week? |
Pray |
No government involevement thx |
Lol |
Hahaha! |
😊 |
We should be chatty |
What else are you up to? |
I can be very chatty if you really want |
Careful what you wish for |
Well the gummy bros were special so have at it |
Heh! |
Ummm |
They were made with food grade ingredients in a kitchen? |
With gelatin or no? |
Pectin was an ingredient |
Cool, cool |
Fun! |
I hope so |
I did not make the little guys |
You made this one? |
Oh lol |
I have made gummy bears before, years ago, when i was super sugar free about everything |
You actually know who made them lol |
Is it so |
Does she have Siamese cats? |
Not that i am aware of |
Right ok |
Jesus i hope not |
She knows better or i would have already reprimanded her thisly |
Whoa lol |
Also, about 20:05 |
LC is not enterprise approved |
I'm sorry LC? |
Oh nvm |
Lol |
That does not stop ppl from wanking in their signatures |
Ohhh i know |
I politely reply to them |
Do you cite |
Do you know the department formerly know as CAAS? |
Internal audit |
Yes. I know them |
So the chief for the longest time had this fucking rainbow of core values in his sig |
Nope. Not allowed. |
He did not gaf |
He a VP and you all can suck it |
Gotta love it |
What is your favorite typeface? |
For sure |
Big difference at 28:35 |
I'm sorry what is 28:35? |
Happier lol |
Ok 😊 |
You have no less than 3 things to figure out still |
Curses! |
1. Something about gummy bears ;) |
Y'all this is tough |
Nah |
I have zero information on 1 and 2 |
3 I don't comprehend |
4 I asked you first |
1. Why would i mention them? |
Have you had your daily cannabinoids yet? |
Yes |
And I am so lost |
Awwww babes! |
I don't have a favorite font face I am very particular about the fonts I use though. Must beb correct in the use case. |
That's what i said too :) |
Lol |
So you do not know why i mentioned gummy bears this evening |
I have no idea what you're going at, no |
Aww sads. |
Ooh |
Ok how are they? |
They're great |
Splendid! |
I felt the first twirls after approx 20 minutes and 5 seconds |
And was happier at 28,20 |
Yay! |
I have not stood up yet lol |
Do it slowly lol |
Lol well i am on the floor and cold, so.... |
Cuddle time!!! |
Yeah well im here |
Sigh |
Are you wearing clothes? |
Kinda |
🥹 |
Better dial 97 |
Huh? |
Aruba |
An hour and 9 minutes |
So 69 then |
How perfect |
Omg lol |
That's full swirl thus far |
So did you imply I know the cook? |
Swirl girl |
Yes |
I would love for you to be all over me rn |
I would love that too |
Focus! |
Ope sorry! |
It's okay 🙂 |
So who is our cook? |
Captain Cook! |
How long have I known this person? |
She's worked at AF for more than 5 years, less than 8 |
Hmm |
Tricky |
You can ask for as many clues as you need |
What dept |
Service center |
You were talking about some one a couple weeks ago. I wonder |
Yep |
I managed to stand |
Something must be not great with me though because I'm not relaxed |
Oh? |
Yes |
Are you... Not relaxed for a reason? |
I dont know. Nothing particularly new |
So this person |
Mmhm |
Cottage industry is it? |
Yes |
I am ow |
2024-11-27T07:26:38 |
Haiiieeedd |
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2024-11-27T09:37:27 |
null |
Hiee |
Eya |
Wells? |
What am I looking at? |
Foods |
Ooh what news have you? |
I'm good, so far! |
The H4H is supposed to be 10 - 40% off the whole store Saturday |
Sweet! |
I do kind of know all the places ad all the sales for this blavk weekend lol |
Well that makes sense |
😊 |
We should do that Saturday! |
Yay! |
And what to do today then |
Idk we'll figure it out |
Idk |
Lol |
Sure sure |
Did you have anything in particular in mind? An item, an adventure? I kind of have an idea maybe |
Not off the top of my head, but I'm still working on coffee lol |
Lol fair |
Let me know when you're ready for survey questions :) |
Lol ok |
Ambiguous.... just say You're ready when you are lol |
It is okay to just not go anywhere |
Also.... i have something i could use your thoughts on. It's a long read |
Cool, cool |
Im heading to frandor mid to later afternoon if youd like to join |
Ok lmk and I will scoot up there if I can! |
2024-11-27T14:44:43 |
Im chilling around frandor now, just in case you show up and see a late 30s gal with ridiculous things |
Hehe |
What are you up to? 🙂 |
I was playing with the aquarium but I kicked up something and my allergies are wreaking havoc on me rn |
Aw, I'm sorry |
2024-11-27T17:17:28 |
:( |
Sorry I've been on the struggle bus for a bit |
I'm just now getting on top of this |
What happened? |
I've been sneezing for like 3 hours and getting a little short of breath |
I stirred up something nasty in old hydro equipment and wasn't being careful, so autoimmune system to the scene to make sure there are no survivors |
I'm coming around now after meds administered |
More info please |
Albuterol plus two of these |
null |
And eye drops administered just now |
So no emergency services |
No not that bad |
Not close really but now my nose is sore again :( |
I'm sorry |
Tank yub |
2024-11-27T20:10:24 |
Are you still out and about? |
No |
I came home just after 1700 |
Right on |
What is your thanksgiving ritual? |
Extend fam? |
Have afternoon meal with my mother |
Any more the lads come here and usually make dinner. And they are good cooks, and zero complaints honestly. We used to alternate between my parents in GR and my aunt's in Kzoo, but my rents moved to Tucson a few years ago and, well, you've already heard about their opinions of my aunt |
Sorry I missed you today |
I was really uncomfortable for a bit |
Thanks |
Are you still better? |
I hope so |
I am doing better yes ty |
How was your outing? |
Fine |
I did not sleep last night. Finally got an hour or 2 just now |
Porr baby! |
Will you say what the hard thing is |
Or bo |
Or yo |
Or oh |
Or moe |
Or toe |
For? |
Doe? |
Maybe. Not feeling cute about it right now though |
Ok alright |
Sorry |
It's okay |
You have quite the corundum |
?? |
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Corundum |
Fucking hard innit |
What's a good way to not be congested |
Steam |
This is why I'm a mouth breather |
And my throat gets sore |
All my life |
Well I'm being a bit dramatic |
Allergies |
You know immune conundra |
Can you get vaccine or no |
What |
Is |
The |
Capital of Assyria? |
Ninevah |
I think |
Lol Nunya |
Hilarious thread in r/tragedeigh today |
https://www.reddit.com/r/tragedeigh/s/5HEFtZrmOf |
Je m'appele Andeigh |
I'm trying to decide if I want a clock in my subterranean areas. I kinda ditched timekeeping as a monotasker many years ago, but for some reason I keep looking for a clock down here |
Analog or digial? |
Afk 20 |
Maybe hold off on texts |
null |
Am back |
O hai |
What's up? |
null |
null |
Is this your living room |
Was in my basement not too long ago today |
Oic |
Umm |
I do not yet recognize the orangeos on sight |
Is this Percival |
It is! |
Percy is plump |
Yay! |
How do you most often address him? |
And how many names has he? |
Heh, I think Rama has 40 or 50 |
At one point I made an org chart of pet names lol |
Percibaby |
Per -sah - bay - bee |
Love it |
😊 |
I have heard you call him so! Very cute! |
Thanks! |
You'd be so proud - i went mini krogering today |
Maybe you saw RLH there |
Tell me if mini K! |
Cupcakes, yiny veg tray, appleslices, canberry |
Was after 5 below |
Yay! |
What did rlh get? |
8 full paper bags o goods |
I carried all of mine in literally one arm |
About 1:1:1:1 |
Oh I carried all hers in 6 trips to car! Lol |
I'm not really complaining |
I carried everything from 5 below, 3 posters, a tube of wrapping paper, and all my kroger goods in my reusable bags to panera where i got out a file folder to do some work l9l |
Wtg girlfriend! |
Always always always self sufficient |
Gosh |
You never told me who is the gummy hook up |
Hahaha |
Guess more |
And why is your mouth so wet? |
I tell you I will not recall this person. I have wrong mental image and idk many people in that particular cesspool |
I had been stuffing face with uckfay hot crisps |
Nopenopenopenope |
But |
She's a baker, service center, one of very few actual friends i have at AFG |
See I think you'd like it |
Sorry those clues don't help me |
Idk people |
And you told me name once but I do not remember it |
You think id like what? Hot crisps? |
Katie Rockafellow |
Never heard of this person actually |
She is good friend for you? |
I dont actually have good friends |
She is our second Shiloh |
But but but |
Shiloh |
What do you mean? |
Idk I've only met Shiloh a couple times, but she always struck me as a strange one |
Yeah |
Yes I know |
So your sweetie supplier Katie |
Yes? |
Is she selling? |
Mayhaps |
What would you recommend? |
I have no idea |
OG it is |
She makes these? |
She makes gummies as a hobby on occasion for friends who sometimes give her cash |
Got it |
Ashley Pyle, gal I worked with for many years, used to make toffee at this time of year. |
The. Bomb. |
Specially herbed toffee? Because i make homemade heath bars and have also made soft and chewy honey caramels |
She offered all manner of chocolates and nuts to dress it up. Peppermint was also an option. Probably more I don't remember! |
Yes. Same. And more! Lol |
Yay! |
Have you plans, ideas, musings, etc for friday & saturday? |
Musings and daydreams |
Yes |
I'd love to burrow deep into you for a while |
Wrll fuck that's sexy |
Feel your skin on my skin |
Id love that |
Ohh yesss |
That |
I need to feel you |
Is that ok |
Absolutely |
Yummy! |
So I got a subscription to nice porn |
I mean good |
Ohhhhh? |
Erika Lust is the name |
Female produced |
Please tell me more about porn |
You are funny :). A |
How long does a session/video/act or whatever it's called last? |
That's kind of like asking "how long is a story?" |
But I'd say a decent average for well-done production is 20-30 minutes |
So kinda bite sized lol |
Maybe you fancy two bites |
Or three |
Or something quick? |
Amateurs be more like 5-15 |
Very generalized |
What are your favorite tropes? Any ideas why? |
Maybe I will come back to tropes momentarily |
Yeah, |
? |
What lol |
Romance.... what does it mean? Legot2 |
*legitimately |
Lego romance |
What are you on aboot lol |
What is romance? |
Lovey dovey fucking |
It's actually quite good |
I need this please |
Irl |
May I ask why you think so? |
Why wouldnt i? |
I just wanted your take |
You deserve it |
Thank you |
That's part of my thought actually |
Yay! |
And because i know i have a void where I've craved it for a very long, long timw |
Ohhhh sweet baby! |
Ofc you deserve it |
https://open.spotify.com/track/20qKKnW5t3grGDiLqk0fGh?si=OXlWpETTQtablEmY3ELCmA |
Hearing you say that makes me feel kind of sparkly bubble tingly in my chest |
Mmmm |
I am glad to know this! |
It's what i realllllllllly want you to show me |
I want to hold you up and show everyone what an awesome person you are :) |
And I want to show you what you mean to me |
That seems strange to me |
So do you want to share and show me the lovey dovey? You dont have to by any means |
I cannot share unless I'm there. This one is strict about access |
I meant in a mutual act, just us |
Oh I would love nothing more! |
I'll keep asking :) |
Yes, do |
Next time |
That's what i want, if i get a say, please |
You always get a day babe :) |
And a say |
Yes, but i am not the only say |
I love desire on your face |
It's very sexy |
I wasnt aware youd seen it yet |
In all it's forms |
Noticed, at least |
It has forms? Like what? |
I've seen it alright |
It's very seductive |
And beautiful |
Thank you |
I actually know how to turn it on more if i need |
Feel free to pour it all over me |
Ditto |
Ok :) |
I like when you talk to/with me |
Oh yay! |
I did not do this much before! |
But I find myself wanting to |
I want you to |
Mmmm |
I wish I could cuddle with you bow |
How |
Wow |
Pow |
Let's get it all out kol |
Kow |
Mow |
Heeheeee |
Lol |
If i say i wanted harder or that I'm close, what would you do? In response |
I would try! |
More for you |
But do you know what specific actions you would do? |
Not without you were underneath me rn |
Do you want the answer? |
Which answer darlin |
What to do if i say i want harder |
Same for if I'm close |
You can say or do anything that pleases you babe! |
I just want to point out (advice ive heard) that harder does not also mean faster |
Excellent information! |
And makes sense |
I like it when harder is more like deeper and more thorough |
Feeling every fucking mm |
Yesssssss |
And sometimes harder is actually harder |
You have not felt me all the way |
There's like a whole nother episode lol |
Jeeeeeesus i want that |
I want you to have it |
It's |
Yep used those words already |
But there's not really a way for you to know that with me yet |
I am certain you will like it |
But that's my masculinity talking |
I meant for YOU |
Ohhhhhh no worries |
Sweet lil bebe |
Do you think it'll feel different for you? |
This is the tight kitty dreams are made of |
So yes? |
Yes |
Yesssss |
And may I have more please |
That's entirely up to you lol |
Well I am playfully suggesting it should happen more often |
And i am playfully telling you yessssssssss |
Where! |
O |
I try to say whee. |
So I am a slut |
Lol same |
Haha! |
I can't wait to stay up all night and get high and fuck you silly |
Yeah?? When is this? |
Need to schedule this stat |
Friday night |
Or saturday |
Ooooo |
Do itttttttt |
:P |
Do you mind if sometimes I just want to bask in your yumminess |
You do you, babe |
Yeah but this involves a captive you too lol |
Oh for real? |
Yes I mean this quite literally |
I do not understand |
Be in bed with you.all.day.and.night. |
I would love to do thar |
Yay! |
Lol 420 |
And you are....? |
Uh |
I'm tits up for sure lol |
I've got two cats staring me down |
Tits up?? |
null |
Lol |
Isn't tits up idiomatic |
You said it! |
Does it mean cold? |
Face to ceiling? |
You tell me |
Come on |
https://english.stackexchange.com/questions/227589/what-is-origin-of-the-phrase-tits-up |
Ohh lol |
Lol how are you doing |
null |
I am mostly ok |
null |
Yep gotta go up. And stairs now |
Make it? |
I did! |
Oops forgot lol |
2 flights I did! |
Congrats! |
Break out the colorful pointy hats! |
2024-11-28T10:05:50 |
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2024-11-28T13:19:09 |
:) |
2024-11-28T16:52:35 |
How's it going? |
Not bad, except I just cut my finger for the second time this week with the same scissors lol |
I guess it's time for new snips! |
I'm ok these are new, and pretty sharp as it turns out lol |
But it's fine |
How are you doing? |
2024-11-28T19:59:32 |
It was a pretty good day. Just got home |
And i have more questions please |
Just finished eating. Pretty good plate! |
Pretty good |
Whay was on your plate? What did today's activities include? |
I just kept out of the way and played with fish tank |
The guys made stuffing, green beans casserole from fresh ingredients, mushroom gravy, fr mashed potatoes, and brought a couple veggie loaf thingies. We also found some rolls in the freezer and cranberry sauce on the shelf |
And Mac and cheese casserole |
And there's a peach pie |
Hey Zeus |
Failed reference |
Jesus |
Good, happy Disney Zeus or not so great or agreeable leda and the swan zeus? |
Happy Disney kind |
Yes. Ironically both have legends atop veryyyy apexable .mountains |
Apexable, you say |
Pretty easily cl8mbed to the top, yes |
Right on m8 |
Lolz |
Herbally infused yet? |
Just a nib |
I need to repack :) |
How do you know if you're high enough? |
I guess you just know? |
Ummmm |
Yep |
Someone in the back of your brain informs someone in the front of your brain |
But how would i know? |
Sorry I don't know |
That's okay |
Do you have anything at the forefront of your mind you'd like to focus on for chatting? |
No |
Are you upset? |
No not a bit |
Do I seem it? |
No, it's a little reflexive of me |
Oh wild! |
I'm a little groggy tbh |
Not used to eating this early |
Or this much |
I ate once today lol |
What did you and your mom have? |
L was there too |
Cucumbers in sour cream |
Alrighty then! |
Did you say you had questions for me? |
I do |
None from you for me? |
Did L's plans change? |
Nope |
Gotcha. For some reason I thought he was with his fam |
Ah yes |
Do you know what your plans are tomorrow and Saturday? Perhaps even sunday? |
Might meet Patrick around 11 iff I can jump ship before anyone else is motivated to do anything. |
But I think you said hab has a sale yeah? |
Let me check if it's tomorrow or Saturday |
Saturday |
Cool ty! |
https://www.habitatcr.org/restore/ |
Scroll to yellowish area |
Oh snap that's a great deal! |
I know! |
Well idk tomorrow then |
I can be patrick |
Heh! |
You have some things in common |
Oh? |
Fun taste in music, great sense of humor, And the ability to sense bs |
Interesting common combo |
I didnt know you thought i could sense bs |
In your case I see it as a well-developed defense feature |
Earlier tonight might be considered an example lol |
Ha! |
100% honest |
What ideas have you? |
For? |
F/S/S |
I will prob shop for some of it/them |
Mee too with you |
From your pov what are ideal times? |
Tomorrow afternoon and beyond |
Woo! |
Wow I wish I could stay the night |
Me too |
A lot |
Haha I'm sitting here daydreaming about it |
I really want to try some of that slow lovey dovey romance sex |
Well hooray! |
You knew this |
Sounds like fun to me! |
I did know, yes. It's fun that you brought it up though! |
Why? |
I like to hear about how you would like sex |
Ohhh fuck |
You saying that was really arousing for some reason |
I want sex every way there is |
Oh how yummy! |
And I didn't even say it in person |
Please please please |
You were saying lovey dovey kind |
So I was thinking about spooning with you |
Ohhh |
Bc I can have your neck |
And shoulders |
And breasts |
Yws |
You can have all of me |
And tummy |
I can have everything |
It's wonderful |
And it is a powerful turn on at times |
I want you to have all of me because I'm giving in to you and how you make me feel |
Yay! |
And eventually all the love and dove takes over and we intertwine and after, i cry beautifully erupted tears |
Aww! |
So |
Yeah?! |
Any idea when L departs? |
Before noon sometime |
I will let you know as soon as he does |
Well alright then! |
You think you can? |
There's a decent chance yep! |
When would be the best time(s)? |
I'm going to estimate leaving here no later than noon |
Any reason? |
Trying to appear normal while being too early to latch on to |
Understandable |
When would you need to be home? |
1700-1800 prob |
Okay, thanks |
Agenda? |
I'm sorry babe I'm fading out |
You're good babe |
I want you |
Every way |
You can have me |
I can't wait! |
Kisses |
2024-11-29T08:21:35 |
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Lol hieeee! |
How are ya? |
Missing you! |
Soooooooonnnn |
I hope?? |
Mee too!!! |
Did you want to stay in the whole time or venture out or....? |
Idk, time seems to go by so quickly! |
There are a couple things I could be going out to get lol |
2024-11-29T11:11:52 |
How's it going? |
Helloooo! |
Hey! Sorry, wayla8d later than expected |
What's up? |
Will update in a sex |
Lol oops |
Haha! |
SOMEONE is taking forever |
I know VOA has a sale today if you need a fr destination temporary |
Lol |
Have you any thoughts while i am uncertainly time delayed? |
I'm finding food lol |
Left the house without eating |
Oh no babes! |
Any way you can come stay lots of time tomorrow or tomorrow night? Pretendacitis maybe? |
I don't think there's a way I could over night :( |
Much as I want it! |
Would it be better if we meet up tomorrow? |
Uncanny |
I literally just heard the "slight change of plans" that he is going to work OT today and go up this evening |
Ffs! |
I'm lol at him |
Dude |
Work OT today? |
Yep |
He is |
Is that even a thing on paid holidays? |
Yes |
Ok well I can probably earn back suspicion points if I head home. My alibi should work tomorrow |
I am very very sorry |
I understand babe! Not the first time we've been so foiled |
Yeah |
PS I'm under the flag rn |
Hieeeee! |
Lol |
Ok ttys |
Okay |
❤ |
😟 |
Poor baby I'm sorry! |
2024-11-29T14:18:54 |
How's it going? |
The goon squad just left |
I'm feeling like a nap lol |
Same |
2024-11-29T17:35:51 |
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Aww kitters! |
How was nap? |
Short but effective! Did you? |
Yes! |
What are you up to now? |
I'm trying out a new to me Linux distro |
on a recommendation from ChatGPT |
And talking-to actual cats |
How are you doing?? 💕 |
Pretty well thanks! |
I am hoping for a good tomorrow as well! |
Well yes lol |
I will aim for same or slightly earlier. RLH is a wildcard at this point. She's in a wanna-go mode with a few things. What she actually wants to do before 1500 is another question |
I don't think she was aware I left the house today. |
Awww |
Lol |
And she's making plans for furniture. I had to moderate a bit. |
Howso? |
need to replace the couch. No question this is so, but her findings don't fit in the space. |
Physically |
With other things around |
Which are not my problem to solve lol |
Anyhoo |
Riiiighr |
How's your evening |
Just now alone lol |
Got it got it. |
How was your gummy experience?? |
I don't think I heard the full report |
Kinda boring tbh |
Goodness me |
That's a long time to be conscious |
What pain is doing this? |
Chronic. Widespread. Mostly back and head |
Have we talked about OMM? |
Osteopathic Manipulative Medicine |
What is the origin of your pain? |
Lots of things? |
I know about one specific back injury. Can you say more? |
Fibromyalgia and chronic pain syndrome diagnoses |
Owie this is so much! |
Um yes |
Most of it since before i was out of my teen years |
Jesus my head hurts rn |
Ohh what helps it? |
Idk yet |
Can you tell me how your ideal tomorrow would go? Ideal and also attainable lol |
As a single story with both attributes? |
As two stories: |
L who lives here? |
Lofl yes that one |
He is gone |
Well fuck me and call me silly |
Ill do half |
Yummy do I get to choose? |
Ok the deal is I'm trying to read the room. Idk what kind disappear I can do tomorrow, and may not know until then |
Only if you make the right choice |
That's fair, thank yoh |
See RLH is slightly energetic. Her kids were here, and she's on the up-side of those spinal injections. |
Idk how much energy there really is though |
It is lower every time it seems |
Ok got it |
Any q let me know |
Knowing times and things helps me decide if i go somewhere or not, that's all |
Your IM is very important to me |
What q are there from you? |
My IM? |
Thank you for texting me |
I'm out of my head lol nvm |
I was badly imitating an email auto reply |
Yeah sorry I'm on track now |
Gotcha |
null |
Awwwww |
I am on track |
Yeah Bala is a looooooover |
Takes adter his daddy, i see |
Lol yes |
All of us are actually softies |
Except, ironically, Bala. |
This is why I love cats |
Lol |
Lol indeed |
I want some damn cuddles |
I wanna give em!!! |
How do you like your cuddles? Face to face or spooning? |
I dont know that i know |
Spooning |
Little spoon |
No??? |
Ohhhhh yessssss |
Please |
Oh |
Hahah |
I want to!!! |
So much so |
And |
And your face |
Please come get me and show me all of this |
And I like the cuddle fusion of girl __ boy | |
I want you and all of that so much i could cry |
So much tit grabbing potential here |
That's probably my fave cuddle way |
Yay! |
I love it! |
Legit |
Or if its reverse, my leg hyperstretched and strung, bent up on you |
Ooooo |
That is so delicious |
Did you or not ever getting fucked on your side? |
Spooning, like |
From behind |
Ive never been fucked that way, except almost with you |
Oh girl |
I think we are the right proportions to do this par excellence |
Me, wrapped around you |
Quite literally |
And also inside you |
Whoaaaaaaaaa |
Ohh I'm melting |
I want you so, so much |
I am all fidgety now bc I want to play with myself |
You can.... |
Im actually not fidgety |
That sounds like a good thing! |
Yes, it is |
You know that's one reason i want and like you in charge, right? |
Not sure I understand the connection |
Knowing what you want and your expectations and being able to trust you lets me shut down my brain. Then i can imagine really good things and i dont worry about decisions at all. I dont have to think |
When you come over (ever) do you pre-think of how you want to fuck? Positions and that kind of thing. Generic ideas, even |
Honestly no |
I take you as I find you |
There are no wrong answers |
If you think you can unmake me want to be near you it won't work |
Lol |
I was just curious if there was any kind of gameplay in your mind en avance |
See previous answer lol |
Seriously though |
I will say something if I have such a deaire |
Desire |
I want to make sure I understand you and your body first |
That's just my way |
I cannot express how much i lovvvvvvvved when you hovered over me and said "can i fuck you?" So softly and seriously |
Ohhh babe |
It was an insane relaxable moment for me |
Now I am melting |
Does it make sense that i think of how i want things to play out? Not expect them to, but in my own universe |
It's fine! It's not creepy. As long as you don't project into some weird non universe. |
How would we even know? |
I was not clear in my last statement |
But I'm not totally sure how to explain |
I will try |
My response was jocular |
Lol |
Please explain |
If you ever feel you need to describe me as not on your side, I will be really hurt. That's it |
As in, if i think you'll be #9 or something else? |
Broadly: |
This |
And I was projecting much more than you could know into this |
And hit a nerve I kinda lost track of |
Because I've been trying to shut it down |
I ve been in these arguments where somehow I am person that isn't actually there |
And wants to do all bad things and ruin lives |
And while I agree I have made poor decisions |
I don't have this malice |
And yet I get told I do |
And I simply can't deal with that |
I think that's all, nbd lol |
Okay, i understand better. Thank you |
To be clear, when have i made you feel this way? |
*please |
You have not, ever |
I just kinda spiraled on a thought |
But I never have associated this thought to you |
And this wAs something I wanted you to know |
I am ready if you are |
Lol babe I already said it |
Eant |
Lol wut |
Okay, thank you |
Sorry lol! I was trying to explain how we got here |
And being stoned took me deeeeeeeeeper |
Are you open to a lot of questions (when you've finished your thoughts)? |
I am ready! I got my thing out there, if you know what I mean |
Yes |
Can i ask about rlh? |
Sure |
Do you know what she was like before you? |
A bit yeah |
Her ex's latest victim |
And it's complicated bc ofc it always is |
Shared faith |
And child/ren |
And probably all the trappings of being young and on your own |
Her dad was a dick |
Her mom is a lovely woman, but didn't stand up |
Her mom was literally a migrant farm worker in MI and elaewhere |
Her family lived on land leased by farmers |
Anyhoo |
RLH graduated HS and said fuck y'all I am outta here and found this guy |
Charlevoix, FL ,Ca, |
And somehow EL which is where my came in |
Repeat the last one? |
Where ________ came in? |
Lol sorry the penultimate hop was either Petoskey or East Jordan, then to East Lansing, which is where I came on the scene |
This was just the one same guy? |
Yes, the ex all through that. He was constantly running from debt |
Literally |
Changing names |
Using ssns |
The whole bit |
He's a freak |
Wild |
Where did she meet him? |
Let me think on that for a moment, I'm sure I've heard it |
It might actually have been a hare Krsna place |
But idk |
Okay thanks |
She was still how much with him when you met? |
Omg |
He literally lived in her trailer, with her and two young boys, and their friend Michael |
Just came down from Petoskey or whatever |
Lololololll |
So go ahead and ask me about my sensibility |
Go ahead |
Lol |
Dude |
Oh babe halp me!! |
Gladly! |
I may have found some pics of me in compromising positions just now |
I have them featuring just me or me + part of someone else |
Your choice to see or not |
Wow nice! |
Let's start with solo |
null |
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My god you look so delicious |
Haha, thanks |
Is that the end of that set? |
I was so hard for you yesterday. When I woke up early, and again later. |
Those are the solo for now, sadly |
Np thank you! |
Still willing to share others? |
Yes, if you're positive you want them |
Maybe it will inspire me? |
Unlikely lol |
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Such a pretty baby |
Thank you |
Do you have any good, bad, or indifferent interps? |
Interpretations? |
Yes |
I know I'm not your first |
Correct... i dont understand the question |
Ok no worries |
Simpler wording please? |
I do hope you understand that I want you, and that includes your sexy body, and everything in it. The whole package. |
I try to understand that |
Does that mean you're sad im not more untarnished? |
No ! |
You look sexy getting fucked |
I want you to have the same style pics |
And more |
I'd like something more than just a pussy pic though |
You can have it |
We *have* to watch this porn together |
Lovey dovey porn lol |
I hope maybe in less than 12ish hours |
Be still my heart! 💞💞💞 |
Still think it's possible? |
Yes, but too early to know well |
Sneak over at like 5am instead |
Side note that i would always rather know sooner than later if you cannot do something |
Makes sense ofc |
And if you can only do something platonic, that's also totally fine |
All good babe |
Thoughts about your hand atop and fingers inside me at the same time? |
Sounds like a great way to say hello |
I would love to try it out |
Before I stuff fingers in you and lick your clit at the same time |
That's.... intense. And fantastic |
I'm moving in, hope you don't mind |
And I'm pretty sure i like you sucking my clit on occasion |
Yes |
I have room underneath stuff. Totes fine |
And your pussy |
Needs tending to as well |
As does your cock |
It is hugely appreciative |
Are you aware of something you didnt do that surpises me because i dont think i explicitly spelled it out? When i give you head |
I could only guessed |
You dont push or pull or do anything aggregious with my cranium |
That was going to be My guess |
Tell me why please |
I ain't that guy |
Give me as much as you want |
You seem to enjoy it |
And I love it |
Literally every guy is that guy |
I don't know |
Lol nice 00:00 comment |
From meeee |
Lol |
More questions? |
Go for it! |
It's a doozy |
Give it to me |
Who asked whom on your first rlh date? Walk.me through it alll, imcluding the date |
She tells this to anyone who listen |
Yes! |
I was a phlebotomist at a plasma center |
She lived literally across the street |
Yes, that one |
So I noticed her one day in December, not too long after I started |
And I was getting to know my coworkers |
Randy and Mark, a couple |
Sara and Ally, a couple |
Suze, a weirdo |
And so on |
And all these cats knew each other in ways I never really knew, but they were cook |
Cool |
Lol |
Someone day RLH is in there getting milk and diapers money |
And she and I had made eyes the week before |
And Randy was setting her up |
And small talk ensued, and Randy learned she wanted to ask me out, so he facilitated the encounter by asking me to come over and do this request |
Request, as in request your phlebotomist |
And he was super coy about it, not tipping me off |
And she asked me to coffee |
And I raced to accept |
And we went to coffee that evening |
And there you are |
Thank you |
And so the next question i would ask? |
When |
Did |
We |
Hook up? |
When, where, how, every detail plz |
I'm a curious sort lol |
Well first |
I didn't get in touch after our first date, which I think was a Friday |
She came in again the next Monday or Tuesday and pointed out I didn't call |
Mind you, this is 1989 |
Right |
Why didnt you? |
Oooooops |
I actually said that all wrong |
I guess this is kind of a telling moment, but I don't know the significance yet |
Did you just not know it was "expected"? |
What actually happened |
*I* said "you didn't call me" |
Ohhhh |
Then? |
Lol right |
I overcame my insecurities and put her in the spot |
She said she thought she was supposed to play hard to get. We were both being facetious |
Soon there was a snowstorm |
Idk I think it was just after nyd, and my car door was not working properly, so I walked to her place in the snowstorn |
It was about 1 mile maybe,? Maybe not quite |
And from that day , I have been |
Mmhmm |
More details please |
The dirty kind |
I was super awkward |
I mean really |
I had a total shutdown one night. Like we were getting intimate and all of a sudden I was terrified |
I remember that so well |
It was really odd |
I don't remember the first time we slept together |
Sorry |
No that's fine |
It was nothing special |
I'm sorry |
And that seems weird |
No worries |
I was just 21 |
Like only just |
Yes. And she was your 3rd |
2nd, depending on what you are counting |
Did you get physically intimate before you actually fucked? On a differeht day |
I don't think so, but I don't remember super clearly |
So you'd done other sexy things with people between hsgf and rlh? How did i not know this?? |
Not super duper? |
Lol |
So Laura, the hippie |
Right |
Summer 1989 |
Right |
Yep |
Brighton |
We had a couple fun nights |
Hey i was there, too! |
Yes! |
Well we were upstate |
First time was camping in my old time fave place, with a few friends actually, and Laure |
Laura |
And I think I slept a whole night on her boobs |
Which were truly massive |
Not DDD |
No |
Think G |
J |
Something like that |
Crazy big |
Wowswww |
Yeah lol |
And that's literally all that happened there |
But I absolutely loved it |
And one day in Mt pleasant, in one of her couch surfing spots, we spent a long afternoon in a twin bed, and I basically masturbated both of of us with our clothes on lol |
Guess who had wet panties lol |
Both lol |
Except she was not quite into it the same way |
This time yeah, and it was fun |
But never again |
And I spooged all over myself |
And wore it home lol |
Think about that! |
But I was so naive then |
I had no idea what I was doing |
I hated life, and nothing was satisfying |
I can't believe we are allowed to be 21 and feel that way |
I just wanted a girl to call my own |
Yes |
Yeah |
Sorry 🙇♀️ |
No, no need lol |
I'm so over it |
I miss Laura still, but I don't know what I would say to her |
Hey, why didnt we fuck? |
Right? |
So she was a singer, I think I mentioned this |
And she had a little band in Mt pleasant |
And they had this song |
A is for apple |
No shit |
But she wasnt really "nasty", just trying to be shocking |
I get that |
It was cute, but I wanted to know where it came fron |
And I didn't get the chanc to find out |
And you know, maybe get kaud |
Laid lol |
Lol |
Anyway |
I hope I answered your question |
Yes thank you |
I asked before but forgot |
First time you received any oral? |
Lhsgf |
Did you know I drove by a couple times today? |
I saw you and L in the garage |
Oh ffs |
I looked like garbage but interesting |
What time was this? |
It was pretty quick and I did not see much honestly. But confirmed his appearance. It was just before I said something about lunch, idk, 1200 ish? |
That checks out |
Confirmed his appearance, eh? |
I recognized him from hub photo. It was a lucky positioning tbh |
I sat at the end of the block for 10 minutes maybe |
I didnt think you hubbed him |
Sir, is this the start of stalking behavior? Lol |
Hey I hub who I like lol |
Yes |
No |
Maybe dont hub me |
At this point, I was expecting to see a little blue Toyota drive away from me |
But then you had updated information |
I can't not hub you |
Which sadly kept buffering with an err 404 |
My hub suuuuuuucks |
You are literally the teams pic girl of the fucking millennium |
More words |
I see your avatar |
Can't help it |
It's your hub photo |
For the love of sweet baby thir please tell me i look better irl |
Thor |
And hia bro loki |
All the norse god babes |
I love your countenance irl |
NO |
Bettwr. In. Real. Life. |
I photograph terribly |
And weighed a lot more then |
And had zero confidence |
In your opinion, can you think of a "dirtiest" (or most taboo) sexual anything you've done? |
Well hold on a sec |
I just saw some photographs of you that were hot af |
Meh |
But I understand |
I just found my favorite leggings |
Perfect night for them |
Exciting! I hope I'll see them |
On your way over yet? |
Fml |
I wish! |
Step softly and carry a big sword |
Lol |
I'm working on it |
null |
Tights! |
null |
Ohhhhh |
Well they arent leggings |
Too distracted by slutty panties |
Are thise inside out? |
null |
The panties |
Oh! |
No they were just flipped |
See? |
null |
Nope |
Need to inspect |
Irl |
null |
Real life or nada |
null |
YES |
How I wish you were with me rn |
Your soaking wet pussy all over my face |
Weird, because i was hoping your face would be all.over me making my pussy wet |
Wild! |
I am so ready to fuck your pretty pussy |
Sure, obviously i want to take all of you and more than ever before |
But i want sex too |
And love making |
I have all of that as well |
What do you think about slowly sliding rock hard you allllllll the way in, then pushing against me just a bit more to take my breath away and staying in that form until i come back down to reality? |
I think I nearly came just reading that! |
Because I was just imagining being rock hard, sliding in, as we are face to face |
Watching your eyes |
Watching your mouth |
As I slide all the way in |
And then pulling out almost all the way |
Then move my hips just slightly so you have those few extra millimeters to go more |
Yesssss |
And going into you again |
Feeling every ridge along my edges |
I want to feel every moment |
Me too |
Yes each and every bit |
Exactly |
I love feeling how you change |
When you are stimulates |
And sometimes you open up |
And sometimes you squeeze hard |
It's intense |
But that seems like it would be negative for you, opening up |
And so good |
Not really |
It's like your asking me to come in deeper |
Very much |
Do other girls do this? |
I've never experienced it like this |
I hope you know i control very little of it |
I understand, it's no problem |
It's you |
It does |
It's one of the biggest commedations i can give |
Aww! I just like to live on you |
Love on you too |
Thank you |
I wish i could get you off |
You have! And will again |
I want to do it over and over and over for you |
Aww! |
I want to do the same for you |
I have one question and one point of information |
Ok! What you got? |
Remember that sin oil you have? |
Wait which one is sin oil? |
The one you drizzled all over my back the first time |
Ok yes! |
Is it possible to use that beforehand or will i get injured if it gets inside me? |
It is safe |
It's hemp oil, non toxic |
It's a silly realistic fantasy of mine to be massaged into sex sometime. Total relaxation and stuff |
Sounds great |
Excellent pairing |
Hsve you? |
Yes I suppose so, which is to say having good time massaging, and good time with sex |
Not like in the pornos, but fun |
No reference poijt for me lol |
Massage porn is pretty good IMO. |
Sensual |
Usually slower |
Usually starts with serious touching |
Yes, that's what i want |
It's fun! |
I want your hands all over me. Full hands, fingertips, palms, arms, your whole body, your chest, your hips, all of it. Im not dainty so dont worry about too hard or too feep or too much preasure |
I want it allllll |
2024-11-30T07:33:46 |
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2024-11-30T08:36:48 |
Yesss! |
How are you? |
Pretty good I think |
Lol |
Any word from rlh? |
Sleeping |
Mmhmm |
Am i correct that we do not have set plan times for now? |
Yes |
Okay thanks! |
Would you be upset if i ventured out? |
No babe! |
Maybe I can come and find you layery |
Maybe you can clean off the bed for me too lol |
null |
And cat excavate |
null |
Heh! Looks like you need some caution tape! |
Psht |
There are 3 very neatly folded tshirt piles |
I see that! |
Very nice! |
Lol thx |
You in search of anything while I'm out? |
Can't think of anything rn |
Okays |
2024-11-30T11:09:29 |
null |
What you up to? |
One guess |
Shopping! |
Yesssss! |
Lol |
Joining me? |
Whee!! |
Not sure yet--will advise soon! |
Haha okay 👍 |
Can i interest you in some vintage sci fi magazines?? |
null |
Camera bag? |
Wow lol cool but no ty |
Aww sad |
Garlic roasting dish? |
Pray tell what is? |
It's literally a dish you roast garlic in in the oven |
null |
Omg |
null |
Huh. Lol! |
DECORATIVE glass bottle? |
null |
Yeeeah |
Do you really want it? I would love to grab it for you! |
No ooo |
Well sad then |
Did you need new kitchen chairs? |
Maybe if I had a kitchen table lol |
I have one you can have! |
You need those for your things! |
I have an extra lol |
Haha |
For real |
What's going on there? |
Not much, but I'm struggling to come up with a reason to leave that doesn't provoke the bear |
Totally fine |
Sigh |
It's okay 🙂 |
You doing ok? |
Just bummed |
I know |
None of your friends need some help moving furniture real quick, followed by dinner and a drink? |
If I did she'd wonder why she wasn't invited lol |
Aha |
Tomorrow at all? |
Just so i know |
Kinda doubtful. |
No problem at all |
You bringing me foods? |
I have lots of mashed potatoes lol |
I kind of hate mashed potatoes |
Yeah I know |
Dont you suddenly need aomething from ace or kroger? |
The despot |
Preuss |
Skymint |
Liquor in okemos |
Liquor? |
Lick me then |
In Okemos? |
Or EL |
I dont care if you lick me on the moon |
So no food either? Darn it all |
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Nice collection there! |
You know what they are? |
Besides signed Alton Brown posters? |
You're correct! |
And i have his signed cookbooks i think you knew that though |
Yes! Very cool |
I have a signed Anne Rice book |
Do you happen to have a corner shelf unit? |
Ome you want me to have lol |
I don't have a corner shelf. I actually have a pretty good spot for one, but I don't buy furniture for the house lol |
But we were going to tosay, potentially |
Was it so? |
Yeah |
I missed something |
H4h |
Oh, well stuff for me |
I'd never hear the end of it if I came home with a shelf for the living room |
It would be the wrong wiW the wrong color the wrong material the wrong brand |
You came home.with a rolly stool once |
For me, and it lives in my space |
Yes |
I got a fantastic book today |
Yeah? |
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Hand for size |
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Dang it's a monster! |
Very heavy |
Example pages |
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Nice! I like making bagels |
I made a batch of spiced fig bagels for my dad's birthday once |
Kinda like Cinnamon raisin but "upscale" lol |
Nice |
What are you up to? |
Watching YT DIY aquarium stuff! |
Very cool |
What are you doing Thursday? |
Workin for a livin I reckon |
O you mean my social calendar? |
One sec |
I'm clear that day |
What you got? |
Just trying to think of when i can see you |
Maybe I have to |
That'd be nice |
Sadly i probably need to k ow beforehand |
By when? |
Monday-ish |
Cool cool I will look at work calendar soon and let you know |
Okay cool thanks |
If you could make a set weekend time work then maybe i could do that but not here |
I need to do the hard thing and i am too inept |
Did you tell me what the hard thing is or non? |
I don't remember |
Oh shit I have a gpt pic for this |
One moment please |
Lol I think you already saw it |
Nvm sorry |
Um okay |
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I am so tired |
Ok you need a nap? |
Just short one maybe |
Then i do the hard thing |
My tummy hurts :( |
Sorry I had to change my dressing on my finger. Have a good nap sweetheart |
2024-11-30T22:01:26 |
How's it going? |
Not bad howdy do you ? |
Did you nap? |
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2024-12-01T00:36:59 |
Apparently all i do is serially nap?? Lol |
2024-12-01T07:38:08 |
Heyyya |
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2024-12-01T10:24:38 |
Lol looks cozy over there |
It was! |
How's it going for you? |
I just got out of bed lol |
What are you up to today? |
Idk, probably nothing |
Bummer |
I have a few things for you, one "real" but silly one for Sadie's birthday lol. Do you know how i can get them to you? |
I could swing by tomorrow morning if that helps |
Maybe? L will be here but i could leave it on yhe porch lol |
Oh, that sounds risky |
Agreed |
I might see if i can wfh Tuesday but i think you work? |
Yeah |
Sorry babes |
I feel like I'm failing you :( |
No you're not failing me at all |
:/ okay |
No arkansas yet? |
Not a mention |
Weird |
Have you been to metro retro or thrift witch (ever)? |
I don't think so. Metro retro sounds familiar tho |
They're both on Cesar Chavez |
Where would i find a corner shelf around here? A freestanding unit |
My first thought is the dicker & deal on Kalamazoo |
I thought maybe there too |
What are you going to put in your corner shelf? |
Prob harry potter, it's going in the bedroom behind my settee |
Ah nice |
Accidentally procured you more shoeses lol |
Lol accidentally |
Wanna see them or not so much? |
:) lol I would like to see them! |
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Oh those are spiffy! |
You think so? |
I feel like I had a check version of these at some point |
I think theyre awesome but theyre for your feet loo |
Thanks for rescuing them! |
:) |
Thanks for letting me! |
Lol you don't need my permission |
Finding and gifting is very obviously my presenting love language |
Aww |
Not sure yet. It's complicated. Obviously. |
Yah |
But can you tell me why? |
That's a real question |
Is there an easy way for me to take off like an inch and a half of 3/4 inch thick wood without a saw? |
You could sand it but that will take a long time |
Yeah no thanks |
Lol |
Are you familiar with The French Laundry? |
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😂 to a photo |
French laundry in -- is it Holly? I've been there once |
In California |
Oh lol I don't know that one |
2024-12-01T16:19:42 |
Doing ok there? |
I guess. I'm just killing time until I can go to bed fr |
Do you want to converse? Look up topics? Find recipes? Anything? |
Idk what I want honestly. I am so depressed today |
Wanna talk about it? |
Kind of? But I don't know what to say |
Just type whatever. No judgement and let me know how you want s response (just listening, fixing, agreeing, devil's advocate, etc) |
Thank you. I really don't know how to start |
Who is the outward party causing most of the distress? If it's equal, name them all |
There's none. I just don't like being in my skin today, and I want the day to end so I can try again |
Can you take a shower, step outside and go for a quick walk, take a nap, or eat something? |
Drink some water? |
I didn't expect the last one coming from you lol |
What do you do when absolutely nothing is satisfying or seems worrhwhile |
I'm sitting here literally surrounded by all the things I've built up for myself and done for myself, and nothing, but nothing, seems worth doing |
Im so sorry, my phone died |
Is there literally anything you can ID that will make you feel better? Anything |
I'm making some soup, and going to watch YT until I pass out |
I guess that's good, but i was hoping for more, kind of |
Idk what to say |
It's okay |
Oh lol |
I promise I would not try to dump my depression on you |
Depression is not dumpable |
Are you still taking your meds as prescribed. |
? |
Yes, but I ran out of Advair yesterday |
Are you okay? |
Yeah I am fine |
Okay |
It can slide a few days |
I will get it refilled tomorrow |
Okay, good |
If work allows, may i treat you Thursday and/or Thursday night when i am also free for a while? |
I'd love that |
Please let me know if it's possible :) |
I hope so! |
I hope so, too |
And also what you'd like and like to do for it |
Sounds like a special treat |
Yes, it is |
I could use some snuggling |
For sure |
Play time with you |
What else? |
Oh idk |
Food? |
Oh! Yeah maybe |
I can make or i can order or we can go |
Pause plz |
2024-12-02T05:13:33 |
Good morning!!! |
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Less bad desk area lol |
Oh my goodness wow! |
Good morning!!! |
Thanks! |
Happy birtheve! |
Thanks babe ❤️ |
Do you have any days next week and/or the following week that you'd like to do something together? |
I need to request off 2 more so thought I'd ask you first |
ooOoo |
I mean I'd love to do something Monday |
And Tuesday |
Wednesday sounds good |
And you know what? Thursday |
And ofc Friday |
Right, lol |
Go for the best advantage, that's what I say |
There's a show later this month she wants to go to with Toni and me but I think it's closer to Jesus day |
We call it saturnalia |
Right right |
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You"re busy that day |
Kinda, yeah |
And not so much my scene but i hipe you have fun if you go! |
Are you able to escape overnight at all? |
I doubt it |
Unless she surprises me with a girl's night at Toni's or something, but I don't see that happening at this time of year |
That's too bad |
Day trip anywhere? |
Possibly |
Where would you go? |
Dunno yet |
I need to get in the shower to make myself presentable for my appt |
Thanks for being there for me babe it means a lot |
Are you okay? |
? |
Yes, I'm fine |
Just an annual |
In person or virtual? |
In person |
Bom chance! |
2024-12-02T09:06:36 |
How'd it go? |
Fine fine |
Having breakfast |
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Sweet potatoes and Belgian sprouts!!! |
I'm also break8ng fast |
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Lovely! |
I just remembered I forgot to renew my driver's license and registration, so I think I will try to get that done today as well |
You should |
They have kiosks |
There's one across the street |
You lived right across from here iirc |
I don't know? |
Should I try the kiosk? |
Yes |
Corner of Grand River and centrAl park |
What cityM |
? |
I've only lived 2 places out this way |
Okemos |
1638 Indian Way |
I'm about 1 block from there |
Go shopp9ng! |
Lol I'm going to head back to Williamston and check out the H4H |
Maybe not.... the google says they dont open til Tuesday at 9am |
Lol I don't read for comprehension obv |
You're so lucky I'm here! |
Volunteers of america and greedwill are open today |
Kellies in okemos opens at 11 |
Well? What were the verdicts? |
Just finished renewing tags and id |
Didn't realize the kiosk is in Meijer |
Had to GTFO |
Lol |
My mission was clearly successful |
Why you..... |
I oughtA..... |
I actually had to go in there twice bc I forgot to take something with my VIN |
VIN NUMBER |
for the ATM MACHINE |
lol |
This temp ID is printed on thermal paper |
Now I go to Lowe's |
Not the despot? |
Hey i have something awkward to say later |
Uh oh, what is it |
Not bad |
Just awkward |
If I'm giving you head, there's a chance that if-when you get off and are still in my mouth that I'll gag no matter what (how far, taste, etc will not matter) |
Interesting |
Ofc I would warn you |
Thank you |
That might not help either |
Fair |
Just so you know |
Do you like swallowing? |
It's ok if no |
Like is a weird phrasing to me |
You're different though |
So for you? Yes i like swallowing |
Rather than |
Havent done either |
Well that makes two of us |
No one has spot you out or asked for it somewhere else? |
Nope |
Weird |
I only know swallow |
Same |
I'm withholding some information though |
Why? |
And please tell me? |
Waiting for the right moment |
Which is now: |
I rather fancy the idea of coming on your face , if you're game |
Yes |
And again, it's ok if not |
I won't cry |
I just dont know how to do that |
Lol me neither |
As in, how do i position muself, |
Ain't it funny? |
Do i close my eyes? |
You have to have seen this somewhere |
Yes, for sure |
In pornos |
You don't have to close your eyes, but I think reflexes will close them for you |
You can wear glasses too |
Do you just pull out/away rdally fast? |
Well like I said I never tried this |
As tight as you are it might be difficult for me lol |
Wellllll i do like that you think im still tight |
And you know i want you to fill me as deep as possible |
Damn |
I'm in Lowe's so you mind lol |
Wood likes wood friends |
But I'm sure there are useful things there |
Harnesses and swings and clamps and whathaveyou |
Lol |
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Yes! |
This thursday.... |
Is what being the 5th |
Are you coming here? Are we exploring the greater lansing metro area? Are we going about our days as normal work plebians? |
Do you work on the 16th? It's a Monday. |
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Ooh! Where you at? |
Capitol Discount 2/2 |
So I'm not sure about Thursday yet |
I am off the 16th |
Wait no |
I am off all next week 9-13 |
I could possibly rearrange a day to make 16th possible |
How is your day going? |
Day is okay thanks |
If you want to, be my guest pleasw, but dont wreck anything of yours |
How is your day? |
All good, all good. I can believe I've been out this long today lol |
*can't |
Good |
I have literally one planned event and that's the show on the 20th |
I think there's another next month but I don't remember what |
Um.... you have a birthday |
Non-event |
Liessssssss |
What am i!? |
My fave person |
What does that have to do with my BD? |
And smackmas or whatever is definitely a non-event |
Awww |
Oh it's an event for sure! It's just not on my calendar yet |
Do you know who Katie Ames is |
Yes |
Why? |
Put me on your calendar like you want me on your face lol |
All day, every day! |
Oh yeah |
KA sends me happy bday every year. It's weird. I know she does for a lot of people, but it's still weird |
Every single person, actually |
How's thay calendar coming along? When will you meet your demise by suffocation? L9l |
I will learn to breathe in this environment |
I will crush you |
I have a pretty thick skull |
I have thicc parts as well lol |
They're best in class! |
And I sure do miss 'em |
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Sorry just had to see if this really was a redish |
A redish radish |
Lol |
https://www.reddit.com/r/tragedeigh/s/rELLsF6UQf |
I am conducting an experiment. As a linguist, does this make you chuckle, or frown? |
Well the post has been removed, but from what i know it makes me eyeroll |
It is 1554 |
Great job union! |
https://www.reddit.com/r/tragedeigh/s/pjv0kR2Igc |
Just to humor me, does this link work? I have the same problem sharing Reddit links with David. |
(the post is not deleted) |
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Well fml |
Ok it has been deleted |
For you lol |
We need a president that will end the lives of parents that create these tragedeighs |
No deportation |
No tariffs |
No humiliation |
Just death |
No cake either |
So what do you think |
Ahnndeigh? |
Idk if I fancy having a g in my name though |
So brash |
Do you know what "ghoti" means, in english linguistics? |
Ghoti jail, do not collect 200 doll hairs? |
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Surgeon? |
Fish: |
It helps illustrate how unnatural english phonetics and orthography are together |
Oh you mean PHTI |
As a matter of fact I was playing with the aquarium |
But I do not have phti yet |
Why do you argue for phti instead? |
They swim around and they're cute |
Mmhmmm |
PH as in phone, or Persephone if you have one |
TI as in aktion |
If you donna hae a persephone you canna use yer cellaphone |
I thought xer-jean might be an exotic hybrid of the Greek Chi (how do you say in phonetician?) |
So, roughly, literally, "Zer" |
With the French Jean: |
You know that chi is ki |
Like in kite |
Zer is just allemande for there, l9l |
Ugh |
A weird sense of grief just kicked the life outta me |
Wait what's happening? |
We had a first aid incident with doggo at the same time |
Wherefore grief? |
I just learned Olivia Newton John was born literally one day before my mother, and practically on the opposite side of the planet |
COINCIDENCE? |
Hey |
I am just now done with work |
Oh my! |
OT for you? |
Idk |
You did a good job! |
Are you ok? |
Not really |
I'll be ok |
Tell me? |
No judgement |
Right this second i would like to physically feel better |
Sure thing |
Obv I cannot get you things quickly |
You can? |
I think so? |
I do not know how to feel better |
I'm with you |
As in I understand |
Lmk know how I can help |
I just dont know what to do for the acute feelings |
Okay |
Did something happen? |
To trigger this |
If I was actually a life sized teddy bear in your room, wwyd |
Lay you on me |
And i am dealing with 2 or 3 separate things |
I like laying upon you |
If you find this comfy |
I get so much contact with you |
And you become calmer |
And more relaxed |
And we breathe and move together yet separate |
This is a moment I have experienced and I cherish a great deal |
https://open.spotify.com/track/5ci2SqjrnZB7aCIivA97ek?si=Ao-fGXhIQ2GwgO4Q2EwN-A |
Literally was listening to this just now. Kinda cliche now, but really beautiful |
I could really use your cuddles and contact right now |
I wish you could have them right now! |
How would you know if i relax more if i didnt tell you? |
I can feel your body |
Letting go |
Sinking into the sheets |
And your breathing becomes calm |
And rhythmic |
And gentle paced |
And feels peaceful |
Under me |
I love this |
How is it normally? Or if I'm anxious-y? |
Only twice I think have we done this? |
By request |
And you were less than calm in some way |
So we did that |
Done what? The laying? |
Yes |
You specifically asked me to |
I know one |
I think i also warned you beforw that i might need it |
Yes |
It's obv no problem |
I am happy to provide this service |
I always feel embarrassed |
Nah nah nah |
None of that |
It was beautiful |
I've not done it before |
But I really enjoyed it |
Reasons up there ^^^ |
I like touch a lot of the time qhen I'm in this state |
100% |
Usually soft but not too wussy |
I cannot help myself rn and it's awful |
Brb 5 keep talking please |
Ok or don't lol |
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2024-12-02T20:43:27 |
Oh myyyy |
Haha |
Look it's phti! |
How are you babes? |
Tell me everything plz |
I am mildly better after an impromptu nap |
Good! |
What are you doing? |
Besides sort of hovering around you like a helicopter, trying to get a read lol |
Drawing rough plans for fish tank filtration |
Poking around on Bezorrow Buy Me! Place |
Trying to be crafty with photography but honestly being a dork |
Feeling jealous of cat who has ignored all of this and feels good about it at my expense |
Discovering how much I can style my hair. |
Yes |
And now for a word from our sponsor |
You really HAVE seen my hair at 12ish days |
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That guy |
I know him |
Yeah he left some details out, but he's cool |
Totally fine by me too |
Smart reLly |
I mean, i would |
Lick my own balls, fuck yes |
But then what would i do to impress you?? Lol |
Smart kitty you are |
Know |
Hmm?! |
What'd i miss? |
Nuthin, honey |
Are you actually too young |
To know the first (produced) Star Wars trilogy? |
Say it isn't so |
You are yoda speaking |
Your question, is answered! |
What's in your mind? |
Am I too disconnected for your taste? |
No? |
I think I'm actually asking: is my goofiness annoying, and am I ignoring anything I should be paying attention to? |
I dont think so. I wish i knew how you could help and i would tell you |
Did you answer only the second question? |
No, it was dual branched |
Ah |
Thanks for letting me know |
Im just at a loss for what to do to ... better |
To make life better maybe? |
Wait wait which face space |
Unsure of words |
As are we bitht |
Birthed |
Facespace is my placeholder for social media |
Hahahaha I love it! |
Calm down fellas |
I just want to know |
Do you feel well |
Are you secure |
Do you need food, water, or anything |
What's happening |
I do not feel well but feel better than earlier |
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I see you have a true idol at your side |
I understand "I don't know" |
With that said, |
Be selfish and tell me what |
You wish |
Without judgement |
If it pleases you |
Can you give me an example? |
What is on your mind |
I'm thinking about how awful I feel as a person today |
Why do you feel awful as a person? |
That was then |
I feel helpless and hopeless |
Ok |
Do you want to say more about it? |
I am stuck at everything and there's not a way to resolve any of it |
Mmm |
Everything is a lot |
But name one |
How do i pick one to name? |
Your choice. We agree this list choose from is not in fact infinite, right? |
But they have hurt you if at the same |
So call them out |
It kind of is though, since it's all interconnected |
No |
I ca |
Lol I keep hitting the microphone |
Sorry |
I can think of a counterexample so easily. Now how are you stuck |
We'll start with significance first: i am just so unwell most of the time |
Are you stuck unwell? |
Yes |
Nothing helps it? |
Not really |
Ever? |
Nothing realistic |
Is there anything that might improve if you had help? |
Yes |
Just about everything |
I am fading fast, btw |
Can you tell me about the help that you desire? |
Sure |
I really feel like if i could get the house clean then i would sleep better a lot of the time and i would feel better so i could work better |
Get a better attotide to do the hard thing, stop a lot of arguing that happens herw |
Will you tell me about this hard thing |
I submit this thing you call the hard thing |
Let us dispatch of this unnamed beast |
Sorry, dispose of. |
What eats at you so? |
2024-12-03T06:30:34 |
Hey dollface |
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Thanks babe! |
How are you? |
Pretty good |
How are you sweetie |
I'm alright thanks |
Have some bummer news though, maybe |
What? |
I have to work thursday :( |
Ok |
Im sorry :( |
I'm not above calling out for part of the day, just sayin... |
Work used your government name for your birthday wishes! |
So official |
Yes, Andrew. It is! |
Andrew is ready for a nap lol |
Took all my energy just to get out of bed |
No one cares if you work from bed |
Hmm, I like this way of thjnkingy |
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You're missing such total birthday cuteness |
Can i show you after work?? |
Aww! Hi cutie! |
Next thursday you are....? |
Off allllll next week |
Yes, right |
Gonna have a lot of time on my hands lol |
So if I'm off weds and thurs, maybe those hands could be occupied |
?? |
https://open.spotify.com/track/5JiU3gLHz9AvUnrhXgOmos?si=r0krwMVLSQGn7CSxwXAvmQ |
https://open.spotify.com/track/5G2f63n7IPVPPjfNIGih7Q?si=T5UtbwaXSb6vV2_JntAC-g |
Ai Yi yi I got a message that my dad cracked his head on a concrete floorl |
What a day |
Oh no! |
? |
And when am i treating you to food? I am available almost all daytime Saturday if you can escape |
Any word? |
Sorry I have been on the phone for almost 3 hours |
Done for the moment |
This day is killing me. Just found out my dad has been admitted to hospital with CHI for observation and MRI |
RLH is being a freak |
Boys are coming tomorrow |
I need a nap |
I am 10000% serious: how xan i help? |
Chi - chronic? Concussive? I figure the HI is head injury |
I can find you a flight if you need |
Send you food? Send your mom food? |
Be your escape tomorrow? |
Idk yet |
I can move whatever i need to |
Thank you though I appreciate it! |
Drinks tonight, even |
I can send flowers from you |
Wrap any holiday presents |
Bake or cook |
Procure any gifts |
You are too nice :) |
Haha, thanks |
But I'm also very serious |
I know you are. Thank you so! |
I am positive you would do the same |
I would |
What is rlh doing? |
Why boys tomorrow? |
Idk |
I need to tell rl about my dad, she doesn't know yet |
Brb hopefully |
Oh jeesus |
Everything is fine |
Liar |
More details please |
Oh we had an absolutely mind bending discussion about who bought what kind of Kleenex earlier. |
It didn't escalate... Much |
Does she know it's your birthday? |
Lol yes |
What does "escalate " mean? |
In this case only that we spent 5 minutes unpacking what should have been a 5 second request about the grocery list |
Words are hard though |
Gotcha |
What else? |
That's all for now |
Have you had food or fluid today? |
O have! |
Holy chickens i am exhausted all of a sudden |
Holy chickens |
Maybe? |
No real fever |
Back owww but have new patch on |
Unsure when last fluid, headed for ice now |
This elevator smells terrrrrrrrible |
Eww! |
How's it going now? |
Things are settling down |
I did not get KA birthday wishes until noon. I was very worried about this lol. But she did come through. |
Lol |
Just talked to my sister and things are settling down over there in Tucson |
Excellent |
Thanks |
And for the real purpose of thwle day? |
*the whole |
Is there one lol |
It's postponed until, you know, the boys get here |
Which is when? |
I just paid the last deductible of the year. Woo hoo |
What else |
Umm, I'm ready to stop working now |
So do |
What a day lol |
It's fine really |
Gifts yet? |
As in have I received any? No |
Wait--yes |
It was so fucking awkward I forgot |
Oh oy |
Actually a neat plant propagation thingy. That presentation was immediately followed by the Kleenex debacle so I kinda lost track of it |
What was the problem with the facial tissue? |
I've analyzed it and concluded it was a) a request for a grocery item but b) wrapped in the assertion that I have not attended to the special nature of the request. But that was c) incorrect (I have attended to it). And I d) tried to set the record straight, but that only made it seem like e) she wants being heard. |
Sorry typos e) she was not being heard |
Once I realized the futility of explaining, I just said ok I got it |
Now I know "mansplaining" is frowned upon, but I don't think that's what I was doing. She really wanted to be correct saying that I bought the wrong kind. That didn't happen, but she did not know that, and will not hear that. Idgaf really, I get what she wants |
Things I didn't say: |
It's just weird |
Does she enjoy the arguing? |
She will not be told she is wrong |
It's not the arguing |
So she needs validation |
I'll come back to that |
Oh yikes ok |
She is also a braggart |
"I am really good at looking things up on the Internet" |
Does she know that |
So I agree she seeks validation |
I think part of the problem is I often don't recognize that quickly enough and try to explain |
And it is difficult to reverse that conversation |
If youre not for her, you're against her |
Yeah, that's a good synopsis |
And I've witnessed this in how she treats others |
Oh? |
It's nuanced, but she does tend to get hung up on things she doesn't agree with |
I'm just running out of patience for this. I've looked away for a lot of years |
Yeah |
Another cliche -- my way or the highway. |
Yes |
What would you ultimately want that i would have capacity to procure or provide for you for this such an auspicious occasion as your 56th rotation del sol? |
You know what sucks? Sometimes I get ideas that would be a good response to that question. But I fail to remember them. |
Text them yo me randomly then |
You know what else sucks? |
Hmm? |
That you probably cant come over this week to do enjoyable things |
Sigh. For sure |
And i hardcore want it all |
Can you get out at all this week or weekend? |
Possibly |
When, do you know at all? |
Nvm, I'll figure out what i can |
I need information I don't have yet, sorry. From my side, that is. |
I knowwwwwww |
I'm just a little bit dying to see you |
Alllllll of you, lop |
*lol |
All of meeee! Flop |
Yep |
Maybe youd like the same offered to you? |
"maybe" ❤️ |
There's so much i still want |
Omg yes please |
What would you do this evening if you had me? |
I know how I'd start! |
Let's dim the lights get you in some lacy layers, have a lil smoke, and make out in your room |
Are we standing? |
Purely platonic making out ofc |
I think standing quickly becomes squirming about on the bed |
Oh you want me squirming? |
Let me thi |
Just so you can quell me? |
Your clothes kinda fall off |
Sorry about that |
Maybe you should help them |
I mean I'm just holding you down nbd |
Yesssssss |
If you want to squirm and strip that's your business |
YOU strip me |
Hehehe |
Idc if you have to use your teeth or wven straight up rip off my vestments |
Sorry babe, keep leading plz |
Lol |
I do need to find the right moment to lick your nose. I'm sure you've earned that |
Ive earned licking evvvvvverywhere |
Indeed |
No but i will lol |
Of that I have no doubt |
What if i want something new, what will you do? What's the new act? |
Then we'll charge extra! |
Ummm |
Heh |
Well you know that idea list I have? |
You have such a thing? |
No not that one |
I am confused now |
I want ideas |
Good good |
I definitely want to have at you with me standing at the edge of the bed and you every which way we can make that work |
Every |
Mmmmm yes please |
I for sure want this sideways idea we almost did |
yessss of course! |
Fabulous idea |
You still planning on pressing my thighs open and apart so you really get in as much as you can? |
That will definitely happen |
More details please! |
As you know, I do want to discover just how far in I can come in you |
At least I think you know that |
I kind of know that |
Well now you know! Lol |
Additionally |
I am going to fuck you with my tongue |
Which will require a certain amount of stretching |
For both of us |
I want to feel how much you want to push your load so, so deep. Be firm. Get grabby |
Carnal desire |
That's what i want |
Now, whyfor this stretching? |
Sorry spouse interruption |
Must go deeper |
Same here lol |
You'd actually pur your tongue deeper? |
This is very intriguing. Has not been done |
There's also a particular spot i want to see if youd work at. It'll be a different kind of O if i get there. I can anticipate what It'll be like and... it's be great ;) |
Would you play with toys with me? |
Ofc! |
And I was thinking about how sexy you look with a pink plug in your sexy ass |
But sir - i still need more descriptives, please |
Maybe first, help me understand how the butt plug works as a toy |
I get the mechanics 🙂 |
How exactly does it become part of the exchange between us? |
Is it pre inserted and there for display? |
Do I put it in? |
Does it get moved around at all? |
I may have to duck out for a little bit fyi |
Either of us can put it in, pre inserted or during play |
Same for ducking out |
And no, no moving around except for in or done with |
Hey |
null |
Food was prepared for me, so I partook |
Watcha doing? |
2024-12-04T06:46:49 |
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Well hi! |
How are ya this morning? |
Ugh |
What are your plans for all of today and then tomorrow? |
Work, basically |
Meh |
I'm ok. Went to bed kinda early |
How come? |
Because I ate dinner early and that made me sleepy |
I was tired anyways |
What else went on when you "ducked out"? |
I literally ate food, brushed my teeth, and went to bed |
That's all |
Aww I'm sorry |
What was for food? |
Blackeye peas, nicely spiced with herbs, and mixed veggies |
Quite satisfying actually |
What did you do last night |
Not much. Kinda picked up a little and then essentially laid down for bed. Then awake for a while now |
What's on your work agenda today? |
Gotta catch up on some things I've been ignoring for a while |
Mmhmm |
How's your dad? |
Dad has COVID as it turns out |
Oh wow, yikes |
I have to run errands after work so not free but not totally confined either |
Is he classically symptomatic? |
Yes this is second time COVID for him. My parents both had long COVID a couple years ago |
Have you had it at all? |
Yes, a year ago |
Do you vax? |
Yep, got a booster monday |
How are you feeling from that? |
My arms are kinda sore lol. I got flu shot same day |
But otherwise I'm fine |
I say do it that way |
Did you use bith arms? |
I usually don't have problems with vaccines. Shingles vax hurt like a bitch. |
I don't think that one is arm, is it? |
It is. It's 2 or 3 in a series as well. That was several years ago |
We did flu in one arm, COVID in the other on Monday |
Here's a fun fact: we dont know if i will respond to a shingles vac. I also have no antibodies for hep b even though I've completed the series at least 3, possibly 4 times |
Wow |
And we dont know if i have an appendix |
What? |
Sometimes they take it out during transplant as a precaution |
Can we look at your table of contents? |
Ive had 3 surgeries in that area and so there's a lot of scarred tissue |
Cant tell on an ultrasound |
Dont know if they took it out when they transplanted |
Schrodingers vestigials |
Lol! |
Tonsils can grow back |
Weird! I still have mine |
Me too |
My family doc was not a fan of tonsillectomy |
I cant pass an optical biometrics test |
Interesting |
Are you a robot? |
Yep |
Yesterday i told kendell for the 3rd time that i will be attending our team party but CANNOT BOWL |
Omg |
When is that |
Tuesday |
There's a service center lunch |
Then alllll of billing leaves the premises at like 3pm |
Lolol |
Seriously |
Got a meeting in a few, then some stuff to bounce off my fave sounding sagg lol |
That's me |
Indeed |
Am back |
I am the gemini-est gem youll ever meet lol |
Truth |
You think so? |
Yep! |
That could be great or.... not lol |
I'm going with the positive interpretation |
Awww |
❤️ |
You know ill ask why |
I mean you were born in my favorite month of all time so you have to be good |
Kicked my way out a month early to make that happen |
Lol thank you! |
And spring 1986 was a particularly nice one as I recall. One fine evening, riding my gf's bike home at midnight, the air thick with lilac scent |
I've been chasing that vibe ever since then |
May 1986.... you just turned 18. |
What a time lol |
I wasn't 18 until December |
Oh you mean my first Christmas? |
Lol |
Yes lol |
I learned something pertinent to 1968 the other day |
Summer of love? |
That MIL of mine was born in April of 1968 |
Aww |
2 people i have very strong feelings of fucking/fucking over lol |
Um, those are polar opposites |
So i split a prepositional phrase |
I do what i want lol |
If anyone is qualified to take their language in their own words it's you |
Lol thanks |
Oh! Did i show you the letter i found from her? |
Instant disqualification |
No, I ain't seen it |
You wanna? |
Only i know ive seen it. Well and my mother |
I'm assuming it's total cringe. Yes! Want to see! |
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It's psychotic ranting and jesus godly untrue, if that isnt clear |
But no, i have not read it all |
WOW! Is his mom 15? |
And you're a witch? |
She's 6 months older than you lol |
I seen that in their |
Uh yeah, she does say that in there |
Cool, cool |
This was ostensibly over a cat |
I think there might be more to it |
When L turned 16 he drove to a bookstore in Cadillac for his first solo drive |
Bahahahaha!!! |
She did the same with a collegiate library book of his when he wrote a report of the Catholic schism |
I'm trying really hard not to lol bc RLH is sleeping in the next room |
His sister isnt allowed to watch anything with magic, not even Beauty and the Beast |
Friends, this is amurica |
Wow |
WOW |
Literally prayed around me while she and my FIL held hands and put holy oil drops on my forehead the first time i was at their house |
Where i slept on the living room floor |
um wut |
At 23 years old |
When he and i wach had our own apartments |
Oh shit babe |
Serious wackadoodle there |
But I'm also literally the only one his sister has ever liked and she chooses me over anyone else consistently |
Because i recognize that she is, after all, a human |
Omfg MIL must be wrecked about that |
You |
You |
Cat loving witch you |
You saw the text she sent me out of nowhere one day |
Shes "taking chemo and in hospice " roughly every 6 - 8 months, has a randomized miracle (most recently her wrist tumors were gone when they tried to do surgery to repair what the attempted burglar did to her arm in their doorway.... dont even let me start there) |
She shaves her head |
So so so so many lies |
I know too much |
Taking |
That's that |
Yes |
Like in pills |
Sure |
As one does |
Does she buy them on Infowars dot com? |
Shaves here head |
Bahahahaha |
Prayed at the obama/idk who else election in 2012 that both candidates "would meet a different fate" and someone with jesus in their heart would take over the presidency instead |
Well I hope she's happy now |
Lolol |
She can get a trump Bible for $60 |
Lovvvvvvves that guy |
Christ on a pogo stick |
They do not have a single book in their house except for his dad's bible and hers.... let me see if i can find a copy |
Wow |
It's about how to be an obedient wife |
Yes, in that term |
She also gave me a trinket box once that had the prayer of Jabez on it |
It's basically for sinners asking god for guidance and protection away from their super immoral lives |
Pure alt right idiocy. |
In the flesh |
Complete with an illiterate trad wife |
Amazing |
So L really bucked the family system hitching up with you |
2024-12-04T11:38:47 |
I have literally not had a call stop in the time since i had to log on. My time between calls is less than 10 seconds. Fml. |
Anyway, yes |
I own pants |
She does not |
First time i met his mom "L says you're diabetic, can you still have kids?" |
😬 |
Then not too long later "even if you had to adopt, I'm sure we would still love them" |
What is it with brain rot and babies I fucking sweat |
Asking the wrong person |
Anyway |
Tomorrow night, want to come over? Maybe have dinner? |
Posssssibly late today? |
Late workday i mean |
I don't know how I can but I'll say yes I want to |
Is it L's date night with the B? |
Lol not this week |
Well I do have to go to Kroger |
I can't believe it took Kroger 48 hours to fill a prescription |
Lol |
Advair to be exact! |
You know , nbd |
just BREATHING |
Whatevs |
Literally have my own nebulizer |
I own that bitch lol |
Pleasssssse come over tomorrow? We can make out if nothing else! |
Pressssssssnts! |
That sounds nice! |
For real? |
I am suddenly free tonight instead of tomorrow. |
Lol |
If you want to ride along on my errands I will swing by |
Can i just take advantage of you? |
Oh my, I just don't know whatever you mean |
Guess that's a no. Very sad. |
How will I know if you're taking advantage of me? |
Depends on if you want it or not |
What would you be okay with this evening, assuming I'm u claimed til 8 or so? |
*unclaimed |
Another meeting now... hurray |
And done again |
Might forage |
Im flippin freezing |
null |
That looks good! |
Thanks! |
Lots of brummel lol |
Whoa. Too posh for me lol |
Well, what say you? |
Good golly, is this Miss Molly? |
I triggered RLH |
Anyhoo, I can't stay out late. Way too big of a sus hit |
So what happened? |
She printed the tickets for our shows and started to put them on my desk. I said please don't put them here, they will get lost |
She says |
And I wasn't really happy with that so I told her I don't know, you printed them |
She got really frustrated and insisted she needs me to keep track of them, so I took them and put them somewhere else |
I didn't think to mention at the time |
And why can she not take responsibility for the simplest things? |
Im sorry babe |
My day turned sucky too |
Twins |
So true |
I am now required to be in office no less than 50% of my working days |
Fucking ay wtf |
I'm literally crying i am so upset |
Like how tf do i do this |
I'm so sorry |
Maybe i just up and quit |
I'm unhinged enough |
My advice is don't rage quit |
But that does suck and not in a good way |
Is L at the house or are you expecting him in the next hour or so? |
Neither |
I dont expect him til after 8ish |
Im still officially working but idgaf |
For sure |
Ok then I'm going to get these two errands done and I can stop by for a little bit if you want me to |
Yes please :) |
Ok I will let you know when I'm at Kroger |
Okay |
❤️ |
I might stay in my pajamas |
My hair is crispy |
And you know what this house looks like |
What should i expect? |
A kiss , a hug, clean hair! |
Well you can have 2/3 |
I bring all three! And I am three minutes away. Ok? |
Yes. See you soon |
2024-12-04T18:41:11 |
Wait did I miss the pjs? |
null |
Idk |
null |
What am I looking at exactly? |
I took my pants off |
That's a couch |
It's multipositional |
Premature ejection, just my luck |
null |
Hey i know him!!! |
Yep! |
Okay, here me out |
Say it any way you feel ok doing. I will listen and not judge |
If I'm in a predicament where someone's trying to be physically intimate with me and i don't want it but cant really say no, what the hell do i do? |
How do you know their intention? |
A lot of ways |
Ok do you have physical presence with them ever? |
Like in the same room |
But I should have said |
Embellish that or not, but be clear no is your answer |
I dont think that can be an answer anymore |
Why |
Ah fuck |
I'm not assuming anything |
Yes |
Am I supposed to name someone? Because I'm not |
Fwiw, i think you know more than youre giving yourself credit for |
null |
What are y9u waiting on me for? Sorry |
What are you avoiding? |
Btw my jacket smells like you... I love this |
I am trying you avoid telling you explicitly what's going on |
Ok |
So if I have this right, someone is making unwanted physical advances and "cannot be told no any longer" |
Do I have this right |
Yes |
Is it your expectation that I should understand who this is? |
Kind of |
Ok then |
And is that how you wanted to position this issue you're having with me? |
Sorry |
*issue you are having , as you've told it to me |
I'm trying to make it sound less bad than the situation is |
Welp that mission failed my dear |
Because now I have to wait for the next episode |
To find out more |
But you've placed the cliff hanger really well |
Should i just tell you in real words? |
+4 for plot development |
I'm being sarcastic sorry |
It's okay |
That's not great of me |
Yes please do tell me, plainly |
It's not that bad I promise |
What isn't? |
Just saying what you want to say |
It's ltr. |
I'd like to know |
Do you think he has clearly heard your wish? |
What is my wish in this scenario? |
No, ltr, I do not want |
Yes. Very much yes. |
Whether it's for that reason or any other, he should back down after being told no |
And you don't need to explainwhy |
To be clear, i will only see that instance as him punishing me. I think he sees it that way too, even if he would maybe use different words |
You're adults. We don't punish people, starting now |
Anyway, no means no |
Or you leave |
For your safety |
That is very literally my option |
I'm with you there sister |
I have to ask, divorce? |
I can't say what's right |
It's been brought up |
Yes I understand |
I don't know how you two get along. Would he be physically forceful or violent to you? |
Short answer is yes |
Yeah, leave |
Unless that's what you want |
My answer there sucks |
Its essesntially |
Ok |
That is not what i want my answer to be |
Good |
That's my opinion anyway |
But i dont know what to do or how to fix it |
Girl you realize no one else can do it for you. If you have to do it, you just do it. |
I'm sorry |
I know |
Im sorry i told you |
Well, sorry you have the knowledge is what i mean |
Fucking braindead people out there sis, I'm sorry you got tangled up with them. |
I never stood a chance. Who are we kidding |
100% |
I have a letter from my mother that gives details for the ultimatums i face if i get divorced |
Lord |
Letters from L with the same |
Or is this actual help, idk |
Is what help? |
This guy information from mother and L |
Guy??? |
It just says i lose everything and everyone |
I'm asking if the things they wrote are just annoying or are they helpful if, say, you were consulting with a divorce attorney |
Are they legal documents? |
Or threats |
This is a reason that giving myself a permanent life exit always needs to be a possibility for me, even if it's suuuuuuper low |
Fair |
I know this is all annoying |
What is annoying? |
Oops brb |
Sorry, back |
Yeah, all the annoying things are annoying. That was the brilliant insight you've been waiting for |
They just got home so i might suddenly be asleep. Idk. |
It's 24hours a day |
Surely the pets aren't annoying? |
2024-12-04T23:55:42 |
Sorry, legitimately fell asleep for a while |
Mmhmm |
I wish I could cuddle you |
Me too |
I hate that you're in this spot |
With nice soft kisses too |
Yes |
Ofc |
When i told my mother once or a few times about things that had happened (that were bad but not intimate), her responses have been |
Sigh |
And the end of those conversations is always "im sorry you're having a bad day" or "im sorry youre in such a bad mood" followed by "be niiiiiiiiice" |
I hate to say it, but she is not helpful |
Mazlow requires this |
You deserve it |
Don't ever think you don't |
Thank you |
I very ironically know exactly what i would say to and do for a friends in this situation but cant do it for myself |
I get that |
I logically understand i deserve it but also feel like there isnt a point and I'm already a lost cause |
Not to me you're not |
Thank you |
I mean that |
And not just as a FWB |
But as a friend |
I have to drop off babe |
Be good you yourself |
Same |
I love you |
I love you too |
And thank you |
And im sorry |
You're welcome |
No need to be sorry |
Be good |
To you |
You too |
null |
❤️ to a GIF |
Gnight love |
Sweet dreams |
❤️ to “ Sweet dreams ” |
2024-12-05T07:13:22 |
Hey |
Hi babe! |
How's it going? |
https://www.ohmiorganics.com/?fbclid=IwZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAR163eGVovleAe4w5kwb9AqCRwlg0RP_HDeFyuThTIyCt3XGiryoj-oUMOU_aem_CxrwWapNMpKJGAqWbhzD5A |
Oh cool! |
Looks like a nice mini trip :) |
There was a coffee place around there too. Idk if it still is, but that could be fun. They had delicious affogatos |
There also *might* be some thrift stores up and around there l9l |
O rly lol |
So what if I'm more job-miserable and quasi offended today? |
What's quasi offended mean? |
It means that there are 6 members on my "team ". 4 of them were specifically recognized with those emmy things. One girl sucks and we all know it, then there's me |
How special |
Who nominated the Emmy |
Christopher |
For all 4 |
I feel slapped in the face and hurt and mad and sad at the same time and i feel really stupid for it |
That is understandable |
Any chance he's just propping up their egos? |
I dont think so. But also... why essentially single out 2 people in a very small team and not even just say something lame and generic? |
Agreed |
So i just feel shitty about it all |
He is a man ,and sometimes we do stupid things |
But you know him better than I |
Yes. And i dont think it was oversight but i dont think it was malicious |
Ok. Still, I definitely would feel called out by omission. |
Yes. That's what I'm saying |
Yep |
I'm sorry |
They were submitted at the same time |
And 6 people is not too much more effort than 4 |
We gotta find you a new job |
Esp when only a few words of each are changed |
Among other things |
Yes |
I am stuck in this hellsscape for ever and ever |
Nope |
I do not enjoy being trapped |
Yes. That sucks |
I did not see anything open for which i would qualify on the job postings for AF |
And thought it was interesting that our posts for lansing are listed as "onsite" vs "hybrid" |
Yeah I saw that too |
Lovely |
I'm guessing that's a cya |
We just hired a guy who lives in Atlanta. He's not "hybrid" |
And we couldn't afford to bring him to Lansing for meetups |
Tell langlois to hire me |
We do lack female energy on my team |
Well kinda |
I bake and clean and remember birthdays! |
And think "what if" constantly |
And find the missing armor links |
Good, good |
And i just got a new cop6 of Walden that could easily land on his desk... |
He'd probably love that |
Does he like Japanese culture and whatnot? |
He loves all things cultural |
Not exaggerating |
And our good friend Elmo regularly goes there |
I have a cool poster that tries to teach the basics of kanji and preschool language |
Elmo could tell you! |
I can say a few things in japanese |
And am crazy good at origami and papercrafting |
You are crazy good at a lot of things, and smart and good humored as well |
I dont do well with inflexibility or micromanaging or any of the new nonsense |
For sure |
My brain is neurospicy and no one over here understands that i dont fit molds |
Correct. Because they all stopped emotional development when they were fucking 15 |
Yes |
It's incredible |
We love neurospicy |
We stock a lot of those |
We focus on things getting dine |
Like, i have to literally lay down on the floor with a hard foam roller so i dont need narcotics all day long and i cannot do that where i am |
Yes! |
I get shit done |
Not what color is your shirt today |
Thoroughly |
Okay but what ARE you wearing?? |
Who me? |
Exactly what you saw me in yesterday atm lol |
Until I wash up later |
Northface with a vasopressor stashed away? |
Yep! |
Hey, some guys carry contraceptives |
I carry blue pills |
One never knows |
I carry a lot |
Id rather you ingest your pharmaceuticals though, not just carry them in a pocket |
Lol I dare not take these daily. I'll drive myself crazy unless you are close by at all times! |
3ish miles |
Next time you have me for a long enough while maybe i just throw the whole bottlw in some wayer for ya |
Nonstop fun |
I mean I try to be upstanding, but that might be over the top |
Well silly me, i thought you wanted to feel places so deep no one else has ever been there |
But what do i know |
Oh I can't wait to paint your cervix |
And watch your face as I do it |
I'm a very hungry canvas, lol |
Practically twitching already |
And be so deep in you that you can't push me out |
I'll make sure you have to stay pushed in while i pulse and squeeze and contract all over you |
OMG I am squirming over here |
Just imagine the inhale i need to take as you go in, millimeter by wet soft millimeter into me, until youre realllllllly deep. And i stop breathing in, i rest and hold the air, and you go juuuuuust a little more to touch the tip of your brush up in me as far as anyone can go |
I know you can imagine how my mouth opens in the absurdity of what I'm feeling and for you to be the first to hit those spots and really be with me in that moment |
Imagine a bit more and i bet you'll see the light flicker in my eyes when they widen and the gasps i try and take it when I'm full of you |
I live for this moment |
Every sense, every touch, taste, smell, sight, and sound |
I want to see ecstasy on your face, followed by peace |
I know it's there |
And I want to hold you as you move through the entire experience |
Yessssss |
I think at some point your arms will make their way under mine to hold me with your hands clasping my scapulas. In ky mind, you can still thrust in this position |
Yes, oh yes. We can keep going |
I want to be with you now so, so much |
Sorry! Talking to my dad |
Ok now you :) |
I'm working 🙄 |
How's your dadM |
? |
Much better. I didn't realize they kept him in the hospital the first night, but he is home now and says he actually feels pretty good but for the tail end of the cold/COVID that he caught. And I was wrong--this is his third round with COVID. |
Thank you |
I am much relieved |
That's good! |
You are busy tomorrow? Alternative is platonic adventures |
Kinda busy but might cut out early. I have to take doggo to the vet at 1400 I think |
Tomorrow? |
And you never told me what the doggo emergency was earlier this week |
Right, tomorrow |
He had cyst at the base of his tail that we didn't notice until it popped the other evening. It was a big bloody mess |
Uh-oh 🤭 |
Not sure why that face is there |
Yeah 🫤 |
https://www.etsy.com/listing/1825579773/ive-had-one-coffee-yes-20oz-stainless?ref=share_v4_lx |
Lol nice! |
Omg i just git hit with the worssssstttttt tire wave |
Tire? |
Tired |
Swimming tires? |
Sleepy |
Yes well |
Hit the wake wall |
Yeah |
Maybe i should move from the same spot from 5 hours ago |
Perhaps |
Don't do what my dad did |
I do what i want lol |
Hey now! |
I will lick some sense into you |
Mmmmmm |
Lick the sense out of me sounds better |
Hehe |
2024-12-05T13:10:39 |
How are you faring with that wake wall |
Got some foods & caffeine |
Cool! |
I forgot to eat lol |
Making oatmeal now |
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Cheesy noodles and massacred mushrooms |
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Bete.... dumb or beast?? |
Yes |
Actually she's really smart, just nutso |
2024-12-05T16:04:07 |
How's it going? |
Not bad. You? |
Pretty good |
Yay! |
Just got myself some iced coffee and half a cookie |
Woo! |
I am going on a book crawl downtown on saturday. Would be lovely if you joined but you do you |
Well i made it but yes iced coffee |
I kind of avoided coffee for lots of months. Not really intentionally but subconscious does its own thing |
For sure |
Plus ça change... |
Well coffee was astrophys's lifeblood |
Lol I don't doubt it |
So i couldn't drink it for a while |
He drank his black |
Ew |
Heh |
If I can't have actual dairy, I have black as well |
But I prefer with cream |
Im sorry you dont like happy caffeine and prefer more bitterness in your l8fe |
And now I put milk in tea too (when I have tea). I used to be a purist with tea. |
It is happy caffeine! |
I like my beer bitter too |
Nah fam |
Guess I like everything that way lol |
Wow my mind got dirty real quick there |
Lolol |
Yours didnt?? |
Maybe a titch |
Weird |
Grey's Anatomy book (you saw it here) - yes or no for you? |
Aren't you free yet? |
And Saturday could easily be h4h or holiday shopping for you to attend to |
I am free! |
At the moment |
😊 |
I will relieve you of Gray's. Ty! |
Yay! |
I am significantly increasing your library btw |
Lol |
How do you feel about vintage science books? |
No wrong answers |
I am intrigued by the vintage science |
If i locate them, i will show you them |
Cool! Ty |
I be good librarianologist |
Bibliophile, among other philes |
You think i phile other things? |
Bonus: i have a tote bag with the bibliophile definition in acrylic lol |
Wanna hit up a used book sale? |
Nice! |
I could enjoy this activity |
But I need to be very cautious |
Where is it? |
Okemos |
My only concern is this is exactly the sort of thing David would go to |
You can absolutely pass then |
Well he's sick today. Maybe I will find out about his social calendar tomorrow |
Poor man |
Lol |
I remember-learned something today |
https://www.kroger.com/p/dorot-gardens-frozen-crushed-ginger-cubes/0079437610014 |
Also just read about those and it seems like a cool product line |
Oh interesting! |
You don't like ginger right? |
But having nice herbs on tap is a real treat |
One of the few things I grew really well in hydro was parsley |
And cilantro to a lesser degree |
Tried to start oregano but it didn't oregana-go |
When i have leftover fresh herbs i put them in a designated ice cube tray in olive oil for future use |
And now i am freeeeeeee |
What color folder? |
Just pick |
Purple! |
So what now, |
? |
I'm puttering with the aquarium |
2024-12-05T20:10:42 |
What's news |
2024-12-05T22:45:32 |
Not too much. Just getting up from a nap |
I'm going to sleep now :) |
Have fun! |
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2024-12-06T06:45:08 |
Guten morgen! |
Hieeeee!!! |
How wAs your night? |
Pretty good! Tons of pain rn but that's just hiw it is sometimes |
Pretty good here |
Maybe you need a massage? |
I for sure do |
Cool cool |
What's happening over there? |
Cats are eating |
I am sneezing for some reason |
Not so quiet lol |
Awww poor babe |
Just RL today? |
Ironically, RL could also be me |
Oh! The kitchen island has been uncovered :) |
Nice job! |
Thanks! |
And a good amount of counter |
Do me next! |
I will gladly do you! |
Yay! |
Maybe you do me first |
Show me how to have a good time |
Maybe I could eat at the island |
Depends on how you feel about heavy lifting to earn your snickity snack |
Hmm |
Somewhere circa 165# |
I rly? |
I'm officially 180 |
Congrats! |
I am officially 164pointidk |
Maybe I'm officially fat bastard now lol |
Not even a little bit! |
Fat fuck? |
Based on height to weight ratio, i am the fatter fuck.... |
You are pleasingly plump |
I would rather be perfectly petite |
I'll just have to exercise you more |
I'll be waiting |
I have a confession |
Yes, monsieur? |
I was looking at your pictures last night |
Mmhmmmmm |
I hope you were still enjoying them |
Indeed |
I'm glad |
So much in fact, I came harder than I can remember for some time |
I lovvvvvvvvvve that |
It's true |
Thank you for the confession! |
You're welcome |
So, why? What made it good? |
Just thinking about being with you fr made it so good |
Oh, good |
My cervix is very lonely |
Aww |
I'll have to say hello soon |
You better |
And my g spot is getting cold. Better give her some love |
I'll warm her for ya |
Think youll find her? |
I know where to look now |
You seem confident in that |
How do you know? Fr |
Maybe your conscious mind doesn't remember this, but I've locked in at least two, maybe three hot spots |
Im aware, i literally dont know how you know |
It's a cool thing that happens when we pay attention to each other |
But what do i do? |
Do i pay enough attention to what you like? |
You sure do! |
That's good |
But anyway, my brain needs to know what corporal reactions i give off involuntarily |
Collectively, sounds, words, movements, breathing |
Okay, thanks |
How yummy! |
Wanna know whatbreally embarrasses me in those times? |
Yes |
If I'm against your face or fingers, when i basically fuck them with animalistic humping |
Welcome to what it feels like to be a guy |
Omggggg |
Lol |
It's impulsive |
And it loves positive feedback |
That act is physical positive feedback |
Yep |
But if you're okay with it, i might let loose and go at it harder sometime |
You should! |
I love it |
Okay :) |
Everything embarrasses me |
I don't see embarrassment |
That's true |
And that pleases me |
Have you seen me shake? |
Indeed |
A few times now |
😊 |
Unless i tell you otherwise, i like/need your pressure and contact "after". So you on top of me, cuddling me, whatever. It's a lot of new stimulation and intensity and human touch and pressure helps me be calmer |
I love that, and I'm glad you told me. I love holding you. It's such a satisfying feeling for me |
❤ |
I dont usually say anything feedback-wise for what i like and want. It makes me feel selfish and greedy. This is kind of nice though |
😊 |
You can be selfish and greedy with me. I like it |
Thank you 🙂 |
You're welcome lover |
Okay i just used my inhaler and basically got dizzy from how much my lungs let air in |
Metal tray? |
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Good old O2! |
Want it? |
Is it sturdy? It looks like maybe it is |
It is 👍 |
Is it nominally for cooking do you think, or some other purpoy |
Purpose |
I dont really know |
Fair. I'll take it! |
Yay! |
Are you pro msu, indifferent, etc? |
Disinterested is more like it |
Gotcha thx |
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Vous le voulez? |
Non merci |
Da |
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? |
? Indeed |
Designed to hold tealights or votives |
Lol looks like an obstacle course for cats lol |
2024-12-06T12:11:05 |
Nah, they're small-ish |
It's a no, then? |
No thanks! |
2024-12-06T15:16:20 |
How is the day? |
Hey babes! |
It's been good |
Just got back from an estate sale |
Ya busy? |
Now, i mean |
I'm at Kroger sorta |
Sorta? |
Okau shro |
Just pulled in the parking lot |
Hope it's tons of fun! |
Why, facial tissue of course |
Hmmm how long would it take me to walk there.... |
Bahahahahahaha |
Only the best |
Well i happen to be alone for just a few hours |
Yeah? L running SIL back home? |
Oh no |
They're going to Moana 2 |
OIC lol |
Totally fine if you dont want to be the first and only one to make out on my couch though |
And im sure my back can rub itself |
Omw |
Wait, for real? |
Mayyyyybe |
Well fuck I'll leave the door unlocked then |
2024-12-06T18:30:30 |
Heya |
Why hello sweets |
How ya doin? |
Not t bad |
My shirt smells like you lol |
I love that |
Awww |
Got something to show you |
Ugh oh am I in trouble |
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Those are from 10 years ago |
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Those are 14 years ago |
So yes.... i used to be much smaller |
WOW |
Such a cutie then too! As if I thought it might be different lol |
I definitely would have considered abducting you |
And those are after I'd gained 40 or 50 pounds |
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Those are just 2 cool pics i took that i found |
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Wait I don't have 40 or 50 pounds what's that |
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Weirdo |
Yes |
Wait, yes was to what? |
Hahahhaa |
Wait, this is on my list |
FR though, i have no idea what we're conversing about now |
How are you my dear |
Confused still |
Just fine |
I forgot part of the reason for adult step children here now is delayed birthday |
Lol |
But they will cook, which is awesome |
Lol |
And they got me a cool lathe tool so that's nice |
Anyway, what did you say yes to just a bit ago? |
And my buddy is at my side |
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Lol I'm fuzzier than he is |
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He wuvvvs you |
I said yes |
Because |
Right |
... |
You're not going to tell me?? 🥺 |
Babe |
There's a long birthday goofy thing going on |
Sorry I had no time to go inform you earlier |
Super fun! |
This will go on for some more time maybe 30 ish |
No worries |
Ttys ❤️ |
Hey |
Hey, what's up? |
I'm a bit bewildered by all the ADD |
ADHD |
love it all but omg |
Are you talking about me or about the people in your domicile? |
The latter |
They have one decibel and that's loud |
Oh, no |
And often, they talk amongst themselves and simultaneously |
They did bring me cool things |
And I appreciate that |
What!!! |
Holy moly tho |
One sec though - |
I age like 2 weeks when they come around |
You know I'm more neurodivergent than sooooo many other people you'll ever come across, right? |
I do not doubt it |
Imagine three of you -- well, 2 |
Right |
Having a conversation between your ND selves |
I actually know how to facilitate that lol |
But really, you have to imagine three of you talking simultaneously |
Yeahhhhh no thanks |
Hahaha |
This is a thing here |
I really want to be part of it now! |
Usually it kills me lol |
But they did me a solid and I appreciate it |
Honestly the most I've felt in a long time |
But |
You |
Tellllllll me |
It's like a bad video game honestly |
What part do you want to know? |
And I can still smell |
From your house |
It's nice |
1. What was "yes" earlier? |
I am sincere |
Oh yes |
The yes |
Right |
Somehow you retain this 💕 |
You are not going to like my answer |
I have zero recollection what i had even asked |
Ok! |
How is your vibe |
Was it about height and weight ratios? |
How are you? |
I am feeling spiffy babe, no sarc |
Haha you were asking why 😐 said weirdo |
Idk where face man came from |
I would really love to wallow in the sheets with you rn |
Idk why you want to be so good to me |
But I love it |
And I love turning you on |
You do an unbelievable job |
I mean this nicely - you did the least good job today of any of the days and it was still fantastic |
Ok |
No sorry |
Really |
Really, no sorry |
I hate that I ... Cant |
Bc I want soooo much |
I have fun! |
That's me too |
I hope you wont just give up with me |
Really though, if there's literally anything you want or that i can do to help, I'm more than happy to |
I dont want you resenting me for being the one who has more happy endings |
Whoa whoa whoa |
There are no hard or difficult feelings from me to you babe |
I enjoy every moment and have no regrets |
And I want so much for you to be happy |
Does it really not cause you physical discomfort? Whej you don't... release |
Maybe It's not like you imagine ? |
I can try to explain |
I am Soo Soo turned on by you |
I love your touch |
And how you feel close to me |
And you do such nice things for me |
And I feel all of that and it makes me crazy for you |
It's like there's a chemical shutoff at the end of the line |
That idk wtf this even came from |
But I am positive |
Because I think I know this part of my body and mind |
The feels I feel for you are huge |
And idk drugs killed the last mile so to speak |
I don't like it |
It makes me very self conscious |
I am so sorry |
And feeling like impotent |
But hey |
As it turns out |
I can do things by myself, uh, with porn |
So off you'll let me |
If |
Maybe I can find that vibe with you too |
And I am totally serious that thinking about you |
And I wanna,!!! |
I want soososoooosooosossooo many things with you |
I'm kind of fading though |
I really want to continue from this spot though please |
Sweetest dreams, my favorite babe |
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Love you babe sleep well! |
I love you too |
You sleep well |
❤️ to “ You sleep well ” |
2024-12-07T10:48:37 |
Good morning! |
Hello!! |
How goes it? |
So far so good! |
You? |
What are you up to today? |
Same. Not what I am going to do |
Well there are a zillion things to do around town today if you need ideas |
I'm omw downtown, you're always welcome to join me shopping, lunch cafe, whatever |
👍 to “ I'm omw downtown, you're always welcome to join me shopping, lunch cafe, whatever ” |
2024-12-07T13:21:49 |
Hi, my phone is being weird. Wondering if you can see this text and whst time? |
Yep, got it at 1321 |
Cool thx! |
2024-12-07T17:23:28 |
Heyyyy |
Hi babe! How was your expedition? |
It was good! |
Yay! |
I am having a good day as well |
I've been tidying up my hobby space, vacuumed too |
Started my aquarium filter project |
Which I kinda messed up on step one lol. I can fix it but it'll have to wait until tomorrow |
2024-12-07T21:08:20 |
Sorry! Naptime called |
Yay! I hope you had a good nap! |
I went to hardware store and Michaels in Frandor |
And came home and continued filter project |
Now am rinsing sand and other materials I will be using in the tank or filter |
Cool, cool |
Boys still there? |
No they left mid afternoon |
I also flipped my desk |
Literally |
But I took everything off first |
And I put not much back |
Ok... |
null |
Easy peasy |
Tell meeeeee |
Start with 3 piles: keep, goes out of the basement, discard |
This makes perfect sense |
Ty |
You'll also need a scratch pad to check ink |
Check ink |
Cheque Inc.? |
Wtf just happened |
If it's questionable and cheap, you throw it away because you can easily and quickly replace it |
Right on |
I think I have most marking devices well constrained on the bench top |
Comment va tu? |
Comme ci comme ca |
Et tu? |
Ça va bien |
Donc |
Comment |
Euh.... je ne le comprends?? |
Oh my! |
What?? |
Well I wanted fannintutti |
I trust most things are smooth and nice for you? |
Quite the double entendrist this evening, aren't we! |
OMG I didn't really mean it |
The doublevay |
Rntendreway |
But i sure do wish you smooth and silky nights replete with tactile deliciousness |
Strange choice of preposition |
I preposition as I please |
I mean pronoun, sorry |
Imma lick you |
Still? |
Double |
This is pleasing and a little confusing |
I hope you can sooooooon |
I aims to p&c |
You aims too |
Why do you like c? |
Hold up gotta flip the record |
Back |
Can you rephrase question |
The first question is how much meaning those pronouns had? |
Pronouns, you say |
Yes |
You said "i sure do wish you smooth...." |
Oh that's a lovely quote |
And 100% true |
As you may wish for such also |
Damn |
Mmm |
Ton prob |
I have to mop this room lol |
So you dont yet realize why i was alarmed at the knee jerk mini panic that that wish set off for me |
Lol |
I dunno |
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Choose 1 or 2 |
Because in my little abadoned-self brain, You only wanted those for me, not between us |
Your mops are weird |
I want best mop between us always |
Now choose |
Why weird? |
Purpose of mop? |
I thought they were halved |
null |
This is well ventilated and warm |
Thanks |
100% factory spec |
You like rope mop? |
I think rope mop for firay pass, yes |
First |
Ope well I chose the wonder puff |
The floor isn't that bad. I vacuumed it earlier today |
Then good choice |
Good times |
Mopping complete! |
So much better |
Excellent |
Woo! |
😊 |
How are ya babe? |
Okay, i think. You? |
Doing well ty |
What are you doing? |
Trying to clean |
And you? |
Just cleaned up a record lounge find |
Trying to fix my electroscope |
What is? |
Emmhmm |
Yes |
https://youtu.be/IYV4_O_9hN0?si=zuVrdYYwCL-lyP5q |
Sorry this took so long |
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Voobaha |
100% sure this means nothing to you |
Thanks for aharing anyway! |
So the second reference plays a significant role in my adolescence |
There was the dude "Andrew" in my French class in 7th grade |
And for class trip we went to Québec City |
Is thar kid you? |
Via rail from Windsor |
No, he went by Andrew |
He was rich kid |
I was poor baby |
Keep in mind this was 1980 |
So he and I both had Walkman |
Amazeballs tech |
But he had the latest |
And greatest |
And he had this album on yape |
I have no idea how |
He always had wacked out shit |
And this album was like the soundtrack for 7th graders en tour a Québec |
And au train |
Tres chouette et cool |
Also |
At the hotel Clarendon |
Band in the basement |
Grand Cochon |
Lolol |
Mdr |
Hmm? |
Oll |
Lol |
Dying of laughter |
Help meee |
Merd? |
Mort de rire |
Oll |
Comprends? |
Lol |
Well |
Alors |
https://youtu.be/cn73Wtem0No?si=lIa67MPp0PWUSwip |
This is the track that got recognition |
Not normal radio mind you |
Have you heard of "lost in space"? |
Yes |
Perhaps you've heard "danger Will Robinson" |
Right |
One half of this band is the guy |
Oh cool |
Lol |
It's absurd |
Sooooooo |
I really wish I could smother you about now |
Oh weird, same |
Clothes off |
Blankets in |
On |
Do you prefer to be face up or down? |
Kinda depends on the rest of the scenario. Probably up |
I just want to lay with you |
Close |
That sounds really nice |
I really want to hold you all night long |
I hope that happens |
https://open.spotify.com/track/4ie6eNxW4v22HshVoKN2yS?si=9UCudSoXTVSz712fHzsZYQ |
Lol me and my mates sang this |
At BLFAC |
senior year |
There is video somewhere |
I think? It was 1986 so sweet |
No there's a Polaroid |
Maybe I have it idk |
Awwww |
Edgy |
Lol |
Ololol |
And a few more for the lady |
Ol |
Well lol |
Hahaha |
Here we are |
Yes |
Tell me something |
And here we are not |
Always |
I read all of Dewey 520 |
Twice |
By age 10 |
That's amazing! |
That check out stamp? |
That was me |
I just loved astronomy |
My parents bought all kinds of field guides |
Birds |
Flowers |
Insects |
Stars |
Love em all really |
But the stars really grabbed me |
I love field guides |
Yes |
They are so good |
I always pick them up when i see them |
I should have anticipated that lol! |
Si |
So |
Yes? |
You seemed very happy |
When you claimed that you had me figured out |
When was this? |
Friday |
Roughly 36 hours ago |
Really? |
Yes you seemed well pleased |
And rightly so |
What was it? |
We were talking about figuring out people |
And you claimed |
How quickly you figured me out |
Sorta |
I need so much more information |
You were actually present |
With me |
I believe you |
No worries |
I just loved the way you said it |
You made a face even |
Cute af |
What did i figure out, then |
I member things good |
You informed me |
That you accurately assessed my status |
And you were correct! |
Status ... ??? |
Dammit I should have got sherbet |
My status |
I believe the phrase you used was |
How did you know? |
Ohhhhh that one! |
Am I that slutty? |
I kind of just "knew" |
Ty that makes me feel squishy |
Lol |
What were your sexual impressions of me? |
Mmm |
You took me to your office |
And closed the door |
And told me to sit on your desk facing you |
And idk what happened next |
Not quite |
I think you took advantage of me |
When you pulled my hair, I forgot who I was |
But you were so impatient |
"no more talking" you said |
Yet here we are |
Yes |
You stuffed my face right into your belly |
I didn't know... Am I supposed to go north.. or South? |
But you were hungry |
Even after I did eat you anyway |
2024-12-08T09:03:54 |
GMorning |
2024-12-08T12:57:52 |
Oh my goodness I slept til 1300!! |
Yep |
Wow |
Wasn't expecting that |
Lol |
Imma get one of those rolling carts with plastic bins to replace my pile of sundries |
null |
Love the Ō |
Great choice! |
2024-12-08T17:10:56 |
Hi |
O hai |
How've you been? |
Pretty good |
How is it going? |
Meh. I think ok |
What are you doing with your week off? |
Well I'd love to have you for lunch |
And I will be working on the aquarium |
And I have more organizing to do |
And really want to visit Okemos h4h |
Williamston...? |
I'm all yours wednesday & Thursday |
If you'd like to come over tomorrow after work, you're welcome to (just for a few hours) |
Yay! |
Maybe we can go to hab together |
Rehab lol |
My angelic twin |
Angelic?? |
I would love to do that and much more with you |
Yay! |
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I do not |
Yeah Imma put me rocks into them |
This is way over my head |
null |
Okayokayokay |
My what now |
What kind of bags |
As you can see, I've washed a tub of me balls |
Orgasm bags I believe |
Not so much |
Too scratchy |
We call that 'exfoliant' |
Bye bye folia |
WESCR@CHU |
I think i need to lay down |
OK |
well I hope you have a nice nap |
Wont be a nap, i am just overstimulated |
Understood |
Why do you say understandable? |
I can easily imagine myself in a place where I would feel overstimulated |
Oh. Yes. |
It's a thing, the Sunday scaries |
I have to go to the office, that's one thing |
It honestly makes me want to call in and/or quit |
Tuesday is our "team" "party" and i am not prepared at all and sont want to go to that either |
I feel like work is just descending me into madness faster and faster |
Tis the season, but yes I agree |
It isn't work so much as the infringing i feel now |
:/ |
I am in kitchen duty mode for a little bit |
2024-12-08T22:37:25 |
Kiss your neck now |
❤ |
I sleep now |
2024-12-09T00:45:21 |
https://photos.app.goo.gl/xjiDiq5PVrpGdmiE6 |
Finally, self portraits I don't hate! |
Ill check them out in the morning, thanks! Sweet dreams |
2024-12-09T07:18:33 |
Hey lovedoodle! |
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That's olliecat last year. Literally up in the tree, like a foot from the top |
null |
Current status |
2024-12-09T09:57:29 |
Nice reindeer :) |
Oh it's a whole look |
null |
Are you busy around 5? |
Most likely not |
Wanna get dinner? Go somewhere? Sneak into the office and find me? |
Yeah! |
For real? |
I want to something! I'll see what's possible a little closer to time |
Cool cool |
Might even trick you into going to WM or 5B to find some subpar gifts |
Woo! |
2024-12-09T13:14:31 |
Literal nonstop calls. 11 in queue with 0 available rn |
Fuuuuuccccckkkkkkk this noise |
How are you? |
I am doing well |
You have no idea |
Anyway, was there a decision on this evening? You can pass altogether |
If I can escape for a minute I will :) |
Right |
Should be fine, but I won't be able to stay out long. |
Any ideas for what we're doing? |
Remember when you said you didn't think fake meat was a good idea for me? Howcome? |
At that moment I think I was thinking about the unknown spice factor... Maybe? |
Mmhmmm |
Or maybe the high sodium content |
Na na na |
Did you know i require more sodium than average? |
Na! |
Chronic hypotension |
Super fun |
What's your verdict? |
Na |
You can have some of my hypertension |
Where do you want me to meet you and when? |
What did you want to do? |
Idk. Quick bite? Quick store trip? |
Yeah that's cool |
Im still livin it up downtown (but jot so much) |
Quitting time....ish. yayyyy |
So am i headed chez moi, chez vous (lol), or somewhere else? |
Au ma voiture? |
Overall |
I am in front of the building |
For real? |
Your next move is to enter my vehicle |
Yeah |
Ooooh tricky |
Let me mark down my escape! |
I can pull in the circle drive any moment |
Je viens |
Thank you again!!! I hope your car still has all its parts. Sorry my neighborhood driveways suck |
Lol |
Well does it? |
Idk, but I did get home so there's that |
Well yes, that's always a plus |
Please go take my shower for me |
That's a new one lol |
Might have accidenrally rubbed my leg a little raw today on one side |
null |
Im like a damn cricket |
Dang dude |
Yeah.... the phones arent for me i guess |
I think i really will take a shower now |
Feel welcome to leave me a very detailed itinerary of your choicest ideas for the upcoming days that you have me all to yourself |
Perhaps more of a menu |
There's get high and fuck |
Optional porn viewing |
There rehab |
For people like us |
There's get lunch and take a nap lol |
I asked what youuuuuuu want off this menu |
Or any secret menu there may be |
I'll take all of the above |
Good with me! |
And I should look in earnest for a gift for rlh |
I am still way too overstimulated from today and would just love to fuck out brains out rn |
Do you need ideas? |
I'm always pro mega mall lol |
I do need ideas |
And i have massive online search skills |
Make or purchase? |
Purchase |
Practical, sentimental, fun? |
I'd say practical or sentimental |
Sorry, no |
Practical or fun |
What activities does she like? |
She's mostly un-activity |
Painting, reading, watching movies, textiles, stained glass, latch hook rugs, calligraphy, etc? Or something she's expressed interest in? A recent series she's fallen in love with, word puzzles.... |
Silly me just remembered I'm supposed to be making something for her and Toni |
Basically a simple wood frame , but with nails all around the top face, for yarn work and maybe string art? |
So I have the tacks (nails) now |
But I need to pick out wood |
Rehabitat? |
Def worth a look! |
Back in a bit |
2024-12-09T22:07:45 |
Sorry about that |
Np |
2024-12-10T05:53:08 |
null |
Hey you! |
Hello |
What's up? |
Just you babe! |
Awww |
Why are you awake? |
Lol that's a reasonable question |
I just woke up early |
What are you doing today? |
Some cleaning (upstairs probably) and trying out some new gadgets on the lathe |
Good luck on the line today! |
Line, lunch, team event |
https://open.spotify.com/track/4uLnk7e2JHxDP9eG7vXyPq?si=Or8tBcEWSciLlLZclChMiA |
Lol |
Apparently i was mistaken yesterday... there were 9 of us answering phones. All day. The whole company. |
Wtaf |
Yep |
I am super shaky this morning |
Just imagine me laying on you |
Ohhh i wish |
I just want to make it stop |
2024-12-10T10:05:57 |
Omg kill me now |
But hey, kmow what today is?? |
What is it? |
2024-12-10T11:31:57 |
Dewey decimal day |
Yay!!! |
null |
Soooooooooo |
Yoooooo |
Whatcha doin? |
Lathin and makin coffee hbu |
Ripping my hair out and multilotsatasking |
Hoping you're daydreaming about... stuff |
You mean like stripping plucky, cute goth girls and having my way with them? |
2024-12-10T15:51:12 |
Ummmmm |
I escaped! Sort of |
Want some maybe good news? |
Hope youre gaining tons of weight to lay on me |
Oh I'm a pig for sure |
Nah mate |
But I'm still super shaky and it fucking annoying |
Wow |
Adrenaline |
Dang girl I am sorry |
Its totally fine, imliterally jist excited and happyish now |
Annnnnyway |
Yes! |
Did you want the maybegood news? |
It's either good or neutral |
Yes please |
L has his date night with your fave tomorrow night |
Aye? |
Mr B whassup wassup |
You understand these implications? |
https://youtu.be/llGJheQnkDQ?si=85COtIvT7kWmfy9J |
In a bowling alley, so i can check that later |
Anyway, proper implications? |
We change the locks and tell L he's on his own now |
Wellllll |
It means i have 12 hours |
You rock |
You. Can. Have . Them. |
Yay! |
Ok I need to think about my escape plan. I think she has an appointment tomorrow but I'm not sure when |
Sounds like you should find that out |
Like now |
Thursday too? |
It's not entirely material when the Appt is but it will help to know |
Don't worry babe |
But i have to know when to be ready |
Would you prefer 10, 12, or 14 heures? |
24 |
Me too |
Meeee tooo |
But at which time would be convenient for me to arrive? |
My wife is at Frandor. Quite possibly Kroger |
null |
I am finally home :) |
I am so sorry for neglecting you, babe |
No worries babe! |
Well then, what'll it be? |
It'll be what now? |
What do you want to do tomorrow? |
Heyyy |
So |
Before noon is best eta |
Hours free |
After 9am for me is good |
Perfect |
But what do you want |
Let's see |
I'll have the you |
And a little extra you |
Hmm |
Do you desire a materially productive way |
*day |
Or a self help kind of day |
I want to know very expressly what you want tomorrow |
I'm revolting |
Nope |
I'm acting up |
No, you're not |
Step 1 - you get here |
Yep |
Yes exactly! |
You are very smart, but you knew this already |
Did you just want a list of what my very greedy self wants if you let me? |
Oh yes please |
You're serious? |
Inebriate |
My kinda hump day!!! |
Deal |
See you around 10? |
Sure |
What're you doing between now and then? |
Listening to music, fixing my filter lol which I just broke, and perhaps finishing a file handle I turned an hour ago |
And yiut |
Yooooo |
Cleaning |
Just started a massive headache so idk what to do about that |
Any idea yet what mood tomorrow might be? |
So in love and missing you! |
Awwwsss |
So no idea between more sexual or sensual |
This I cannot predict |
But i assure you I will come with a spirit of adventure |
Hahaha |
I'll tell you that i actually feel a little strange rn. Nervous, i think |
I feel needy. I want to be loved and feel it. Crazy amounts of kisses all over me. You know the places |
Can you tell me why you're nervous? |
I dont know why |
Ok |
You can always tell me if it helps to talk |
I am looking forward to kissing your delicious neck |
Thank you |
Yes please |
Yes |
And perhaps licking it as well |
That sounds good |
Do you want to watch porn? |
Yes |
Sure? I feel weird asking, but that might just be me still trying to shed old ways of thinking |
I already said so, if you dont believe me. It's in my list |
No worries |
No expectations either |
And it can always be shit canned if we don't like it |
I want to give you a very broad overview of porn, based on my sentiments |
To make this less mysterious and hopefully more approachable |
Okay, yes please |
Ok good |
I put porns (?) in three or perhaps four categories, which are kinda mutually exclusive, but not entirely so |
Ok |
Categories are |
Another flavor is production value, which is really across all lines but can influence the experience |
I definitely lean toward sensual and explicit, and usually shun derogatory |
What are some explicit types? |
There's no judgement |
Usually very close-up anything. Can be solo f or multiple people |
What about content? I know it's not "for the plot" but what do you like and not like? |
It really depends on the day |
Mf or FF massage |
Girls showing off |
Ffm or sometimes mmf action |
Trope is the word i wanted |
Sometimes I go tropeless |
Lol |
I don't always want a "plot" |
But sometimes, sure |
Dommy mommy landlord |
Fix it guy at your service |
Hey let's just fuck on the beach |
All manner of step- sis/mom/dad etc |
How are you going to decide what we watch tomorrow? |
I will suggest something and if you don't like it we move on |
I want you so so so much rn |
Aww |
I can't wait to see you! |
I can't wait either |
How are you feeling now? |
I dont really know |
Mostly okay |
I can kind of identify why I'm nervous, i think |
Anything you want to say about it? |
It's like I'm trying to tell myself I'm allowed to ask for what i want and I'm allowed to want to feel good |
Yes, yes you are |
I'll be honest that I'm still not convinced all the way |
I know |
But guess what |
I like when you talk to me or ask me things |
❤️ |
❤ |
Tomorrow is safe day |
Non judgemental |
Do as suits you |
I kind of thought they all werw with you |
Ofc |
Yes they are |
Did you mean something different? |
Nope, that's exactly what I meant |
It was just a reminder |
Thank you |
Do you understand though that there are a decent amount of things that i probably wont say because of how judged i already feel? Not from you, even, just from myself |
You bet I do |
It's ok |
This is where we are |
I have mixed feelings on some of those acts anyway |
Well |
Let whatever part of it go that you want to |
Remember whatever part you want to remember |
From here, and move on |
It's not that, actually |
Lol |
You're always welcome to tell me about these things, if it helps |
I feel like I inadvertently created a no-fly zone of topics by telling you about my sexuality "boundaries" |
I think it would be exceptionally hot to be controlled (?) By you in some ways |
Yeah? |
Yes |
Like very literally controlled, up close and personal? |
I think i already told you i want to be pinned down or pressed against a wall |
You clasp8ng your hand over my mouth |
Maybe we need more explicit bedroom talk |
Grab me and flip me or maneuver my limbs or whatever |
Lol I like hearing you chirp |
But I get it |
I want to feel more passion from you |
I like that you like me making noise |
:) |
I'm game! |
Might be a little awkward at first |
But I trust |
I'm not used to dirty talk believe it or not |
Why awkward? |
I have no idea how to dirty talk |
I trust you will understand this is me with passion expressed differently than I am used to, but it's genuine |
So I might be awkward-er lol |
I am awkward as fucckkkk |
I don't think so actually |
Lol |
We're both so awkward |
Let's fuck like bunnies |
I can't wait |
Maybe like bunnies |
But maybe I'll want slower |
I have no idea rn |
I usually do |
Slow and deep |
I do like feeling every millimeter of your vagina |
I dont think youve gone as slow as i ultimately want yet. Is that okay? |
That's ok! |
I'm surprised I'm a good way |
How? |
I just didn't sense you wished for slower |
Well maybe I did sense it a little? |
When I first penetrate you |
Like, first ever or first of the day? |
First of the day |
Perhaps I could take a little more time? |
I want slower than slow. Like, very literally mm by mm |
Oh yummy!!! |
I didnt think you'd want that |
Not to worry babe |
It's not always top of mind in the moment |
But |
There's a lot to enjoy |
When we both get to react to |
Yesssss |
I really wabt to feel you all the way in, then just a little more after i adjust to your entrance |
Oh wow babe |
The way i imagine it, your hands will be up above my shoulders, by my ears, you slide all the way in, hold while i breathe you in, we have eye contact, then close them so we can kiss. You raise yourself back up and tilt your shoulders up and back to gain that extra push through your hips. Then you watch my face as you go deeper than anyone else, ever |
My legs are weak now and i have no doubt theyll shake when you do this |
Mmmmmm |
I want to feel you twitching outside and inside |
I want you to hit the spots you know how to fins |
Yes yes yes |
Ok I am at once fading and super geeked about tomorrow! |
I've going to get some sleep |
Good luck |
null |
Thank you lol |
You sleep well - i love you too |
null |
❤️ to “ You sleep well - i love you too ” |
2024-12-11T09:24:54 |
Hiya |
Hey sweetie |
How's it going? |
Good good |
I'm going to get in the shower soon and then on my way to you!! |
Toni just got here |
The girls are going to lunch |
Oh i see |
I just git out of the shower lol |
Dang I missed it |
Lol |
Am i supposed to be telling you you can come over? |
Can I come in and play? |
Are you already here? |
On my way now |
Sure thing |
2024-12-11T17:09:42 |
I made it! |
Same to you! |
Cant wait to hear the highlights of the day |
Well I know the highlight of my day, without question, was playtime with my mistress |
Oh silly boy.... i want to know what the highlights if that were, of course |
Fucking you from behind is one |
Im so glad you liked that |
I have a yoga mat ee can bring out if you need more traction |
Heyy! That sounds fun |
Anything else? |
I immensely enjoyed finding different ways to wiggle deep into you :) |
I thought weve only ever just found 2. Color me intrigued |
Moreso moving your hip position, and some for me as well. Or maybe I just felt it even more today. |
Today was amazing and fantastic and so much more |
Yay! I agree! |
This will sound dumb |
Yeah, you're basically right. I wanted to go slow and feel all the feels |
And I have never but never dropped so much sweat on someone ever 🥹 |
Im sorry i broke you!!! |
I'll work next time and you can be the pillow princess |
I have never, ever had slow like that. I dont even have words for how wonderful it was |
I'm not complaining, you know |
When do you think you hit deepest, which part did you feel best at/in/from? |
Deepest I'm not sure precisely but I think it was about mid way sesh 1 |
But even without that, it was still fabulous |
Don't doubt it |
I'll try |
Because I can still feel a lot |
A lot |
Every way you squeeze |
Where you're soft, where you're firm |
It's cool af |
You're the first one who's ever said that. As in, i didnt know it was a thing |
I'm guessing yes? But it's a matter of degree too. And you feel particularly exciting :) |
Fuuucccckkkkkkk |
Ikr? |
There should be a gerund for that |
I wish i could adequately explain just how massive a good (idk a word...influence? guide? partner?) you've been |
Oh I'm so glad |
I felt like I could help |
How could you feel that though? |
Because I felt like you wanted something I had to give |
Yes. I still want more if that's okay |
Hell yeah sister |
2024-12-12T08:29:19 |
null |
2024-12-12T10:01:17 |
Hey babes |
Heya! |
How's it going? |
Good good |
And you? |
Doing okay |
Is anything wrong? |
Nope. Just woke up. |
Ok :) |
You must have actually slept! |
Kinda |
Plans? |
I was kinda thinking about coming over and picking up where we left off lol |
It's a possibility |
Tell me what works for you |
I'm open for anything really |
Do you want to go somewhere? We could go to h4h |
Im also open for most things. Just have to get out of bed first lol |
Haha okay |
If you get to pjck today's activities? |
Let's go shopping :) |
I'm ok taking a break from the bedroom... Even though I'd really like to pound you I'm noticeably sore. Nbd, but will feel better tomorrow and maybe we have a window of opportunity |
Are you sure? I still crave that load you promised. But I'm also ok with a break |
Tbh no I'm not sure, but I think I will have a better chance at giving you that load after a short break |
Ok. It's okay to change your mind later too |
Ok good :) |
null |
I guess I'll break this up |
Aww! |
I just need a time please |
Sure no prob |
A time.... like, when you want to be here. Plz. |
Is 1230 too soon? |
Not even close to too soon |
Ok well I can be there 1130 if that suits you |
I am good anytime after 11. You tell me after that |
I'll see you at 1145 lol |
Lovely ! |
null |
null |
Everybody knows your room is the best room! |
Awww |
No, they just love making biscuits on squishy aoft mommy |
Me too! |
Lol i know |
Do you have a fave flower aesthetically? |
And i might be a few late being ready |
Ok I'm here |
Coming in or am i coming out? |
I'll come in |
2024-12-12T17:39:12 |
Thank youuuuuuu for today |
I really wish i could give this to you |
null |
Iz wallet |
Iz catses! |
Yez |
I wish I could think of something to do with it |
Okay! |
That text message was the pharmacy. They already refilled my Viagra prescription |
Mmmmm |
Did you yesterday? |
Yep |
Not today tho |
Thank you for coming with me today |
Of course! |
It was you favoring me.... again |
Yes |
Favoring? |
Doing something nice for |
Yes |
I like Thrifting with you |
Really? 🤭 |
Idk why it's different. When I am shopping with spouse I lose my mind |
Do you want to know why? |
I actually do want to know |
I think it's a few things |
Plus I'm kinda fun |
And cute lol |
All the above |
Awsss |
You agree ? |
I do agree, yes |
There's something else. I can't put my finger on it now, but I will figure it out eventually |
I think there's a factor of you and i licing in a happy fantasy ecistence together |
That definitely is part of the fun! |
😊 |
2024-12-12T19:39:23 |
Thought of something(s) else |
Yeah? |
Yeah |
Tell me more that you want first. We can go one for one |
Arrgh! Lol |
Hmm |
If we can used to the idea of jerking off in front -- which would be a whole thing in itself so I will rest with that answer. |
In front of each other I mean |
Not in the front yard |
Yes, with a caveat |
Sorry for the delay |
One of mine.... |
Yes I do! |
You might have to get me coked on on caffeine and or weed but hells yeah |
I just tried to type another reply... On my laptop |
Anyhoo |
Okay, cool |
Yes! |
Not to praise myself, but was it just that my ass was RIGHT THERE for you? |
Hahaha |
I mean, you can ;) |
O I will, no worries |
Pardon the awkward but, um, for what? I have ideas but you tell me first lol |
To lick you prolly |
I think that's the best plan I've heard in at least a day |
Twins :) |
Yeah I would love to eat you from behind |
Oh for real? I was thinking my |
Maybe that too |
Maybe what?? |
I didnt finish the sentence.... |
I might lick your asshole |
Is that something you want to do? Have you done it before? Does it weird you out at all? |
I've only done it a few times , and I would say it was 66.7 parts accident and 33.3 parts curiosity. And the curiosity persists. |
Have to attend spouse |
20 min maybe? |
You do you babe |
Hello |
Hiya |
Made a quick stir fry and combo |
Combo? |
Oops! S/b convo |
Light conversation |
Mmhmm |
So back to our convo |
The spicy sort |
Oh yes I remember |
Tell me more. Tell me all about your thoughts in this area (pun intended) |
Ah yes |
I fancied flicking my tongue on her asshole once or twice |
For sure it's a sensitive area |
Got giggles, but not really a let's go butt s x now vibe |
No pun intended lol |
Pas entendre |
Did you just censor that!? |
Sometimes that happens and idk if it's the autocorrect or somehow me missing the letter. But e and space are pretty far apart |
But the word is "sax". You know, as in butt-saxophone |
null |
You're welcome |
Okay good. Thought so. |
TIL s x is a great placeholder |
7 indeed |
Lol |
Sux |
Ma bebe gonna be "Syx" |
Focus! |
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa |
Lord |
Ok what is the question |
Do you know the term we're kind of describing? |
Sox? |
In that area? Nothing |
Liar |
null |
I stand corrected |
Brave of you babe! |
I realized that as i sent it |
Actually kinda was |
❤️ to “ Actually kinda was ” |
Say what you will |
Dude you got feet pics fo' free |
Yes! And I am grateful! |
Ew. You feel welcome to delete them |
No worries babe |
I feel like there's a very niche market i could charge a lottt to |
Only fans babe |
Maybe more of a Fansly fetish here tho |
OF does not like extremes |
I happen to know theres an only feet dot com |
No doubt in my mind |
I'm not a foot guy tbh |
But respect |
This is a trauma few have even thought about |
Oh thank hades |
Let alone experienced |
Wait, what's trauma? |
Fr |
What one? |
Losing a digit |
You're "deformed" now right? |
Kind of was before too? |
It's been taking a toll on you until 2024 as far as I can tell |
At some level anyway |
But you broke out today, just a few minutes ago |
Do you think you can put that demon to bed? At least for a while |
Brb |
I havw deliverately shown you my feet before. |
Yep |
You didn't know that before |
Sorry-yes you deliberately showed me |
I dont know what to think now |
No worries babe |
We got detoured |
Because "six" is hard |
Anyway, yes |
Right |
So ass licking |
Thumbs up? |
Lol |
Or just licks |
You tell me more first |
I promise i will answer |
It doesnt weird you out? |
I hasn't yet? |
Im asking youuuuu |
And as a data-minded person I will tell you that the absence of information cannot be described quantitatively |
"yes" and "no" are merely ways to describe the set (0, 1) |
Yes, my binary babe |
Right on |
The concept, then, of intentional ass licking is _________ to you (use an adjective) |
I believe the words I used are "a curiosity" |
Yes. I remember. I want a different one. |
Why are you curious maybe? |
Something something amino acids |
Lol idk |
Why do I want to wear girls underwear? |
Because theyre sexy and usually feel nice |
Well sure |
Ok okay |
Plus I think you've dropped hints that you might want butt play |
But I could be wrong |
But there is that picture |
Can you tell me why you think all of that? And what do you think i would say if you asked? Or just did it? |
Sorry it's no all around |
Or maybe I have a weird butt psychosis |
Why is it no? |
Im typing out a reply rn btw |
I feel silly |
Did not mean to get hung up on this topic |
I want it. All of it. I didnt think you'd be okay with it so i didnt say anything because i didnt want to seem realllly weird. Ive had it before and i fucking love it. The area between that and pussyland? Never had that done but it's ultra appealing. Id like to try some doubling with you and with a toy or a plug or anything else you think is okay. I do want to try some butt6ing (lol). I want licks and fingers and your dick and idk what else |
And yes, I'm okay with whatever you do |
I might side eye something but usually i legit sont understand why YOU would like it or how it would work logistically |
Ok wow! Ty |
1000% |
If I'm not confident that it'll be neutral if not enjoyable for you then I'll steer you elsewhere |
I would like to know thoughts and reaction and questions now please |
So I appreciate all of this |
Because I really just want to be curious |
And explore |
And you basically adopted me as my mentor |
And tbh I do not know if I will really like it love it |
But I don't want to reject it without really knowing |
And all of that is perfectly fine. Good. |
And I can assure you I will be overly cautious! |
Not sure how to react or if I really like it on me |
I can and will try or you can say no. Fingers, licks, a thumb (for real).... i like almost everything on me. It's very strange |
From watching porn |
I understand there are a few camps in this regard |
Or maybe just two |
Boys and girls who legit enjoy it |
And boys who like dishing it out where it's super unclear about the girl |
I think there's a 3rd, at least irl |
Ok sure |
Do you know? |
No I don't |
It's the connnnnnnnnstant baby whines of iwannaiwannaiwanna vs nonononononono and the girl part is not unclear |
All because I might accidentally lick you lol |
Ok fair on your call |
Yea |
I think im about to tell you something kinda funny about you that i dont know if you know |
See this is riding the line of abuse |
Well fuck |
Nvm |
But maybe still the funny thing |
So it's harder for me to talk about at low level detail |
Ok I'm not a snowflake I can take the joke |
It's a true life thing about you. And me. |
Ohh |
Which i think also means you dont know |
Which is making me actually lol |
Oh noes |
I don't know |
Lol |
It's not a big thing at all |
But ummmm |
Oh fuck I lold |
Hahahahahahahahaha |
Well? |
Dammit I want to know when this was |
You were on the floor i think if that helps |
Yesterday? |
No. A few weeks ago |
I'll be |
And you waited to tell me |
I am cracking up |
You licked your fingers off after you got done with them climaxing me |
Fuck me |
Well yes |
I'm not going to say |
That is so fucking hot |
So it is or is not hot? |
It is |
I wish I could actually remember that moment |
Because no, I did not know |
I figured |
Heheh |
OMG I'm dying |
How often do you make a production of licking off your fingers? |
Like tiny damn riblets |
Hand spread in front of your face |
Literal finger licking good |
So? |
It tastes good |
That was the first time i saw you do it |
No way |
Not that recently really? |
Keep in mind it's been less than 3 months since dewitt |
It's not like I hide it |
Im always a little spacey |
Hell I would stick my fingers in you again just to get another lick |
....."after" |
I always think i taste bad |
And am smelly |
And dirty |
I will literally eat you |
You don't taste bad in any way |
Seriously you seldom have any real flavor at all |
A bit lemony at times, which is delicious |
I will die on this hill |
You do an outstanding job with the hygiene |
Jsyk |
I should have said that a long time ago |
Are you being serious? Like, not sarcastic? |
null |
I'm being serious 100% |
It is an immense pleasure to love your pussy with my mouth |
Excellent tank |
I dont know how to believe you and i hate that |
I know how |
You tell me and then i will tell you something that makes me more embarrassed than almost anything else |
I will absolutely soak my face and fill my mouth with your pussy goodness and |
Also random |
Was 69 new to you? With me? |
Um why 69 you may ask |
PO girl she typin |
I'm licking my phone |
You've done that before though, right? You go down and then kiss me |
Lol phones are dirrrrrrty |
So actually yes |
Unclothed and 69 was new |
Why do you ask? |
Just trying to keep things straight |
In my head |
What else do you want clarification on? |
I think I'm good! |
What else |
I'm shameless now |
Fuck I need to quiet down |
I think me too |
null |
Fuckeduppery you say |
Yes |
Ok |
Heh |
Get this right |
Vegetable |
Insertion |
You want that in whom? |
That would be you |
Yes |
Oh wait |
YES |
pending vegetable choice |
Insert absurd vegetable insertion expectations here |
You know how "big" i am |
Apparently lol |
What veg ideas were you toying with? |
Oops wait I jumped the track to anal insertion |
Back me up |
I'm dead lol |
Oh. Um |
Aubergine |
Yes |
Just more cautiously |
Are you sure? |
Pas d'aubergine |
I said aubgergine |
But you said yes |
So aubergine it is |
Ba |
Anyhoo |
I'm expecting a delictable and healthy snack |
For our mid day sex break |
I am a teensy bit confused now |
Also, brb. Need drugs. |
Oh noes |
Back |
Hieeeee |
What now? |
Well |
We've plumbed that bob |
I know you want to know more |
I do |
Unless it's time for a nap or proper sleep |
Lolz |
No |
You need to answer questions |
Organic required or no? |
Root veg only or all hands on |
Organic is just marketing |
Oh god |
No |
Oh god no |
So is aubergine off the menu then |
Same family you know |
No capzaisin or capsicum. It's fine |
I think it might be too soft? |
No breaking veg |
Oh like what? |
BREAKING VEG |
Idk if that's an action series or a 6 o'clock news segment |
My thought is that an aubergine could easily crack off and break in me if it gets thrusted at a weird angle |
And no thank you |
Ofc |
Peppermint stick? |
I don't actually recommend this |
Or the "veggie" jerky |
A nice parsnip? |
Or carrot |
Supposed to be good for me |
Vitamin P |
Remind me again where the veg is going |
And it's purpose(s) |
Answer is still yes |
Um |
I'm off the deep end really |
Would you prefer a snow cone? |
Nope |
Not frostbiting anything down there |
Maybe a honey bun |
Can you feel when i gag on you? |
I have only noticed a couple times honestly. Ever |
Oh interesting |
I did it yesterday and today the most ive done with you |
Hmm |
Are you trying to downplay it? |
Now or during? |
During, but both really |
Lol I drove you through my childhood neighborhood |
Why? |
Neither do i |
Oh. Kind of maybe? I know you might like it more so i downplay it because it's weird for me and i want you to not feel bad |
I loved that part |
I really wish we could mess around there |
Hahaha |
Really |
Mess around |
Yeah |
Maybe ol' Burcham park still has some secluded spots |
Maybe |
That would be so fucking wild |
I want to |
I might have 2 sad -ish things to say now but dont want to bring you down |
I do sorta think about quasi-public space fucking |
Have def done that |
Would also with you |
Heheh |
I love naughtt |
Naughty |
Big difference |
Seriously - a few too many times at the groesbeck place with a meadowy field thing and wooden walking place and streams and wooden benches and stuff |
I have no idea where it is or what it looks like in the light or how to get there |
Not a flippin clue |
Oh rly |
Alrighty then |
100000% |
Fuck me |
Also i will never do this again in such a vacant and public space, but the school parking lot down the way from me |
And in an msu classroom |
And yes, frandor roads and yes, THAT thing, and yes, actively driving |
And yes, the back seat while his girlfriend was driving because she suggested it too |
null |
Wait so you were fucking in a car while the dudes GF drove you around? |
Yes |
949 & 954 |
Idk the reference |
.jpg |
Oh, me |
Yes |
But yes, did that all over lansing |
Damn |
Hottie |
Lol |
I want you |
I want you too |
But all I have is a dick that's usually limp and I can't come anyway |
Dont say that! |
I mean it's true in a way |
But |
I like to slurp on you so there's that |
So these two the |
Then |
null |
Hmm? |
Yes |
Did you realize my eyes are closed in both? |
I didnt realize that |
Kinda makes sense to me |
null |
I forgot something at your house |
I dont really like my own eyes in pics - they never look straight on |
What? |
Ty I appreciate the feedback |
Yea |
I know 1 thing |
I forgot |
But ditto |
What do you know |
You forgot what you forgot? |
Lol no I remember it |
Okay |
?? |
I forgot to share my silky undergarment with your hands |
My upper underlayer |
Awwww |
And i wore nothing for you |
Silk is really sensual |
As are yoyt |
You |
Ty |
So this question of pretty or ...? |
Emmhmm? |
I dont know |
You are indeed pretty |
So worthy |
So delightful and a delight as well |
I've never ever felt freer to say what's on my mind |
Im very, very glad |
And thank you |
I am trying to kind of unquestion a lot of questions. You help way more than you know |
That makes me happy |
All of I have to give is yours |
Same back to you |
I wont accept it all, jsyk |
Don't cross me girl lol |
I am kidding |
I just want you to benefit any and every way |
That is possible |
And if I am around and it helps |
Please pull me in |
I would like to more times than you know or realize |
Whew |
You are so precious to me |
Not for purely selfish reasons |
Well they are actually |
I dont actually understand |
All selfish |
Your well-being means a lot to me |
Well in every sense |
And I am so happy when you tell me you did a good thing for the first time |
Like? |
I haven't though |
Like you felt a certain way or something |
Oh waitasec |
I'm about fucking drunk and half crying |
So I'm a bit emotional |
It's ok actually |
What's wrong? |
I just love you |
Nothing is wrong |
I just want you to know you can lean on me |
Okay, I'm sorry |
No no |
Sorry |
Okay |
I want to lean on you |
Ok you can! |
If i want to tell you something kind of awful that you're helping fix? |
I just realized another thing about it too |
I wont say it until you're okay with it |
I appreciate you being soft with me |
I want to be your rock [hard] reference |
I have more portraits |
It's a learnes practice of decenxy that i wish more people knew |
Or is this too much |
No, not too much |
Lol it will take a minute |
Sure |
You want me to wait to tell you, right? |
The repairs you're doing on me |
You don't have to wait babe |
That is sooooo much More important |
Then i want to tell you something negative |
Ok |
Ive been raped on my bed before. |
And i can sort of use that word |
I am sorry babe |
And glad to help |
I'm really sorry that happened |
I know. |
Hmm |
It is also important to note that some "questionable consensual" has happened on it too |
It's another reason i struggle with sleep |
Does L know |
Directly or indirectly |
I dont know how to answer that |
Does he know? |
Yes or no |
Not all |
"all"? |
Is he a party to it |
Yes |
So ncs against you multiple times? |
Or help me understand this please |
One was violent and awful and i dont remember breathing during it. I will tell you the story if you want |
The rest have been when I'm either asleep or "asleep" |
From him anyway |
And one experience with someone else when i changed my mind |
I can't believe you are still there |
Fuck that shit |
Sorry |
I know |
I'm an armchair psychologist anyway |
You are worth more than that babe |
Way more |
I kind of know that |
I don't understand why then |
I dont have another option. I dont have any unshared memories as an adult. |
Trauma bonded and obligated at this point |
I am sorry |
It doesn't have to be that way babe |
I know you say that. So do the 2 others who know who still talk to me. I have very mixed feelings |
And i know what i would say to someone who is me in my situation |
Im just stupid and idk |
Lies |
This is a painful subject |
The most we have from my POV |
I legit don't know how to respond on a text msg |
If i go into it any more right now you and i will both cry |
Already there babe |
So we can change the subject |
I didn't want to avoid it, but I don't think this is a good way |
To address it |
I agree |
Ok ❤️ |
❤ |
Fuck |
Im sorry |
I'm ok with feels |
It's ok |
Are you really crying? |
Why? |
Yes |
I'm sorry |
I need a new subject please. Now. |
Too many thoughts |
And i dont want to cry all weekend |
I am not coherent yet so sorry |
Are you okay? |
But ok |
Yes yes |
Tell me what you want then |
What do you wabt to say, i mean |
Well I think this segment confirms my distaste for abuse |
I care about you dammit |
But here we are |
It's ok |
Fuck i hate what my thoughts are right now |
I don't want you to sugar coat things |
Just get out |
Get it out |
Jesus |
Sorry! Typo!!! |
You'll yell at me for it. Thoughts, not memories |
Yell? |
Scold |
Have I ever |
But i know this |
Be honest plz |
I am justifying behaviors |
Well i deserved it |
I fucking hate that because i know it's garbage thinking |
But i cant help it |
Right, you've told me |
Can we park this for now |
Yes please |
I hate to seem dismissive |
You are fine |
I feel like I'm wallowing |
How do i help you? |
Again, the feelings of dismissal |
Feelings are mine, just to be clear |
I'm sorry |
Nanana |
I want to pull you away from things unpleasant |
But also want to respect what you've endured |
Babe |
Yeah? |
You deserve so much better |
Yes you |
It isnt in the cards |
Pheu |
Tommyrot |
Balderdash I say |
I have seen a good bit of you |
Are you telling me there is some kinda lien I haven't heard about yet |
Actually |
Actually don't answer that |
Not tonight anyway |
I didnt know what you meant anyway |
Ok lol |
And either new subject or idk please |
Did you know |
I'm kinda jealous of your boobs |
I want them |
Why? |
Cute and compact |
Versatile |
Sexy af |
What size are they? |
b? |
Between b and c |
Perfect |
Like seriously I could lie all day, just holding them for you |
Ok |
Lol you're like WTF |
Oh |
Theyre just very subpar to me |
Pssht |
Na |
Sodium |
Subpar my ass |
Why did you say "oh"? |
I accidentally stuck a grilled cheese sandwich up my butt |
I was aiming for the tomato |
Oh wait I actually remembered |
Did you believe me? |
I understand |
Probably |
Did i believe you when? |
Sorry I couldn't hear you |
Oh |
Oh! |
Sorry I feel like I'm coping at your expense |
Are you ok |
I trying and i think so |
Big hugs |
I am very cold and tensed and want you to tuck me in while i eat more crisps |
Oh |
I would love to |
null |
And I will happily donate the excess heat I have |
Hi BBY!!! |
❤️ to a photo |
Aww I hope your crisps are perfect |
They're decent |
Oopsie I am slipping off to sleep |
I love you dearly |
I love you too |
Sweet dreams lover |
You, too |
I'm holding you |
Lol |
I'm my heart |
null |
Aargh |
Words |
They be hard |
Yep |
Be kind to yourself |
And sleep well |
Gnight |
null |
2024-12-13T08:25:47 |
Good morning! How are you? |
2024-12-13T09:58:59 |
Good morning babe! |
null |
She's hugging & licking |
Aww |
null |
Oops.... lol |
Oh hi! |
😊 |
So pretty! |
Thanks! |
Such a nice way to wake up :) |
I can't see if you sent a text or not recently. Puppy paws played with the keyboard:/ |
Lololol |
I was making coffee and dreaming about your boobies |
OMG when is sundress season? |
Anytime lol |
How's your mental and emotional state today? |
Good actually |
I'm ok |
Honestly? |
Hey! |
Yes honestly |
Sanna see something cool that maybe you might want? |
Yes! |
One sec |
Also.... have i shown you parts of my stamp collection? |
You showed me a little bit yeah |
The binders right? |
Yes |
When we gonna sort them better? |
Oh ! We gotta do stamp day huh |
Month. Ish. Lol |
Also... |
null |
Lol! |
I have 2 more |
Omg |
I've gone my whole life not seeing these things |
Too funny |
Aww shit |
Noooooes! |
I tell you what, anytime you want to cry, just look at the rainbow bridge comments under one of these posts. |
I will never do that |
But thank you |
Yeah it can be tough |
Leads me into spirals and i wont escape them |
Yeah |
Well dang |
Hmm? |
I'm just trying to reset here |
So my orgasm bags came yesterday lol |
Uh, pun intended? |
Lop |
Lol |
Fleetwood Mac |
...And cheese |
RLH says Stevie nicks is a witch |
I have a FM tee I'm getting rid of if you want it lol |
Wyd? |
Any of these for you? |
null |
No, thank you though |
So whattttt afe you doing? |
Maybe I would have the tee thiughy |
Though |
I just kinda dozed off lol |
Maybe I'll place it with your perpetual stuff bag lol |
Hehe thank you |
Gonna need a bigger one |
Uh oh |
Idk what i should do right now |
If i go somewhere, wherw ahould that be? |
Someplace with cool things? |
Yes, definitely |
I just cant decide where |
Would you also like to go? No is an absolutely fine answer |
Why aggravated? |
Because i was supposed to have 2 days of whatever i wanted to do with L. He went to the dentist appt (i made) and was back by 10 and is still sleeping and i am angry at it all |
Oh and also thai joke |
*this |
null |
I'm confused |
I asked what the plan was |
Got it |
So does he think he's doing you a favor here |
Yes |
I fail to see what's in this deal for you, unless you really desired to go out with him |
I may be biased but I'd go about my business and skip the gatekeeping |
Basically |
That's what I'm picking up |
I... ugh |
Im just very upset |
Yes |
I am sorry babe |
I have a ridiculous sounding thing |
Vuvuzela? |
That'll get him |
I can share absurd spouse behavior as well. Probably doesn't help but to fuel the fire though |
2024-12-13T16:30:51 |
Hey |
Hi babe what's up |
Im sorry i was acting like a whiny crybaby earlier |
De nada |
Is everything ok now? |
I think so |
I was not doing so well earlier |
What has changed your outlook? |
Im better, not all well |
I missed you today |
I missed you, too |
I really wish i could have seen you at all |
Same :) |
What did you do? |
Schlepped around a lot. Put my organza bags into service in the filter. Reshaped a new tool for the lathe |
Were you inescapable? |
Perhaps not but she had an ordeal with her eyes and I couldn't get myself together |
Plus I didn't know what was going on with you after a time |
I was being a bitch today. Just an angry, upset person |
Hmm. I understand |
I mean those were the notes I heard from you, and they were not pointed at me at all |
I was upset with you for a hot minute without good enough reasoning so i left the conversation because i never want to feel that way toward you |
Will you tell me what I did to upset you? |
If you'd like |
Ofc I don't want to upset you, but idk what I did. I'm only asking to learn |
I was going to tell you something that is a ridiculous thought to have. The response was "vuvuzela" and i was upset and in a pissy mood and trying to say something but it wasnt the right setting anymore so it was more i had to keep internalized today and i had already had a lot to deal with and sidnt want to say anything after that |
Ok. I'm sorry. Thank you for telling me |
I appreciate that, thanks |
Totally understand |
null |
Thanks |
Totes |
So what's happening |
With what? |
In general |
Kinda |
I hurt |
Whereabouts? |
All over. Mostly my eyes are killing me. It hurts but it's not painful? That sounds weird |
How is your hydration? |
And I'm sorry you are hurting |
Im trying to better hydrate |
And youre correct if youre thinking its photophobia |
I didn't go there but that makes sense! |
I haven't ever measured that on my own so I'll say no? |
Ok |
Daddy mommy says drink clear liquids you |
If your house is like mine, the furnace has dried the air pretty thoroughly |
null |
Omg that explains so much |
I am itchy af |
As a result |
I also didnt know michigan ever got this low |
Yes! Itchy and biting-y |
Indoor is much lower humidity bc the furnace burns off what little moisture there was |
My lips are dry and my nose keeps bleeding |
Aww! |
You need lovin! |
Do your æsthetitions do face pampering? |
Which aestheticians? |
The ones you see in Eastwood. I can't remember the initialism |
Ohh |
Ohh |
Well crap |
I will make an appt for you to have a |
Would you enjoy that? |
My treat |
I think that's incredibly generous of you and i dont know |
You know what's fun though? |
I can think of things |
Lol. Sure, happy to get back to that track |
Oh should I be worried |
null |
Somma youuuuu!! |
Lol i alreaxy gave you all of me |
But I can has moar!!! |
I already told you that too! |
Where! |
*Whee! |
Anyhoo |
I literally do not know how to accept this kind of thing |
It's a secret Santa gift |
What would you like? |
Something for you |
Whatever you want |
Nope |
I will share some thoughts then |
As always, you may think some of it to be unpleasant. May i proceed? |
Absolutely |
My skin is so dry! |
I didnt grow up knowing anything about any kind of personal aesthetics or anything. Getting nails or hair or anything done was not a known to me. Literally at all. Waxed eyebrows, yes, and a handful of other things "that all women hate" and lots of no caring about yourself even though appearance is beyond important. |
Aargh! |
I have nice lotions actually |
But they're messy so I avoid them |
Oh, that was also to say ive never had anything but my hair, nails, and waxing done. And some tanning. Occasional massage. |
What do you mean messy? I want them now |
I will give one if you like it! |
Nope. Not what i mean |
I just mean it drives me crazy when my fingers have lotion on them. |
Even the good ones leave tracks *everywhere* |
Tracks? |
Smudges |
Youd better rub it into me really well then |
Lol my phone is now covered in lotion goo |
And soon |
Prepare yourself |
So what's something else you'd like for yourself ? |
What did you decide the first thing is? |
Ahem |
Work with me |
Me covered in lotion goo |
I clearly struck out in the only line of thought I had |
Oh |
Goo girl |
Yes. Tip top. A thousand percent. |
This conversation is getting interesting |
You did not strike out |
My phone totally has spooge all over it |
You're welcome |
Doea it smell vaguely like bleachy cream? |
Not at all |
Scent free |
Tip top dermatologist rec |
Work with me |
Lol how do you do that |
What do you need to know |
About what? |
Do you need a comedic breakapart? |
Why did you say "work with me" |
Lol I am melting |
Why would i ask if the spooge smelled vaguely like bleachy cream? Hmm? |
I do not know this reference |
Does cum from you not have that scent? |
Ohhh |
Dayum |
Batin |
Lol |
What'd i miss? |
Just commercials |
How are ya |
Na na na |
I was using the office space 'baitin' theme to suggest in a jocular manner that I was going to masturbate, sample my cum, and report back on the taste/smell |
Not office space |
I knew that part - I was kinda hoping you did. |
I have a Peter Gibbons figure in my afg office lol |
heh |
No worries |
Woo! |
Wait what is that? |
I think you told me? But I don't remember |
After the leadup, we fuck and you cum in me. Watch it drip out or whatever you want, then you lick it up and kiss me while we pass it back and forth |
Ahh yes |
And ahh yes |
This will be a new for me |
A little bit of a daydream |
So thank you |
I've done it once |
Just one timw |
Which brings me to another idea |
Please continue |
It's a different position for you to dine in |
Well, for me kind of |
You sit up somehow, or kneel on the bed |
Fz |
Ok back sorry |
Np |
Where did i leave off? |
And then... |
So you figure out how to sit/kneel comfortably but also so you can move and use your core |
Ohh yes |
I get it |
I will eat you all day girl |
Fucccckkkkkkk |
I just felt the gush at that |
That is an amazingly explicit pose for you |
I would adore it |
I am warming to the idea of you getting really, really up close and personal |
Wow |
I auppose i have no real way of knowing |
Let's do the fuck out of it then |
Yes! |
As you know |
I will take good care of things |
Now |
Plz ;) |
L sleeping lol? |
Well yes |
You are creative! |
You're aware i used to sneak outta this house and hop in a car stalling down the street to fuck someone in public at obscene hours? |
You've told me |
Then i think yea, i am creative |
Maybe I can be that guy some day |
It's difficult to sneak outta here |
Or maybe we just need to get our own place |
Not opposed |
❤️ |
❤ |
So much catching up to do |
Why do you say so now? What are your thoughts? |
Damn it sucks that I am stuck here |
Atm |
Because caressing you and cajoling you into dropping your panties for me sounds really good rn |
Ohhhh my dude |
null |
Been like this for hours |
Lol |
Who are you showing off for? |
null |
Catsez |
Emmhmm |
Pretty! |
Aww thanks! |
Is that your usual Friday night attire? |
Kinda? |
Acrually for most days |
How delightful |
No boys tonightt? |
I guess it's tomorrow |
How fun for you! |
I am merely the finance guy |
You seem to be feeling better |
Yes |
I'm glad! |
Me too! |
Somehow I keep smelling you |
I don't know how |
Magic |
I'll say |
Aww |
Its good? |
It makes me gooey inside |
I love it |
😊 |
Any frevenings coming up? |
Not really and it's annoying me |
Maybe tomorrow but idk |
Im sorry |
Working wednesday? |
I suppose I could extend shopping |
Yes I do work Wed nes day |
:( |
Ewwwwwww |
can we just go live somewhere |
With a bed and things to eat |
And places for catses |
And doggo |
See I want to save you from abusive relationships |
My spousal thing isn't all that bad by comparison |
Give me just a few ok babe? |
Np |
👍 |
You need a ride |
A thumb |
You need a thumb |
Daddy needs to know where |
Told you lotsa times |
You did not |
Where does the thumb go sweetie |
Where would you like to try first? |
Oh you |
Prolly in your tight pink pussy |
I have plans for you |
Ohh? |
Yes |
And what are you doing with your quasi naked self? |
And how does one enjoy being a tease like that without some satisfaction |
Getting under covers rn |
I don't know |
I guarantee you will |
But i still wanna know |
Emm |
Well |
You might have to wait |
Besides, I asked you a question |
Two actually |
Everywhere you might put it |
Yer lucky |
I found the source of the smell |
null |
Sleep well pretty baby |
I love you too! |
You're sleepsing now? |
What's the smelly source? |
Please? |
Haha! |
I made a quick bite to eat |
What do you wear to bed |
All sorts of choices |
The same actually |
I tend to get very hot at night |
Yes!!!!! |
All of that |
What was the source of the smell? |
My dryer |
Wait, what smell? I thought you meant the me you still smelled |
Two things can be true at the same time |
Oh i see |
I think |
It's fascinating |
The BLFAC jacket finally completed the laundry cycle |
Yay! |
And even now -- after multiple dryer sessions |
I smell perfume from your laundry I suppose |
Probably |
There is nothing remotely like that in the house otherwise, I can guarantee that |
But it's very nice |
I'm just surprised at how persistent it is |
Do you just smell my detergent concoction? |
Maybe lol |
Fair warning i am fading fast now that i am warming |
Ok :) |
Kisses and hugs |
And kiss your face |
null |
And kiss your lips |
And kiss your neck |
And love you |
I love you |
2024-12-14T10:45:20 |
Hey babes |
Ty! ❤️ |
2024-12-14T15:12:01 |
❤ |
Cant chat yet but... |
null |
Uranium glass if you can take a field trip this week. Or i prob can get it for you if you want |
Ooh where is that? |
Williamston |
2024-12-14T17:53:56 |
Baaaaaaaabe! |
Hey you! |
How are you? |
null |
Lolz |
Capacity for anything tomorrow? |
It is possible! |
Ohh? |
Yeah idk what's going on around here but it sure doesn't seem important lol |
Lol |
Oh goody! |
Yeah! |
What was happening today? |
Zip zero nada |
No boyses, |
? |
Nope |
Plans must have changed I guess |
I am uninformed, which is typical lol |
Right right |
Any idea when you might know about tomorrow? I'm guessing tomorrow lol |
I am pretty sure I can do whatever providing I get out of bed early enough lol |
Yes! Good choice |
I have places if you want to know what they are |
Destinations |
And their hours lol |
Ofc you do! |
Do i really overthink that much? I think i prepare a normal amount but now idk |
So I'm on instacart.... |
null |
No joke |
That cannoli factory chips & dip is looking really good |
Lol right!? Ohhhh instacart |
Plus whipped cream |
Yessss |
Are you having a good day? |
It has been! Yours? What did you do besides stay uninformed? |
Lol |
It's been good |
Im shocked! |
I know! |
And I picked up my prescription |
I now have an abundance of Viagra lol |
But now there's no time :( |
Right? |
Bloody hell |
So what else? |
I am itchy as fuck |
I got some diphenhydramine cream and it does help in patches |
But Imma go take a dose of something because fuck this |
Sarna lotion is supposed to help a ton |
And yeah. Fuck it all lol |
Crikey |
I hear saliva helps |
Okay! |
Starting with my inner thighs please |
Not even joking |
I said okay! |
Lol |
Would you like to know my "plans" for tomorrow, most likely? |
Back ina few |
Oh, okay |
Good luck |
Lol |
I can haz monies?? |
Omg no dont answer that |
Watchu need bebe |
Organza bagsssss |
Lololol |
I gotchu |
O snap |
I wondered something different but kindasorta similar |
Mm |
Oh fuck |
Organza lingerie |
Sounds scratchy |
Better take it off |
null |
This can't be real |
Do it! |
null |
69 dollars? |
Um |
Hahaha |
They're fucking awesome |
Ok new fashion need uncovered |
But who wears them first.? |
Meeeeee! |
I mean I guess you could |
That would be hot |
You've yet to show me what you think I'd look best in |
Well I just came across this |
null |
And I about fell in love with it |
Way outta my price range lol |
What do you like about it? |
Semi-transparent |
That's basically it actually |
I also like this kinda bra & panty set with a flowy gown or babydoll |
I have a task for you sometime |
Go through my stuff. Find what you want me to wear for you |
You can take photos of me in it. Just for you. |
Woo! |
Do you like it? |
I'm thrilled! |
I probably have to ask you for try-ons so I can take pictures for science |
Well okay |
Absolutely |
What was the drunken call, if i may ask? Np to say no |
Synopsis: living in what amounts to a large camper in northern Michigan is cold. Need help insulating |
Oh, and off-grid |
These guys got mettle, I have to give them that |
Wait, these are who again? |
My two step-sons |
Gotcha. Because.... |
null |
Oops lol! |
I was confused. Thought you had meant your brother in law |
Wow that's hilarious brain fart |
I do not have progeny |
As far as I know |
Right. Esp not a married one lol |
Right! |
Do you think theres actual potential you could have one? |
There is a non-zero chance |
That ons |
I think she tried to scare me but she claimed at one point she missed her period |
I |
But we |
And I was trying to keep in contact |
Ever hear of a venn diagram? |
It was 2005, not so easy |
Then you know 2 things can be true at one time |
Lol! |
Touché |
I haven't had a period since i met you |
Are you serious? |
What's the question? |
Are you pregnant? |
Absolutely not |
Is it odd that you haven't had periods? |
Not in the least |
I swear i told you that was a thing for me |
You may have indeed |
Yeah i dont have them |
Is the IUD a factor |
Yes, but just one factor. I'll tell you whatever you're curious about but dont want you to feel weird with tmi |
All good |
You sure? |
Ahh |
It has literally taken me this long to understand the conversation of the last 15 minutes |
I am a bit slow lol |
Okay. Can i help clarify something? |
I'm straight! |
Poor thing |
But it wasn't to be |
Was she single? |
Single mom |
Shithead ex |
You for sure have a type |
Yep |
I know it |
Does it bother you? |
Which part |
All. Any. |
Sort of? |
Please tell me |
I had that infidelity decision thrown back at me for a long time. It was at least 10 years before I pushed back |
And somehow here I am again |
I don't connect the decisions to do what I'm doing |
I do question what I really decided for in 2005, which was to stay married |
Im sorry. I didnt really mean to incite any of this |
Honestly it's fine |
I need to examine this anyway |
But does not have to be this moment |
Okay |
We can change subject if you wish |
Ok either way |
I dont really know what to say right now that won't be sad or hurtful to me so you choose please |
Whoa babe don't take this hard |
How bout them Yankees |
Where were we |
Is there a mini me? |
Highly unlikely |
And I am happy with that outcome |
Under the circumstances |
Things would be different if she had my baby |
No doubts |
I did not want babies |
But if I did I wanted a girl |
That's what I have in that issue lol |
What is that issue? |
Babies |
Don't really care for them |
Why would having a girl be an issue? |
I preferred a girl, should I have a baby |
Right |
Because? |
Yes |
I would teach her to be the most awesome girl ever |
In what ways? |
Respect |
And be smart |
And know how and when to ask for help |
Is it surprising that that makes me wince? And have feels |
No it's not |
And believe it or not |
I would have said the same thing before I met you |
Girls. Need. Power |
My initial response is to ask "because of whomelse?" |
Maybe every girl I've met |
That's an exaggeration |
Most of my girlfriends |
Had bad daddy issues |
Including my wife |
I dont entirely know that, you know |
And some had a deep hatred |
Ah sorry, yes this may well be new information |
What happened with high school gf's dad? |
He was emotionally abusive, maybe physically too |
NB GF? |
Nota bene girlfriend |
null |
I am missing one thing |
Sorry - mandated break |
You're missing snacks from the kitty cat cafe lol |
Yep |
Nailed it |
About tomorrow.... |
Yesss |
When could you leave and when would curfew be? |
Perhaps 1000-1600 |
Nice block there |
Ty |
You're not sure bad either |
I guess |
Pssht |
I have one shopping objective, which can be found easily at Despot or Lowse |
Which is? |
Wood with which to make frames, and frame clamps |
Right right |
Juat working on location lol |
Nbd |
You do you |
I will meat you somewhere |
Lol i have no dougt |
Ope sorry ma'am |
Are you sleeping little one |
Not a chance |
Oh! |
Was thinking about and looking at options |
Roger that |
What it is? |
Yumm |
So |
The olives with pimentos I bought *sans salt* |
Sans Na |
Ya lol |
Pas sans NaCl |
Ouai? |
Well I salvaged them by immersing them in a random amount of jalapenos sliced in juice and feta cheese |
It's been like 3 weeks in the fridge |
That's awesome! |
Y/N - youd be interested in making your own flavored vinegars? |
oh sure |
Unconvincing |
There are maybe 5 or 6 vinegars around here hiding in the shadows with some random herbs thrown in. And several pure stock on the shelf |
That does not influence my decision well enough |
Sorry ma'am |
Was debating if youd want a handy & easily accessible collection of flavored vinegar info and ideas to perhaps place on a shelf |
Info in what format? |
Lol |
Haha I was overthinking it |
Yes ofc |
I'd like it |
Oh yay! |
May have procured it preemptively |
Thank you babe! |
That was very sweet of you |
Pshht |
But yw |
❤ |
❤ |
So my salad |
Lol midnight texts |
Consists of that lovely ingredient, plus dill pickles (two kinds), fake hot dogs (2), and tahini |
And seeds |
null |
And I inadvertently found the perfect beer to pair |
Guinness? |
Sorry for the delay. Phone murderer |
What means phone murder |
null |
I adore the farmhouse style |
Jolly Pumpkin is sometimes over the top for me (tx Gaudy), but sometimes I kinda crave it |
https://www.cratejoy.com/products/vinyl-post |
Thought that was cool |
Yay! We used to get those things here and there |
https://www.cratejoy.com/products/3-juke-box-45rpm-records-7-vintage-originals |
Woohoo! |
Not to be that guy |
Definitely more of a nostalgia draw. These poor 45 bbs have been grooved a lot |
God bless rhem |
These are cool sub boxes |
Lol |
Absolutely |
100% d corative |
Idk why I miss the e sometimes |
Très chic |
B b can you h ar m ? |
Ouai |
Lol |
Eeee |
Comment ça va? |
Je vais bien merci. Tres reveille. Et toi? |
C'est Bien aussi |
Haha |
La même chose |
Tu veut faire quoi a demain (ajdh) que c'est aussi une possibilite vrai? |
So la reponse est non, ca c'est ok |
Quand? |
Au matin, ou en apres midi |
Textes-moi |
Lol |
Donc |
Oll |
Les deux |
Dites-moi |
Je suis l'orangutan |
What would you waht to do tomorrow as a real possibility, if i can |
In the morning or afternoon |
I could meet you anywhere at 1100 |
And I can carriage you hither and yon |
And if we're feeling frisky then we should go somewhere |
Did you have somewhere in mind? |
Not atm |
Not ATM machine either |
But I've definitely decided we should fuck in my cat |
Nooooooooo |
Not the cat!!!! |
Fuck I e ruined it |
I'm a failure |
It's just something I'm not into |
Lol |
null |
Hafta click it |
No car fucking? |
Dude that "dip" is the bomb |
No feline fucking |
Have you made it or you just like the recipe so far? |
Both actually |
Frank's Press Box and Kewpee have similar and I love 'em. |
Excellent! |
Bang on sis |
http://www.williamstonantiquesmarket.com/ |
That's where i was for part of today. They have the uranium glass (and tons more) |
Sweeeet |
Thank you! |
https://www.estatesales.net/MI/East-Lansing/48823/4314924 |
https://lrshlansing.com/id24.htm |
https://the-mega-mall.com/ |
Omfg |
Hmm? |
Lookit what I found |
null |
Where?? |
Something I ordered way back, unopened |
Until now |
I Mean like a year+ ago |
How serendipitous! |
null |
So sexy |
Ty |
They feel so slinky |
Yesssssss |
null |
Sorry I lost track of details there |
null |
How do you feel? |
Sleepy |
In bed now |
Sleep then, sweet babe |
I will |
5th amendment |
null |
Ill wait |
Lol |
2024-12-15T06:14:18 |
Heya |
Yo |
What's up? |
I had to pee |
Sorry TMI |
I've literally seen you pee |
Have been accosted |
null |
null |
They continue to encroach |
The troops need food! |
Sirvival training lol |
Lol! |
Imma peace out for a couple hours babe |
You do you babe |
null |
Hey do you wear baseball caps? |
Can't say that I do |
Me either |
Lol |
Heh! |
2024-12-15T10:16:40 |
Yoooooo |
Hieee |
How are ya? |
Okay |
Good work |
The cats were revolting |
Dude sane |
*same |
They volted a lot |
Revolvolted |
Yeah |
And there were poop balls hither and yon |
Idk what's up with that |
Oh noooooo |
Bala has issues sometimes |
I'm sorry 🙇♀️ |
So it's been a kinda poopy start lol |
Dommage (for reals) |
Oh? What's up? |
Just feeling kinda weird, less motivation than last night to go out places |
That said, are you allowed to roam anywhere ? Do you want to? |
I should actually go to oneadem big home storez |
Gotta get wood lol |
Lol ofc |
When ya goin? |
Prolly noonish |
Do you want to ride? |
With or on me? |
And my wood |
nbd if not |
Lol |
Sure sure |
I'm not convinced I should go today |
But it would be nice to see you |
Let's call the whole thing off? |
Where would you get a cheap comforter/quilty blanket around here? I dont care if it's preowned, i have laundry facilities lol |
Hmm |
Idk dude |
There's one in your living room |
Lol okay |
You tried to give it to me :) |
Yws, there are actually 2 |
Are the quilts and the meetup ensemble? |
Platonically yes |
Oh ok |
Sorry, love |
Lol no worries |
But also.... it's kinda good that it's a no from me today (it's just physical weirdness and those damn sussy logistics). I dont actually say no in most contexts |
Ok np |
I went to HomeGoods once. It was kinda funny |
Well now i feel terrible |
I was wandering around looking for mirrors |
Hahahahaha |
Maybe i will venture to the wall of marts |
Lol |
Hate it but it's an experience |
OMG it will be that |
Wanna go? |
I'm gonna pass on wm |
Sorry |
Wanna go anywhere? |
Realistic |
Right right |
Okay |
Tx 🙂 |
And it's sucky but totes fine to be our own selves today :) |
Thanks babe |
Can't you just throw some video games and snacks in the basement? L will never know I'm there |
Could be a hazard |
Sleep + food = aspirating |
Good lord |
+ video game controller= ?? |
Stays in basement. I do not basement. |
Right right |
Very sorry if i zone out |
Am i correct that i cannot gift you an afghan? |
It would be implausible for me to suddenly own one |
Indeed |
If i gave you something in a small frame for a desk or creative area? Y/N? Frame choice? (Style, color, mat/no mat, etc) |
Sure! |
Yay! |
What kind of frame ? |
Hmm |
I feel like it should be a simple sort |
Okay cool |
The imagery is largely a deep sky blue |
What color frame? |
Whaddya think should it be contrasting like silvery? Or is wood a good choice? Or basic black |
I thought basic black based on your aesthetic |
Well, tie dye but didnt find that yet |
Lol! Black go with black |
How thick do you like the edges of frames? |
Matted or not? |
Still asleep btw |
It kinda depends. Idk without seeing it |
Mmmk |
2024-12-15T15:36:40 |
null |
Lol |
How's it going? |
Not bad |
You? |
Okay. Just got up from a nap |
I'm kinda headed that way myself |
You're about to nap? |
Yah |
I hope it goes well for you |
Ty babe |
2024-12-15T17:12:50 |
Hello |
null |
:) |
How are you? |
Good , good |
That's good |
What's on docket this week? |
Work ofc |
Hbu |
Working i n office tomorrow & Tuesday, wfh Thursday then that's it for scheduled work for the year but i might do OT |
Nice work babe! |
RLH does like JRRT |
I found her a gift |
Your choice if you want the link |
I am ordering from them so i can easily add it on if you'd like |
What should i eat? |
I'm thinking barley, steamed carrots with dilled butter, sliced fresh tomato with olive oil, salt, oregano |
Yes what's the link please? |
That sounds lovely! When are you bringing it by? |
https://www.fun.com/lord-of-the-rings-middle-earth-lightweight-scarf.html |
Oh that's cool! I'll take it! |
Oh cool! |
I just set a high bar for myself to make dinner lol |
Dude |
Wtf |
Well that's fantastic |
They make a really nice thermal layer |
Lol |
Under my sweatpants |
Thank you! |
For what? |
Holy fuck am i suddenly exhausted |
For the gift |
Oh ofc |
Cooking for spouse, back in 20 er so |
Or sooner, like now |
For science: I have noticed several times now that my air purifier in my hobby room picks up on contamination when I fry stuff. |
OMG my cat just left me for another cat |
2024-12-15T22:01:07 |
Hiiiiiiii |
Oh hey smoochmistress5000 |
null |
I please do come back I want you to tell me a bedtime story |
2024-12-16T05:41:16 |
Good morning! |
Hi babe! |
2024-12-16T07:17:54 |
Hows it going? |
Alright |
Awww |
Just an fyi i cant phone chat much today |
Okay |
Wait til i send you the email... |
Oh my |
I feel like i just want to die here |
I'm so sorry babe |
Im still crying |
I cant even see. Or breathe. And i wanna throw up |
null |
Oh my poor baby! |
How awful |
2024-12-16T10:16:15 |
I am so so tired & depleted |
Yeah what a shitty way to start the day/week |
I guess other "teammates" were told about the position changes on Thursday. How delightful for me. |
So what was the email? |
2024-12-16T12:39:28 |
Give me a few secs and I'll send it |
I just reviewed the emails. This is so wacked |
I'm really sorry |
I dont even know. I have backup to refute whatever but these decisions were made already and there is no discussion room available. I dont even have a clue what to do in the meantime |
Sorry I'm in a team meeting |
I recommend soup |
Going to find some myself in a few |
Warm=soothing |
So steer clear of borscht |
It can be warm too |
How's it going there? |
Comme çi comme ça |
Would you like me to be your Uber today? |
Wondered if you fancied anything realistic |
I don't have good cover to stay out for too long, but I'll do what I can :) |
It's okay. I can always just go home. Or find snacks? |
What do you think? You can always decline and stay home in a nice cozy cat basement |
My face is still all fubar-puffity anyway |
I just want to give you a chance to vent or talk or whatever if that's helpful |
I dont really have that in me right now |
Ok babe |
Would you like a ride, or no |
No thank you |
I'll just go home like semi planned |
Roger that |
Yep |
:( |
Yep |
Home now |
I told you my life was meant to be miserable |
Hugs first |
null |
Thx |
I hate how i feel. Esp Physically. |
I'm sorry this is all so shitty for you |
Im not going to remember today |
And my legs and feet are worse |
I didnt leave my desk chair at all today |
Wow dude that is horrible |
And intrusive thoughts can suck it |
Let us not forget that i am now expected to be phone available on the commissions line for 10 hours every day |
And what do i do with the fact that most of that of recent examples is from blackout? Honestly, there wasnt anything i could have done and we were all advised to just attend to calls and that managers would be taking care of inboxes |
I am still mad and beyond flabbergasted |
And you kind of know my default to how i deal withe negative outward influence toward me |
The whole thing is rat fuckery |
Your employer is insane |
I also made mention of how "all but 2 people being acknowledged with an emmy is really hurtful" and the response was "it was more than 2". So i blinked and thought and said "right, it was 3, because M, C, A, and T got them from you while N, R, and i did not |
And he diagonally nodded |
And i about vomited with disgust at how pointed and punitive this is |
Exactly |
And why is the punishment not even related to the "offenses" |
This feels like CYA all the way up the fucking chain |
I said that |
Ty |
The response was (not quite verbatim) " because it was this or a lot worse" |
Fml |
Nowhere at all am.i allowed to explain or respond or refute |
Not as such, but you can attach your statement fwiw |
Though i did specifically ask for my signed copies of my LOA and job duties. And i will type things out in bulletpoints when i can think without more selfinjury |
I have both those things anyway |
Hard copy and electronic |
Good |
Very good, and if you can write down any details you're still sure of |
He apologized a thousand or so times |
Yeah I already sensed this was not Kirb's call |
And lest we forget how smiley and happy and thankful they all were to me on Tuesday at our work event |
Jfc |
When i was one of 4 SBRs to be at work in any capacity that day |
And i planned it |
But cant bowl |
Couldn't eat what they had for food |
Or drinks |
And almost all the new docs for training that i have seen have yellow highlighter |
Oh, idk if you know what that means related to me |
I think you told me you can't see [certain] highlight colors |
Correct. Yellow. |
I meant to ask you something about that |
I didn't know it was an issue that needed to be documented |
There are so many of those |
At least in the sense that HR has this knowledge and that you are given a reasonable alternative way to access the information |
Yeah. It hasnt been asked or denied, just more inconvenience |
#peoplefirst! |
Not in a laughing mood yet |
At least it hasnt emergied yet |
Lol haha you |
But I will bet you lunch money |
I dont even have the energy to hop back on my soapbox for how needing actual documentation is ultra classist and ableist |
Somebody has to explain why we wrote off 2 mil |
Oh yes it has been taken care of |
As if |
No one would even know that amount - or the recoupped numbers from lg accts - of it wasnt for me. This is sick. |
And I'm creating a terrible conspiracy theory |
That is probably scorecard noteworthy |
I'll be looking at them with interest |
Which i ironically asked for today as well (for one of my positions performance) and guidelines and checklists that were used to evaluate the metrics for my work as sbr |
How does anyone go from all As to this? |
Hmm? |
I'm just saying this whole thing reeks of CYA |
Absolutely |
phooey |
Rat fuckers |
I have no choice in any of this. Not a bit. This or leave. Stay with insurance or leave and die in a week |
I know |
I can almost guarantee i wont take them tonight. I'll be okay just not motivated enough to take them |
I didnt even know i was doing this today |
null |
null |
Oh sorry, should have led with a trigger warning |
I'm so sorry |
Leg and foot |
Why are you missing a dose of something? |
I dont know. Not officially or expertly |
You're making this sound like something important |
Is what important? |
The meds |
Just take of yourself please :) |
They're just basic things |
I cant describe this well, but i dont think i have capacity to do that right now |
Fine |
You seem mad |
I'm not mad, I'm worried |
You don't have to tell me what's in your head , but you don't get to make vague suggestions like this without me saying something |
Very worried |
Oh i see |
I'm sorry babe |
I'm outta line |
I think it's a combination of self apathy and needing control. I have poured so much into this stupid job and im mad but trying to convince myself i dont care. |
I just dont want to exist in this reality |
What I'm doing to myself is illogical and probably dumb. It's akin to Anna Karenina-ing |
So let's find else for you |
I know it sucks |
Whatever you decide is the right move, I will help you any way I can |
I don't know how to do antthing anymore |
Laying down for a bit. Dont worry |
Kiss kiss love you |
2024-12-16T22:00:47 |
Love tou too |
O hai bebe |
Are you well |
I have to do things in kitchen, will be back! |
Hi pretty baby |
Hi |
Kisses! |
Not great but ok i guess |
Yeah |
My body is just done-feeling and my brain and the rest of my is too as of today |
I dont entirely know how to show up tomorrow |
And i am in weird pains and stuff. Basically fell over when i stood up not long ago. But i did take my pills |
Dang |
Maybe. I have no way of knowing that |
Only one more day of work |
Tomorrow, then Thursday |
Oh shit I'm sorry |
That sucks |
Yeah. I am somehow supposed to be on the Commissions phone line on Thursday |
My elbows and wrists hurt sooooooo much right now |
Incroyable |
Quoi. |
Ohh beebee I just want to hug you |
Me too |
I wish I could fix everything |
I really do |
I would do it for you |
Without hesitation |
I know you would |
That might make it worse |
Now now |
But not really |
I am so depressed |
100% understandable and allowed |
But it's not because i have expectations |
You do you |
Ideally i would not work in office tomorrow |
I hate that this is affecting me so much |
Not doubts |
None |
So i just do what, fall asleep now? |
Do you need food or liquid? |
Anything at all |
I had some toast. And part of a gatorade zero |
Forcing myself to eat is hard when I'm emotionally disregulated |
Ok you've had something though |
Yes |
If it were me, straight to bed |
I have been in bed |
Are you ready to sleep |
I want to sleep |
Just sleep babe |
Don't you dare leave me |
Okay i wont |
But also, i meant i dont want to have to wake up at a set time. I just want to recharge and recover and reset and that's not in the cards |
I know |
I am going to lay the phone down now |
Okay |
Gnight babe |
Beaux reves, mon amor |
A toi aussi |
❤️ |
❤ |
2024-12-17T06:26:04 |
Hey kitten |
Hiya |
Good luck today |
Thanks |
Unsure what today holds honestly |
I'm guessing the shit storm has passed for now |
Be good |
Why do you guess that? |
2024-12-17T08:46:28 |
Do you think i wont be good? Legit question |
No I don't think that |
I just want you to get through the day as peacefully as possible :) |
2024-12-17T10:23:15 |
:) |
I am essentially unwatched today. Maybe. Not that I'm tempting that |
CK asked how i was doing this morning |
Aww |
My response was "thank you for checking in" and then pivot to working |
Igchh. |
HAS |
Why did I do that lol |
2024-12-17T12:32:39 |
Make evening plans yet? |
This is really about avoiding suspicion |
RLH must be feeling more like herself. Last evening she was asking for endless reassurances that I'm not eating out. It was awkward. This used to be a constant topic for her, but I haven't heard it now in a year or more |
No prob |
But..... weird. Yeah? |
For her, no |
Am i misinterpreting something? |
I don't think so? But lmk if I can clarify |
Dining at an out of the residence establishment or.... a different, more euphemistic term? |
Lol the latter |
I dont understand why shes asking? |
She used to do this constantly |
Promise me you love only me forever |
End quote |
That's a very different sentiment |
She wants assurance that she is safe in her relationship |
Only she comes about it by asking for me to promise she is and will always be the only one |
Okay, i kinda follow that |
But that leaves our a key activity you mentioned |
*out |
My bad, vague language |
Am I looking for other women? |
Did she say that? |
Not verbatim, but very clearly, yea |
And it wasn't so much as she had a reason to think so, but she knows she has been inattentive to our relationship for a long time, and this is exactly what I would expect her to ask if she ever came back to her senses. |
And please do feel free to ask anything you want to know about this. I'm sure I'm leaving gaps |
I will |
Fuck my arm hurts |
And a baby of a fever |
Right arm? |
Less than great |
Yes |
Temp? |
Yep |
Do you have a mattress topper? |
Like one of those foam things? |
I guess I can just say no. We've used some things like that in the past, but not anymore. They don't seem that effective, especially for my special needs spouse |
She doesn't sleep there.... |
Yep |
Rarely anyway |
Does she want sex again, do you think? |
I don't know. She peeped about it briefly last night again (before asking for reassurance) but the thing is she *says* a lot of things that she would like/want, but she seldom acts. Plus she is so out of shape and smokes.. she can barely go from room to room without wheezing |
Hey i get winded too |
Not that you need my permission, but you can do as you'd like until it negatively affects me |
I am not ready to be close to her |
I'll see how long this energy burst lasts. I really don't expect it will be long |
I see. We should talk about this |
Sure no prob |
From kind of the same POV |
Yeah |
Im sorry |
I have a possibly out-there question to ask then |
Don't be sorry it's fine |
Lying is unbecoming of you |
(I say this with sassitude and blinky eyelashes) |
Lol |
I blinky back at you |
So anyway, i have a question |
Flutter flutter |
Lol |
What are your requirements for engaging in raucous recreation with someone? |
Do you have to like them? |
Find them attractive? |
In what way(s)? |
Or any hole to fill a need? |
I have such a low body count it's kinda difficult to give you a scientific answer |
There are things that are consistent for me though |
I find them attractive |
Our shared interest? |
Language |
Travel |
Mellophones 🤣 |
NB I also developed a great respect for your perseverance |
NB? |
Nota bene |
Ah |
Grazie |
Si |
Thank you for not saying resilience |
Oh really? |
Yes |
I hate that term |
Why so |
Ok fair enough |
Not 100% sure why |
Overused is prob one |
I'm sure I used it more than once before |
Not with me |
I always call it out |
You are busy all day tomorrow? |
Nominally, but most of the team is out |
Okay |
Well |
Things for you :) |
This time tomorrow? |
Correct |
It's perhaps possible depending on when you'd arrive & depart & if youre staying or if we go anywhere |
Bonus - as of this afternoon there is one less SBR |
Oh? Did somebody depart? |
Yes |
None of us knew or know what happened |
Anyone I know? |
Announced to us via email at 1557 today |
Not lucky enough to be CH I suppose |
Robert Prince |
Hmm, don't know him |
Doesnt matter now |
He was 1/3 who did not get an emmy from our manager |
He's been out or off for a while though |
Thinking he just up and quit but who knows |
He has an MBA so there's that factor |
Mailroom Baller Academy |
No |
It's crazy anymore degrees just don't carry the weight they used to |
*accomplishments |
I actualy think theyre easy |
That's because you're smart |
In some areas |
And cute |
Aww thanks |
Wicked combo |
Kinda hurt a lot rn |
Hahaha |
Only 35 minutes |
Smart, cute, kinda fun.... |
Eh. Maybe |
*very fun IMO |
Sheets or not! |
yes |
Where am i more fun? |
Near me |
This means rien |
Idk about you but I had a blast at H4H with you |
Lol verrrrry same |
Did you know i got at least 1 holiday trinket there for you? |
Sneak! |
Psht |
Tricksy |
Now I'll throw in more |
Lol |
Make me that lego build yet? |
Not yet! |
Plans after we celebrate when baby jesus rotates the sun? |
My older step dude's birthday is the 28th |
That's about it |
Is that a weekend? |
Idk what logistics are like yet |
It's Saturday |
Damn |
Na |
Youre salty too. Thanks |
Lol |
They're so busy up north idk if they will spend Jesus day and b'day down here, but I don't know really |
I am trying to find extended time for you/us. Chez moi or elsewhere |
Yay! |
But i need info from you before i can do anything |
I'm guessing you need to know when I can free myself |
I might have to start taking more Wednesdays off |
Lol |
Both are correct |
Makes sensw |
Right now I see the options as the above, or I go full nuclear, announce I am no longer monogamous, and go about my life |
I don't think the timing for option 2 is right |
Same |
So anyway, i work from home Thursday and that's it for the year of me working |
Nice! |
Well.... mostly |
Some chance is better than no chance! |
Did you not notice where i might be at home and not alone for all the days? |
Except the 26-29? |
Correct |
Or am I confused |
Which is still a maybe |
Yep |
As in, it's a maybe for me too |
Understood |
I wish i knew which places had day rooms around here |
Hmm. I don't know |
I got it |
Hmm? |
Couple ways to check. Heading home.... ttys |
K! |
Murrrrr |
You probably cant come over earlier tomorrow |
Okay |
Are wfh Thursday? |
And would that work? |
I can be quick as it may be necessary |
You know me, old pump and dump |
Well you know me, anyone who'll take me |
Tomorrow might work, depends what your intentions are |
Same for Thursday |
I really just want to make sure you get this package before schedules get really weird |
That's incredibly too sweet of you |
null |
I try |
L has his team Christmas from 2 - 4 at Leo's lodge on Jolly tomorrow. |
Hence the time questioning |
But i can go where i like |
Well poop the morrow may not be fitting |
I'm sorry |
I will be in touch anyway we will figure it out |
:( |
Well i feel absolutely crazy |
All is well babes |
Are you ok? |
Idk. Maybe and kind of and yes and no. A lot going on in my head |
Anything urgent? |
Urgent how? |
Should I worry-- might have to cut out abruptly |
I dont think you have to worry |
Ok ty babe |
I'm going to go quiet for a bit as a precaution |
Ok |
❤️ to “ Ok ” |
Hi beebee |
Heya |
Sorry for the cloak and dagger crap |
I wasn't totally confident I would not find myself draped upon |
Can you explain more? I dont entirely know what you mean |
I wanted to protect against the case where RLH draped herself over me, physically or otherwise |
Just didn't want to be surprised |
Gotcha |
That's also why we have smaller words though |
Sorry if it isn't clear she's moving from porch to living room |
Oh okay |
Moving herself? |
Just saying this is one of the few times she moves about |
Oh, okay |
And now |
She is in her chair (in the room above me) |
What's your plan if she tries to physically engage you? |
null |
I wasn't actually pointing at him |
Psht |
I had two fingers trying to draw his eyes |
Aw, that's cute |
If she does |
I can push it off |
She will be upset |
And I will be well positioned to tell her my grievances |
Or not |
But she's already seen my reject her behavior in ways I never used to do |
And leave her unfulfilled |
Because I will not engage |
Can i have examples? Or is it what i already know about her paranoia and things |
Yeah basically that |
Especially since those responses from me really are new this year, and really since June |
I can pinpoint the day |
Short story is I'm tired of eating shit and I don't have to k thx bye |
No argument |
No yelling |
No theater |
Just disengage |
And I've practiced this so much now |
Sorry I do go on some times |
Not at all |
I love hearing from you |
Lol thx |
The point is |
I can say no |
And she will flip out |
But I can manage it |
In different ways |
How else? |
And nobody gets hurt, except it will be emotionally brutal for her |
And me but I've already lived this in my head |
This is good. Im proud of you for the boundaries |
I feel like tough guy |
Wanna see a kewl cat video I just made |
I know |
https://photos.app.goo.gl/gbn5gSeiRZiL9jNr7 |
Starring Mas Balà |
Yes I am in a good position |
If you can call it that |
Tres mignon |
Is it? |
Lol |
It, he, you, yes |
Ty |
What shall you do with your day tomorrow my dear? |
I dont know |
My poor baby! |
A good problem to have |
I want to do more than i have capacity to |
Poor baby |
Some of those things are not in your span of control, just sayin |
Nothing is |
Hmm |
Can you help me understand what you might enjoy at the spa |
Idk what your comfort level with their options |
I'm still baffled at you wanting to do any of this |
Too bad :) |
I want to spoil you |
So would you enjoy a massage? |
Facial pampering? |
I would enjoy anything that isnt nails |
Side note that i didn't realize me not knowing how to accept good intentions without remittance was an issue until now. I do not like these feels or memories :/ |
It's ok babe |
It's weird because so many of these realizations are new to me |
I'm so excited! |
Will you do it ? My treat? |
What are you excited for? |
To give you this gift! |
But i dont understand |
Nevermind that. I will make financial arrangements and you can schedule it when it is convenient for you |
Does that work? |
I think so? |
Only one person has done anything similar for me and it was nowhere near this. I'll te you when i can |
You don't have to tell me now don't sweat it |
Sporadic spouse interruptions |
Je comprends |
Do I re remember this conjugation correctly? |
Nvm I looked it up :) |
Lol |
Hey now |
Ok beebee |
null |
Love you! |
2024-12-18T06:58:28 |
Good morning mon etoile! |
Je suis us etiole? |
null |
Je pense qu'oui |
How are you sweet baby? |
Ok. You? |
So far so good |
That's good |
What are you up to today? |
I am going to venture out around 10 |
That sounds much more fun than working |
Agreed |
Skip work? You have a mobile work device |
Tis true |
null |
Oh my goodness |
Right? |
How's it going there? How was last night? |
It's fine. Very quiet today. Last night was fine |
Everything is fiiiine lol |
Lies!!! |
Lol |
Heh |
I'm bored as a stone |
Anything i can help with? |
Wait a sec, bucko - you have unbuilt lego! |
Did you just call me bucko |
Yep! |
https://www.simplyrecipes.com/pyrex-vs-pyrex-expert-8757800 |
Yeah that's the ticket! |
2024-12-18T13:10:17 |
Omg |
I am so so tired |
Just woke up again |
Lol I thought you were going out! |
Idk |
Gads |
Had an emergy drink |
Emergient drink! |
Eugch |
He is on his way back here |
Dang it! |
No kidding |
I have to go to Meijer around 1600 |
For real? |
Bc for some reason she cannot get her own prescriptions at the drive through pharmacy |
??? |
Legit that is the only reason |
She uses meijer? |
Nvm as of one minute ago, I am also picking up the weed order 🤪 |
Dang it! |
Ikr? |
So is the renewal team trashed or what |
Does your basement have a door that locks from the outside? |
Sober. And no. Only entrance or exit is top of the stairs |
I mean an interior door |
2024-12-18T15:46:09 |
I take it this isn't a good time for a drop off |
No. Sorry. Tomorrow? |
Np babe :) |
At the dispensary |
Dude walked out that looked like Beasley 😆 |
It wasn't though lol |
2024-12-18T19:12:15 |
Heyyyyy |
Duuuude |
How are you?? |
Good and less than good. How about you? |
Are you safe and sound |
I am fine |
I am, i think :) |
De nada |
Very quiet it is |
Wife just came in from porch moments ago |
That's late |
Hehehe |
Fresh weed drop |
How does she get? |
Got to hang at the dispo for like 20-25 minutes |
Oh? |
Lol yeah |
She ordered 10 things, all buds, no exaggeration |
No one-offs |
It was like 5g of that |
1/4 of this |
Etc |
10 items |
Poor kid behind the counter was flustered |
I have no idea what that means |
It's kinda like going to McDonald's and ordering 1 of everything on the menu |
Ohhhh wow |
😅 |
Well she actually ordered online, well ahead of time |
The girl was first making side eye at the backroom for not having that online order filled |
Such is life at the bud bar I guess |
Oh, they call it a deli |
I think that's cool, and seductive at the same time |
Ofc! |
Hieeeeee |
How are |
You |
Lol |
Good spirits honestly |
Yay! |
Physically.... idk. Weird |
Happy baby! |
😊 |
Yeah? |
Yeah |
I feel like maybe my port is weird now but have no way of knowing bc i dont usually touch it |
But i am humming |
Are you nervous about tomorrow, or Friday |
Why do you say tomorrow? |
Work |
=sucks |
Nah. It is what it is |
But I'm not trying to be a bad influence |
Commissions really is easier |
Interesting |
Well I was just wondering why you were humming |
I talk to myself a lot |
Usually as a substitute for music |
Humming is not a good thing with me usually |
Or when I'm coding--thats a different process |
I am physically in diacomfort that's why |
Aah |
Indeed |
I know |
I can cover you in oatmeal |
That's good for you |
Wont help this but thanks! |
Working tomorrow? |
Maybe I put you on a sandwich |
Yes I'm working tomorrow |
Im writing documentation |
Technical writing was a field I considered |
I have a text somewhere |
Can I has your liver? |
Yes |
If i can tech write! |
I haz awards |
Legit |
Mmm I knew there was something sexy about you |
How have you kept this a secret |
I have a handful of writing awards |
Won cash for them and everything |
Ecen poetry ones |
Technical poetry? |
Sorceress |
Or evil genius |
I'm still trying to tell |
Yes |
Or... oui, ja |
No joke |
No mas ouija |
So are you a spy or no |
What do you think? |
Not telling |
Do you just get off the seance with Stevie Nicks? |
Answer truthfully |
Plz |
No |
She's still alive, friend |
So you're still on it???? |
Wtf you two |
Yeah but shes a witch she can do wtf she pleases |
Did you ask because she's also a 5ftsomething gemini? |
No shit? |
I did not |
She's 5ft 1in |
And may 26 |
1948 |
Noooo |
Fml |
?? |
My parents born in the same year |
My dad in the same month |
How bless-ed |
They live in the same state |
I'm a witch! |
Hahaha |
No no |
Me no coven |
Ok and you? You are tightsies with SN |
DAMN MAY BABIES |
How high did you get, sir? |
❤️❤️❤️ |
Yes you love us |
And all our flowers |
The 2 best ones |
Lilacs and LoyV |
LotV |
Lots of the v...erge? |
Right right |
Vetch? |
Lilies of the valley |
Vag |
Yep |
Emmhmm |
Love em all |
Mom was a big wildflower gal |
Loves to paint them even now |
Still paints em |
Aww 🥰 |
Yes |
Me mum |
Old Stevie |
And my aunt had "rumours" |
Which I loved, and still do, and still have to copy she bought me |
She and a share a phonetically same middle name |
For a bd present or something |
Wait what middle names? |
You know |
She and a |
Sorry I'm stuuuupid |
I have the same-sounding middle name. They are orthographically different |
Oh! Cool |
Lynn |
Wait |
What do you think? |
The latter |
Yes |
Ty I just wanted to be correct |
So who are you spying for |
The Nicks'ses? |
Okay, what have you and i done once each, at separate times, completely "normal" to most people? |
Did they hook you up with ccrv video? |
Oh noes |
Here's a clue: me NOT doing it is intentional. I dont know about you |
I am certain |
About one thing |
Hmm? |
I don't know |
Oh sad |
I'll pleut! :( |
Il fait pleut |
Zeut |
Dammit! |
Zut |
Quoi? Tu n'aimes pas de pleut? |
Oh la la |
Emmène-moi à ton sandwich au fromage |
I'm sorry it has to be this way darling |
Lol |
I feel icckkkky |
Ok I will disrobe if you don't mind |
Sure |
It's too cold for that here |
I need to find a food |
She will be coming to the bedroom soon so I should sign off |
I love you |
I miss you |
Sleep well, and have a good day tomorrow |
You, too |
I miss you too |
I do |
I want to hold you |
I love you, sleep well |
Don't worry about me |
Ty |
❤ |
❤ |
I love you |
Ily2 |
2024-12-19T06:54:43 |
null |
null |
Yes |
How's everything? |
Fine fine |
Really? |
I think so |
I'm itchy |
Still think it's dry skin? |
How was last night? |
I think so. That plus dehydration. It responds somewhat to moisturizing lotion |
Okay, good. |
It was fine |
Are you okay? |
Yes I'm ok |
Okay |
Ty |
Today is your last day working for a while! |
Yes, it is |
Well that's one giant scoop of wtf you don't have to worry about for a minute |
Kind of |
If I can |
Btw that BLFAC pullover is perfect fo hanging out in my cool basement. |
Yay! |
null |
Well babes |
Emm? |
I feel soooo sick |
Oh no! |
Right? |
do you need to eat |
I dont think so but I'll try eventually |
Ok I'm stealing your dog if you dont |
Psssshhhhtt |
null |
Hmm |
She is busy cjasing all sorts of rabbits & foxes! |
Aww |
How much do like those insulators? |
Which ones? |
The ones from the lines that are glass and sometimes in the ground |
Oh yeah it's a cool deco item! |
What if i source more? |
*sourced |
Also, ability to go anywhere this evening? |
Maybe... Not sure. I do need to get see that uranium g last |
Glass through |
Yes |
What styles does she like? Pricepoint? |
Idk honestly |
null |
Yes! |
I lovvvvvve there |
Cool thx! |
Go in, to the right-most aisle, back, turn left. Somewhere in there i think |
null |
Maybe that will help |
Thank you! |
I know :) |
Lol |
I might go to megamall yonigjt if you want me to keep looking |
And thrifty treasures is super close to you - might have some but might not. You can call him or swing by |
https://www.estatesales.net/MI/East-Lansing/48823/4314924?srsltid=AfmBOooKGBUVPs8AEplvIO-4N0CZXEFhV4TNzrBcE7JnTZ1nS5eGaHTm |
I know you know where that is |
I wanna gooooooooo |
Kinda just past the post office & library |
713 applegate ln |
Yep I know right where Applegate is! |
Many a wealthy classmate lived in that street |
Might have done some mdop there that got in probation once lol |
Lollll |
I know where another uranium glass booth is and i may head to that place tonight |
And 3014 Hamlet tomorrow, saturday, Sunday |
I'm interested in any and all sources of the green glowy glass! |
:D |
Would you like to join me this evening? I can sign off at 1715 |
And be ready to depart then |
I'll be there if I can swing it |
Okay |
Time to ahow up at UMHS is 1030 |
Realistically I will not be able to spend more than a few minutes |
That's okay :) |
I don't want to cramp your style if you're looking to get out of the house, just go :) |
Baaaaaaaabe |
You are making me sad |
I know I'm sorry I feel stuck |
No it's not that |
I do have an alternate solution but you wouldnt see me |
No I don't think that |
I'm just trying to be realistic |
About my availability |
It really is okay whatever you decide |
Exactly |
So plan on me not having more than the ability to do a drive by, basically |
And if it makes no sense for me to do that, it's fine |
Okay |
Highly doubtful |
Any time this weekend? |
Possible this weekend, yea |
I found a cool uranium piece. All you would need to do is pick it up from a porch |
Whoa! |
From a porch?? |
You're goo |
Good |
Lol |
I have skills |
And goo |
Not yet |
Anyway |
Snort |
FYI |
I will be very asleep then |
Whats going on with you tomorrow? |
null |
11" across |
Dang that's cool |
I just have to tell the person if i want it and if they should set it out bingbangboom a little paypal later and you have a disb thing |
I'm the driver for tomorrow's concert in Flint, and we have to pick up one of her friends in Dimondale too |
null |
Ah. Yes. |
Well I'm having surgery to reroute and gradt some vasculature |
*graft |
I mean doesn't everyone? Come on lol |
2 - 2.5 hours if things go well |
But it's also the side my port is on, so who knows |
Better be some type & cross available in the blood bank |
A+ |
Wouldnt be the first. Or second. Or..... |
Same :) |
I was in the room when my sister was infused with my blood once. That was a strange feeling |
You've had transfusions?? |
No not me |
Pure as snow I am |
Ah |
Offensive |
I didn't say what kind of snow |
Mmhmm |
I was a full 40% portuguese at one point |
Hmm |
I thought family was primarily Polish? |
I'm probably mixed up |
Had 40% of my blood volume transfused in lisbon |
Oh I see lol |
With a healthy dose of wine I bet |
Probably moreso fish and egg tarts |
Paella! |
It is one of the worse stories youll hear from me at some point |
null |
Very nice! Shoulda bought all of the last week |
I only saw 1. Were there more? |
All the CDs |
Back to dying for me |
No, no death |
Did you eat yet |
Yes |
I am laying on the floor to help now |
Rawr |
null |
Did we decide what's happening? |
Don't count on me being able to go anywhere this evening |
Sorry :( |
That isnt an issue. Actually kind of a relief |
No sorry |
Okay? |
But hey - i feel so much better after some orthostatic adjusting and a smack of cold air to my lungs |
Good deal! |
Arriving at u of m by 1030 tomorrow morning, surgery early afternoon, should take 2 - 3 hours under anaesthesia, then recovery, then back here i think |
Ok thanks! Good to know |
Heyo |
O hai |
I have a choice for you to make |
Would you rather have a description in words or a pic that is not the whole pic? |
Hmm |
I'm usually a "show me the evidence" kinda person, but I think words beats incomplete pic |
Night sky constellations and smaller or wilderness twilight and larger? |
First option |
Thanks |
Tissue or non? |
Non |
I figured |
Just so you know, i am typically a wonderful gift wraptress |
But what I'm doing for yours is genius if non pretty |
I wrapped semi pro for a fall & winter at Borders after all |
I knew I recognized you from America's hottest wrappers |
Did not realize I was depriving you with my answers to questions that had zero context, but hey |
I would have not hyperpackaged your random items anyway |
How you planning THAT explanation?? |
Heehee! |
For reals |
Remember that dude that came on America's Hottest Wrappers with like a bag of flour tortillas and everybody was staring at him until finally that one chick said "wtf are you doing here?" |
Felt bad for that guy |
He made a mean Cæsar wrap Iirc, not that I would eat it |
Are you already high.? |
Why do you oss assifer? |
Thought si |
Secret code ftw |
Girl I have been in my head all day doing technical writing. I love it but it puts my brain in a weird place sometimes |
Coulda been in me. |
Dammit I know it |
Dude why did you leave me on read |
Didn't |
I think i nap now |
Ok bebe |
2024-12-19T19:25:35 |
Haeeeee |
Well hello |
How are things there? |
Smooth as a baby poo after eating punkin |
Me & El Gato just had a little fade out as well |
Feeling nice |
Mine was not the least bit successful |
Oh poo |
I'm sorry |
Wherefore |
Dude my heart is just going to stop |
Whyyy |
Overstimulated, stress, sleep deprived, weird blood flow |
And ofc work |
I still have to work 6 hours this week |
How is that possible? |
Mandatory OT |
And help me understand mandatory ot in the same period as pto |
Makes zero sense |
Pheu |
Well poopy poop poo I'm sorry so much |
Yep |
Also in the same week they veil that they would've ratger just fired me |
Going to try and fetal myself up so maybe i sleep a tiny amount |
That's Horrible I'm sorry |
Heck |
You know i dont hum conciously, right? |
I am now |
Oh you didnt know before? |
You probably told me but I forgot |
I also twirl or play with my hair incessantly if it's down |
So i always wear it up |
Oh I have witnessed the twirl in person |
I can relate |
I don't do it so much anymore |
You've seen me do it? |
Yes I've been in the same room when you started |
And iirc there are details of that evening you don't remember |
Oh. Interesting |
And I know why |
There are details of most times with you i do not recall |
I know of a couple anyway. Sometimes you actually mention you might not remember something |
Which is sad to me in a way |
Yes. I know that's weird but i can feel the switch |
:( |
But I hope it's something you can heal through |
I hope so, too |
I understand blacking out trauma though, so I read you |
Can you explain more? |
And it isn't always trauma |
Fair enough |
It's a heightened emotional state |
I've oublietted several epochs and events in my time with RLH |
Really? |
She was angry with me when she first realized it, after my ONS |
Wait, she knows? |
I legit could not keep up with the emotional pressure and I started blanking out |
Above t the ONS? |
About? |
Yes |
Does she know? |
Oh yeah |
Interesting |
Thx |
And the whole discovery thing was ick, and I started blacking out memories |
I would like to hear this sometime |
I will share mine as well |
One sec, brb |
2024-12-20T06:45:30 |
Hi |
Hiee |
How's it going? |
Waking up is hard to do lol |
Ready for your big day? |
Not really |
Struggling cery hard at waking up. Antibac shower now |
Et toi? |
Im about to leave so idk when i can chat next |
I hope you have lots of fun today, or that it's at least tolerable |
Thx! |
😊 |
I feel so awful right now |
Yeah! |
2024-12-20T21:12:39 |
Hope it was a fab concert |
Hiee |
How are you? |
Okay |
You? |
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I'm fine! |
Peep the ID on the ankle |
They got you covered |
I begged off |
I'm home alone |
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Not my fave IV |
Yuck! |
Everything went ok? |
And my lip is swollen |
Yep |
Do you know normal dialysis flow? |
Not really |
600 - 1000 ml per (??) |
Minute maybe |
Know what mine was? |
Yeah |
No guesses? |
4000 |
4 liters |
That's a damn gallon |
Dang girl |
I do that in my aquarium all day come in over |
It wasnt a good thing lol |
I'm sorry |
But holy fuck it hurts |
Your arm? |
Yes. What else? For real |
I'm sorry babe :( |
Imma go back to sleep |
100% |
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2024-12-21T00:38:38 |
Wish you were here |
I miss you, too |
Aww |
How are you? |
Feeling better thx |
Tell me about your day? |
Yay my sweetie! |
It's been nothing special really |
Dialed into a dept meeting, which was actually fun. Did a couple lame things at work |
I've been getting drunk, cleaning, and doing laundry |
And playing music |
And eating chocolate and nasty potato chips snacks all night |
Fucking America babe |
And |
Can i know more details? |
Wait for it |
Playing with my |
A..... |
Next letter? |
U |
My auld lang syne, you are correct |
Thought so |
My auspicious things |
Augmented phallis? |
Umm, I wasn't going to tell you |
Oh |
I had my implant removed |
I didnt say artificially augmented |
And I'm full of shit actually |
You are wondering about augmented phallus? |
Da |
What did they give you? |
Or deny lol |
During or after |
Yes, but especially after |
It's laughable |
Dorks |
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Aaaaaaaaaand |
Wait for it |
Ready? |
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Gee |
I could take all 7 and not need that |
Ffs |
What is naloxone |
Narcan |
Ah |
Is that normal? |
Keep in mind i get oxy, norco, and more in larger quantities on a normal basis |
I have NEVER gotten a narcan rx |
I see |
Gotta be a cya surgical thinf |
Yeah I know you take much more than oxy |
Agree cya |
In murixa |
Lol |
Sorry. Typinc is hard |
So vegetables right? |
Veg 100% |
Btw |
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So swollen |
Iz ow |
That's 1 later of Ace bandage |
And i have an enlarged brachial artery from the extra volume the fistula was pumping. As a side effect. No, brach artery was not the fistula highway, just adjacent and jealous i guess |
That is wild |
Is it problematic? |
Causes pain they said |
Lol |
Oh |
Well |
Lovely |
But seriously - 4L a minute through an art-ven graft |
Told them for years it didnt feel great |
Hopefully once i even out i will be less dizzy too |
It affected bloodflow in my whole body |
Who knew |
Ya wow that sounds hugely disruptive! |
Your poor little body has been trying to compensate for this perverse plumbing |
Yep |
Oh shit - i think i put something together |
Eh? |
During playtime ny heart obv beats a lot more. More fistula flow. I get really cold |
Totally! |
You have a short circuit |
Had |
And i solved this like 10 hours after waking up from anaesthesia. With oxy on board. And benadryl. |
My smart baby |
Rough as nails you are |
Tough I mean |
Imma chew m6 arm off now though |
My poor baby!!! |
Everything still sounds muffled and fuzzy. And takes longer to process. I hate that |
Do you know what they gave you? |
Not that those drugs are much familiar to me |
When I had my wisdom teeth lulled |
Pulled |
A few years ago |
Surgery similarly, but much deeper for me |
Are you at your mom's house? |
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Versed righr before |
Im in my bedroom |
Oh! |
You've had a long day |
Kinda but i am awake now |
My lip hurts lol |
But for real |
Do you ever give rlh jewelry? |
I frequently give her jewelry in a specific genre. Old turquoise and sterling silver. American SW is a treasure trove |
She has several kg of the stuff by now |
Right. Cool for the artistry |
Lol pawn star? |
I do what i want lol |
Yumm |
Any books for her? I can for sure loot my tbgro piles |
Nah she's all electronic, unless there's a duck off cool picture book |
A what kind of pic? |
An Ireland coffee table book would get her attention |
I have some |
She needs not be reminded |
You can totes shop here |
You are totes delish thank you! |
😊 |
I will gladly pay in whatever form of currency you prefer |
Or credit |
Barter? |
I have only myself |
And simple tools and ancient methods |
Im good with that |
I am a simple man |
At your service |
I wish I was anyway |
I want my ears kissed |
Perhaps the lobes suckled upon |
Please |
I love doing this for you! |
Do you know my favorite part of aex? Real question |
Lol! |
You have no guesses? |
I might |
Something something safely? |
Safety? |
Interesting thought |
But no |
Ok |
Hint - It's a physical part of the whole interactiom |
I know you love me to kiss your neck |
And je t'adore |
Neck, clavicle, ears, etc. Yes. |
Aww! Ty! |
I love to do it so much for you |
I just love you |
Ohhh I'm swooning 🥰 |
You're so sweet to me |
Nah |
But i do try |
The box of things i gave for you is vasically things that are cool or quirky or useful and are almost all pre-owned but i hope you know it helps show a little of how much i think of you. How often. And i pay attention to little details about you |
I appreciate that so much! You have shown me several times now your impressive memory for details |
Thank you 🙂 |
It's only for things that matter to me though |
Like.... non maths lol |
Lol |
See you are sweet! |
I am having trouble typing now :( |
Mee too babes |
Call it for tonight? |
Parting is such sweet sorrow |
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Blablahblahsonnet the morrow |
Poor baby sausagehands |
Mmfmmfmmf i can't hear you buried in you |
Sleep well angel face |
Sir those are fingers on my shin |
I was going to ask if they are unusually oxygenated today |
And swolled |
Yes |
The deuuuuugs |
And very warm |
Bundle up |
Drink water |
Sleep well |
I will drink my gzero. Could go for some salty noodles |
Pay no mind when I escort Sadie from the room with treats in hand |
Actually, my sodim and ph were both kinda low |
She is not here with me |
Get yer noodle on girl |
I suspect R will be home by 0300 or so lol |
Am very sorry i cant do anythjng |
Ofc |
Ph was 7.31 |
From vbg |
Hurray no abg though |
That's good |
Still have scars from those |
I was kinda good at them |
But that's really saying I sucked less |
You werw allowed to do them? |
Oh yah |
Clarification |
Mine were all done in PICU and you have to be a physician back then to do them |
Only by art stick |
Never on a line/Cath |
And I think we only drew wrist |
Anyway, yeah |
You can kinda see the stitch marks |
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Left wrist |
Mine was stitched in. Did you do that kind? |
Noo |
Oh |
Maybe we're talking different things? |
I think i had a glass tube? |
We had a special 5ml syringe |
Art stick in the wrist |
It was 20ish years ago |
Have an ice bath ready |
Mine was in for days and on a monitor |
I think at least |
The syringe was "blunt" |
Was always for dka |
You had a line? |
Maybe? |
Art line, sounds like |
CCUs not uncommon |
Poor baby! |
Here's what i remember... |
Makes sense to me. |
Art line for sure in PICU |
NO POKES! |
Ans awake for placement. Always. |
AAAAAAAA |
why???? |
I was between 15 and 17 for all of them |
Because i deserved it? |
No! |
Not true |
You have like dozens of people to say that to |
Np |
I didnt take my insulin and DKA was the consequence, hence i earned the PICU stay |
And therefore artline or IO or IJ or NG tube or canopy thing or sitter or whatevwr |
I understand the critical aspect |
They had me make my own bed and put my gait belt on |
They? |
Medical staff at the hospital |
6 Mott |
Dont know who gave the directive |
And you trust this lot? |
I also weighed less than 100 pungs, had an NG tube, and didnt have a single thing pass my lips for 6+ months. Nit even water |
My poor babygirl how old were you? |
When i was starting to eat again i got refeeding syndrome. Blood sugars also went crazy. Took 10 juice boxes one night to get me to maintain a glucose of 35 |
Still in the hospital |
😮 to “ When i was starting to eat again i got refeeding syndrome. Blood sugars also went crazy. Took 10 juice boxes one night to get me to maintain a glucose of 35 ” |
I was between 16 and 18 |
Ive been this height or a little more since i turned 10, if you need perspective on that weight |
And i think i told you my mother consented to me undergoing ECT at the tail end of me being 17 |
You did indeed |
I turned 18 soon enough - on the 6th floor of peds med at UM Mott in Ann Arbor- and was ambulance transferrwd to Rush in Chicago ao maybe i would live post intense ED treatment |
I'm glad you're here babes |
Thanks |
I mean it |
I appreciate that |
You know i think I'm indestructible right |
Probably a less than good thing |
Kind of? |
I understand where you're coming from |
Where? I should probably confirm or correct |
The indestructible bit |
Right |
"I'm going to do this thing bc I want to " |
That's one qay i think, yes |
I think for the indestructible part though, I've tried to take myself out a number of times, outside forces keep trying.... i try and give up and the universe throws me back in for another round. I iust wish i knew why. And any martyrdom reasons |
Side note - do you know where my thermometer is up here? |
2024-12-21T09:42:38 |
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Happy winter! |
Oh is it now? Merry solstice to you! |
And a happy festivus to the rest of us |
:) |
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Wow that frame |
Noooo the pic! |
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I took the pic |
Need a desk? |
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How's the arm? |
Actually pretty good |
Going uranium mining |
Aww wish i could go! |
I'd love to mine you I mean mine with you |
Make you mine, even |
Yesss |
Feel free to buy me the whole store |
Just for you! |
I always deserve presents :) |
You do! |
Yay! 🎉 |
😊 |
How long are you grounded? |
I don't know |
Why, whatcha got? |
An undying lust |
2024-12-21T16:14:05 |
Hiya |
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How's the day been? |
So quiet you are |
I was out gathering for a few hours, just got home maybe 30 minutes ago |
Nice |
What did you source? |
A lot of radioactive glass! |
Cool! From where? Can i see? |
It's still wrapped up but I will un wrap later so you can see |
Oh yay! |
Do you need more? |
The lady behind the counter was the vendor for two of the pieces, she gave me a little discount |
😊 |
I don't need more now, but I do want to keep tabs on sources |
There's a booth at Megamall between aisles K & L |
I got 250 worth today lol |
Holy cats! |
It is a tad pricey in there |
But I want to go back and look at some of the wool tartan things I saw |
Shoulda gone to aurelius and cavanaugh or wherever i told you |
Oh you did say that yes |
I know a cool site or 2 for scot tartans |
https://www.usakilts.com/kilts-and-packages.html |
https://scottishshop.com/ |
Oh yeah my kids buddy has a bunch of these iirc |
Nice! |
Macleods i go to when im in stratford |
Ooh! Yay! |
There's an amaaaazing antique mall i want to go to spend way more time in in woodstock ON |
And some cool ones around stratford |
And i semi collect art from a place there in stratford called Indigena |
Started collecting native soapstone carvings when i was 12 in alaska/yukon/BC |
You see a lot in antique shops too |
And i have a lot of vintage or antique books i think are fantastic but may part with |
I was a bit overstimulated in that store I have to admit |
That's why when i go somewhere i take forever |
:) |
Do you have capacity for any time together this week? |
Probably yes |
Not sure when exactly, but yes |
Excellent |
Yay!!! |
How doing? |
Good good |
What are you up to? |
Just got off the phone |
Do you happen to know the cheapest local place for ultra basic poster frames? |
Like, nbd to replace again kinds that go in a basement |
Poster frames eh? Like how big? |
22.375 by 34 |
That's poster sized for most, believe it or not |
Gotcha 👍 |
Meijer? |
They used to have cheap frames anyway |
I know meijer, target, wm, michaels, noann, hoblob all have them |
I was hoping for secret insight |
Ah, sorry love |
No worries 🙂 |
Omgggggg |
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Up to mid forearm |
Oweeeee! |
It's the itching |
Pain i can deal with better |
Oh god no |
Itching aaaaaa |
Just kill me uggghhh |
Really though, how do i help thia? |
Welp |
1 |
2 |
Cannot do #1 |
Already had 100mg diphenhydramine |
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Ah good on #2 |
Bummer on #1 |
But it's ok |
One more |
Have to get a pic one sec |
I cant unbandage it yet |
That was accidental unrolling and just bruising |
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Or other good moisturizer |
My derm was right |
About my condition |
Yours is a tad different bc surgery and all |
Yea. And i cant unwrap it |
Poor baaaaaabeeeeee |
I'm sorry about it |
It itches so badly it hurts. Like biting |
I wish I could distract you |
It's difficult to ignore but may be possible |
I'm very irritable. And hungry. And want to scream. And go get things done |
Sorry babe |
But please feel welcome to distract |
I mean it |
Is anyone helping you at all |
Just a dude diligence question |
Should I order food for you? |
I will do it |
I appreciate that |
I am just bitchraging at this point |
Whereforart these distractions? |
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Zut alors |
What is happening? |
It was a long shot, but the baskets are too small for the ultrasonic water bath |
No worries tho |
Ah okay |
I sources the baskets from you |
Yes |
There are four |
Okay |
Aye |
Typical scene here |
RLH is posylatizing to the boys |
I can't spell |
I cant tell what that means |
Sense 2 |
Shoulda known |
Took another trip down memory lane today |
Prose comes from praise |
Ahh, too funny |
Lamenting? |
It's a typical mode of conversation for them |
One sec pl |
Step son much story much fucking God damn this and fucking God damn that too. Fucking God damn it. |
Baaaaabes help meeeee |
Step son is drunking my ear off |
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2024-12-22T00:34:35 |
Good night sweet babe if you are sleeping ❤️❤️❤️ |
2024-12-22T02:59:30 |
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2024-12-22T05:54:24 |
Sorry babes |
It was a terrible night herw |
2024-12-22T08:09:24 |
Oh no ! |
2024-12-22T13:36:05 |
Hey |
Hi babe! |
Hi |
How are you what's up? |
Just waking up. Last njght was bad |
What happened baby? |
Pain |
Oh babe I'm so sorry! |
Thanks |
How is it now? |
It's ok. I am very sleepy |
How are you? |
I'm fine |
I'm sure I'll hear about it soon enough |
Im sorry babe |
I am very non lucid still |
This is why I hate this time of year tbh |
You just rest |
I have a ton to do |
Byt yes |
2024-12-22T17:39:51 |
Heyyyy |
Hey babylicious! |
How are you? |
I'm good |
Just on my way home from Kroger |
How are feeling? |
I'm okay |
Spent the day drugged & sleeping |
What did you do? |
Tried to stay out of the way |
Doing well so far |
Literally watched sand dunes in my aquarium for a while |
Thought about making a turntable shelf. Might do yet tonight |
2024-12-22T19:17:00 |
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Your poor arm! |
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2024-12-22T20:45:47 |
Hi |
Oh hello !! |
null |
How are you? |
Doing fine! |
Cool cool |
Yeah |
How are you doing sweetheart |
I hate this |
I know |
I'm sorry |
It'll get better |
Did i show you my arm? |
Yes |
So owie |
All over your pretty arm!! |
And itcccchhhhy |
Aaaaa! |
How is the incision? |
Idk. Atill covered. More than one |
Ah |
Ok |
I cannot wake up |
Meds ftw for you rn |
Babe :) |
I wish I could take care of you |
I dislike not being able to do anything |
My poor baby |
I have presents for you! |
Awwwww |
Too sweet |
OMG this music |
?? |
Serious 60s surfer drug addict shite atm |
It's so corny |
What's up buttercup |
null |
Anyhoo |
OMG the lollipop song now |
No joke |
I think i am falling back asleep ( |
Ok babes |
I love you |
Sleep well |
Ily too |
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2024-12-23T00:57:04 |
Hope you are feeling better! |
2024-12-23T04:06:45 |
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I love you too, pudding cup! |
2024-12-23T06:20:03 |
Hey babes! |
O hai! |
How are you? |
Sleepy :) |
Awww |
Enjoy going back to freamlanf |
*dreamland |
How are you sweetie? |
So much better. Still a way to go but better |
Did i show you pucs last night? |
Yes you did |
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Yeah, those? |
Thems the ones! |
Yep |
I'm glad to hear that you're feeling better ❤️ |
So far anyway |
I had a lottttttt of drugs in my system too |
Whatcha doin today? |
I'm not sure tbh |
Lol |
Feel welcome to bring me frames :) |
Maybe nails |
Boys will return today and then I believe she will go grocery shopping in prep for the holy pizza day that is Wednesday |
Are they majing the string art themselves? |
I guess so? Not sure |
Want an idea? |
Sure 🙂 |
Get rlh or with of them a practice kit |
Good thinking! |
Aww thanks |
Do you know which i mean? |
You can get them in any craft/kid craft section. Walmart, target, michaels, Joann, maybe even 5below |
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Kitteh Iz broken |
Iz zleepy |
Hey guess what!? |
What?! |
I have time later this week for you |
Unsure about before the 25th |
Goody! |
😊 |
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Any of those for you? |
2024-12-23T08:58:47 |
Hey you |
2024-12-23T12:03:42 |
Sorry babe I drifted off again |
2024-12-23T13:35:38 |
Happy apres midi |
Hay babeses! |
How's it been going? |
Good, good |
What did you do? |
I've done almost nothing lol |
Same |
Well not really but i have a significant obstacle to getting more done |
Like, an arm? |
No |
Next guess? |
Umm |
A boat |
More like a spouse who took the day off "to take care of me" |
Who has slept this whole time |
That was going to be my next guess lol |
Do you need to go somewhere? |
A few places |
Le sigh |
2024-12-23T19:17:06 |
Le hiee! |
Hey |
Almost home... chat soon |
Okay! |
2024-12-23T22:21:11 |
🟡 |
Hi |
I am terribly sorry for the neglecting |
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But who is who? |
Imma lick you for that |
We're equally matched |
Okay |
What's wrong? |
Nothing |
Hay |
All is well |
Did you say "hay" because it means "there is" in portuguese? |
No ha ha I am not so clever |
It's more of an infection |
Plus |
Hay sweet baby |
Bc sweet |
You're good at things right |
Do you remember where I put my science experiment? |
Umm |
Refrigerator? |
Good guess |
Hint: |
Mise en place |
Ramekins |
Aye |
What doing? |
Mmhmm |
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Hi |
Omg! |
Quelle est? |
Ma douce |
Le rowr rowr |
Been.... a day. What did you end up doing? |
2024-12-24T05:28:43 |
Hey baaaaaabe |
2024-12-24T08:35:13 |
Good morning! |
How are you? |
How was yesterday? Plans today? |
All is well I reckon. I'll probably lay low today. |
Where'd you go yesterday? |
Nowhere til like 6pm. Then over to Waverly. Then home. |
Really wish i could see you today |
Same! |
Dont you have to sneak off somewhere pretty soon? Hinthinthint |
I'm sure I do |
Well then it should be settled |
I still need to bring you things |
Ditto |
I think ive asked, but any lamps for you? |
Thanks but no |
Okay :( |
Snowbabies? |
Comme ca |
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Do you need any more ideas? |
Kitteh like snow babies |
I think I'm set thank you! |
Fine.... dont take my junk! |
Lol |
I'll trade those! |
I could be the one's older stepmum |
Lolll |
I mean younger |
From what I've seen they're all 13 yo |
I meant I'll take yours |
Hehe |
So what do y'all do for today, tomorrow? Any particular annual thing? |
My mom's house in the morning and into afternoon. Quick bite to eat, open stockings, open presents from each other, jave lunch, chill, home. |
You? |
Eve is usually RLH waiting until the last minute to make ready for the next day and getting flustered |
Fallout radio will be on all day |
I'm so over it |
I soooooo want to escape with you, even for a little, today |
How about a week? |
Lol |
Ofc! |
I'm complaining but nothing is really expected of me. It's just a horrible sensory overload for me b |
If I haven't mentioned this, they all talk at the same time, constantly |
Each one trying to be heard |
And over whatever background noise there is |
I understand |
I have to close my eyes sometimes |
Awwwe |
This too shall pass |
Then Nitya's birthday is Saturday |
I can't find the crowbar I got him |
Do you know what I did with it? |
Not a clue |
Trunk? |
I think i might actually go somewhere. I'm too indecisive. Aaaargh |
So are you actually free today? |
Well i am awake and he is not.... says he's waking up by 1pm but who knows |
Whatcha got? |
I was just confused. I thought you were under lock & key |
Kinda |
But...... the sleep |
Lol |
So no rescues today? |
Dammit! |
2024-12-24T12:20:28 |
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Kitteh Iz wrapper? |
Yep |
Japanese playing cards?? |
Still confined to home? |
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Heyyyyyyy |
Hiee... |
Contusion U |
Much bruise |
Yes |
How does it feel? |
Swollen |
I have been super productive today! |
Yay you! |
Good job |
Thanks |
Do you get "rebound energy" after illness/medical issues? |
Possibly? This is a new concept |
I made it up |
Yes! |
Real quick - light or dark for me? |
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Dark |
For pale babe |
Lol thanks |
How to remove printed-on acrylic paint (the location name) from a fabric bag? (So it doesn't have words on it) |
I feel weird and do not like it |
I'd try a gel citrus stripper on the paint |
You toooooooo |
Any ideas on any freetime the next week or so? |
And what kind of gel might i have here? Or other product |
Pretty sure I can get away with either Thursday or Friday, then Monday or Tuesday |
I think gel stripper is pretty common. You'd know if you've used it. All paint stripper is nasty |
As in harmful |
Right. Maybe I'll try nail polish remover |
Spot test it ofc |
Worth a shot! |
Wanna see something cool?? |
Yah! |
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Cats and dogs thrifted ornaments this yeat |
Hehe cute! |
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Niiiice |
There has to be collector's value in that |
The story I heard was California would not let them open stores with that name, so they changed it |
Right. Derogatory in people's minds for obv reasons |
Idk if the story is true. |
Wish you wore caps for this reason lol |
But yeah |
I'm wearing one in my Google profile |
That was my "camping mode" hat |
Can you go get my stuff off the porch & being it upstairs? Plz |
On it |
Thank you |
Might take a couple days |
Okay |
Start hoofing it |
Maybe stop at skymint along the way |
Sure sure |
There's a surgery center along the way. Anything I can grab for you there? |
All of it |
Maybe see if my spouse is still alive |
Hmm |
What test do you recommend? |
Not sure |
My poor baby! |
Yeah |
Whatever at least i got shit done |
Good job babe! |
Frame color? |
Maybe mat too |
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How pretty! |
Idk frames... Somehow I have no ability or where to start |
Wood or something else? |
I have all sorts |
Kinda got a thing for frames |
How about a blonde wood? |
Is contrast good? |
I dont have a finished one, so not for this |
Cool |
What do you like? |
Idk. Shiny ir iridescent might be good |
I have to forage |
Bon chance! |
Pardon |
Bonne chance! |
Haha just cleaned up this old girl |
https://open.spotify.com/album/3olTjegBD2x0kKzOCp9Vof?si=ndAjPGPoQHKgXPxGw5q8kA |
Catchy! |
Lol |
You kinda have to hear "sex" |
It was really out there at that time |
And I just realized how many references I missed as a 7th grader |
According to the info, you hadnt yet realized "sex" |
Lol |
True |
The album name got me |
I was little boy |
Fancy me |
Do you remember the first time you realized what happens when you have a happy pants dance? |
Sadly no |
You feel welcoke to tell me all about you and yourself anyway ;) |
Lol |
I'll work on that while you tell me why you like it |
It was a good MTV video for one |
And the little songbird is cute |
Canadonian I believe |
And the vignette is engaging |
OMG they are so edgy lol |
"torture" is waaaaaay over the top |
There was a time, however brief, when I embraced this feeling |
Say more |
Right |
Just looking up my age |
Bc I can't in my head |
Spreadsheet ftw |
So basically age 14 |
This is a hot item on my radio |
Yes |
I have a summer income mowing lawns |
Im certain I bought this with such funds |
And listened to every. Single. Moment. |
That's what you do! |
And it definitely got promoted to tape so I could use Walkman |
Which was a fucking deal |
And fu I got mine |
Mowing lawns baby! |
Wooooooo |
Haha I'm getting animated for no reason |
I should put on a video game |
And get furred up! |
You wit me |
You miss me? |
I miss you terribly |
I wanna hold you |
And hug you |
And kiss and kiss you |
OMG dude |
I can't find the crowbar |
3 letter agencies, fuck off |
Also |
I am le sorry |
Can't find my UV flashlight |
Weird |
The drones took them I swear it |
They hav something to do with our escape |
Right |
Wow lol unique encounter |
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Ummmmm |
Concern lik |
Emm? |
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Nvm |
How's it going? |
Nope..... tell me about your encounter |
I'm super buzzed and had what I felt was the most genuine interaction with my sson |
Please tell me! |
Wish I could find his crowbar lol |
Well he offered me a beer an hour ago, upstairs |
And I forgot it and he brought it to me |
Oh, and he brought the orange he thought would be nice to add |
And we shot the shit about his dead uncle, whose records I have been cleaning and playing |
And I packed a bowl and offered it to him |
Honestly the last bit is the one closest to the heart |
I've had a hard time relating to this guy for |
Tight |
What made the connection tonight? |
Who knows |
I'm feeling charitable |
But honestly |
He's not being a wanker |
I know he's good at heart |
Haha such a tender moment |
I'm really glad you've had that |
Me too |
I will have a very awkward question for you soon |
Okay |
Just know it's not a surprise that i feel when things are "off" |
Wait what do you mean |
No off only on |
Hello |
I feel like you have something to tell or ask me that you think i will not like |
No no, that is not the case! |
This is personal questions |
I need you to open your brain on me |
And other gooey things |
Okay |
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Yes |
Great work! |
In your mind's conversations,verbal or otherwise, how do you refer to me? |
You are never Andy or Andrew |
Thank you! I like this description a lot |
And same in that respect |
Did i ask or tell this the other day? |
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Right |
Yes babe |
Oh |
I also stole a bag of chocolate chips |
And had to fess up |
My ass was saved |
Bc fml |
Lol |
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Chonky steel |
Good for pounding |
Hopefully someday soon? |
I need to lay down. Will ttys ok? |
Yes |
Ofc |
Sweets babe |
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2024-12-24T22:21:25 |
Lol I am so impotent |
Heyyyyyyyyy |
Oh mymymy |
What? |
I took a long shower |
For what? |
Washed my hair |
And you know |
Classy |
Things |
And I feel like |
Like |
.......... |
I sure wish my sweet baby was here |
But I shall have to wait |
I have to get back downstairs in a sec, buuuuuuuuut |
I should be alone most Friday thru at least the weekend |
Sure sure |
Oh hmm! |
Well |
Unless I hear differently |
Boyo BD is Saturday |
I have potential for most of next week..... |
Oh how lovely |
But gtg for now |
Ok BB! |
❤ |
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Minnnnnnnne |
I need a skirt and a reason to shake it |
❤️ to “ Minnnnnnnne ” |
Ill give you yours if you give me mine |
100% |
Okay but srsly gotta go for now |
Oh sure bb |
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Yes? |
Leggings are so much more fun than long undies |
Merry celebratory thing! |
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2024-12-25T01:40:07 |
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2024-12-25T03:34:53 |
Damn babe! |
Happy arbitrary celebration of a guy who gets depicted a whole lit like a Borgia to you too! |
2024-12-25T07:40:44 |
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Season's greetings babe! |
Mele kalikimake! |
Can i see your keys? |
My keys? |
Yes |
I would like to see your keychain plz |
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Thanks! |
2024-12-25T10:56:07 |
Please call ypon whatever deities you have on call to give me strength and shielding for the day |
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Good luck today babe! |
2024-12-25T21:11:29 |
Hello! |
Hello? |
Hello |
How are you? |
Meh |
How is your day |
Finally home and done |
Can i help you at all? |
Im really sorry |
It's ok, I just can't with them any more today |
Okay |
I honestly could not have my phone today or i would have |
I understand, no problem |
😞 |
I'm probably forgetting why Thursday |
You went straight to Saturday, that's all |
You can be mad, you know |
Not mad, just tired |
Yes |
But you can feel any amount of anything |
Without needing permission or reason |
It's what you get in exchange for being alive |
I suppose so |
Mixed at best. More tolerable than most i guess |
Actually mine was kinda bad but still not my worst. Id rather hear about yours |
Lol |
I guess they were up all night |
We didn't really start gathering until 1500 and not really doing anything until 1600 |
Just you 4? |
Yep |
Okay |
What did you do the first part of the day? |
Nothing really. I think I scrolled Reddit for hours |
Food? |
Well the hour long cheese tray did happen between 1500 and 1600. I had some of that |
They've been making pizzas since 1900 or so |
I just can't this time |
Oh im sorry, is your day still going? |
I'm in bed upstairs |
Downstairs is chaos |
My day is over as far as I'm concerned |
Any gifts or was that yesterday or not at all? |
All today |
Except for birthday gifts, I guess we're doing that tomorrow (as opposed to Saturday) |
What's up Friday? |
As far as I know, nothing |
Oh, okay |
How is your arm? |
It was really bothersome all day |
If I'm going t9 be honest, it bothered me most of today then i had spotty vision when the pain and weird symptoms got there. I'm not doing great otherwise and am way too internally overstimulated, hyperactive, and exhausted and senses are hurting me |
Sounds like time to relax |
I agree. I am teying but the symptoms are combattive against one another |
Does that happen to you? |
Sort of, sometimes |
I've definitely had to practice distracting my mind to avoid unproductive rabbit hole thoughts at times |
So how do you do that? |
Mindless scrolling sometimes works lol |
Or trying to play out a nice fantasy |
Maybe you should just tell me more of your fantasies |
Maybe we should rehearse them :) |
I don't know how to do that |
Alas |
Do you have different body moods when you're in different headspaces or emoting one way or another? |
I don't think so? |
Unless I am physically ill or uncomfortable... Which aren't all that often |
So if you're angry or upset, you would want sex to be __________ |
(Adj please) |
Like I can't put those in the same space actually |
So your answer is not along the lines of wanting to fuck the nonsense or upset feeling out of your system? |
Correct |
Okay thanks |
Besides, I don't get upset much. I just get depressed now 😆 |
What does depression look like or act like in your life in its various stages? |
Like, how would you or someone else know if you're in an episode |
Good questions, I'm not sure I can answer completely |
I know personally I feel unmotivated, and want to do nothing but sleep |
Do you still go to work? Cook? |
Drink more? |
Stay out more? |
Work yes. Cook no. Especially if anything is slightly annoying in the kitchen, which is a given. I never go out anyway. |
I did that a lot 2017-2018 |
The neck years |
?? |
RLH's neck and spine fiasco would have been then |
You're not wrong. I was also pretty frustrated with work |
Because? |
I felt impotent and wasn't doing what I enjoyed |
Also was much closer to the politics in management, which is rather demoralizing |
Ah. I feel much of that plight |
Yeah I'm sure you do! |
I want your warmth here with me. Ok? |
You still want me? |
Whaddya mean "still" huh? |
Again, then? |
Again and again and again |
:) |
Did you know i was reallllly questioning this for the last week+? Maybe 10 days? More? |
Nooooo |
I'm sorry |
It was actually probably longer than that |
I miss you, you know |
I did not know that. Thank you. I miss you incredibly |
I think about you all the time |
I daydream about you. You and me. Maybe that counts as thinking. |
:) |
I had a very small number of holiday greetings today in any format. This makes me insanely sad |
Aw, I'm sorry |
It's a bad breathsweeping feeling |
Owwww! |
It's actually worse but i will be okay from that. I think |
In other news I'm paranoid about my arm now |
Why so? |
It got leaned on today kinda hard. I have no concept of how it should feel or look to me or anyone else and it's all over the place |
Oof. Ow |
Yes. I actually screamed. And i dont have a real way to check it out just to have peace of mind |
How's the circulation? Has it improved at all to your hand? |
A tonnnnnnn |
Wow! |
I can't wait to lick your fingers :) |
I hope you keep wanting me |
I do |
I |
2024-12-26T06:56:57 |
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:) |
Happy boxing day |
Ahh yes! |
Only 364 shopping days until Christmas! |
Then I'd better start today |
May i ask if you received anything? |
How did the glass go over? |
The glass was a big hit |
Im happy i could assist :) |
I am forever in your debt! |
Nah mate |
I got a couple nice tools for the lathe |
Congrats! |
Anything you'd like to share? |
We opened gifts for a very, very long time |
Yeah |
Do you have any dream of what Christmas should be like? |
Quiet and cozy. Jist staying home. Blankets and hot drinks and gourmet snacks with sometjing festive for a bigger meal l8ke brunch or afternoon dinner. In my imagination the lights and dim but reading level. Maybe movies. Comfortable |
Yours? |
That's nice |
I'd like to be somewhere else with someone special and free of distractions and expectations. The ritual is killing me |
Yes |
That's how long we did our ritual yesterday |
Holy guacamole |
I was at the end of my rope after three hours |
Welp |
I feel much better today. I hope we are doing birthday today and not Saturday so I get the house back in order |
The 3 of us. In 5he same room and interacting all day. Almost every monute except about an hour was gift opening |
Dang |
Yes |
2024-12-26T09:47:39 |
Hey |
Hi babe! |
How ya doin? |
Eanna see part of your gift ? |
Ok, sure! |
Ichthyoid or pachyderm? |
Lol! What a choice |
Ichth... That one |
You jnow them both, yeah? |
Yeah |
Here fishy fishy |
Is wood |
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Aww! |
Is special |
He's cute! |
Is perfect |
For you |
Thank you! |
Used to have fish like this |
Je le sais |
Before cameras were invented unfortunately |
Nah mate |
I actually had my dad's old 35mm at the time |
But we'd drop 30 on a goldfish lol |
Then i need to show you another piece of present |
Oh? |
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With poster(s)! |
Is book |
Books good |
Wow! Thank you so much! |
Those tfh books are nice thank you! |
You're welcome |
Im really excited you like random crap i find in the wild lol |
You get a whole bunch from me for this season of holiday |
Oh my! |
It's geniusly packaged. Just you wait! |
Woo! |
Busy? |
Actually laughing down for a little bit I feel kinda naf |
Naf? |
2024-12-26T13:02:16 |
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2024-12-26T14:20:12 |
I'm back from my nap! |
❤️ to a GIF |
Much better now |
2024-12-26T15:55:01 |
I had my own just now |
Guess who had a not great blood pressure? |
Hmm |
Idk anymore |
Oh damn girl |
That's how my dad cracked his head |
Ive been worse lol |
Aww |
It was kind of a force fed thing and never decent broth, hence the dislike |
:( |
How are you feeling now? |
I'm okay |
And you? How has the day been? |
Alright |
Oh, I'm sorry |
Could be worse |
Maybe they'll clean the -$-$-_--_ kitchen lol |
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Extra lovers!?!?!?! |
Lol |
Yep I keep em in the basement |
Creeeeeeper |
I have an awkward question about forthcoming days |
You know me babe |
How should i decide what to do each day? I plan around other people (you, in this case) and based on what i would want to do, it's easier if i know what your realistic plantenions are |
Totally understand |
I'd feel terrible if I wrecked your plans based on a maybe from me |
So if you've got something you want to plan that's idk tomorrow and I can't give you assurance I am free, just assume I'm not |
I never have actual plans |
I honestly don't love that but I appreciate you giving me the latitude. I know I'm piss all for availability |
And I want to be fair to you |
Plans, aspirations, desires... |
Don't let me get in the way |
I appreciate that, thanks |
I want to be with you, but the suspicion tax is easy for me to invoke |
I know |
Someday, I will not care about that. |
Okay |
That's up to you |
We both need to be ready for that in some way. Not gonna be real soon |
Okay |
You're so sweet babe |
Like I said, I don't like this. This is not my favorite topic. But it's SOoo much easier to have it when we're just being honest and caring |
Refreshing |
I agree |
This honestly simple conversation is the sort of thing that would bizarrely become emotional warfare over here. |
Anyhoo |
That said |
I'm going to figure out what kind of schedule there is with the dither fish(*) and work out if I have freedom tomorrow |
Fwiw |
Oh (*) like non-playing characters, good for distracting the quarry. |
In the case, the boyses are good distractions |
Brb |
Okay |
For sure! I know logistics is stressful for you, ofc. I don't want to add to it at all. That's my first priority |
So Saturday eh? |
Yep! |
Hmm! |
Even more important for me to understand wtf over here lol |
See, I haven't known, and haven't cared, for many years |
Many |
Like you were probably -100 years old |
Lol ok |
Gad I miss your touch babe! |
Very, very much the same. I'm getting sadder and feeling greedier about yours lol |
Sorry! Interruption |
Dang holidays supposed to be a happy time muthaf... |
Not you lol |
This is me shouting At clouds |
Do you use FB marketplace? |
I have, yes |
Whatcha need? |
I just want to assess pricing and availability of a 75 or perhaps 125 gallon fish tank lol |
I'm at a (self induced) decision point sorta, with my aquarium plans |
Do you just want me to search for that? Any other parametets? |
How close? |
No, I think this should be sufficient for now. |
I've been looking on the likes of eBay and Craig's list too already-- not much to see that's actually near enough to try |
Which size do you prefer? |
No real pref honestly. And , you know, there might be an 80, or 105 or something |
Would consider slightly larger, but not smaller |
#aquariumsizematters |
#NotTheSizeOfTheShipButTheMotionFromTheOcean |
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And as long as we're on decor, |
You rang?? |
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This entire "post" looking thing in the middle needs to be disguised |
Lots of ways to do that! |
I do not want any fasteners or tape on it |
It's old AF particle board |
Okay, so that excludes command strips? |
Possibly - let me check some things and get back to you in perhaps 10 minutes |
This basement is like a cave in many ways lol |
Take your time - i have to teadwufe for a bit lol |
I do trad dad birthday now lol |
What is that? |
2024-12-26T22:19:16 |
Just finished birthday gifts |
2024-12-27T00:02:29 |
Happy sleep time, if it is for you! |
Heya! |
Yesm? |
Gonna put some laundry in the dryer and put my arse in bed in a moment |
2024-12-27T07:50:00 |
Morning, traddad! |
Traddy daddy? |
2024-12-27T08:52:05 |
Lol! Good morning sweet babe! |
How are you? |
Fine, fine |
Et tu? |
Meh |
Tell me about last night! |
Well, the birthday interlude was a bit odd. I don't understand RLH's behavior |
She seemed very frustrated with her children for over half an hour, making side comments about taking care of the dishes and whatnot |
I was like the court clown, making jokes and distractions for both sides |
She got really frustrated when Nara got hyper focused on something and wasn't paying attention to the next item being unboxed |
I mean that is his signature. He's always like that. Not sure what prompted her reaction. |
But she kinda snapped at him and it was a momentary buzz kill. Queue the clown lol |
The boys disappeared to the back porch for 5 minutes, then we resumed, more calmly |
Really weird vibe |
Interesting. I have commentary but please continue |
Whose birthday? |
Nitya |
We finished with the gifts. She lit candles on the carrot cake, and we had cake. It was quite good (she made it from scratch, and the cream cheese icing) so I think she appreciated the rave reviews |
So presents.... I'm really confused who opened what and for which celebration on which day |
All of that was last night, for Nitya's birthday. |
He's the older step son you may recognize as Trevellian |
Does that help? |
So there was no chrostmas? |
Oh yeah, that was Wednesday |
Jusssssst nityas biryhday and just him opening things was yesterday |
You got it |
Okay okay thanks |
Yesterday was do nothing day? |
Oh wait |
Tuesday? |
Right. |
Okay |
And today? |
I suspect the boys will be leaving mid afternoon |
And rlh? You? |
No plans afaik |
I may do some cleaning in the living room. It looks like a frat house rn, complete with passed out boys |
Never been to one lol |
If i go somewhere today, where should it be? |
Are there your kinda shops in Old Town? |
PS I never went to a frat party either. I avoided those idiots |
Same |
Cute rhyme, right? But ew no |
Wow yipe lol |
Yeah. Could not make that up |
What's going on at your house? L working? Cats working? |
Looked at old town stuff, not entirely what I'm thinking of for today but some other day for sure! |
Crepuscular so and sos |
Maybe I'll try okemos? Kellie's and or meridian? |
Felicious things |
Oh |
I was wrong about the "post" in my basement. Only the face is particle board. The sides are wood, so any fasteners or adhesives are totally fine |
Awesome! |
Dude did some weird things when he built this house |
Lol |
Idk exactly what I want. Something with a natural kind of feel to it perhaps, or a tasteful pattern of some sort |
Oh! Japanese - style wall hanging perhaps? |
I def attract those! |
I actually have probably not what you're looking for but something very cool if youd like it |
Lemme find the wall hanging you gave me... |
I havent given you one? |
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Do you want me to invite you anywhere today? |
Youre missing the best of hair days and puffy non makeup face pver here btw |
Aww! |
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Haha there's my bed head girl |
Yeah but i got out of bed hours ago lol |
Still counts |
As long as you're willing to recreate it |
Oh ofc |
My little pillow princess |
You're adorable |
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You do well, UHguy |
O ya sure |
Danks |
Hey - you wore it |
I like free clothes lol |
I have a kitchen bag you can have lol |
Hey wait.... i already free clothed you at least once |
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Yes you've provided me much! |
Oh! Those babies! |
They're actually perfect size |
Do you want frames? |
Nah |
I need to figure out what to do with the wiring |
That's a you problem lol |
Anywayyyy |
Did you want me to invite you today or avoid it? |
Well |
I think I will need to stick around until 3 or so |
Okay |
I always want to give you the courtesy of asking to come along with but dont want to be too needy or whiny about tempting hang out time |
I know :) you're very sweet |
Thank you |
Back atchya |
Which earrings for today? |
That's the choice |
Emmhmm |
Words. Sir |
Right! |
The ones on the right! |
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Pick a number between 1 and 5000? |
969 |
Isn |
Ok let's start counting earrings from the left... |
Hahaha |
I just got rid of a bunch! |
Oh yep. Absolutely |
Pfft |
Hey now lol |
Wanna go there? |
Do you need any dress socks? Bamboo! |
Nooo socks |
Phoey |
I have been getting rid of excess socks |
Never thought I would see the day lol |
Same! |
Im sock-particular |
If i legit need quick-ish help in the next few days, may i please ask you? |
Sure 🙂 |
Thanks |
If you could maybe have a fake emergency on hand in the event have a real one, that would be wonderful |
Actual emergency for me meaning if i need immediate help that isnt 911 worthy but i cant help myself and anyone else is too far |
I'm really sorry to even ask |
Yeah if you need help get a hold of me plz |
Thanks :) |
There is always a key under an animal on the porch but this weekend i am leaving it unlocked |
Ok good to know |
So I just zonked out long enough to drool all over my arm and slip straight into a dream I was working in the lab, doling out chemistry specimens. So weird |
And i was ZERO part of this drooling episode!??!! |
But alors, tres bizarre also |
Lol if you can convince me to fall asleep on you I'm sure I can accommodate |
You have, i think |
What size dress pants do you wear? |
No questions, just answers |
Also, need plz |
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Dress pants 34W 32L |
But but but |
Thx ;) |
2024-12-27T16:18:06 |
Heyyyyya |
null |
Also, dinner plans? |
Hey babe |
What's wrong? |
Nothing more than usual lol |
And now coming to terms with the fact that I feel stuck here. Not because anything is happening or will happen if I stay, but what will happen if I leave |
Bedding from the couch will be about four loads of wash so I guess I'll get that going lol |
Anyway |
Wish I could go out with you for a bit. This is what I get for not having any friends |
Hey..... same |
I am in okemos for maybe another hour if you need an e cise to go somewhere |
But is this y/n? |
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Maybe up to my nipples high lol |
Is framed, can be unframed |
Hmmm , intriguing fact lol |
Let's see |
What can I need in Okemos rn |
The painting thing you just saw onlinr |
That's going to thee trash if you dont get it? |
Do you know how wide it is? |
Wait you already own it? |
2ish feet |
I do not own it |
It is in Okemos at the location i also am |
And some lovely kokesha dolls |
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Ok thx that's too wide , I'll pass ty! |
Omg |
❤️ to a photo |
I have zero place for it :( |
I'm not sure you understand my house lol |
Mayyyyyybe |
You just need to go to okemis to look at it |
Wink |
And |
Nod |
"nipples heigh by new year's day, they say" |
I found turquoise (colored) stuff.... |
You're aware I'm giving you an entirely plausible lie to get out |
To buy gifts? Not exactly my style when I'm trying desperately to shut down this season |
Sorry I just in a pissy mood here |
I know |
Im saying you can come look, take pics, take home food, see me |
I stirr d up my allergies fucking around with the vacuum cleaner and it's prolonging the fuckery in my head |
I would do all that but the slightest evidence of doing any of those things will not end well for me |
Of doing those? |
Like bringing home food. It's just not something that happens here |
Ohhhhh |
Sorry I'm not trying to create problems |
I'm sorry 🙇♀️ |
You're fine babe |
And a very fine babe as well |
Aww thx |
On my way home now, then would you like to chat or keep to yourself? |
Chat lines are open! |
Am home! |
Did not realize i was this weak |
You ok? |
Will let you know in a sec |
I think prob yes |
Hi |
Hello :) |
Status? |
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Second clean of the day |
Owie! |
How does it feel? |
That's actually a zillion times better than all day |
Ok, got it. Glad it's improving! Your strength will return, I expect, and even better? |
You've probably lost muscle mass on this arm? |
Not really any loss, no |
Yes, yes |
Lolllll |
So food, right? |
Yes |
Proteins for good recovery! |
Mayhe you could share a gram or 2 lol |
Ohhhh |
You like your protein shakes warm and fresh |
I mean ofc |
Lol |
Right o |
I'm thinking about lentil soup, myself |
Perhaps with spinach, steamed, and rice |
Possibly fresh made basmati if I have it |
Because there is plenty of quick rice |
I've barely eaten in two days lol |
It's so weird |
Please say more |
Disinterested mostly |
Sorta willfully self-induced tho if I'm honest |
Bc the kitchen was unbearable |
Oh i get that |
Nah, I just went to bed and got over it |
I cleaned up 75% of the kitchen prob last night though, and 80% of the living room today, so I'm good now |
That's great! |
Idk If I even make sense lol |
Yeah well the living room really pulled my panties up my ass and I owe you an apology for how I acted. |
Did I show you my cat photo op spot? |
It's really okay |
Just in case lol |
One sec |
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Fancy that cat |
He's a space cadet, but he is like a big bro too, which is cool to see. He will stand up to anything, and he is a wicked fighter when he needs to be. |
Did you decide on food? |
Oh |
I have been making my way through most of a 10 oz bag of nice chocolate chips |
I will likely get summoned to kitchen soon so Cu in 30 ok ❤️ |
You good? |
Whew! |
Yes |
Tasks were much more demanding than expected in the kitchen. Many more cleans |
Also have some cool photos I will figure out how to share en masse |
Hurray! |
https://photos.app.goo.gl/HJDSaADrYtMnvHWN8 |
Yes! |
Thanks :) |
Yay! |
How are you? What was food? |
Not made yet lol |
Only clean |
She's having a snack |
Have you eaten more than choccy chips today? |
I have ingredients lined up, no worries |
I had a bit of cereal and milk at noonish |
And a couple handfuls of peanuts |
I keep those around |
Yes for my protein snack ok |
Lol |
Okay okay |
Not stressing, but any ideas at all about tomorrow? |
My plan is to vaguely describe homey store needs and spend a long time out |
Must have wood |
There was never a truer nor more noble cause |
I think about it always |
Maybe have you for brunch |
So decadent... |
Oh i see |
Did you have any times in mind? |
Mmmm |
I set a goal of leaving here 1100. |
I will need 45 only to complete wood phase 1 |
Yikes |
Your attendance is welcome |
Not required |
Then in phase 2 |
Where? |
Wood phase 2 |
I shall accompany you to a location within your house and we shall discuss wood |
If you find wood acceptable anything is possible |
So my story ends here |
Any questions? |
Did you see the green glass??? |
I did see it |
Where in woodphase 1? |
Thank you 1000x for that rec |
😁 |
Oh, Louis, Domine, whatevs |
Ummmm |
I can you know, pick you up, and get wood at same time |
Ah yes |
Mais ou? |
chez toi |
Wp1 & 2 are same? |
No no |
Wp1 requires Louis Domine, you are optional on this quest |
It's very ,uh, mundane |
I am so lost |
I will go to Lowe's Or home Depot to get wood |
I will pick you up |
But you can decline that part, np |
Then I will bring wood to your house |
For a inspection by you |
My wood , the personal wood |
What do you need the wood for? |
Frames for string art projects |
Severely behind schedule |
Ah. Yes, yes. |
Time for you getting here? |
Twelve |
Okay thanks |
My pleasure |
null |
Mmhmmmm |
Any idea how long you can be away from home? |
Mmm mmmaybe 240-300 minutes |
Of which your prime time is 180-240 |
I go cook now, perhaps 30 minutes xoxox |
Okay |
Sorry, phone died, then personal mini issue |
All good now :) |
Yay! |
I have things on the stove that are fine for a few |
Yay! |
I was thinking of venturing out in the morning |
You have a quest of your own? |
Don't let me stop you if so |
I will probably be late anyway |
... |
Or did you want to go to wood place with me? |
Secret other option! |
Would you like to join me somewhere or meet me and come back here? All possible |
I'd like to meet you that would be fun! |
Okay :) |
null |
How about I plan to meet you at 1230 ready to return. If I can find you earlier I will let you know. |
Yum! |
Yeah that works great |
Most likely whatever home Depot or Lowe's is closest to where you will be |
Okemos it is :) |
Awesomeness |
😊 |
💞 |
❤ |
It is not the end of the world to delay, reschedule, or cancel. Or revamp what we do |
Ok |
How are you? |
With everything that's going on now |
For you |
And tonight and whatever |
I'm fine |
Earned brownie points if nothing else lok |
Fine.... what do you really want to say |
No seriously |
Okay |
How did the brownie points accrue? |
I did a ton of work that she directly benefits from, and she's acknowledged that much |
I appreciate you for that |
Lol |
You appreciate me for that... Why? |
Because it shows who you are and how you think and care |
And why not? |
I'll take that. Ty 🥹 |
What particulars would you like ready for tomorrow? |
That's a lot of slippery |
I also know that the appreciation you deserve and that you get are inequal and so can use a supplemental boost |
Thank you babe :) |
Slippery. Perhaps. |
Gooey |
I want to kmow very explicitly and expressly what and how you want what it is you want |
OMG lol!! |
In or out? |
Yes |
Gooey is just how I feel inside |
Actually it's both |
Okay, please continue |
When I sidle up next to you |
What do you want to happen? |
A |
B |
Your choice |
C |
D |
E |
Ok that's it |
Is this in okemos or chez moi? |
I trust you to make the choice |
Home Depot, aisle 69? |
Cu there sister |
I'll legit do that if you want |
But i think the aisles are alphanumeroc |
Not the smartest location on my part either lol |
But my recommendations are |
I would kill to see your reactions |
What you must think of me |
My honest reaction was |
Kick ass babe |
Ok the skirt is much |
I kinda knew that |
Just go for |
Omg that's literally what i wear out anytime |
Even work |
See I know you right |
Black |
Innit |
Haha I don't know what to tell you to wear babe 🙃 |
Then I'll take charge of that |
What else do you want? |
Just a real you that I can touch for a little while |
And see and hear and taste |
And smell |
Ope I'm fading fast lol |
Same, babe |
Think of new sexy things we might try |
I am :) |
I better lose me some porn virginity too |
Aight! |
Make it count |
Every.last drip and drop |
2024-12-28T07:55:34 |
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Aww lol |
How are you? |
Still waking up :) |
But fine so far |
That's good |
How was your night babe? |
Ir was ok thanks |
And yours? |
Good. She's back to sleeping in her chair thank the deities |
Ohhh tell me about those non chair nights!!! |
The main points are there was zero touching, and the mattress doesn't support us both so it's hard on both backs |
I kinda manage by literally sleeping on the edge |
It's not great at all |
I'm sorry |
I have to let my phone charge, so I'll ttys |
Heya |
Info req please |
Yes! |
What updates might there be from your side? |
Nothing really. I'm going to get a shower and head out aoon |
Okay, good luck |
Ty? |
How's it going? |
I'm about to head into the despot |
Nothing |
I pick you up |
Or meet you |
Which do you prefer? |
And if you see a pretty corner shelvy unit you feel free to let me know lol |
Are you in Okemos? |
,qq1 |
Yes.... |
Alright I'm done here |
Sorry a little pocket typing up there lol |
Lolz |
I'm like a half mile from you |
Kellies |
In the basement lol |
She sells records!!! |
2024-12-28T17:10:43 |
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Okay well i thougjt it was Brrrrrr lol |
Lol |
Are you cold? |
Maybe |
How are you? |
Sleepy lol |
Why? |
Food |
How was it? |
It was good! |
We didn't recap today |
Alright, what say you about it? |
You first |
I had an excellent time |
But that's fixed! |
😊 |
Say more specifics please |
Well |
I should have eaten before leaving the house. That's for sure |
Your nipples were super cute in that shirt |
Wish I could have stayed longer! |
Yes, always |
More words please |
Fuck i need to eat, sleep, take meds, take more meds... |
It felt really good grabbing you in the kitchen |
I thought you looked really cute and kinda wanted to fuck you right there |
I was def into it too |
Guess i shoulda cleaned the couch off lol |
Hehe |
You can fuck me anywhere you want |
I believe you |
This is all me btw |
And it's always been there, like always |
I understand that |
Right |
"is this ok?" |
I can be bold! |
Just you wait, mister |
Hey i finally ate :) |
More than saliva mints lol |
Yay! |
More words plz |
Like "you're delicious" or like "so about Oriental themes" |
Well, i just now stopped shaking |
Do you want to finish up about anything more that was positive. |
Sure |
Me too |
What was different? |
I also have literal knowledge questions in this multi topical discussion |
I'm not sure anything was different? |
Is there a way for you to describe that more? |
Your body was more intense, muscles working |
Oh really? |
Yep |
Jsyk, everything you say in hindsight and observation and recapping really REALLY help me |
Which muscles? |
Abdominal, vaginal |
You were merely tense in your limbs |
Oh |
But yeah, you spent quite a while doing intense "contractions" on me |
Amazing |
How are you feeling |
In which sense? I have a lot of feelings |
Executive summary? |
These are not in an order and aren't "bad" and definitely not from you |
Xoxox for you double |
I am finally laying down and the twitching spasms are getting worse, in case i am suddenly quiet |
I feel really awful that you saw me like i was today |
Physically it was the most intensely i have ever positively felt . And a lot of parts were weird to me |
Glad to hear there was a positive! I love you just like you are babe, no question. |
Get some rest babe! |
It was realllllllly positive. The intro & retrospectionsit all induced were different that i ever thought |
Yay!!! |
2024-12-29T02:39:39 |
Hey babe |
2024-12-29T07:05:52 |
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O hai! |
Oh you too |
How are you doing? |
Im actually pretty good, thanks. Still very itchy but better than last night when i was praying to the gods of the benadryl. And i have a massive neuropathy flare that's making ne want to hatchet off a toe but I'm dealing ok with that |
null |
Lol I always liked Denmark for some reason! |
Yeah! I really want to go |
But how are you? |
Pretty good |
My throat is really sore but I had something stuck at my ear canal last night. Thought I flushed it out but now I'm not sure I got it all. |
Oh no! |
Ty! I'm going to try warm coffee first :) |
Oh actually thay gives me a second idea for your ear |
Oh interesting! |
I actually can't tell if this is in my sinuses? Everything is all connected back there |
The last of Eustacia |
*land |
Indeed lol |
Open anything yet? |
No darn it. I left box in my car bc I wasn't sure where RLH was , then forgot to get at a good time. |
Bah! |
Indeed |
null |
Kitters! |
Yep! |
A bit yeah |
😊 |
Plans today? |
Very unsure |
Wish I could escape today but I don't think I will be able to |
Yeah me too |
Cant you tell her a super gross and inept - MULTI DISABLED - girl from work needs help lifting around shelves, organizing books, and carrying laundry up and down stairs? |
Right! Sometimes, she even wears undergarments |
Other times she needs help reaching the hangers |
Like for this |
null |
I've been trying to figure this one out. What am I looking at? |
It's lingerie. Side view lol |
Yummm |
Omg there's a whole other smaller box santa dropped off here for you |
Damn forgetful reindeer |
Hard to get good reindeer these days |
Too much laugjing and calling names, not enough playing any reindeer games |
Right! |
Where would you go locally for a corner shelf unit? Used or new. Preferably pretty lol |
And holy fuck i am so tired |
You broke me |
In a good way i think but still |
Remind me to tell you more on that |
null |
Oh you know, the usual suspects... Dicker& Deal, and the place next next door |
I didnt know if there might be diacount stores (a la.Big Lots) of which i am aware |
Or mdf board stores |
Hmm |
There is the plane |
Oops |
There is the place next to HD on Waverly |
https://maps.app.goo.gl/W1pL4mQHswvWGPwEA |
Oh yes, I've been there! I forget because, well, Waverly |
They have amazing book prices |
I mean, maybe lol |
Lol |
Can you start exploring my box please? |
Errr |
IKEA probably has "Träng" of some such |
How awkward! |
Your box, you say |
I lovvvvvvve ikea |
Well, i do want to talk more aboit my puffy pink box but for now, the bezosmart one |
I'll have to wait a bit... RLH still sleeping at the front door |
So the pufft punk one then |
Blah |
Chonkythumbs |
I think about her a lot |
You kind of.... LOOKED at her yesterday |
I did, for several minutes |
Can you say more please? |
She's very fleshy, which is kinda new to me. I find her very sexy! |
I really, really appreciate you venturing in like that. It would be nice to have more... perhaps with hands-in lab practicals. For science and education, ofc |
I'd love to! This is how I discovered you have a large clit. I've never seen one this size irl. Really sexy! |
I meed you to tell me things like that! And tell me what you're touching and why i like it, etc |
What makes me puffy? |
Like why |
Mechanism of anatomical puff |
Fleshy and protruding outer labia are the most obvious. But also you have prominent inner labia that are always at least partially visible - an 'outie'. |
Thanks |
I think there's no correlation. Lots of big girls have an innie, very flat lips, tiny clit |
So you just got put together this way |
And I love it! I can really get my face wet :P |
Oh, yeah, that |
All of what? |
There was soooooooo much wet |
I think you squirted |
A couple times |
I remember one moment very clearly when it was suddenly even warmer and wetter. This is when I was still in you |
I know i did |
I remember that |
I do kmow what helped it be so good yesterday |
What was that? |
All the kissing. I loved starting in the kitchen. I apparently need to be treated like an 11 year old at a boy girl party, lots of kisses and making out nonstop before the cake |
Yay! That was fun! |
Gone down on you in the kitchen |
I thought you were going to try the stairs into the bedroom |
And i needed the kisses and the necksies and the wantedness |
That's what helped most |
Noted well :) |
I liked your hands being firm on me |
I would love a little more, too |
:) |
More words please |
Sorry I napped out again, and started dreaming again. |
*couldn't |
Call me out more!!! Jesus |
Lol |
You did not |
For some reason I had a box of papers in the classroom. It got moved after I left the room. Prof was putting more handouts on it and said we had to read all this by next class (tomorrow morning). |
I don't usually dream of failure and embarrassment |
But this dream also featured a regular theme - labyrinth hallways, stairs, doors, rooms, high places |
The lab dream the other day was the same way |
And stairs and french and untidyness..... |
It's like the koat literal dream translation interpretation ever, my love |
Say more? |
I think i am your labyrinth - hard to figure out and always more twists and secret hallways and new things, both good and jot so good |
High places are risky |
And i dont think i need to say why "failure" or embarassment are themes but i can if you need more straightforward words |
It kinda makes sense |
This was nominally an old college classroom building, but pretty much the same feeling and cast in a similar way |
May i observe my love of college degrees |
Hehe right? |
OMG I didn't actually talk to you about the pickle did I! |
That was in a separate scene |
Like the ones we had from JJ yesterday? |
Right |
The same |
Well? |
I think actually you were in the French dream at first. I brought up the JJ pickles from the day before and said something like |
Haha it's so weird how these things happen |
Interesting |
I'm gonna chuck mine in some brine with feta, olives, and jalapenos fr |
It'll be much better in a few days! |
Or maybe I just equate you and pickles... |
No it's not that |
I do love them |
If you didn't see my face or hear me, could you find where i like activity the most? |
Is this a hypothetical? |
Or did I do it at some point? My memory might be filling in details that were not actually there |
But you do react sometimes in ways I can feel. Not always |
It is a curiosity i have. Can you tell with any part of you |
Can you tell me how? |
Like arching your back or pelvis to meet me, sometimes muscles contracting in your abdomen or vagina |
They're always hard lol |
They have an "extra hard" setting |
So there's not a secret button you find anteriorally with your fingers? |
I wouldn't say anteriorly |
There is a g spot inside, which seems to love coordinate pressure from the outside though |
Yes but i dont know how YOU know where it is |
Your body speaks to me in the language of love 💝 |
null |
I have an awkward anatomical question |
Ok :) |
You know how qhen you make me climax, my muscles kind of clamp down? |
Kijda hard |
I sure do! |
It's intense! |
I always feel like if i really realllly let myself go into it that my body - at least the kitty canal - will turn inside out and leave my body |
Is that how other girls get off? The clamping? |
It's new to me tbh. Ofc you won't turn inside out, but I wonder if women have similar feelings/thoughts in natural childbirth? |
Yes! Please |
Ofc I will be with you all the way! Unless you squeeze me out :) then I will be next to you lol |
I love the squeeze |
I love and hate it |
I make a conscious choice to not let you go out |
If I'm hard enough I might be able to stay in. It kinda worked yesterday |
Yes! |
How did your instincts not have you go straight down my throat? |
You mean cum? |
Not really (i didnt think you did? Idk) |
Ohh |
Do you still say "can i fuck you" because it's something you remember me liking? |
Yes, and no |
Thank you for that |
For me it's about sharing I guess. Fun fact I didn't even say words like pussy during sex until 10 years ago |
But I want you to know how much I love making love to you |
Fun fact - i cant say most of those words. Still |
Fun fact: youve seen sad from me now. Genuine sadness. I didn't know i had that feeling until then |
You are absolutely safe with those feelings around me babe. I hope you will freely share them |
Thank you |
There were 2 "trigger potential" moments yesterday and i dont know if you know what they were or if i should tell you |
I don't know what they were |
Yeah. Do you remwmber what that one was for? |
You were telling me about the apprehension, not knowing if you were bleeding or what, even though I had not hurt you, because hurt was all you had known |
And here's the thing |
I already know this without you telling me in so many words , because you already told me in different ways. I've been "sad" about this for a few months, but it's part of knowing you and loving you. |
That you want me makes me happy ofc. That you want me in spite of the past is something I can only understand if I believe you want to break out of that endlessly repeating cycle of yuck |
And I am all in for that babe, for you |
Yes. And thank you endlessly. I hope you feel at least some of the thanks i try and give you |
I Certainly hope I am never the cause of that! This is a good time to repeat, you can say no any time you need to. I'm here to love you not to harm you! |
Hey! Here's something we should try |
We need to try hydrating you and getting some potassium in you after sex |
To see if it helps the shakes |
I saw avocado and |
You wouldn't have been the cause of any harm, and i was having a great time i just thought of how gross and embarrassing it would be and i didnt want you to feel bad and it was also a thought of traumatic instamces constantly haunting me and resurfacing no matter what |
I hadn't really eaten or slept since more than 24 hours prior either |
Well |
And there was some trauma response in the shaking |
And good hormones and brain chems too |
For sure |
Speaking in very general terms |
I'm no good example either |
I do not drink water |
But which symptoms do you know that i have? |
And if you can help me be less dehydrated i am 100% for it |
I am also tremoring a lot right now and hate it. Just an fyi |
And spouse + SIL just got here. Sorry if i get quiet |
Okdokee |
Have a banana! I won't it against you |
I couldn't even say the word lol |
Hydration, not potassiuK |
Agreed, but partly neurotransmitter related as well |
Have a banana And a glass of juice |
:P |
That's too much sugar at once for me |
Lol |
This is Andy Mom again apparently lol |
But it really is |
Then no juice, water |
You set that right up for me babe |
Mama cat by any chance? |
Psshhht |
I hate water |
As I will when I return |
I'll even give you my water |
Ffs |
No I won't pee on you |
Lol |
2024-12-29T17:52:12 |
Eyyy |
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Change the broth type, looks tasty |
Mas Bébé! |
Mas de..... que? |
Haha! |
Etymology of "Mas Bace"
|
It's a family lexicon thing. There are a few I do consider to be worthy of preservation |
Aww |
So "mas" has double meaning |
For me anyway. |
I've extended it to the cats, e.g., "Mas Teeks" (Rama) |
I made a whole org chart of pet names once |
Sadly the best parts of it got purged somehow |
Well I'm quite chatty lol |
I love it! |
A bit, yeah. A bit |
And doing |
But I like life at the moment |
Oh did I tell you about the multitasking issue? |
Not an issue really, more like an observation and theory |
Not really |
Ive done 9 loads today myself lol |
WOW |
That is higher than my record I think |
And I've done some laundry sis |
Anyway take a break! |
Your arms need it |
The one flat out stopped working |
Multitask theory? |
What do you remember about smoking weed? |
Tell me everything about the actual experience, please. Sexual stuff appreciated but by no means required |
I remember you having the backpack |
Yes, and then what happened? |
You might need to help me with this one |
Anything else? |
I dont know how much it counts as a memory but i feel like i had a sense of less distraction and less in my head than usual |
Yes |
All good. I didn't want to lead you |
Initially, I just thought we would both have fun. |
But more recently, I've pondered why I like weed |
It's almost counterintuitive |
But then I thought of all the things going on in one's mind... |
My ears are happy |
Whatever |
Yes! |
This girl ❤️ |
And it's bloody chaotic right |
The noise in my head during sex is soooooo much more for me |
Tell me more 💖 |
Plzzzzzz |
Is he okay |
Exactly |
This right here |
Well recounted btw |
You have input overload |
Your poor head, baby! |
That's in less than a minute, probably way less. And that's just during sex, sex filled thoughts. Plus actively blocking out what other times were like, iykyk |
Yeah |
Well straight to my point then: |
I think you would benefit from weed |
Some of those inputs |
I absolutely agree |
You can kinda ignore |
If you let it |
You kinda have to accept it |
Said another way, you can really amplify other threads |
There's an experience i want. Need. Please. We've been very close |
I think you are no stranger to altered states of mind. |
Tell me more please! |
I kind of am, actually. A stranger to altered mind states. Can i ask why you say that? |
Super extremely slow and intentional lovemaking. Like an experienced caring older partner taking his younger girl's virginity and treasuring it. Intensely emotional and connected and cinemaesque. Does that imagery make sense? |
Oh babe that's deeply delicious |
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Awwww hurray! |
I think they're all different patterns? |
There are 5 different ones!!! 💖💖💖 |
My feet love you so much rn |
null |
Sweet baby! |
And I looked at everything and TYSM! |
Many awesome! |
I will find shelf for books |
😊 |
You're such a sweetheart |
null |
This is where I puddle lok |
null |
Hehehehe |
I have "the good stuff" here lol |
Socks aside, any faves? |
You so sweet! |
I love the science books |
Fishy is hanging with the dragons |
I gotta figure out how to smuggle the Fleetwood Mac shirt |
SN is a witch, with conviction |
null |
Haha lol!!! |
What do you mean by price it? |
Btw |
Well obvs! |
null |
He stops short of the keyboard |
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Good bois here too |
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Cat war!!!!! |
null |
Wtf lol |
Mine are contentious objectors |
Lololololll |
Anyway |
Whoa |
😂 to a photo |
I❤️ your cats |
So good |
They all heart ❤️ you too |
Price |
Tell me |
You don't know this |
Anyway |
Just wondered about the valuation of the Fleetwood Mac t |
But idk sasquatch |
Oh i knowwwssss the price is right |
And she's a witch lol |
Disclosure |
I dont know how much i spent on things or how much any of it goes for |
This is a reference to Throwing Muses / Kristin Hersh |
Is she THAT bandmate? |
No no |
She was a really depressed girl |
Who singer songwritered a fair number of good songs |
And her sisters |
Sister |
Also played in Talking Heads. As well as the sis band |
Kristin created several memorable themes. |
But live with me, bc I can remember them |
Kind of a truism |
Dang |
Lol |
I kinda went off there |
I'm fully intrigued now |
You don't have to lol |
Back to talking presentses |
Right! So fun! |
Tysm |
Ofc! |
But you have to tell me whyyyyy i gave you each one now |
And which i think is perhaps the bestest |
Do you have a list? |
I do not have a list |
But i kmow which one i was proudest of, kinda |
Besides the qoodfish |
*woodfish |
null |
I tried to stand up a bunch on the table but they're all drunk and just fall down |
You have a very keen eye |
You are so sweet |
Aww thank you! |
The little wooden box contents |
Box can be crafted or whatever you want |
Toss it if you hate it |
Wait |
It's possible the box is still here - havent checked yet |
Size is box? |
Maybe cubic 4"? |
Unfinished wood |
null |
Nope nope |
But iz cute |
Oh wait |
Let me check upstairs |
null |
Nope |
Ok |
Wooden |
Vooden |
Ok |
I don't think it's here |
Bah! |
Well Ewe |
Anyone in your fam ever part of Junior League? Not sportsball related lol |
No, not even close |
Dad played softball with his MSU teacher buds. Liz and I, nada. Except marching band |
Dad did Ducks Unlimited |
Lol |
NOT sportsball |
I don't hold it against him at all |
Igh! Smol box is stowaway here |
Junior league is not sportsvall related |
Sorry for your luck babe |
Are the financially aware kids |
No YOURE smad about it lol |
Huh? |
Come at me bro |
I am |
ABC |
Right |
Say it with me |
Airway |
... |
Sorry, found more laundry |
null |
Iz kidden, not laundry |
Isn't is so!!?? |
Catses |
Yahhhh |
The parts in my arm where they would have tied off the fistula ends are kind of hard swollen feeling, like they have half an egg under my skin for each |
I was asking about that yesterday |
At one end |
It is now both ends |
Youuuuuui were once a medical professional |
Not me |
Were you given post-op instructions? |
Can I see it? |
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Ah. So lower incision? |
They match now |
Does not appear to be a hematoma |
Yes |
Agree |
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And i have a pic of the inside of my arm! |
Hmmmm |
Now i think maybe hematoma forming |
null |
Good, need records |
Thank you Dr Barrett |
I hope all is ok!! |
Yep! |
I hope so too |
But hematomas are a litetal everyday occurrence |
Did you wanna see inside my arm? |
Yes, please! |
null |
And for that and more, i was allotted seven 5mg oxytocin |
Codone lol |
null |
My poor baby! |
Yeah... I'm worried but also not? |
But it wasn't so |
Let's keep eyes |
The latter part oft worry is engrained ptsd from a lot of teenage years and learned behavior and thought patterns |
New question |
Yes baby |
How is your mood? |
Fine |
Is there a way to acutely lower a bp without an rx? |
How is your mood,? |
Extremely happy. My feet are forever in your debt |
Lower bp |
I mean apart from lay still and meditate, idk |
If you want I will massage your naked body at such time |
Do you practice relaxation ? |
No |
I kind of forgot to keep doing it a few years ago and never restarted |
But i keep hearing about this massaging that's so elusive! |
Ikr? |
I apologize for the delay |
Pshhhhht |
I demand it! |
Well well well! |
You shall have it |
Wow I can't wait to get my hands on your perfectly round ass |
For therapy |
That's so creepy now |
Dammit |
Lolllll |
Well I'm still a laundry slut |
I'm sure you could enjoy from a certain perspective |
Ohhhhh yes. Still working out the loads here too |
I said what i said |
You yam what you is |
I will be shutting down soon |
Saaaaame |
Plans tomorrow? |
null |
Not per se |
Yes! |
But I will be in the touch |
I love your touch in me |
I love to touch you babe |
🥰 |
null |
❤️ to a GIF |
2024-12-30T09:28:40 |
Ba-aaaaaaabe! |
Heyyy! |
How you doin? |
Not bad :) |
Good! |
Whatcha doin all day? |
I dunno! I'm not working! |
Hey same! |
But i know im headed downtown in just a few |
Well, reotown |
I always welcome your company :) |
Cool, cool |
Je suis iciiiiiiii |
Vous voulez quelques chosed? |
*choses |
Ou peut etre du cafe chez hibou bleu? |
Not at the moment ty! |
Dommage |
What are you doing today? |
Oldies text book acience learnin? |
Yep! |
Lmk how it goes! |
How exciting! |
null |
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What's that familial indianian lake of yours? |
2024-12-30T14:16:42 |
Baaaaaaaaaaabe |
Hiii |
Lake Maxinkuckee! |
A verrrrry long one! |
Yeah longer than I intended! |
You feeling better? |
Yes! |
2024-12-30T17:56:19 |
Hey |
Hello! |
How is your expedition going? |
I need support please. That's all i want to say rn |
Uh oh |
Whatever you've got |
All yours |
Thx |
Talk to me please? Should be fine - remember the fz rule though |
I also need to idk what will help accomplish that. Seeking advice |
Accomplish what? |
Getting out of my head |
Oh you're welcome to mine lol |
Okay I'll take it |
What's going on eh? |
I dont know how to sum it up |
I'm sorry |
Yes but preceding the cutrent state was worse than typical i am autopiloted and just.... no words |
Oof sorry about that |
I will tey and tell you eventually |
I havent said anything for a few hours |
And i dont yell. Ever. |
I am noticing a lot of reactions have in this sort of instance. I dont like what i observe |
What do you observe? |
I cant speak. And especially louder than murmuring. I didnt realize how long it had been since i swallowed anything and when i had some food at home eventually it's only been applesauce and yogurt. I dont really see anything, just view it (if that makes any sense). I dont know what will help so ive been cleaning pretty nonstop. Probably more |
Are you upset about something? Are you in pain? |
Upset isnt accurate, i am unwell about it. And yes in pain. And idk. |
Oh dear |
Right. And did it all in front of his sister |
And i just dont know what to do. I am very very tired right now |
I understand |
I'm sorry babe |
Do you know why he was so angry? Just making sure you have accurate info |
And now i feel the pain really settling in. This is so not good. |
I know nothing about what happened today |
Okay, kind of what i thought but sometimes you have spidey senses |
His sister is here yesterday thru wednesday. This was negotiated last week with the condition that my life not be infringed upon by her being here again (you know this saga but this "weekend" is still too much, again, like it always is). So i begrudingly agree with a condition that if i want to go somewhere to shop.or have ciffee or whatever, he'll take me or pick me up or both and doesn't get to harp on what I'm doing or where i go or what i get. Furniture or super large purchases was an exception |
We get home and he's slamming the car doors and being harsh with his sister and sadie (both along for the ride to come get me) and i was rubbing my arm and waiting for them to go in from garage to house |
He gets his sister pretty close to inside the house and then opens all the car doors, grabs my stuff, and tugs it all out in sweeps so it's all on the garage floor |
And idk yet what's broken and what isnt |
And more yelling and downgrading and i tried to turn the noise off as quickly as it started |
What did you do? |
Eventually i just went in the house |
So he threw your stuff out of the car on the floor |
Violently, yes. And the screaming and yelling (not exaggerating bc i would otherwise call it scolding) and so many jabs |
There's a feeling i have now - physocally - and i am trying to forget it but i can't |
Well that sucks |
Thank you |
He's kinda off his chain innit |
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You can read the time stamps |
And then he acts like he didn't know what was coming? |
What else is up his bum? |
I am the reason the house is a dump |
Meh |
If you're so miserable, why is he complaining about it? He's projecting. |
Do you think that could be the case? |
I don't know |
I know he hates that i have my stuff all over the place but he's not helping me move it anywhere either |
I got 3.6 from hi m this year |
Fx |
Fz |
Ok |
Hi |
Are you ok? |
Nothing new |
Huh |
Insane spouse syndrome |
But i know he feels this way and i still do what i want |
Pssht |
What's Mr complainey's actual grievance? He was all over the map. |
I thrift too much and he hates stuff |
That's just the excuse. What does he really want |
I have no idea snd i have an idea that isnt in this reality |
Right |
Did he understand your position on children when you married? |
This has been said to me much more than once |
And mommie wants it |
Ahe asked me the first time i met her if i could still have kids but i give less than a negative amount of fucks what she wants, it's legitimately hom |
*him |
Yes. You've told me the same. |
As if that were a reason to harbor hatred, she still expressed her wish for a grandchild |
In the letter |
Is he as crazy as her ? |
Oh lovely |
I'm honestly wondering |
Oh fuck I forgot you didn't read it |
Well you should, really. |
He says really intentionally hurtful things that fuck with my head |
And does plenty too |
I don't understand the hatred |
I dont get it either |
And the blimding rage |
That too |
That's why I say this is projection |
But he doesnt like his mother |
At all |
He frequently mentions that theor house growing up was basically hoarded |
I get that (mine too), nut theirs was & is the not clean and not tidy kind |
Last time his sister was here, this was on the counter (finding the pic, one sec) |
null |
That is his sister's hair that was too twirled and knotted and icky that strands had to be cut out for her to shower |
Unreal |
I did just look up TTM |
2024-12-31T00:11:54 |
Hi |
Heyyy |
How are you? |
I'm fine sweets |
I am sad. Tired. A little paranoid maybe. Very oww. Overall maybe okay. Sad. |
Would you like to hear the worst irony? |
Yes |
The damage from him throwing the stuff (grab bag while it's on the seat, fling it to land on the floor, no idea what was in them as he was doing this completely carefree), the broken glass was only on the item I'd intended for you |
Aww |
But c'mon |
You mean the action? |
The action and the mentality |
Yes |
He's also thrown a standing rolled area rug over and down stairs |
What's your next move, or plan of action |
I have a few things |
Now the "deep emotional stab" memories are playing and they suck |
What's up with sleeping in your space? He doesn't usually do that, does he? |
I mean, this doesn't seem like the kind of scenario where sleeping in the same bed might be ok #even if# you usually slept in the same bed |
So is this pure male aggression? |
Yes and ive experienced worse and i think i know what he's thinking about why he deserves it |
There was more than once when he was pissed that i had to go to the ER. One of those times i was so unwell that i dont know what happened between the main stairs landing and the front door other than i passed out and scraped all the skin off my knee. Literally scalped my patella |
I'm sorry |
null |
He just sent that? |
Yeah |
Time stamps |
Please help me understand this, because you shouldn't be there |
Come to bed????? |
I have a lot of words |
Does he think he's funny? |
Or is he actually in this vibe |
I am curious them. And i cant bring myself to tell you other parts of the labyrinth |
Babe |
He's trying to remind me I'm stupid and wrong |
Adults do not behave this way |
He just threw the Nintendo across the room and pronounced himself kind of the bed |
I do not experientially know this so it's hard to understand |
I used to sleep on the living room couch for a lot of years because i hated my bedroom or the bed was too piled up or whatever. I heard my father invite my mother to bed "just offering" one night. She said no or no thanks and he reminded her that she was just a botch anyway. She.said "what?" And he sneered the qord back at her through what he probably thought was his winningest smile. |
Sorry |
I am sorry beyond words |
This guy is a bully |
You deserve |
null |
Fafo bitch |
Olive Branch |
Spit |
What a fucking bully |
I wont fight back. He knows that. It also drives him crazy that i dont. |
Ofc |
He wants a fight! |
That's what bullies do!!!!!!! |
Tell me I'm wrong |
I dont know |
That is the hardest thing I've ever had to hear from you |
Im sorry |
I dont know what to do |
67 is cold right? |
I feel really paranoid |
I feel literally crazy |
Babe I'm so sorry |
What? Why? |
Because I'm basically watching the worst episode where my favorite protagonist gets completely gaslighted and I can't do anything to stop it |
I'm sorry |
I was going to say something else but now i feel bad |
Tell me I'm being melodramatic |
Please |
Tell me I'm making this up |
Earlier today and all week it was how much he loves me and his hands and trying to kiss me and it's been weeka of crude frat boy suggestions or ideas or whatever that he says |
His hands are so much unlike you |
Im so sorry |
Tell me why I shouldn't get you a place to stay for a week to get his fucking attention |
He |
Is |
A |
Bully |
Because i think he would get rid of all of my things by then. Maybe hurt or neglect the animals. Tell my mother and she would use her own persuasion against me. Because work. Because even though my name is also on this house and property he would change the locks pretty quick |
This is pretty bad right |
It isnt yet but it also is |
He's manipulating you |
I know that but i dont get that |
To make you submit to his fucking ego |
That's what my therapist said pretty early on |
Based on something else |
His mommy hates me ducking who |
Fine |
We've all been there |
He needs to get over it and stop abusing people |
Luke his wife |
My mother knows some things in the "neg/con" category |
Do you know what she said besides what can or should do on my end to help improve everything? |
I know my guess |
Ive told her more than one thing and more than one time |
I don't have kind word for her |
For non physical |
Right |
So |
I think we both know how absurd that is |
Agreed |
I KNOW but i dont understand |
Ok |
This should all make me feel emotional. Any emotion. It does nothing |
It makes you retreat, and rightly so |
I feel ronotic or like a zombie, on autopilot, not real |
You've been burned out on these pathways for years babe |
"I gave up kids for you" "i wasted all of my 20s and 30s on you when i should have been having fun and meeting people and going out to sow my wild oats" |
Not today. Other times. Verbatim. |
Again, not a surprise |
Get over it |
From MIL once "you know, even if the baby was /hushed/ *black* we would still love it" |
No words |
Literally not something anyone adopting would even entertain as a potential spark of a grandparent's thought |
Delusional |
Move on |
"We just want to see (SIL) walk down the aisle, and our only chance is at L's wedding" |
Hun |
I'm sorry |
I also know he alienated any friends i had and i essentially never got to see or really talk to my cousin again after one visit she made here a couple of years before she died because of their rift. Which he obv made a point |
So |
I have my own phone plan & carrier |
He has my mothet on his plan |
I want to tell you a story. I have no idea how graphic it is because i dont go back into it to see what i remember. It is not a good story. I dont think you'll be okay |
I may have to ditch the phone fyi |
So i dont know when i can or will |
Ok |
*if |
How many more reasons do you need? |
You've told me 100 if you've told me 10 |
I am the catalyst for so many issues though |
Nope |
Lie |
You lie |
Yes. Literal yes, but you don't know that story |
Whatever |
That story! |
??? |
The first catalyst to my ultimate downfall |
The one that makes all of this make sense?? |
Kind of |
I doubt |
Oh maybe you do know? I feel like i told you on a sunny day while we were on a dirt road quth too many people at pull offs |
How long do you have to pay this debt? |
I have no idea |
Hmm |
I am a whore and cant forget how awful i am |
Emm hmm |
And this is fine? |
He told my mother |
He told a few people at work |
I dont get out of this alive |
O rly |
I have no memories, no house, no pets, no family, no job unless i keep this up |
And he's some kind of arbiter of sense all of a sudden because why??? |
See above |
Friends are already out of the equation |
I'm calling BS |
Please expound |
What is this threat |
Please |
And on what grounds does he toss it? |
I have no idea. I feel like that day could be any and every day |
Because you told me you have the deed and the title |
Dual |
He's a fucking bully |
I also have him committing me constantly over my head |
What does that even mean? |
Him Calling 911 and having them pit me on a psych hold |
No words |
Have you ever tried to engage a partner in sexual activities when they were very obviously asleep? |
I need your.logic please |
Because i know your answer |
What can I possibly say |
I know what you mean and I kinda know why you're asking |
I dont really know |
No it's not a fucking guy thing |
It's a bully thing |
Why do you say that? |
I ask because i might need to explain more |
Are you kidding??? |
No i am not |
Are you about to tell me the time |
When he came to you |
Maybe you juat love them so much and they look irresistible and you want to connect with them and you're in the middle of your own dream anyway |
When you weren't on the best terms and he wanted sex anyway |
I dont think so |
I don't why I'm entertaining this |
What is your point |
Im sorry |
I'll say this calmly |
You don't need to justify his behavior |
Now |
What was that story |
You were just telling me |
Gtg |
She's coming up |
I'm sorry!!! |
2024-12-31T07:55:28 |
Hiya |
Happy nye |
Oh yeah! Nye |
Nye hugs for you |
Thanks |
Sorry I had to cut out |
This plot is crazy |
Did she explain at l why she restarted that? |
No |
When the boys are here, it's her only option. But she's done it voluntarily as well |
Yes |
If there's anything I can do , you'll let me know, right? |
Yes |
I have no idea what you could do, but thank you |
I will be here for at least a couple of hours tomorrow while he returns his sister. I'd love if you have capacity for anything but kkow it's unlikely |
Any idea what time? |
I understand if not |
Afternoon to evening |
No precise time yet sorry |
There never is |
Ofc, got it |
You could start talking about a potential NY 2025 sale or something lol |
Did you perchance go through the green bag I dropped off? |
Not yet, i am so sorry :( |
It's ok |
I'm not positive there are no stray receipts in that bag |
Thanks for that |
Ok good deal. I wasn't worried about what you you see |
Thanks 🙂 |
I like how we wrapped similarly |
Right? |
I need to be more careful though |
What happened? |
I just didn't check for incriminating artifacts, that's all |
Oh no problem |
What would you tell someone who's thinking about getting me a brand new book from amazon? Published like 2020ish |
What would I tell them about what? |
Okay i see |
Ah right, good advice! |
If you are so inclined, i am going to lunch with the one friend i have today, afternoon. She is leaving me in the wild, per my request. If you wanted to/could get out |
Cool! |
Not quite |
West side |
New(ish) miniature development |
2024-12-31T12:42:56 |
Heua |
Hey |
You okay? |
Yeah |
You? |
What's going on? I sense "off" from you |
Nothing really. Scrolling Reddit and thinking I need to get my hiney in the shower |
Nah |
What went on since last text? |
I snoozed for a minute. Made a cup of coffee. Became furniture for cat |
Haven't moved much |
Rlh? Boys? |
My arm is not doing it for me today |
Boys been gone since Friday. Will be back this Friday supposedly. |
Any idea about the afternoon? |
I was thinking to head out right after shower |
I need a couple things anyway |
Are you lunching? |
I am. At the OG |
I plan on being out for a while, if that influences you at all |
VOA is half.off :) |
Whatcha thinking? |
Idk how you can even joke about thrift shopping rn 🙃 |
It's not joking |
I'm at Fresh Thyme, will be here maybe 10 minutes |
I'm still lunching |
Are you trying to poke the bear? |
I'm not trying anything |
Bc that's how you poke a bear |
I'll try and say this nicely.... idgaf |
He's going to the movies with his damn sister if he wakes up anyway |
Oh, it didnt occur to me that you dont know the mini resolution there was this morning |
Maybe he found the Olive Branch in his ass and will offer it up again |
No, I don't know anything |
I'm headed to Kroger Westside now :) |
Okau awesome! |
Actually could you get me something plz? |
Super heavy duty antibiotic goo and bandages? |
Yes |
Yay! |
Heads up i hage a friend with me at the VOA |
You are a guy i work with though, and we both like shopping for preownee goods |
Im wearing fuschia and hightopped hair today :) |
Suis par seule maintenant |
Found you a new work bag |
null |
VOA on s cedar? |
Mine is on the west side but i can make my way to cedar if you'd rather |
Nono |
Im on saginaw |
Don't move |
Near all the steak places |
Attached to gordons |
I can't stay but I can drop off things for you |
Noooooooo!!!!! |
Sorry |
I'm here |
I'll come out you silly boy |
Thank you immensely,good sir babes |
Ofc! |
Nah mate,above and beyond like the sweet baby angel you are |
Thx :) |
Here's a basement corner idea |
null |
How peculiar! |
Ive seen them in corner desk sectionals |
I have no place for this ty |
Oh i posited it for the aquariacorner as a solution for by the beam. I think i misunderstand the layout |
Lol |
2024-12-31T17:46:32 |
How goes it? |
2024-12-31T19:10:33 |
null |
Awwws |
Buenos noches! |
Y a te! |
I just wandered back in |
Oh hello lol |
I am a paminlomic |
Dalinbromic |
null |
Swipe L 4 times to expose the lucky boy! |
null |
You?? |
4 swipes $5 U in? |
Aww cmon |
null |
Soooooorrry sorry sorry |
null |
Thoughts? |
Recent vitals? |
When did you last clean the open wounds? |
How does the wound regions feel? |
Any pain? |
Lol ai wanted |
null |
Yep |
Yw |
Damn, penguin must've escaped |
Bwahahaha |
Surprise y'all |
Why do I feel so dirty |
You are still owing me: |
Recent vitals |
Wound reports; general |
You pay now |
My lowest moment was that guy at DTW |
I had no cash |
And he pushed my wife to luggage and trolly |
And I had nothing to give him |
I over-tip as a rule. I literally couldn't |
What say you??? |
Seated |
null |
2 mins standing |
null |
As I do not have your history |
How do these compare to your expectations? |
Did I send you the linguist question yet? |
https://youtu.be/ZUANv2E7tuI?si=8TNU7FFwbYAWXHUu |
Here it is |
Ty for the vitals! |
What is your temperature? |
Still ISO thermostick |
null |
Plz give me a detailed summary of "ISO THERMOSTICK" |
In search of |
Found |
98.3 |
Matriarchal conversation ongoing |
Plz explain |
My mothercalled |
Ohhh |
Ouai |
Questceque tu as fais aujourdhui? |
YouTube |
Aussie cichlid Content Makers (sm) |
Lovely bunch |
Well grounded lovely kids |
One is cute AF in spite of myself |
Tu as penserais belle penses de moi |
In spite of, |
Porque? |
Ooooo |
This girl on YT |
But you |
Irl |
No competition |
You hands down |
Aaaaaand |
Pssshhhhttt |
Did you see that girl? |
Non |
null |
What a quizzical photo |
This was not featured or anything |
Momentito, mi amor |
Props to daddy |
Si |
Sheis me |
You are daddy |
Happened today lol |
Is it so? |
You know the face i make |
There is a way |
In which I feel terrible |
Not because I had to move in the moment |
But because I have not yet had the chance to make it up to you |
Bc I have so much love for you |
I do not understand |
Holy fuck. Hitting the neeeeeeeeed sleep wall so hard. Eww. |
Poor baby!! |
I am cooking |
What's cooking? |
Breaded mozz sticks |
Steamed broc |
Fancy cheesy mac |
Grilled ish veg burgers and chix |
Cleaned U glasses for midnight pour |
... |
Honestly |
I don't usually make a big deal about balls dropping |
But brownie pts |
And I was famished |
H |
I |
Youuuuuu |
null |
Waaaaa! |
2025-01-01T06:45:44 |
Happy new year!!!!! |
Thank you for not saying "new yearS" |
2025-01-01T10:28:59 |
Good morning!!@ |
Howdy! |
Did you ever watch him? |
Him? |
Howdy doody (sp?) |
No, never did |
I have an old GD book signed by the cast |
How was your night & how is today? |
Night was good... Alone, which is good under the circumstances |
I sure slept later than I thought I would though |
What circumstances? |
Yesterday, they went fo the 1720 Mufasa movie |
Circumstances though? I'm sorry i.got you in trouble |
I am architect now |
null |
null |
Wow! |
?? |
Your arm is really clearing up! |
Thanks to YOUUIUUU |
I'm almost positive imfection was starting yesterday |
How does it feel? |
Better |
Yay! |
Yesterday it felt internally hot but not to the touch, weird to describe |
Itchy bitey spaghetti! |
Right?! |
Not good |
But what circumstances say you?? |
Being home with rlh |
Well, yes. That's one reason i didnt get home til 19h something |
Nope, just luck of the draw |
I meant with her |
No, she's fine. Nothing more was said and I made food last night. I'm good |
Your texts are short. Just checking on my fave person and their wellbeing bv i dont trust your self preservation to ckme rigjt out and pour problems out to me. Or anyone |
Haha I'm ok! |
Cet apres-midi? |
I'm sleepy |
Awwwz |
Ty ty:) |
❤ |
It's giving....... much improved in the tidyness department! |
Good job! |
Thanks! |
Getting rid of lots too |
Need nap |
❤️ to “ Need nap ” |
2025-01-01T16:24:52 |
Baaaaaabe!!! |
2025-01-01T17:25:28 |
Yoooooooo! |
Whatcha doin? |
Emm hmm I'm making a scale for the aquarium so I know the volume of water based on the level |
I kind of obsessed with such things |
Noooooooo really!??! |
Gotsme an apron |
null |
Well that's cute? A little outta season, but it'll come around |
From my mother |
Reminds me of slutty but that's fine lol |
I wasn't going to say it 😋 |
Love the source |
? |
It's from my mother |
Well, right lol |
I have a math ish problem |
You bet |
Measuring now |
Meanwhile, tell me about the day and the break and whatever plz ;) |
I've been SOoo lazy today |
Not exactly looking forward to working tomorrow. My office is cluttered beyond words. I've been neglecting it for two weeks lol |
Hey saaaaaaame |
I guess I'll just take it one step at a time |
Cats will have to find places to nap upstairs again |
Yep yep |
Good luck to us all! |
Right!? |
How do you like your mashed potatoes? |
A little salt, touch of oregano or fresh parsley |
Do you use gravy ever? Butter? |
Butter if it isn't already cooked in. I rarely make gravy, but I'd have some if it was there probably |
What are you doing with mashed potatoes anyway lol |
How do you make gravy? Veg stock, mushrooms, flour? |
I'm a good gravy cook at all. But I would definitely try mushrooms, veg stock or water from steaming veggies. I usually try adding a small amount of corn starch to thicken it because I don't know what I'm doing lol. |
I'm *not* a gravy cook lol oops |
Lol |
Milk for a creamy version |
They make.mushroom gravy packets and some probably work for vegges like you |
No doubt |
I also ask in case i cook for you, and because I'm trying tl vegify a lot of what i consume |
Good idea:) |
Some guy i like said it was cool or whatever |
Pompous lot |
Fo' sho' |
How's the night? Have food? |
Not yet |
Just watching some aquarium videos |
Imagine this: aquarium as the entertainment for "the center" |
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Books or record or whatever shelves included! |
I also want this table for you. Idk why, really |
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And whatever this is |
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Huh! |
I can tell you where ro get it. Or procure it for you! |
I'm not in need of one, but ty! |
I know i know |
No doubt! |
You find me a nice corner thing yet? |
Wearing the wotch woman shirt around the house? |
*witch |
No not yet |
Gaining outdated kmowledge? |
Aww witch woman |
Which witch? |
The outdated one I guess? |
Huh? |
Who? |
Stephsnie |
Right, right |
Are you going into office tomorrow? |
No, my office days are Monday & Tuesday. Off Wednesdays |
Wasn't sure with PTO and holidays |
Right. Me either and i didnt want issues with my xoaching plan and all, so i sent a text with very specific questions and received a very set of specifics in response :) |
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More cool |
A grandfather thermometer? |
Idk |
Any notable additions yesterday? |
For me? |
Yah |
I did! |
Cool plushes, a tonnnnnn of books, a few new articles of apparel, a crate that suits my chicken area, some olddd chicken s&p, a tiny paper dresser, idk what else |
Paper/cardstock/tagboard dresser |
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Lol |
Pretty fancy! |
It's so pretty! |
Got a cool thing perhaps for you |
Idk original purpose but could hold small tools or something |
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Weird! |
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It's for storing loyalty cards |
It's a Flintstones era telephone |
It's a coop piece of lansing coffee culture! |
Not a terrible option for self defense in the event of a zombie apocalypse |
Lol. It's light |
Not full of hot coffee |
Best place for a bunch of small magnets? Bezos, sure |
Hmm |
Is this a new topic? Small magnets? |
Ummmm care to share? |
My brain is jumping around lol |
Strange Matter |
Star Man? |
The mind wanders, but in it's own special path |
Subliminal Message |
Do I win? |
Submissive mistress? |
You win |
Yay!!! |
❤️❤️❤️ |
But it's you who wins the sub |
(She is me) |
Yay! |
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Doesn't everyone keep their dog in a bottle? |
Lol that IS the dog's bottle |
Lololol |
I'm fading out darlin |
Im bedding soon too |
Sweet dreams and ttyt!! |
Ty and same for you |
2025-01-02T05:36:11 |
Good morning bebe! |
You too! |
Yep! |
It's amazing what going to bed on time does |
Yes! |
And avoiding the Guinness |
Lol |
Meh |
Actually woke up a little after 4, tried to get back to it, but decided to get up an hour ago |
Good work! Are you usimg the extra time to maybe clean/doom box the workspace? |
Nah |
Twins! Lip |
*lol |
O rly |
Ls not in the basement today? |
Nope |
You'll wake him up |
This is alllllllllllllllways a thing here |
I should be doing something though. Laundry to finish |
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Teims! |
Yay! |
I am strewn with clothes, if you couldnt tell |
Lol how many clothes does a girl need? |
Girl with good, little unique taste who's been known to be a little flighty with choices |
Lololol |
Are you headed anywhere today? |
Oh. And how are you, in case i didnt ask? |
No I'm not planning to go anywhere today. Doing well so far! |
Actually good ;) |
Some buffoon is either mowing their lawn or snowblowing their driveway, neither of which is warranted rn |
Keeping an eye out for my corner shelf? |
Lol I to find 2 corner shelves! |
Need? Want? Loathe? |
We missin words yo |
Oops missing aux verb HAVE |
I only need one :) |
You go dicker & deal for me on kzoo. Okay? Ok :) |
Actually I need a corner cabinet |
Corner bookcase type thing |
FR though, they have one according to a friend of mine, plus Aprils next door is everything half off bc they're going out of business |
What kind of corner thing do you need? Ive seen some |
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Back right |
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Examples at April's right now |
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Update for ya |
Wow babe that looks GREAT |
Yes! From YOU!!! |
You're almost pink again! |
Like a babelet |
Aww babelet... |
We're looking for something like the 2nd piece. Need some place for all the green glowy glass |
Lots of shelves needed |
Lol kinda same |
? And ? |
Nothing contemporary I guess |
So it needs character |
Glass windows or open space |
Windows would be nice , but I'm not going say required |
What volume fish zoo did you want? Does shape matter? Just the glass wall type or did you need a fancy shape? |
Plain ol' rectangular. Yes shape is important. Glass or acrylic. 75 gallon minimum. About 140 gal max. |
Should be roughly 6 feet long |
Okay so it WAS gallons and ultra magnum in size |
You kids, lol |
Heh! |
Lolz |
Omg my eyes hurt already and this whole work at a computer with slices inside my bent elbow.... no thanks |
Owieeeee |
Yep |
And then it gets sweaty |
Which means salty |
I am salty babelet |
You're starting to sound like breakfast |
I dont want you to taste me salty!!!! |
😋 |
No! |
You have any escape capacity ce weekend? |
The platonic kind, probably |
Also...... potential overnight(s)? Not immediate but soon, maybe |
Possibly! The dudes supposedly coming back tomorrow, so you know, distractions |
Bien sur! |
Eyyy |
Heyyyy |
What's up? |
As an aside, could we ever go to Mason or Charlotte? |
Sure we can venture to scary towns down south some day. |
You crazzzzzzzzy |
There are cool antique places in mason |
If you had a small wooden cubical box, what shade of stain or color of paint would you choose? |
For the box |
Umm |
#C8A2C0 |
Nah mate, real words please |
Or i choose |
https://duckduckgo.com/?q=random+color&atb=v314-1&ia=answer |
What color is this in acrylic? |
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Um, purple |
Damn |
I thought it was cobalt |
Spin again! |
https://color.adobe.com/create/color-wheel |
You should play with this if you haven't tried it before! |
I will later thx! Really gotta work. But also cant see color well..... |
This site has tools for accessibility as well :) |
Okay? How does that help when i cant see color well? |
You will know at least that a color is not considered safe for different kinds of impairments |
Know what?? |
What do you mean by safe for impairments? Like, id kmow it wouldnt work for color blindness? Lol |
The site will say so, and show what things would look like in different color blind scenarios |
Cool |
Giftsases |
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I also plan on sharing my fave soundtrack with you later ;) |
The swatches with dashes in them are the most affected compared to the original colors in the top bar |
That's interesting - how do colorblind people tell what it should be? |
For real |
I mean, they can't |
I say this because i used to see color just fine. I no longer do, and it's frustrating to think of being described what's missing when i cant interpret what they see |
Also, may need tiny taser |
Waking up is haaaarrrrddd |
I am so fucking tirwd and owwwwwed |
I hear ya there! |
Srsly how fo i combat this |
Struggling myself |
Coffee will be involved at some point |
Imma get up and move around. Elbow killing me. Sniffin the Vicks Stix too |
Lol Vicks stix |
It's real |
2025-01-02T13:30:01 |
Eat something! |
++ i have a few genius ideas for you |
No eats only coffee lol |
Sooooooooooook tired here |
Cant even do my work |
And it's importabtish to do today. Oh well |
I recommend 30 minute nap |
Rather be making aou5 and then snuggled asleep with you |
Idk how i can do that |
Oh baby tell me more about auo5 |
Use your lunch if it's not too late! |
Just ended |
Well damn |
But that's 16 mins |
*16 |
Damn. Fifteen |
Fifteen??? |
What kind of sweatshop is this |
The kind where i leave 15 minutes earlier |
Let's new year rizz to get you a better job and auo5 all daze |
Oh shit, i know what's up |
?? |
Imma get me a aou5 tshirt |
Je ne le sais pas |
Just scheduled my colonoscopy |
We should go away the weekend before :) |
Right? Long weekend too |
I know |
I figured you were serious |
Another SIL weekend here and i keep begging for alone time and trips. Day off is a good excuse |
Silodontis strikes again |
Fwiw I have to go to Flint Friday 17th. This is the second show I got signed up to go to |
You still have NO idea with her |
Maybe you decide to go somewhere overnight on the 18th. Or 19th. Or you find me one of those days when I'm out of town and lonely and you just wanted to say hi |
Wdym I have no idea |
How awful the whole situation with my ILs is |
oic |
Been to restore lately? |
Nope |
Darn |
The only place I've been was Billy's antiqueues |
I got lost in there |
Uhhhh |
Omg i did too! Literally |
I found a commissary though |
And green glowing glass ggg |
Some chickmustve liked you to tell you all about it when she didnt even get to go with! |
She had surgery or some bs |
Lame |
Totes |
Made for some cool pics tho |
The glass or my arm?? |
The glass :) |
I mean they might like your arm too |
It's nice and squishy |
But very weak and limp and pinkishred and owzie |
Yeah, but they could make it better! |
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Hm! I'd try that |
😊 |
Baaaaaaaaaaabe |
Are you free at last? |
Yep! |
My poor starving owie sleepy baaaaaaabeee! |
No longer! |
Life just isn't complete is it |
You need a hobby! |
Wanna borrow my lathe? |
I have lots |
Of hobbies |
It comes with lots of stabby tools! |
And hazards! |
Coming to help me organize? Maybe I'll decorate my shelf first thing |
Have you seen the video where this dude gets yanked on the lathe by his collar or something |
Wiiiild |
No thank you |
Firefighter paramedic mother |
No need |
Oh yeah I keep forgetting |
What else do you learn in 3rd grade?? |
Yeah it's a wonder you're not a vegan already |
Have tried ro be both many times |
3rd grade |
Mrs Yost |
Iirc |
Opposite Mrs Wong |
I loved that year at school |
We learned a little bit of German |
From the aide I think |
Colors |
SCHWARTZ |
That's the last year i remember being a little good at maths |
EOT |
ROT |
I was also 8yo that year |
I UPDATED |
Oh? |
We did something with shapes in maths |
I didn't learn much... I was already pretty good |
At maths |
Im great at super simple or practical kinds. Nothing else mathu |
That was the year before I started to program |
*mathy |
Mathu, God of maths |
That's when i started learning spanish. On my own. Already knew French |
Mathieu |
Noice |
Quite |
Is how to spell it en francais |
Oui |
The first IQ gifted test i had they did again because i had a 9th grade reading level at the start of 1st grade but at grade level for math |
You were prioritizing! |
When i took the ACT (scored out of 36 i think), i had |
But i also make too much sense |
Sounds about right |
I'd like to think I could demystify maths for someone willing and wanting to know |
I think you could |
Maybe tutor calc 1, but that would be a challenge for sure |
But explain up to that level |
So-called "humble brag" lol |
Use dollars and clearance sales to learn percentages |
And things like that |
Well dang you don't need my help lol |
Maybe just a good calculator |
No shame in that |
Never learned how to use it |
So basically leaving out the trig and log functions |
I literally dont know what those are or why i would use them |
Ok, no problems |
Not to humble brag now that it's my turn, but i am incredibly resourceful and always always "figure it out" |
Damn straight |
2025-01-02T18:56:39 |
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Did we switch topics? |
What was the topic? |
Cheers! |
Omg |
So what are you dealing with, why is it difficult, what is that picture of? Books? Looks like books |
Where's your kama sutra copy? Which pages did you flag and what are they flagged for? |
This is 50 pounds of Krishna books |
There are 100 lbs more elsewhere |
I'm sure KS is in there somewhere |
I literally never opened it |
What!?!? Get to it! |
Too busy with aq |
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Whyhow? |
I have a sexggestion later |
Light cleaning, good hygiene, and the need to rearrange all the rocks. The latter most is much easier when the water level is low. Unless you like wet pits. |
You probably sense where this is going |
All roads lead to my janitor |
I actually do not |
Oh my janitor |
Scratch my janitor |
From the Latin of Janus, for door |
Rub my janitor |
Etymology my dude |
I'll show you my janitor |
If |
... |
Audience participation plz |
I like showing her to you |
Aww |
Actually aww |
I admire her |
Why? |
Afaik a somewhat uncommon configuration |
All bodies are really cool |
Some are really interesting and fun as well |
When there were too many digits last time, how did you know? |
How many were there? |
I asked you |
There were two |
Why did you ask me |
Index and middle right hand |
Because I thought you flinched a little and I knew I was pushing my luck |
Sorry |
Hope you don't mind |
No babe |
I am sorry |
No! |
It's your body |
Well i want you to have it |
Just light testing is all |
Ok fine |
And ty m |
Tyvm |
And I shall |
One of these days i hope you'll fulfill a fantasy of mine |
Tell meeeeee |
You do whatever 6 want, everything you want, to me. With me. Prepositions be damned, i want to be all yours |
*whatever you want |
No idea why a 6 is in there |
Your fantasy consists of content I direct? |
If I didn't know better .... |
What manner of creature were you in your previous life? |
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Nap took over, sorry! |
Hahaha! |
Good! |
How are you feeling |
Pretty olay thanks! You? |
Good, good |
Olay |
To you as well |
Yeah! |
Woop! |
So |
What kind of girl arrrrre you? |
So many answers |
The curious kind |
Do continue |
Idk. What kind of answers are you seeking? |
Who arrrrre you |
Actually |
One sec |
This is the question I want you to address |
If you don't mind |
Can you give me an idea of what kind of response you would give? I'm trying to respond how it'll make sense to you |
Were you a gladiator? |
a farmer? |
Did you sell ice cream? |
Anything you can remember |
I think I've beeen more than one thing |
Sure, sure. Ofc |
Whaddya reckon |
I think something where water facilitated life - saoling, exploring, piracy, idk |
What do you think? |
Yeah, really resonates with me |
Jsyk |
I will fight |
But |
I do not deny it |
Not a mean it anything |
I dont see it as victim |
Mean fight |
Nonna that |
I see it as necessary sacrifice? |
Ok, ty |
I will fight it |
But in a nice way |
I dont get that? |
Invoke my best Yoda |
You will |
Lol |
Nbd sis |
I'm saying I've got your back |
But I might cheerlead you through something you don't wanna |
Because I feel that for you |
I also know limits |
Actually, i think we could get on the same page with this |
And yes |
Cheat code |
This is a negotiation |
What do you mean by cheerlead theiugh something i dont wanna? |
There is only one way to know the true price |
Oh geez |
Imma drag you through something where you might be all like "ok y'all this is where I get off" and I will say nope |
Not today |
This isn't the one |
Sorry |
Does it make any sense? |
Maybe |
I should really frame this in its proper light |
But at that, i do have something probably a little alarming that's a mentality of mine |
I dont know if ive told you before or not |
Typically i tell zero people. My therapist knew and that was all i cared to tell |
What say you? |
I say this |
Lol one sec |
I think one thing you've not had much is someone in your corner. If you don't agree with this, I'd be interested to know |
I think that's very, very true. I also think a lot of the same people would still tell you today that they were always in my corner no matter what. When i intentionally give off every stereotypical sign or symptom of REALLY needijg help though, or i specifically tell someone i need them to get me some immediate help, there's nothing but crickets |
You don't strike me as a hypochondriac |
I think I'm a hyperchondriac, if anything |
Lol wordsmithtressed perfectly |
I believe what you tell me |
Who will be willing to vouch for you when you can't? |
What do you mean? |
Who cares about you? |
That sounds really horrible, but I want to know your take |
Are you familiar at all with Anna Karenina? |
Ended badly |
Ive referenced her character to me for close to 20 years now |
Ofc |
Basics of the story are that she toils around and gets her life messed up a little. No one really cares because she did it to herself. She's in so much internal pain that she doesn't see a point in continuing because everything she loves has been taken away from her and she doesnt have love left for herself |
Sorry not really an uplifter |
Right |
So |
Nobody gives a shit right |
Kinda, yeah |
Fwiw |
I am sorry I feel like I'm making this really dramatic |
And I don't meant |
Mean to |
It's okay |
But you've identified 3 people to me that don't treat you like shit. And you are related to none |
In any way |
Familial or legal |
I know 1 that hasn't let me down |
Well can I add myself to that list? Asking as a friend |
You ARE that lost |
Noooooooo |
Lol? |
One sec, spousealert |
Hey |
Oh hai |
I gotta conk out |
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I love you too! |
2025-01-03T06:15:05 |
Hiya |
2025-01-03T07:51:42 |
Hiya! |
What's up? |
Buttercup |
Nothing much, you? |
Where's my petit dejeuner? |
Good question |
:( |
I may have some news |
Uh-oh |
It's a bit uncertain and idk if you want to know |
Okay. Tell me please |
I just don't want you to flip out or anything |
Ohhhh no |
RLH might be going to AR in a couple weeks |
Oh. Okay. |
Impromptu visit to see her brother. He's not well |
Okay |
Taking the offspring with her |
Okay |
So I might be utterly alone but for the cats to keep me company |
On these cold January Michigan nights |
Ohhh i see |
And days |
Perhaps i can comfort you |
Well |
The nights are so cold though |
Idk if you want to deal with it |
No curfew |
You said you didn't want me to flip out...? |
Are you upset |
Not at all |
Quite the opposite |
Why would i be upset? |
Also, busy work morning so i may be slow to respond at first |
Ok no worries |
I tried not to look excited when RLH told me the news |
But my head was spinning with ideas |
I love it! When might this be? |
I think she was talking about a week from today, but maybe its really two weeks. One or the other |
I'll plant those seeds then :) |
Busy tonight? |
What's up the 11th? |
You know me, busy doing nothing |
Busy with my trivial pursuits |
Really need to clean my hobby and work areas |
They're getting out of hand |
My baby bff's birthday party |
Love me all those trivial pursuits! |
Aww! She's a 1/1 baby? |
Firat of the year in her county! |
Noice |
"Working" today? |
Lol exactly |
I need to pull together a spreadsheet for finance. That's about it |
It'll take me 10 minutes |
What do they want now? |
Idk if I have the willpower |
They want to be daddied |
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O |
More willpower now? |
I can think of one thing only |
BOOBIE |
Nice boobie! |
My god you have cute tits |
Thank you ❤️ |
So. You get to do what you want while i am present, willing, able, and enthusiastic |
I have 2 other topics in queue if you need them. Maybe 3. Or 4. 6. |
Sorry I'm still thinking about boobs |
Good |
Mine are very subpar though |
But my ass kinda makes up for it |
Your ass doesn't have to answer for anything. What are talking about "subpar"? They're cute AF and they're squishy and wonderful |
They're very small |
Size isn't everything |
In fairness, so are some.other parts of me.... |
I bet they look smashing in a Summer dress |
And I know they are awesome and bouncy when you ride me |
And they feel most excellent in my mouth |
Very satisfying indeed |
I was actually thinking i might ride you again |
I'd love that |
Any time you want it |
I'd love a lot more positions with you |
Gotta get a grip, yknow? |
Right! |
You ARE large |
Idk, you keep saying that but I don't have a point of reference |
I do know you treat me so well |
And I appreciate it |
I dont treat you that well |
Well whatever you call it sure is fun |
I am soooooooo glad you think so |
Ummm |
Definitely not |
2025-01-03T12:17:03 |
Hi! |
I ask too many questions and im still too novice about a lot of lots |
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Well |
I recommend you stop eating cat ears. That isn't helping |
Purrtein? |
I know they're tangy |
Lol |
Back to me on my back, anyway.... |
I love that youre the one who gets to be first at lots of fun things |
Awesome! |
I'm pretty sure you like it too |
You bet I do |
And I just love to please you |
It makes me so happy |
I wish i pleased you so, so much more |
We just have to keep practicing! |
You know, lot of reps |
Try try again |
It makes me feel really bad, really guilty that you always leave unsatisfied |
I understand your concern |
And it's not your fault! |
I can't words apparently |
Meh |
I CRAVE you finishing over and over |
Ah, that makes sense |
Yeah sorry. Past rebecca doesn't forget much and current rebeccabrain lives with it |
Yeah I understand! I can definitely tell you there is no IOU here. You don't owe me anything irl. Use the feeling for motivation if it helps. But I do not harbor any negative feelings about our relationship |
You're safe |
Yes. |
But it sure is a treat to come with you |
Lol |
And I hope I can do it much more |
I hope so, too |
People have told you a lot of things. Idk why you let them get away with it sometimes. But I am just me and happy to share |
One sentence "are you sure it wasnt just bad sex?" |
I feel like you're not actually asking me that. |
In spite of my limitations |
Ah. Not what i was saying |
While recounting & reporting,more than one authority asked me. I had no basis for comparison either |
Hmm |
I know NOW how wrong they were |
Good! |
But theni was 19 and it 6 first week on campus and it wasnt a bavk alley stranger |
Sorry, having popcorns |
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😋 |
You are so cute! |
Haha, thanks |
2025-01-03T14:23:33 |
Now presenting: Friday afternoon of a holiday week meeting stance rebecca! |
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Ab fab baby! |
Aww thanks! |
Whatre you doing? |
Just wrapped up a spreadsheet for my good friends in finance, wrapped up an interwebs purchase for my bestie, and now sitting on my laurels for a moment, wondering if I should take a shower this week? |
Did you actually have a meeting? |
I did |
Why wouldnt i have? |
That's blind confusion is all |
Interwebs purchase, you say? |
Yah |
I was thinking some things. How busy are ya? |
Thinking huh? |
I'm not busy |
I have a green bag next to me |
Ah yes, green bag |
I might know the one |
Was thinking i might open her up |
Sounds like something I'd say |
I hope you open me up again |
Heh |
It never gets old |
I do still want you all the way in, holding my thighs open and butterflied to the bed |
💘 |
You'll do it? |
But of course |
My flexible dolly |
And you know I'll want some downward dogging again |
Hell yes |
I was going to ask about your arm last time but we didn't get that far |
When and what did you want lasf time that we didnt get to? |
Down dog |
Oh. Right. That would have been impossible |
That's what I figured |
But I think about it |
About which part? |
Down dog |
Lol |
Please tell me why |
One, it's sexy |
I thought you were opening presents, not conducting a sexual preference interview 🤣 |
I'm kidding |
You can ask whatever you want |
Science is always research duh |
Correct! |
Sexy.... whyhow? Things can feel different for you? |
Ah fuck |
Ok get you some sugar! |
Tell me answers while i go! |
The answer is down dog |
You like it better than others, yes? |
I like it in the mix |
ooOoo!!! |
And if you wanted to have sparkle butt thingy that would make it extra swanky |
I have something i think i need to make clearer |
Yes |
When i told you where i keep the playthings that was me relling you, you should use them with me. On me. In me. |
I know I know |
Liesssssss |
Nah it's true I understood that |
I have two issues I'm thinking of rn |
One, this is all new to me. Or almost all new to me, and I need to work though my weird shy-like reaction to things like this. It probably sounds silly, but it is sort of an inhibitor. |
I agree 10000 percwnt with both |
They're almost all unused things |
Two, I feel like we're always pressed for time (even if we aren't) so worry-wart me doesnt think theres time to explore |
It's a thing for me |
I understand that too |
I need to fucking relax sometimes |
Erhmhmmm |
Like i dont need to lol |
You probably see it |
Idk |
I do and i dont |
I have no reason to be all conservative, but I still do |
null |
Yeah for sure |
Well hello there |
Damn I want to lick you |
I want you kissihg every last inch of me |
Please |
Sooooooooo many kisses coming your way |
It will be so freeing to not have a curfew |
I just have to keep the cats alive |
Looks like you're losing your knickers there hun ;) |
They were wet anyway |
You take them |
Nice :) |
I miss you |
Ohhh |
Hopefully we will have extended opportunities for quality time soon |
Yes! |
You are occupied in the morning? And sunday? |
Or unoccupied and unavailable |
Ah. Tant pis. |
Hope springs eternal I guess |
Have you sprung off lately? |
Sprung off? Lol |
Emissified? |
Hehe |
Yesterday |
Not today |
Yeah? |
What were you thinking of? |
Hmm |
Details, daddy! |
I can't think of it now but I do recall I was standing up, which is not the norm for me |
It's not exactly a memorable experience |
In general |
It's not like being with someone |
Do you wver have that primal instinct to just grab me and go? |
Sometimes |
And then Mr practical brain steps in and he's all like |
F'in idiot |
I have a shower |
I get it |
Inhibitions |
Not always helpful |
And believe me, I've been living with these for a very long time |
That doesn't mean they aren't defeatable tho |
I have none, but the only reason is because they all got taken away from me. I'm okay without them now :) |
You do quite well, yes |
Maybe that's not entirely true |
At least you seem to |
I would tell you a story excerpt to help illustrate, but the depravity in me wants to see your face when i tell you |
Lol |
It isn't a good story, sorry |
Sigh, like so many for you |
Many of those that I've hinted at are the same story |
It's just probably incredibly bad |
Well that's ok. Don't let the past haunt you right now |
Okay :) |
I do want to tell that story |
Idk when |
Or how |
But i at least want to try |
Idk if you know how it feels when words literally won't form out of your mouth |
Probably not the way you've experienced that |
When have you had it happen? |
I've been at the point of exasperation with RLH more than once where I realized my instincts were to yell, or throw something, and decided to walk away instead. |
Because words were not going to work |
I've also been in a state where I felt like I didn't know what to do, say, or think because I was so derailed by some argument we had. I would literally just go look at a wall somewhere. |
Somehow I think you're talking about something else though |
On my way to Kroger zah! |
It is something else, yes. But you cant know it until it happens with you |
Le kroger! For quoi!? |
Une shelf du coin? |
Idk shelf lol |
Lol |
Need foodstuffs! |
And snacks! |
What aisle are you in? |
You know |
Snaaaaaaaacks |
Tarts |
Aisle sex? |
To nine? |
Please! |
Lol |
So i haz nosnacks? |
See you misunderstood me |
That too |
Maybe if i lose some inhibitions I'll tell you exactly and very specifically how you should taste your snack |
Really get in there and savor every last bit |
Feedback is always welcome! |
No, you misunderstand |
That's what I'm saying :) |
You can push my face where you want it too |
Wait |
Could i really touch you head? Grab it, maybe? |
Yes!!! |
Totally |
Ohhh fuckkkmk |
I'm so turned on by that |
Shove my face in your pussy if that's what you want lol |
Ohhhhh my godddddd yes |
This makes for an interesting shopping experience btw |
Like my with your entire tongue from the bottom to the top |
See what your true lingual potential is by sliding that oral appendage into me. Swirl around if youd like. Id like to try. |
Oh yes indeed |
And if you're ever okay with it, flick and lick that tight tiny hole in my ass too |
Oh my goodness |
I'm more ok with it than I may have presented myself |
Are you ok knowing i know i like it? |
Yes totally fine! |
Side note that if i ever have even the slightest doubt that it'll icky or if i could be (at worst) a neutral experiemce for you, i wont let you near there. Or me, really |
That's an important mentalitu |
State of mind, basic hygienic necessity, whatever |
Agreed! |
I have seen pics of extremely unhygienic things |
And yeah, no |
Yeah no to what? |
Oh. Grossness. |
I hope that's been at least somewhat evident |
Quasi related - what's your guess on how many times ive gone to get waxed since we kicked off this crazy little thing called love? |
I know of two |
It's actually been once. Day before the first time |
Are you sure? Bc I thought I remember you telling me you were going there another time |
Yes. 100% sure. I depillatoried myself another time with cream stuff as an experiment. |
Ok cool, I will say something if I think you should know |
Please be nice about it |
But youve seen me at a very literal worse that the worst i get in all senses |
If youre feeling like you need a bit paradoxical knowledge for something you sorta caused in a good but bad but ultimately sad and kinda weird way, you let me know |
I just want you to be in the right mood for the knowledge youll gain |
Ok, remind me later plz! |
Smooth feels better on me, idk if you feel any different if I'm smooth? |
Not sure I'm following |
If I'm smooth all over, sex feels better. Everything feels better. You can even get closer in. I dont know if me having less hair means sex feels better for you at all. Or why would you still like him |
Okay, the day kicked my ass so i may fall asleep very suddenly |
Ok babe get that nap whenever you want |
Know i dont have? Explain the first part plz |
Oh! You know i dont shave! |
I have not. Also have not had someone shave me but it's been asked. That's a thing? |
Sorry! Shave. Yes. It's a thing. It's fun. You're welcome to do me baby if you want |
Why is it appealing? (Genuine question, not judgy) |
It's like a caretaking thing, and you get to handle your partner in new ways and have a great reason to look really closely. Usually followed by vigorous sex ofc |
In theory that would make good erotic ASMR lol |
I think i want you to try that with me |
Sounds extremely vulnerable |
Oh yes 100% |
Have you done this? |
And you know, you have to get used to the idea of dragging a razor or whatever across your partner. |
Does it still appeal to you with me as your canvas? |
Obv you could do whatever, doesn't have to be shaving |
100% yes it does appeal to me now with you |
Anything else in the caretaking realm? |
God I'm imagining something incredibly erotic right now |
Oh you know, lotions and potions and slippery things |
Geez gutter girl |
It's just slidey slippery |
Fingers |
I remember |
And things |
Yes? |
How funny |
But i havent decided if youre in front of me or along my posterior to begin with |
Oh baaaaaabe |
It's slow and soft but methodical and firm in the way the heat rises when we go down that path |
And it's so, so wet |
And i cant stop the noises i make |
And you never knew a broken back could flip and twist and arch so much |
Especially when my hips are anchored where you want them |
Where theyre best suoted in that moment |
Too bad you only have the 2 hands |
And I only have one mouth |
You are soooo hot |
You shall have it |
Did i mention the breathe that barely escapes im a wisp from one set of lungs into the other's ear? |
OMG baaaaaabe |
So good |
Make it so |
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You shall have it |
Oh is it!? |
Yes |
How wonderful |
Hobbit birthdays are fantastic |
You as the birthhobbit give to your frienda |
He brought us so much |
More than anyone realizes. Such amazing, complex genius |
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Excellent! |
Oh oops I'm too early lol |
May i request something please? |
Also, i beh toyr finest pardon, sir, but what were you clicketyclackubg about circa 1430 on this fine 3rd day of January, the year of some lord 2025?? |
Lololol |
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Ah well as it happens, I share with The Professor the fact that I took my bathing of the year in this very as well |
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My first bathing |
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You are so welcome |
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But pray tell |
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Did you receive a perhaps enticing missive via email? |
Some bloke with the name "Andy" |
Yeah |
Some bloke |
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Hell of a response, btw |
Yep, all the fabric a girl ever needs |
So much more than fabric! |
You do know i can/do sew, yes? |
I didn't! |
And i have a number of quilts i made myself |
And i routinely thrift things and make them whatever i want |
Well you can knit while you relax in the spa |
Usually shorter lol |
I do not knot |
I crochet, but i only know straight lines. I'm wocked fast at scarves though |
You do knot |
You never know for me |
Knot |
Once upon a time i had dreams of being a costume maker and designer in broadway or film |
Dammit |
Historically accurate |
And i had a mentor |
And instead of performing ir tech crew or pit orchestra, i did all the costuming and dress for the high school productions when i wasnt chez u of m mott |
Oh shit |
I can do a lot of things. All pretty well too |
Damn |
Sorry |
I'll |
Oh! The past lives thing? |
Without thinking of literary characters, do you have any sense of previous identity? |
I thought i said a lot yesterday |
Honestly, i feel drawn to witch trials and joan of arc |
And the romanovs |
In all seriousness, what do you think that says? |
It's well aligned with your outlook on things generally |
I hope so |
Right on |
It's fine if you dont believe it or think it's silly. My bones know what they feel and they remember weird stuff at their core |
I think no such things |
RLH hung with the Hare Krsna crowd before me. One of the beliefs is reincarnation |
I got into the beliefs superficially, but never felt like the was an objective reason to actually believe it |
But it is nevertheless full of positivity and selflessness |
And they make the world's best food |
Anyhoo |
Reincarnation is a fun way to think about "why do I wish I were born a girl?" |
Fz plz |
Sorry love! |
Heya! |
Spice girl |
Basil |
Bah-zul |
I am soooo lightheaded. Do not like, not recommended, 0/10 |
Oh no! |
I know, right? |
So why how? |
Idk |
I am ok |
You? |
Tis nearly time for the toast to The Professor! |
Yes I am good ty |
So you had much basil is it? |
Just my herbal alias |
But i do grow a few varieties |
And are you ok eating it? |
Yes i am okay eating it? Unless there's a non literal meaning i dont get |
No special meaning. |
Nightshade family, as peppers, potatoes, tomatoes, et al |
Poison! |
And ironically all "European" cuisine but amerindigenous |
Awkward statement permission plz? |
Ofc |
Promise you'll try not to feel bad? I just said try |
Ok |
I'm only saying something because the thouguts persist. And actually, maybe you can help drown them out |
Sorry |
Ohh dang dude I am sorry |
I don't actually remember this |
No worries if not |
And totally fine -- in fact preferred -- if you can quote me verbatim |
Yeah, just not actual text bc i delete youra for obv reasons |
I am inclined to say around 3 or 4pk but idk |
I see |
That's good enough |
I'm sorry babe |
It's really okay, i didnt want to dwell on it so i told you |
Not pointed at you jsyk, thank you for telling me! |
I'm glad you are ok talking to me |
I never want to hurt you |
There was one guy who was like the 3rd person who knew about my father (in my adult life) and harped on about how there's no statute of limitations when there's a minor and i should and alrwady should have gone the prosecution way and if he went and did anything like he did to me to someone else then how could i be okay with that |
And based on what i know about my brother, I'm still dyjng inside from that commentary |
Owww |
Yeah |
And I know I also have opinions |
And I actually had a convo with myself about that a few days ago |
But please tell |
And first week of college guy, i had a facebook group back in 2005 when i met him and "after" and it was that "(name) is the scourge of the earth, just go ahead and ask me". I didnt invite anyone to join but it had 13 girls in that group by the end of the semester, one of whom is still a long distance friend, one of whom ismy best friend but lives in kansas, and i dont have a doubt why the rest were in there. |
Your turn |
You were saying something |
But also, did you know that if you go to court you have to describe every detail of what happened,your body, his, and you cant sound rehearsed but it has to be almost identical each recitation of what transpired? And use anatomical terminology. Everyone in the courtroom sees every picture and sees every sample of what was collected - closeups and full corpus. They hear what HE says for it all too, all his details, how you wanted things and came over completely invited and you werent under any influences. You could have left during the movie you watched but you didnt. You kissed back. You didnt fight or scream or anything else. You could have called 911 or campus police from anywhere and you didnt. Everyone hears what the officers choose to remember. And the nurse's report and how you reacted when she touched your shoulder and what every millimeter of you looked like, if you had hair if she combed it and what she found and how much and there are picturws of that too |
Mind you, this was also in the era of "but what was she wearing" when low rise jeans and going-out tops were a thing |
Definitely |
Better hope his friends arent vengeful or harassing of you |
Babe |
Better hope you dont choose the same 1 of 5 dining halls on campus because then you might freeze in line and straight up drop everything youre holding |
Too much pressure? Mandatory counseling |
In the counseling center, next to his dorm |
Yknow, something akin to that mentality |
Fin, par maintenant, avec ca |
Bien sur |
Wish I could help hug you rn!!! |
Hug help too |
How are |
How are you |
I love you babe 💕 |
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I love you too |
I am okay |
Ok beebee |
Sorry, spousearound for a few more |
Ty for telling me all things |
Ok |
Thanke fir listening |
Yes always |
A few odd questions. Then you talk please? |
I think you believe everything ive said, bad experience-wise. What makes you believe me? |
A few reasons |
For instance, the way you mete out the stories |
And introduce then |
Them |
And the actual delivery |
How? |
I can't claim to be smart honestly |
When it comes to girls |
But I know this lol |
Please do not be offended |
Ok |
That is a self-effacing joke |
Please dismiss that if it's ik |
Ok |
Alright |
I feel like you're not so much telling me stories as reliving memories |
Making things up doesn't go this way |
And your actual reaction to your own stories |
Like I see you disappear (kinda) sometimes |
Anyway |
All of this is absolutely consistent with what I've come to understand as the abused persons perspective |
Somebody told me once that i somehow show hyperawareness and 1000 yeard stare at the same time, all the time |
And you have told this to me in ways I never hoped I would hear, but what's done is done, and I love you like breath, so |
I dont have to say anything if it makes you uncomfortable |
Im sorry |
I want to go through whatever things is happening for you now, with you |
No no |
Hear me plz :) |
We're already in in babe let's go forward together |
We're in it |
Let win it |
You and me |
Whatever we can |
I'm with you |
Yeah. I want to tell you Portugal soon |
Oh |
There shouldn't be chapter headinga like this |
I'm habing a weird realization and idk if i can describe it |
Most people don't go through time.like this |
I logically know that but there's not anything i can reference or compare it to |
I dont really have a life story or even basic history that doesnt include all of it |
Btw the clementines at Kroger right now are to die for |
I dibt eat clementinws but thank you |
Dommage |
I just didn't like the seeds |
Oh but these are seedless thingies |
A h, they are cuties |
How could I forget? |
Please continue |
Or we can pivot |
Kinda waiting on more feedback |
Sure |
I feel like I am given of some information from you that is singular in nature |
And I want you to know that I care about you and those experiences |
I care a lot |
And I will support you any way I can and as you wish/need/desire |
I am no professional dude counselor of whevs |
I am an empathetic guy who finds you amazing and, yet with uncommonly difficult baggage, and love all the more, and all the more for opening up to me about ut |
That's my hill |
Lol |
Does my tightness ever fuck with your head? |
Not until now.... lol |
Oh babe you make me chuckle sometimes |
Like only every time |
I somehow forget /exactly/ how tight you are |
Btw |
Tysm |
For guiding me in |
It's a good thing, good partner skill, good for you I'm sure as well |
There is still something about your pelvic anatomy that I don't understand |
Pythagoras has entered the chat |
He was in a cult |
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What do you have teouble understanding? |
I mean look at it |
Something about your angles |
I think i can help explain, only if you want |
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Awww |
Literally the result of searching angles |
I get one. Fucking. Angle. |
Lol |
Yeah |
Your angle doesn't quite make sense yet |
Angle of approach |
And entry |
And the exact height |
As you have no doubt noticed |
I only have hypotheses |
In my feeble attempts to fuck you dear |
They're wonderful |
I really want to completely let go |
Im too scared |
Do you want to understand more of my biology or anatomy pr whatever? It is your choice. I will need to give you tmi to do it though |
Some other time? It will come up again lol if you'll excuse the pu |
Lolllll |
Yes. Can i ask why not now? Im just curioua |
Whatever the truth is is fine |
Too deep for the moment |
I can always povot and ask worse things |
I know you caaaaan |
Up to you, sir |
Keep |
Hmmmm |
Have you had a hummer before? |
Do i need to define? |
What's happening over there? |
Sorry |
Np |
Snack obtained |
Hummer |
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Oi |
I have not given. Unsure how. Would like to try, if you're game |
?? |
Joann right |
Is this just a coincidence |
Lol yes |
Going through receipts lol |
Lololol |
Gotta get my points ! |
Sorry I've panicking about that for like all day |
For what? |
You got the spa $$ right |
I did! |
For real |
It's kind if confusung but good |
Ok perfect! |
No one has ever been that selflessly generous to me |
It's fer you babe |
Get some you time |
Did i tell you the one other time someone aesthetigifted me something? |
No |
I will tell you another time |
Ok :) |
Also.... for real going to thw green bag now |
Wait - do you know why i asksaid about you believing me? |
It seems like a basic thing about someone that you would want to know |
Well, i had that general feeling from you. It's clear when someone has the "okay but there's no way..." mentality |
I usually dont believe myself. And when i recount things, it's like it's not even me saying things |
The details and weird memories of insignificance come from idk where but i remember the stupidest shit sometimes |
There are some pretty down to earth comments and discussions about SA on Reddit |
I know there's a certain tacky element there |
Those buried nontreasuretreats are a bitch |
But I've read your story a doz n times, in some sense |
I do not diminish yours |
Scents and sounds and things i doht even know until there's a little flip in my core |
I know it's real |
I've experienced intense scent triggers |
Last time you wre here there were 2 |
Oh |
Like being yanked across as the parking lot in an instant |
Maybe that's why im a little obsessed with smelling good |
And you do |
I did not out that together until now |
I'm not talking about a bad smell |
Also my house |
Same here |
Most people love bonfire |
Or patchouli |
Or this body spray i used for our hawaii trip |
Oh god |
I used to be able to identify cigarette brands by scent |
Some choke me worse than others but not because of any poorer quality |
Anyway, scents for you? |
The only one I know of that's probably still potent for me is Anne Klein. My HS/college girlfriend wore that and it was actually several years before I was actually triggered some random place. It really threw me for a loop |
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Poor baby! |
Why is she naked??? |
She was smelly lol |
Um |
I'm smelly too |
I have tasted different to you right? |
Maybe you are |
Yeah |
Smelly |
Fuck that |
Take your clothes off lol |
Lololol |
😂 to “ Fuck that ” |
Only if you keep me warm |
Sooooonn |
I hope |
I am tryingggggggg to do science! |
Idk what's happening, havent received an update today |
What is your science |
What do you need |
How i taste |
Oh |
How many differences |
Are they good or bad |
It varies a bit in a narrow palate |
Whoch do you like best |
Which do you hate |
Why do i vary |
I like a pallet |
Palate? |
With a fuzzy blanket |
Oh flavors |
Nahnahnah |
Spelling correction :) |
Palatial |
Palace |
Plate |
Platter |
Platty |
Does all of me taste the same on the same day? |
You should check my sign at work |
Sig |
Not sign |
Just saying |
No |
You do not |
Oh i will. Is it corpcomm approved. |
Taste that same now and other times no |
Heheh |
I changed one letter :) |
Mmhmmm |
Truth |
I will send email forthwith if you want to inspect me |
I really wish you were sucking on me right now |
But the susadminds |
The suckadmins |
I want to try more of that please |
Yeah me too honestly |
Wait what?? |
I love sucking your girl bits |
Omg! |
That makes me weirdly happy |
Lol |
Totally true |
Because? |
I literally want you to come all over my face |
Me too |
Yay.....! |
Yummmmmm |
I can't wait |
It just might take a long time |
Yeah |
Bring a sports drink lol |
I might die |
But I'll be fine |
No worries |
Why do i take so long? |
We should watch this video |
Lol |
Yes |
It's adorable and cute and informative and sexy |
I think it's common |
For girls |
I mean look at my sorry ass |
Can't come at all |
Duhhhhhh |
Lol |
There's something you don't do that's really amazingly helpful when im getting close |
Do you know? |
I'm not certain! I would love to know! |
You dont talk |
Sorry if im getting weird, just so so yured |
Maybe delusional |
Ohh babe that is so yummy a detail |
I do it because I want you to have what have to give you |
I get so much joy |
Idk how else to say it |
It warms my heart to feel your body |
Have a good time |
Does it make sense? I want to experience you, not think about experiencing you |
Ofc it makes sense! |
No worries |
No worries babe |
You get what you want |
Get it girl |
Every single other partner tries to talk to the finish line |
Lol |
I want to |
With your face, honestly |
I mean I might encourage you |
But I am not in any rush |
I love every second |
I'm down for what you need |
Yes |
I am so thrown |
Fuck you keep making me horny today!!! |
I've never s xted in a grocery store |
That was hilarious and fun! |
Loo |
Where are my eeeees going? |
Pics and all |
You sexy babe |
I might actually have the gumption |
To bring my photog |
You make me feel sexy |
Stuff |
Do ot |
I would love that |
It would be so fun with you! |
You would very much need to know how to pose me and stuff |
Haha that's the thing I know nothing about |
So it'll be all new and learning |
You have the google |
Your room is Soo good for this tio |
Oh? |
Yes, space wise |
I have 2 topics for soon just fyi |
All good, take it away |
I asked once and idk what the answer was. Kind of a maybe but alsi got a "no thanks" vibe from you |
Do you know where im going with this? |
I do not, sorry |
I think anal aex could be fun. I have it in my head that i know how to make it work |
I am willing to experiment! |
Are you okay with telling me your hesitations? I'm almost positive i can calm some of them depending on what info you'd want |
Yes |
Yes I am cool talking through this |
Does not have to be now |
I've been inclined to try something anal perhaps twice, but many years ago. Like 15+ |
And I played with my butt off and on but rarely for a time |
Never got the draw |
But still intrigued |
Sorry was I supposed to say more |
No, but i wantes to give you the whole floor if you did have more to say |
There's also an objectionable genre in porn that's all about "painal" and I just can't with that |
That's a solid no for me. Hard line. |
Oh - i have a weirs confession later |
Kinda porn ish |
So this is a confusing area, if you see. |
My poor bum is puckering |
Lol |
Sorry did I actually say that |
Say what?? |
Nah mate |
I've asked about bidet. What do you say. Bidet? |
Hygiene is my primary concern |
I am a small grouping who is pro bidet + soft towel/pat dry |
There i answered question 1! |
Thank you! |
Lol drool |
That's one elephant out of the herd |
Mfers |
Toot toot darling! |
Are you aware that i was almost exclusively referring to you giving it to me? |
Here comes the lioness |
Wait how far back did you just jump? |
Ummm |
What? |
What does 'it' refer to? |
Omg |
I want you to give me anal sex |
❤️ |
We'll do it babe! |
My size???? |
Was i somehow unclear in that? |
Yeah that's a concern.... ive talked over some logistics with kink friends and i "know" how it should go |
You really didn't "get" that when i brought it up? |
Sincerely asking |
I did confirm I am willing to experiment, yeah? |
Yeah |
I just wanted to be clear that im not putting anything in you. Ever, til you tell me you've changed your mind. And then we'll wait and see if you still want to |
Is there any kind of reassurance or safeguard type logic talk you need from me rn? |
Ok babe! |
Honestly that's perfect |
And OMG tight what? |
Hahaha yes |
You've had your finger there already though |
Lol |
Right you told me |
I don't doubt it |
So.... mess would not be a concern. I'd still have a towel down for copious amounts of lube but just the clear fluid qould be a concern |
Yep! |
If you need explicit tmi for how or why then you can ask and i will tell you |
Np babe |
You're giving me ideas even biw |
Now |
As I stand in the laundry area |
Hey im in the kitchen! |
Reading your plea for anal sex |
How am i giving you ideas? |
I have no idea |
I think it involved skirts |
"Plea"... hinestly it's because even that part of me wants you aince ive never been more acutely or cumulatively turned on in my life |
It's a new button |
We have to push it |
Yay! |
That's fucking cool |
And youuuuuuu get to have it for yourself |
Lay your claim |
Crikey I have half a hard on waiting on the dryer |
Lol |
Did you almost come when i was giving you head one day? |
Not too far. But not almost |
Fucking wicked |
?? |
The drugs |
Fucking wicked |
I have been on those drugs this entire century |
Just for perspective |
And kinda lots more that affect neurotransmitters and their little synapsey pathways |
Oh |
Yo |
Ohyo |
That's my entire life since adolescence |
Which is my entire biological sexual maturity |
That's fucked |
No pun intended |
Right |
But, like, is it? |
I think it's significant, regardless |
Why |
Ear-regardless, if you will |
Nopenopenope |
😂 to “ Nopenopenope ” |
Did you want to say more, |
I'm easily amused sometimes |
? |
Da |
That's my story you mistressness. |
Your, ma'am |
Which question direction now? |
Oh I love your new button |
I want to poke it |
Thx |
I hope you will |
Slowwwwwwly |
And nicely |
How is your arm strength? |
Improving, why? |
Totally German in this conversation |
Well one day you described a position |
Which culminated |
FML lol |
So the kitty Kat cafe was wide open for business |
Oh we did this? |
And basically hanging from my shoulders like a napkin she is |
Oh, youre dining in this potential |
To be clear, |
You described it to me |
Right. I think i know |
In the position, i am the sole beneficiary, right? |
Requires upper body strength, I should say |
Yours |
And your arm? |
Say non! If no! |
I just didn't forget this thing you told me |
I basically look like a bib on you |
And you'd be eating me out, but not much pleasurw is happening to you at that time, right? |
Nothing |
I mean except pure joy lapping up sweet baby |
Oh, okay |
Lol |
It's not insignificant, just saying |
I do not need arm strength like you think i do for that |
I just dont get it |
Get some then |
Mmmmmm |
Wait wait wait! |
What would Rebecca say? |
Nvm |
Yes I will most definitely enjoy eating this kitty Kat cafe and perhaps look around a bit |
You should |
Love an all in one |
Omg omg I can't wait |
Me too |
I have never asked |
How do you like to find me? |
Manly? |
Neutral? |
Weird,? |
You as you |
But also somewhat contextual |
Weird, fun, protective in the outside world |
Firm, tender, knowledgeable, loving, passionate for sex |
I do like you masculine |
But not macho/alpha |
I dont think you could be regardless |
Ok thanks |
I'm comfortable in my current skin, much more so than 10 years ago |
Fwiw, i have not seen you fem or neutral |
Somehow, COVID era taught me idgaf |
Heyyy same |
Got married 9/2019 |
I appreciate your comments |
In 2024 I really started flaunting my hair |
And idgaf |
As an example |
I had hair longer than this |
I do not know the guy in your Hub pic |
Just sayin |
Lol! 😂 |
It's true |
It's terrible |
Mine is awfullllll |
See we share |
Reverse catfish lol |
Hmm |
I don't have a firm grasp of contemporary sexuality groups |
Ok wait |
Let me break that down |
I hullo babe |
And hullo |
2025-01-04T07:26:29 |
Good morning! |
2025-01-04T10:27:57 |
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Yah |
2025-01-04T11:37:39 |
What's up? |
2025-01-04T13:23:28 |
Not much, you? |
Nada |
Aww poor babe! |
And I only have 1 coffee maker 😦 |
Your choice! |
Want another? For real |
Lol no no no |
Living high! |
Cannabicafffeine? |
null |
?? |
I also have other solutions already prepared |
For the japanart |
Any chance those are brass? |
Oh lol it's Chinese. I thought it might |
They're canvas |
Baaaaabe |
Yah? |
I actually feel pretty today |
Yay! |
Let me see! |
Omg lol |
null |
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I am woefully unphotogenic but i did a lonnnnnnnggg self care routine today |
Aww! There's my pretty baby!! |
2025-01-04T16:46:52 |
And the boyses have just arrived lol |
Lol |
Wanna go somewhere for a bit tomotrow? |
Peut-etre! |
Oouaiiii!!! |
Where did you go today? |
All over okemos. Spousal quality time. Though dome of it was separate? Lol |
What'd you do? |
Not much of anything. Research some cloud stuff. Nap with cats. |
That's kinda sweet! |
Alors, chez moi! |
Actually had a pretty good day |
Yay! |
null |
Nice! |
Would you eat ginger this way or no |
If it's not too much |
I just dont like when it's overpowering heat or floral for taste |
I expect it should be just enough to add a background flavor |
Gotcha. You definitely would not like my tea |
Different strokes.... more for you!! |
I got cool stuff :) |
Yeah didja? |
https://www.woodtv.com/news/michigan/university-of-michigan-lab-develops-blood-test-to-identify-hpv-related-cancers/ |
An especially pretty lamp! |
And a small cabinet thing I'm going to rip apart and upcycle |
Lotsa records. They were $1 today |
You get a bookshelf yet? |
No not yet, and I am contemplating getting another wire shelf like the one you found for me |
We ahould go get them a demain |
And a corner shelf lol |
Ikr |
Maybe you need a baker's rack? |
Actually, i have a few shelvy things hanging out here |
Kinda yeah |
Wire shelves |
Do you know what a bakers rack is? |
You know they have wireless shelves now too |
Do they go with the bluetooth hosewater? |
I think so |
I have a shelf full of bakers |
Oooh not so much |
null |
Lovely! |
That's a bakers rack |
Have you not seen it here before? |
I have seen it. I did not know his name. Nicely framed with cat |
Aww thx |
Getting cleaner! |
Yes it looks very tidy and organized |
That's because it's MY bev station and no one else touches it lol |
Mighta got you more funs today |
If you could have anything from me, tangible item or service or quality time or experiencw or anything at all, what thing(s) would you choose? Things within my reach |
Hold please, fam... |
Heya |
So they ordered a bunch of Mediterranean |
Always on my thumbs up list |
You said you could balance chemical equations right |
It's been a while but yeah typically |
Leo says ger |
What's on the terra menu? Im having aomething terra-iah tonight |
Terra Terra Terra |
Heyyyy |
The only thing we have to Terra |
His name is Rama |
You. Are. Inebriated! |
You'd like him |
😂 |
I'm riffin dude |
I can do this stone sober |
Ask david |
We do it often |
I have no doubt |
Lol |
Hey, you wanna get high and fuck? |
You're lick I eat late |
Um oops |
You're lucky I eat late |
Wait what??? |
My legs can be open for you 24 hours a day |
Am I'm dreaming? |
I mean, im not alone tonight but that's absolutely what i want |
I'm confused now lol |
Why? |
I'm overthinking lol |
Please do continue! |
I cant (because I'm spouse occupied here) but i want to get high |
I would actually really also like to get drunk with you |
We'll make a game of it |
What a perfect way to spend a day!!! |
I am 100% down |
I have a big box of orgasm bags I can bring!!! |
Lol. Unsure why that's important |
O c'mon |
I was going to maybe buy you things and wrap them in ... You know |
But now |
Le sigh |
Youve spent wayyyyyyy too much on me already |
Le yawn |
Non! |
Drunk sex...? |
It's fun! |
Sometimes compulsory |
Or s need that way when I was younger |
??? |
Or used to seem that way when I was younger |
I really want that |
Yay! |
I'm a happy drunk generally |
I am sooooo happy when I'm drunk |
And kind of floppy |
Just be aware of that |
And my languages mix |
And i get accents |
And i get impulsive sexy thoughts and crazy ideas |
Oh noes |
I should wear extra layers |
Maybe! |
It's pretty likely you'll say no to things. Like alkost 100% sure youll decline at least one thing |
I think there should be a time when you dont ask me if you can fuck me |
I kinda like asking |
Do you know why? |
Also, tjink about where we might go if you have time the weekend of the 17th. Thru that Monday, mind you. A few days or just some hours |
Can i ask that you ask differently sometimes, then? |
Please tell |
You first |
It's not the asking part that I like |
I'm happy to modify it |
I know you like the break but i dont really know why |
Ill explain the modifying in a minute |
null |
Life |
Uh |
Wife? |
I would want you to worry if i sent that message and pic to you, hence my concern |
Why? What am I missing |
I'm mocking the product |
Got it |
Sorry |
No worries |
Is the detail too small |
For your vision |
Are we talking about the photo? |
I see it |
It's screen protectors |
Says mobile.so i went with phone |
Kewl stickers in box |
I have some fantastic stickers for you |
But back to sexversation |
Yes my maiden |
Why do you ask and like asking? |
Because I like your response |
Yes? |
Please say more |
It's supposed to be your turn lol |
Yours isn't finished |
😊 |
Ok so when you answer me |
Then I know you want me |
Right now |
And I love that |
null |
Make me feel like big strong guy |
Lol |
Ty |
Ilyt |
You are |
Pause for spouse. Sorry |
I want to hear more when i tell you im back though |
How else can you tell i want you? |
Well idk where ltr is so please go on |
Ok |
I am (slowly) learning non verbal cues. It is kind of difficult for me to register those correctly |
And for the verbal cues, it depends |
Direct, unambiguous statements are almost guaranteed to be understood correctly |
Contextually, so may also be innuendo, flirtatiousness, flattery, etc |
So are those statements ok for me to make to you? It doesn't completely kill the mood? |
But all bets are off because I am just a boy |
Who, at the end of the day |
Just wants to please you |
And if you like your girly bits licked |
Which i will likely never fully understand |
I totally got you covered |
And if you like fucking? |
Me too! |
Someone got me addicted to those |
And if you feel slutty please don't hesitate to show me what you have in offer |
I love yummy |
I always feel sllutty |
Chubby |
Squishy |
I dislike being chubby |
Too bad now |
Imma lick you anyway |
So |
That is my statement of fact |
I yield to the cutey |
I'm literally wet for no reason now |
Tf girl |
Fruit is it? |
You're so weird i love it |
I have something i would like better a lot of the time |
Please tell! |
Face value- softening the ask is nice. Like saying "are you ready" or "what do you think, should we" or lots of other things. Say "gid i want you" and i can respond with "then please take me" or whatever. "Fuck" is sometimes bad stabby to my ears and doesn't sit great. Sometimes it's perfect for the mood. |
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Yes |
I did not realize the potential for grating |
But of |
Ofc |
Very cool stickers! |
I have decided to gift you a craftsperiment of mine |
Fz plz |
Okay |
Sadly |
And with sadness |
I am returning the stickers |
Bc this product is not the right one for my phone |
I'm curious what you make of this |
https://open.spotify.com/track/42eAqvcEIBpDVShrLzSt4a?si=mWDpny5uT2OOoHQ4FaJbTQ |
Did you know The Cure? |
Or New Order? |
And, last question, have you been to Northern Ireland? |
More fun French at 3:30 |
Hahaha and especially 4:10 |
Will listen later! |
Alas, lass, you will need to remind me |
About asking and all that |
Also, if i am correct, you.not only like my verbal response but you see my face change in a really good way |
Yummy |
This is why |
It's so important to be together |
Can you please tell me what you notice besides words? |
Tbh I'm intoxicated at that point no matter what |
So my memory is a bit biased |
Biased or gone? |
It's very passionate, yet transient |
Yes |
Intense |
Like, let's do things now |
Urgent |
I need that "omg i havvvvvvve to do it now" at some point |
Please |
I'm wish I could stay up all night for you to play |
And me to play |
Me too |
Haha |
Maybe pharmacy cuticles |
Will do it |
And the ographies |
It will be so fun! |
I want you to make me a playground |
I want the same. Perhaps weirdly so |
I love that we are both weird |
I just love you full stop |
I need a curtain |
Or something |
To divide this space I occupy. This subterranean room I carved out |
Yeah? Awesome! |
Afk for a bit |
Ayobabe |
Yeah 👍 |
Im back to being yours for a while |
Okay |
Hiieee |
You are? |
Clever! |
You will have to remind me what you would like to know |
Sucking on a falafel |
If i am your playground, how do you want me to start? |
Miss |
Akshially I am playground |
Ouai, une fois |
? |
When it's your turn to have me as your playground to explore and jouer, what are your plans? Ideas? Depravities? How do you want me to present for you? How does this kick off? |
Oh well |
I may tell you |
Parts |
Oh, yes |
You will not be surprised |
I have a predeliction for your beautiful, luscious pussy |
I think i would like to be pleasantly surprised by you too |
But okay, you have her. What do you do? |
Sorry |
Focus |
❤️ |
Ok |
Right now |
Long, languid, liquid strokes from my tongue |
Sharing saliva |
Mmmmmmm |
A little tease maybe |
Tease how? |
She's so fat it's hard not to tease this little baby here |
Im being so flat serious here - please explore her. |
Oh I will |
Don't you worry |
I love it |
I love her all with me |
Could you please tell me different ways you do things to her and point out |
Yes |
There are a few delicious data points |
And ways you touch her and love her and what i think of the |
What are you deleting |
Lol |
Huh? |
Nuthin |
Took meds. Fleeting consciousness lol |
No worries |
Yes |
Love you kitty cat cafe |
Love her so much |
Some initial observations |
All of which require unfettered access ofc |
Happy 00000 |
Anyway |
0000 |
Oh yeah |
Or 000000 |
Lol right |
Were you going to tell me observations? |
Yes |
Or rather, a recommended experimental technique |
Bc science ofc |
I want to kmow everything you know and have observed about me |
Oh |
Well it's not all well thought out yet |
Hmmmm |
But it's yummy |
What about just the oral observations? |
She tastes of such delicate flavors, fleeting, and yet definitely Rebecca flavored. Absolutely delightful, need to continue |
For science |
Fwi RLH will make her way up here without warning at some point |
Fair |
Sry |
Do i taste like other women? |
No |
No not even |
Really? |
You are far more cleansed |
Consistently |
Yes |
You have little flavor |
But it hits the brain lol |
Hahaha |
It's very good |
I wish ikmew what that meant |
It's impossible to compare |
Do you ever want to go at her a little wilder? |
Sort of! |
That's kinda why I tried two fingers |
But yeah, I might be going the wrong way |
What would be different if i asked you to go for it right now? |
Not sure I understand |
Would you jam your if i was cool witn |
Wait what?? |
😛 |
Yes, yes I will |
Go like a watermelon eating contest kinda |
Yes ssess see ssas |
I really want you all over me |
:) okay |
Please |
Go for it |
Get. In. There. |
I can't wait |
I am shaking again from not e ough sleep |
Oh no beebee |
You should sleep |
I can't wait to get smothered |
2025-01-05T02:06:54 |
Still awake, perchance? |
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2025-01-05T10:15:21 |
Lulz |
https://open.spotify.com/track/5JiU3gLHz9AvUnrhXgOmos?si=iqLrCQHJRfqb1A8NRmmD7g |
Aww ❤️ |
❤ |
How are you? Fill me in on things! |
Well my cat just puked all over the stairs landing |
Other than that it's been pretty chill |
Poor kidden |
What went on last night/overnight? |
I just did my thing, and they did theirs, and then I had a big bunch of Mediterranean goodies |
And went to bed! |
From where? |
What do they do? |
They smoked and watched Trailer Park Boys and whatnot |
Ordered from Aladdin's |
Is that the typical? |
Yeah, pretty much |
Kinda weird but ok |
null |
Meed squishy laptop case? |
Why so weird? |
Dont they just lice kinda far to do that all the time? |
*live |
Also, coulf be weird just to me because i dont drive and have a verrrrrrry different parental relationship no matter which parent |
Fair. They're basically teenagers |
But they smoke with you? |
Not with me |
Is that strange? |
Somewhat |
What do they call you, in general? |
By name generally |
So "andy"? |
Did you ever have the name conversation? I know they've known you since before they've formed memories |
What name conversation? |
The one where they ask or you tell them what to call you |
Am i putting you in a bad mood? |
Not at all. This is intriguing |
I Don't think we followed these conventions |
Linguist brain takes over a lot lol |
You are also not comventional |
Narayan was 1.8 when I came around so he was the most pliable |
You alllllll lived together, so there needed to be a distinction |
1.8 or 1y8m? |
I think he and mom worked out "daddy Andy" as a call sign |
1y10m |
But that changed over time |
I think RLH still refers to me that way but only where the disambiguation is needed, which isn't often |
Ah. I used.to say "auntie mommy" amd "uncle daddy" because that's the closeness my mom's sister and her husband had |
This was until afyer tne arrest too, when no one told me anything was happening familially bc o wad.away at school - WHERE THEY STILL VOLUNTARILY VISITED ME |
But yes, also aftet my uncle tried to use his motorcycle club "pals" to take care "off" my brother |
Oh my |
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Heyyy! |
We can wait lol |
That's my cutie! |
Awwww |
I do feel cute again |
Yay! |
You look swell! |
null |
Awwws |
You headed anywhere today? |
Dunno |
Rightright |
You need anything from anywhere? |
Can you get me next week off? |
Please? |
This week? Or next? |
I know people lol |
Both |
Sure 🙂 |
We should go buy stuff. And drink coffee |
And make out |
If i wanted to juat make out for a long time sometime, could we? |
Yeah |
But there's a good chance I'd get really gropey |
Im okay witn that |
I welcome it |
Making out and foreplay without actual sex (more like until) is my favorite thing to do. It's so enjoyable. Kissing my neck and back and shoulders can be making out ;) |
Oh yummm |
I'm actually begging for this |
Please kiss me all over, more and more and more. All over. |
The back of my neck.... I'm pretty sure I'll literally scream with pleasure if you do it right |
Oh I can't wait! |
Im sorry im so selfish |
You're a doll |
No one has ever been willing to indulge these yet ao i am taking all the joy |
As you should! |
Thank you |
Remember last time? |
Which part |
Well now i want to know what you remember |
I remember you getting ready to lose your legs in the kitchen |
Basically when you first got here? |
Shortly before we went upstairs |
I would love to hear more on this |
When I decided I would kiss you in the kitchen |
And you were getting kinda wobbly legged lol |
Tell me your feelings from then |
I wanted you |
You keep saying that |
You can tell me you want me |
Low voiced and in my ear and sexylike |
Yumm! |
Exactly the voice you use when you ask if you can fuck me |
Ohhh |
I do too |
Kinda brings me to a new point |
If you have an Arkansas breather, where could-would you go for overnight? |
I know you dont have an answer but i need to start dropping seeds for where my next book retreat may be in a couple weekends |
I could would just need to be kinda close bc cats, that's my only restriction |
I know 🔮 |
By kinda close I mean 30 minutes tops |
Ok ok |
Hmm |
But there are a lot of possibilities in that range lol |
Yes, but it has to plausible for me too |
Do you need to actually go somewhere distant? |
If i want to do something overnight then that's likely, but i may have another trick up my sleeve |
Can i have some city names of the farhest you could go? |
Hmm let me think for a sec |
I guess it's nbd |
Nahnahnah |
It were talking two nights, I will need to check in at home between |
Right |
But I mean, GR isn't that far for example |
That's why i thought an hour might be okay |
If we didn't have a 19 yo lady this would be easier |
Honestly wven liie clare or something mundane is fine |
Ah. True. |
Sure, Clare, mt p , Flint lol, Marshall, |
Right |
Paragons of intellectual gatherings |
Help me understand why you would actually have to go somewhere? |
Well, i have a group that does quarterly-ish book things in towns where there's anout equal reading, relaxing, and stuff to do. I expect to have the next next 2 weekends (18 and 25 or whatever) with SIL here but if you can go somewhere then i can too |
Does thzt make more sense? |
Sort of |
Cool |
I would need a reason to be gone overnight |
Yep |
But just an afternoon-evening is fine to be completely local |
Right right |
And days tio |
Too |
Right! Hemce a weekend not here but not far and not suspicious |
I think GR. What do you think? |
Maybe? |
Right on |
What did you decide on doing today? |
Oh, did i show you this? |
null |
I saw that pic of Orion :) |
And I've not decided anything lol |
And now there is a cat upon me |
Lol |
Apparently it's his nap time |
My mum took that pic last night |
Iz ulwaze catnaptime |
Wow! |
At her house up north |
Makes a lot more sense now |
Her address is (i thimk) |
There is indeed a green bush there |
Sounds diseased |
I mean who hasn't had a touch of green bush? |
I have not |
Something you need to say? Lol |
Wanna dicker & deal? |
I'm actually seriously thinking of the frandor today |
How much should wood filler good stuff cost? |
Hmm. Under 10 I would guess |
I think it would be fine for filling divots in Ikea stuff |
It's not ecen really mdf.... it's heavy. Idk what else i might fill it with. It's white but i have paint lol |
If i go, would you like to join me? |
Yeah... I don't think I can though |
That's implied when i ask lol |
I know :( |
Sorry, love |
You working every day this week? |
Yeah |
Aby freevenings? |
I have no idea honestly |
Okay no worries |
Just trying to be nice to you |
Ok thank you :) |
Wanna sort some papers for me? Maybe clean some? |
null |
Papers or peas? Heh |
I could send them in a pdf..... |
Will you be okay if i leave my phone alone for a while? |
Yeah it's ok babe |
I might snooze anyway |
I'd be happy to give you tasks if you need them |
Yeah send one over! |
One of what? |
A task? |
Job. Me. New. |
Ah, right |
Or just find me a pile of money |
Lol works for me |
I am serious. I think you know that but dont realize it |
On it! |
I knew i liked you! |
Side note: i made you a very silly experimentcraft |
I hope you dont hate it |
Lol ok |
https://g.co/kgs/UVcxQwi |
That's way too good to be true |
I can't wait to ajow you my kinda collection of kid & Broadway records one of these days |
null |
New acqs |
That's a nice one! |
null |
null |
Is that the lamp you were pining for? |
Yes |
$10! |
You'd love my MIL |
Actually serious |
I never in my life expected thst sentence |
Speaking of in laws.... may i? |
Lol I don't doubt it |
Yes go ahead please |
You tell me your thought or impression here |
null |
Um, Botox? |
For Migraines is their nonsense logic. Been that way for years. No, it does not appear to help IMO |
BMI wow, I guess |
But wait, there's more! |
Yeah though, you saw the bmi like i did |
Do you know what i weigh and how tall i am? |
You weigh the same as me and you're a little shorter |
That's outdated info lol |
Anyway, between 160 and 170. And between 5'4" and 5'5" |
Ok |
Just for comparison to the info on that paper |
Besides that.... |
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These are highlights, btw |
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Also does mot have her full med list in their system |
So that was kinda interesting to me |
Probably too long for Epic |
Idk... u of all MY stuff |
(The correft answer is "lies". Would also accept "deceit") |
Really? |
I cant really sum it up |
Hmm |
Eww |
Exactly |
But why incomplete records though. Does that somehow help |
U of m is not their primary |
They go to either spectrum GR or little one off sox offices |
*doc offices |
I see |
Isn't that a thing? |
She's so far gone no one cares |
Nuts |
Plus only some med.records are electronic. If there was a dx before a certain time then it's taken at face value |
True |
And I know it's shitty |
But it would be worse for her in a nursing home right? |
There's so much more I'll tell you in actual chatting. Too much to type |
I disagree |
I have a cousin 6 months younger who had down syndrome so i know what potential there is. The "care" that SIL has gotten infuriates me |
I'll have to tell you blood sugar, snack, dinner, blahblahblah stories |
And i call them out on bullshit with actual science plus real experience and throw in the bible |
Lord |
They took her out of school midway through kindergarten or first grade. Had the Sp Ed teavher come to the house once a week for a while (even up through when i came into the picture) and then they stopped (Sp Ed teacher and i talked a lot and git along great. Imagine that...) |
Right |
I know theirs was s lie, regardless |
null |
No doubts |
They get so much worse |
Good |
Entitled how? |
Willful ignorance is the disease of the century |
And affluenzas |
Lol |
Yes |
I'm just saying RLH needs to calm down sometimes. We all know that |
I actually dont know that from more than like 1 angle |
I do commisserate though |
They have never had internet |
She wanted a $19.98 dvd from somewhere? Better believe her check is for $19.98. Would never just give $20 cash |
Who is she here? |
Surely not Desiree |
His mother |
She had a twin |
Stacey & Tracey |
What would you say the ultimate, best career for me would be? |
Realistic ir not |
I'm not sure yet |
Do you fancy editing/writing? |
Creative vs production-oriented |
Techy or not so much? |
I suck at tech |
But i am really resourceful |
It's probably my greatest asset. One of, at least |
This doesnt need to lead to anything. Just fun chattering |
Any causes you want to work for? |
Desk or active? |
Nothing ultra strenuous because some things are out of my control with physical limitations |
My sister does copyediting for a company that makes software manuals, last I knew |
Any interest? I can ask how she found her way there |
Actually yeah |
Byt i am no4 going to AZ forever |
It's totally remote |
She may be an independent contractor |
I'm not sure |
I need alllllllll the leads :) |
I would always much rather just have a pile of work given to me, i get it done before the deadline, everyone's happy |
Or i get to have more free license to do whatever |
I have ideas of what would be ideal |
Can you come glue stuff for me plz? |
https://g.co/kgs/M8CwcZS |
Lol I read as |
Thank you! |
Well i mean yes.... |
Yes |
Yes to all! Lol |
But also literally glue things |
Whar kind of glue volume do you usually have? |
Are we being euphemistic at all? |
Now we are |
I want to answer factually, but I'm not sure what I'm admitting to bow |
Now |
How much do you think an average-ish emission of ejaculate do you produce? |
Better? |
You made me do this! Lol |
Lol |
I don't measure it |
I can tell you this |
One Kleenex brand tissue is the typical volume of tissue necessary to clean it up. But sometimes it takes more |
Hmm |
Have you ever seen yourself spull out of someone? |
Not really |
Interested? |
Oh yes, very much |
I dont understand? |
When I manage to come in you again, Id like to stick my face down there so I can watch you leak out of me |
Wait |
My pronouns are all twisted lol! |
Wtf |
Lol |
I know that much... i dont know how you playing with me helps you watch... ? |
Idk, maybe poke around with a finger or something |
Or just schmear things around |
Maybe lick you clean |
I understand better now thanks |
You should |
I told you I'd snowblow if you wanna try |
If you want to film it, we can negotiate that |
Right on! |
Is it a double if I lick it out of you first? |
Is it a double what? |
Snowblow |
https://g.co/kgs/dtNGLmU |
These don't all look great, but I'd say worth an interview if at all interested |
I was under the impression that that's the basic starting point is you licking it out of me |
For sure, thank you! |
Can't i just wear sexy panties and you sell them and we split profits ? |
Idk, never snowballed myself. Goog suggests a blowjob was the starting point |
Um, yes |
Get on that |
10000000% |
You be the logistics and I'll wear and mail them |
Nice! |
Do I get to be the product photographer too? |
I say this with so much love for you... |
Aww! |
I actually want you to |
I want you to be more ... assertive-experimental with how I'm positioned and what you want. I know you want more than you've had |
If we can get a night or two, I'd bring my real camera :) |
What about just for pleasure for you? How else would you want me? |
Would like to try random furniture |
Couch, counters, tables |
Have you before? |
I think i should share a link with you. You must agree to provide constructive feedback |
Ok |
Tell me! |
It's been since hs gf |
We fucked on the couch a couple times |
Missionary ish? |
Actually her on top I think |
Has anyone ever sat on your face? |
Not as such. I usually find a way to get where I wanna be anyway |
So that is not of interest to you? |
Sorry that was confusing |
But I also want her to face the other way sometimes |
Oh? Porque? |
Different perspectives, different angles |
Have you done that with me? |
And a different task for my tongue |
69 we did once or twice yeah? |
I think twice |
I remember one "date" |
I meant have you faced me the other way |
I don't think so |
Me either |
See |
I think i need to try that |
Like NOE |
*NOWWWWWW |
Yay!!! |
And you can control the grind |
Pressure |
Sppeed |
Angles |
Yeah i already decided i want to fuck the life out of your face |
I just dont really know how |
Yessssss |
Or how to not alarm you doing that |
Are you ok using your right arm for basic support? Like just to maintain a down dog sort of posture? |
Yeah |
I can always "lazy dog" it |
Bc I can just wiggle upside down and behind you on my back and |
You might like lazy dog better |
Voila |
Wanna see something? |
Needs feedback |
Sure! |
https://sexinfo101.com/ |
Wowser! |
Well that looks fun |
I dont think you looked het |
*yet |
Mais non! I've been studying the car sex recommendations |
I really like the brief reviews from his and her pov |
Where might one or two engage in such sextivities? |
I thought you knew lol |
I definitely know some out of the way places |
How, where, amd why please :) |
Years of going to rose lake for picnics and such |
https://maps.app.goo.gl/1YnG5LfYF9SgaQt28 |
Here's one :) |
Have you carfucked before? |
https://maps.app.goo.gl/GHj7eJfrBzXGkABd8 |
No but I fell through the ice here |
That was messed up |
Omg! Do you want to tell me? |
RLH and I were having a winter walk (Feb or March I think) and I (a) stupidly went out on the ice and (b) was kinda kicking at it and down I went lol |
My arms immediately went up and out |
Wowza |
In a full winter coat mind you |
So I kinda broke my fall |
And I remembered you have to try to get flat |
To get back on the ice |
And that worked after a forever long 20 seconds |
Eeessh |
Hypothermic? |
Have you ever been? |
I have |
Idk if I did? I do know it was about 15 walk from the car |
15 minutes |
I could not operate my digits to remove clothig |
But we stripped me, wrapped me ina blanket, and ran the car nice and warm |
Eventually had a beer, then went home lol |
That was many cars ago. Had to be 1992 or 1993 |
Were you married? |
Idk either just before or just after we got married |
How many people attended your eventM |
? |
Around 70 I think |
Thanks |
Do you have a short list of the porn we'll eventually watch? |
Just curious |
Actually yes, but it's old and probably needs to be revised |
Why? |
Because I found things that should take precedent |
What led to your decisions? Which criteria factored in? |
Idk, you asked me to share what I liked, so I started there |
Ah |
Do you watch the same one more than once? |
I'm sure I do, but it's a pretty decent while between |
Do you have a favorite part of the videos to watch? |
Kinda depends on what sort of mood I'm in and what's happening |
So you watch different kinds? |
I'm way too innocent here to comprehend, lol |
Heh |
Well see, when the cameraman wants to stick his lens in the girl's camera bag |
And she has a nice spot all ready |
You can't euphemize this |
I just did lol |
I literally have no base kmoedge |
And apparently no skinny thumbs |
Lol |
This is like any other video sharing medium |
You have your highly polished, well - produced items |
And your step down creatives with smaller , uh , budgets |
And your means well but I only have a phones |
And your total shite that may or may not be sexy at all |
So it's all over the place |
I prefer a little realism at least in terms of the sex. The situations can be whatever |
And you can imagine the range of people making this stuff |
Pimps and prostitutes, sleazy drug dealers, soccer moms, teenagers... |
And big houses trying to look legitimate |
I have the dunbest question |
In porn, are the people actually engaging in coitus? Like, not camera tricks?? |
It's real |
I suppose some could be tricks, but they probably don't get views |
Oh |
Wow |
Right |
Or bellybutton |
A couple weeks ago you asked if i thought i was pregnant because of amenorrhea. Was that a genuine concern? What did you think? |
Sorry I had to look up that question |
It was an honest question. You brought up the word (although I had to look it up because French), and sometimes I think you want to lead me to conclusions, so I asked. |
I suppose so |
A slight panic |
Because? |
You might be pregnant? |
There could be 2 conclusions to that |
1. It was you |
My guess is that you thought both, leaned more toward the latter |
But please tell me everything you're comfortable with |
It didn't make a difference how honestly. |
I'm not sure what to say |
You know I believed I ruled out offspring years ago |
I did that for the reason that I want none |
You don't have to say anything, these are just things i think |
There's something weird going on upstairs in case if I have to go silent |
As in i dont really know why you want none |
Go check? |
Nah, it just talking but seems like an unfamiliar voice and cadence |
Weird |
Anyhoo |
I do not wish to (re)start being a parent, ever |
Just no |
I'm too selfish |
And I enjoy my peace |
You made that decision several decades ago though |
Yes I did |
Same reasons? |
Lol the whole troupe of them just came down here, all three of them chattering, turned off the lights and showed me the piece of cadmium glass that arrived |
Cadmium?? |
I guess |
She's been nonstop searching for glass since Christmas |
It glows orange |
null |
Click it |
Imma propose a toast brb |
Good idea |
A votre... Sante! |
Slainte! |
Prost! |
I wouldn't but lulz |
Yeah cadmium is not people friendly |
Hence my questioning |
Yeah I feed cadmium batteries to kids |
That's how much I loathe them .. the batteries that is |
Lithium is so much better |
So you wondered why my decision? |
Scroll to "sources" |
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cadmium_poisoning |
And yes |
Why your decision |
And how long did you have that in your mind |
Lol Miley fucking Cyrus was trying to kill people lolol! |
I feel like someone in your household smokes on occasion?? |
Not ecigs though |
But yeah |
And I smoked plenty |
Back to the real questions |
I have plenty |
Sorry I just dumped ipa all over my clothes and seat blanket. Had to make a quick change and visit the washer! |
My decision |
Easy decision |
My thoughts about parenthood had been on my mind most of that time |
My thoughts about getting a vasectomy lasted a matter of weeks before I could get an approval |
Appointment I mean |
Just as well I had to change my undies because of you anyway 😌 |
Pshtttt |
Sorry, fell to the sleep |
null |
Comme ca |
Aww |
Righr |
Now tell me what you think about me as a parent |
Are you going to be my mommie? |
Pweeeeeeeeze |
Wow just had a surprise emotional trigger from an old song. I wasn't expecting that! |
null |
Triste |
null |
In a bad way, unfortunately |
I listed several possible factors that might explain why this happened |
That's how it is in the industry, you know |
Anyway, this fish comes up to me like "hey, did you really expect me to talk?" |
Yeah |
So |
Right |
Heyyy:) |
Would you add anything? |
One moment |
null |
Salination? |
Go on |
Do your worst |
Salinity |
Cutesy treasure chest |
It was not so much saline |
Atlantian ruins |
As intentionally hard |
And alkaline |
And too much really |
And I grew my crop |
Seeded my future |
In that harsh environment |
And then the water changed |
And I guess it was hard on my herd of bacteria |
Which is not a good thing, because they were the good guys |
I'm guessing fish keeping isn't recommended for transplant patients? |
Oh you need bacteria? |
It's thick in biology |
I do not know |
Most pets are discouraged for a while |
Makes s nse |
F |
It's all microbial soup |
As a person who worked in the micro lab |
I definitely have a better appreciation for microbes for having worked there |
Very cool |
Yeah.... afg does not understand this but whatevs |
Sorry for tangent |
Maybe preuss could help? |
You are sweet! |
Why you say I'm sweet? Is thst s diabetes joke? Lol |
Not even |
I had to make a quick transition from bottom level to top level, preparing snack along the way |
So how are you |
Pretty good |
A few Sunday scaries but not too too terrible |
Bummed i napped out for a while |
Aww |
Why? |
Less productivity |
How are you? |
Good , good |
Finally accepting I have to work tomorrow lol |
Still waiting for a valid response too |
What did you mean there valid response? |
Trying to figure out how to not crash once i get home |
I asked you a question from which you quickly pivoted after some joshing |
Please don't make me search for it |
Me as a mum? |
I asked you a question in response |
😐 |
Ok ok |
I believe you would be a good mother. I think you care more about your SIL than her own family, you have a protective instinct, you are well educated and very intelligent, and also very resourceful |
You know you don't have to say that, right? |
I thought you were offended or expecting a real answer |
A lot goes unspoken |
I'm this medium |
In lol |
Have I created a problem? |
Thanks |
Hoping which part? |
The best way i can term it is that i dont know how a good mom is supposed to be so i couldnt emulate it or do the complete opposite of what mine did because sometimes she did/does try |
Ajhhhhh |
I've been told I would be a good father |
Ive been told all over the spectrum |
But that's a thing I haven't really chosen this time around |
Chosen? |
Chosen to have offspring |
See it's such a given isn't it? |
But no |
Actually no, it's not |
Nobody cares |
I'm fine like this |
Whatcha thinkin? |
null |
Yes. I know very well. I am the only cousin either side who doesnt have kids. When my brother died it eas kind of an "oh shit" because everyone realized our sibling pairing ended the direct offspring line for us, our parents |
Im thinking.... work :( |
The male side |
My sister has two kids, and they are awesome |
The make side...? |
She also kept her maiden name lol |
Right. My brother and i are the only sibling group without kids, either side of the fam |
Right, I see |
Yes |
It turns out child sa is not a good strategy to continue the gene line |
Darwin |
The only others without kids either died (though she miscarried once) or the other and other side onr has down syndrome |
Every other one of dozens has a kid |
Not this one |
In myyyyyy lineage |
Please tell me we're on the same side of this debate |
I think so? |
Not debating anything |
Emm |
Can i |
Just |
Just very telling that i have always been the no kid mindset out of everyone in that dna pool |
Can you just...? Finish that please |
I think this is a generational trend also |
And honestly not surprising |
Kind of but all my cousins are my generation |
There will always be local variances in the weather too |
Neither parent, grandparent, or aunt/uncle (probably cousins too) ever asked when or if i was having kids |
Which is a very normal thing for them to ask |
Just feels quizzical |
Perhaps |
My closet cousin, Abby, just had her first two since COVID, and she is now pushing 50 |
40 |
Sorry 40 |
She is my age |
Yeah |
And stepkid 2 |
Hmm? |
Your 2nd stepkid. Same age. Maybe 1st one? |
Oh, yes. Correct |
Nitya |
Yes |
Sidebar- i look cute for just seeing myself after all day plus a nap |
null |
Aww I love you sweet babe |
I hope I'm not being a PITA |
Why would you be being? |
Idk I just feel like I am |
I'm prolly just tired |
Well shoot |
I would |
If I could |
Here i am wishing i was your pillow |
Someone call MC Escher |
Impressive! |
Oh i have a fun-ish question |
Girl me and MC go way back don't even |
You may not love classical compositions but you're familiar wjth a decent amount, right? |
I'm ok with classical. I love some classical. Just keep me away from bway plz |
Haha okay |
My wondering is what you think some of my fave classical pieces are or which might spring to mind with the essence of me |
My favorite Christmas music |
Well I'll just start here lol |
Are you serious? |
I owe this particular joy to my mother |
Is it so strange? |
Now I regret not pulling it up last month |
I like them! |
Do any non holiday ones stand out as Rebecca-esque to you? Totes fine if now. I have a few faves, jsyk |
I do not know for sure, but I would guess East European and Russian composers |
You don't seem like the Beethoven type |
Tchaikovsky for The Nutcracker and Swan Lake (which i saw from the first row of the musorgsky theater in moscow, tyvm), the sleeping beauty is okay but not my fave. Carnival des animaux by saint-saens, peter & the wolf by britten, rhapsody in blue |
Wonderful selections! |
Thanks! 🙂 |
Classical was what was on in my house much of the time as a kid |
I keep a running lost of things ive seen lice. Did you know that? |
I had a lotttttt of AM radio lol |
I got to know a few things, but did not always know names |
University's public radio here |
Ah. Well, 8th grade was my last required lit & comp class (forever, really) and once i tested out i could take whatever English-counting credits i wanted. Humanties counted so i maxed that out - 1 semester of art and 1 of music. Both were taught collegiately at my high school but i just liked them. Didnt care about credits then because i planned on going to culinary school nit "real college" (if i even loved that long, but that's a different story branch) |
I did not know there was such a thing as npr until i was a senior. 2 extremely republican parents, politically involved and offical, in brighton |
Why would i? Lol |
Poor baby! |
I'm sorry I need to sleep now babes! |
Good night |
I'm thinking about you |
I love you |
I can't wait to see you again |
I love you too |
And same |
Chat in the AM! |
Ok xoxox |
null |
2025-01-06T06:58:39 |
GM workin babe! |
Hey, you too |
How are you? |
Oh I'm fine |
Is he okay? All senses |
Probably not |
Do you need to intervene? How can i help? |
What happened? |
Just speaking from experience. Hell either pass out, or break something and pass out. |
Why did he get this way though? |
Who knows |
Does he need to vomit? |
This is such an old story here |
I thought we were done, but apparently not |
I know this story from my own life really well, ao please excuse the auto-crisis-mitigate mode |
It's ok |
I have 4 years of being an RA plus a lifetime of ultra high functional alcoholic live in brother going at this |
"Done with this" means what? |
Done having up all night drunk step son in the house |
And he is drunk for no apparent reason? And drunk by himself? |
Yeah. He and his mom were both up late. I think she came to bed around 430 |
With you? |
Yeah |
Are you okay? |
Yeah yeah, I'm fine |
Okay, good |
Not enthused, but fine |
I'm sorry |
Other stepson? |
Sleeping |
What did he do last night? |
No idea. Probably not much. He doesn't drink like Nitya |
There were all babbling on the back porch when I went to bed |
Like they do |
It is freezing |
Oh? |
Cold in the office? |
Well yes, but i kinda lost more weight so that's a factor and new blood flow and so is outside |
It's got heat |
Righr |
I meet with kirby this afternoon. Advice & ideas welcome |
Any AR news? |
I haven't talked to anyone since the cadmium invasion lol |
Still very odd |
Gotta hop in the shower, back soon |
Good luck |
Thx :) |
2025-01-06T09:08:58 |
Live through it? |
Lol the shower? Yeah |
I think the beast passed out on the porch lol |
Are you going to ask him about it later? |
Probably not |
What do reckon I should ask? |
Idk |
What's his drink od choice? |
I am so effing cold |
Aww do you have blankets? |
No |
null |
Heyyyy :) |
You could put some flavor in warm water from the coffee maker |
Sipping warm water good for you! |
I have warm bevs. Not helping |
Why the lelephant? |
Let's just say the annual review and PIP are completely incongruous. Isn't the dissonance like an elephant in the room? |
Ah. Yes. I 10000% agree. When i get back from making my sodium noodles I'll show you another thing |
Just wanted to make sure i wasnt missing the imbalance of feedback |
Not to mention i am the loss sensitive sme and keep getting consulted by no less than 5 people on a daily-ish basis about what happens with this that and the other |
Capacity for you anytime tomorrow or Wednesday? Real world for the most part but happy to host you weds for lunch or something |
Not sure yet. I will keep my eyes open! |
Okay! |
I think i might explore :) |
Geez I don't go to many bars so IDK |
Ummmmm |
Not the question |
I also do not frequent bars |
Oops lol |
Choc almond sea salt! |
Ugch wrong answer but ok |
Clif bars? |
Nature valley? |
Quaker Chewy? |
Oh lol! |
I haven't had those kinds |
No no im just saying choc cherry is best |
Not in decades |
Mercy lol |
I like nature vallet esp because i can grab a packet, smash it to bits, then pour it into my yogurt |
So that's what those are good for... I always felt like I was breaking teeth on those when I was a kid |
Same lol |
How's it going? |
Ok |
Oh. Okay. |
About her kids and why they are here |
Kirby had to leave so i have textable freedom |
Right |
Yay! |
Do you think they perhaps no.longer have a dwelling? |
No, I think perhaps this is convenient for them |
Not my problem |
Except when it is, you know? |
Convenient.... use your words to say more |
I have an interesting observation for you later |
It's convenient to have a stocked pantry and freezer |
Sorry guys your not 20 any more |
I understand |
I mean, i have a whole ass mortgage and a car and a wall o degrees and 4 pets and a garage and manage my own medical records and call tje dentist for my spouse and plan funerals when necessary and.... |
I also meal prep |
And pay consumers |
And renew my vehicle tags |
Did i mention i am seriously incapacitated a good but of the time, have random organs that work or dont, literally and legally blind, amputations, a major surgery here and therw, tiny bits o traumases.... |
Yeah |
Speaking of painful |
https://open.spotify.com/track/32fSZSbxeVoiZShMQKLc6Z?si=7YancSVdRyC5oT6tbmZK_g |
Not tswift |
https://youtu.be/b1kbLwvqugk?si=IXWiEXwCFnmxWlPg |
Yes tswift |
Que tal? |
Has she awakened yetM |
? |
Yeah a couple hours ago |
What's she doing? |
Separated for your convenience of response enumeration |
Idk |
I am now offline! Woo! |
Tell me why the lost license plz |
I have a handful of guesses |
OWI |
Spent time in jail |
Paid $$ |
You did |
Im guessing? |
Finally left my cell |
I mean office |
How much jailtime? |
Impaired how? |
Type of machinery? |
Sorry I'm curious |
Not sure, maybe a month? |
I see |
Well, how are things there? |
Calm atm |
Quiet |
What has transpired? |
Nitya is sleeping in the living room. RLH and Nara have been on porch since mid afternoon |
I am keeping to myself |
Im sorry babe |
Thanks |
Wanna tell me more? |
It's just goofy lol |
I was just thinking of following up |
Nothing more to tell really |
Questions? |
"Goofy" is a stange term to use. Why choose that one? |
I want to know what you call it ha ha! 😋 |
I still don't know or understand the dynamic |
That's fair |
Would you like a task? |
Also... peep the undereyes here |
null |
null |
I'm sorry babe I have to drop everything for these warts |
Brb lol |
Anyhoo |
It occurs to me that RLH and Nara are avoiding him moreso than me. They don't want to deal with it either, and they don't have the option of disappearing |
Why does he drink more than the other? |
Who knows |
Nitya has been prone to these deep benders |
Idk how long since I've witnessed it |
But I've witnessed it several times |
Some involved him breaking (outside) furniture by falling on it, or police |
Or primal yells in the back yard at wee hours |
What do they do? I dont know how else to phrase that. Like, in life |
Suck the fat titty of welfare and sell plasma |
And idk because that doesnt seem like even enough , but here we are |
Im sorry if i sound judgy. I just dont get it |
C'est la I suppose. What questions can I answer? |
Do they have diplomas? |
Hs |
Well 1 hs, 1 ged |
What did they do after? |
Lots of restaurant jobs, kitchen, cooking and washing dishes |
Was there not a plan? Like.... what did rlh say to them or anything? |
Nope. The plan ended at graduation |
Oh |
And I had gone silent on such things many years prior |
She did not take kindly to my criticism |
I understand. From your pov. The silence and the criticism |
We are soooo the same |
Ah yes! Glad you caught that |
Hahahaaaaaa |
But to whcih situation am i referring? |
I was thinking Desiree |
That |
Oof, right |
He did not graduate on time |
Lotsa substances |
Lotsa jobs |
No college |
Jail |
How do we do it babe??? |
Me? A ni e strong sense of self loathing and inconceivable pain |
How bout you? |
Idk |
I've often been characterized as "patient", which is a trait all the guys in my dad's family share in several generations |
And I agree with that to a point I guess, fair enough |
Ok |
Tolerant is another word I would use |
And up to that I can't be bothered. And by that I mean |
Don't want to open myself up to drama |
Right |
And I'm willing to do a lot of introverted and reclusive things to keep that separation |
I see that |
I'm sure there's a cynical take on my position |
Coward |
I dont allow you to use that word |
Well then |
I'm at my limit of self analysis anyway lol |
I would much rather you call me a whore or frequent the use of the term cunt that call yourself that ever again |
Analyze me babe |
I can't analysis more now |
Okay |
Do you need a phone break? |
Yeah, maybe just let me get a couple things around |
? |
Yeah of course |
I might actually like to deep chat more later |
All good! I'm thinking I will be about 30 minutes |
With all the best laid plans |
You do you |
Get some food |
I might like to talk about me and some stuff. Per usual, obv. |
Really hate what myself is doing to me rn. But you go for a break! |
Ok! |
2025-01-06T20:36:14 |
Helloooo |
Heyyÿyya |
:) |
What's up? |
Laying in bed, digesting |
Lentil soup, handful of green olives, saltines |
How very earthtoned |
Right? |
Heya |
Hii |
Sorry, had some weirdness with myself going on |
Well. Tell your self to stop it! |
Are you ok? |
I am now i think. Actually it was kinda nice. Thought of you during it all |
Oh tell me! |
I like nice on you |
Idk what that means but thanks :) |
I thought i was nice. Am nice |
❤️ |
Anyway, i was kinda high and its the state i want for you to be with me innnnnnnnntinately and all |
Calm and happy and not in pain and a little swirly and my head was pretty clear and i wanted you sososososo badly |
But then i felt like things were too good and i realized i couldn't really move or yell or any of that and real life set me back |
But am OK |
I want that feeling, though |
Kinda trippy huh? |
Yeah. You're familiar? |
Sort of |
I am still kinda waking up so i dojt understand sarcasm atm |
No sarcasm here babe |
I have those. And sleep paralysis. Theyre terrible |
But this was also kind of legit high |
Sounds like you enjoyed it but wanted company |
Very much |
Specifically you though |
I would love to be with you through that |
Yes |
I'll take good care of you |
Apparently i know how to make it happen |
Oh |
Ofc |
And that is what i wanted |
Absolutely! |
And in my perfect world we'd be making love right now |
Ah yes we would |
My thoughts exactly |
And it would be the time the caring culminates and i understand and then i weep |
That is what i want |
Awws! |
I will hold you |
It's ok |
I was really close to that last time |
Well don't hold it back |
I really do want that |
I crave the catharsis |
Yes |
It helps |
You know this how? |
Random moments of catharsis |
Pause plz |
Mmk |
:) |
Did anything happen today? |
No |
Lol |
How do you feel about it? |
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I'll catch up with it eventually |
Probably tomorrow |
Lol famous last words I suppose |
Of your own accord or otherwise? |
Most likely that, yes |
How are you feeling now? |
Still a little turned around from your little episode? |
A little bit |
But i think okay |
A lot of my issue has been bp |
Too low right? |
Mostly yeah |
Gads |
It's honestly difficult |
Yeah I sure don't like the feeling of passing out... Unless I'm passing out in bed on purpose lol |
Same |
But at least i know the feeling |
As in, can preemptively sit or get to the lowest point |
Speaking of which |
The leeway is getting shorter :/ |
You need to sleep? |
Oh dear |
Yes I do need to sleep |
Me too |
I'm about halfway there |
Sweet dreams |
Dirto, ditto |
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2025-01-07T05:33:22 |
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Heyy |
My beebee! |
Current sitch |
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Sleepy bebe! |
Are you ok? |
Soooo tired |
But yes |
Why? |
Wasn't sure based on your countenance |
How countenance? |
Facial expression? |
Ohh |
Fuccccckkkkkkkk i hurt |
But how are you? |
I'm ok babe! |
It's okay thanks |
How was your sleep? |
Actually pretty good |
That's good |
Did you sleep well? |
Must've |
Poor baby! Sounds like you could've kept going |
Yeah |
Aww |
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2025-01-07T07:50:29 |
Thx babe |
This office flourescence is also killing me |
Ugh |
Yep |
Does it help at all to dim the lights in your office? |
I have a binary option |
Off it is :) |
Cant see anything but my screen then :/ |
Digital transformation, where are you? |
Solving own problem yet again |
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Lamp stick fit into lamp hole |
Lamp hole can affix into trad wall slats |
I have no wall slats |
Nor weighted planter for lamp stick |
Oh |
Where I was sitting there is a cube full of IT junk. Feel free to rummage there |
I dont know where you sat |
No one invited me |
But i rummaged the lamp lol |
Carafe as stand holder did not work |
And starting the day at a nice cool 99.2 |
Do you know where the stairs to nowhere are? Do you remember me pointing and saying I sit "right behind that wall"? |
2025-01-07T09:39:14 |
I recall no such thing. And there are no real walls here lol |
New position. Make it so! |
Still 99.2 |
Well you have a map now yes? |
You.... know you're typing some nsfw things on the work thing? |
Yeah just realized that |
Jsyk, i want a play by play with details from Miss ONS |
Nay, neeeeeed |
It's just about my once nurtured sibling |
But whatever about the work at this point - there's much worse yiu have on your work cellular |
You mean your old nissan selentra? |
Sentra, but I love that!!! |
😊 |
I better be prettier than that samn car |
100% yes you are |
Aww |
Could be lies |
Idc |
No lies |
You can tell me those things all day long |
Or night |
Whatevs |
Hey |
Yoooo |
How you doin |
Just trying to survive this meeting lol |
Mine was roughhhhhh |
Was that you meeting with ck? |
"If it's easier for you to total this way, try minusing...." |
"we'll let you know if you fuck d up!" |
No joke |
Guess I'll be creating my refute most of the rest of the week |
I also said i think kendell and travis flat out hate me ane think i cant do anything because i dont jukp up and down when i do my job like they do so often. I was not corrected or dissuaded |
Fwiw |
If you want to push back on this (and I think you should), you should focus on your strengths, your accomplishments, your pain points, and at least admit you are one person doing all manual steps and mistakes can happen. |
Yes. That is the plan and what i approached with today and plan on doing more of |
My internal debate now is if i want union backup or not |
I'm not sure what to say there. Would they actually be helpful? Idk |
Right |
No doubt. All I'm really saying is I don't know if they can help. You are a lot more intelligent than they are. |
Right. Thanks. |
Yeah exactly. Citing chapter and verse of the contract is just going to be irritating for everyone in the room |
But I'm not actually trying to dissuade you. I just think you're above all that |
Same |
Also I just thought of something |
Oh? I have plenty more too |
If the mistakes caused some kinda heinous problem, bring a solution proposal. Maybe these account need to have an extra layer of review by someone who hasn't been part of the production |
Yes. Already did that. |
And.... is it a coaching plan if I'm not even performing the same job functions or in the same role? |
You are a problem solver at heart, not a troublmaker |
Yes |
Like when no one had a clue who had ld/plr accts during the incident but i had a list that i made for me by myself and went through "sent" emails to collect their contact info so there could be some communication to specifically them? Yes. |
CK has had his invoice sending privileges revoked as well |
Like wtf |
Mmmmmk |
Whats this about? |
So he got dinged as well? |
I feel like your leadership has completely failed. They are blaming the little people for their incompetence |
Did you tell me someone got fired? |
Yes, a hundred thousand percent |
And yes someone else got fired but different reason |
✔️ ty |
I dont think i have done anything wrong, so you're welcome to use my name if it helps. Position, compensation, education, i have more atrocities too |
Lol I don't need her knowing I know you rn |
Ahh. Okay |
She's good friends with David |
Not my fault you're a coffee addict and i needed a micfiwave back in september |
Heh! |
I suppose it's not your fault you're a total cutie with intelligence too? |
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Nevvvver |
Lolol |
Mwa! |
Please |
But whennnnnn encore? |
Arkansasian news? |
Literally just got it |
They're leaving the 19th |
The children just left |
Moments ago |
And mommy invited them to go to the show on the 17 th , which grinds my fucking gears, but I'll survive I guess |
Im sorry, love |
Any news on how long they'll be gone? |
Even if they said something it would be wrong. I'd expect at least a week, quite possibly 2, and maybe even more |
Okay, thanks |
I feel like I'm dying. Again. |
But whyyyy |
99.3 |
2025-01-07T15:23:43 |
Annnnnnyway |
How are you now? |
I'm pretty close to clearing a basket of work off my desk thank goodness so I can breathe |
Yay! |
How is it going ? |
A little better thanks |
Good good |
Yesssss! |
Are you trapped all week? |
Like a rat |
Shucks |
Means i am too |
Did you know my Chinese zodiac avatar is the rat? So good. |
You could go get some nice spa treatment or something |
I could! |
What if i need emergency furniture selection assistance? |
There's a new preposterous sounding question i have for you too |
And i may need some moianalysis of you for it |
😂 |
This conversation is getting very anal lytical |
Okay tease |
EFSA! |
?? |
Emergency furniture selection anal isis? |
Ass istance |
Sorry |
Omg silly boi |
You sure know how to pick em |
No no t that |
I'm moving this conversation to teams |
Hahaha 🤣 |
You do you boo |
Union mandated break here |
Lol |
Really |
Yep |
Rich |
No 👎 |
Parkay? |
15 min maximun |
You're probably too young for those commercials |
Butter but better? |
The anthropomorphic margarine tub |
Weird |
Tall Blue container |
That's it! |
But talking |
I remember |
Like a bad trip |
I grew up in an exclusively margarine/oleo/country crock house |
I literally remember the first time i had real butter |
Ah yes |
Mmm |
Oleooooooo |
Wild |
Ever made butter? |
Oops break over! |
For real |
Did not use to be this way |
I need out of this. Badly. |
I know it |
Yeah |
Sheesh |
Sorry |
Why do you think you need to stay fr? |
Insurance |
Husband's |
Besides, you don't know what's offered |
That's not as stable ground as anyone thinks |
I know |
Well then |
Or you will be eating shit until you retire |
Or we find you a better af job nbu |
Either way, resume will be needed |
I will help if you want me to |
That's been the goal |
I'm sorry |
I will back off |
I know you're trying to be helpful and i appreciate that |
But i will never depend on him for myself |
Makes sense |
I know its not such a trivial thing |
So for at least the time being, i have to stay eating this shit so i survive. Very literally. |
Well I'll keep eyes and ears open for ya |
Thanks. I try to do that too. There's nothing. |
Believe it or not, that's not too uncommon |
I know |
But when we find the right opportunity we want to be ready! |
PS thanks for calling me out |
You were right |
Not one of my better traits |
Oh. Okay. |
I may say this more than once, because it is a repeating behavior i receive. I always have the same sentence screaming in my head |
Thank you |
It's honestly bizarre how many times i have had to very earnestly remind or scream that to men ane boys |
In a very, very wide variety of situations |
I appreciate this! I don't like to hear I am this way but like to know it so I can address this |
With myself , to be clear |
I shall questions when you are available |
Me verb |
Like you have them for me? |
Yes yes |
I have one for you that I've been mulling on for a while |
And i know it is absurd in how it sounds |
Well |
You first or me first? |
Ohh no |
I guess you |
Lol ok |
When you get this thing from me, is it in a bantering mode, or serious conversation? |
Which thing? |
Like when,? |
This thing |
Finally home! |
So, that thing, the repeating behavior is from xy chromosome hosts not repeating from you |
Straight away i can name 5 people who have somehow thought i am someone i am very obviously not. An ex they liked, an ex they didnt like, someone they wanted to date, their mother or sister, their kid, an adult film actress, etc etc etc |
Oh! |
Repeat the last sentence?? |
Right I'm looking at that thinking there is no way I typed that |
Cool cool |
The things people do these days are so wild |
Rachel / Rebecca |
Sorry |
Both working housing duty on February 14. I made scratch lasagna and tuxedo strawberries in his kitchen. He got me flowers and cards all day. No one in their right or wrong mind would tell you there were mixed signals |
Was that a story about a person you dated harboring feelings about his ex gf?
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Who is him |
You missed the part where i said he wouldnt date me after he dated Rachel who was unbelievably similar to me |
I got the invite to go get lunch (for the rest of staff) with him and hang out in his car doing so. Then i got some pats on the back for the balls i had for saying anything because he knew it was probably terrifying for me to be that vulnerable |
And then "in my experience, it's best not to date anyone who's still a student" |
Dude. 5 years older. And i wasn't a collegy coed |
Yeesh |
He was the first i told a lot of shit to, and all the rest.... plus knowing he joked with other staff AND his friends (who were my friends but not mutual of that makes sense?) Like.... stabbed over and over |
That was a very long time ago. I am obviously still hurt and flabbergasted by it all |
Oh yeah! He also visited me a handful of times when i moved to an apartment on campus |
Hey call them out! |
And graduation |
And he met and conversed with my mother |
Under what pretense? |
Oh damn |
I forgot this |
He was my boss and she was visiting is when they talked |
He was in town from out of state was me and my apartment |
Huh |
I wish you could see my expression and the mannerisms right now |
Do you have any idea what they are? I have more to say |
No it sounded like you were in the middle of something just now though |
Kind of. Kind of not. I'll keep thinktyping if you can describe what you think my physical processing of this looks like |
You must be exasperated |
Because it is just now occurring to me that he wasnt ever the type who wanted physical gain from this, and he wasn't the malicious type (to my knowledge), but i was hopeless and it probably felt great for him to have me parade around all cute and be smart and sassy and have goals and depend on him and him know he didnt officially break any rules |
He would see me stay awake for days, see my cuts, know when i didnt eat or when i was in a vomiting cycle, was the first one i told about my brother |
Babe I'm so sorry! |
And the people who acted it out, the girl was a friend of mine and knew exactly how i was from my assault the year before and basically was me in the act for that training and could have verbatim been me |
So im in the hall because i needed to get out of the room and im sobbing unsilently and trying to swallow air but im like a fish drowning in oxygen and he comes out and i barely know him much at this pount but he puts his arms out and i dont know what to do but walk to them and then i am on the ground because i have ptsd and the present state isnt there anymore |
Not only do all the dorms look the same, but this dorm where we're playing pretend for training was THAT GUY'S dorm and there's so much there too that i want to tell you |
And i know i told Mike what happened and he didnt judge or pause me or gaslight me or shame me or ask dumb questions and it was literally the first time i think anyone believed my assault wasn't my fault |
And so there was that |
I got way off track |
So it is going through my head now |
My poor baby! |
I'm sorry |
That even though it was fun and "i knew what i was doing" the whole time and it was reciprocal and mutual and consensual and "i knew he was an authority but not really" |
I think i was wrong |
Because i dont think that was true? |
But it was to me and i was so sure |
And I'm still reassuring myself that he was what i wanted and i was what he wanted and who cared if either of us was right or wrong because i was positive i made those decisions of infatuation for myself or that nature made them for me |
But i mean, he wouldn't have done that |
And there wasnt anything physical, no officially crossed boundaries, no harassment and not even consensual harassment or locker room talk or whatever you'd call it. That wasn't even there |
I have always been smart and mature and can see BS from a time zone away |
Except i dont think i do now |
Control maybe? But if it was that then maybe he was actually doing me a favor because stuff could have been worse |
I made a lot of terrible decisions then |
Would have could have should have made more |
Some would have been highlights of those years but some would have been the end of the road and some would have pivoted me a lot of other places |
But why |
Do you remember your ages? |
Holy fuck at these memories i kind of forgot. I'll give you pics in a sec |
So some pics of me while i was on his staff |
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Now pics where he also is |
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WE WENT TO A WEDDING TOGETHER AND I FORGOT THAT |
A mutual friend's wedding, he was on staff all those years too |
And i remember mike saying that unless something went really wrong, all the "kids table " (as we were) couples would probably end up getting married too |
Yes yes, i used to change my hair a lot |
Heh you have always been a cutie |
Not always but thanks |
Meanwhile I'll try not to drown in bewilderment over here kthx |
My goodness |
Well |
We need to get back to this spiral, but tell me you see it |
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You can click to see full screen |
When was this? |
When was what? |
The baker thing is a 100000% different subject that i am briefly interjecting |
When is the $2 million fine scene shot from |
Just now today |
Ih |
Oh |
Why? |
Wasn't my point with that anyway |
Perspective students |
Oh fuck I am dead |
THANK YOU |
Lol |
From wilx |
Wow dude |
Classy |
I was staring at the spiral B ,,( I realize it isn't actually a spiral) |
Wondering |
What is the hidden image? |
Like the FedEx logo |
And all I saw was boobs |
And I was so lost |
I just needed a better |
Perspective lolol |
Better perspiration |
Better collage |
I did a doublescroll |
Lol |
But i just told you some hella groundshatteting memories my guy |
NO MAS PROSPECION |
CONCEPCION |
yes you had some doozies |
I will have to share |
What I sent to David and Cristin today while I was waiting for insider info |
It's in Teams tho so I need to be very considerate lol |
Right. I have some more insight to share too l9p |
It's sfw no worries |
And safe for not work |
100% vanilla |
Ok please continue |
We've had a cat fight here |
Everyone is ok |
Right |
Ty |
Sorry |
What am i continuing? |
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I have multiple thought lines open |
TM me babe |
?? |
TM? |
Thought message |
For a good time 5178123876 |
Oops |
Nope |
Not you |
Sorry delete it plz lol |
Bad kinda typo to have lying around |
It's clossssssse |
Nah I'd figure out my mistake before I dialed. I tested it lol |
Right it's me fat thumbs |
You know |
What they say |
Oh |
How are you with this timeline of the 19th? |
? |
Our Kan's Ass dear |
Have you forgotten him already |
He was only just borne |
What do you mwan how am i with it? |
Does that timeline suit? Is it good? Bad? Indifferent? |
If I'm being too goofy just tell me to settle |
Pretty good actually |
We'll gey back to mike in a bit |
I mean we're going to take 2 weeks off and go to Paris or Belize or something |
Lol |
Right? |
I actually recommend PNW or Vermont, but maybe in summer :) |
Oooh Australia |
You know you cannot make these jokes with me |
It's summer there |
I m sorry |
I know |
But would you? |
If you could? |
Yes |
But what kind of for real planwls maybe? |
Well I'll figure out some time to get away from le work and we can have your extra free time |
Plus there should be at least 1 solid weeend |
Qeekend |
Wtf end lol |
Week |
End |
If not two of them |
If not 3 |
Very possible |
You know mlk day is in there |
Like instantly |
Milk day mmm |
Actually Wednesdays for me lol |
Just a coincidence, nbd |
Oh. Are you saying we have 20th off,? |
At 20:00 tyvm |
Dw |
Diwali? |
Da |
Well that's spicy lol |
I look forward to knowing the plot |
Sunday funday? Well it's unconventional, but hot damn. |
Fucking cute |
Every time |
O haha sorry |
Do you kmowwhat day(s) you'd be able to get away? Or nights? Also need location ideas from you plz |
High confidence: Jan 24 and 25 nights |
Medium confidence: Jan 31, Feb 1 |
And the next weekend with slightly lower confidence |
So not 18 or 19 or 20 at all? |
Oh, not 18, 19 evening and night, 20 all day and evening |
If they don't bump it |
A day |
Which has happened |
50/50 chance |
Okay thanks |
And perhaps the odd Wednesday, you know? |
Too soon for me to make a work intervention |
Sure sure |
You can legit work from here |
I don't have my passport yet |
That would be so rich |
Lol |
I want to show you one of my passports one of these days |
Right! |
No for real. It was my #1 coolest thing to me for a while |
How many passports do you have? |
Still in my possession or how many have i had total? |
Hmm |
No? |
Mm |
I think ive had 5 |
But maybe it's just 4 |
Wait I just thought of my question |
What was 5 |
Passports |
What's your question |
But were any lost or stolen? |
No |
Right |
I reckon then you received enough stamps to fill five books,? |
No |
I got my first one when i was 10 |
So at least 4 |
That's really impressive babe |
But ive had visas in some, and the visa takes at least one entire page typically |
Oh is it? I don't know these things |
They kind of groan when you want a stamp now |
Or stopping by a port for a day or 2 gets zero stamps |
Trains are weird |
Czechia you need more than the eurail train pass since they're not EU, and that costs extra and blahblahblah so much corruption |
Really? |
Like weird dudes shaking down people for money? |
I didnt have a stamp, guy said he could look the other way of the fine if i gave him cash |
So i did and got the train clearance & stamp then and there |
Why not stamp? |
Oh |
Oh. I think you probably dont realize some countries still want you to have your citizenship/visitor ID and gov papers on and active at all time, etc. Like, for yoh to carry actual paper with you |
And most euro hotels have safes are sealed and far away from major sites and front doors. They need to register you through your passport and there's always been at least some trouble with locals stealing a Caucasian passport |
O, no this is new for me |
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A valid, unexpired, generic person looking american passport is at least tens of thousands |
Wow |
Of dollars, not even a little hard |
To get rid of |
Well then |
You didnt say much after i spiraled down in the mike storypathway |
I was just following along. |
You were in a roll! |
Yes. Sorry. That happens |
I cant get out of it usually |
It's ok |
Just get it out, and let it go |
This is one reason portugal is an in person story |
I know, not so sinple |
But similar blessings to you |
You dont have anything to say? You dont have to but i am checking |
About what now? |
Any of it |
Didn't I ask questions? |
Yes |
I'm not ready to comment |
I dont know what you think or feel about it though |
Oh |
Nbd |
Okay |
Interesting |
No worries babe |
Not panicking If i were to use the phrase "kinda hurt myself on purpose today" |
I meant you pease dont panic |
Wait what? |
What happens tp you? |
You've lost me hun |
It's a new topic |
Can we not do this question rn |
Wife just came into house |
In your mind, your body, etc |
Im sorry |
And this is not a simple easy topic ok |
I'm sorry |
No worries |
I don't mean to blow you off |
Seriously |
It's ok |
Ok ty |
I'll need to go see about dinner in a moment |
Yep |
Where was she? |
Back porch |
Oh |
Yah |
Kids? |
No they left babe. |
When? Why? |
Why do they live on their own? |
And far away? |
They left at 13:12. I sent that to you FYI. |
I heard there is a car appt scheduled for tomorrow. Bookmark that please, it might be interesting to revisit |
What's cookin |
OMG ty so much for the Pataday! |
Sorry, mininapped |
Also, yay pataday! But why? |
Eyes get dry sometimes |
I mean yah but the ty seems like it's super random |
Bc I used it a short while ago |
There when I needed it |
We win! |
I find pleasure in many things |
Aww |
Speaking of... |
Yo babe |
Hey I'm just about faded out |
Lol me too |
Babe baeeee |
Lol |
Aww |
Wanted to say goodnight |
Gnight to you too sweet baby |
❤️ you |
You're the best |
Nah |
Love you |
You |
2025-01-08T00:39:47 |
Im really sorry if this wakes you, I'm just up because I'm really sick and trying to distract myself. I number things so they're easier to refer and respond back to |
2. This mike treachery i told you earlier. It's bitterness for sure, but i don't know what it makes me feel. Tricked maybe? Used? Maybe betrayed? Stupid for sure. Led on. It helps when i can name things for myself. That doesn't often happen. |
3. I always want a why and i never get it. I wish i understood that more. |
4. Remind me to tell you about how invoicing went today i guess. And entering policies. I so desperately want the appreciation for so many things i will never get there. I need you to tell me how to jukp up and down every time i do what i think is a basic thing (send a rec and not just "your agent can do that for you").... this is evidently how i got to this place and it fucjing sucks. I'm still maddddd mad about it and i dont know why. Should i be? |
5. The absurd-sounding thing i keep wanting to tell you isnt so easy to explain. You dont seem to want to or maybe know how to use me. I know you haven't said it outright. I am guessing it is atypical for someone to actively talk about using someone for sexual gratification to their face. I kind of understand why it was acceptable or even appealing to me but wtf ia wrong with me that i am or was okay with receiving that kind of mentality and treatment. I'm jist always so dumb |
6. Phd guy. I want answers. There's zero excuse for what he did. It's been almost a year. What do i even do with the mental strain this caused and causes me? I dont want to seem like crazy stalker girl but he needs to know how much he fucked up and i am not the doormat he thinks and treating someone how he did is not okay. What do i even do with this. |
Letting it go and moving on with these things... i dont know how anyone can. And my memory? Not easily dropped. |
2025-01-08T05:23:07 |
I really wish your hands were running along this |
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Sweet baby |
I long to caress you |
And hold you |
And kiss you |
Good morning :) |
Good .morning baby! |
How are you? 🙂 |
I feel good! Ty |
Pretty good thanks |
You've written a lot I see |
Sorry |
No sorry |
It's good |
It's ok |
:/ |
Did you ever write just to write, like a journal or diary ? |
I do not |
I dont know what might happen if i start |
Do you want to talk about anything? Re the numbered items or anything else? |
I do. I also know you have work and such |
Right it might take a bit. |
But I will go through this with you |
Thank you |
You're welcome |
Plans for your day of laboring? |
Idk .. last night the cats knocked over the Christmas tree. It was only 2 feet tall but there are candy canes and mylar tinsel all over lol |
Now it looks like a Charlie Brown tree |
Oh no! I'm sorry babes |
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Ive got that goin for me |
Quite a scamp! |
Did i show you yesterday's percy wake up call? |
I don't think so |
Is he a spaz? |
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He is catsy curious |
Very very nice baby boy, will lay like a baby in your arms for hours. Does not underatand "stramger danger" |
Likes water. And soap. |
😂 |
As in, our soap bars all have wear down the middle because he has licked them and eroded some away |
OMG no!!! Lolol |
It's organic, relaxxxxx |
But what a goof |
Ball |
Oh he's for sure the hammiest |
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Oh wait wrong pic |
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Aww |
He's not falling |
JUST SLEEP8NG LIKE THAT |
Looks comfy lol |
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Gotta love hammy cats |
null |
You said you were sick. Are you feeling better? |
Yes thanks |
Remember me talking about video cartridges one day? But i didn't know their name? |
Yeah |
null |
Hand for scale |
Ah yeah! The video disc! |
But it's just this cartridge, no circle like i would associate with a disc |
I guess that's how they were. I never had the tech, nor did anyone I knew |
My family were late adopters of everything |
I grew up without a microwave! |
Lol I just heard my car honk bc someone drove by with a loud muffler |
Oh wow |
My car is kinda sensitive lol |
I also grew up in a house with one phone. An old school, hang on the wall, rotary phone |
It's funny to think about now |
I bought a long cord so I could take the handset down the stairs to my bedroow |
Lol |
I used to ask for my own phone line every holiday |
Lol I asked routinely. "So expensive!" |
Whatcha going to do with your day off? |
2025-01-08T10:01:51 |
Just woke up again :) |
I might go somewheres .... whatcha think? |
I was thinking you might go to those secondhand stores on Kalamazoo |
I kinda thought same. Or at least to Aprils |
But there are other secondhand places too, so it's always kinda a rough decision where to go |
Well |
null |
null |
Maybe i dont go anywhere :( |
Uh what does the second one mean? |
2025-01-08T14:45:42 |
Hey sis you doing ok? |
2025-01-08T16:46:36 |
Hey |
O hai |
How is everything? |
I think not great. Just waking up |
Why what's going on? |
Beyond tired is one |
Poor baby needed sleep! |
Well idk |
Still working on figuring it out |
Any better? |
Havent moved yet |
Goodness |
It isnt good i just dont know how bad yet |
What is happening ? |
Well my standing bp isnt really registering |
I am super cold because i sweat through everything |
Yowza! |
I just cant do anything and need help but idk how this will go |
Yeah... sweaty |
null |
Do you need food? |
Just ordered some |
null |
Super cute huh? |
Aww :( poor babe |
Oh. And my back. It was good today. Had a patch. Patch has since sweated off |
What kinda patch? |
Lidocainr |
👍 |
They help sometimes |
I can only use some though. Not if they have menthol or capsaicin |
If my eyes stay open and you're so inclined, i would love to chat about the stuff from earlier |
It was pretty ok. I feel oddly tired for being 1830, but good overall |
Headed for bed? |
Nah I'll hang in there for a bit |
I am not good. Im at a loss what to do though. |
I'm fine |
Temp is up and down |
BP is the biggest one |
Pain but that's typical |
I cant really stay awake |
Breathing is normal but also feels like it's taking a lot of mental effort. That probably doesn't make sense |
It does |
Glucose? |
Can you test it or did you already .. or do you know the symptoms of hypoglycemia well? |
I test pretty regularly. And being hypo has been part of my life for 25 years so i definitely know symptoms but thanks |
Alright |
That seems reasonable to me, same for you? |
Yes |
Geez I'm sorry babe |
Why? |
Just wish I could help or something |
Yeah same. I just don't know what to do. |
Or what to do about tomorrow. Guess that's morning Rebecca's problem |
Did your food arrive? |
Yeah, and i ate what i could. That was 2 and a half ish hours ago lol |
Oi the time got away from me lol |
Mmhmm |
I just cant even with this (*gestures vaguely before eyes fall closed again*) |
I think i want water |
Flavored as your favorite flavor! What is the btw? |
Do you have (or like) herbal teas? |
I have organic peppermint leaf. It's quite nice with honey |
I don't think i like them. Well, herbal tasting ones, that is. No wait, floral ones. I always sweeten my tea |
I enjoy a lot of bevs, teas included |
And i meant i think i just want water flavored water |
I am very tense despite being so unwell. As in, cannot unclench my jaw. It hurts. Can you help with this? |
I do recommend water babe, and electrictrolytes. |
Wow spelling fail |
Flavored water, diluted tea, drop of lemon juice, something |
Get some in ya |
Muscle tension also from dehydration |
I know |
It's just my mouth that's super tense the rest of me dgaf |
And cramps |
Well, good I guess? |
Not really ofc |
Best i can explain this kind of is that it's so much easier to just fall back asleep and keep doing it vs getting up to get water or anything |
My poor babes :( |
Make L get you something |
null |
Yeah. I'll get on that |
I'm sorry |
Aww dang it all |
Do y'all have carbon monoxide detectors in your house? |
Du diligence question |
That's a fair question. I wish i knew the answer. Legitimately COD for that sibling of mine, at least on the cert. I'm kind of awake and talking. Dog is snoring. L turned off the lights before he decided nap was in order. He's breathing. I'm texting. |
What interesting worlds people live in lol |
May i tell you something that will probably not sit well with you? |
Yeah sure :) |
You were saving something first though |
Maybe we come back to it |
Please say it |
You're not going to like me for it |
That's ok |
But i still will |
And i bet i already know my reasons against it |
? |
Whatever you're going to say |
Ok |
As a FIRE FIRST RESPONDER I can think of no reason to recommend CO monitoring |
You don't know this |
But my mother represented victims |
Of defective furnace vents |
That killed a lot of people who lived in trailer parks |
Because they died of CO poisoning |
Or families, I should say |
Needless to say she was adamant we have them |
A fucking fire fighter????? |
Ok rant over |
I'm really sorry your mother learned a lot of the things she did |
And now i kind of wonder how she sleeps |
And thank you for saying what you did |
Bad things happen all the time |
We are in 1000% agreement |
Well yes |
Whose side is she on? |
But she can probably tell you physical signs of co poisoning |
I bet she can |
So can i |
What a thing to say for a fire. Fighter. |
To her own. Daughter. |
I'm out for a minute obv I need to cool off |
Because i heard my mother ask the medical examiner over the phone from the bed across the room where we litetally lived in augist 2016 |
I will just be a few minutes |
Ok |
You don't need to cool down btw |
So I'm going to ramble for a bit |
Things like |
"Oh yeah, I've seen that before" |
"Remember how we found [victims] at [address] that time [details]? Was he laying like that?" |
"Oh okay, so his arms then..." |
There was more but this makes me warm |
Physically warm and not in a good way |
The thing that's not going to sit well with you, is now. I dont know how much I've said before so some may repeats and so sorry for that. |
I used to give the automatic answer to "how would you want to die if you had to pick?" As "starving to death, trapped in room full of food, not knowing if the lock really worked or not". |
Giving up just seems kinda nice |
Even though i know i won't |
And that sucks in itself too |
Suicide has almost always been an option for me and kind of needs to be, and Idk how else to explain that |
You've said so before |
Sorry |
Well |
I don't want to pretend to have clinical reasons why you should reconsider your position |
I only have selfish ones |
Anyway Im here to listen |
If it wasn't for people like you having selfish reasons i would have jumped a long time ago. I hate that but it is what it is |
It is so |
I'm not here for glory you know |
I'm not a super hero |
I'm terribly fond of you |
And despite the pain you carry so evidently |
I want to be there for you |
Prop you up |
You're worth so much more than what they told you |
All of them |
I dont know which all of them you mean. Like, i wish there was a list |
People who are miserable get a lift from dragging the rest of us down. It's perverse |
I think you know there is actually joy in life |
If you can keep it |
I do, kind of |
*have had it |
I get that |
Totally makes sense |
I cant forget so much and i cant move past it either |
And i cant undo it and i cant really run away and i cant fix it |
100% of what you said makes sense |
Then there's only 1 option that ever stays in the mix |
I know when i was this way most recently. At least the time when i was reallllllly bad off, like, didnt leave the bedroom floor for 2 days. Probably longer but for sure 2 |
That was right after we met was it? |
Did i tell you that? |
Yes, I'm just not sure when. I think it was early on, bc we weren't regularly talking yet |
It was literally after i walked in on September 15th |
Oohhhh |
Ok yes |
I don't think i told you that much |
You told me every bit you just said up there |
I literally laid in the dark on the floor in the same clothes |
I meant i didnt think i told you when my floor days were |
Ok right |
Okay wait though, i didn't tell you why |
Now i can't figure out how to make it sensible |
It was good |
That's kind of why |
I mean, fantastic |
And i think nothing in me understood and i kind of short circuited |
But it was also checking and balancing without balancing |
I'm sorry, i don't have to tell you any of this |
Lol you did but it's ok! |
Wait what? |
I'm just saying you just told me things that's all |
Yes |
What would you like to say. Or ask. |
I've been following but I've also been making food so I have not been thinking much about the details. |
I am done with other things though |
And sitting in bed |
So ready to be more responsive |
Ok |
So the 2+ days, that was in response to the time we spent together? |
Yes but also no |
Ah |
That made sense to you ?? |
Not at all |
Lol |
It was kind of like "oh. fuck. What was the rest of the shit before now?" And sad. Because i just didnt know what i didnt know |
And i had this tickered reel playing of time after time after person after this and that and all of these deflations |
And then what? |
I feel like i am being unclear about something but I'm not sure what |
It's ok I think I get it, I am just trying to be careful not to interpolate to much |
No that might actually work well |
You enjoyed our time together |
Yes! |
Aww! Yay! |
But it was way more than just enjoying time |
I wrote with brevity as a goal |
What do you mean with brevity as a goal |
Quite literally trying to write with few words |
Okay. Right. I will try and say what i can |
Whatever you have to say is fantastic |
I was just opening the floor to you babe :) |
There were just so many things. I knew you and your name and stuff about you. You didn't try to hide things and i didn't try to hide much. I didnt hurt after. I slept next to you. I didnt scramble to shower. You didnt cut down any part of good or not good things about me. You went down on me. You kissed me. You contacted me later that day and the day after. You were clean and tasted like nothing. I wasn't intoxicated at all. You didn't expect me to pay for everything pr insist on you doing everything or ask me about if or what i charge. You didn't push. I felt like i could have said no or i could have just frozen and that would have been okay but also wouldn't have been a never again mentality. There was a lot. |
I'm so happy |
But all of these things you did and didnt do tricked my mind into every negative interaction I'd ever had with someone intimately (a lot of the senses of that word, which includes people i never physically did anything with and includes a lot of childhood and the last 3 years and the last 14, respectively and everyone who had their hands in it all) |
Can I ask about that? |
Yes |
I will tell you anything and everything you ever want to know now |
Are you saying you didn't think about all those negative things much before? That this all sort of started flooding out after our night?
|
Hmm |
I think it's good that you poked into this |
Thoughts please |
It's like de gas lighting |
I want to help as much as I can |
I dont think there's a way for you to know how much or even that you have actually very much helped already. Thank you. I dont know why you want to though. And some ways are fantastic for you to help that no one else has ever been willing and it's so weird how that works |
Would it ever make sense to you why i dislike you helping? Could you explain any of that? |
Is that a hypothetical? I don't know how to explain it |
It is hypothetical |
But the first part, do you understand ways that you help that very much no one else can? Or has? |
I understand what you're saying, yes. |
Are you willing to tell me? |
Oh, I don't understand how it works. |
I'm sorry I read that wrong |
No i don't think you read it wrong |
I'm just me lol |
I know i say this a lot, a lot a lot a lot, but you go down on me |
And you kiss me |
And you kiss places on me that are of no benefit to you |
I like kissing you |
Because why? |
Because it thrills me |
I get high kissing you |
And pleasing you |
When do i draw in sharply? |
Usually when I start going for your neck |
Oh yeah, that's accurate |
And then you start asking for more |
Very politely |
How could I resist? |
It's for you |
I want you to have it |
I hear you |
You're right about the latter. You owe me nothing |
I may be selfish, but I'm not greedy lol |
Hopefully expect, maybe? |
Idk how else to say expect |
Presume? |
What, me? |
Everyone |
I think I'm realizing something else rn |
I think you would stop |
And i think i would ask you to |
That probably doesn't make sense to you |
It does actually |
But you seemed to want more, not stop |
Waiting to hear me ask you to stop? |
Right |
When? |
Several times I guess. The first few we were together anyway |
Why did you expect it? Do you remember if there were any specific points? |
There wasn't a specific thing to it. I wasn't sure if I would cause some kind of triggered response by accident |
Right |
That's a real risk |
One that I'm really, really scared of |
It's ok to say no if you need to! |
I dont know when that would be |
When would i say no? |
Im looking for actual answers to this |
In a trigger moment is my main thought |
I don't know what it might be |
I tell you as many as i can |
One sec |
Okay |
Sorry |
I have triggers i dont even know |
That said, i dont think ive ever clicked off in your presence |
A really weird part of me would like to |
2025-01-09T05:47:20 |
Good morning lover! |
Hey, you too! |
null |
How are you baby? |
Nice troupe btw |
Thanks |
Temp is bavk to normalish for now. Sick of that rollercoaster. Boyt to stand, wish me luck! |
Xoxox |
So far success :) |
Though i also hit a goal i think you wont like so much |
Uh oh! What's that |
You've already racked up a lot of licks from me. You might as well keep going :P |
I did no such thing! |
Where and whenceforth are these licks from!?? |
I'll show the laundry list later |
Ill tell you the new addition later then mmmmk |
That'll cost you double dear |
Who decides where these licks might be applied? |
Their intensity? |
Duration? |
What constitutes a lick? |
Completely at my discretion |
Hmmm |
159.8 |
What's that you say? |
Yes indeed |
Hmf |
^hmph |
null |
You guess it I'll tell you more, but i told you |
(But maybe that gets me more licks??) |
You can be sure of that! |
I absolutely know one very specific lick in a specific place that i want |
🤤 |
For real. Guess. |
Oh I remember. You did tell me |
Well then |
You'll find out |
But what if i modified it? |
Well then you'll have to provide the new information innit? |
Oh but i have no idea where your baseline is, so you'll have to remind me of that first |
Heh I will, don't you worry! |
Pleeeeeeeease tell me ?? |
Hmm. Why should I? I think you tell me things and don't always remember it. Now I can look like a mind reader! |
Perhaps |
There's actually probably a decent amount i will not remember having told you, and that's kind of a continual basis |
Not to squash this conversation, but in all seriousness i encourage you to look up c-ptsd and memory (or something to that affect) |
Yes, you actually mentioned that before and I did read up a bit. In all seriousness, I am just teasing you here. I would not take advantage of this |
But I'll still lick ya |
Take advantage? But how? |
Babe don't worry about that, seriously it's ok |
Well it's been a morning of almost crying. Idk what to do here. Ugh. |
Why? What's happening? |
I'm just in a fuckton of pain. And overwhelmed with a lot that i can't figure out. |
I'm sorry babes :( |
Me too |
What do i even do here? |
I just realized i keep holding my breath |
Maybe relaxation techniques? |
How do i do that and answer emails and explain chrojic illness and describe why i might not be able to consistently do 5 mandatory hours of OT |
I'm so sorry |
Oh. Okay, yes, thanks |
But that was a literal question |
My literal answer is take two minutes to try to relax, then deal with one thing at a time. |
You need to try to let go of some of this anxiety |
Literally: close the laptop, turn the phone over, close your eyes, and focus on breathing. Try to clear your mind. It's not going to be easy because you have a cacophony of things going on in there. Try as hard as you can to let them go for a minute. There are different ways but try anything. |
Lmk how you're doing when you can please :) |
I am doing ok i guess |
Any luck with the relaxation? |
Kind of |
Oh good job babe :) |
Hey babe |
Hi! |
How's it going? |
Not bad , just got done with some meetings |
Trying to decide what to do first |
Like what? |
I've got a decent list here |
Thanks for making me write that out lol. I actually needed that |
What would you recommend I start with? |
I have a way that will actually work! Treat it like a march madness bracket |
Deciding between 2 is easier than deciding between 64 |
Y'know that's kinda clever :) |
Lol thanks |
❤️ |
Kiss, tease top down, swirl, quick trip in, spread wide, go slowly back up |
😋 |
Oh, you think you're sooooooo smart |
Lol |
Oh this isn't dance moves? |
Where else could this be? |
You know, some might even be mutual moves |
(One specifically] |
👅😻 |
She licks back now |
O rly? |
There was a very specific step in that though that's very mutual |
Non? Tristesse |
Idk, I thought a few of them are, um, versatile |
Oh you should probably explain them then |
Better start stretching that tongue of yours btw |
Allllllll directions |
Hehe yes ma'am! |
Silver or gold, aesthetically for you? |
You and tea |
Silver all the way |
Me and t? |
T Rex? |
You want a trex? I have. |
Lol what's happening |
I mean, i really do have one in my living room. You havent seen it? I'll snap a pic later |
Got some shopping questions for you |
❤️ to “ I mean, i really do have one in my living room. You havent seen it? I'll snap a pic later |
Yeah? |
https://open.spotify.com/track/12g9IeQzX7xECLNxz8dpb5?si=mWzSVZG3RtaH9vbtNhGTIg |
Yes |
Have you used the tee moo before? |
https://open.spotify.com/track/7aZsTdQGRdbOhxBWA7ZMHv?si=28MIfGG3QHWwf-8xf1Qm3g |
null |
Personally I have never t'mu and I avoid search results from there |
😂 to a photo |
Same, but it curiouses me |
null |
Whatcha doin tonight? |
I know this is weird, can i have your receipts? From anywhere. Everywhere. I swear not to look at actual purchases. I'm trying an experiment |
Localish sex shops you may have been to? |
Decide to put in lingerie of your choosing yet? Site unseen (unsure spelling/homophone) |
What if i gave you a remote control and i wore something functional? |
Talking to David -- hopefully back soon lol |
Omg |
Work in that some chick says her favorite poets are Carl Sandberg and Christina Rosetti. See what he makes of that dichotomy |
Ooooohhh ask AI! |
I'm legit curious |
Maybe ask if Ellen Hopkins counts |
Lolol! |
I hate to tell you but my receipts are pretty boring. Pretty much Kroger only. I haven't been to a sex shop in aaaaaaages |
I should do some longer shopping. I was thinking about that this morning actually |
Lingerie, not longer lol |
I still want them. Points! |
So, venturing out at all later or nah? |
What do you usually get at Fresh Thyme that other places lack? |
I also have a super ultra cool new thing or several taking up space in your bag |
I have something fun for you/us! Legit. Local. |
null |
You could walk |
2025-01-09T17:20:13 |
Ok sorry the profit sharing muse called and I'm signing off now |
Finis! |
For now lol |
Off work or off me? |
Off work |
On you |
All you |
Mmmmmm okay! |
I'll stand plenty naked so you can quick defile me behind the front door |
Omw! Lol |
I wish |
Okay but i realllllllly want you, so...... |
Thirsty Thursday eh? |
Where's your L |
Ooh! I could! |
Eff if i kmow |
Lol |
Busy his ass for not being home on time and make him cook for you |
Teach that boy some manners |
I could use your help finding a purchase please |
Ok |
You're looking for food? |
Questions from earlier still stand |
Nah, i have food |
Oh crap I forgot questions |
Wait so what are you looking for? |
A guided breathing, take a break, desktop (smol) light. I need it 5o be cute in my mindset but not icky kid cute and not cheesy meditative |
I'm not sure how all those words go together |
Examples? |
https://www.amazon.com/mindfulness-breathing-light/s?k=mindfulness+breathing+light&rh=p_85%3A2470955011&page=3 |
But, like, cute? |
Aesthetically not stupid |
I'll be darned. |
Ty |
:) |
Imma fix my own problems |
I might be straight up crazy but at least i try to quell it |
Hey that's excellent! I didn't know these devices existed |
I literally have 10 lamps in my office. It's bright. |
I don't handle that well some days |
Sure , sure |
So anyway, we're picking me a light thing |
Yes |
MARZIUS Flower Crystal Ball Night Light,2.4 inch Glass Ball Night Lamp with Woodern Base (Dandelion) |
What do you think about this one? |
Oh not actually the right thing |
It's pretty, but it doesnt seem to accomplish what I'm looking for |
Yeah sorry. Sneaky old beelzezos |
Look what I found on Etsy: |
There are a few near ones on Etsy |
*neat |
I buy two things at Fresh Thyme: whole bean coffee and their store brand real soap. I get other things there sometimes, but I'm usually after one of the above |
Actually that reminds me- |
Nooch? |
Ok any guidance you can provide? Are the Etsy ones too... What? Busy? Sharp? Weird? |
Or are you racist against ppl from estykan? |
The light thing i want helps you count breathing and such. It's more of a gadget than anything lamp-y |
Ok were the Amazon gadgets closer? |
Yes |
👍 to “ Yes ” |
The ones i showed you |
Thx |
They look obnoxious to me though |
Yes I agree |
And it looks like an airport hanger |
I think we are miscommunicating |
Ok |
null |
I want that to be the primary function |
Similar, different product |
null |
So it doesnt have anything to do with being a light source, really |
Thank you |
https://www.amazon.com/s?k=mindfulness+breathing+visual+indicayor&crid=2Q4B2514T36A4&sprefix=mindfulness+breathing+visual+indicayor%2Caps%2C123&ref=nb_sb_noss |
So everything in that link provides that basic functionality but they all look dumb |
I will be afk for a bit |
I pulled up an item that's basically a pulse oximeter with only a pulse display. What do you think of that idea (or even a legit pulse-ox device) |
I have a pulse ox, thanks though |
Yes and? |
Idk what I'm being proposed? |
Use your pulse ox? |
Fair warning i am likely to be mean rn. I dont intend it, esp not for you, but cant really help it |
How would a pulse ov help? |
null |
Idk , you decide |
Hmm. Idk. I really dont understand how awareness of my pulse would help with intentional, mindful breathing |
Ok I'll move on |
No it's okay. I appreciate you trying, thank you |
I think what i ideally want doesnt exist |
And i know i am exasperating you |
Ok, thanks babe |
Im really sorry |
It's ok thank you |
null |
I was thinking of that exact item pictured less than a week ago and thought that would make a good Reddit post |
And I scroll and here's this pic just now |
Idk what it is? |
It's the hi-beam switch on a 1970s ish car or older. It was a foot switch you pressed on, but you could kinda stomp on it too |
Oh weird! |
I'm excited that you are looking for such help ! Did things improve for you today? |
Not really. But not really worse. I mean until now. |
Well darn it |
Hey! |
Could you use canisters of some sort? |
Probably yea! |
Hurray! |
Sounds good so far. Would they hold, say objects like tape rolls? Bigger or smaller? |
Roughly the size of candle jars l9l |
Cool, cool all good ty! |
I want to make them 100% what you'd want |
They'll be foodsafe, if that matters |
Cool, cool. And glass you said? |
And wherefore the pleasure for me? |
Que? |
How did I earn this gift? |
I guess i kinda like you |
But it's a gift.... never earned |
Awws :) |
What did i do to earn such massive everything you've given me? |
Haha! |
Tbh |
Escape the zoo for a hot minute |
I still kind of don't understand this act. As in act of kindness |
Yay! |
I dont know yet what to give you that might approach matching |
There is no tit for that darling |
Dammit autocorrect |
Hahahahahaha |
Lol |
But i want to |
Glass candle grenades! |
Not grenades, silly boy |
https://open.spotify.com/track/3p9OGmeESADZmeJEHUVnXV?si=mSFBm9HgSDyN14wdCsczJQ |
There is so! |
Witch shirts and weird goldfish things? Rolly stool? |
This is one of my faaaaaavorites from my teens and twenties |
Basically defined my HS gf |
But I've successfully disassociated the two |
Sorry that was awkward af! |
Nahnahnah |
Why did it define her? |
Anyway I really mean the music is the music with me through that relationship. It was with both of us , but I was obsessive about it in was that she just didn't music that way. |
Lol I hope that makes sense. |
Yes |
I music that way |
And I amassed their vast catalog in multiple forms |
There are a few songs that will essentially paralyze me. That i know of |
Including buying lps contemporaneously, which were only imports back then |
Right right |
Contemporaneously. |
? |
I have a few as well |
Language girl |
Paralyze you in a good or less than good way? |
Either |
Some are biased up or down, others can take me whichever direction I feel that day |
Many are just very, very sad songs |
But not all |
And hey! |
I need to stay on the right side of that ship atm |
With |
Yes |
Are you okay? |
Yes yes ofc |
Just being dramatic |
Or stupid |
You choose |
Ofc means nothing to me in this subject, sir |
Beg pardon |
Dude |
Not what i meant but mmmmmk |
That consult on Arabic you showed me? |
Yeah |
You have mad skills |
Thanks babe |
Yeah |
That was one section |
Mad |
😀 |
Lol |
I am proud of you |
I keep telling people I'm not stupid |
For real! |
I told you i kinda wrote someone's phd for them |
I do not speak Arabic either |
Yes you did! |
Nuts |
ASU l9l |
How is this possible |
Whaddya mean ASU |
I mean that's where he got his doctorate |
Ohh lol |
I know people there |
Lol |
Hey Imma figure out feed my face here for a minute... * 30 or so |
Might be pauses |
So.... I'm like, wicked smart sometimes |
I just wanted to acknowledge that |
Yes, yes you are! |
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Lolz |
You eat? |
Yep! |
I'm all stuffed |
Weird huh |
Yeah. Id much rather be the stuffed one |
Are going to say something naughty |
Well look at that |
Like a sausage in a dinner roll |
How do you like your gravy ma'am |
Overflowing? |
Lol what a strange selection of stickers for a search |
Dang wtf |
Scrolling |
Scrolling |
All together now! |
Scrolling |
C'mon, people! |
O hai |
Scrolling scrolling scrolling |
Sorry, i am about spent. Got a little ultra high without realizing or shopping ane i need to rest |
No idea what i meant by shopiny |
No worries babes! |
Get your sleep |
Yous toos! |
May you have a good sleep |
My precious one |
You, too |
Thx |
Beaux reves de moi |
Entre nous |
Et toi! |
Fuckkkk i am outta my head |
Sleepses babe |
2025-01-10T06:06:33 |
Good morning sweet lover! |
Hey, you too! |
Did you have a good sleep? |
I think so, lol |
Same , same |
Working? |
Yeah |
Should be pretty chill today 🤞 |
Kinda same! |
Have you gotten a chance to peruse any literary materials santa left with you? |
A little bit! The anatomy book eap |
Especially |
Did you ever go through the green bag? |
Yes! |
Ahh lol |
Somehow this green bag has miraculously filled again |
Heh! |
Was there anything especially you wanted to draw jy attention to? |
Omg please come give me eyedrops |
I need them too! |
I have them, just struggling with application |
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Can i call off because i have a sleeping kitten on me? |
Yep, the Americans with Cat Upon Them act protects this right |
Correct 👌 |
Did you wver liaten to my favorite sounddtrack? Well, it's at the top of the list anyway. Fave is too specific |
Which one is it? |
Garden State |
I don't think I did |
You should |
👍 to “ You should ” |
And maybe imagine the lens kf a coming of age story with some mind altering substances |
Gracie abrams too. I think you might like her. Or imagine she's me ;) |
ooOoo |
?? |
Well you're cuter than her |
Naw |
I am kinda cute today though. Thought it might help me wake up lol |
https://open.spotify.com/track/0ND8rF8oirMXtE59n585P6?si=QjMwPts-RM-ZIkwkPtPoVA |
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Cat calls!!! |
The hair adornment is quite fetching :) |
Yes you are very cute 🥰 |
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Lulz |
So true |
One of many great reasons for aldi! |
You are staying home all day? |
Good point! |
I'll wander up to the grocery store |
Haven't thought much about else |
Yep yep |
What's on the grocery list today? |
Cat olives |
Cat olives, eh? |
Yep the little green ones with pimentos |
I have two beasts that looooooove them |
Oh for real? |
Rama is nuts about them |
There may be some here in a green bag.... |
Is hilarious |
Oh? |
Haha, yeah |
What about teensy tiny bottles? Do you keep essentialy oils or something that you could use them for? |
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Like, ultra small |
I do sometimes and I bought a case of little bottles, but these are nice too! |
I am shaking a ton. I have no idea why. This does not feel good. Just another day, right? |
My shaky baby :( |
Do you take vitamin supplements? |
I think just vitamin d. I have to be careful with what i take. I also take iron+C but that's a mineral |
Ah yeah, that's fair |
Like, even turmeric was a no |
Oh damn |
Wow turmeric huh. Can you eat it in food? |
I just wonder about your nervous system |
Yeah just not in supplement concentration |
What do you wonder about it? I might have actual answers already |
This does not feel good mentally or physically, whatever is happening |
Idk maybe you have aliens laying eggs in your body |
I wish I could help you rule out causes of these episodes |
Right. Same. |
2025-01-10T12:46:41 |
Aren't you done pretending to talk to the smart girl at work yet? |
No, but I need a little break! |
She knows too much! |
Sounds cute too |
Tiny hub photo. Looks cute AF though |
O rly? |
Idk... Seems pretty nice |
Probably rudely generous |
2025-01-10T15:39:18 |
Hey babes |
Bii |
Boo |
Bebe |
Why on earth did you and i know about an issue (and i knew at least some of the root of the issue) before the director did?? |
But also, make this stopppppppppp |
Its not as uncommon as you might think |
Im still just bitter |
Anyway |
What are you bringing me for snax?? |
Well there's me |
Pile o'drugs too plz |
See teams for reference lol |
We shoppin? |
Winks! |
Ummmm |
Seriously. |
Giant. Check! |
And no sour! |
Did you order your af holiday gift? |
Today's the deadline |
I did |
Im excited for my new charging bulletin boatd or whatever |
Where you at? |
Coolidge & lake Lansing |
Ummmm |
I have a spouse here |
And am still officially working |
But yes to drugs and snax |
Tell him to get lost lol |
I would if i saw him |
I'm actually at Kroger mow |
Now |
Meow |
Lemme guess |
Chips? |
Yep! |
Cat olives? |
sherBERT |
You stop that |
And I have to go to Meijer pharmacy |
I should be home by Sunday lol |
Why the meijer? |
Bc that's where her Rx are |
Gods help us all |
I miss my rite aid |
Anything decent? |
Just norco |
Zoloft lol |
It's so dead in here. It's weird |
I wish i could see you!!! |
That said.... |
Guess what's a week away |
The disappearance of my family |
Are we going for a true crime, rom com, dark com, or smut titled work here? |
Hmm, I'm not married to on idea |
Do you have any better idea of the departure day yet? |
Lol Sunday should be it fingers crossed |
So like 9 days |
Yeah |
She needs Saturday to rest up because we have show on Friday |
Yichhh |
Lol |
Decide on any sort of destination yet? |
Not yet |
I have been wondering though |
Any idea which days/dates might work better? |
And short answer is no |
Checking out... Gimme a few |
So did L hit the road yet? |
Lol I'm halfway home and just remembered Meijer pharmacy |
OMG I'm seventh in line |
Awww! Hit the road for...? |
Idk I heard Beasley is throwing a parry |
Party |
Any reason will do |
If that was true, I'm sure hed have been there setting up |
Lol |
How bout those drugs-n-snax? |
I'm in the damn queue woman |
Whaddya want here lol |
Good. Plenty of plannin tine! |
I mean i kinda want you [every preposition] me but whatever |
Yummmmmm |
Suddenly I like prepositions |
I like conjunctions too |
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Good point |
Aww! |
💖 |
Would it be weird to overnight somewhere on the 19th? (Sunday) |
Otherwise the next weekend is probably best |
That was actually kind of my plan |
Cool, cool |
It appears I am open those days |
Maybe I'll snag the next Wednesday off |
Which? |
22? |
Yeah |
Oh lovely |
Oh I'm planning a work out |
Work life balance you know |
Lol |
Did you have an idea of where for Sunday, if the stars align? |
Not offhand |
Is a star ceiling projector too juvenile for you? |
Impractical more than anything |
Gotcha |
Imma also need a list, btw |
List? |
OMG 25 minutes in this line |
https://www.menshealth.com/sex-women/a19532949/kama-sutra-sex-positions/ |
Helpful? |
Finally at the window |
Lololol |
OMG on my way home fr |
Duuuuuude |
Whassup |
You dislike the reading material? :( |
Oh, I already forgot lol |
Forgot....? |
Sorry I'm working on it! |
But what do you think you're working on? |
Bettering myself by reading about sex |
You? |
Wondering what you would do if you were me and also looking for sex betterment |
I'd start by getting a willing partner |
Someone fun to work with that you care about and cares about you |
Then watch porn for 2 two hours! |
Or just get naked an |
Wait a sec |
Are you insinuating something |
Took some rx. Hopefully will feel better soon |
🇨🇿 |
Omg |
🇨🇿M8 |
Lol |
But in all seriousness, i want to be absolutely everythinh you could want |
That is very generous! |
Maybe a little selfish too |
Hee hee! |
And i need you to be selfish too |
I shall draft a demand letter and send it to you forthwith |
Are there still things you havent done and want to? |
Oh sure! |
You told me one not long ago |
Idk if it's physically ok for you though |
With your arm |
Did I ask you about physical or vocational therapy tldor that? |
*for that |
How is it? |
Circulation |
Strength |
What is it we might want to do? |
Your sexual future depends on honest answers |
Idk what you called it |
But involved basically inverting you for my extreme pleasure between your legs with my face |
Or you can just you know ride my face |
I |
Oops |
Both of those are extremely doable even right this minute |
Idk if i explained the first one accurately, since you think i need arm strength for it |
My shoulders are kind of on the bed, my ass against the upper part of your chest, and it's a kitty cat buffet spread open for you at face dipping level |
Yesss that's the one I was thinking of |
So, put that on the list please! |
My arms need no strength for that |
If you were going to be completely dominant, what would you want? |
Well idk might involve a whole story or plot or something |
I just wanna have all kinds of fun with you and get out of my head so I can just show you , and do things in the moment |
Yes please! I really really want to get drunk with you |
Yay! Yeah! We should do all the things |
And if you want to plan |
Plan on different wearables |
I love girly and I think you are cute AF that way |
I have a weird lust for you to make a calculated move with me at some point too |
So sexy bra & panties are cool |
Panties dropping or to the side |
I'm sorry you said something? |
No no, you continue |
My hot little gf here |
Well then idk if you can handle what else i was going to ask for |
Oh I'm just getting started |
Your turn |
Not in a mean way, but i want you to want and need me so hard that your thrust goes hard enough to take my breath away in a sharp, gutteral inhale of a gasp |
Ty I will definitely remember this 😊 |
Does it appeal to you or not so much? |
Oh yeah. I will make this a goal |
Your turn |
Do you have a see-through top, bra, or similar? |
Yes, to me |
I want to see your boobs |
Somewhat clearly |
And not just naked |
correct |
Don't overthink it :) |
I think i can make this work with what i have |
Or i get new things |
I'm sure you have it covered |
What would gratify you the best? |
Like I said, don't overthink it. A sheer lingerie top or gown would suffice |
In general. If i were to focus just on you and your pleasure |
What if i change my mind before then? |
You can always change your mind |
Something in mind? |
I love the way you suck me |
Starts with you kneeling and playing with me with your mouth and hands |
Make this comfortable any way you like, to excess even |
Ohhhh fuck |
Get me good and going hard |
Then I think I'm just gonna lay you right back there |
Use your pillows for a butt reat |
Rest |
And have at you |
Unless .. |
Ohhh. My. Goddddf. |
See well maybe |
Oh I know! |
From there you sit on the edge of the bed, first |
You lean back and lift your legs and guess what? |
Dang I'm getting wiggly lol |
Tell me what happens next |
I think at this point it's actually good your panties are still on |
But no matter, I'm going to just pry them aside a bit |
Lol I've leaked in me knickers! |
Much more than I thougt |
Keep going babe. I need to know what you do to me next |
Do you? |
I mean I do , you |
At some point |
Y |
E |
S |
But that's in the next episode. Only $5 |
Nope! Wait! Sorry |
You have the promo code so it's free! |
Ok so |
I've been having fun , probably licking you silly, panties aside (literally) |
But I think now I should like the panties off |
Don't you? |
I do |
Im very surprised you havent just fucked the life out of me. Lifted me from when i was sucking you off on my knees, spun me halfway round, then pounder me on the edge of the bed |
All in good time |
I have one more for you |
Yes!? |
A "treat especiale" |
A piece of resistance, you might say |
Oh wait we're not there yet |
Ouai, d'ac... |
Sorry |
Back up |
Yes indeed |
So up go your legs and off go the panties |
But I'm not done licking you yet |
I'll rock your hips back a bit further and trace my way from your vagina down |
And slowly lol |
Not wkowly |
Oh noes! |
Mmm? |
And lick your petite asshole |
Fuccckkkkkkkkk |
Im breathing so hard |
Had myself going for a minute! |
And I will probably take my time here because this is new to me |
And maybe play with your pussy at the same time |
Do you fancy double insertion? |
That is to say, anal and vaginal |
I fancy everything with you |
Heh! |
I admit I'm not exactly close to wanting this |
But porn ... Has left me with this uncommitted opinion |
Sometimes it looks truly awful, and other times truly hot |
And part of my lack of understanding is my lack of understanding anal sex |
Just to lay the cards out lol |
Youve felt me. I dont think doubling up is possible |
Yeah, you're right really. You don't have a lot of room |
Sorry, love |
That's fine, no don't even |
It was just a question, not a desire |
Maybe double play is more accurate |
I hope so :) |
Well at some point I'm going to want to feel your tits |
In my hands |
And in my mouth |
Again |
And if I'm still hard I would ask |
I do plan on trying to get on top again |
If I can make love you right now |
Yay! |
Hop on anytime! |
You plan on making love to me though |
I just realized I've been smiling for a while and didnt need to take Ativan after all |
Yay! 🎉 |
I would like possible some other things once you finish your train of thought |
Oh I know! |
Now you need to flip over on your back and head just over the edge of the |
Where was this again? |
Uber backseat? |
Maybe 🤷♀️ |
Moms living room? |
What are you asking? |
Nvm |
Nooooooo!!! |
Actually |
Could be your bed |
It isnt too far from the realm of possibility for you and i to actually fuck in her living room someday |
Lol |
Mall bathroom? |
Her house is just over in brighton |
Aeroplane wc? |
I can't wait for warm weather |
Bookstacks |
Like I just want to roll out a blanket in a field and love ya |
Would you? |
Heck yeah! |
But.... how? |
Grassy ass secluded meadows are the bomb |
All you need is a CD couple blankets |
Also helps to avoid buggy areas and such |
In daylight? |
Yeahhhhh |
Good out of the way woodsy places are soooo nice |
In the sweet summertime |
And honestly |
In late May |
Lol |
You lol |
But I will show you |
😊 |
Maybe but this month lol |
Maybe not |
When you've been inside of me, have you also used your hand to play with me? |
A little bit, yea |
Yes |
But I think 80% of the time we are face to face |
Why is that notable? Couldnt it be all 3? |
It's hard to finger you when we're smashed together! |
Oh. Right. |
I wish I had another hand and another mouth |
I would just devour you |
Am i correct that i dont let you play with my clit so much? |
I would say you've called limits a few times, yes. You are very sensitive no surprise! |
But I get to play plenty |
I am understanding the pressure tolerance |
When for example |
I use my tongue |
Idk it's like I somehow sneak up on you because I might have been trying with your clit for a little bit |
And then you make fun noises |
And ask funny questions |
It's adorable |
Absolutely adorable |
Wait what ?? Questions like how? |
Oh yeah |
You start asking |
What |
You don't always get the full question out |
I get confused lol |
It's adorable |
Then I'm guessing not everyone does that |
You're writhing at this point |
No I never had a girl do that :) |
Aww |
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Aww ty! |
I really dont know how you do what you do where exactly i like it though |
I'm zeroing in, no worries |
10/10 will do again |
Lol |
But I'm correct that my spots are different than most |
Certainly different than who I've known |
With caveat for small sample size |
Well not to slut shame myself, but based on feedback I've heard and your sample size, there's a solid consensus |
Yay me! |
I think i can kind of tell you how it's weird |
Lol |
My points of personal interest are closer to the entryway. Right? |
To be certain |
Can you reach the deep inside with your fingers? |
Only just and only with just the right alignment |
But I think I just barely grazed your cervix once |
I know the spot lol |
And you're it |
Now you're making me all squirmy again lol |
Yeah I love exploring your pussy for things that you like |
Cause I'll do it all day for ya babe |
We need to purge your brain or all these fear and anxiety hormones |
Give you a nice dose of |
Exciting |
And calm |
And safe |
I do have a select few more anxieties, sex-wise |
Anything you want to talk about? |
I would much rather you just guess them |
I feel like they're standard but maybe not? |
You would 😆 |
I don't want to guess. Our past experiences are so far apart |
I mean in mind, not in time |
These aren't mindfuckeries. Literal embarrassment concerns |
Aww |
You won't laugh at me? |
If i tell you |
My goodness no |
One thing has happened once to me and it was with you and i had to literally ask someone wtf had happened |
The other concern is that if i let myself go full force orgasm, i already feel like me vag will turn inside out. You know this. What if it's so intense that all the other contents of my body explode everywhere? I would literally die being so embarrassed |
As much as you feel this, I think it's a trick of the mind |
I kind of know based on a lot of other things about me that it wont happen but still |
I hate the idea of me being gross to you |
It hasn't happened, I'm not worried about it baby |
I'm not worried about it if it does happen either |
I understand |
It's terribly embarrassing |
I will try and trust that |
Do you even know what my first point was referencing? |
No |
Uggghhhhhh |
There's a word it |
I know |
I dislike the word |
Some words are just sharp |
I actually did not notice, though I've experienced many times |
It's nbd |
Seriously |
Anything else? |
Have you had this issue before me? |
Issue is bad word really |
Those are the major ones that would embarrass me |
Yeah exactly |
That's kind of a multi answer |
Not really |
Ok fair |
No worries |
I dont know if you know what i mean though |
You know, it's nbd really |
I always want to tell you things |
I know :) |
And you also like closure on questions and explanations |
We still have many open topics from when i couldnt sleep |
Lol dang it |
Anyway, it's sort of happened before but i didnt recognize it because things were hard and fast and a lot else was going on |
I say |
We have a smoke |
And a libation |
And a solid afternoon/evening reserved |
For us |
What do you think of this idea |
I thought that was already the plan, actually |
There are many hotels on the Westside by the highway |
I'll book Sunday night |
We can go to Horrocks and get goodies, and then have fun |
And have a bit of food |
And go again! |
Lol |
I can book this time |
But maybe we wait til we're more sure |
Up to you |
You know you can drink while you shop there |
Yeah! Is it so Sunday night? |
I think sunday after noon |
Yeah I'm good with the plan |
I take too much from you now anyway |
May have to fz you soon just fyi |
Where's your fam btw? |
Do you mean the wife upstairs or the fam in Arkansas? Or something else |
Rlh |
She's out of the way in the usual places |
Omg |
Has she ever had a job? Im not trying to be mean. But, like, what was her life plan? |
She did work after babies grew a bit. About 10 years, little more maybe |
She stressed about work a lot actually |
But back injury |
I don't care what you ask, it's fine |
What did she do? For work |
Are you going to be upset if i ask things? You said it was fine. I know what "it's fine" means in my world |
Literally it's ok |
Now let me think |
Long time ago |
East Lansing vet clinic |
Was 7-11 |
Worked there for few years, was friends with owner |
This is same 7-11 |
I used to ride my bicycle to even as a 7 year old. I did not have to cross busy streets! Which is remarkable considering the separation |
Well whatever happened and I think then she worked at Preuss |
Which at that time was located at Haslett & Okemos roads, kitty corner from the present day fire station |
Few years |
Preuss |
Was an intense matriarchy at the time |
ffs |
We kinda knew the guys |
Older generation, like me |
What do you call her at home if you have to address her? |
Hun |
Or honey |
What's the best thing you know about me? |
Oh my what a question |
Do you love me? |
Do you remember why I bought this? |
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I do love you |
Color coding aomething |
Yes that makes sense |
Cord wrapping? |
Do you know? |
I didn't quite understand this substance |
Aquariuming? |
It's cool. Sticky tape you know |
Maybe? |
Hmm |
Do you have an answer? |
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Kind of unpleasant actually |
It likes skin a bit too much |
Do not re recommend |
Ohhh |
I have silks for that |
Oh I didn't necessarily mean to imply anything ma'am |
Answer the questjon please |
Which? |
Answer? |
Tape? The big secret? |
What is the best thing you know about me? |
Oh lol |
I have follow ups too. You should be able to guess some |
How can I pick a best |
This article does not do the question justice, nor the answer |
Okay then |
You are the perfect size and shape |
You have a darling eastern euro face |
You are vulnerable, but open about it, at least to me |
That's very sweet |
Hnm |
Hmmm mmm |
It is okay to have more than one |
The most unpleasant thing I "know" is how much you have suffered without respite, and I worry your spirit is very fragile, and I can only do so much but I want to do more |
Parts of that statement stand out to me |
It's my internalized understanding |
You said "'know'c. Why like that? |
Why do you say suffered? |
And you say i have a spirit |
Sure , I can explain all |
Scare quotes |
Suffered |
Spirit |
Like a poor baby flower |
That got trampled a lot |
And really smashed and kicked around |
Gross |
Sorry |
But still life wants to live and keeps going |
That is the sweetest and truest analogy ive heard |
And I waltz in at this awkward moment for you and I just want you |
I want you to know that you matter |
I appreciate you |
Sniffles |
I love you |
So just be ok |
And I'll do anything to help |
Anything I can |
I literally cannot understand where all of the care from you comes from |
Some part of my psyche wanted to raise a girl. To be strong, and smart, and in control of her destiny and her dreams |
And in rl I needed a girlfriend |
I'm a fucking mess lol |
Ironically, Psyche is a girl. And her love is cupid. God of love, destiny, etc |
Im the mess here, doll |
You're the doll here, babe |
Would you know what i meant if i said i had imagined a more litetal meaning to that question? |
Well that all came from the same place |
Brb babe! |
Hello! |
Hi! |
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2025-01-11T06:36:25 |
Hey love baby! |
2025-01-11T08:58:15 |
Hiii!!!! |
How are you? |
So far so good:) |
That's good |
Plans? |
Must wake up first :) |
How now spirit, wither wander you?? |
Good questions. Good questions |
I will be unavailable for chatting much of the day |
Alright |
Watcha doing? |
Baby non bio niece's first birthday party. In the northlands |
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That be her |
Ah yes! You did mention |
Aww |
I am literally gifting her a bookshelf, book tent, books, and plush book characters |
Oh my what a to-do! |
Good on you! |
Lemme see if i can find a pic of the bookcastle |
Cannae find atm |
Ignore the grime - do i look chonksy in this? |
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No, you look great! |
Aww thx! |
Little mermaid shirt lol |
OMG I didn't catch that lol |
I need to clean your mirror! |
Fo sho! |
I have an idea with it too ; |
Oh? I wonder if it's the same idea I have |
Pray tell! |
It would give us nice views of us lovin on each other :) |
2025-01-11T17:46:32 |
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OMG the cake!!! |
Lol yep |
We cute tho |
Yes you are! |
How you? |
I'm good :) |
It was good 😊 |
Headed home now |
How about your day? |
It's been pleasant |
My catnap this afternoon really made me feel relaxed |
More so than I expected |
So I have a smile on my face |
2025-01-11T21:18:28 |
Yeah? Any reason? |
Just got home. Quite the long haul day |
My poor baby |
No reason here. Just chill af |
Kisses for your neck xxx |
2025-01-11T22:41:59 |
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2025-01-12T08:06:30 |
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2025-01-12T09:29:38 |
Good morning babe! |
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How you? |
Pretty good:) |
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Awwws! You caught a grayger! |
How was your yesterday? What'd you do? |
Or she caught me? |
Mostly caught up on some domestic chores (between naps lol) |
Lol cool |
Oh let's see I did a few loads of laundry, cleaned the cat food bench and bowls, vacuumed my hobby area |
I was going to mop but it got kinda late |
Good for you on the cleaning! |
Are you ever able to go to grand ledge? Like, on a specific errand? |
Could be maybe |
Should be a yes lol |
How's arkansas looking? |
Same I guess |
Last night she asked me if I was aware she's going to Arkansas |
Which means she forgot when she told me a week ago and forgot when I asked about it on Thursday |
Oof |
No shade, but found that interesting |
Why? |
It's kind of unusual for her to forget something like this |
Idk |
Oh |
The itinerary will literally come down to how she feels on Saturday |
Gotcha |
She's smoking a lot of weed. Not really new. But that plus the increased Zoloft I guess has an affect |
Is she high all the time? |
Kinda, I guess |
She tries to keep the Norco to a minimum |
Hmm |
She chooses strains that are recommended for pain and such |
It kinda works |
Do you think similar might qork for me? My confusion is because i need to function & work better for mwle, but the kind of getting high element is counterlogical |
It is antithetical to working, at least I think it is |
That said, my friend from HS swears it helps him focus on coding. He's a PhD in Mathematics and is literally designing software to model cellular processes as part of cancer research |
Huge brain |
I should try *something* |
Sorry to dip oit, but i will be afk for a while. Gotta phone charge |
Ok babes np |
Text all you'd like, I'll reply when i can |
🇨🇿 |
Still topics from a few days ago waiting on you! |
2025-01-12T13:04:27 |
Heh you might regret that reminder |
My feelings about self-harm (1): Confusion and sadness are the dominant feelings. It also scares me. And this precedes you; I first learned about self-harm among Millennials and GenZ when my non-bio niece in AR made a mess of herself. She's morbidly obese, grew up in abject poverty, had a horrible mother (who died young from complications of diabetes). Her father is the sick brother-in-law the fam is trekking to AR to visit. (She's fine now. Still 400+ lbs, but tackling life successfully.) Then I learned my closest coworker was a cutter. He shared it with me. I don't ask about it. You explained it to me in a way that helps me understand why you did similar things, but it makes me very uneasy. I don't want to hide from the knowledge, but I don't know what to do with it as someone who cares about you.
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Mike treachery (2, 3): I'm not super clear on this, but it seems like he liked you but wanted to keep you at arm's length. Idk why. It is surprising to me how long you two kept this going. And he didn't jump your bones? Guy's either got a lot of self-control, or he didn’t actually care (and I don't believe the latter, based on your story).
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Job satisfaction (4): I can only relate my own experience here. I do the extras not because I want to be recognized, but because my satisfaction comes from a happy customer and a job well done in my own view. I am always my harshest critic. Recognition is nice and all, but I've found that few actually understand what it takes to do the thing worthy of being recognized. I don't care about that. And by that I don't mean "I'm bitter and dislike that people don't get it". I mean "My customer is happy. I know I did a good thing. The fools around me are content to do minimum necessary and that's their loss." I legit don't worry about what others think any more. Life is too short.
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What sexual gratification looks like (5): Kinda funny, but as I'm writing this I realize my answer for this is kind of similar to the job satisfaction one. I know I did a good job if my customer is happy and I'm happy with how I serviced her. And in many ways, that's good enough for me. I suppose some of what I feel here is learned behavior because I've spent a long time having vanilla sex and, you know, after 30 years you might just get to a point where this is normal. I do have fantasies that are out of that box but in the moment I think I default to what I know. And I'm ok with that. I'm not saying I don't want to try other things. You know how I say I need to get out of my head? This is what I'm talking about. How to escape the learned behavior and try something new? This is not a well-developed skill for me.
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Phd guy (6): I don't know enough about this relationship to give you any feedback. All I can gather is the guy has kinks, but I don't know what he did or didn't do that left you upset.
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2025-01-12T15:34:13 |
null |
Awww |
Chez ma mere maintenant a demain |
Oh! D'accord ttyl |
No, totally fine |
Was just busy til now |
Didnt even have time to read your replies yet |
Heya |
Hieee :) |
How are you? |
I'm good |
Chillin |
How is your day? |
It's.... okay |
Awws sounds like nap time:) |
2025-01-12T19:38:14 |
Hiiiii |
Oh hi there |
Que pasta? |
Feel like the life is draining out of me. Nbd. |
Heyy! |
Not much |
You did what with the records? |
Cleaned (ultrasonic) and listened |
Ah, okay. Did you see what you'd sent though? |
Oh haha! No I didn't sold dem. And I dinna shoot the deputy |
You hates the classical though? |
No no, not hate. |
Unfamiliar but receptive |
In some ways |
Hmm ok |
Think about next weekend much at all? |
I think about it a lot :) |
Oh? Comme quoi? |
I just hope everyone has their shit together and GTFO lol |
They're all going to be dragging ass Saturday because metal show |
And RLH takes a week to pack and never gets it done |
And I think I should get some Arkansas hills points for what I just spun there ... That is totally something I can hear her mom saying 🤣 |
Lolz |
Assuming they do gtfo? |
On-time departure 10am. Could be late up to 1400 |
Or delayed to next day, "early" this time |
Assume you have me and we have a room |
Then? |
In all likelihood |
I'm going to seduce you right then and there, starting with kissing your face and your neck |
You wanna go fast or slow? |
Slow at first |
Then fast |
How do you want me? |
Imma start with you on your back on the bed |
And at some point, have you get on hands and knees at the edge of the bed |
And how else? |
We could throw some towels on a chair. I'll take you forwards and backwards on The arm if we can make it work |
And it doesn't destroy your back |
And |
I definitely need you to ride my face |
I'm game for all that |
Pound you over the edge of the bed |
Howso? |
You lean forward over the edge |
Hmm |
Yum town either way |
Oh i see |
I have a silly question |
Go for it! |
Have you eaten me when you weren't on the bed with me? |
I'm thinking not |
I should like to try it with you standing |
Why standing? |
I had an alternate idea |
Yeah what's that? |
You on your knees on the floor (if you can, we can pad you with a pillow), me with my legs spread open on the edge of the bed |
Oh yes that is definitely on the menu :) |
Was it before? Have you done this? |
I'm not sure |
All right, then |
Babe I'm fading out |
Sweet dreams lover |
Xoxox |
Ditto babe |
null |
2025-01-13T06:30:16 |
Good morning babe! |
2025-01-13T08:21:29 |
❤ |
How are you? |
Not too bad |
Yeah latet |
Is everything ok? |
Yeah. Had a u of m appt. Sorry, thought you knew |
Ok! I probably forgot :) |
How are you? |
All is well. Slow day at work! |
Good for you! |
Not much at all actually |
What's going on today? |
Sure not much. RLH had a psych appointment earlier. I reckon she is out shopping now. Cats are catting around. |
It is a terrrrrrrrible day out |
Where's she shopping, |
? |
Beats me |
She's been gone for nearly 3 hours though. |
I cannot stop yawning! |
That's a long time |
How bout you just disappear for those hours?? |
Oh she's probably at the nail place kitty corner from Walgreens |
I'd love to disappear lol. Finance guy wants to talk in a bit |
Which guy? Lemme make a call lol |
Accounting Maaaan! |
Lol |
But seriously, who? |
Sam Gustafson |
And special guests Kim Arnold and Laurie Vujnov |
Ew no. You're on your own |
Lol |
I'm just there to shrug my shoulders |
All I have to say is "the data have spoken" |
What do they want to know? |
Tell them to check our google reviews if they have questions |
Chez moi |
"Why is profit sharing 2 mil higher than projected?" |
Oh. Well. That's.... weird |
Ask chatgpt? |
2025-01-13T13:50:57 |
Howd it go? |
Lol it was fine |
Ooh? |
Okay but wait |
We dislike when we think it's going to cost X and find out it actually costs X + 4 million lol |
Explain like I'm 5 and it's cake |
You work hard and buy a cake. |
Who bought the cake, me or my employer? I want the cake. I worked for the cake. Employer should share the cake. |
Are you busy all the nights this week? |
Dough know |
You? |
The cake (profit) is something you worked hard for and earned. You knew you were going to have to share some and you expected it to be a certain amount. |
2025-01-13T16:18:07 |
Company earns cake |
It's accurate |
Are there not moveable and transferrable line items in that budget that can be shifted? |
Yes, but $4 is still a lot of money |
In a different way of speaking, though, if we went to tanger outlet mall in howell is it too much to go to main street in howell? What if we hadn't planned on it but could find the time? |
(Not actually asking, this is hypothetical and alluding more to my point) |
(But really we should go sometime!) |
I am freeeeeee babes! |
Got lots to talk about with you |
Yay! Freedom! |
If i was going to walk to the kroger pharmacy but decided I'd rather go to the bakery, would that be a huge deal? |
That's roughly 28 minutes vs 32 minutes |
Howell Tanger is 28 miles and another 4 to main street |
Perspective. Maybe offer them some..... lol |
Sooooo |
Hehe let me know how that works out for ya |
Nah thanks |
That's a you kinda thing |
So what's uppa you cheeky cakes? |
You tell me babes! |
Rlh ever migrate backM |
Yeah around 1600 |
Uhhhmmmmm |
Well she did nails |
Nope |
Anyway |
Do you have any freedoms this week? |
Whatcha wanna talk about? |
Honestly unsure |
Right |
Do you like this music? |
Yeah, there's definitely a place for it on my cd shelf as well. It's good fun live. |
Not for every day listening mind you |
Anything on your mind? |
Not a lot |
Yes |
Oh but hey |
Mayyyyyyyyyybe you get to fuck me soon? |
Be kinda nice |
Oh I haven't forgotten that :) |
And how do you feel about it |
Like they should maybe leave tomorrow to beat the snow lol |
I literally lol |
Fucking awesome!!! |
That's the spirit babe |
I'm really oddly inclined to spread super open for you |
Damn. This is going to be really enjoyable |
Was that an honest question? Fr |
I cannae waite to b'treen my lass's sweet theyes |
My best Robert Burns |
Oh you should know this |
I had to read chauver and beowulf in original script for my undergrad degree, so..... |
*chaucer |
I dinnae read shite gyrl |
You should know |
I have read..... some |
My rents would hang with others from the college and works and whatnot |
And celebrate Robert Burns birthday |
Every year |
And I got to go a few times |
As a wee lad |
It made no sense at all, but it was a good time |
January 25 it is |
Tis but less than a fornight away |
Aye |
I absolutely looked that up befire you told me |
But I was not inclined on the pen |
I feel like maybe that was my parents anniversary? |
I wasted my youth on theuth I sthienthe!!! |
I literally do not know this |
Lol |
Eh? |
The adults at the party, all people I knew from previous parent social events |
And I babsitted for a few, years later |
Lol bab |
Anyway |
I say this, because this is the world I grew up in, in so many ways |
Kinda weird to think of it now lol |
Many have died |
Right. Mine is-was similar but different |
I obv always gravitated to older |
I want you to see something |
Go ahead |
It'll take me a couple minutes.. please go on |
Just that being the youngest means you outlive all your friends and teachers and heroes and circles |
null |
Oh i loves him!!! |
Merci |
I thought of a question for ponderance |
What could i give to you, just for youuuuuu as an ultimate sexual experiential gift? |
remind me to bring my pills |
Yes. And? |
I'm begging you to tell me what you want. It's yours. No judgement, no hesitations |
Kinked or sweet or fucked or fun or weird or gratuitous or lewd.... i want you to push me in the best ways |
I thought I sent you a decent fantasy last night (wasn't it?) You were there for that innit?
|
Now maybe add a maid outfit |
And |
Idk |
A feather duster lolol |
Did you want to go to the sex shop fr? |
I wanna go |
I dinnae recall so much hier soir |
Yes |
Ahem you dinnae? |
You mean cirillas? |
Common loves |
Right, cirillas is the only one I know around here |
There's one in flint lolololol |
Lions den |
Larger |
Oddly enough |
That is literally the only other one I've been to |
What'd you get? |
Will have to pause shortly just so you know |
I legit don't remember I was forever ago |
Ok |
Does rlh have a kink side? |
not really |
I make up for it lol |
We do |
☺️ |
Ifff you had some toys in mind for use this weekend? |
On, in, with, you, me, both? |
I'd love it |
Oh sure |
I kinda have a lottttttt of ideas |
I'm familiar with vibes, dildos, clit suckers |
Don't be shyyy |
Whatever floats your boat I'm not sure what you like? |
Same |
Ok lol bring them all |
Wayy too mab6 |
Youve seen the closet |
Show off |
Lol |
Most brand new |
Awesome |
Seriously, you take being prepared to a new level |
It's amazing |
Bring a skinny vibrator |
Pausing for now.... I'll bring an assortment. And games |
Ok. :) |
2025-01-14T05:45:10 |
Good morning! |
Hey you! |
How are you? |
In desperate need of a shower but doing fine |
Why desperately? |
Too many smells |
What are you up to today? |
null |
You? |
Oh are you working |
Yep |
Did yesterday too |
Poor baby |
Feel a little like death too but whatevs |
Oooof. Starting to feel the ickkkkkkk i sometimes feel. Unfun. |
What can I do for you? |
Immediately? Quell my profuse diuphoresing |
Well. |
Sounds like a plan |
Well was for something different, but yes |
null |
Less than ideal. Mur. |
Stay away from the unwashed masses! |
Literally no choice |
This feels like hit garbage, jsyk. The upanddowniny |
null |
https://open.spotify.com/track/4PvD06Pmbm2rHG2JjSlElF?si=VQEOxQtMSPCwnXAiCu20Ew |
2025-01-14T13:02:49 |
How's it going? |
2025-01-14T14:18:19 |
Good good. I just did an hour training with a protege for profit sharing |
At the vet now with Bala |
Training whom now? |
He's got a chronic infection that gives him a cough from time to time. He's been getting a shot of antibiotics that does a great job of keeping it at bay |
I'm training Paul Hicks |
He is the new you? |
May also need to cry at you for a while at how much i wish i could just give up and be sick. Or not be sick. Cant really do either. The level of suckkkksitude (comparable to altitude) is just.... [vague gesture if i could] |
Yes i am aware this is Neverending and i am a crybaby wussisnack |
My poor little T-Rex baby ! |
😞 |
I am..... bleh |
null |
0/10 |
Ohh |
Christjesus yes |
I have no clue |
But also.... |
null |
Not like I'm goinded in layers |
*grounded |
I have a cardigan. And a tank top. Scarf is not scarfing |
As in, does not create extra warmth |
My baby trex arm is so fucking cold feeling |
Also |
null |
Reasonable pants. Prob actually too light for rn |
You look pretty :) |
I do NOT but thanks |
Been a verrrrrry long time since i washed this mop o hair |
Need a very lengthy shower too |
Seems like a lot of effort tbh |
Well I finally took a shower lll |
Lol |
Well, thats one of us today |
Baby step, t |
I need help logic-ing something please |
It's an "if..., then..." |
Righto |
IF |
I know the symptoms of feeling i have and previous disgnoses for them, but the vitals do not support my previous experiences |
I also had more than adequate sleep last night |
Very information. Thank you for this. |
And what symptoms? You mentioned chills, particularly your arm yeah? Which arm/s? What else? |
It's too bad you're allergic to capcaisin |
We'll figure this out |
I feel overall cold, but I'm not cold. Kind of like a rigid core and shivery and ultra tight musculature and like my body is just stiffffff |
Symptomatically i would typically think i am in shock, or going into it |
I & O does not seem different |
If that helps you |
Ok |
How is your hydration? Just a guess |
I would say typical for me, or less than i usually get |
What would help you assess that better? |
Did you have pre surgery labs? CBC? |
Yeah, kind of |
Which levels do you want? I cant screenshot them |
Oh wait maybe i can |
Hematocrit |
Plz |
Would that have a different name? |
HCT? |
Okay google says yes |
The last hct level i have is from 18 august 2024 |
It was 44.5 |
And my glucose is right this second 65 |
And my temp is 99.0 |
And i can only remember eating 1 real thing today and aome gumnies |
Ok ty |
That is helpful |
Maybe you need a fat dose of vitamin D |
What about neuropathy? |
Sorry. Had to treat low glucose. |
It is also occurring to me that i do a really shitty job of caring for myself. Like, fuck. |
Poor baby :( |
I give up |
null |
I'm so sorry babe! It's no fun when you're cold from the inside and just can't shake it. |
From what you've told me, the resonating concepts are |
Circulatory |
I am no longer cold |
Yay!!! |
But now an alien is literally... |
I am just miserable and pissy and sad and angry and icky and i hate it. Like, the gross that i feel.... i hope it doesnt become more |
Right right |
Rx |
Hot soup |
Crackers if ya like em |
I already had dinner |
Ok |
Then you march straight to bed young lady |
Or fight me lol |
Nono you dont |
Out with it |
I have been in bed since you asked my hematocrit |
Fiiiine |
Good |
Good job |
Wasn't much of a choice |
But thank you |
Aye |
You know other blood values from lab perspective, yeah? |
Some of them |
You only asked my hct |
Lol right bc I was on a crusade to prove you are dehydrated |
How'd that go for you |
44% is fine. It changes all the time, but if you were fine then you probably are now |
I am defeated in battle |
I feel like you maybe didnt pay attention to the whole explanation |
I certainly did! |
Okay sure |
And I haven't put forward the neuropathy scenario |
But I can't tell what you feel from here you know |
I am interested in your neuropathy scenario |
If you had told me 49% I would have pursued a dehydrated theory |
Right |
It is a bit dated |
Not any more |
I will look elsewhere |
FWIW i am dehydrated. Chronically. |
Well then |
Which? |
You are in fact dehydrated |
Yes |
Always |
Then you also have my diagnosis |
I can prescribe |
Something but it will take a while |
And insurance probably will not cover it |
You need a hot tub |
And a person in the hot tub with you |
You see |
I abhor this recommendation so far but i will hear you out |
Fwiw |
Now for the venous blood gases from 20 december 2024 |
So that's what i have for you |
My goodness |
Ty |
I literally had to type that letter by letter |
And thumbing between app and text |
You didn't have to do all that babe! |
And making it readable for you |
Well yy |
Ty |
I've got it now |
That's the benefit of being the 1 person that cares about me i guess |
I really do appreciate this stuff |
I can't believe you typed that all out without going crazy |
Or... |
Did you |
Lol |
Been there a while |
Yep yep got it |
It would be a lot easier to take care of you if you were closer |
But also how in TF do they have my height as not what i knew my height to be last time |
Shenanigans |
null |
Tyvm |
Click for full view |
8 by car |
29 bike |
2.7 miles |
Via coolidge |
I used to ride up Coolidge, cut East on Abbey Rd then |
And jump up and down it whatever it is y'all do |
Is this a sondheim reference? |
Bike geo location recs |
Into the Woods |
Well |
The bike trail went into the woods you see |
It's not extraordinary |
Speaking of which |
Are you a spy? |
Go on then, out with it |
I fucking hate being dizzy when i have no cure or explanation |
Sorry babe |
It's just weird twinges |
My jaw is clamped again. Sigh. |
Are you permitted/indicated to take vitamin b supplements |
I know that there is a vit b6 and a vit b12 |
Say more? |
Afk briefly |
The Bs are generally helpful with nerve function |
I say this as someone who doesn't be slap happy with vitamin supplements |
This is literally the only non prescribed vitamin I take. The other is vitamin D |
Why did you bring up neuropathy in general? |
Just a feeling |
But what do you know about neuropathy as related to me? |
Which is to say, I was trying to figure out how to cure you of the chronic icks. And this came to mind.
|
I don't know anything, which is why I asked |
I have it, so that's a thing |
The ick referenced by me earlier tonight was psychological |
Ok |
So what can answer for you in either of those? |
Im out of my depth now, idk |
That's fair. I have no idea what you know or don't, what you'd be helping me maybe improve or not |
null |
I see that. How am i meant to interpret this, speaking as one who basically loathes those areas of the state? |
No reason lol |
Liessssss |
You should observe me |
This is established canon |
Which? |
Deictic referrals are hard in txt |
Bach perhaps? |
Pachelbel |
Aww such a good one |
Obvs |
Speaking of which... |
Lol |
Even if the trumpets DO volunteer |
Right |
Do you understand that reference? |
To me, it sounds like the backwards version of pach canon in d |
Solid |
Damn trumpets |
Pray tell, to which composition am i referring? |
I actually have no idea what you're on about |
https://open.spotify.com/track/4N7VFXypm88Skyc3Mk36cA?si=wkzhzB1iRAufhB30PARslA |
Doesn't that figure! |
I dont make shit up nearly as much as everyone thinks |
I am wicked fucking smart though |
And yet.... |
Yes you are! |
Lol thx |
Cannae maths |
Did earn 3.89 goa masters. On dialysis. Blind. While having 2 transplants. Before zoom. From internationally accredited and attended program. Baby uofm phd funnel. |
Ah. Also while working. Paid own way. No student loans for me. |
And yet... |
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09Y8R9X4G?ref_=pfb_spv01_1e79ea46d5f4a057dc0b9a3522b8efe4&tag=fbcmapoth-us-20&ascsubtag=pfb-GZBO-1-9-vqhxoz8c0ruqmsab&fbclid=IwY2xjawHz_cRhZGlkAasVVek3oO4BHTvVWcOQsoFgOYcv8xKRB54Y5-IdRn2ZmMaym328l6rUxzt3Zcp2ONcRJw |
You need this |
Heh that is kinda my style |
I should just sneak you over here Sunday |
Hangs from ceiling |
Ok |
So you can witness |
Wherefore my complaints |
Lol |
I kinda love cleaning and organizing.... |
You are too kind |
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08XJ1X893?ref_=pfb_spv01_04b36b95b063f8692fcf579efa351e96&tag=fbcmapoth-us-20&ascsubtag=pfb-GZBO-1-9-vqhxoz8c0ruqmsab&fbclid=IwY2xjawHz_p1hZGlkAasVVek3oO4BHYhuWslF6qJ31cUlKMuAiQu7Kw34QMcySNBdQFMnGOaU9mG-_ICIfaf38g |
I have n95s gloves And sprays |
Lol |
Very cool, better than what I have now in basement! |
I guarantee you i have enjoyed cleaning more |
Honestly, figure out how i get to you. I would lovvvvvvve to do it |
I'll be your Uber driver on Sunday innit |
Oh that |
It's no problem I think |
After dark |
Pause |
Ok :) |
O hello |
Yes? |
Okayokayokay |
I have something veryyyyy tou |
*you |
Combines love, hate, quirk |
Imma make you google it though |
Yeah? |
What did i send you last week? |
But also, doubt it |
This is a new side topic |
Like, half dozen numbered questions |
That you sent me |
That I answered |
Oh. Right. We should revisit some of those and more |
Ironically, that can lead into this sode quest! |
( side |
The inside'er quest! |
What if i could combine haggis (or lack of) and some syzygy? (Dont quote me on that spelling but hey - i know the term and that's maybe hotttttt?) |
Leave it to the linguist!! |
Only you could have written that lol |
Not why i know it but nevertheless |
Yeah I'm feeling up what you're sliding down |
Oh do you |
Watch me lulz |
Anyhoo |
What say i, then? |
You were about to introduce me to your friend Mr szymurgy haggis innit? |
Omg i give you THE BEST clues |
Lolol |
Aye dunnae why yeast er |
Oh, so you WAAAAAAANT me to yeet my phone across the room |
Strange choice |
Wtf woman lol |
Lol |
Do you know the phenomena syzygy? |
I am SOOOOOO excited for this happenstance for you btw |
Language, poetry, astronomy, red red roses.... |
No |
Upon whom |
I inflicted violence once |
Not good really |
Actual violence? |
But any way the damnedest things do happen |
I saw the entire family |
In a restaurant in Newberry Michigan |
Do you know this place? |
They lived 1.5 blocks away in East Lansing |
So yeah the girl |
Oh i do know that place |
What was her name |
She was my sister's age |
And she was always screeching |
I was maybe 11 |
They was maybe 7 or 8 |
And we were all in my little basement bedroom |
Pam |
That was her name |
I... kinda knew her name already |
Anyway |
Lol |
Got a thing to show you in a sec |
Well we were playing with stuffed animals. My did and I did this, they all had character voices and all that |
And Pam was with us |
Oh dude |
And I saw the little, relatively new piercings in her ears |
And the little studs |
Tick |
Again lol |
And I boxed her ears |
And I tell you she did screech |
With purpose this time |
And she left |
I'm sorry |
You have zero reason to be sorry |
Anyway |
That was kinda not on good taste |
Wanna know something really connected? |
Yes |
Or wanna see something... well, something, first? |
Ok then |
Which? They lead the same place |
You choose please |
Okay but also... scott cortez? |
Just wondering if that name is also in your memory |
From the same era |
Ish |
I cannae place this name tho it seems familiar |
Ome last note that Hungarian names, linguistically speaking, usually end in -yi if they end in -i |
So anyway |
Just click |
https://youtu.be/1kn6t398wuc?si=STILraRgYXG7AXzt |
And see if you notice what i want you to |
Ok |
C'est impossible |
So I was listening to Mussorsky earlier |
Quelle est impossible? |
And finally put a name to the theme in Bydlo |
And now it makes total sense! |
Kosher and Polish? |
This Joey guy |
Wtaf |
Right right |
What about him |
He was known as a bad kid because he was such a spaz |
Seriously |
My parents could not deal |
Some times I could not deal |
East lansing hs |
Omg |
Why? |
It is him |
What is whom? |
C'mon now |
No for real, what are you asking me? |
He also has an uncle named paul |
I'm just attended this is the same person ok |
Astounded |
Why are you astounded? |
I don't know how to answer |
Ok |
No it isn't, and those are not the answer |
Okay |
Did i trigger something? |
How many other childhood neighbors of mine have videos like this? |
I thought it unusual is all |
https://www.linkedin.com/mwlite/profile/in/pamela-kibler-2a5b572b |
And I guess that Joey was always the bad kid, etc |
I'm happy for him |
So you did notice it was his YT |
You know who else I was in HS with right? |
Yes I saw that |
Pamela kibler who has a daughter in musical theatre in south dakota? |
I mean, who else? |
Yes |
Class of 1990 iirc |
I wish I got some kinda association award |
Wait, back this trolley up |
Beep |
Beep |
Beep |
You lack sufficient enough ass for those noises, sir |
Who else did you grow up with or whatever? |
Lolol |
Two trumpet players |
Nope |
Imma figure it out on my own |
Freshman year at BLFAC marching band camp, these cats would play taps at sundown |
Then as long for like 20 minutes |
Ad lib |
I think one went on to play with Winton Marsalas? |
Not sure about the other |
I just took lsd |
And |
Y'know |
Huh |
But what? |
You took lsd as a frosh?? |
No |
Mmhm |
Tryna think |
No actually |
Not even in HS |
Bc my first time was with Bill (who killed himself a few years later) and Jon brandou, who I believe went on to do culinary work |
I might have to bail abruptly |
Do |
Fyi |
I would like to hear more about this. And so much more. I had typed the following already: |
Lawrence? |
Alfred? |
Mid name edward |
Oh yeah |
Smart kids |
Babysit him? |
no, middle school chum I think |
Dad was military |
Boys all by the book |
Very disciplined |
I need literal word talking for a sec |
I'm actually questioning if I'm thinking of the right kid |
Ed Lawrence |
So you are not referring to Larry Page, google cofounder? |
I know i sound ridic |
Humor mw |
Earlier I was absolutely talking about Larry Page |
THE larry page |
Yep |
Ok. But why did you bring him up? |
Because you kinda are associated |
Right |
Yes |
I mean, give me a few hiyrs and I'll make a flowchart |
Do you know how you are connected? |
He never calls me though |
Back to real talk |
It's true! |
But sure |
We're only connected because we attended ELHS at the same time |
That isn't possible it is? |
Oh wait |
null |
I was so close lol |
Yeah i read the whole thing already |
He went to interlochen for flute |
Not a trumpeter lol |
Blahblahblah his project with sergey was on DATA MINING |
Blahblahblah palo alto for him. And you, lol. |
You're like 5'10"? |
Combien des poids? |
Ou kg |
FR on palo alto, if you thought i was kidding |
Yes, and 180 lb |
He is also 1.8m tall |
Same hair color too |
Maybe I am he |
Same syllables in your first and middle names |
Diminuitive nicknames that aren't actually shorter |
Wait do I have gazillion dollars? |
Idk maybe |
It's only 114bil |
Lol |
1.14 |
I think? |
Lol maths |
114 was right |
But you knew that |
No wonder you have to seduce girls with the same name |
Keep us straight |
But i am notsomuch lol |
You both like the computer sciences |
You both have professorial ancestry |
You both have MSU |
And i can find nary a page on his older brother Carl Victor Page jr |
You are quiet |
Got some sherbet |
And |
RLH came up |
Do you need to sign off. |
? |
Soon |
Okay then i will try and make it quick |
Syzygy is planetary alignment |
Alignment is your fave term |
Syzygy is happening 1/25/25 |
Lolol |
Burnsday |
!!! |
Syzygy comes from the greek words for union and together |
Which burns would love |
1.25.25 is a friday |
Jsyk |
Wow good show! |
Lansing festivities are sold out |
Nicely woven together |
Detroit... didnt check |
Benzonia is too far |
Alma is happening on 1.27.25 |
Three oaks is basically chicago |
But there you have it |
Whisky me up then babe |
I'll give you all thr burnsing of a red red rose for auld be forgot this lang syne |
Perhaps we spend some of those golden hours on angel wings |
You are absolute tops |
Or whatever |
And woefully underappreciated |
But thanks love |
I iust know this shit lol |
You think AI gonna spell it out so quick witted like? |
Nah |
But I'll kilt if you will |
Proper undergarment style |
Heh |
Crap I have to stop chuckling |
And need to turn in for sleeps |
Okay babes |
You're the bomb bebe |
Nah it's you |
But i still havent gotten off the bed lol |
Not that anyone checked if i was alive |
Aww |
Love you babes! |
Love you too |
TTYL ❤️ |
2025-01-15T02:41:45 |
I figured out part of why i felt so poorly. |
And i don't know if you can see or hear this or not, but |
https://www.facebook.com/share/v/1Bsm7udJdD/ |
2025-01-15T05:29:01 |
And in this moment it hit, all of a sudden, that I'm it. I'm the end of the line. This is bizarre. |
But just so you know, i am safe |
Good morning bebe! |
Hey |
Hi! Looks like you were busy last night |
How are you feeling? |
I am |
But also maybe a little better? Weigh alarmingly less than at my doc appt not even 48 hours ago. Got so super sick for a very very short time but holy fuck it was sickkkk sick |
And you? Skipping work to do fun stuff? Parade me around like Miss Daisy? Be the first person since the last person to touch me with any welcomed affection? |
Oh my! |
Like, so so soooo sick. Out ot nowhere |
Sudden and intense and thought i might self aspirate |
Yikes! |
Food poisoning? |
Maybe |
I have ideas in that regard |
Nasty stuff, do not recommend |
Very much |
I did it to myself a year ago |
With what? |
Noodles |
Ziti, to be exact |
Bacillus cereus? |
Idk which bug but the affect was swift and intense |
Effect |
Oops |
Newb |
Lol right? |
That was an interesting FB link. I could only view, no sound. But yay subtitles! |
Right |
So that's pretty accurate |
And i kinda xant imagjne worse, hence the perpetual exit door i need to be there |
I feel like i am damn possessed rn |
My poor baby |
But it's ultimately my fault for being sick this way so whatevs |
I don't follow you |
Dont scold too much please |
Ok |
Forgot meds for 2 and a little more days |
*not ultra bad |
Side not that i am fading for a bit |
Ok get some rest babe |
I love you |
Go easy on yourself ok? |
2025-01-15T09:41:18 |
Heya |
Hey babes! |
How are you? What's up today? |
Good start to the day. Should be pretty mellow |
Very nice |
When do you escape? |
4ish |
To come see me? |
Hmm, maybe? |
That'd be nice |
:) |
I legit have some hours of freedom this evening |
Is it so? |
Ya, kinda |
SIL... nur |
Date nite for L? |
See above |
Ah |
Mmmhmm |
But it means i am more escapable than usual this weekend |
Right. Possibly |
So how's it going? |
Good good |
Jealous!!!!!! |
Award winning tech writer here.... ahem |
And poetry |
And shott fiction |
And research |
And art |
And economics |
And quick maths |
And science |
And music |
Instruments and vocal |
And community impact through service learning |
Much talented! |
Yet i still have a void of approval |
Well we should fill that |
Are you feeling better? |
I think so |
I was like a detoxing addict |
It was terrible |
157.2 |
Yow! |
Hmm? |
So what's on your agenda? |
What was your "yow" to? |
157 |
YI u just like numbers. Gotcha. |
Ok :/ |
Why the face? |
Lol 72 |
Umm |
? |
Why 72? |
I am le confused |
Why not 72? |
157 is better |
Well I don't like it |
Because? |
Too primey |
Okay. 158 then |
A marginal improvement |
What is this enigmatic number anyway? |
You dunnae know? |
Nope |
Nary to surmise? |
Not really |
Ah okay |
It's what i weighed in freesom units this morning |
I see |
Is that good? |
It is factual |
Well ok then |
I think you dont think it's good |
I would like to know if (a) I recall correctly that you told me you weigh about the same as me around mid September and (b) if there is a decent understanding how it would change that much in 4 months. |
Correct and also correct |
Would you care to share that information with me? |
Or no |
I will share anythinv you want. You earned that already. |
Oh yeah I think you mentioned glp1 before. When did you take that? |
I'm still taking it. Just not as often and my dose did not increase |
Idk if this is reassuring to you or not, but this morning when i saw that it was honestly an "ah fuck" feeling |
Meaning what? |
? Not good |
1.5.24 was 217 |
Those are med record weights aside from today, that's how i know |
And i feel bad (about you) |
Why? |
Tx for the info btw |
You don't like thin |
Oh |
I'm sorry |
Don't be sorry |
Be healthy |
I kind of dont know what to do now |
Hmm |
Fwiw |
2 of 3 people I know who took that had bad experiences |
Obv not a scientific assessment, just anecdote |
What experiences? |
I have other thoughts in a sec |
Poor health, intolerable side effects |
Like what kind of side effects? How long were they taking it? |
Months. Poor appetite, constipation, diarrhea, vomiting |
Those are a little bit just how the med is supposed to work |
Ok |
I know. I will not be refilling it this year, but i will also just kind of taper myself off |
The drug basically induces gastroparesis |
Which i have anyway |
It's basically another neuropathy |
And i know you dislike the drug anyway. That was clear in the first conversation we ever had lol |
Well I also shelled out $500 for a useless syringe :) |
I did not |
Why do you say "useless syringe"? |
Because my wife stopped using it |
After how many uses? |
Idk |
Well, they come 4 to a pack of it's a branded glp1 |
You're supposed to use it once a week |
It's a step up dosage |
Idk. It's sitting in my refrigerator |
I was only making a point that I paid a lot of money and got zero benefit |
Tirzepatide? Hand it over lol |
Right |
I gathered that. Honestly I'm glad it works for you |
Thanks |
And i did not mean to do this much so fast |
Good call |
And my aesthetics will get sorted, no worries |
Just please don't turn into a pencil |
Full disclosure here |
When gastric bypass became popular, you could easily tell who got it |
Bc they look like shit |
"Ozempic face" is a real thing |
Like the life in their faces was just gone |
Buccal fat basically disappears |
Sorry, younwere talking |
That was it really |
Your opinion matters to me |
Your opinion of me matters to me more |
I just want you to be healthy over everything else |
Hmm |
Being tormented by random ills and chills and pain can't be fun |
You are correct |
So hopefully you're moving away from that |
Not really |
That existed way before this |
Hopefully some other problem is being solved then |
Doesn't the weight loss help with pain at all? |
It was supposed to, maybe |
Fibromyalgia and a lifetime of lots of breaks and so many years of torturing my body left a lot of memories on it |
Right, right |
I get it |
Psych pain causes a lot of physical pain too |
I don't understand why the last line? |
Because i hate that it's true. I tried to fight the concept |
Ahh ty for clarifying |
null |
Omg!!!! You have NO IDEA how fantastic that is! Tu! |
Did you have a fave part of eire? |
I think Wicklow county is the nicest I've seen, but my exposure is pretty limited |
Sory |
County Wicklow |
It's a small country lol |
May i give you a Wicklow book? Youd be welcome to chop it for decor |
Ooh! I'll take it, maybe give it to my MIL because she is gaga for that kind of stuff |
If that doesn't offend you |
Does not offend |
I get things when they call to me. You know this |
Hey where's woodfish? |
Um ?? |
Oh wood fish! |
Duh |
He's hanging with the dragons |
Oh nice! |
Yes |
You gonna paint him? |
They guard the audio controls in my hobby room |
Mighta gotten you a squishpet one day. Oopsadoodle |
How'd'you feel bout London? |
I liked London for the couple days I was there. |
But generally big cities wear me down |
Oh interesting |
So no britdecor? |
What is? |
Dunno. Just have stuff lol. Like gifting. Am secret crow. |
I have my little Abbey Road sign lol |
Oh i had one! |
Lol hard core |
Underground maps are _________ |
Cool |
Especially if they say things like Basingstoke and Reading |
I kinda like maps |
I'd kinda like a map of Edinburgh |
Or Scotland |
I have a map book, but not a poster map |
Do you like folded or curled better |
Not sure |
How do you feel aboutaminatex chinoiserie ? |
*laminated |
Not sure what I'd do with it tbh |
null |
You hang it up, silly! I think you'd like it |
Yeah, hers is different than mine |
Get you some black market rx $$$ |
Lol right? |
Hurray norovirous?? |
null |
Shadows aren't doing it but damn |
Nipple is looking great tho |
❤️ |
I thought about noro earlier |
The norovirus diet is wicked |
Yeah i have/had wvery symptom |
Ive never gotten it before |
Ah ha! Nasty |
It's super contagious |
Right. Not great |
So what we doing tonight? |
I can probably stop by and drop off calendars |
That's a silly trip but very appreciated :) |
Keep the thrill up before the weekend instead |
Only 3,2 miles yeah? |
I thought 3.7 but idk |
Want some panera? |
Free cheap or antique things? |
Now with less noro? Lol |
My soul left my body, pretty sure the noro did too |
Whew |
My back feels ultra sexy when i grip it now |
Maybe you just come over here and brute force clean some stuff |
Lol |
Come grab it |
When i pre pass out, my vision gets really weird amd my head gets warm |
What say you? |
And oh! I have a craftish wngineering resolution request |
null |
Oooooommmmmmggggggg |
Delicious |
So anyway |
Oi |
Haha |
Hmm? |
I'm outside |
Whyfor? |
I don't know |
Lol |
Just wanted to be a polite stalker I guess |
Are you chez moi? |
Yes |
Venez ici? |
2025-01-15T17:57:10 |
Lol well arrival at home was anticlimactic to say the least |
I'm such a worry wart sometimes |
Hey were you eating spaghetti os? |
2025-01-15T19:04:08 |
Yeah |
It looked good |
Hi! |
Hi! |
So |
Yes, for a while |
Yws. Thank you ❤️ |
Literally the first person I've made physical contact with since you |
May i please have any impressions you feel or observed or whatever |
I am also very aorry you saw me in this state of filth |
No big impressions really. I was just glad to see you for a minute! And your house is not filthy |
null |
Shhhh! You'll hurt their feelings! |
Are you still sad? |
Kind of. But it's just like a melancholy draped over me that I can't get out from under. I've decided I'm going to chill in bed and get to sleep early. Should be right as rain in the morning. |
Maybe you know the feeling?!like everything seems grey. |
I do know it |
Have you taken your meds? |
Yep, all good there. It'll be fine soon enough. |
I didnt take my meds for a little while. No doubt that contributed to last night |
Are you up to date now? With meds |
I took some in the middle of the night and then again at my usual time this morning. More due in a bit |
Ok :) |
I honestly feel better just lying in bed. I think my body knows it doesn't have to deal with any more today |
Kind of same here |
I feel like the imagery i have of ophelia. Or cordelia even. Kind of dead weight all wilted and floppy. And i wish you were carrying me limply across a threshold to a much better place |
I'd love to just hold you and not worry about stuff |
Sure you have to go in. Yuck |
Sorry I mean |
I felt like i was in shock or sepsis yesterday. Then like a panic attack was happening. Then like i was detoxing (which i kind of have experience with but not through illicit drugs), then like a gp flare. Fir most of today ive felt like someone pushed a ton of morphine instead of titrating it. I feel very morphined. If you've ever had it, you know the warm, heavy, and spacey it brings |
2025-01-15T22:05:14 |
Hey I'm so sorry I wasn't trying to ignore you. That is a lot to go through in a month let alone a day! |
2025-01-16T06:33:35 |
null |
💖 |
You leaving for work soon? |
null |
Soy aqui |
Kak dela? |
Chai masala! Wes to mya bakub! |
❤️ to a photo |
Portugues? |
"Chai" |
Lol I'm making things up |
Nahnahnah |
Hage i etymologized chai for you? |
Well chai masala is probably Sanskrit-ish |
You did tell me about chai! |
I think chai absolutely could be |
Sanskrit to hindi to Portuguese to a borrowed anglicized version |
You know what someone looks like before they pass out, right? |
Unfortunately yeah lol |
Okay so do NOT t all take this personally.... you did or did not notice that on anyone yesterday? |
No no, it's been many years |
Okay, thanks |
And the person was a plasma donor and I was the phlebotomist |
Right |
Lol not that one |
OMG that was actually lulz |
Hey idk every secomd of your life |
You gonna tell me how to destroy you yet? |
Lulz |
But if you feel lioe raging at someone or annihilating them on my behalf (go all mercenary or whatever) I've git names. All of em. |
Hmm, interesting |
First step for me is relocating the cat on my lap so I can take a ahower |
He will lick you clean. Mamacat style |
Iz girl cat, can confirm |
You don't feel sick, do you? |
Me? No |
Why? |
Ok |
Bc i didnt want to have gotten you sick |
Right. Nope, no sickness |
Hopefully same for you? |
Mostly kinda |
So babes |
Whatcha doin tonight? |
Good question! |
It's a long way away |
Scoop me up and shop til drop it is! |
Add "new musculo-skeletal system" and "properly functioning nervous system" to the shop list please |
My role as a human is to be the keeper of shopping lists lol |
No prob, I'll get those added |
Ok thanks! |
Self-Corpus-wise |
Just left second metatarsal, stress fractured on treadmill. That was around 2018 iirc |
Ooh poor baby! Is it kinda deformed now? Asking from similar experience. Same toe actually lol |
Oh wait, maybe not same toe? |
I can feel where it healed, but it's not obvious at all |
FYI I've got meetings for a while |
My second toe, so there's no hallux on my left foot but the toes have all been broken. The new first toe visible is ickch |
Enjoy meetings! |
LmkFR if you can do something tonight |
They've all been broken? Owwww |
Nah. Cant feel them |
Ive broken a lot a lot though |
On a different note, you have a unique standing |
And You've not run or taken advantage or acted insane at them |
Have you seen me eat? |
2025-01-16T10:05:45 |
I try not to be a creep lol |
It's just odd to me |
Once you reply to that, Saturday....? |
I saw you take a bite of something once. I know you said you don't like to eat in front of people |
Saturday |
If things go as I expect, RLH will sleep in late, procrastinate, then get into a tizzy trying to pack |
There is unfortunately a very real chance she will delay departure because of this |
Very sad, yes |
Pack for her? |
Sell the ozempic for walmart gift card money and she can leave with that? |
Well I hope your spaghetti os didn't get cold because I surprised you |
Yeah... Packing |
Yet another life lesson she never learned |
I ate those bwfore you came in lol |
I am amazing at packing |
I have no doubt |
The world is a relatively small place. If you need it, you can get it |
If you cant get it, you didnt really need it |
Figure iut a different plan |
It's not even that. She wants thingies to show her mom |
Right |
And five options for what to wear each day |
Idk |
Wm gift card! |
Arkansas! |
She can literally spend two days packing and then to more hours the morning of... Running around trying to find things, getting worked up, ... Ugh |
You only NEED 4 things to travel |
Ikr? |
And the last 2 are optional |
Meds |
Well, rx if you need them |
Ok |
Lol |
Wanna escape for thriftadventuring saturday? |
Oh! You *have* seen me eat! |
The diner |
We go back |
Orrrrr maybe we just go looking for giant piles of money so i can solve all my problems |
2025-01-16T12:33:21 |
Yo |
Hi |
What's up? |
Besides a locative preposition |
😂 to “ Besides a locative preposition ” |
Wish I had something witty for ya lol |
Just taking a breather before next meeting |
Look up the original meaning of wit |
I just learned "loblolly" is actually a word |
https://www.thesaurus.com/browse/wit |
null |
Oh so you're a wag |
Stop your burlesquerie |
I have been out-thesaurized! |
Omg work is crushing me rn |
Oh noes! |
For real |
Jsyk, i am planning on escaping for some of the daytime saturday. I always love you joining me |
I did not make a res for anywhere yet - i am positive there'll be availability if/when/where we want |
All good ty :) |
Are you taking any time off next week? |
I get to modify my schedule if i want, so i could take t/w/th off (one of them) if that's better for you |
Oh! I had my eye on Wednesday |
I can choose any of the 3 |
Let's roll with that! |
Wednesday? |
Lol that's fine |
Found me some new stores to check out! |
Really? I would have thought you've been through all of them three times over by now |
There are 5ish I've not been to that I'm thinking about for ce weekend that are relatively close |
I also love me some Mason places |
And want to check out Charlotte |
Maybe we go to Ollie's next time you need something |
There's a cool painting class sunday at 5 if you arent busy in me! |
:) |
That was suchhh a good line from me! |
Totally agree |
Was a tight fit, but i love it |
I feel like you do too but what do i know |
It's a great feeling that I can still squeeze into tight places! |
Mmhmmm |
Remember the first time? |
Yes I do :) |
Oooh tell me again! |
First slip & slide |
When you first came into the chamber of secrets lol |
Lol too funny... "Tell me again!". Here you go... |
Omg thank you!!! |
You know where to find me... and my boss is gone for the day |
Yknow it's been so long you may have to break the gate open ;) |
I'll be pounding at the gate! |
Oh you think so? |
Maybe I'll give her a few licks and see if she'll open up for me |
Might have to use some special tongue swirls |
Yessss |
Do you think maybe you could literally hold my thighs open this rendezvous? |
I always want more experimentation and exploration but idk how to do it in the moment and make it not ultra awkward |
Same! But yes I would love to .. and if I don't do it at the right moment, you can remind me by pulling them out yourself, or putting my hands on them, or anything really. I will not be upset that you wanted to change things up, promise! |
Okay :) |
Yay! |
I crave you asking me for more stuff |
Sex is supposed to be fun :) |
Eyeroll |
Well let's make that our goal for the next rendezvous |
Oh wait. That actually is kind of an odd way for me to think of it |
Damnit! |
Say more? |
Fun just isnt how i would think of it |
Serious, sensual, goal oriented, sometimes a necessary chore, just kind of there and not really a thing to hate or enjoy, painful, controlling, more words you wont like |
Boring too |
I am on this planet to change your mind lol |
You insanely sexy creature! |
null |
Such weird thiughts for me rn |
Like "oh, sex is supposed to be a together activity" |
And I'm trying to separate "sexy " from "easy" and it's really hard |
Headed home soon so i may be quieter |
Chez moi |
Bon soir! |
😊 |
null |
Lol I'm not sure I clicked that animation, but there it is |
Oh for real!? |
I could do that! |
What's that weird migraine thing you have? My mom has it (as of today) and im trying to impress her with knowing the term |
Ocular migraine. Only happened once to me thank goodness |
She says hers is random and lasts like 15 minutes once a quarter or so |
Wild. It is really trippy, but kinda disorienting |
Like a seismometer in her eye, she says |
Weird! |
I think I know what she means |
Like a seismic "jitter" effect |
Weird! |
What's your hair thing for? |
I'm going to Douglas j to get it trimmed. I plan to keep the length as much as possible, but take care of all the broken ends, weird frizzy bits, etc. |
This will be my first haircut in over 5 years. I called them to let them know that |
Im so proud of you! |
Why now? |
I've been meaning to get this on the calendar for a week lol. I actually asked my friend Patrick if he recommended them a couple months ago |
He enthusiastically gave me two names there. I guess he and his wife have been going for years. It'll be a little pricey but damn I need it lol |
Aww! |
Also I have to admit, it's timed while RLH is gone so I don't have to hear about it and to see if she even notices lol |
Lolz |
I'm not sure yet. I've actually been thinking about that |
Wait |
Yes |
Please say more! |
Just something I've thought a little bit about when I'm with you. Like I think it looks really cute with a band/bandanna at this length. Are you inclined to color it again? |
Have i had a band on it in your presence? |
It's been about a year and a half since anything though |
And kind of like 2 weeks since i washed it. Ooops |
Lol same |
And I have at least one pic of you with a white ropey looking band |
Actually maybe longer |
It's very fetching |
Oh! Im wearing it now lol |
Iz new |
Yay! |
I love that look |
Bandanna |
Hair band |
I love that |
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This one? |
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That's it! |
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Yay! |
Hahahaha |
I got it from the dollar tree |
I have a tonnn of wide ribboned headbands |
So what were you thinking about my hair? |
Astrophysifuckface, right? That guy? |
Ickk |
And all i did was keep pansering to him. I'm fucking gross. |
Silly girl |
I prefer troubled |
null |
Aww! |
Do i feel uncomfortable around your dick? |
Cleaning your soldering iron ofc |
Maybe I'm the worst oral sex you've ever had? |
null |
Wait wait back up |
Ah damn, i misplaced mine |
Your dick? |
Hmm? Beepbeep? |
What lol |
Yours sir |
Ok in all seriousness |
And let me say this unambiguously |
Whew |
Best oral sex ever, no contest |
I dont know if i believe that but thank you :) |
Well it's true |
Tyvm by the way |
Because it is |
But now your iron |
Is she hot? |
Got none |
Am i uncomfortable for you to be in? |
I have two more |
Is it "kind of unpleasant"? |
If you want one |
I don't know how to solder. Or what. |
It is the farthest thing from unpleasant |
I crave you |
Know what I mean |
Craaaave you |
Do you want someone who's virginal and then want to be mad at them for not having the experiential knowledge necessary for some things ? |
Do you want to tell me my literal shaking from nerves is a turn off? |
Maybe you can tell me i made you sick but you don't know how or what or why, it's just intuition |
Explain how youre mad and miffed because you expected more help in moving even though i told you i was only available for a finite 12 to 14 hours on a weekend day |
And there's countless more things but it's finnnnnnnnnnnne that we talk about cookies and caramels and out of nowhere you just wont talk to me anymore. Ever. |
Eww |
Riiiight |
So not so good |
Tell me you want and expect zero body hair ever |
What's your emotion? |
Anger? |
And i am nothing but a downer |
I mean now |
About this guy |
Disappointment maybe? |
Yeah |
You put a lot into it |
I think it's at me though |
A lot of me and time and kind of a |
Fair |
Well he's gone. But you called him out. Inasmuch as a text message can |
Ty |
Oh there's a lot more. More will come eventually |
Okay, as you wish ofc |
He's gone and not of my choice whatsoever |
Angrybitterdisgusted |
Right |
Richard Henry Cyburt, PhD |
Fr |
Why? |
Cyburt |
Hungarian |
And he was a physicst? Spelling lol |
Is it pronounced like see-ber? |
Sigh-bert |
Got it |
Where did he go? |
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I'd enjoy his classes lol |
How do you think i know whay syzygy is? |
The world is a funny place |
https://www.ratemyprofessors.com/professor/2605267 |
You would not enjoy them lol |
Funny place.... right.... did you know he donated a kidney to his mother? |
Haha I guess I do now! |
Or maybe that his phd advisor wife was the head of UICU linguistics? |
That his (ex)wife loved writing and literature? |
That he had a thing for girls in all white? |
That it's 8 minutes from my location downtown to his? |
That i was an official lcc student the whole time i knew him? |
That he felt it necessary to tell me he deleted all my pics because he no longer used them? |
That he had a "classic bdsm-rape fantasy" until he heard one of my experiences and then he reconsidered because it was more intense and sad than he wanted? |
My Gramma used to say it takes all kinds |
Why would i let myself do this to myself |
Unfortunately I cannot answer for you |
But I'm still here if you want to explore |
And he was kind of average on the jerkness scale |
I always want to explore |
https://www.nudeweb.com/cleanslate6969/ |
That's his profile |
Double 69 yall |
Did his wife know anything? |
He was mid divorce when we connected |
The second time i met him fir the night was his wedding anniversary. He never said anything but i know how to find stuff and i knew it was a weird situation that day and whatever |
What else would you like to know? |
What drew you to him? |
There are a few answers |
We met online, firat of all. And not on the site i sent you |
The reason i eventually met him/why i was interested and the reason i started talking to him and giving whatever are different and you won't like one of them |
At your discretion is fine |
You wont like why i started talking to him and sharing with him |
I kept talking because i like intellect, i was in an "older" mindset, like kink, and couldnt tell if he was going to be fun good, good good, fun bad, or destructive bad for me. I was playing on a cliff edge |
Were you aware of all of those possible outcomes at the time? |
Yes |
I think |
I think i know what you mean, that is |
Not judging right, but how much of that interpretation was then-present day vs understood through time later? |
Can you make that simpler? Idc how blunt you need to be |
Ok yeah |
Did you go into the relationship cognizant of these four outcomes? |
I did, but the outcome i had did not fit into any of those |
Ah |
A novel outcome? |
New to you |
In general? Not entirely |
Lol |
It was a year and a half of talking almost every day |
That was generous! |
I have one |
I know |
You're welco |
What? |
Lol |
Well it's nothing special |
I invite you to a guided demonstration |
It was, all things considered, less than about 5% of my fiscal generosity |
But i hope youll show me |
My oh my |
Oh,yeah |
And he yeets off |
Feb 3 2024 |
Huh |
Middle of a conversation |
There is some serious fuckery at that time of year |
Go on please |
What else would you like to know? |
Hmm |
I can tell you exactly how many times we were physical |
Please do |
3 |
How long were you again? |
Between may and October of 2023 (the times) |
Hang on on that timeline |
Np |
Scratch that, 2022 |
So may 2022 started |
October 2022 last time physical |
Feb 2024 no more speaking |
Iz good piece of time |
Can I ask question about you? |
Sure, why not? |
What do you wish to happen with you and me?
|
That's a really difficult question |
If you're not comfortable answering now that's fine |
Wish, want, hop3, expect, realistically expect are all different |
So i dont know how to answer best |
Also have spouse luring atm |
*lurking |
Cool cool |
So, what should i answer first? |
Put it this way: you spent x months with Dr. C., and kinda knew what to expect, but probably something wanted too. Now it's me instead of Dr. C.
|
Do you have an answer? |
I don't have your answer, no |
Wrong qualifier |
Hamina? |
An vs your |
I wish for you to answer my question plz :) not ask me a question |
You know lol |
And like I said, np if now is not a good time |
And you can ask me if you want |
In my ideal world, our marriages either become poly or fizzle completely and end, you and i spent a lot more years being very fond of each other's everything |
Sorry I'm a bone head one moment |
Soldering iron still plugged in |
Ok |
I want to spend the rest of my days with you |
I think we can get along |
And I love the the way you love me |
I have not thought through the other bits as clearly, but your vision resonates well |
And it makes me feel so selfish, but dammit |
We agree |
Why do you feel selfish? |
Conditioning? I'm not sure exactly |
Same |
Right |
That was somehow satisfying |
Then I'll ask you a question i may have asked before |
Why did you marry who you did, when you did? |
Bc she wanted it |
Lol you said lurking |
Yes? |
null |
I didn't watch Looney Toons |
OMG |
This is why you are broken! |
I mean, wanna guess whyyyyy I didnt? |
This is quality adult humor |
Oh |
Right |
Riiiiiiight |
Wait, do you know why? |
Something something parenting |
Huh. Yep. |
Didn't you tell me your dad forbade such filth |
Mother |
Right |
Did you ever look either of them up? Or frere? |
Not since we exchanged names |
Huh? |
I looked up a lot of your family, but not since August or September |
What did you learn? |
Precious little |
Relations |
What do you want to know? |
That i could tell you |
Rien maintenant |
Okay. Open offer. I have weird things that surface sometimes. I think ive told you some of them |
Yes I would say ao |
I will be assembling myself to migrate upstairs |
So will be slow! |
Ive tried to shield a lot of the graphics. Might not anymore |
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Mid conversation |
Then what? |
Then what what? |
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It shows he read it |
Oh I'm sorry! I should have opened the pic separately |
No, you had a valid question |
Idk why my phone sends them the way it does |
Huh |
Right |
|
Not really |
He was hurt by his ex and wabted to hurt someone else |
He was done with me |
Mmm |
Dang |
Sad fella |
I was so incredibly used in the worst ways |
If it was all physical i would have been more okay with it |
Do you think I'm as sad as he was? (Assuming you think he was sad) |
I dont think you two are similar at alm except in strange ways that could be honest coincidences even though i dont believe in coincidences |
Right |
Like a raging need for revenge |
I agree really |
Yeah, that is something |
I get steamed up |
And he knows i can ruin his life |
But im too meek to do so |
And he knows that too |
What's in it for you is the question I would ask. If you ruined him. |
Very little |
He knew stories |
Yeah |
You know |
I'm not usually a fan bit of faddish phrases |
Fan boy |
But I like 'rent free'. Do you know it? |
I do know that phrase. My complex is full of freeloaders, metaphorically speaking. But i kinda paid for them to stay there |
My only sense is you might be apprehensive that I'm getting preachy |
That isnt it |
I don't actually |
Cautious, and honest |
You dont need to be |
Ty |
I do, as a personal goal |
I need to find the temperance I once knew |
I appreciate that |
I've been kinda sloppy with my emotions for a long timw |
Ty I am grateful |
And I believe you |
Why do you think you've been sloppy with emotions? |
I'm my own worst critic |
I feel like I am growing so much with you |
It's wild really |
And cool |
And gratifying |
Same |
It's kind of obvious that you're my daughter, the one I never had |
You see this, right? |
I did not expect this |
And I don't deny it |
I do see that |
I have asked and you have answered inasmuch |
Is it ok? |
It's just how much I love you |
Yes, it is |
And had moved me to tears now |
It's a way i love you too. But not freepy and fucked |
Please dont cry |
I don't want creepy honestly ofc |
I'm ok. It was a nice rush |
For me, the love i feel in that way for you is more like a trust in protection and caring |
Yes |
I cherish you |
But it also makes me very uneasy at times |
I love you in ways i did not know |
I get it |
I didn't know there were loves based in this kind of feeling |
Right |
In fairness, you had at least a semblance of this, or you saw it really close |
I'm all honesty, I didn't sink in to that line of thinking until December |
What do you mean? |
There's a difference between hearing you're the same age as my step son, and feeling the need to nurture you |
I can easily keep the numbers conversation purely numbers with no feeling |
Does it make any sense? |
Yes |
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This is Dr C? |
Oh no. Not in the slightest |
Oh you're dad |
Yes |
That is ok |
I feel so stupid and cowardly and all of that for not doing it |
He wont know if i listen or nor |
You don't have to until and unless you want to |
L keeps telling me i need to "shit or get off the pot" in talking to my father |
Is that still going on? |
Is what? |
This line from L. You told me about it a while ago |
Oh. Yes. |
Hmm |
He knows more than you and he has seen the interaction between us in more than one setting |
And said before "i thought you were joking or exaggerating. You dont ever have to see him again in my books" because i get so screwed up for so long |
And because of how L saw him treat me |
Sounds like you've inconvenienced the poor lad |
I do that a lot |
Not even joking as much as youd think |
What actions did 'shit out get off the pot ' represent? |
Oops |
Talk to my father or cut off contact completely |
Bc $$ |
Was it? |
Part of it |
I think L somehow feels bad when AFW calls and i dont answer or return it |
Lol whatever |
What's in it for L? |
Besides money? |
How is "getting off the pot" different from status quo? |
Why is L pushing? |
Actually.... kind of ? |
Good for him |
At your expense? |
In soooooo many different ways |
Right |
Hmm |
It's hard not to insult the guy RN |
But I'll refrain |
Idc what you do |
Meh |
I'm not worried about him |
I can tell you worse things if you want, but i know you dont |
Probably not now |
For sure |
But I very much appreciate the open dialogue |
I know these are yuck topics |
Sorry, phone died |
Right, not fun |
Maybe, we'll see |
That seems ominous |
I don't mean it to |
I have I big capacity for you babe |
I know. And i.appreciate that. I dont know why you do |
Idk how you do it sometimes |
I want you to have it |
You don't know hwo i do what? |
Make me love you so much |
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Ditto |
Whee!! |
Ty! |
You are the 4th partner ive ever exchanged ily with |
It probably sounds like i have them out a lot more than i do. You're incredibly significant in having one of them |
I'm honestly thrilled :) |
Oooo |
Haha clock |
The one time that it was me saying it, i was obv first. That was the only time i went first and the only unreciprocated. And i wish i could have taken it back. That's the only regrettable ily ive ever said in my life |
Aww |
I think I told this girl |
In HS |
Her name was ivy |
We really only talked on the phone |
Meet among mutual friends somewhere once or twice |
That lasted all of three weeks |
You told me pretty quickly |
Yeah |
It just fell out of me. I mean I did mean it then and now, but it was an almost involuntary thing |
I knew i loved you then anyway |
Aww ! |
Hate to say I need to sign off |
Same |
For sleeping |
Work tomorrow for me |
7 in the a m |
I can't wait to be with you |
Same :) |
Early work you do |
Me too, not quite as early |
Every time i work |
I know. Whew! |
Late for me too lol |
I |
Do you know all the reasons i dont sleep? Ponder that befire tomorrow |
❤️ |
Ok I will |
I |
😊 |
2025-01-17T06:09:53 |
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Hey you! |
Hieeeee |
What's up? |
Coffee-ing up over here |
Nice 👍 |
How was your night? |
How was your night? |
Lolz |
It was alright |
E tu? |
Decent |
Do you know why? |
Idk why she was volunteering to come upstairs |
Right |
Any dreams? |
No |
Any thoughts or musings, |
It's almost sunday |
Yes, it is |
Hoping for the best! |
😊 |
Yes |
Today will be forever long |
Oh? |
At least Toni is going |
Grim should not |
She makes good company. |
Ah, that babay too |
Is that his real name? |
It is |
I see |
I think it has Scandinavian? |
Omg |
Like they didn't make it up |
That's what i thought! |
Toni has strong Norwegian roots |
Also kind of conjures imagery of a norse troll |
The story kind |
Right? |
That's about what he is lol |
Just did me some tiny research |
Wanna know what it means? |
Stern, noisy, foreboding, from the words for thunder and growing |
So yeah, they prophetized that |
Nailed it lol! |
For sure! |
Why are you up so early? |
Alarm at 6 bc I need time to wake up. I can't stand jumping straight into work |
Omg same! |
:) |
And basically the world belongs only to me im early morning |
Right! |
And the cats |
Bah! |
But yeah lol |
Lol |
Aquarium aside, are you in the market for anything? Like, at all |
Ah geez things cross my mind all the time but they don't always stick |
What did i find for you? |
A big metal shelf |
Chez menard? |
Yep! |
You could just get the same |
Or do you need smaller? |
Probably will |
Aame |
Same |
All that stuff is on sale now for the new year. Basically everywhere |
Keep a notepad with you |
Wrote stuff down when you think of it |
Brain dump it later |
Yeah I've gotten lazy. I need a new notebook I think |
Oh i can help!!! |
Parameters plz |
I want to bind these old pieces of record sleeves to make a notebook lol |
null |
I have a bunch more I'm going to cut up |
Oooh cool! Dyou have a book binder? |
I do not |
I actually think there might be one at afhq lol |
Aside from there, maybe the msu surpluss store |
Hmm... |
Have you ever been? |
I don't think I've actually been there |
Heard of it? |
https://msusurplusstore.com/ |
I would like to go one of these days |
Same. I know about it when they were by the train station but it never made it over there |
Did you want to see my hopeful plan for some new places tomorrow? |
I don't think so? I know you told me you'd like to get out & about |
Imma try to wash this hair |
Dude lol |
Oh oops I'm sorry! I read "did I see the plan" |
Pssshhhhhy lies! |
How's your mop o head? |
OMG that was the worst it's ever been |
30 minutes combing out mats |
Babes! |
Okay, what do you use and do on and in and fir your hair? Full list please |
null |
It would only take a few minutes if I did this weekly |
Do you do/ise anything else throughout the week? |
Nope, I don't even get it wet |
This was waaaaaay too long to wait lol |
Oh wow |
Do you brush it? |
Nope |
It's impossible |
Not as much as you think |
Heh |
Hair stylist can probably help you manage better with their recommendations |
When is that? |
I occasionally throw a little conditioner in to defuzz if I want to look sharp |
Agree, I'm looking forward to it |
Thursday |
Leave-in or whatever you use in the shower? |
Patrick recommended this dude and his husband. They both work there lol |
I do finish my hair with a leave- in yeah |
I have a meeting in a few, then another right after that so may be afk til like 10 |
Ok :) |
Have fun |
So, you pick my design yet? |
Working on it |
I am such a fucking crybaby loser and i hate it |
Why? What's happening? |
I just cry all the time at work criticism and how things are frustrating and a of that. It's aggravation but it comes out as upset teenage girl |
I'm sorry |
It's all part of my coaching plan |
https://www.facebook.com/share/r/19rgAxAEzx/ |
Side note |
I really want you to cuddle me right now. Just nice and amsoft with me shielded in magnificent arms of yours, tucked in and away from everything while you speak ln a low vocal fry to soothe me between kisses from my eyelids to my headband |
I wish i could for you right now |
https://www.facebook.com/share/r/19rgAxAEzx/ |
Ah, wrong one |
But it's obv a morning of rough realizations |
https://www.facebook.com/share/r/1BTGHHT8Ai/ |
2025-01-17T11:53:58 |
((babe❤️)) |
Meh |
I'm fine |
I think i am not great probably |
Did you have a meeting with ck? Is that what spoiled your mood? |
Team meeting, then ck meeting. L missed a dental appt, for which my mother found an appt card and texted to ask if he missed it and why didnt *i* have it on the calendar. Meanwhile he was asleep in *my* bedroom while SIL was asleep downstairs. I was crying the whole time and trying to figure out how to make this better and i feel sick and I'm mad about that too. And this whole stupid company for service center being in this situation. And mad at the mess and that i want to go places and cant and that i have so much potential but was literally told i need to figure out my current role and adapt to that and then maybe we can talk about tapping into potential. And that i need to not worry about or focus on problems that are not directly mine |
And more, but that's a good gist |
I saw this and thought it was appropos |
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Click to expand |
Oi vey |
I'm so sorry |
You're worthy babe never forget that |
I wish I could be there for you right now |
I'll hold you |
And let you know I'm glad you're with me |
And I'm sorry you're hurting |
You don't have to carry all that weight |
By yourself |
I logic brain know that but i experience and realistic brain do not know |
I know |
I want you to hear it from someone else |
I hear it differently when different people say it |
I just want you to know I got your back |
Thank you |
When kirby said as much this morning, i heard it ad "why did you even bother trying in the first place? That was dumb and you're stepping way out of your own space in a bad way" |
It baffles me tbh |
What does? |
His attitude |
His boss hasnt said a word or even looked at me since december 11 |
Does she normally? |
Not really |
So i guess she hated me before and i just appreciate it more now in the afterglow |
She's a twit |
Actually makes me sick |
I feel awful |
But heyyyy lunchtime |
Hi |
Crikey I love impromptu calls from SVPs |
Oh deat. Qcsp? |
Oh you know |
Lol |
How bout the girl who brought in more than $2mil in debt that was in a w/o queue then she calculated the achievements "the loss sensitive billing dept" had then her director took all the credit before throwing her under the bus for making less than 5 mistakes that made everyone really angry bc they cant keep staff? |
Or whatever |
And the loud mouths walk in while I'm on camera talking to her lol |
Boyses? |
Yep |
What time is the departure? |
Do you all have a ddM |
Idk |
*DD |
Me prolly |
Fr, is that okay? |
I'm fine with it tbh |
Okay then |
RLH doesn't really drink either |
I drink enough for both of us lol |
But it will be night driving after a concert and she migjt be elevated otherwise.... lol |
You dont drink that much i thought?? |
According to my doctor yeah |
But whatever lol |
What if i want you to pick my sunday libations? |
Mmm libations |
I mean sure! |
Do you know what youd go for? |
For me |
Idk exactly |
Idk if that's true |
I dont like gross lol |
Right |
That brings me to another point for later |
I wonder if you would like the lambics. Hmm |
They are fruity and sweet |
I think i have been asked this before |
Oh wait that was malbic |
Had an apple one at NYe and it was pretty good |
Ironic lol |
Belgian style |
Malbec maybe is how it's spelled? |
Belgian is so heavy! |
Not these |
I like stella..... |
These are light and crisp |
Like Stella |
But fruity |
Lop |
So like cidre |
Ok that's what I was wondering |
Cool |
Do you remember what i had in september? |
Angry orchard? |
Probably |
Cool, cool |
I can definitely find something for you |
The apple lambic is a lot like cider |
Do you know what I'd typically drink? |
Lol what would you typically drink? Asking for a friend |
I will tell you but do you have a guess? |
Um |
Nah mate |
Shots |
Fosters |
Oh |
No idea |
Why? |
Probably the same reason you don't like Guinness |
NAF |
?? |
nasty |
Lol |
I only started drinking liquor last summer |
Literally |
Gin |
Guinness is okay but i do girly guinness if im out |
2 shots in a very large tumbler |
I do mixed drinks or shots |
Pray tell... Girly Guinness?? |
Guinness with wannabe grenadine |
Bc no pomegranate for you |
No onr said that yet |
Just currants are irish |
You did at Aldi :) |
Lol yes!!!!! |
Hehe |
F |
😂 to “ F |
Ilyt |
Lolol |
You goofball |
Here's a q for you: if i do one new thing with my mouth or my tongue that youve not asked for yet? |
isn't there a "then...." Tongi with this? |
To go lol |
Thennnnnn what do you pick? |
I would even know what's available |
Is there a menu? |
Anything |
For real |
I'm sorry I will have to get back to you |
Ok |
You good? |
Yeah I need to finish something for these profit sharing goons |
Cool cool. I got stuff to take care of too |
One of the man children has lower GI issues. Wonderful |
Medicate him rtfn!!!! |
2025-01-17T16:33:31 |
I hope you havea fantastic time tonight - tolerable at the very least! |
I'm seriously considering backing out lol |
Sick boi is not going either |
Hmmmm |
Not that I want to hang with him lol |
You could do random shit you never get a chance to do! |
I could give you random tasks |
Like what? |
Maybe you feel unwell yourself.... |
I have papers that need ro be sorted, fantasies that need to be explained, you could browse websites for whatever your heart desires... |
Exactly! |
Could buy 3 boxes of chex cereal and send me the receipt |
Lolol |
Could make a plan for traipsing about tomorrow |
What are you on about |
Which now? |
Gonna go shoppin soon! |
Chex scavenger hunt? |
I need those for a prize, sillyboy |
You are a prize lol |
Damn straight |
❤️ |
Thank you I needed the lift |
Hey guess what |
Whhhaaatt |
I'm debating asking you to take more than the recommended blue pill dose so you can realllllly fuck my brains out |
In like 48 hours or less |
I will become a permanent dick head lol |
Better challenges tor me! |
Does it make a difference to you if i spell it cum or come? |
Not really |
That's not a ni |
*n9 |
Damn |
No |
It's fine either way you like |
What's the difference to you? |
I'm trying to be inclusive here lol |
There are sooooo many cheesy reddit posts like "cum on over! Tee hee!" |
It gets... Cheesy |
That's a hygiene problem then lol |
Not to beat the horse further |
Lol |
Right |
Which i have saddddddly witnessed |
Ewwwwww |
FR |
Mercifully I've never encountered cheesy discharge in person |
Doesnt have to be discharged |
Ewwwwww |
Sometimes it's just.... therw |
Cum on |
Have you cum in a mouth before? |
I have |
Where do you like to best during/after oraling to climactic release? |
Well |
There are other directions I'd like to try though |
Other locations as it were |
Thing is, I've never grabbed myself and controlled the situation in that manner |
I want you to do everything you want |
We just probably need to chat about possibilities first |
If you get off anywhere, what are your top choices and why? |
You get 5 |
In your pussy |
1 & 2 are just classically good |
Novel, not nicer |
Ffs |
You can pick more ;) |
Well I never understood pulling out from doggie to do a back shot, but I guess it's worth a try |
Would you prefer more to the back of my throat or elsewhere in my oral cavern? |
No if you're fucking me doggie i neeeeeedd that shot absorbed |
More to the front actually |
Why? |
Visually hot |
Now if you're not into that it's ok |
I've never done it that way myself |
Why in my pussy? What makes you want that? |
It's heavenly. I get to use you as a backstop and you get to experience me exploding inside you |
Yessssss |
Has happened just once, ouai? |
I think, yeah |
Lol I ducked out |
RLH kinda copped an attitude lol, Toni backed me up |
Then she said ok we can take Andy's car, at which point I informed her I'm going to Kroger so she can wait until I get back or take any of the three other vehicles at their diaposal |
Hahahahahahahha |
What're you krogering for? |
You may be a kroger addict if..... |
I have a possibly bizzarre q for ya |
Honestly it was an excuse to gtfo |
Whaaattt!? Youuuuu!? Nahh |
But I am going there |
https://www.chex.com/chextins#hw-iframe |
Need the receipt and i will make you every kind of chex there is! |
https://www.wkkellogg.com/our-foods/promotions |
I know lotsa recipes with cereal |
Gimmmmmmeee offers lol |
Been a hobby since i was little |
Nice! |
Totally |
My grandpa died with a few mil, plus endowments and whatever at various schools. He's the one who hooked me on fre stuff lol. It was just fun |
Ah, the resourceful genes! |
Oh for sure! |
But international travel added to that really positively too |
One carry on bag for one summer |
Oh I'm sure |
So you don't tend to collect 50 lbs of rocks at your destination and then try to board a plane? |
And idk how true it is, but i think I'm never really smelly in large part because of that travel and resourcefulness |
Do I know anyone who would do that? |
I do |
But she's a literal geologist |
Her husband has a doctorate in forestry |
Well that's expected then |
Exactly |
So they have an entire bag full of rocks and wood lol |
I also have the notion that rocks have spirits and only some can ve freely taken and rehomed without bad repercussions |
A la hawaiian lava rocks |
Uh oh |
My aquarium is a spirit magnet |
Some rocks are cool with it |
Im not really joking |
I can prob explain with me new friend mary jane helping me someday soon |
Oh perfect! |
Oh you know her! |
Lolol |
Brings me to my next q |
You ready? |
I'm getting snacks but I'm ready to ok l |
Ok ok I'll ok lolol |
Wtf phone |
Lol |
There's a thing i was thinking of you doing/us trying out |
We wanna place bets she leaves without the tickets? I told you about the tickets right? |
Sorry I'm still brooding |
You did not tell me about them |
Brood all you want babe |
When she bought the tickets she printed them and was going to drop them on my desk to keep track of them. |
Wow I am so ready for my basement |
Right, yes, i do recall that |
Thanks |
Do you want me to ask you to go out tomorrow? |
Ofc you can ask :) |
Lemme think though |
Mmmk |
What if i ask you to do the thing? |
Lol what thing? |
I want to be yours. Explore me, tease me, paint me, play with me. I just open myself to what you want and you take it |
Oh my, best present ever! |
I just don't know RN if tomorrow is a good day |
No prob |
Please don't take it as a no! |
Because I would love to give you a legit rubdown, pat down, lick down, dick town, take me on down to pound town |
And your ticket is free :) |
Oooh yay! |
Tomorrow would be platonic lol |
Odin loves Plato |
Ummmm |
Right |
I was going to say thank god for Plato, but that was a bit heavy handed |
Why? |
Because he brought us all these platonic moments! |
Ah, yes |
Hey |
Yes? |
What's up? |
Heu, would you do a craft with me? |
What is it? |
Idk. Chillin at michaels now lol |
Oh yeah I was going to say if you had things lined up for tonight please don't let me slow you down |
Lol when I went to Michaels |
To get poly fill |
How many times did I walk around the store? |
Ummmm?? |
Do they sell that here? |
Seems like a joann purchase |
Hilarious! |
So what went around Michaels 3 times |
Before I noticed the polyfill in the naîveté scene |
Lolol |
Aaawwws |
Ask the crafty girl duh |
null |
Lol |
Like the separation between Michael's and JoAnn doesn't even register for me |
Not when it comes to piles of white fluff |
null |
Baby bao? |
OMG cute lol |
Now, Mr Bao died as a young puppy, jsyk |
Right, sorry |
It's ok |
Yeah, poor guy didn't have a chance |
And it was super sad |
Big sigh, we miss him |
:( |
I miss my lilly a lot |
And i feel terrible when i call sadie my firstborn |
Do you have somewhere you could use a placemat, |
? |
Maybe? What's it like? |
Cute lol |
Hmm |
Like girly tea s t cute? |
null |
Like ultra duty plastic and baby science cute |
Sadly no |
But they are cute |
Bah! |
:P |
Better get you some poly fill it's going to be cold as cold is cold next week |
https://open.spotify.com/track/7rJWEhDUymfTOCJERCSJ7C?si=q_BuvhCqRAW2dWyOpUTTsw |
Lol okay?? |
How's it going there? |
Heyy! |
All swell I guess |
Expound please |
I'm a happy fish in my basement |
Basically all I know rn |
Tell me what is not going well, what is not okay |
Ma'am I swear ain't nothin |
Okay |
Tell me your plan for Sunday |
Smooch |
I reckon |
By mid-late afternoon tomorrow, I will know if departure plans will be altered |
In other words, actionable information lulz |
Hate that word |
Hate it |
Anyhoo |
I think the sick one will be fine |
There is no doubt he had embarrassment enough route |
But considering his activity and appetite I think it is fine |
Assume they leave by mid afternoon Sunday. Then what? |
Oh la la |
I would need a couple hours to make it ok for you |
Over here |
And by ok I mean acary |
Or we find a convenient place someone else has already cleaned lol |
https://www.choicehotels.com/hotels-near-me?gclid=CjwKCAiAnKi8BhB0EiwA58DA4TuoAn3mr1edlH2ljl8Pu3XSUCT0fnyFoZpMsqSXrHWuz8WJQY2s1xoCt9EQAvD_BwE&checkInDate=2025-01-19&checkOutDate=2025-01-20¤tLocation=true&placeName=Current%20Location&lat=42.7735232&lon=-84.4915095 |
Oh weird look what was on my screen somehow |
Whoa how did you know |
Magic bebe |
Physics or something lol |
So smart |
https://www.guestreservations.com/country-inn-suites-by-carlson-lansing/booking?checkIn=01%2F19%2F2025&checkOut=01%2F20%2F2025&rooms=1&adults%5B1%5D=2&children%5B1%5D=0¤cy=USD |
I pulled out a lot of hair today |
That is all |
Tell me more |
Mm chaise lounge |
Pause |
Office desk |
Youre welcome to text but i will be sporadic for a while |
Okay |
You're spot on with options |
I am blissfully ignorant of matters above me |
Hey gf |
Matters above you? |
null |
Uhh |
Don't you know goldfish when you see them? |
No 👎 |
Aww ';( |
They're little water pigs |
Cuddly like |
In all seriousness they pack a lot of personality |
Nice |
Sorry, needed the inhaler |
Haha it's ok |
Oh crap sorry |
It's okay |
Let me know you're ok lung wise when you are plz |
This is my kryptonite |
I am better now thanks |
It's just what i live with |
Oh. There are memories in this aspect idk if you know about me or not |
If it's about breathing I beseech you, not now please? This is a difficult subject for me |
I have a story for you |
[Repeated from 2023-01-15]
|
null |
Heyyy |
Found the source of poo smell |
2025-01-18T00:47:12 |
Mmhmm |
I would like to clear up a possible misconception. I am not disappointed you are losing weight. In fact, I am contented to know you are well in control, as it should be! Regardless, you are delicious to my eyes and a delight next to me. So don't add this to your worry list lol
|
2025-01-18T04:52:36 |
Hello sweet prince! |
Thank you for clearing that up :) |
Where did that story come from? |
2025-01-18T07:02:18 |
Would you like to adventure today? |
How are things there? |
2025-01-18T09:01:12 |
Hiee! |
What's up? |
You wanna go out? |
Maybe later? You'd better start without me :) |
Awww poor babes! |
The story is two years old and came to mind because it took place at the same venue RLH went to last night lol. |
Everything is fine so far. Everyone is sleeping, as expected |
May i please have the whole story again? It is..... a but strange |
Hey! All sleeping here too |
But i heard about free books and a free $20 to thrift so that was that |
Babe? |
Oh hello |
What part of the story would you like clarified? |
Was it real? |
100% |
How to shut down a good time in 10 seconds lol |
So you intentionally grabbed sole strange girl's tit at a concert venue? |
I mean she draped herself over me she wasn't complaining |
And the whole thing lasted maybe 5 seconds |
Was she trying to take you home? |
I think she was just drunk and flirty and who knows, maybe she wanted more. But we did our little reel and she went on her way |
And rlh? |
Was in the bathroom |
Does she know about any/all of it? |
My story above is about how I told her and what happened next. |
She completely shut down |
Like a hard stop |
What did she think? |
She was pissed |
Why? |
Bc I touched another woman |
Why did you tell her? |
We were being flirty and I thought it might be a little tease. |
You and rlh? |
Yeah |
How arr you today? |
I'm good ! A little sleepy ATM but good |
That's good! |
What have you been up to? |
Just vegging lol |
Could be shoppppppiiiinnnggggg!!!! |
Omg i got so many books already! |
Just Nitya |
Is that the sickie? |
He was, yeah |
Did youhwarabout last night at all? |
No, dude the attendees are still sleeping lol |
Maybe you stayed up! |
Want some boards? |
null |
Fr come have a little resale therapy |
Coffee? |
Weed? |
Pweeeeeeeeze |
Aww! |
Boards then or just me sad. |
Tristessssssse |
My poor baby! |
😢 |
And now? |
Hey you |
I'm escaping |
Right now |
Have you eaten? |
I desperately need to eat |
I have not eaten. Im still our lol |
Want to go somewhere? |
Sure if you feel like it! |
Where are youuuuuu |
1408 lake lansing rd lol |
Omw! |
Oh yay! Im interior |
2025-01-18T18:26:14 |
Merci milles foid mon cher!!!! |
*fois |
null |
2025-01-18T20:08:03 |
https://open.spotify.com/track/2dL8xBmPwWbpO69lqMiYdL?si=7rb_LnT_QfehKiPk48GR7A |
2025-01-18T21:18:33 |
https://open.spotify.com/track/3V8XBqBfJemhd1CP3tRZIB?si=z-P9PxWJRjaXjWtPPbKloQ |
2025-01-18T22:34:45 |
I just pulled a splinter out of my finger using magnifying goggles #dra |
And sterile thingies |
Bruh |
Long story ending in "Popsicle stick" |
What is the first question you ask in this investigation |
1 what kind of popsicle stick |
2 was it used? |
3 is there a snack? |
4 can someone please turn off ' baby shark '? |
5 who dis? |
Doo doo doo doo doo doo? |
6 rhymes with |
Doo! |
You are of the doo |
I am so glad |
Did you nap? |
How are you feeling rn?? |
Did you know I can invoke an involuntary urge to become fucked by me just by baking bread in your house? |
https://open.spotify.com/track/1azxOUjt2VSjhqRvgRDryg?si=tEokQBhnRp-3GkYad4Pc8w |
Lol WOW |
Hmmm? |
Heyy |
Hiiiiiiieeeee |
Yay! |
Did you sleep? |
I will never be jealous of your sleep |
As much as I want you |
I want to know you are sleeping well even more |
I dont think i napped, really. Well, maybe a bit. In the living room |
Alrighty |
I'm picking up a strong go signal here. The usual procrastination, but I'm feeling confident about freedom by noon Sunday |
Only |
That is tomorrow, lol |
Do you know how long you plan on having me, wherever we may be? |
Let's say until late afternoon or 7 pm Monday? |
Or what works |
But yeah |
I have no idea what works |
I'm saying it's open from my pov |
Okay :) |
I'm just the u-guy, idk |
The whom, now? |
I can drive you |
Mmmmmm |
Perv |
And if you should like a different venue we can def do that |
I expect we'll have 24-30 hours |
Oh? As per what such venue? |
Idk |
Actually very close to both of us |
Oh is it? |
Right |
University quality inn it is |
I dropped my eye drops on the floor uncapped |
Noooooo!!!!! |
Sillyboi |
Yuck |
I'm squirting poop in my eye now |
How is your evening going? |
It was my cheapo Kroger eye drops it's ok |
#all poop matters |
Please refrain from conjunctivitusing yourself |
My conjunction junction is fully operational |
Ir has that function? |
Irl has the function of my conjunction junction that's what she said haha |
Oh i know it is! |
I'm glad you recognize this |
Fair maiden |
Well it's not like im just a bill, sitting here on capitol hill or anything lol |
Yes definitely |
Oh really? |
Yes no question |
Can i have your thoughts please? |
Complicated |
Not me |
You |
Story |
Much of the familial lore was new to me |
This is impossible for me to keep track of ATM machine |
But I will pick it apart no worries |
You did retell a few things but packaged in a much longer story arc |
I kind of forgot also, about my brother's funeral |
Have I told you my spy theory of you? |
No? |
Also.... funeral was 8/21 |
Right |
So there's that too |
Yeah |
31 days of let's do better |
https://open.spotify.com/track/6CLCRTsAwlHV5ZMB3H99OO?si=poO2KTeqT7OqO-kRLoCa5w |
And back to school weather fucks with my head |
I understand this completely |
It's a visceral sensation |
Yes |
The angle of the light |
The temperature |
The humidity |
The smells |
It's a perennial favorite |
Then the push of adrenaline that has nothing to figjt, hence panic attacks |
Are you familiar with clonazepam? |
Klonopin is the other name |
Is it anti psychotic? |
Let me check on that |
I remember a bit from the lab, not much |
This is toxicology stuff to me |
Or antispasmodic? |
Are you a spasmo |
I dont think that's okay to ask in 2025 |
Lol |
I just wet mopped a bunch of my basement lol |
Now |
Oh? |
Spasmo you, or non |
Lol |
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clonazepam |
Good good |
What is your relationship with this |
Back when i got out of inpatient ED treatment, they had me on a bunch of drugs, klonopin was one of them. I weighed 99 pounds at my height and took it 4 times a day. If i was even half an hour late i would end up in hospital with sevvvvvvere panicking |
I feel like i was connecting that to something just now but idk |
Mmm |
Are you telling me I should reconsider my weekend plans? |
Why would you think that, |
What would I do for a Klondike bar |
Isn't that a thing? |
Honestly |
If you only wanted to press your naked chest against mine |
For like one minute |
I would be so happy rn |
That sounds intimate and fantastic |
I am so looking forward to spa-ing you up personally |
What are your intentions? |
And I hope you have a good time with the professionals as well ofc |
I want to give you a gentle handsy all over you |
Kisses |
Et c |
So that massage oil stuff you have |
It wont harm me if it gets internalized? |
No |
Okay |
And I have other as well |
Very simple and unscented |
No icky oils. If scent is a concern there are excellent alternatives |
Never patchouli |
Noooo |
I dont like lavender |
No never |
Nooo |
Not that either |
I'm surprised you don't remember |
I do |
Ah |
Yeah you will know it instantly |
If you don't like it please tell me |
Why dont you like patchouli? |
Equal parts learned response And and overbearing nature |
Cliché |
Nag Champa ftw |
This is definitely one thing the Hare Krsnas are on top of |
Is there something new/special/unique youre looking forward to trying? Or even just looking forward to asking me? |
Tbh |
I'm so desperate to merely have you |
But |
Infoi |
Lol oops |
I finally found my bikini bottoms lol |
Genuine ask: what makes you want to have me so much? |
Hmm! |
More complicated than I initially thought |
50% emotional attraction |
50% physical attraction |
50% reciprocation |
50‰ intellectual attraction |
something like that |
Thank you |
Tell me |
I don't know what you mean by it, tbh |
It's listed first for a reason |
Could you please say more? I have a idea of my own over here but i need conceptualization |
Yes ofc |
I am emotionally invested in pleasing you. It makes me happy |
I am also emotionally invested in your success. You are so worth it. Most I want is to see you thrive |
Thank you |
How guarded do you think i am for you between when we met the first time on 91424 and now? |
I think less |
You think? |
https://open.spotify.com/track/2mDXYZlH7DfTPUx1VVm3pT?si=F6t7bYbCSQelXHLp8Bm8JQ |
And please if you do listen to it |
Please also listen to the next song on that album, entitled 'Rain' |
Okay, doing it |
Explain your thoughts on me being guarded or not |
Plz |
One sec |
Sorry lol little catharsis there |
Sometimes these sneak up on me! |
So |
You guarded |
A tale through time |
Is it so |
And I say yes |
Huh? |
Fair Lady |
Mm? |
Right |
You def told me things back then |
And many more since |
heading up to bed soon, might be delayed |
Do you think that my guard is only in what i tell you? |
I'd say 80% of my understanding is based on what you have told me |
Understanding of what? Of me in general? |
I was literally answering your question |
Hmmm. Okay thanks |
Is everything ok? |
Pretty much, why? |
Just want to be sure |
Does it seem like something is wrong? |
No t really |
What happened earlier? |
This bit |
I did see that |
What was cathartic, the song? Please tell me morw |
Yes, the two songs to be exact |
It's an oldie but a goodie |
Good times |
More please? |
My classmates , and adjacent years' friends loved Bauhaus |
And when they split we got two new band |
And then some |
Tones on Tail is in my opinion some of the best |
And so |
Why? |
I find it creative and original |
And also expressive |
And the original band was full of musical genius |
Very cool |
2025-01-19T06:22:20 |
Hi :) |
2025-01-19T07:24:00 |
What's up? |
How are you? |
Good, good |
2025-01-19T09:56:22 |
Hieya |
Oh hello |
How are you? |
So good |
?? |
It's just me and the cats |
Wait, for real? |
Yep! |
Damn! |
How'd that happen? |
They got up at 6 and left about two hours ago |
Oh mannnnn |
Whaddya think about that? |
2025-01-19T12:45:59 |
I think today kinda sucks because that seems fantastic and I'm ultra sick :( |
Oh noes :( |
I'm sorry |
null |
I have zero voice too |
Oh my goodness! |
And a nose that's somehow congested and dry and being too extra |
Well crap! |
I know. Im mad. |
Like, actual mad |
Aww |
My poor baby and I can't even take care of you |
Doggone |
Ughhhhh |
Aww well I'll forgive ya |
Ok :( |
Do you know if you have other time(s)? |
Hmm? I'm free all week but for working lok |
Okay |
Idk |
So there is time babe |
Okay :) |
That makes me feel a lot better |
Yeah no worries |
Are you okay? |
I'm ok babe |
Little bit sad but it ok |
Im so sorry! |
I know. It's not your fault |
If it would be easier to escape while i was sick, I'd even wear a mask the whole time |
Well that's no fun |
Just rest up and we'll snuggle as soon as you're better |
I hope so |
I want a caring daddy right nowwwww though |
I'll come and get you if you want! |
Well I'm in a house with 2 current (human) cohabitants. Unsure how to get around that |
Yeah... |
She's here thru Tuesday now |
Well at least she'll be back home on Wednesday |
Right |
The backnof my nasal passages and my throat feel like theyre stirring up lava with hot rocks and glass. Any ideas how to get them to feel less like that? |
Please |
Do you know how to do a mild saline nasal wash? |
I dont think so |
Well here the deal. Put a small pinch of salt in your palm, fill up your cupped palm with tepid water, plug one nostril, and snort the water up the other nostril. It will clear your sinuses and your throat. Spit. Repeat on other side. Use very little salt until you know how much is tolerable. It doesn't take much. Too much will burn |
I cant figure that out :( |
Aww |
Kinda better-ish. Gargled with my mouth sore rinse (not like disease sores but for when i have lots of periodontal work) and used some saline nasal spray. Been drinking Bahamian tea with honey and huffpuffing albuterol |
How you? |
Ok good job! |
I just finished stuffing my face |
With what? |
Omg this sickness sucks so bad |
Tempe Burger and French fries |
I'm so sorry babe :( |
Where was the burger from? |
Are tempe and tempeh the same ? |
Need nap. Back soon i hope |
Ok babe sounds good |
Sorry |
It's ok baby don't fret |
2025-01-19T17:51:35 |
Hi babe |
Heya |
How are you feeling? |
Less throat/soft palate pain |
Just waking up. how about you? |
Kinda same. I was napping until about 15 minutes ago |
Aw 😊 |
What are you up to now? |
Sitting here with cat, debating whether I should do something lol |
I think you should :) |
Again, i am so so sorry |
It's okay babe! Don't beat yourself up about y |
It |
:/ |
Poor babe! |
NO kidding |
Whay are you choosing to do? |
Washing bedding |
Maybe take care of dishes |
What would sound good for me to consume? |
I would go for soup |
Or similar |
Yeah I was kinda hoping to sneak my mistress in here |
Maybe she's available later and you can get better options |
Soup is warm :( |
Warm is good? |
Noooooo |
Oh |
I do |
Maybe i should take a shower |
There you go! |
😊 |
Now my nose is bleeding. Fantastic :( |
Argh! |
How are you doing? |
I am making Mac & cheese |
Broccoli? |
Just finished my shower |
Oh yummy how was it? |
Long lol |
Good , good |
How is the macnchz going? |
It's stewing as I mull over additives. Broc is a class A suggestion and I'll probably do that |
Hope I have 🥦 |
NB I used ghee instead of butter lol |
Oh interesting! |
Unfortunately no |
Good call though |
Thanks |
So, whats been happening? |
I did a little laundry ... Need to get back to that lol |
Made me ghee-us |
NO |
MC GHEE-US lol |
The joke is dead |
Rip |
Um did aquarium water chemistry experiment! |
Et? |
For science |
Good American science |
So city water is like ... |
You don't really want to know this right |
How are you lulz |
I am.... meh |
I want to know if you're ok |
Akshially |
I think so |
Just a lot of mid sternum on up issues |
Respiratory yeah? |
Yeah but not deep yet |
Right |
Dang I'm sorry babe! |
There's also just soooo much nose snot |
What a rotten deal for you :( |
Warm packs or wash cloths on your face to break up the goos |
Poor baby |
But my eyes feel hot ao i do not want the warm near them |
Right ofc |
We always just stuck a bag of frozen peas on |
And note well the temps are dropping mightily and your inside air will get very dry |
So grab your nearest moisturizing salve |
And work that on in now |
Have a humodifier on each floor. Should prob get another one |
Good good |
As long as they are kept clean this is great |
As if you needed me to tell you that |
Sorry! |
No worries |
You need the old cucumber slice deal |
For my eyes? |
Yes! |
I can make that happen |
I've never personally done this but it makes sense |
Cukes are so mellow, but gelatinous cool and |
And |
Phallic I guess |
But they are tasty I like em |
Have you used something non literal phallus in a, um, pleasing way for someone? |
Yes. Not huge numbers of times but yea |
It's good fun |
Really? |
I'm intrigued now |
Well then |
Please entertain this curiosity |
I want you to |
I'm happy to oblige or assist |
Yeah good! Yay! I will definitely do this for you |
Fucckkkk yay! I hope so :) |
I was hoping you'd try something else too |
Yes yes what is it? |
Are you familiar with The Rose toy thing? |
A little bit, only from OF tbh. They seem wicked hot :P |
I have one |
Or at least something(s) very similar |
Niiice |
Air devices |
Ever used it? |
Pumps? |
No pumps, i think it's air pulsing. Not really sure |
Ive never used or done anything with myself |
I was hoping you would |
Perfect! |
Different toy each time |
I'm down |
One thing i have that i know for sure if the lily allen womanizer |
If you want to look up anything |
Fir science |
I do not understand the results I am looking at |
Copy pasta? |
Lily allen womanizer |
https://www.cosmetify.com/womanizer-liberty-by-lily-allen/ |
Ah yes. There is one in my bedroom :/ |
I bought a special USB charger cord for it lol |
I have a spare cord if you need it |
This product was very popular here |
I have like..... a lot of toys and things |
We didn't buy it |
Wait what? |
Right she got it at a lingerie showing probably orchestrated by Toni |
This is all time fave afaikt |
As far as I can tell oops |
What is word? Lol |
I'll show you what i have in the next few days. You tell me what to bring. Okay? |
I want to know the hottest things you can imagine with and from and of me. And share them, please. I cant know what i dont know ;) |
Right |
Bring any three |
There's not really anything i dont want you to do. And by that i mean i am begging you to try everything |
Bring any three your choice any way you like |
And surprise me |
Do you just mean toys? |
That's what I want |
Yes toys lol |
Or more is fine |
Your discretion |
What is the sexiest you can imagine me looking? |
Black lace babydoll matching bra and panties |
White thigh highs |
Rope or kerchief in your hair |
Brightly lit |
Red lips |
Crouching on your knees with your head back |
How did I do |
Fantastic i think, thank you |
Crouching in what way? |
What act |
Roughly in this manner |
null |
Oh, okay |
Rifht |
Your pale skin will make an excellent contrast |
How do feel about black hair? |
Black i dont think looks great on me, and is reallllly hard to come back from |
Just idle thought |
No worries babe |
Really dark brown is different |
I mean |
Oh no |
I am up to no good though |
Lolol |
Why do you think up to no good? |
I'm inventing your cottage industry porn channel. Aka the cottage pschzzz |
Right |
Loose lips and all |
I am confused? |
You should be by now |
What have you had? |
Sadly. It was not you |
Just the usual |
This weed grind is perhaps spicier than previous |
V nice |
I need you to figure out a thing too |
They left me some! |
Oh yes ofc what is it? |
How do i sit on your face. Like, how do we make that work? |
Oh girl damn |
I reckon there are 2x2 ways basically |
* you can face towards my feet |
* you can be upright |
I meant more of how do i not kill you? |
You do need to use your knees to elevate your princess parts |
I mean I will breathe you as long as I can |
Dude |
What are we going to do for your birthday |
What do you want? |
You in the spring fields in your beautiful sun dress |
https://open.spotify.com/track/08wxu4y4LukTbWywWtxRYz?si=gABeZKtxT1uMFdm8gkGHLg |
Glasgow heartthrobs |
Cute 😊 |
There is much of my musical interest that I owe to HS/college gf's younger brother |
Also of Chinese/Taiwanese descent |
Quite artistic fellow |
When you went down on her. How did you know what to do? |
I had no idea what I was doing tbh |
I understood some basic anatomy but that was about it |
Did you know that other people did that? |
I did, but I didn't understand what goes on |
Can you explain that at all? |
Fwiw, i always understood much MUCH less |
Right |
As in, did not know a gorl could receive oral stimulation |
And thought the in and out of digits was all there was to any fingering or self pleasuring |
This was until my twenties |
Hmm |
I did not know much of anything |
I didn't understand what it meant to do the thing |
My friend Mike |
Who killed himself in the 90s, |
He told me about the first he did it |
Licked a girl's pussy |
We were in hs |
She was a beautiful plump French horn player |
Religious as fuck |
Well somehow he got between her thighs |
I've never been more jealous of anyone lol |
I let it go though lol |
That |
Is all I knew |
What was the txt right before you let it go? That you were jealous? |
null |
Oh yumm! |
Hope so! |
Did you see my question? |
Yes I'm not sure how much you missed |
null |
Okay yes |
Roger that |
When you asked if you could kiss hers, did 1st gf say anything? Did you have any idea what it would be like? |
She said yes |
How did you do things next? |
I don't remember a lot tbh |
I'm sure I used my tongue a lot lol |
So you knew that much |
Lick lick lick mmm |
Ohhhh i so want to be with you |
Lick lick lick |
You weren't afraid of her taste? |
Yeah |
No I rolled with it |
I think i would like more parts of me sucked |
Maybe teased too |
Oh goodie! |
I want to experiment and play too :) |
And I'm all for sucking |
And teasing |
Fuckkk yes! Same |
Yay! I love playing with you |
Same |
And I hope I get to hold and squeeze you lots and soon |
I hope so, too |
What are the top experiments for you to perform on me? |
Find out what kind of stimulation I can provide with my tongue at your vaginal orifice |
2025-01-20T05:19:59 |
The sleep took over again :/ |
2025-01-20T07:35:57 |
So your question.... pressure is a big desire right now, and maybe circling/swirling, I'm inteigued by the idea of your tongue going inside. My best sensitive spots there are riiiiiight at the entrance and a little above, basically along the center line as vlose as you can get to the bone, and just above my opening above her orifice headed toward my clit |
2025-01-20T09:00:07 |
I love waking up and reading about your princess parts ❤️ |
My princess parts? |
Nah, theyre yours |
How are you feeling today babe? |
I think better! |
Yay! |
What will you be doing today? |
Good question |
What should it be? |
I definitely need to tend to the kitchen |
Are you in the mood to do anything? |
I'd kinda like to bake something |
Oh you should! |
Emm? |
Like brownies but not cocoa |
Ahh |
Are you headed out anywhere today? |
I was thinking I might yeah |
Aww |
I was thinking I should go back to D&D to have another look at speakers |
And there's the furniture place too |
The southside one? |
Right |
Sounds fun! |
It's bloody cold out |
Then maybe you stay in? I wish i would be allowed to go out |
Hmm |
Would you be allowed to go out if you were just staying in somewhere else? |
I doubt it |
Just angling for ya |
Thanks |
Ah yes |
Are you looking for something besides th3 speakers? |
Maybe an air compressor |
For what? Pneumatic tools? Tires? |
Possibly tools. Mostly for cleaning parts though |
Like to blast off yuck? |
Right. And dust on camera stuff too |
Yep |
I need weirdly specific stuff today lol |
But i want it NOWWW Mentality |
Yeah? |
Yeah. A few totes. Tissues. Prob some other stuff i cant remember roght this secone |
I'm still the only one awake anyway :/ |
I'm shocked lol |
I just |
Lulz |
You know what they say |
Fuck this noise? |
You snooze you lose |
Yeah that too |
But tell me how you really feel plz |
He is supposed to feed her between 7 and 8 |
Oh shit |
Ive been up since 5 |
He keeps telling me she will not infringe on me and what i want to do, that's obv always a lie |
Emmhmm |
Sorry |
I decided ollie gets a fancy rug |
null |
Is he a fruit maven lol |
He is fancy kitten |
Is it normal for albuterol to induce shakiness? |
Lol at this- i dojt have the right tissues |
Well let me help? I am a household expert! |
Yes I find too much Albuterol makes for increased pulse and could cause shakes |
Thanks! |
I didnt know if it was a bad reaction |
I would LOVE a household helper too |
Yeah? |
Absofuckinglutely! |
So would I lol! |
We swap? |
Yeah. You and I team up, everyone else can do whatever |
Oh definitely! |
You make food yet? |
Yep I just ate. |
Reckon I'll get a quick shower and |
What did you make for food? |
Just cereal lol |
Better than your typical bean broth |
Lol |
Where are you headed and for how long? |
I'm thinking D&D first on Cedar |
Do you want me to pick you up? |
Can i let you know in a bit? When you leave? |
Sure thing. I'll be 20-30 minutes before I go anywhere |
Cool thanks! |
Getting ready to leave the house. Do you want me to pick you up? |
I think i have to pass :( No need for extra suspicions here |
Thanks though! |
Right right |
If you feel like finding a random few things, you let me know! |
Specifically, two 32 or less quart size storage totes and some cubical box tissues. I am pro lotion today |
Oh! When you're at the places, can you show me if you find cool disney or harry potter stuff? Or alice, per usual |
Please, ofc |
Roger that! |
Thanks! |
I also wear lots of whatever you want ;) |
:) |
How goes? |
Not bad! |
Ewwww |
Fwiw, none of my thrifty places |
What'd ya get? What's the coolest thing you saw? |
Found me a subwoofer finally, and got a little air compressor |
Coolest thing.... |
Plenty of coldest things! |
Lol ofc! |
Home? |
Yep |
What you up to? |
NOT opening new tissues |
Goofing around with my new acquisitions |
You said nothing about them! |
Well I surely did lol |
I know you have at least 3 bew devices, and what the 2 items are |
The. End. |
Yep I need to fix a small leak in the compressor hose |
And figure out where to put my subbie |
Well it's your house ... |
Oh I have a nice place reserved for you |
PS cats hate air compressors |
Where's the place? |
In my bedroom! |
How delightful! Tell me more |
Yes! Recently vacuumed, this quaint post-war kit home bedroom features low ceilings, chipping paint, and sparse insulation. It makes a great excuse to cuddle up! |
Sounds great! |
A freshly made bed with nothing matching - truly a retro ensemble |
Preheating available on request |
I was expecting different but i suppose that suffices |
I could make it smell like lilacs |
There is a window |
I could chat up the woman next door to she if she would please come borrow a cup of sugar |
Or chat up the girlie across the street and she if her and her beau need a cameraman |
Oh, love hat! |
*that |
And then there's the cutie across the way that moved in last summer with her new hub. |
Here's a character you can develop:
|
Mmhmmmm |
Right |
Wednesday, eh? |
Yes my fair child? |
What be your plans? |
I haz day off lol |
So |
And so |
I should love to see you |
Here, there, everywhere |
I just need to know plansy things please |
I would love time alone with you |
Mmhmm, i hear you |
It comes down to my place, your place, or else place |
We need a spreadsheet |
Pros and cons |
It's a grid |
We can both do that! |
With quadrant |
Right |
Make informed decisions! |
Ok |
I need headings |
Perfect |
I would say |
Options are your place or elseplace |
Ok good |
My place is available as it turns out, and it's free |
Right right |
But we have to be a little careful |
Right |
I have a goofy plan |
Shoot |
I can drop you off on the other side of my house |
Which is also behind a hedge from the nosey neighbor |
Okay |
Lol |
Downside is my house is a dump |
You have yet to articulate the actual plan for the day |
I'm sorry I don't have a script |
Meal prepping and tax filing it is |
?? |
You wabt to spend the day doing....? |
Maybe I don't actually know yet |
I didnt know what you wanted to do that day. That is all. |
Babe |
I feel awful telling you this |
Why? |
Why do you feel awful? |
Because I'm dancing around euphemisms for "back off plz" |
I cant |
And I hate saying that |
That's okay |
In really blunt terms for this instance, I'm wondering when getting waxed would be my best option |
My ability to spend time with you is foremost the question of whether to you feel and in fact are sufficiently healthy. |
And all the peripheral stuff is 100% optional |
Like, you don't need to load up all these requirements for me babe |
I dont know what to say |
Say you will prioritize your health |
By which it seems you have a lot of energy |
I still dont know what to say |
Right |
And deal with me later |
Wait what? |
I am all ears for solutions |
Sidenote that i get to wfh tomorrow |
Oh, noice |
Imma give you a nice rubdown in my bed. |
The room will be cold, but I can make accommodations |
On Wednesday? |
Regardless of day, it sounds beyond amazing |
Let me ch ck |
Wednesday? |
I can squeeze in you that day! |
Lol |
Oh crap is it Tuesdays child again? |
I am lost |
Yay! |
Me too if I'm honest |
Want me to explain? |
Have at it! |
Have you ever played Uno? The cards game |
Yes! It's been a long time but yes |
The reverse card takes away what you were going to do and giv3s it from me to tou instead |
OMG lol |
I am a dullard at heart |
You are la bamba |
Los bablmitoes |
Lol |
Mea bambs |
Bambes |
Lol |
2025-01-20T20:40:17 |
Heyy |
Oh ceci la |
As a linguist, do you have an intuitive sense for the purpose of gender in nouns?
|
It depends on the language |
Why ask? |
Are the societal norms the reason for, or the result of the distinction? |
That would be an interesting doctoral dissertation |
Right |
What is your haunch? |
Oops lol |
Do you know the french wo4d for vagina? (I'm leading to a point) |
I don't actually |
Vagine (veh-zheen) |
It is masculine |
Mind blown |
Seriously |
So i think it is as a result of whoever wad in power and what they wanted to value owning |
For real |
Like ships and vessels and |
And animals? |
And windows? |
And furniture |
I don't get it |
Countries are different too |
Not quite |
Oh wait what |
In English too |
La france |
In american English, what would you call the home country of familial lineage for Germany? |
I am not afraid of your wizardry woman |
I feel yucky :( |
Oh dang |
I feel like a lot of me is on fire. And my upper abdomen is making everything feel worse because of the pain and discomfort there |
I would gladly take whatever that would help me but idk if anything would |
I am open to suggestions please |
Is it heartburn? |
I dont really know |
Right |
My eyes feel hot and it's been driving me crazy for days |
How is the uri? |
Okay i guess. More upper and annoying than anything |
Right ok |
And my abdominal pain is localized primarily to my upper right quadrant |
What do you make of it? |
I don't even know |
Dang I'm sorry lover |
Me too |
I just want to feel better |
And for things to be better |
Yes |
I'm really really sorry |
Why? |
For being perpetually the mess i am |
What can I do? |
I don't know |
Actually, that might be part of the answer |
What do you think i need? |
A safe place and time to heal |
Yeah 👍 |
Unsure why the thumbs up is there |
Do you think any of that is possible? |
Yes I do |
How do you think so? |
I guess you have to want it |
That's probably all true. Thank you. |
What are you doing now? |
Kinda falling asleep |
Then goodnight, sweetheart |
2025-01-21T07:45:17 |
Hey you |
Same to you |
null |
How are you? |
What is this picture? |
Oh I'm so glad you asked! |
Wow |
That's my mom's brother's daughter (her fam) |
Dan legit walked up to me at Leslie's funeral (in novi since the rest of us live here in michigan) and said "hey rebecca, it's me, your cousin Dan" |
That uncle (my mom's brother Ron) was a year or 2 older than she was. They hated each other but he wad super close with their sister, my aunt Marcia, who is Lauren and Leslie's mom. |
But anyway, how are you? |
Kinda sleepy but doing fine I guess |
What's wrong?? |
I'm just sleepy/lazy this morning |
Oh, I'm sorry |
It's ok how are things? Are you feeling better? |
Im okay thanks |
Sure! |
Yay! 🎉 |
You need anythingM |
I do actually |
Ohh? |
I am out of milk |
Where do you get yours? |
It's delivered once a week. Tomorrow's the day but not until noon |
So I'll just get a half gallon from the store |
I have milk if you want some of it |
Just got it this weekend |
That's nice of you! |
Not to be rude, but.... yeah? Isnt that just something you'd expect of me? |
I just thought I'd say so |
I appreciate that, thank you |
❤️ |
Okay wait - |
I think my actual thought is more like |
Aww ty |
I feel like i am not life-ing well these last few ... whiles |
Nbd it's not always easy |
Yeah |
Have you eaten today? |
Not yet |
Aw |
Well. |
Deep subject lol |
Ffs |
Seriously |
My jaw already hurts from this |
Not to mention its her birthday |
Well it was on Sunday but it's today according to whatever he told her and she doesnt know any better |
So any of the random stuff i git her (bc why would he ever think to do that) is what i get to wrap today |
Would you like bright sides to this? |
I would |
I think i can still manage to get out of the house tomorrow |
Amd again, immensely sorry but i let you know as soon as i did |
Yes of course, always best to know |
And I'm realllllllllly sorry |
Good call |
It's too cold to be out with breathing issues anyway |
Meh |
I am wfh today |
Have to make up an in office day in Friday for it |
Lovely, eh? |
How are your records stored? |
Translation is that i need to store mine somewhere but i dont have a great solution other than an large plastic crate or tote |
null |
Lemme at en! Alphabetized in less than an hour by artist |
But then you have to choose how beyond thar |
Lol they are alphabetized:) |
And I made dividers for some artists |
Sexyyyyy |
Lol |
Yes |
But I appreciate the offer! They were unorganized a year ago. It drove me insane |
Wait til i show you my sexiest writing implements! |
You know my books are alphabetized in the fiction section right? |
Yeah I think you told me that |
And non fiction is in my own dewey system |
The Dewey GAF system |
...genius? |
Dewey Cheatam and Howe |
Dewey dew drops sparkling in the morning mist |
Some dew |
And some dew not |
Hmm? |
Just mindless riffing |
That's nice :) |
2025-01-21T12:17:47 |
How is the working? |
It's taking a break |
Ah |
You okay? |
Did they all make it to AR okay? |
Yep they did |
Got there about 7pm Sunday |
Please tell me how you are and what youre thinking? |
I kinda mopey and not looking forward to afternoon neetings |
Besides the obvious me factor, why so mopey? Then, what about the meetings? |
I just feel like I got up on the wrong side of the bed again, and want to go to bed so I can try again |
I understand |
An i pink? |
null |
You're privileged, btw |
Ty it's nice to see your face! 💖 |
Haha, thanks |
But am i pink? I feel warm and flush |
You do look a bit flushed |
Firefaced |
I would love if you could think of activities of a non naked nature for tomorriw if we need them please |
Lol ANNN |
SFW activities |
Like you want me to come over and we can play twister? |
Ummmm |
I know |
Okay |
Just kidding |
It's just a maybe |
Fair. Also I want to make sure you're actually recovering and not stressing yourself out |
Hmm. That's not something that occurred to me |
Won't do you any good to pick up another bug while dealing with the first one |
Ooo but i could argue that. I wont. |
By being in a room with sick people |
Are you sick? |
No |
Hope not! |
I just mean the people you might find at shops |
Right |
I could wear a mask |
True |
I do have an alternate idea |
Lay it on me |
It would involve me imposing on you |
Hmm? |
Trying to figure out id i could come over Friday night and leave eventually on Saturday |
That should work just fine |
Should i be? |
No |
But it is a mess |
Youve been here |
But I have and will continue to clean up here and there |
It does not matter to me |
Hmm? Exchange? |
Did you want the sfw or nsfw version? |
Yes :) |
Sfw |
NSFW is oddly the same |
Lolol |
I'm serious |
!!! |
I'm happy to give you a ride if I can |
Are there puppies too? |
null |
Byo puppers. We had catses galore |
Oh so you're not trying to lure me somewhere with bonbons? |
How about shiny things? You like shiny things? |
null |
Shiny penguin! |
Yes! |
Hey babe |
Heya |
FYI there is a bag of books in my car. Sorry about that I missed it the other day. |
Is it green? |
Yes |
Lol thanks! |
I wondered where it had gotten off to |
It was wandering around in the back seat |
Damn curiosity |
Bags these days.... |
I know, right!? |
Assuming i can get out tomorrow, it probably wont be until afternoon |
My thoughts are I can occupy myself and if you become available, groovy |
What if i cannot, at least not for large swathes of time? |
I mean its fine I have things I can or should be doing |
Would you like to add anything to that? |
Umm, like what? |
Like you'll be perturbed that you took the day off and I'm flaking on it |
I'll just leave you in suspense on that one, but there might be a licking involved at some point |
Mmmhmmm i see |
Maybe a little tappy tap tap on your precious pink butt |
Who knows |
You haven't spanked me, have you? |
I don't reckon |
And look what happpens |
Reckon you might like it? |
Right? |
Oh, there also a "pink" bag in my back seat. I'm sorry I missed that as well. |
Lololololol |
That explains a lot |
Yeah |
Sorry |
Oops |
Is this just how you keep me attached? Steal my books?? |
Ssh you're not supposed to know |
Aw shoot! |
Tomorrow will also be dependent on roads i think:/ |
Roads are fine.ish. |
Yes, but tomorrrrrrrrrow |
It's the drivers you gotta watch out for lol |
Lol |
Y'all are well-appointed for such conditions innit? |
Well yah very much |
Right |
So, what you up to? |
Eating peanuts and talking to you :) |
Haha, nice |
And wondering why the cats are all looking at me. I fed them 20 minutes ago lol
|
They think you are now food |
O snap right? |
I think they dislike the sunwoofer |
Lol subwoofer |
They act very oddly around it |
Now enjoying the olives what you got me |
They are delightful tyvm! |
Oh yay! |
What brand? |
Pshhhht i know which |
Lol |
My everyday everyman's Olive favorite |
null |
Olive juice and elephant shoes too |
Yumm |
Get it? |
Say them in a mirror |
I don't get it |
I did it at my phone |
Now say I love you |
Lolol |
I gotta wash milk bottles! Brb |
Heyy |
Oie!!! |
How're you doing? |
Meh. You? |
D'accord |
What's that? |
Comme ci comme ca? |
Oh lol oops |
Ok is acceptable too |
I see. That's the sense I thought I was using |
Now I'm confused |
B |
Right |
D'accord |
"D'ac" works too for that lol |
Nice. I didn't know that! |
What else are you doing? |
I just put some rice on |
I should check that actually |
Mmhmm |
Right. It was perfect timing. I'm chuffed I can make rice on the stovetop consistently. |
You're welcome for the timing reminder!!! |
Ty :) |
❤ |
For lack of better phrasing... |
That's a reasonable guess. You're going to be right. |
Lol that was a lot of words for "YES" |
I love that. Thank you! |
For the better |
😊 |
Yay! |
Yes |
Lol and that doesn't mean my preoccupation with that always has to control the situation |
Like, I'm single minded, yes |
But I can also be patient |
I am a good boi lol |
Like... i didnt know if i was always attractive i guess? |
Something along those lines |
You're worth it :) |
Ty |
To me, that is a different sentiment |
Gotta forage. Back soonish |
Same! |
Heya |
Hiya |
Did you find food? |
Yes! |
Sure did! |
What did you have? |
I ended up with a plate of nachos with the mixed bean/mushroom prep I did earlier. Didn't even touch the rice I made lol. |
Lol |
If you were to go somewhere tomorrow, where would you choose? |
And I'm so sorry for the delay - out of my control |
2025-01-22T07:44:03 |
Heyyy |
Hiii |
How are you babe? |
Idk. Okay i think? |
Did you have more thoughts on today? |
Right. |
Sorry I napped out lol |
Mmhmm |
Right |
I dont have much to go off of from you right now |
What is it you need exactly? |
If you are headed anywhere, where that would be and when |
I have no plans |
Are you working (yet/still)? |
I can be flexible |
I am working now. |
I am not trying to be |
No worries |
Have most of a plan now |
Pick between Schuler books, Frandor, or another location of your selection please |
Hmm |
I should go to Preuss at some point, but maybe not first |
Where would you like to meet is basically the question |
I see. I guess Frandor |
It can be basically anywhere |
Also when please |
And what would you like me to bring with today |
How does noon sound? I need to shower first. |
That should be fine |
Idk where you like to hang out in Frandor. I'm guessing it's not the hardware store. |
Tbh I hardly know what's in Frandor lol |
I can generally find lots of places to hang out |
Yep |
Okay |
Like ??? |
You tell me |
Nope, tne world is a relatively small place. If i need it i can get it |
I honestly don't know what you are on about. |
Can you please just say what is on your mind? |
Yeah. Working on too much at one time, sorry |
Inserting Lol to show good mood |
Ok thank you. I'm well stocked. Also I kinda put sex out of my mind per your suggestions yesterday |
Wait, i suggested that? |
Yeah, a couple times in a couple ways. It's fine if you're thinking differently now, I just don't know how to read between the lines sometimes |
That aaid |
That said, I don't have any saliva thingies |
So there's that |
Lol, okay |
All good babe |
2025-01-22T12:13:00 |
How's it going? |
Hangin in the frandor |
Same |
So many doors |
So little Fran |
Lol yes |
Yeah but also... you live here |
Realizing I could not name half of the storefronts here lol |
Exactly |
Are you behind door number 1, 2, or 3? |
Yep |
Are you busy ? Would you like to get lunch? |
Lol |
Can do |
Where are we finding me? |
Nowhere ATM machine |
Er, ?? |
Ok I've looked at every person in Frandor and they aren't you. So I think you're tricking me |
Im in homegoods |
Did you want more direction? |
2025-01-22T19:12:30 |
Heya |
Hello :) |
How are you? |
I'm feeling really good |
I loved the tele novella discussion. This has been in my faves forever lol |
One sed |
Sec |
Right |
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Lol purrfect! |
He is sleeping |
More thoughts from you? |
Lol kittehs |
I had a fabulous time with you |
I loved the surprise ending |
Yay! |
That made me ridiculously happy |
Today was so, so beyond fantastic |
Yay! |
You're a trooper |
Why? |
Too cold makes me scared if I'm already not breathing well |
Nbd for me today |
I don't know honestly |
Hmm |
And i have had much much much worse for breathing |
Ok very good then |
I feel bad for you though |
I had better plans for us |
Aww |
I want to give you a massage too |
Please and please :) |
It's just a pretext to slip and slide around on top of you lol |
I liked it a lot today :) |
😊 |
Does your dick feel sex differently at all? |
Like between times or partners or anything |
Sometimes yes. This is one instance. Neither good nor bad. In some way I feel like the squeeze is "worn in". Not painful, always temporary |
And nothing to be concerned about |
I guess you could say I feel used lol |
Like that I'm too loose or too tight? On you? |
No no |
Not too much anything |
I think me being semi -hard is a factor |
I can feel you get harder |
Mmmmm |
I love that |
I hope it's a good thing |
Yesssssssss |
You make me do that |
Nah mate |
I can only imagine |
For a woman |
What would come to mind though? |
I actually had a brief trippy moment many years ago |
And it was different in some way, and in some way it was exactly what I thought it would be |
What do you think i would be like tighter? |
I mean if you can guide me in I will try :) |
Almost always to an extent |
I dunno babes |
Hmmm |
Noooooo |
What? |
I think you felt just like you did the day we nighted together |
When we b nighting |
Am I doing this right |
Yes |
I just have issues with myself |
And you help me work through them |
Aww |
And ty for telling me |
It causes a lot more issues at first |
If it's working, I say yay! |
Yes |
Weren't you just telling me how experiments are supposed to be conducted? |
Now look I'm all biased |
But it's still doubleblind in somesenses |
I have a motivation to |
What's your motivation? |
Lick the back of your neck because |
It always turns out well for me, and today especially so! |
Yes! |
Please return at your earliest convenience |
Actually not joking |
Okay! |
I need some sleep. I have not had much this week |
Ofc |
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Before i try fie that, can you please tell me anything you know about me and my portugal story? |
Majority of time spent in hospital |
Do you know the med situation? |
Be as blunt as you need to |
I don't recall |
And I'm sure you told me |
Honestly I might have cancelled it |
Huh. Okay. So you dont even know why i was in hospital there? |
No |
Not atm |
Ohhh |
I'm sure there's a trigger, can't be too hard to find |
There are several |
Triggers and med things |
Imagine that |
You were to bed |
Yes |
I mean yes and no but yes |
So when should I shush you |
I should be shushed about now |
Right |
The yexh |
Indeed |
I'm sorry babes |
I hope you feel right as rain in the morning |
Me too |
Thank you for today |
And you |
Ravishing |
I hope you can feel when you give me things i havent felt before |
I don't always know they're new to you |
But they're New to me |
I think you do for important ones |
How is any of it new to you? |
I want to ask a question |
Go ahead |
Twice you were non-vocally telling me (asking me) for things |
Like breathing lol |
Okay |
It just made an impression on me |
Why? |
Do you remember? |
No |
Np |
First was when you wanted water |
You motioned drinking |
Yeah |
You remember this now yeah? |
Yes |
Cool |
Second was when I was kinda cutting your airflow (sorry!) and you waved me off |
It's okay |
You weren't doing it really |
I just needed to cough |
Cool cool |
Idk why |
But when I replayed these later in my head |
I thought you seemed so calm about it |
Because i was |
And I feel like I should ask if this is accurate? |
Because I would have been more frantic |
We're in the same position |
Craaaaaap |
Lol |
What? |
Were I in the same position as you, I would have been more frantic |
Oh |
And you were calm fr |
? |
Yes |
A few reasons |
Those are literal ASL signs and it doesnt always cross my mind that people don't just know them. So i communicated what i needed as best as i could |
The next part is good and not good i guess. |
Pause |
I'm guessing "learned behavior" for the second part? |
Jsyk |
My main interest in this |
More like ive been in suchhhhhhhh worse situations |
Only pertains to how I treat you |
I knew i had time before i needed to be frantic |
Sounds like I'm well inside the green zone |
I also trust you almost 100% now so you would have gotten the hint eventually |
Ffs yes |
And the worst that would have happened iw i would have looked really fucking stupid puking on your bed |
Pressure on the abdomen I have experienced personally lol |
❤️ to “ And the worst that would have happened iw i would have looked really fucking stupid puking on your bed ” |
Oh shit I died |
It would have been from dry coughing lol |
And I forget no one is here to save me |
Right |
So I think you know my position on breathing |
Yes |
Vive la air |
That's my brand |
You dont know ny experiences with it yet though |
Nah nah |
Maybe someday |
Which is why you dont know yet |
I will be physically ill |
Ty |
I dont know how broad you'd even be okay with so until you tell me, just know i also know |
Thank you for being caring on this point |
It's a profound fear for me |
To be fair, i give a prepremptive warning on everything |
Yes you do |
I know whence my distaste comes |
And it is distaste |
From when you were very small |
Yeah |
It wasn't like today |
Albuterol was not a thing in people's pockets |
There was epinephrine spray |
And epinephrine pills |
And otherwise ineffective anti allergy meds |
Epi is the worst |
Everything else sucks |
So many times I sat, outside, in April, in Kalamazoo, wrapped ina blanket, barely able to breathe |
Huh |
I hope you didn't just wake up in the middle of fuck all and read all that with no context lol |
Lololol |
Hang on one sec |
Hey |
Thank you for sharing all of that |
Got caught up in my own tiny panic for a sec. |
Ok babe take care xoxox |
2025-01-23T06:52:35 |
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2025-01-23T08:33:00 |
Hi! |
Hi! |
How are you? How are things today? |
I totally slept in by accident lol |
I'm okay thanks |
So it's like good news/bad news ? |
I guess |
What are you up to today? |
I'll let you know when I'm awake lol |
OMG I was sleeping hard. Still trying to shake it lol |
Aww |
null |
Oops |
Ooo that's a touch high |
null |
Feels hard to breathe but i guess not |
And i am so tired today |
Way to go lol |
Sorry! |
:) |
😛 |
Heyyyy |
Hey |
Sorry had a meeting |
Oh yeah, no problem |
I also really enjoyed Pablo's, in case i didn't say so |
❤️ to “ I also really enjoyed Pablo's, in case i didn't say so |
❤️ to “ I also really enjoyed Pablo's, in case i didn't say so |
Found something noteworthy... |
https://www.wilx.com/2025/01/21/blue-cross-blue-shield-needs-trim-600-million-budget/?fbclid=IwY2xjawH_SKxleHRuA2FlbQIxMQABHQpjjeBkHOiLQk21ral5xT6El3MCGZ7fpPexDTKPUo-aZAdC4BXK81fOxg_aem_c0TK4mTitw8aytFnaIoffQ |
And on the zuckerpages... |
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They both work here. Like today |
And then... |
null |
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Wow |
Right? |
Busy day for you? |
Yeah I have a thing I have to do for profit sharing because we don't have systems. Sound familiar? Lol |
Unamused. |
What kind of palpable frustrations do you need? |
Alas they've been communicated |
I wonder if they have armor? |
Or maybe altars too? |
They do |
If ONLYYYYY someone warned them. Weird. |
Lol |
If only they didn't unilaterally decide how finance operates and tear out a system for accounts payable |
What? Like customers or agents wabt monies and the coverage they pay for and reckrds and reliability!? |
2025-01-23T14:25:28 |
Omggggggg and uggghhhhh |
This woman |
null |
2025-01-23T15:34:23 |
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But hey, check out this bestest boi! |
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Awws |
Should I ask how things are? |
A little frantic lol |
Wanna talk about it? |
It's all good ty |
Good job! |
I thought you were really irritated by me |
No! |
No such thing |
I do have to head out for my hair appt soon though. So don't despair babes! |
Have tons of fun!!! Before and afters please :) |
Will do! |
2025-01-23T18:44:56 |
Heya |
null |
null |
Awww |
How are you? |
Good, good. That was somewhat energizing! |
Yay! |
null |
Do i get to see?? |
Btw, responses may be sporadic for a while |
And about this weekend, dear sir |
Yes what is it? |
And yeah I had him take some pics |
Send please! |
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It's not a dramatic visual change |
But it feels so much better |
Im so glad! |
How does it make you feel? |
Like a million USD |
I'll tell t e m u lol |
Lol |
Yes yes |
I think so :) |
How's it going over yonder |
I'm still chuffed and in disbelief that you think I'm fun |
Can I help with anything? |
You wanted to discuss this weekend? |
Yes |
You were typing then stopped? |
I thought you had something to say or ask |
I usually do, and yeah, but you go first. I need to forage |
My place or somewhere else? |
Is that really all you were say-asking? |
I didn't have anything honestly. I was recalling this: |
?? |
You never completed that |
Yes. It is in my anxious, decision making, not my choices kind of mind that is the now |
Cool, cool |
I propose my place |
I'll list out what's happening for my mind and maybe you can help |
I have to go to the office tomorrow and that's fucking stupid because i am obv sick and there's no reason i actually need to be there, but it's that or sick day or partial sick day. Those are my options. I still have 5 mandatory OT hours this week and oh yes, next week too. And yes, systems are gone saturday night and most of Sunday |
I got you |
I will not pressure into anything, including hanging with me |
I also have a couple things I want to jaunt around for this weekend. Maybe there's a common opportunity :) |
And I get it. Poking the bear has consequences |
That's not the issue, but thank you |
I'm open until I'm not lol |
No idea how long that'll last |
Have you talked with anyone? |
Got a text from Nitya today lol |
Is that the first since they arrived? |
Lol! |
Not the first lol |
He found me some woodworking tools in an old shed |
Thoughtful |
Right |
Where was this shed? |
MIL's place. She has ... 4 sheds? |
And a chicken house |
A big chicken house |
Right |
Well it kinda sounds like you should play things by ear for a bit |
I'm really sorry |
I know. Thanks. I do not do well with that when i have zero control |
Totally understand |
Yeah. Would be much easier managed if i had more of a choice about the office. Or more sick time i guess. Or if i could decide what i do tomorrow if i opt to not work |
Right |
Maybe go to the spa |
Yes, someone beyond fantastic has made this more realistic |
But |
I cannot do anything if souse & sil are still here |
Right |
Well use me as a sounding board or whatever you need |
I did, thanks |
😊 |
HEEEE ISSSSSS AASSSSLLLLLLEEEEPPPPPP |
fml |
Oh no |
Oh no what? |
Is he asleep in your bed? |
No |
Oh ok. I jumped to conclusions |
But i cant discuss anything |
And as if i didnt want to just sleep all week |
His boss let their team wfh all week |
Ah |
My chest hurts :( |
Aww :( |
Just kinda got news while i also got scolded |
Whatever for? |
I am "doing too much" by putting away kitchen things and cooking food for myself (one dish, from freezer, in oven). |
Right |
Yes |
They have been |
Obv my fault |
Peut-etre |
Was he serious about the cooking? |
Yes |
That's kinda baffling |
I have been "active" for 38 minutes |
I take it your plan is to take food and inactivate upstairs where every movement is not criticized |
Oh. That. Well, since he decided the guest room needed to be cleaned, that is now her oasis and where he has also been chilling. That is upstairs |
Fab |
Yep |
I think I'm headed to bed soon |
I am |
I also crashing out here |
I'll tty in the morning then |
Gotta fz you in a sec |
Ok? |
Np |
You, too! |
Fz til later now please ❤️ |
👍 to “ Fz til later now please ❤️ ” |
2025-01-24T07:02:40 |
Happy pre burns day! |
Yay! |
null |
How are you? |
Hieee :) |
I'm fine |
Just fine? |
Just fiiiine lol |
What's on your agenda? |
Make it through The day without being by cats |
Are you missing a verb? Acceptable as is, lol |
Lol oops |
Best of luck with that |
I was unsuccessful in my pleas to escape overnight this weekend :( |
Pretty pretty please lmk if you are escaping chez vous today. I have items in mind if you're dickering or dealing, lol |
Ok :) |
I might legit go home early though, if you fancy coming downtown. Or not |
Those japanese style prints for the nonbeam you were thinking of... were you still thinking along those lines? |
Silly or serious ones? |
And how tall is the nonbeam please |
It 7 feet tall |
Right right thanks |
Magnets? |
It's non metallic |
But you could add magnets to the nonbeam at some places, then magnets to the outside or edges if the prints |
I may just end up putting a couple tacks in it even though the face is particle board |
Poster putty |
Command hanging strips |
The velcro sort |
Or legit velcro |
I KNOW you have velcro |
Oh I have lots of Velcro lol |
So do that |
But these hang on strings |
Those are removable |
Which is why I was thinking a tack |
The prints are each on a double set of magnetic frame type things |
Yes |
So you have 2 prints just by themselves and flat |
I can laminate them! |
2025-01-24T11:05:22 |
How's it going? |
Good and weird, separate categories |
Pas Mal |
Tu fais quoi? Maintenant, plus tard, etc |
Je dors, j'écrire, et c. |
Ecrivais quoi!? |
Tu fais qqc interessant ce soir? |
But anyway, do you know your plans if you go somewhere this weekend? |
My only pretty certain goal is to go to Preuss to get plants |
Very cool |
Whenever |
Neat, neat |
2025-01-24T14:14:31 |
Real plants or fake ones? |
Real plants! |
Oooooh fancy! |
Yeah I actually stopped in there Sunday and got overwhelmed with options lol |
Haha, nice |
Do you need to decide on fish first? |
Just a general idea, which I have now |
FYI I'll will be in office Tuesday |
Ohhh? |
Department planning meeting |
Ala 5 hours of time |
Agenda:hire the cute, smart one |
In a meeting room |
Right |
That would be a better use of 5 hours for sure |
Speaking of |
Maybe I can call in from under your desk |
No objections here |
So how is it you get to spend Tuesday night somewhere |
Oww |
Because fiik |
I don't have to but i can |
Weird |
Because i perpetually have wednesdays off |
Ya but you also have, say, Saturdays off |
And Sundays |
Oh but I'm sick and should enjoy the time i have away from home when I'm not sick |
(Not my idea) |
🤦 |
Thanks |
How considerate |
I'm not trying to berate you jsyk |
Wanna spend some tomorrow together? |
Tomorrow is a yes! |
Yay! |
Sunday also |
Okay! |
Whatever works for you |
😊 |
Any word on them yet? |
Nah |
I haven't asked either |
This is par |
I'll find out when they decide something |
Huh. So strange |
I have to focus for a while, I'll let you know when I'm home. |
2025-01-24T17:55:10 |
Chez moi :) |
How is 519 n francis? |
Ah c'est très Bien, merci |
Pas mal, merci. J'ai mal au ventre mais qu'est-ce qu'on fait |
What are you up to this evening? |
Trying to figure out something on this silly laptop |
What? |
Is it videos? |
Should be lol |
Hehe |
It sucks that our masters don't let us do as we please |
Fucking right |
Do you have any idea what your availability preferences are tomorrow? |
As luck would have it, my, schedule, is wide open |
Sorry I think that was the Brooklyn commas there |
The Christopher Walken commas |
Lolol |
You are so bad ass lol |
Awww thanks lol |
I'm literally spinning on this stool laughing |
Yeah so let me go deeper on this thought |
I can squeeze in you at such a time is convenient. |
And it is a squeeze m'lady. |
I do not yet know |
No problem |
I also believe you but also have trouble believing that you think I'm still squeezeish |
Indeed |
Well I thought it was nice to have munch and then have munch |
Pablo's and south of the border? |
Lol again a slayer! |
Yes yes |
Although I regret the choice I made for you |
Which was? |
I hope it didn't cause a problem |
Pablo's |
No i was torally fine and i did enjoy it |
If you say so, thanks |
I did some other newer to us things up in your room |
Well the way you rode my face was spectacular to say the least! |
Would you ever let me go harder? |
Absolutely |
Thank you |
And you |
I could really use some vitamin D right now. Not the capsulated form either |
Mmm |
Right |
Fresh is best! |
As it is with so many |
Mmhmm |
Can you tell whrn i am more anxious than usual, both remotely and in person? |
I think so sometimes |
What do you mean it doesnt always happen? |
Someone has told me before that i literally give off vibration |
Huh |
Thank you |
I hugged you a lot |
On Wednesday, that is |
Can you tell when the high kicks in on me? |
You turn into a supercharged lover girl |
Are you being serious? |
Yeah 100% |
Lol |
Okay cool |
I bet she's fun |
It's great! |
Yeah she's the shit |
Lol |
I absolutely agree |
Day in day out |
Night in night out |
Do you know these lyrics lol |
I dont think so? |
Sugar cubes "sick for toys". That whole album was about sex basically |
Which was hip for mid 80s 👍 |
You did something beyond remarkable on Wednesday, you know |
Did I? |
Yes, you did |
You know this |
Yay! |
But i am still in awe of how you know so much |
Imagine if you kiss my neck and do it too |
The back part |
Yes |
You will? |
You betcha |
Fuckkkk I'm excited for that |
All the things! |
Mmm that is so sexy!!! |
What is!? |
Silly boy |
What you were talking about lol |
What, that i cant believe how amazing you do things to me? On me? In me? With me? For me? |
Ofc not |
Haven't I told you my "Rebecca is actually a spy" theory? |
All i know is the name of the theory, no further context |
You're actually a spy for who-knows-what-government. Your mission is to infiltrate the live(s) of clinically average people. Sometimes I think I hear you giggling in the background as you parlay our conversation to your mates in Pzechelstaine. I honestly cannot imagine how this benefits anyone, but at least I get to make love to a sexy spy!
|
Quite the theory, komrad |
That's exactly what a spy in character would say |
Nient! |
I mean non! |
When it's sexy between us, do you have a mood going in, ever? |
I'm not exactly sure what you mean but I shall answer nonetheless |
In other words |
But excited too |
One sec |
Heya |
Oh hello |
So, what you up to? |
I'm ashamed to admit it |
Nooooope |
What? |
It's what guys do |
When they're really into it |
null |
This is data from our conversations |
Im missing something |
When you're into what? |
Data ofc |
Fine, keep your secrets! |
I've no secret |
Heh |
This is legit data from our messages |
It what is it measuring? |
In this case the duration between messages |
The hump is around 15-20 sec |
Lol |
Sooooo |
Hump |
Hump |
Lolol |
I would have a ton of fun outercoursing with you |
I mean we're polycoursal compatible too |
That's pretty rad |
The uptycourse... |
I don't kmow what that means but cool |
Oh yeah |
Ohhhhhhhh |
Yeaa |
You get the idea |
I have an idea of what it is, yes |
That's good |
Bc I have no idea |
Do you want me to tell you? |
Certainly! |
There are a lot of ways to have sex. We do many of them every time we course |
Right |
What i was thinking when i asked about you being in a mood every time sex happens with us is if you know you want to go fun and harder and faster or slow and sensual and all that or you have no inclination |
I don't know how I want it to go |
I just know from experience, faith, etc, that it will be no matter what bc we care about each other |
What's difficult for me to unpack is that I don't live it in the moment the same way I can fantasize about it at other times |
So I feel not in control, or not in the same way, and I'm sure I'm more timid |
Haha you tapped something there! |
Sorry! |
Nono |
It's no problem |
This is interesting to me |
But also..... i feel like there's a missing adjective in the "i just know..." text |
Oh! Yes |
Would it help if i asked for a certain way as we're doing the things? |
I think that would help yes |
But it hasn't made any sense for let's face it 3 decades and more |
I'm not really conscious of it |
I just think it's there |
Why is that a concern? As in, what's the story there? |
If you ask me |
I will drop the barrier lol |
Idk |
Gf1 right |
Good Christian girl |
Nope |
Baritone player |
Smart |
Ohhhh gg onnnnnnne |
Slightly chubby |
Ok enough of that |
Enough of what? It didnt click that gf1 was not hsgf until just now |
No she was middle school to start |
Right. I forget about her |
Journey playing slow dances |
Heh |
I think she actually played trombone in middle school |
Right |
Soo |
To be clear, we did no heavy petting |
Oh |
I got her bra up one day and a lick of nipples |
That was it |
And she wrote me a note that said she wasn't ready for the oral part |
But she was ok with the reat |
Rest |
I knew nothing about ambition at that point so I was cool |
Ambition? |
Like that's all we were supposed to do at that point |
Did you know how sex worked? |
Not being sarcasic |
Nope |
No idea |
How did you know the first part? |
I mean yes from magazines or whatever. But zero personal experience. |
It doesn't but that's because my experiences were so flawed |
Right |
I have a snippet of memory that may help explain how i dont know what you knew and didnt |
When you finish |
I was seldom invited to be creative by anyone, and definitely not in my formative years |
Do you think of certain ages as formative years? |
In retrospect yeah |
What ages? |
Well |
Different ages for different characteristics |
Sex- |
I'd uh peg it at 18-24 |
For everyone basically? |
Right |
That's |
I dont know ifi have a word |
Huh |
Because you know how old i was when i voluntarily had sex for the first time |
Criteria for me: conscious, consensual, penetrative |
Nope not at the moment |
Oh |
24 |
Jesuz |
Actually thinking about some screwy sort of histogram now |
It is so, so fucked |
I should have you actually data map something |
Well conveniently enough.... |
Lol |
In all seriousness, this is like your privacy notice |
For? |
I have all text messages that occurred between us on this this phone |
You are welcome to access it as well |
I won't share it with anyone |
Except you |
Okay |
Thank you |
I hope I'm coming off as icky |
Not that is |
Ffs |
Do you have all of the pics I've sent you? |
Ah good q |
I do not save the binary data by default. Pictures, gifs, and the like are eventually discarded |
I have saved some pics separately |
Have you purposefully deleted a lot? |
They get deleted when you delete the conversation |
If I haven't saved a pic by then, it's gone forever |
When i delete it or if one deletes the conversation? |
Sorry! |
I'm doing a crap job of writing lol |
If I delete a conversation |
No, you're just up against me lol |
Everything in it is gone |
I occasionally save a pic from a message in a separate location |
What do you do with them? What is their functionality? |
Well your nudies are fun |
Righto |
Have you eaten? |
Just had some dark rye toast lol |
Kind of an indulgence |
Nice |
But I need to think of something for about 3 hours from now |
Or maybe 2 |
Another nosh? |
Right. Something that includes vegetables preferably |
I think I've got it |
Oh? |
I'll preheat some frozen veg, wrap in a tortilla with a little cheese & rice and heat in the microwave |
I love that kind of stuff |
Cheesy |
Mm |
And veg lol |
Cheese carbs veg tortilla |
I'm about to be deported |
Lo siento |
Haha just kidding guys!! |
Hombre secrecto |
Buenos nach |
Nope |
Hahaha |
Are you interested in knowing places i was thinking of checking out tomorrow/Sunday or would you rather not go to places beyond 1 or 2 for a quick survey and then back to yours? |
Tbh it was kind of based on your preference and whether you had a curfew |
I think that we don't move too quickly |
Or said better |
I do not understand how so much time passes when I am with you |
Lol |
It boggles me |
I do, oddly enough, know approx how much time there was between fully dressed to fully dressed on Wednesday |
What was it? |
From fully dressed to "finished" for good was about 75 minutes |
Dressed and up the stairs to out the door and in frandor again was less than 2 |
Heh |
Lookit the data fiend over here |
Mine was accidental! |
Nice |
So you would go again tomorrow if that was an option? |
Oh yeah! |
Do you fancy any adulterants? |
For adulting |
I need my gerund fix |
Lol |
Nbd either way really |
Just asking |
I need clarity on what an adulterant is here, please |
Ofc |
Alcohol |
Is all I'm offering |
I do have another I keep forgetting |
Mushroom candy bars |
I've never had |
But we need a whole day for this preferably |
I would def fancy 1 of the first 2, possibly both |
Cool cool |
The mushroom candy has been in my office for a couple years |
Dave got it for me, some asa gift |
Hiiiim!?@ |
Yep. |
Wow |
He's a very interior space guy |
With an exhibitionist streak |
Anyhoo |
We only talk about one dave, right? |
He was micro dosing for a period |
Yes, it's the same Dave |
My image of him has tumbled |
In probably a good way |
Hahahaha |
I still have no idea what he looks like either |
I've never had a phenomenal mushroom experience |
I've had a couple pleasant ones and at least one unpleasant |
I do think it would be fun tho, us two |
Especially a low together |
Alone lol |
A low low low |
I dont have any idea what it's supposed to so or be like |
I don't have a perfect experience to relate, but I can tell you the last one I had was fun. It was gentle, we zoomed in on nature (we were outside Vanderbilt), the sounds the smells, and each other. But it was kind of a passing breeze for a couple hours |
There will be a time when i wont know how to say no to you |
What would you like suggestions for? |
We will not do mushrooms for a bit |
If at all who knows |
That's fine. And i could say no to that |
Ofc |
There will be a time when all i want is to be physical but i shouldn't. And ifi have the cjance to spend time with you, that's something i always think of |
How do i say no to you when i want the same thing but it would be detrimental to do the thing? |
Could be, not a for sure would be |
Hmm |
As an example |
Oh dear |
Not usually |
And never in the moment |
And never intentionally |
Ah fuck. Now i feel bad |
Aww |
Don't despair on me |
Okay |
What do you need? |
You can always tell me no |
Or different ways |
But if it's a problem we should address it |
I wont tell you no though |
I think i would like to address this though. That sounds feasible. |
Ok I believe you |
Thank you |
I feel really awkward now |
Nana |
Yeah |
Na na na |
Why? |
Because causing pain is not on my list of things I want to do |
I know |
Let me think of how to describe this |
Nothing hurt on Wednesday |
Not really yesterday either |
I noticed today |
But i can tell if it's real pain or if I'm imagining it |
Even thiugh you didn't cause me either of them |
And i can't really make it better but i also dont know if it's actually there or i keep asking myself if i feel oww so i think it into existence |
But my body and i dont always think the same, so maybe it's imagined anticipated or remembered but that makes it real |
It's confusing and it sucks |
Where exactly is the sensation? |
Where i imagine you'd be at the end of me but also more on my left and i know that's weird |
Oh, inside |
Yes |
Like, the absolute coremost part |
You had intense orgasms |
I have orgasms in more than one spot |
It's also a lot of mental fuckery |
Ok |
Right |
It makes me get involuntarily wet and i hate that because i know what my body is thinking and it makes me mad. I have zero control of any of me |
Oh I was not expecting that! |
Which part? Getting wet? |
Right ok |
Why did you say you know what your body is thinking and it makes you mad? |
Because i think my body (she, hereforth) feels something that is not really pleasant but also not quite neutral, and this kind of weird twinge is reminiscent of literal trauma |
The arousal and fear and dopamine and pleasure and pain centers in my brain are essentially the same thing. In a lot of brains like mine |
And knowing this and not being able to do anything about it makes it suck worse somehow |
Right |
Im sorry |
That is indeed tricky |
I'm sorry too |
What can we do |
You should never be sorry |
Any chance positive reinforcement can help? |
Well, now that i dumped that hot garbage on you, i do have another idea in progress that maybe just one area is affected by dehydration lol |
Alright |
It's ok babe don't fret |
I'm all for positive reinforcement |
Maybe I can vanquish the little monster with massage, licking, etc |
I would love that |
Get you into a permanent state of orgasm |
I almost did that once |
It was actually not a good time |
But i was also high as fuck without knowing i was and without ever having used anything. And not in a place i knew or with people i knew, really |
Right |
Just us two |
We can poke and grab and such and fuck all day |
Always safe together |
I try and kkow that |
I do know that but sheeeeee still has anxiety |
Right I understand |
You can't wish away some things |
Correct |
And sadly for you, the scale is realllllly offbalance |
I mean it when i tell you that youre the best i will ever have |
Gotta pause you for a sec. Tupe what you want and I'll let you know when you can send |
Ok |
Okay |
Sorry :/ |
2025-01-25T08:32:44 |
Good morning! |
2025-01-25T11:52:39 |
Hi |
Oh hello |
How are you? |
Murrrrr |
I cant go anywhere today :( |
How are you? |
I'm good, lazy asf |
A few things |
Oh ok |
I have to go to church tomorrow and repent |
Tell him you're meeting a sinner friend and you're both getting redemption |
Haha. Cute |
I havent ever seen them go to church though |
You'll be leading by example |
I'm sorry babe |
It's more me than anything else keeping me here today |
There's a probably a bright side |
So your cold is worse? |
I dont think it's worse, i think i let myself believe i am actually sick and it feels awful |
I hurtttttt today |
Heyyy |
Hi! |
What are you doing? |
Making coffee, putting away dishes , |
I am sooo so sorry :( |
For real |
I'm just messing with ya |
Okay :) |
Are you headed out anywhere today? |
I might go to fresh thyme. I just realized I'm almost out of coffee and that will never do! |
Oh! I read that they're having a big bogo sale on a lot right now |
Oh huh |
Right!? |
It's a made up abomination of a vegetable anyway |
Aww :( |
Got my W2 might start tax returns |
I mean, we love her, but still |
We got ours not that long ago |
It only takes me 15 minutes but the thing is I can't finish it until last minute because one of my statements is always really late |
One of? |
Right. Brokerage account with taxable dividends |
Ah |
You file jointly? |
Yeah |
Have you ever looked to see if filing separately would be beneficial? |
Always check. It would be far worse |
98% of household income is mine. |
Right. I didnt know if she would benefit and then that could go back to the t e m u pot you share |
Nah. She only gets Ssdi, nothing withheld |
It's always a huge difference |
I tried to file once for some kind of disability. Did not qualify blind, on dialysis, student, ultra breakable bones, non ambulatory.... that was a real hoot of a time |
geez that's nuts. It really is a hassle |
I even went and sat in the ann arbor office more than once and had appointments |
I hadnt worked enough was their reasoning |
Because i was 24 or 25 |
Wonderful. Makes you wonder what a person is supposed to do! |
Right |
I could have done that to get whatever social assistance there was but |
I would have had to deplete to less than $2k total in cash and liquid assets and they look at theast 5 years of financial records to make sure you dont just hide it all with a friend |
Yeah that's pretty unrealistic! |
What kind of bowtie would you put on a decorative black cat? |
Plaid is what I thought of first |
What color plaid? |
Red, yellow, green, orange, ... |
Cool thanks |
Ok babe |
My pulse ox is okay but feels like breathing is hard |
Idk babe |
2025-01-25T17:11:34 |
Hie |
Hey babe how are you? |
Idk. I just hurrrrrt but i also haven't needed or taken real pain meds in more than a week so maybe I'm just feeling the after effects? |
Ok :) |
How are the sniffles and auch |
Getting rid of lots of mucus lol |
Ok, good deal |
What are you up to? 🙂 |
Setting up some records to clean and play |
Did you go out today? |
Which records? |
I only went to Fresh Thyme |
Right now I've selected Bob Marley, talking heads, and led Zeppelin |
Did you get anything besides coffee? |
Nope! |
Bummer |
If i asked you to feed me (like, make me food chez vous) what would you pick? At any random time |
Honestly I'm not sure. |
I'd like to figure that out though |
Right now I'd ask if you want a grilled cheese on dark rye lol |
Lol |
Id ask if you wanted haggis and some whiskey, maybe bangers & mash or cockalekee soup |
Just today though |
Mmm?? |
No reply. Sad. |
I've made faux cock-a-leekie soup. It was really good! |
Tasty! I have a mix for the base |
Why it's GB birthday ofc |
Sorry |
Indeed! |
I look totally celebratory, right? |
null |
Cheers babe! |
I dont know if youve seen me look worse lol |
My poor baby! |
Okay yeah i thought so |
Poor babes |
Been a rough week |
What's tomorrow looking like for you? |
Smooth as a baby's butt |
Well i am not |
Yes |
Unfortunately |
What kind of things would you like to do/not do, if i leave open decisions to you for some time together? |
I'm happy to chill with you or even be your nurse for the day |
What if i can only do a few hours? |
Also about to forage so may be slow to reply |
I will take what I can get :) |
Okay! |
How do you feel about hoodies? |
I love hoodies |
All of them! |
And an xl dark pinkish one? |
Sounds tasty |
Anything on your mind? |
I miss you! |
I miss you, too |
Just put on Talking Heads |
I feel so shitty that I'm wasting your alone time that should be our time |
It's not your doing babe, just bad luck |
I know but I'm really upset about it |
I appreciate it babe. It's ok, really. |
Phase 1 complete |
null |
📎 it looks like you're going to pour a drink! |
Clippy?? |
Those are the candles you gave me |
You rang??? |
Ah! |
Candle jars |
Yes |
I clean good lol |
Lulz! |
😊 |
You agree |
Oh for sure yea! |
Yay! |
How should i upcycle them from here? |
What kinda stuff do you make with these? |
I can make it a few things. Almost any kind of candle holder (for fake ones) with decoupage and napkins, paper, scarf, whatever i feel like for the outside. Could place it on an old lamp base as an elevated one too |
Hmm |
I'm sure other things |
Terrarium if you please |
null |
I got you! |
Surprise me :) |
I need a decor direction please |
Okay |
Lemme find it one minute |
https://maps.app.goo.gl/QXihVPXArjm1bokJ7?g_st=a |
Thanks! |
😊 |
A la demain..... i would love to meet up for public, private, or both |
I am very aware this is not ideal and i am sorry |
It's all good babe! |
I'm just thinking of a comfortable place for you to be |
Mega Mall? |
Lol that was his suggestion |
And i am good with that |
Lol I'm glad we all agree! |
Me too |
I am feeling betterer too |
Oh! |
I'm a caffeine junkie |
But I can quit anytime man |
Same. Provably worse than most |
Psht who wants to? |
Lol |
I do love me a strong cappuccino |
I hadnt had much at all this week. Occasional diet soda when I'm usually a coffee or multi energy drink per day person |
Huh |
You were off yer feed and water! |
But i also swear i have a new skull divet so maybe that's it |
Whaaa? |
It's those aliens living in your house I swear it |
Ill let you feel it. Probably finw lol |
Haha I'd like to check out that Goodwill actually. I've not been. |
It's a nice one imho |
Tis a theme with GW |
Yeah i know, but at least their stuff at this one is decent |
I'm not throwing them under the bus |
The address is 1161 clark rd i. Dewitt in case you need that |
You just cant think of them as DoingGoodwill, which is what lots of people think |
https://maps.app.goo.gl/CHCghFhgocEvHNLy9 |
That is for a different day |
|
That too |
Thrifty Treasures |
You would lovvvvvvve JC the owner |
The google says its 1.5 miles from me |
Cool! |
I'm up for any of those |
Plenty of weekend warrior adventures :) |
Now i am NOT asking you to take off another Wednesday, but what does tjis upcoming wednesday look like for you? Maybe even just the morning? |
What are you up to now? |
Just spinning and chilling |
Yes I ate 30 minutes ago |
And have another thing prepped |
Next Wednesday probably no-go for me sweets :( |
Wednesday in like 4 days |
Oh right! |
Tuesday night I am like so open. As long as you don't mind me running off to office to work |
Office in house |
You can sleep in! |
Lol for sure! That's why i asked (thinking you can work as much as you need but if it's something imprtant then imma have to say no |
And if i needed you to lodge somewhere else with me for that night? |
Cool, as long as the commute isn't too crazy lol |
Fo'sho' |
I got you babe |
Honestly I'm more concerned about the old mama kitty I need to keep an eye on |
I know |
She can go 12 hours, I'm not sweating it |
:D |
This is helping a lot, thank you |
I don't understand the difference between somewhere and here though? |
Primary concern is plausibility for if i get dropped off somewhere but i can manage around that |
Lol it actually is. You were there on the worst possible day and I apologize, I should have gotten you under all the layers. |
It's cool though, I just didn't grok why |
What is your preference? |
That's just a note |
I actually think maybe your place and i can clean a bit? |
Do you need anything framed? |
Can you rub my head? Like, a good head massage sounds phenomenal right now |
Does right now in 72 hours work ? |
I guess lol |
Did you have a time preference tomorrow? Megamall and that goodwill are open 11-6 |
Oh cool! |
Say gw at noon? Or 1? Or ? |
Either should work and I'll let you know when i know anything :) |
What kind of food did you make today? |
Oh it was a slutty wrap with rice , chopped veggies dog, sharp cheddar |
Heated to oblivion |
Nice |
For a few yeara in hs my go to after school snack was a basic cheese & tomato quesadilla i heated in a fry pan |
Yes! |
Dash of basil and oregano for me plz |
There were not apices in my house |
I'm speechless |
BUT in college when i didnt eat pizza for years but had dining hall self serve acces i would take an English muffin, tomato slice, olive oil, spices, and cheese with occasional mushrooms or olives or apinacj whatever from the salad bar, bakery, and sandwich areas, add herbed whatever, and open face toast it |
Very creative |
Added veg cream cheese a lot too |
Beautiful!! |
Thanks |
Thanks |
I had a ritual at Sparrow cafeteria |
I would get chic peas and greens from the salad bar |
And Olive oil |
And make my own hummus, and make a sandwich from the greens and other stuff |
I also didnt really eat many carbs (still Diabetic those years) so would take pickle spears and wrap them with cheese and mustard for kind of a sandwich |
Yum! |
Peanut butter can serve in place of tahin |
What are these vessels? |
Glasses with spouts |
Glass bottles |
Well I have not seen them lol |
Okay then |
My head just has so much pressure |
Anything on your mind? |
Food, round two |
What is it? |
Two tostadas :) |
Awww! |
Ive eaten in front of you a few times now. If you have commentary or observations, please go ahead |
Nothing comes to mind really |
I was so happy to sit and talk with you! |
Me too |
I enjoy talking. A lot. Obv, lol |
I like listening |
And occasionally jumping your bones |
I have sooooo much more to say :) |
And a lot of bones |
All the bones hahaha! |
I have fewer than you |
I've got one you can have right here |
Weird, that's my favorite one! |
Do you think our parts go well together? I'm being serious |
I do |
I sure do |
Perhaps at some limit and I hope that's ok for you |
Can you be clearer? |
I feel large getting inside you |
You ARE large |
But less so when I'm there |
Ive told you this |
Ah |
Yeah |
You've always told me I will not hurt you |
And perhaps this is so pretty in the moment |
Haha pretty |
You getting in does not cause pain |
Ive gotten the "are you sure you're nit a virgin?" question a sickening amount of times |
1 is honestly sickening though |
One time |
Please tell me what you do and do not want clarity or explanation on |
All of this was to answer your question |
Do our parts go well together |
Yes |
Yes |
Thank you |
Of course |
Do you have any idea why my cat cafe is so puffy? |
Genuine ask. I do not know |
Just cuz |
Genuine answer |
She's a cutie |
It's odd, yeah? |
Unusual |
What else can you tell me? |
About her in general |
You've used every sense lol |
Haha yeah |
She likes to be teased and she likes to be tugged a bit too |
And she likes to be stretched |
Explain? |
(Please) |
I literally do not know what it is i like you doing |
You like it when I squeeze in and poke and play |
Of course |
That's everything though lol |
Qed I guess? |
Huh?? |
You know QED? |
4x a day |
? |
Lol technically correct |
Right |
Quod erat demonstrandum |
That's what has been demonstrated? |
That's a guess |
Yes |
My query was like... that's all sex for all people, isnt it? |
Ok I'm not sure what you want me to yell you |
Nothing |
Oh well we're pretty behind in the lesson exercises |
There were like 20 ways to do it in the car alone |
I was afraid of that |
I would like to try me on top again |
Pause |
Hay |
null |
Lol |
Yeah I'm good |
I've replaced most of the air filters in my house |
Okay? Great job i think? |
Yeah it's a job lol |
A very dusty one |
In freestanding purifiers? |
I just got a new one today |
Yay! |
null |
Lol |
Headed upstairs now, hang quiet a sec please |
Yoeie |
My baaaaabes! |
Itsa me |
❤️❤️❤️ |
I can do tomorrow afternoon for 3ish hours at Megamall, plus I'll have a few hours Monday eve if you want to come over or go somewhere |
Ayyy |
:) |
Yay! |
Yay what!? |
I will see you later today |
Rn |
Yes! |
I'm passing out |
Have fun! |
Ok |
🥰 |
Love you |
Love you too |
2025-01-26T08:13:23 |
null |
2025-01-26T10:05:28 |
Hi babe! |
How are you? |
All is well! |
Great! Looking forward to the shopping today? |
Yeah... I hope my nose stops running :/ |
Oh no babe!!!@ i am so sorry |
It is okay to reschedule |
I will give this a little time to see what it's going to do |
Okay |
I didnt mean to call you. Sorry! |
Hehe |
For real |
Lol right? |
You are okay with butter, right? |
Yep! |
Yay! |
null |
Lol |
I know, right? |
How's it going? |
Mrr |
Oh, no |
Well, i am free just about every night this week in some capacity |
2025-01-26T13:31:22 |
My poor babydoodle :( |
Mrr |
I know, right? 🤦♀️ |
I am so sorry i did this to you |
2025-01-26T15:09:43 |
Babe? Are you okay? |
Yeah I'm alright |
Took a little nap |
That's excellent |
That's sweet :) |
I think I'm ok |
I have cetirizine, benadryl, maybe others? |
Yep I have an antihistamine on board now |
Would you like to possibly have a small adventure tomorrow post laboring? |
Yes that would be wonderful! |
Sorry I bugged out today |
Oh, fun! |
Would you like to know the sort of plan? |
Sure! |
I might neex to pick up a crib/changing table thing |
Or all of it? |
Excellent! |
Ohh yay! |
I am downtown tomorrow, just fyi |
And i have an idea you may like |
Oh? |
You'd need to make another deposit first, if you're okay with that |
Hehe |
Oh noes1 |
Are you trying to drain me? |
Yes |
I am still lacking in fluid so imma take yours |
At least you're honest |
So you're willing to top of the platter again? |
Right on |
Well, if you want to try and clean up what you leave, I'm all for that |
Lap up the kitten, so to speak |
I would like to try that sometime! |
Oh I'm so glad! |
After you go off in me i get realllllt close to climaxing again |
That's very interesting and very enticing as well |
I thought you knew? |
I did not realize it |
Did you notice what i did right after you came? Or even as you did? |
No I didn't |
No worries, i hope you were in your own euphoria |
That is wonderful! |
I really do crave it |
How are you doing? |
Not bad |
No problem, be safe! |
Yeah! |
null |
You typed? |
2025-01-26T19:08:10 |
How's the water palace? |
Heh |
I've actually been trying to restart the pump for 45 minutes |
Awww poor babes! |
I can be anywhere at 1645 |
Whatever works for you |
I'm sure i can work with that :) |
Sure! |
You're the best! |
1715 for you? |
I can prob do 1645 without issue |
Have you chosen the activity plan or are we playing completely by ear? |
No, I have not chosen |
Okay |
I was going to ask something kind of odd |
Is it? |
Is what, what? |
And do you have any boxes with base + separate top? Like the kind printer paper comes in. If so, may i have them please? |
Haha thanks! That would be great. I'll accept any help |
Yayyyyy! |
I always have chewy box tops, but they don't really have boxes to go with maybe they fit something? |
I'm trying to get both parts so i can stack them but thank you! |
Also, i feel like you said you had some things for me? I could be completely wrong but if you do, friendly reminder to maybe gather them in one location |
Is there any chance you need an elephantine paperweight that doubles as cute, lucky decor? From a cute, gets-you-lucky girl down the way? |
Elephantine, you say? |
Pachydermic, lol |
Dayum |
Wanna see it first? |
Yes please |
null |
Fruit cocktail for scale |
Lol it's hella cute! |
So are you! |
Aww thank you! |
null |
I procured it with you in mind |
Aww |
You shall have to help me place him |
D'ac! |
Yay! |
Thank you! |
😊 |
I have some pretty awesome stuffs for you actually |
Do you happen to have a tiny lamp shade? |
I'm certain I do not, unless you count the odd cone of shame |
Not today |
Afk for a bit |
Dinner suggestions? |
Dude I just had a really bad day with the aquarium |
My filter is wrecked and I cannot repair it quickly. Idk if I can save the media |
Dammit |
Welp |
Hey I ordered the poo on a stick |
Oh, I found a great place for the Japanese meme |
I am so sorry!!! |
I am also sleeping soon, jsyk |
null |
Ok babe lol I'm sorry |
Very nice! |
Why are we lol? |
Just laughing at myself |
?? |
On the list of things to keep an eye out for: pulleys |
That was already on the list lol |
They were a possible solution to the filter / pump issue, but none were available. NB no guarantee they would work, but would like to have on hand anyway |
Rest your head babe |
Yeah |
Sleep well sweet one |
I will badger you in your dreams |
You're the best |
Aww tx |
💋 |
See you soon! |
TTYL! |
null |
2025-01-27T05:20:49 |
Yo babes! |
2025-01-27T07:16:29 |
Poor baby sleepyhead |
O hai! |
I turned off my alarm and kept on sleeping lol |
Uh-oh 🤭 |
You doing okay? How are you & things? |
So far so good! |
Good! |
Still thinking yes for this eve? |
O yeah! |
😊 |
Howww do i wake up? |
Lol don't ask me 😅 |
I think i legit just fell asleep with my eyes open |
Lol! |
How was the night? |
Any word from below the Ozarks? |
Twas a fine night. I slept well (apparently). I haven't heard from anyone |
1645 today does work for me, btw |
Fuckkkkm i am tired |
How are you holding out ? |
Ugh 🤦♀️ |
But ok |
You? |
Any decisions about activities? I can make that choice too, trying to be considerate |
I have no agenda lol |
Okay |
I've got a real time waster on my hands lol |
Not to name names but finance is a dumpster fire |
What!?!?!? Well who evvvvvver would have thought! |
I have some options if you want to hear them for later |
But also coule you please come Rescue me, carry me back and over the threahold to gently lay me down and sleep for a while until you decide waking by lovemaking sounds enticing |
Whats the afg task? |
Lol ready for this? |
Imagine you're the person who cuts checks for accounts payable. You have a database of acceptable payees, which is fine because you have to know who you're paying to prevent fraud and process 1099s at the end of the year.
|
This is what i deal with every day |
And if they've been deleted they have us (i.e. me) "reach out" to get a new w9 filled out |
Was that a yes or no on carrying me to bed? |
Oh dang! That would be a hell yes on bed access |
Did you even see my plea text? Lol |
Yes :) |
I'm still in my nightgown is that ok? |
Pics or it didnt happen |
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:P |
You're lovely but arent you coldM |
And are you comfortable? |
I'll be ok like this for about 15 minutes lol |
And then I'll be freezing |
I need like a 22 gauge, some normal saline, and a caffeine drip please |
I'll point to the draw site, you stab |
I'm a good poker |
I did say i would guide you |
No complaints here! |
4 hours |
Hehe |
?? |
Counting down are you? |
Meh |
Here is what i was toying around with |
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I have a mini curfew :( |
I would blink & be asleep |
Aww |
So sweet |
My house is okay too if we delay getting there |
Guess I better put some clothes on huh? |
You do what you want for the next 3.5 hours or so |
But youll be cold! |
I escaped twmporarily |
For like 5 minutes |
And if i didnt say it already, 1645 was approved |
I need to aim to be home before 1930 |
Desolee |
Right on! |
null |
I looked just chuffed lol |
The chuffiest |
Indeed |
Do you have fave comic frames other than xkcd? Any absolute fave xkcd? |
Calvin & Hobbs, Get Fuzzy, Bloom County |
Can't say I have a single all time fave |
Hmmmm |
What do you gravitate to as funniest? |
Comedy-wise |
Like, what tickles you best? |
Probably Get Fuzzy |
I'm not articulating this right... what kiiiiiind? What would it be about or referent to or whatever? |
That's a difficult one to answer! |
I find many things comedic |
Obviously |
I am feeling mildly better after my 12 minute escape to the wilderness |
Forgot ingalers today. Not loving that but it's fine |
Do you need one? |
Maybe |
What kind is your drawer filled with? |
Albuterol |
Only if you really dont care that i use it |
I would literally take 2ish puffs then she's all yours again, or i could give you my unopened one in exchange |
You can use mine I'm not worried |
Unfortunately I can't get up there until after 4 |
Oh yay! Thanks! |
Are you putting out more fires now? |
Nope they're all out lol |
Hurray! |
Solving the company solvency is abive my pay grade even though i have solutions |
Do/would you use coasters? |
Sniffing the company's solvents is what a best places to work is like |
Kinda sometimes |
The idea is list on the others who share this space |
I did not understand that sentence |
Oops |
Ahh |
2025-01-27T15:11:38 |
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Kitteh |
How you be? |
Good good |
Counting down yet? |
My house is closest :) |
Lol fair |
Do we have an itinerary? |
I have a non-serious answer and a serious one |
Okay |
The serious one is if you want to do any non-nookie activities we should do those first. I have no other agenda |
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Lol |
Do you want or need to go anywhere at all tonight? |
Nope I dont |
Have you eaten today? |
Yep! |
And how are you now? |
Feeling great! |
8 minutes |
Yep! |
I'm sitting outside afhq :) |
😊 |
Je viens! |
Yay! 🎉 |
2025-01-27T20:18:55 |
Hey you |
Hiya! |
How's it going? |
Well the cats were all shrivelled up |
I had to stop for gas on the way home. That's probably what did them in |
Pshhhht |
How do? |
No youuuuuuu first |
I'm happy, chilling for a minute before I figure out dinner |
Which reminds me, we should think about dinner for tomorrow |
Mmhmm |
Nbd either way babe |
I was going to offer to cook |
Either way, did you have a food type in mind? |
No, and I wanted to ask what sort of thing you would be interested in. |
Have you been to Fueld |
I have not |
The concept is stir-fry made to order |
With 19001 possible ingredients |
Are you in to that sort? |
Maybe |
Owwww |
?? |
Just hurt. Being sick and weather and all |
Right |
It's so bad |
Ohh, Im sorry babe |
Thanks. Me too. I didnt realize it til just now |
Time to eat and go to bed! |
Already ate |
I need to food myself |
Yeah |
Even my teeth are throbbing on the side that hurts |
It's your countrymen trying to contact you. Tell them now is a bad time. |
I'm going to try and sleep now |
Dont forget to wash your face |
I will 👍 |
Goodnight! |
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2025-01-28T06:19:49 |
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But Tuesday |
❤️ |
Lulz! |
2025-01-28T07:59:27 |
I'm going to stop at daily bagel on my way in. Do you want anything? |
Ohhhh maybe a bagel with way too much cream cheese? Please? |
And a pile of morphine |
Not sesame, no peppers, no nuts |
And my office probably looks unfriendly but you're welcome in |
Toasted? |
Yes, please! 🙇♀️ |
You got it :) |
❤ |
2025-01-28T09:49:50 |
OMG I'm in a bagel coma |
Mine made me less shaky so thanks! |
But something is happening with spouse and i have no idea what and idk what to do |
And this is on my usps dashboard |
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Interesting indeed |
Hmm. Letter from Father? |
Yes |
It is letter folded, not a card like usual, and it's addressed to both of us |
Hmm |
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That's all i know |
Oh |
I wonder if he meant that literally |
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Youll hav3 5o click in to read all of it |
Well well |
2025-01-28T11:50:30 |
Spouse alert, in case you were coming by |
2025-01-28T13:04:58 |
When are you breaking from your meeting? I might have some calendrial updates |
Not sure, but most likely 1600 or earlier |
Did your evening get wrecked? |
You don't even get breaks!? |
Ok :) |
I'm sorry |
I am leaving this enclosure for a teeny tiny break. Have a cupcake if you'd like. In the bag |
2025-01-28T14:29:40 |
Are you going home after work? |
Heya |
Idk. Trying to escape a little but i guess we'll see |
2025-01-28T16:47:22 |
Cats surviving? |
Just barely |
I might have a slight limp the next time I see you |
Aw damn |
2025-01-28T17:58:19 |
Yo |
Heyy |
What's up? |
Nothing much. How is everything? |
It is what it is, i guess?? |
Brainstorming ideas |
Cool |
Not |
What is your availability tomorrow, as best as you can detail? |
Well I'll be able to flee work around 1530, as long as something doesn't change |
I'm basically in meetings with greater or lesser participation all day |
You're welcome anytime nonetheless |
I just might |
Yeah totally |
I can go grab my actual calendar if you need it |
But it's cool if you need an escape any time |
Oh i have escapes thanks |
But we're in different places |
Er, yes? |
Ergo, you have to come over ! |
I plan on it! |
But i need shopping also! Lol |
Ohhh |
I see |
Right then |
Ill make it work ;) |
Might almost have a surprise for you |
Did you have set wants for tomorrow evening? |
Not set as in absolute |
Explain more please! |
I just want to continue with the playful and experimental vibe |
Okay, cool |
No I just wanted to be clear on my intentions |
I feel like I'm missing something |
No you're not missing anything |
Ok |
Right |
Nothing is going on |
Please tell me |
Well I'm not going to go there actually |
So I've just been sulking |
I am sorry. Really, really sorry |
And I hate to even tell you this because you'll feel guilty about it and I really don't want that |
I know too late right |
So I apologize |
You didnt do anything |
You got railroaded |
I could try and have a backbone |
At the bottom its because I don't like to see you mistreated |
I'm sorry |
And I can't do shit about it |
Kind of, but you've also kind of done me a huge several services already |
Thank you |
Except i really screwed you over today |
I don't believe *you* did |
Am I missing something? |
Hmm |
Tbh I don't love that at all |
I'm confused |
I'm actually speechless |
On the chance that somebody is going to have a bad day, you'll just not make plans to be with me? |
That is what I'm hearing here |
Oh no |
I'm saying I'm really sorry i disappointed you when i was so sure |
And at the same time, what i heard from you was that you want things to be "less" and to be more fun and less love |
This? |
Yeah. Mixed with my own thoughts other stuff |
Hmm |
You know you don't have to accept the blame for being mistreated |
I hope |
I wish |
Did you get let down today? |
Incredibly |
Right |
We did |
And only one person is responsible for that, and it isn't you |
Hmm |
Or did you somehow let yourself down |
But i should be able to fix it |
Idk if should Is the right word |
Or maybe it is |
But again |
Did you somehow let yourself down? |
I did |
Or did you get a heap of help with that? |
Maybe? Like a truckload? |
Yes |
Right |
Anyway I'm ready to come out of this dark alley |
Sorry we ended up going there anyway |
It's necessary |
I suppose:( |
But ok |
Okay |
What did you have ready? |
Hmm? Ready for what |
Anything you want |
I didn't I guess |
I feel kinda flattened |
I'm soooooo so sorry |
I know babe |
I will be fine |
Even earlier idk if maybe you were hunting about tomorrow |
Hinting lol |
Yes |
Maybe hunting? Idk |
When I said I want to continue this vibe |
Yes |
I don't understand "less" and the other things you said |
About that |
That you want less emotion and for me to be less in love and more casual and just sex |
Nothing could be further from truth |
I just don't understand |
What? |
Your interpretation |
Oh |
Do you see the huge gap ? Between what I said/meant and what you heard? |
Actually, not really |
I guess i dont understand if you meant anything by it or why it came up |
Um, you asked me a question |
That was my answer |
Right |
Do you remember? |
Yes |
I dont think i expected that kind of answer |
Or my head was in a space that automatically turned it negative |
Oh babe I wish I were with you |
I hope I get to see you if only for a little bit tomorrow |
Oh that is without a doubt happening |
If i could make an exec decision for us i would go see you tonight until wee morning hours when i have to be back |
Aren't you afraid he'll come around to check on you |
Not really |
I can give you several hours tomorrow though. A good lot of them |
Well my front door is literally unlocked for you lol |
And I threw down a bunch of sand so the icy patches are not terrible |
Awww! |
Neighbors? |
The one that matters will be in bed by now. NB her bedroom faces the front, but on the left side |
And tomorrow? |
Like in the morning? |
I'm not sure about me getting over there tonight, but can i just show up tomorrow? |
100% |
Or if you really want to look the part, have something remotely resembling a clipboard and knock lol |
Or a bible |
Ooohhh |
Well if you need to purge some demons I guess I'll let you in |
But seriously |
I'll be here |
Yes |
Wont i interrupt a meeting though? |
And hopefully completely distraction free well before 1600 |
I know my last meeting is nbd |
No camera |
On and off mute |
Ohhh |
Nbd at all |
Front door is not in view , so no worries anyway |
People are used to cats running across my desk lol |
Weird |
Lol |
I have few meetings where cameras are the norm |
It's a tribal thing, not a rules thing |
They are mandated for us bu plebians |
Yeah I know |
Ftn |
Yeah |
And I'm dead serious if for whatever reason you need to show up here at 2am just come on in and come upstairs |
Say my name at some point so I remember what's happening |
Saying your name is ... meh |
Ok don't then lol |
Do you get a lunch break? |
Do you get a lunch break?where are you rn? |
Yeah, I stopped down to see you remember? |
Tomorrow |
I had to leave when L showed up |
Oh |
Yeah |
Tomorrow you say lol |
Idk |
Usually |
It's not prescribed |
Okay |
Please pick something special that does not involve me wearing something particular |
Babe |
Babe |
I can't with this kind of question rn |
Okay I'm sorru |
*sorry |
It's okay |
I feel like I'm running your fun or something |
Ruining |
I don't mean to do that |
No you're okay |
It wasnt about me |
So what are you thinking of doing tomorrow? |
Thrift, clean, you, surprise |
Lol there are a lot of ways to parse that |
Yes |
What do you think i should do? |
I think you should do what pleases you. You've probably had enough of people telling you what you can and can't do |
In what amount of time? |
I know we process things differently, and that's all good. Does it surprise you to know I'm still thinking about today, specifically the last twelve hours, during which time you've basically been telling me about how your spouse had a bad day, and how that caused you to "fail" me, and how you didn't have decision-making authority, and how you aren't allowed to do things you had planned to do because a mean old doggie bathed at your husband? |
*barked* |
Huh. It does surprise me |
I'm sorry |
Does my answer make more sense now? |
I feel horrible |
Do you know how i interpreted that last message? |
No |
That i complain too much and screwed up our plans and i should just do what i want because L does this all the time anyway and you shouldn't have to be put out by it |
I'm sorry I fucked up |
I did exactly what I said I didn't want to do |
No, it's fine |
I didn't mean to point blame at you and I'm really sorry |
It's okay |
No it isn't |
But thanks |
I wouldnt understand otherwise tbh |
All I needed to say was "12 hours" |
Sorry |
I'm sorry |
Waa dammit |
I dont know what to say now |
Me neither |
I fucked up |
You did not |
I really need to be more careful |
And considerate |
With what? |
With my words |
Somehow I've managed to tell you |
Not one but twice |
In one hour |
That I want you further away from me |
And that is the exact opposite of what I want |
That's not ok |
It's okay |
My frustration is getting in the way and it isn't helpful |
Is there a way for you to get unfrustrated? |
At this point, sleep is the best remedy |
And should work a treat |
?? |
What's the confusion? |
"Work a treat" |
Should be nice? |
Oh sorry I thought that was a common British turn of phrase |
Oh. Right. |
Not much |
3 beers and a bowl |
In how long? |
Idk |
I've been in bed for an hour |
Have you compromised yourself at all? |
No |
What's this about? |
I want to be sure you're safe and that you're decently okay |
Yes I'm fine, I've had less than most nights and I'm in bed 3 hours earlier |
And you feel no inclination to hurt yourself or anyone else? |
No babe |
Not in the least |
Okay |
Oh I know what your picking up |
Usually alcohol makes me silly. Now it's amplifying my despair/depression |
Yes |
Right |
But also if it were me, i would feel the need to instill corporal pain |
Well luckily I have zero inclination to do that |
I am inclined to get a bowl of ice cream however |
You can |
I do believe I shall |
I also ate early. Before 2000. So my whatever it is not glucose spike is messing with me still somewhat. |
I hurt, if that makes you feel more okay with things today |
Umm |
I thought it might, actually |
That's not what you said two hours ago |
Anyway |
Oh I'm sorry |
But i believe i was promised a massage?? Lol |
Yes, totally. The offer still stands |
I'm cashing in tomorrow |
Oh good! |
I'm sorry things did go according to our plans today |
I hope you have a good sleep and a good morning |
You're in my heart babe |
And you're in mine |
And i want so much with you |
And I with you |
I'm going to fade out soon |
❤ |
You can come by any time |
😊 |
Or if you need me to get you I'm sure I can figure it out |
Thank you |
I'll try not to have that ever be tye case |
Keep it in your pocket so to say |
I'm going to drift off here soon |
I love you |
Sweet dreams |
I love you too |
Please love me tomorrow |
Sweet dreams to you too |
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I will love you all the time :) |
I hope so |
Aww are you hiding? |
null |
I want someone to turn off the lights and cover me better |
This is literally how i sleep |
I love it |
null |
Xoxox! |
❤ |
2025-01-29T05:16:59 |
Hey my babes! |
Hello sweets! |
How are you? How was your night? |
Pretty good :) |
What are you up to? How are you feeling? |
I've been doing house stuff. Decorating a bookshelf now |
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Well.... trying to lol |
With a helper ! |
He iz babay |
He sure iz |
null |
🤣 |
null |
He knows his mommy |
Ready for the day? |
I'm just excited to see you |
Me too! But that's still a ways away |
I know |
My eyes are killing me |
Why for? |
Idk. Maybe dey. Headache does it too sometimes |
You want me to look for anything for you today? |
I feel like there is something but I can't think of it now |
Ofc not lol |
I am friggin cold! |
Oh? I'm hot! |
You are! |
Aww thanks! |
Anything in these pics for you? |
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Hmm. It's almost like you keep photographic inventories just in case lol |
There actually are a few things there |
Lol it's facebook posts |
That's at April's |
Oh lol |
Well I would like something like the grey organizer thingies |
Which? |
null |
Right |
What is an appropriate cost for such a thing? |
I think maybe $10 to $20 if the cabinet is solid and all the bins are there and not broken |
The clamp maybe $5 |
Righto |
null |
Is that not a putty scraper? |
Not being sarcastic btw |
Do you need like a super expensive cassoulet crock? |
That thing might be a putty scraper but it looks like it has a hole punched near the tip and it's shape suggests a narrow handsaw |
Gotcha |
Have a crock |
null |
Ohh |
2 there |
Geez |
Aww sad |
Yeah.... i have good taste lol |
Talk to me about the round one |
Is this enamel coated iron? |
Or ceramic |
Ceramic |
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Kind sheet set? |
Noooo lol |
Fine! |
3 ceramic italian bowls? Nesting, for mixing or serving |
Would you rather meet me somewhere after work or for me to spontaneously appear later? |
2025-01-29T09:35:27 |
Baaaaaaabe |
Hi! |
What's up? |
Extended team meeting rn |
Ohhhh sorry babes |
Lol it's fine |
I'm just dorking around and occasionally saying "mm hm!" |
Smile and nod, smile and nod..... |
Did you have a decision for our rendezvous? |
Kinda depends on when you want to be here |
You're free to show up any time you want. If it's after 1600 I can come get you |
Gotcha |
Thankd |
I was wondering if you wanted to go anywhere |
Nothing comes to mind yet! |
Okay |
Would you like to know my plan? |
Sure! |
I am going toward real lansing. I think April's & SVdP. I have a tote to pick up near there too from someone on fb. Then i will go to you. If you feel like picking me up that's fantastic. If i want to show up earlier i will do that |
Hope the meeting didnt drag you down :( |
I can also go see you earlier if you prefer. Clean some stuffs :) |
Nah, I'm good! |
Come on over |
2025-01-29T12:10:56 |
Having a good day? |
I have a surprise for you :) |
So far so good :) |
Excellent |
Make big planning decisions yet? |
Lol the big planning finale is in the 1:00 meeting! |
Good to know |
Do you want any warning? |
Nah, it's all good |
Did you need a lamp for somewhere? |
Doubtful |
2025-01-29T15:07:02 |
Making big changes for the afg? |
2025-01-29T20:23:10 |
Heyyy |
Hiiiiiii |
Did you get food? |
Snugged in bed? |
Got some food. About to head upstairs. You? |
Just taking care of the laundry and tidying up |
Thank you so , so much |
For a fabulous Wednesday afternoon |
I owe you every thanks there has ever been or ever will be |
I am still very swirly and reverberating and .muffled |
A little trip on brain drugs, probably weed enhanced |
Is it ok? |
I should think the weed will be well past the 'intense' part |
Sorry lol I'm asking all these questions |
Just enjoy it |
It is fine |
Go count sheep |
I count back from 100 in any language that isnt English |
I wish i was with you now |
Aww |
And I would hold you |
Yes |
I certainly would |
I feel like i have no muscle control. Like I'm floating |
That sounds like.premium orgasm to me |
I should pee |
Le sigh |
I feel like i should float awat |
*away |
Float to sweet Dreamland babes |
Dont like going septic from a uti so i opted to tinkle |
Good call |
What else? |
What else from me eh, |
I've actually been writing a diary entry about tonight |
I think you'd like it. I will share it when I'm done |
Dont let me interrupt you |
Np |
You might need to remind me though |
Ok when? |
Perhaps tomorrow at this time, assuming I haven't already sent it |
Ok |
So leave you to it now? |
No it's all good babes! |
So you ate? |
Yes. And cleaned myself up a bit |
How is your bed? |
It's fine |
Good |
Do you have any questions? |
Just want to make sure you are ok |
I think i am |
A reason to call EMS |
I dont have a reason to call them |
But I think you are breathing yeah |
Right |
Perfect |
And body, mind, spirit wise? |
Mixed. And fantastic. |
I am so, so tired |
Poor baby! |
You did have a workout! |
I just laid there |
Isometric muscle exercises are still exercises |
I cant keep my eyes open but will have questions tomorrow |
No problem at all |
I wanted to tell you things tonight too, when i felt really close. Someday soon i hope i will |
Ok :) |
Some of portugal |
You took so much time to get to know me |
Still working on it actually :) |
Really? |
There is always more to know |
Yes |
Goodnight my love |
Goodnight my sweet |
Rest well ❤️🩹 |
Thank you 🙂 |
Endlessly |
❤ |
And thank you for not making me ferl embarrassed |
You are welcome love |
There's nothing to worry about |
2025-01-30T06:17:03 |
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Hiiiiiii |
Hey babes how are you? |
Good :) |
Ironically, the top of my back realllllly hurts lol |
null |
He says no work |
I'm with the car on this one lol |
I am still speechless |
I am too, kinda! Such a wonderful time! |
Lol my hips are a little achy |
I am very sorry |
How is your new carpal tunnel? |
I am still fuzzy and all of that. Muffled. |
Oh, Stop apologizing :) it's nothing a little massage can't help :) |
I'm fine really, just a little achy, like after the first workout of the year |
Worth it!!! |
You are too much |
I just need to sleep this iff for a few years |
null |
Mmhmm |
Any commentary for now? |
I want to make love to you a lot more |
❤ |
Why now? |
I mean I did already, but yesterday was soooooo good |
For me, yes |
Half of my pleasure is your pleasure. It makes me want to give you more. It's gratifying and satisfying! |
You are beyond amazing |
I think i felt love? |
Yay! |
I wish you could confirm that somehow |
It absolutely is love |
Thank you |
I think it was in my face, open for you to take |
You're adorable:) |
You are, too |
But why do you think i am? What makes you say it? |
I am going to do a maybe hard thing now |
The way you relish me ravaging you, the way you rest, the way you look at me |
Oh. Thank you. I'm so, so happy you understand those things from me. They are inarticulateable |
I am thinking of and yearning for you now with my 1000 yard stare that i gave you yesterday |
It's part of me that i cannot unlock. You had to do that. |
Meetings all day for you? |
Sorry! |
Not a lot of meetings, but a couple this morning. I should be free around 11 |
No worries |
Just wondered |
Please think about how much you want to know about any current and post coital physical sensations i have |
😊 |
2025-01-30T10:54:50 |
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Hi bebee!!! |
Tell me everything! |
What should i start with? |
That was a legit question |
Please start with what you're feeling now |
Body: relaxed and also worked. All of my muscles and joints are sore but not in a bad way. Everything is tired. I am verrrrrry sleepy even though i slept for 10 hours straight last night. |
Yeah? |
I feel weak |
O wow babe I do hope I didn't damage you. I'm glad you got some solid sleep! |
Do you think you damaged me? |
No not really, but I am curious about the blood |
It just happens |
It's negligible at most |
Ok :) |
Fwiw, i wanted every secone of last night. All the exploring and feeling and actual love making :) |
My mind still has a lot of confusion but i am very placod and very happy and contented |
Silly question.... |
I was really scared |
You came a lot, by any definition |
Did you have a fave one? |
Probably the series where you squirted on my face :) |
Ohhh sorry! |
Was that more internal or external on me? |
Oh I had you both ways... A finger or two in you to start, and then decided you go after your clit with my mouth. You were like a faucet I could turn on by licking you:) |
All of this is new |
I don't know anything about my own body. My psyche is different but i know it bette4. She's been thriugh a trip these last few months too |
I love you |
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I love you babe! |
I feel drunk |
I do hope we get more quality time together |
Yes |
Do you think we wont? |
I think we will, I'm just letting you know I want it. I want you. I want for us to fall asleep in each other's arms after fucking each other so much we can't see |
That was me yesterday |
Yes! |
You swear it was just 1 breath of normal weed? |
That's it, quite literally |
I don't mess with other stuff |
Why was yesterday so different? |
Not sure. There was the tea - caffeine. A little synergy there |
And maybe just raw desire |
How is your back/shoulders btw? |
Good i think. They feel tired like they did a lot of exercise |
How are your hips? How does your phallus feel? |
How are your arms? |
My hips and arms are just a touch sore, like from exercise. Just a little though, not distracting. My manhood feels fine. Great even! Lol |
Last night was the "first time" i always wanted or even imagined |
Aww! It was wonderful |
This is major |
I hope you're okay with that |
I felt like garbage all of a sudden. Went to get a tiny bit of fresh air |
null |
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Oh noes what's the matter? |
I feel suddenly very unwell |
Weak and pain and not thinking great |
Hmm |
And shaky |
😘 |
How is it going? |
Oww |
Ok |
You? |
Fine, I just made lunch |
What did you have? |
It's a frankenburrito lol |
My lunch was fantastic |
Yay! What was it? |
Garlic herb couscous, tomato slices with o/v & cheddar sprinkles, buttered corn, cupcake... something else |
Ooh very nice! |
I've been meaning to ask you - what is your choice of tomato at this time of year? |
I take what i can get lol |
I have THE BEST sticky notes for you |
I do use sticky notes |
My gutter mind only comes up with dirty words that start with je- |
? |
I'm sorry I've completely blanked it out |
Jerked it right off, did ya? |
Right! |
Oops theres another sticky note |
Making me sticky... is that appealing ? I'm curious why or why not is all abd if you'd have a location on me in mind |
Oh aren't you cheeky? |
I do feel like I got over some hangups yesterday |
I'm really looking forward to our next sexventure |
What hangups? |
And meeeee tooooo |
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Please :) |
I just felt more spontaneous overall |
Do you know why? |
Any inkling at all? |
Not really, I guess I felt more focused on you |
Hmm |
Weed is one factor |
Being hyped for days is another |
What you got? |
But i saw you monday! |
I was relaxed, i wanted everything you were willing to give me |
DAYS lol |
So much yes! And I apologize I didn't say anything about the wax, but she sure was pretty! |
Is pretty |
In my world, we had a look that got exchanged right after you laid me down naked and that look told you i was ready and craved you and the connection and yours to me said that you're happy to give me that. And i think the look was twinged with a tony bit of sadness but it was necessary to know how much the acts to follow would affect me forever |
Aww babe that's so sweet |
What else do you think about that which is typed above? |
Nooo it's so sweet |
I understood you wanted me |
And set about pleasing you |
It makes me feel insanely vulnerable |
And remembered that hot oil between us is incredibly sexy |
You think so? |
Oh my god yes |
Why? |
Feeling your skin slide on mine like that makes me quiver |
And when I got hard and could rub myself in you |
That was perrrrrrrfect |
Wasn't it so good? |
I love it |
Did I surprise you? |
I dont think surprise is the word |
What got you hard? |
You |
But i didn't even touch you that time |
You pleasing my eyes, my fingers, my nise |
I mean you welcome to ofc. Always |
But I just wanted to devour you |
Thank you infinitely |
You're welcome |
I hope it seems normal someday :) |
Even though I personally think what we have is special |
Because we're cosmic twins or something |
Yes |
I dont even understand what I'm trying to understand, if that makes sense |
I get it actually |
I do |
I am on very wobbly ground, esp not knowing what happens from here. What to even think of or imagine |
You'll still want me? |
I already gave you almost everything i have |
We're in similar spots babe |
You have a v card of mine. That's wild. |
And here I thought there was no way I'd ever in this life time get anyone's anything |
You have a few of mine. Last night was a big one |
Mmmmm |
Last night |
I know my anatomy is kinda fucked up btw. It's okay for you to say so |
It's no biggie to me. I'm still getting to know you. I like the process, and I like you |
I'm very glad |
And I will become the one who knows you best |
It's embarassing to me and i feel a lot of shame about being atypical and unpredictable with my inner displays |
That's ok |
I do not and will not judge you for it |
I can at least give you this safe space |
And |
You are very pleasing to my eyes, so I will always appreciate what you are willing to show me |
Thank you |
Nononono |
I love the way you talk to me during sex |
How? |
This is something I knew I was missing in my life |
Dont i just... talk? Like normal? |
Yes |
But I knew somehow that wasn't right. Partners should communicate, and feel safe |
I love when you talk during sex too |
Totally makes sense |
I also love it when you tell me what you want |
Oh! That's good! |
Nooooo! |
Never feel bad |
I want it |
I'll work on that |
Roger that |
Yeah you can tell me to kiss her |
And point |
And you can also shove my face in your crotch |
I want to but i cant yet |
As you prefer |
No worries |
This doesn't all have to evolve at once |
I love how I'm learning |
And the homework is fucking awesome |
Hehe |
If you had wanted or tried, i would've been cool with anal last nigjt. Whatever that would mean to you |
I do have plans/ideas for how it will go if or when we reach that point |
I came pretty close a couple times actually |
My requests are that you ask before realllllly going for it and that it's slow and "nice" |
I wasnt just cool with it |
Yes I remember |
Any reason? |
Heat if the moment |
Do you know why my downstairs play compartment is atypical? |
I do not. Apart from my uneducated theories involving SA |
I would appreciate if you shared those but i would never make you |
It's really just a broad assumption that these are causally related. I do not have thoughts about mechanism. |
Okay |
You are correct |
I want to know how different i am vs normal |
Hey babe - i reallllllly need to lay down |
Ok sounds good sweetie |
Have a nice rest! |
I love that you want to care for me. I want to accept it |
Yay :) |
You're worth it babe! |
Whatcha doin? |
Oh hey! |
Tryna figure out why my PC just crashed. In the middle of recording a Cure album |
Ohhhh no! |
Go for an adventure instead |
Ooh, to my refrigerator? |
You could |
Fthkpjgddfgkoiwww |
Google translate only offered: |
So long, and thanks for all the fish |
We only just met! |
Don't panic! |
I'll fish you |
Lol |
I think you have. Lots. And i think you know i like it |
I guess i have to feed myself? |
Wait why are you there? When I'm here? I'm wearing your pink hoodie all day |
Funny you say that |
I could've spent time with you tonight |
Waa!! |
Did not know til just now |
Well crap |
Im kind pissed about that and a bunch more now. Ugh. |
Detention! |
He self isolated there already |
What are you doing for dinner? And the rest of the evening? |
Right |
I don't know |
I've thought about ordering JJs |
I seldom do it |
But they are kind of my junk food fave |
Awwwe |
I really fucking hurt babe |
Why? |
What happened? |
It's just my body. It does this sometimes |
I'm sorry babes |
You should, like , spend the day at a spa or something |
I should, like, have you help me do stuff |
What chu need bebe |
A lot of stuff |
No, thank you |
No way lol |
I set my phone on a wet counter and it sent that |
Uhhhh |
I heard the noise |
To be clear, this was counter water send, not me |
Well i was confused no matter which of you sent it |
It was a quick-reply option I suppose |
Anyway, I haven't actually answered your question |
It wasn't really a question, but you had concerns about telling me what I can help with |
So do tell svp |
Category first please |
Options? |
Oh. Idk. Most of them lol |
Lol |
I'm on it |
Hey do you still want to ride me? |
Yes |
Why? |
No reason |
At all |
Nope |
Lol |
Liessssss |
Pssshew I was a little to close to that window just now |
Ooh fenetre gentille a fenetre... |
Anyhoo |
You were saying? |
Categories? |
Why ask if i still want to ride you? |
Oh I just think that you will find it all the more interesting at this point in our sexual relationship |
It's actually funny thinking about how I know this |
Ooh JJ is here! |
Mwa! |
Brb |
Lol |
Ok. :) |
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So you were saying? |
Didn't I say it? |
You think itll be more interesting based on our relationship development. |
Oh! |
Lol one sec |
Ok |
I told once about the "whole earth catalog" |
Maybe you remember this, but it isn't really important |
I dont remember it by that name, if i remember it |
Right |
So it was this huge catalog |
And it was a bunch of cool hippie stuff |
Agriculture stuff |
Practical stuff |
Almost like homesteading maybe |
Very eco minded |
And in the middle were about 6 pages of adult books for couples and the like |
And some photographic -,ish (actually line drawings) |
Images from the books the catalog was suggesting |
And on one page was a line drawings of a naked woman riding her man comfortably, and a considerable caption |
Which told the virtues of the woman on top approach |
Yes i remember you telling me this story |
You were pre teen |
Only 6 pages in the middle of 400 pages |
Pages that were 4-up size! |
I'm talking A0 or A1 |
Yes I was a preteen |
So you and i both remember this |
How do you think me riding you will be different now? |
Because we both know each other better |
Okay |
Agreed |
What do you recall me being like that other time? |
I know what i remember thinking i was like |
Bashful, not good enough, unsure what to do, embarrassed at being so chunky, worried i would hurt you or you would be wayyyyyy too big for me and i would be in serious pain, that i would be boring |
Well that's no way to enjoy sex |
I still enjoyed it enough |
So yeah, it has to be better |
Ok I'm glad. :) |
Your turn |
Me on top!? |
Speaking of |
Ohhh now i want to know those thoughts too |
Nono wait lol |
What did you think when i was on top that first night? |
Oh I was still reveling about our size difference |
Size difference |
Right |
You know the one |
Where they put the |
Lime in the coconut |
I'm glad you thought so |
Right your tightness |
Right, okay |
And I loved grabbing your butt |
And getting to feel your back and abdomen and boobies |
Mmhmmmm |
Get some oil between us |
What do you do best? |
I say what? |
That's a very broad question |
Im sorry, dont let me interrupt |
Lol |
Now I want to know what you meant lol |
But in the meantime |
You could slither and squeeze your pussy up on me |
And we would both be very slippery |
And I might just slither into you who knows? |
Wouldn't you already be in me? |
Oh no |
Doesn't have to be |
That's fun too |
Coital alignment technique |
Google it |
That's wild! |
Hmm? |
Yes? |
2025-01-31T00:22:48 |
Damn that sandman |
2025-01-31T06:11:36 |
Good morning babe! |
Hey you! |
Hieee!!! |
Did you have an argument with a sand man? |
He straight up knocked me out! |
Rude. |
Geez! |
Where were we? |
Something something insert shaft D in tight opening |
I think at some point you were probably thinking it wouldn't work |
When was that? |
Idk. First time maybe? I could be wrong |
Nah, I had every faith |
I have news from the south |
Boo |
They plan to return Saturday |
Ikr |
I am sad now |
I'm sorry |
Me too actually |
I'm really sorry i was sick and things went to shit around here |
It's ok babe, don't beat yourself up about it |
:( |
Aww |
It's ok |
Did they have a time for tomorrow? |
Didn't say, but it's a 10+ hour drive and they are behind by one time zone. All is which is to say doubtful I would see them before 2100 at the earliest |
I see |
What are your plsns between now and then? |
You, to the extent possible :) |
Oh i see! I would love to do some things |
Any chance you can get out this evening? |
Currently unsure but I'll work at it |
Oh, say, between now and tomorrow noon? |
I just have no idea how to get out of here :( |
2025-01-31T08:23:26 |
Im sure we can brainstorm something |
Heyy babe |
Hey babelet |
How you doin? |
My eyelids hate me, but I'm ok otherwise |
Awww! Are they heavy? |
Nooo they feel like sandpaper :( |
Awww |
Humidifier? |
Waaaa! |
What's wrong? |
I'm just complaining lol |
I don't want to adult today unless that means adult activities with sex partner |
I am of a similar mindset. Except i kinda wanna clean and i also have destinations i wanna go |
Would you like to be of actual assistance to me today? |
As opposed to fake assistance lol |
Exactly |
Sure |
Omggggg |
Is that a yes? |
I always want you to undress me |
Are you alone? |
In this room, yes |
Why? Whatchu want? |
I was going to come by and offer you a free trial if my undressing services |
Hmmm |
What if we try a shop & delivery service today and i swing by in the morning at the latest if i cant break free tonight and i try the trial chez vous? |
Non? |
Comment? |
Comment quoi? |
Comment ça va? |
Je vais pas mal merci |
Quelque place c'est ici, np? |
Entre des autres |
Emmhmm |
Would you like your delivery in the front or in the rear? |
2025-01-31T12:33:29 |
Heya |
Hieee! |
How ya doin? |
Having a good time mocking the tenant migration bs |
Oh mmhmm |
I have good news. Maybe. |
Yeah? |
Potentially |
Better than nothing I reckon! |
Fancy a sleepover? |
Sounds lovely! |
You'd have to come to where I'll be |
Oh? Where you be? |
The first place we met i think |
Lol |
Lol! |
So are you getting a room? |
Yeah |
Is that ok? |
Might make you shop too |
Lol |
Big linguist convention in Dewitt? |
Nope |
Gotta have you shush for a bit. I'll let you know when it's clear again |
Mmmmk |
Whassup |
Whatchu thinkin? |
Wondering about your plan |
What about it? |
Still viable? |
Yes |
Just a matter of when and what else i want to do in my time away from here |
Cool! |
😭🤢💔 |
Oh no |
😢 |
What's wrong? |
I'm just going to crawl my way to a bridge i can throw myself off of now |
Nooooo |
Ugh 🤦♀️ |
Did you get your hall pass revoked |
Self postponed is more like it |
Oh no! |
I'm sorry |
Me too |
null |
That is my sad face |
What time will they be home tomorrow? |
No telling. Most likely between 1800 and 2200 |
Cant you tell them they should stop somewhere? Bad roads or whatever? |
:) |
That is a smile face |
Just wishing |
Okay |
Maybe we'll be lucky |
It could happen! She said they were going to come back today but "the boys need to rearrange stuff in the trunk". I guess that takes a day lol |
Oooohhh good! |
I feel like such a jerk |
You appear to still be working |
Lol appearances are deceptive |
Lol i knowwwwwww |
Did you need something worky? |
Oh crap |
I forgot to follow up on the PIN report |
Meh |
No one asked me anyway |
But thanks |
I'm on my third contact in the chain lol |
Lol ofc |
Just 3!? |
So far |
Here is something for which a solution would be fantastic |
I have a stack of med papers/itemized things |
Hmm |
Maybe? |
I see |
I'm not aware of any data that identifies these encounters as related in some way. |
How would you group them? |
It's a purely human task. I would look at them, and knowing the story around them, I would put them in the same pile. |
Similarly, when I got IV antibiotics for my knee infection, I was seeing an ID specialist. Their billing said nothing about the injury, but I know they were related |
Yes |
What is your favorite font? |
And colorization thereof |
Ooh this will take some time |
I've literally spent hours making font choices |
And I don't think I will be able to tell you a favorite |
Different tools for different jobs, you know? |
For records |
Albums |
Organizing |
Something utilitarian |
For what purpose? |
Also, fuckkkkk this eugxhhh nonsense I'm dealing with rn |
I am not a nice person anymore |
Booooo |
Sick sucks |
I'm sorry babe |
I'm pretty sure it's just migraine |
Bur i hate imitrex |
I took it anyway because this is unbearable |
Aww I'm sorry |
I am headed to hopefully sleep for a bit. I'll let you know when I'm chattable again |
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Sleep well pretty baby 😘 |
❤ |
2025-02-01T06:38:47 |
Heyyy |
2025-02-01T08:02:51 |
null |
2025-02-01T09:28:35 |
Lololol |
How are you? |
Hey babe! I'm good |
I feel a lottttttt better. And accidentally hit a weight loss goal lol |
I'm glad you feel better. Did you get lots of sleep? |
Eh.... kind of. And mixed. Lots of instant waking up, body upset, change sweaty clothes, back to sleep. Ativan needed for parts. Was generally a very poor night |
And you? |
I slept pretty well I guess |
What's eating you? |
Nothing unfortunately:) |
Awwww |
😋 |
These things happen |
I forgive you |
It just means i have to make it up to you ;) |
That's right |
You headed anywhere today? |
I didn't have a mind to |
Understandable |
I can always task you with something! |
Or many |
null |
That is awesome |
Thanks! All secondhand, obv |
Well damn i just fell over |
What? Did you lose your balance? |
Just not enough blood pressure to keep my brain and vision and balance all working together at the same time |
Huh |
I feel like most people would call it passing out but i think that's too extreme of a label |
Right |
You should look at POTS when you have a chance |
Interesting. I just skimmed. |
Yeah |
Today's breakast to help support me and my lack of bp... |
null |
Good choices! |
Mmmm K |
See what i did there?? |
Na lol |
Word from the south? |
None |
Interesting |
I wonder what that means |
Nothing |
They usually let me know where they are somewhere in the first half |
But they didnt say if they had left or if they're waiting? |
They're not very task-oriented folks |
Oiye, matko shviente |
I decorated a $2 shelf |
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Nice! |
Thx! |
2025-02-01T12:29:58 |
Heya |
What's up? |
I'm going to get breakfast at Fleetwood. Any interest? |
I'm on the west side now but thank you! |
Still no word? |
Nope |
:/ |
How ami supposed to plan!? |
I feel your pain lol |
2025-02-01T14:13:34 |
Yo babe |
Heya |
How doing? |
Full and fuzzy brained |
2025-02-01T15:47:45 |
And the other crew? |
Btw, you know you still have some of my stuff,,,?? |
Yep I've got a little spot with your stuff no worries it's invisible in this mess lol |
Awwws |
Any wordings yet? |
Nothing |
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Should you check on them? |
They are 5 hours out |
Okay 👍 |
Oh that should've been a thumbs down |
I am so sorry |
You gonna be ok? |
Yep I'm fine |
Awwww |
Did you want to go somewhere for the next few hours? I have a v small window |
Make a date for the morning maybe? |
I got you some cool decor the the beam |
Cool! |
That's fine |
2025-02-01T17:53:23 |
How are you now? |
Just woke up from a lil nap :) |
Aw 😊 |
😊 |
How's it going? |
Pretty good You? |
Baaaaaaabe |
Hey! |
How are you? |
Pretty good! |
What have you been up to? |
Trying to soldier an audio cable lol. I am woefully bad at this |
Just treat yourself to a new one? |
Can't buy what I want |
I got it! Lol |
Only took me an hour to soldier 5 connections. Think I could get job doing this? |
Soldering & Services |
Lol! |
Feeling prepared? |
Meh |
What's on your mind? |
Wtf |
Oh sorry |
Uh |
There was a prefab reply sitting there that I thought I somehow tapped |
Suuuuuure |
It said "absolutely nothing 😊" |
And I thought it was already sent |
But it wasn't, as I discovered when I said wtd |
Dang it! Lol |
Anyway |
Im not thinking about it |
They'll come in like an elephant herd bitching and moaning, blabber for 10 minutes, and proceed to smoke for 5 days |
Ohhhh babe :( |
Yeah it was nice not hearing all the f bombs for a couple weeks |
So I did something kinda fun today |
I said a lot of f bombs in your presence... |
Well your f bombs are literal. I'm ok with that |
In fact it's a huge turn on, especially when you tell me to fuck you |
But I digress |
Okay but i need that kind so |
Why sad? |
Because you cant fuck me anytime soon |
Well crap |
Maybe next Wednesday? #remindme |
What's the date? |
Oh lol it's the 12th |
That's our court wedding daye |
I think it's also the 20th anniversary of my ONS |
If that isn't poetic I don't know what is |
Holy fuckkkkkkkk |
Just fyi, 20 years ago i was 18 |
Sweet sweet legal babe! |
And cute af |
Still in hs |
And still is |
At that point? Absolutely not. There are zero pics from that part of my life |
Hmm |
Oh fair |
I actually kinda wish there were |
Well |
So I went to Fleetwood |
And I was wearing track pants and a hoodie thrown over my outfit from last night |
And you may be wondering |
Obv |
null |
Brace yourself lol |
Fucking cute! |
What were you doing in the office ? |
Editing one of the records I recorded last night |
Among other things |
Yeah so it was really fun knowing I had my fuzzy pink leggings , babygirl tee, etc |
I love going to work super slutty |
This was actually the second outfit I tried on |
Oh? |
Yep |
Also very fetching! |
I am not conscious of that, but I know I like to move my hips aot |
Guess id better get ready to act normal lol |
Ewwww |
Hey! |
Remember when we fucked a realllly long time a few days ago? |
And i soaked your bed? |
I'm not going to forget it :) |
And your face? |
Yes |
Much soakage lol |
And you touched evvvvvvery last millimeter of me? |
Jesus girl |
And you pumped me full of you? |
And i was glowing with oil? |
😻 |
And i would have let you take any and every part of me? |
And then i was nonfunctional for a full day after? |
Yessss! |
🍆 |
Much larger, but you know that |
💦 |
Great. Now I'm salivating. |
Serves ya right |
Hard yet? |
I'm getting all way over here and my fam is about to walk in |
*all wet |
😊 |
Ya crazy! |
Maybe next time you just take me as soon you kiss me hard and throw me down |
I'd I like oiling you up that was fing hot |
Yeah? Definitely. Use your hands firmer |
Really? How were your shoulders? |
They still need to really be rubbed out hard |
Hmm ok! |
And I never took care of your lower front bits |
Didnt take care of?? |
I was supposed to massage the front part of your legs, and belly, and hips, and thighs |
And straight up give you a pussy massage |
But I guess we got there! |
Damn you were just amazing |
I did no such thing |
I'm voting yes |
Cool |
But I got squirted on so all good 😊 |
Several times |
Oh yeah |
If you were unaware |
I was intimately aware |
It's weird lol |
I'll agree with that |
Yeah? How? |
In fact you were peeing on me |
Right in my mouth at times |
Not my usual day |
But I expected it |
To a point lol |
Omg I'll go die now |
You blew me away and it was fucking great ! |
Kinda like a v-card? For me |
Well you have a few of mine |
I got squirted on once before. |
Only a little bit |
But also... i did not do a fucking thing |
Well lucky me 😈 |
Do it alllllllllllllll again please! |
Ugh. L alert. |
2025-02-02T07:16:25 |
Hey babydolldoodle |
2025-02-02T08:59:58 |
Heyyy |
What are you doing? |
Just getting up |
Must coffee |
Lucky you |
Surviving? |
Tbd |
Awwwww |
Cats are revolting |
Need foodies |
Oh Lord |
Ohhhhh wow |
You said "still" |
It is after 0900 |
Ikr |
Fuckkkkk my back hurts |
Kinda mur |
Kinda same |
What do you wabt to vent? |
I'm not at venting stage. Just want to drink coffee lol |
Okay babe :) |
Drugs for me, please |
Lotssssss |
I have tasks if you need a distraction :) |
What kinda tasks? |
New job would be nice |
;) |
Piles o' money |
Right on |
Need a quick fix to something if you have 5 mins now |
What's up? |
How to refresh or soften already-baked cookies |
I tried that once |
Small piece of damp paper towel in airtight container |
But I overdid it |
Cookies became mush |
Ick |
What does the google say? |
Use a piece of bread |
JFC Nitya just asked me for a beer |
I told him no |
How'd that go? |
Why did he ask you? |
As opposed to geting it himself |
I'm sure his supply is exhausted |
And he came downstairs looking to raid my cooler |
What is the catalyst for his drinking? |
Self loathing |
From anything specific? |
Idk |
Okay thanks |
Off topic, but if you fancy a trip somewhere locally today, tomorrow, etc please let me know |
If I believe his mother's theories, which I don't, the Genesis of his racism and lack of personal accountability relates to an accident in which he was going to the qd up the street one early morning. He was drunk, going to buy more, and got hit crossing the road by a black girl. He went over the hood. He was injured but not seriously. |
Interesting. Thank you. |
Do you want to go to Sam's or gw? |
Yes please |
FR? |
Anything |
For real was the comment |
I left the house 20 minutes ago |
Uh-oh |
Where you at? |
I'm a mess appearance-wise, but I'd rather be where you are |
I'm actually at vanatta park rn |
Idk where that is |
It'll take me 20 to get back there np |
You sure? |
Need snack? Drink? |
Snack would be nice. I was thinking about getting breakfast |
What snack? |
Idk I can't really think rn |
Ok |
I'll get ready |
|
Or if I'm meeting you somewhere i can do that |
I'm on your street now |
Okay |
2025-02-02T18:10:19 |
Hi |
I legit am not sure anyone knew I left the house |
Which is fine |
Oh. I don't know what to say |
I hope you had an okay day regardless |
I enjoyed it actually! |
Yay! |
I am so grateful for your company |
If you had wanted to just make out in your back seat, i would also have been okay with that |
I would have been sulking somewhere alone |
I never want that |
It's not great |
What do you do when you sulk alone? |
Do you have emotions? |
It's endless internal chatter |
Making up stories about what I might say. It's so unproductive |
I used to drive around the state |
I've told you about that |
This is the kind of day where I would do that |
Is there an end result? I can kind of explain where I'm coming from if you need |
There's rarely any useful result |
I may find some neat places occasionally, but it's not like I solved any problems |
Do you calm down or what? |
Well the thing is I am calm. Calmly accepting my fate, or my loss, or whatever this is. But calmly. |
Right |
Only in some sense that I did something probably would not have done otherwise. I don't know if that even makes sense. |
It's not important that I do that, but then I could say that I did that, and I'd have some kind of memory of it. |
I would like to do that with you |
Like driving to Detroit on Grand River Ave. Like who tf cares? But I did that |
I do/did plenty of stuff like that |
And hey if you'd like to drive to the lake, I'd love to go with you. |
I ask about the end result because it's hard for me to understand not being crazy about it. I need to cross a line, i think, but idk if you turn numb like I've done a lot of. |
I've been kind of lucky that I could physically escape. |
Do you know why it's more intense now? |
Because I once again feel like an alien in my own house |
I am so sorry babe |
Do you know what my wish would be if we could choose tomorrow's course of events? |
No, what would it be? |
Fair warning it's kind of a mixed bag |
Lol ok |
You and i find a place with fluffy blankets and pillows and we stay in bed. Somehow we have all the beverages we need. And fresh breath lol. |
I honestly cannot think of a better way to spend a winter day! |
Yeah i know :) |
It was the fresh breath part that really clinched it for me lol |
You should write Mentos ads |
Lol |
Sorry for the delay |
No offense taken lol |
I will allllllllways be self concious of being offputting by my smell or taste |
It's ok babe :) |
What are you up to now? |
Sitting in my basement, scrolling Reddit |
Anything good? |
Contemplating going to my bedroom |
Me too! |
Nah it's all terrible news. Plane crashes. Tariffs. Stupidity. Urgh |
Yes |
That's honestly a good ideas |
It's dumb, and i kind of know that, but i got so, so depressed knowing i couldnt help anyone |
It's not dumb |
https://youtu.be/AyyAh2lQXF8?si=rg9YWiijmnhC6HKb |
Trust me |
Perfect! |
Right |
Never thought of it as a dark comedy before lol |
Did you ever watch any tv? |
Nothing the Nielsen's would have been tracking. Nature shows, documentaries. |
Have not really watched TV at all in several years now |
Yeah, but I didnt know if ever |
With suann |
Yeah I'm fine with it. I didn't know then anybody had notions about how or where "it" was supposed to happen, and honestly couldn't care less now. |
Did your parents have some semblance of "the talk" with you? Before, after, ever? |
My mom said some words to me later. They were very oblique and I honestly had to make an effort to connect what she said with why she said it. That was an odd moment. My parents are usually fairly direct. |
Can you give me anything more than that? |
It was something about how I might find myself in some situations I want comfortable in and I should know I can always talk to them (the rents) |
Im guessing they were never the "you should wait until you're married" type |
Noooo, we did not practice those sorts of "morals' |
In fact I'm pretty sure the church wedding they had was 80% to soothe my dad's mom |
You know how female bodies work though |
We were a wholesome bunch, but not prissy |
My previous text - was this the norm for your generation? I would guess not. So i dont know how you learned these things. No internet and blahblahblah |
Idk if it was norm? But East Lansing is a liberal town, and well-educated. Everyone I knew , I think , had a decent understanding of female anatomy. Because frankly the only way we could get some is by reading books 😱 |
Although some of my friends were much luckier than i |
Lol. Fair, i guess |
I honestly forget that. I know you've told me. It's so odd to me that it doesn't entirely register |
Like how could you not know |
You have interwebs |
There are places where people share information. Some of it is actually good |
I don't mean that to sound snotty |
No, i get what youre saying |
I understand your life experiences are rather difficult |
I never had any school sex ed, for one thing |
Tbh |
I didnt have internet til i went to college |
What I learned in sex Ed was things I already knew |
Clearly others did not, so all good. |
I sort of had half a talk from my mom once and i can tell you that story but it's awkward and will take a sec to type. Id like to tell you |
But it doesn't have to be now |
I also may have already told you? |
When you like :) |
I don't think so? |
Okay if it's in snippets? Some jerk left stuff outside my garage i have to bring in lol |
Lol |
There was one summer when i was struggling with what i should do because i had blood in my underwear and i didnt know if i should say something or if id be in trouble or look stupid or be yelled at for bugging her. But i decided to say something. |
So she came in some time later and she and i sat on the edge of my bed |
I didnt have a clue what she was saying so i just said no |
And then she said there was another thing we should talk about and that was sex, was i ready then or should we wait until later |
Again, no clue and it was summer and i wanted to get away from her and go to the basement where it was cool, so i said later |
And there was never a later |
Huh |
A few weeks after that she told me i needed to take more showers |
I hated them because our showertubthing was always so dirty |
So i asked why and she said because she wasnt going to have a smelly kid like my grandma had let her be when she wished someone told her to lose weight and put on makeup and take more personal hygiene care |
And so i was still not convinced i guess, so she described how i was going to start sweating more and habing hair everywhere that i would need to shave all the time and it was a giant pain in the ass and i would hate it |
Literal words from her, and yes in a not-so-nice tone. Kind of seething, if that makes sense |
But anyway |
That's most of it |
What questions do you have before i continue? |
I mean that's super clear and right in line with the character I know as your biological female elder |
I also remember a conversation about bathing and smells. That was when deodorant showed up |
I did not get the hair everywhere must shave! talk to y |
Same |
Well you're a boy |
Lol I know |
There are a few facts that have been glossed over |
Yes yes, and it was around then I think my mom abdicated responsibility for my laundry |
Interesting |
Lol |
I liked to double up shirts |
So I guess I made lots of laundry? Idk |
That is not why she abdicated laundry |
Hmm |
Oh, I know what you're thinking |
Oh do you |
No |
No seriously, why do you think she abdicated your laundry |
I always thought it was because I just made piles of it and didn't show any appreciation for her work |
Which was absolutely true |
And now what do you think |
Same |
2 words: crispy sheets |
Oh now |
You did not |
I knew that's what's you were thinking lol |
She showed me how to fold shirts and pants lol |
Well, my 4yr relationship boyfriend also had 2 brothers. His mom (love her) came up the stairs from the laundry one day exclaimingbjow she had had it with cleaning up protein stains from 3 teenage boys who were all in relationships lol |
She was in a good mood about it, very jocular |
She was also a nurse |
Hahaha |
Yes she did |
When he and i started dating, they were 18, 16, and 16, so.... very much a teenage boy house |
And they only had teenage boy friends |
Yipe |
Right? |
He and his friends used to show up at our house and ask if they could play airsoft (bigger property, lotsa trees, not really neighbors) |
Aww |
Generally all very good memories with him |
We're you same age? |
His birthday is 5/13/85, mine is 5/25/86 |
Huh |
What? |
We started dating at the very end of my junior year, which was the very end of his senior year |
Idk, I just find it interesting the closeness (birthday wise) and that you remember it. Or maybe there is a causal link there... |
I remember birthdays well |
Also.... 4 years |
True |
You don't know suann's? |
July 14 maybe? |
Bastille day |
I'm not certain |
Oh lol |
But near it |
It is odder to me that you dont remember hers |
I met my fling Laura on Suanne's birthday |
I remember that |
Yeah I'm not great with birthdays |
Fling...? Brighton girl? |
What year did you graduate? |
Yep that's the one |
87 |
Ok thanks |
Was the ons the mouth who didnt engage you? |
Hmm. The mouth who didn't engage me |
Now who was the mouth... |
None of that told me |
The ons? No |
No, the mouth |
I'm lost |
Youve had 4 sexual partners of which i am aware. I'm curious who never went down on you |
Ohhh |
Sorry, I'm nosy and have an insane need to be your best everything in bed, and i have a one track gutter mind |
Obv never have to twll me anything |
Lol no prob |
The ons never did. It was literally one night of sexual relations |
Suann rarely, and I mean rarely did. Like maybe 5 times in 3 years |
So... how did that work? |
It was all pretty unimaginative, frankly |
Your first time, you finished? |
Yes |
You weren't concerned with that at all? |
Tbh for quite some time, I was too quick |
Understandable |
I know you didnt use protection, did you just kinda not care? |
That's valid, btw |
She was on the pill. She literally discussed this with her mother in the kitchen while I was standing there one day |
How did the conversation go? |
Actually her mom asked her if she needed it |
She was very up front |
How long were you dating before you had sex? |
I'm not exactly sure but I don't think it was more than a couple months |
And then her mom had a place on Mesick she would go to every weekend, which was awesome because then I could stay at her house. Every weekend |
No dad? |
Divorced |
Where does suann live now? Do you even know? |
Last I knew it was between Saginaw and Caesar Chavez near Pennsylvania |
But that was quite a while ago |
So the answer is "local" lol |
Right |
Um, so, yknow how i can just kind of find things in the interweb with some motivation and quick thumbs? |
Lol really? |
What did you find? |
I'm just saying that hypothetically i win the pretty contest |
😊 |
At least as of today |
Oh no what did you find? |
Side by side, i think i win |
Lolol |
And dayyyyyyum the political fiercetude on her! |
I'm cracking up |
She better qatch her mouth on zuckerspace |
You say the word and I'll send you a pic |
Oh is she public now? |
Enough |
Hold on one sec |
So when my 25 HS reunion happened, I chatted with her husband, whom I've known since second grade. I must have said something to him that was only known on FB because shortly after her profile was unreachable lol |
And his ass will |
As well |
Lollololol |
Ah mate |
They just blocked you |
She HATED me for breaking up |
You broke up with her?? |
I thought it was mutual, but whatever |
That is NOT the story you told me |
Annnnnyway |
Well how is she doing? |
I'm prettier |
Oh she be angry |
And how is my buddy TR |
And daughter ... I forgot her name |
Yeah. Angry doesn't surprise me |
Right |
He married Suann |
Yep |
Right. Idk, havent seen him yet |
Which is... Odd |
That is not her fb last name |
Nah they're still married |
As of nye at least |
See he was in a different circle of friends, but we connected regularly |
Id fuck you a zillion times before him |
Lololol |
Is he british? |
Looks like a british snotbag |
Poor bastard |
Omg |
null |
You have to click it |
It's a comment on a photo of hers |
A comment she made |
Huh. I'm not sure I get it |
Oh |
He was doing some kind of data work for the state |
What do you do for work, hmmm? |
A little soup making |
Also, I'm fairly certain a son and a daughter |
And her father died sometime later last year |
She did not seem sad. I know how she feels with the post she made |
Helping others say goodbye to her father |
I know the viscera that contains, so it's easily interpreted different ways |
Anyway |
Did she have glasses in hs? |
Yes |
She was in the British isles last fall |
Her spouse's real name is Theodore? |
Yes |
Theodore Robert Wentworth |
*junior |
I cant figure out if Mao is middle.or.maiden |
Maiden |
2.9 miles, basically a straight shot |
From you to them |
Or 65 minutes walking |
That's less run time than the jungle book |
Like, less than half of one of your typical afg meetings |
Jesus |
What's the street? |
Carey |
I would guess |
Do you know the music of Andrew Bird and Nickel Creek? |
I do not |
You share taste in sock sayings, you and she do |
And socks in general |
Your wedding bands are similar |
Hahahaha! |
And i honest to jhfc think stepkid and herspawn look similar. Or could if you have no corrective lenses |
I might have evidence in my phone of all this |
But who knows |
If i have intrusive thoughts, how would you quell them? |
I used the pronouns i wanted in that phrasing |
Off topic note that i have an original The Deans pic in my phone now as well |
Nice! |
Oh. TR was YOUR grad class |
FYI spouse has come upstairs and it's difficult to type long reaponses |
Only 75% of that band is still around |
Ok |
Uh oh |
What happened? |
Rip david green |
Oh |
Morgan is very fb active |
Idk much about freddie |
Suann has tr saved as "theodore" in her phone |
Her daughter thinks his head is super small in the old pics |
In case it's unclear, i have and will send you any photos you want |
Hang on to them plz! |
I think I need to put the phone away before I get busted lol |
Ok |
Just remember.... you had to wash that bedding bc of me ;) |
Damn right lol |
Always |
2025-02-03T05:18:00 |
Good morning :) |
😊 |
Hey you |
How are you, snickerpuff? |
I'm good :) |
How was last night? |
It was fine. I was asleep within minutes of lights out |
Do you 2 chat or anything before sleep? |
Not at all |
Huh |
What do you do? Lay down and sleep? |
Whar are you doinh most of the day? |
I know, weird right? She had some kind of food and was snoring by the time she finished it. No handsy stuff at all. |
Thanks |
And today's tasks? |
I have to figure that out yet. I'm pretty disconnected from work lol |
You can come to the office |
Who is this??? |
Lol |
You could craft me that new resume |
Hmm, maybe I'll do yhat |
You can see my cleaner, more certificated office |
I knew something was weird when I got home, before I even opened the front door. See, when they got home Saturday, they didn't unpack the car. There's no room in the driveway for them to park, so they parked on the other side of the street. They were going to move my car out of the driveway Sunday so they could pull in and unpack more easily. Well, when I got home, it was obvious their car had not moved at all. So in fact, no one even noticed my car was gone, let alone that I was gone lol.
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So fucking weird |
But..... why? |
Wyd apres on travaille ajdh? |
Btw |
null |
Hmm |
You busy on Thursday, post laboring? |
Et toujour mercredi? |
My labor is never done lol |
Yeah.... I'm kinda needy lol |
😋 |
Hey! I made it almost 4 hours into the work week before i needed drugs! |
Imma need a muzzle for next office guy today plz |
Do you have capacity to do anything at all this Wednesday? I even mean come over and have lunch or something |
Ooh is Don being loud? |
Effffff yes |
I could maybe come over Wednesday as if I were going to the office. I do have to work all day through |
Idk what that means for you |
Nothing major, just being in meetings |
How many screens do you need? What kind of surface or background space? Hours of operation? |
I want all the screens |
I'm kidding |
I will need your Wi-Fi password and an electrical outlet |
I xan only accomodate the first text requests |
Extra leaky soup too |
But iiiiiiiiiii get the massages |
Fine. Extra leaky soup for you. And crispy sheets |
I feel like it's time for me to find an apartment |
Before "the boys" moved out years ago, I was seriously looking. |
Mmhmmm |
I'll decorate it for you! |
That would be awesome |
Good |
My salt noodles are flavorless today :( |
Cruuuuuuummmbbbs i am sleepy |
Aww :( |
Sucky salt noodles are no fun |
And my tiny baby trex arms no longer work |
'rawr.' |
mewww |
Oh, you really are unwell |
😞 |
How does Thursday look for you? |
I give it binoculars |
NVM my stupid joke plz |
Thursday ... In what sense? |
‽ |
Lol just trying something out |
It's an interrobang!!! |
That's its actual name |
Wyd Thursday starting at like 0800 until like 12 hours later |
You get no oculars |
Monocled, binary, microscoping, telescoping, or otherwise |
I'm very very mean lil |
Okayokayokay |
What's new? |
null |
Spectacular! |
Thursday I mean it's the usual dragon drop. Seems to me I could live my life a lot better than I think I am I guess that's why they call me the workin man. |
2025-02-03T14:54:53 |
Dragon drop? |
Get me a dragon! |
Annnnnyway |
Lol |
We're you thinking of day off Thursday? |
I still have to work, but there's a lot less going on for me on my calendar |
I have to work but thought you might like to share the day working chez moi. And maybe adventure after work |
Weekend plans? |
Sure! |
Weekend schmeekend |
I do not plan lol |
Not much anyway |
I would like to go to Preuss but not on a weekend |
Right right |
Can you pick a weekend in the next 6 to 8 weeks to go somewhere? |
No, I cant |
Not until I know how I'm going to deal with blowback |
And it looks like I'm going to have to make my displeasure known around here. The dudes disappeared for a couple hours and came back with groceries, which tells me they're planning to hang out. |
Oh :( |
null |
Coffee catses? |
Ya |
Bets on whether "but it's cold up north!" Comes up as an excuse? |
What's the actual municipality of their residence? |
Clare? Cadillac? Evart? Hersey? |
I think they're between Evart and Avondale, but I'm not certain. They're not in a town proper. |
null |
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Lol right |
Click for city |
I just can't wait to mention that *I* did not make the decision for them to live there. |
Top lansing, bottom evart |
How did they decide theeeeeere anyway? |
Was not job or school or partner, correct? |
Nitya has this idea that he can live off the land |
That's not a thing |
Tell him plz |
I will |
I got zero fucks for his feelings |
And maybe too many fucks about you beung happiet |
*happier |
He's been running away from civilization in the same way that Libertarians think they do |
He sucks from the government tit and calls himself independent |
He's an idiot |
Yes |
Usually well-intentioned, but an idiot nonetheless |
He is older or younger? |
He's your age |
Sorry no |
I am 38 |
Ish |
L9l |
He's 40-... |
42? |
So he is the older of the 2 |
Yes |
What's his government name? |
Trevellian nityananda taber |
I dont have enough thumb strength l9l |
Lol! |
Is he a nyd baby? |
He is 1240 days older than i am |
That would be him |
BD is 12/28 |
Thanks |
Nitya is 42 |
The other one, narayan, is he june or october? |
March |
Hmmmm |
He is older than spouse lol |
That might be a record tainted by his not-dad. Not-dad has used both of them as identity bitches |
Well i know it's 1988 |
His youtube name involves 6188 |
His voter reg date is 10.9.88 |
28 March 1988 |
Older than spouse |
Oh your spouse |
Yeah.... |
The not-dad is older than my spouse lol |
Silly boy |
John? |
Yeah that's one of his names |
That guy is barely older than rlh |
64 vs 63 |
Yeah |
616 855 2482 ? |
Rlh lived in CA at some point before 1993? |
That's is the VOIP phone in my house that I've been trying to convince somebody is long past time to cancel |
Yes to CA |
Voip? |
Watch this: |
Or maybe change that first area code bit from Hemet to Lansing |
Or maybe |
Yes to all! |
517 694 5825, even |
Creeper lol |
Fine |
that was the landlord who looked like Rasputin, and he ran a daycare out of the bottom level, underneath our part of the house |
Is she of hispanic descent? |
It was wiwrd |
No Hispanic |
Native Am |
Right right |
It's just Jo? Couldn't keep the An? |
Austrian |
Joe is a family thing. Hers was altered bc girl |
Right |
Uh, no |
Damn |
Lol |
So not Austrian |
That's never come up. Not in the genetic testing either |
Huh |
Never heard of it |
I have something hilaaaaaaarious at home that you may have for her if you wish |
Send me a pic! |
I will when i get there! |
Hey, know what? |
? |
Straight up middle of my commissiony day i had a completely clear mental image of you over top of me, cock out, ready to slip and slide like you did in the best sex of my life a little way back |
Maybe you forgot |
Oh my sweet violet, I have not forgotten |
Deflowering again, are we? |
May i please have more? |
Please tell me more of this mental image! |
It was a very literal recollection |
Me on my bavk in your bed, wanting you and pleading with my eyes staring into yours for everything you had to give me |
And you gazing back down at me while you work in some oil for yourself and for me so you'd glide right in and you got harder as you went deeper and i just relaaaaaxed with the unbelievable connection you'd just engaged is in |
And you passively swept your hair from where it grazed all around the halo of your shoulders to being in one bundle on your left |
And i finally had love made to me and you made me all yours |
And i would have been completely content to just cease existing at that moment because it was nirvana and i didnt think i would ever be led there |
Ohhhh babe |
I'm so glad you felt it this way. I could not ask for a better match with my desire |
One sec |
I procured you an ornament. It is funny and beautiful and delicate and and delicious ans sophisticated. It's a lot like you. May i gift it to my favorite you? |
Yes you may :) |
❤ |
How are you? |
Superfab |
You? |
Mnnhnnmnnnhmmhhhnn |
How is my 3328103 doing? |
That was out number in EL, prob Daisy Lane |
Ohhhh |
Aka Rasputin was here |
He committed suicide a few years after we moved iut |
I don't fuck around with anything rasputin |
I. Hurt. |
Just as well |
Oww. |
I am sorry |
I know |
How do you remember it? |
Are we still on sex? |
If that's okay |
Oh yeah. I mean I can always change my panties |
I really did want to massage you because it get such a kick out of transitioning from massage to sex.
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Can you explain more? |
In your view, did you massage? Did we transition? |
Oh for sure |
I like seeing your body, and not just your girly bits. I like the other stuff too, and it all needs to be taken care of.
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Do you have parts of me you like to touch best? |
Well |
Why do you say there was a lot more going on? |
There was a lot of intentional touching that has not happened before, vis: massage |
Can you be blunter? I'm legit having a hard time understanding |
Me massaging you equals me touching you in new ways. I like touching you in new ways |
I do too |
It is very odd how much i want you to have all of me |
It seems I have a spell! |
Like.... you DESERVE all of it |
Oh even better |
I control your very destiny |
Haha I love that you feel this way |
It's not like other relationships amiright |
Right |
Hmm |
I wanttttttt you to do everything taboo |
I love that too |
You are such a hottie |
Fuuck |
So there I was |
Trying to massage your front side |
And I'll be honest |
I was so horny when I got to your tits/boobs (do you have a preference?) that I just had to get inside you |
They are illegally cute |
I know you don't understand |
Deal with it lol |
To me, that seems like a mean thing to say but i know it isn't |
I don't mean it to be mean. I'm saying you can't change my mind |
I know |
Oh! |
Wait a sec |
Plz |
Ok |
Legit question |
I've been here before but never understood |
It is very much a me thing, and has been explained to me in as much as the same words I'll explain to you with |
It's kind of the difference between Saturday night debauchery and sunday morning church school. Both can be appealing and they both have their places, but you can't be both at the same time and cant have 2 kinds of fun at once |
To me, cute is who you want to tuck into bed vs something else (sexy, or whatever) is who you want to take into bed |
Thank you as always for the detailed explanation! |
And I am sorry Fr because I don't mean it cheaply. Yet, you are the second person I know that feels it means less than you are the one I want you are the biggest part of me I care about what you experience and want only the best for you |
No hard feelings here |
Uh if you can avoid the pun |
I'm okay with you calling anything of mike "cute" :) |
*mine |
But you said it was mean |
I will try to find better language |
So your front side |
The perfect squish |
And you |
You |
2025-02-03T22:18:19 |
Mmmmm |
I took a pre sleep nap. I am sorry. |
I think that if there's a way for you to really subtly ease me into knowing you're about to penetrate, you should do that while I'm prome and you're massaging me |
Like... your hands have had their fill and you're hard and we're wer and you kiss my neck and softly, lowly ask me if I'm ready or you tell me nicely that you need me so i can arch my tail up a bit for you to hav3 and then you go in |
2025-02-04T06:13:22 |
Ohhh my that is sooo hot |
I hope you slept well with those thoughts on your mind :) |
null |
Little sleepy still |
Hey hot stuff! |
Not so much |
Maybe we just Old Yeller me now and get it done with |
Btw |
null |
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Ayyy lol |
Told you - same taste in socks |
It's not me though |
I figured it isn't you |
Fuccccckkkking not great |
:( |
For real |
Just sitting in a quiet place playing my word games |
For real? |
Can i help? |
I need 800000 pounds of massage pressure and a few grams of morphine please |
Fuckkkkkk next door guy is so loud i can't think |
And i am sealed in this office |
"I know she's my daughter but I'm harder on her than anyone else. She gets straight A's but i feel like she could somehow do better" |
Eewewww |
Wow |
Toxic dadding |
Word game sparked this deep thought today |
Like being over or under whelmed |
"Evidently so! (Edit: And not just in Europe.) |
Thanks, reddit |
https://www.quora.com/Why-can-we-only-be-overwhelmed-not-underwhelmed-or-just-whelmed#:~:text=You%20can%20be%20whelmed%2C%20although,will%20whelm%20the%20ship%27s%20deck. |
And quora |
Jesus i am in a not good mood that i dont want |
What is the matter? |
Not sure of all of it. Pain is a significant one today. I dont want to be in a bad mood, which is odd because usually if I'm in a bad mood idgaf about much |
Overwhelemed with too many tasks too, speaking of whelmingness |
State of the world is contributing even though that sounds stupid |
Understandable for sure |
Me too |
Took a handful of meds. Maybe that will help :) |
You meeting all day? |
Off and on all day. I'm involved in a lot of projects. I don't have production work. |
I would much rather do that |
Me too. I dislike production work |
Right. |
You're not wrong! |
How's the household? |
Smelly. Dirty dishes. Cats are revolting |
Which sense? |
Revolting revolution |
Actually they're napping now. I just like to say that lol |
Yeah but it's always true |
Grand Haven |
? |
That's where we go |
Oh, right |
The Toasted Pickle Grand Haven |
Dayum |
Salt noodles delights |
Mmhmm |
Are you planning to go to NJ or NY or something? |
I kind of have permanent wanderlust |
But seems fun |
Come with me |
Ok |
Are you ok? |
Having a hard time waking up |
Can i help? |
Maybe? |
I'm getting there. Coffee #2 is now prepared |
Okay |
Lol IDK |
The spouse got up early for some reason. |
Oh |
I reckon it's either a doc appt or date with Toni |
I see |
I got your stuff out of the trunk. That plastic bin has the iridescent glass thingy in it! |
With no protection |
Yes |
That silly girl wrapped the milk bottle like it was Fabergé |
Lol |
I have that milk bottle |
Right |
You can put milk in it if you like |
Lol |
You won't like mine |
Milk? |
Hmm |
Bitter and black is it |
Yep. That's me inside. And twisty |
I've been thinking |
Oh? |
And I'm eating bugs |
Nope |
I tried climbing up the wall |
Didn't work well |
Bummer |
Is your afg schedule available for me? |
Uh |
Calendar? |
Yeah |
I mean it's public for viewing ? |
Mmmmk |
Always has been |
Youre free for at least 61 more minutes |
Come work in my office |
I still have a carafe |
Pleeeeeeease |
Soliciting a younger member or the opposite gender for roblox games? |
Lol |
Im lonely and cuddly and wanna take advantage of amphibious older gentlemen |
Ill take care of the licking |
Just don't break my tail plz |
We'll see |
It took me forever to grow this one |
So am I coming over tomorrow or Thursday? |
And how is it you have extended hours one of those days? Ime that means one of two things |
Date night |
Or SIL |
Well, what's a DG Collab? |
Thursday, what if you come over and do whatever it is you need to do and sometime after you & lang discuss critical data elements i will feed you. I'll be "working"ost likely but whatever |
Eyy? |
Love it! |
DG Collab is what happens when a buzzword-susceptible and meeting happy supervisor sets up meetings |
D=? |
Data Governance |
So we can make out on Thursday? I kinda need that |
Emmhmm |
You sure? |
Omg |
null |
That's exactly what a closet swinger would say! |
Also |
Psshhhtttt |
I like to fuck |
What can i say |
Swings or not |
Gof a meeting, you do too |
Implement on Thursday! |
Def |
Thursday goals! |
What if there's a different bed this time? |
Bed or no bed! |
Yeah? Where else did you want me? |
I'll take you anywhere :) |
Psht |
In your mind, rigjt now, how and where are you fucking me Thursday? |
Under your desk! In a chair! |
If you'd like |
Holy fuck is this ms migration a ton of work and nonsense |
Imma go ahead and hop of the 10th floor now |
Um, we don't have a 10th floor! |
Oh i know |
That's the point |
There's a 10th floor, just no ceiling |
Here's a better idea |
Maybe |
Decided to finally take my allotted 15 minute lunch break |
Can you please listen to Andy voicemails and call him for me and whatever? And help clean my house? And take me all the places? And give me more feels? |
Voicemails you say? |
Mmhmm |
2025-02-04T16:10:01 |
😐 |
What's happening |
I dont have enough mental fortitude for words |
The "boys" left a couple hours ago |
Oh i see |
Some of the groceries made dinner last night, the rest left with them. Sober. |
How are you? |
Please be brutally honest |
Every facet of your life and state of being |
Good thing I'm one dimensional! |
I'm stable, neither depressed nor exhilarated |
I'm wishing I knew how to express my general displeasure with my living situation and marriage, about which you are familiar |
Like goes on |
Oh, and I'm looking forward to Thursday |
How to express it... like, to the offending parties? |
Right, exactly |
Oh, i get it |
(Sorry, this is a new-ish topic, but relevant to my rapid crushing deflation and earlier foul attitude & mood) |
Yes I do remember |
That fuckwit astrophysicist hasnt acknowledged my existence since 2/3/24 |
I literally feel like I'm being crushed from that rigjt at this moment |
Hmm |
I have such fierce feelings after him (toward, maybe? About? These are not good feelings btw) |
Sorry |
Anyway |
Well I hope you are able to cut him loose someday |
I would love to just forget his existence and leaching. Just tell me how |
Please |
I dont understand how someone xan do all of those things. Just so much using. |
People suck :( |
I mean a lot of them do |
I think at some point I realized I could no longer empathize with them, so I just kind of turned cold and cruel to their kind. But they are not us, and I rather like you. |
And I want you to have all my empathy. All of it. Because I actually have a lot. |
Like you alone have the empathy knob on Andy that goes to 11. Nobody else does. Well maybe my sister or my parents. |
2025-02-04T19:26:56 |
Heyyy |
Kissy kissy |
💏 |
How are you? |
Pretty good :) |
Nope |
Just got home |
Ooh crap |
What? |
Have you been working? |
Worked til 6. Then Sam's club with spouse. Now home. |
Right right |
I am. You? |
I am |
Say more |
Long ago, I used to see a vehicle in EL. The license plate was I AM |
Mmhmm |
Why do i get such an empathy pass with you? |
Doing laundry, vacuumed my space
|
You're the weiner |
Pass like it's yours until I'm out |
Bc I don't have a 'care less' button |
But whyyyyyyyy |
I am not special |
Kind of the opposite |
You're a Weiner I said |
Just keep getting shitty hands dealt |
You used a different article the first time |
Damn good |
You are |
You're the weiner |
Let me be very clear about that |
Like pool noodle only waaaay better |
Roll with me plz |
But you like cats |
Do I correctly recall you wish to engage in lascivious events during a work day? |
Yes |
Lewd ones too |
Mm |
Was there more? |
I reckon there will be |
I'm imagining fuck work day |
Or work fuck day |
Or fuck people first |
Or something |
Mmhmmm yes |
It's quite a good idea |
I got a little realistically and justifiably unhinged a few times today. At the work. |
It can happen. I have been there |
Don't sweat it |
I'm making these "not my hob to worry about or fix" issues very very well known |
Is it so? |
But what am i supposed to do forever? And in the interim? |
C'mon now |
What are you planning? |
Hey I need your help with two things when you have a moment. |
Shoot |
|
Okay, understood |
Idk if you use perfumed detergent or dryer treatment but my guess is one or both is like super strong in here |
Right.... |
Babe |
I'm saying that there is a high risk of spousal detection |
At my end |
Because of the scent from your end |
Yes |
Idk how you make it |
That's all I know |
Okay. I get that. |
This is not a decision for me to make babe |
Ok |
Im not trying to cause a hard time for you. But there will be difficult things for me if I keep accepting perfumed laundry. Are we on the same page? |
No but i am working on getting to that place |
Ok talk to me plz |
I am irrational rn |
Alright |
Not in an angry way, and not at you |
Ty |
Yep |
We can change subject or whatever as well |
I'm not trying to berate you babe |
It's a caution |
I know. I can tell you what my brain is telling me if that would help |
As you wish! If you're comfortable |
That I'm stupid and full of mistakes and issues that will never stop and i cant just be normal and everything is "extra" and I'm tired of the only differences i make for anyone being negative ones and there's no point in being smart because I'll never get ahead anyway |
Whew |
That's a lotta spin |
This is largely how i feel most of the time. And has been ramping up for days. And gets worse during my work hours. |
I'm sorry |
Why sorry? |
I didn't mean to make you feel bad |
No, you're fine |
I am crazy and i dont know what I'm supposed to do about anything. Including you ever seeing me. |
Whatever are you talking about |
Do we not have a date this week |
Still? |
Hello |
What's up? |
Do we have a date this week? |
I replied |
That is not at all what I said |
I didn't |
I just dont want you to be in trouble |
But i will never give you scented laundry again, i knew at least that much |
Ok |
That is the only thing I need you to keep in mind |
Ty |
Oh |
??? |
Is this unclear |
Plz |
I really dislike being in this position |
Right |
Again, this is my issue and how i heard it, not you or how you said it |
??? |
I'm not trying to be a dick here but I specifically said |
Yes |
And everything in my house is laundered about the same |
So there was not a difference for me in treatment of the hoodies, my sheets, or what i wear |
??? |
And i did not know to what item or scent incident you were referring to |
Alright |
The good news is it comes out after a few washes |
And the scent therein |
So all is well, understand we r c is ntreol |
Okay, thank you |
I need you to understand the risk |
I'm not asking you to change your house |
It's how you do any things |
Crap |
NVM |
I am misreading 2 things |
This will be more appropriate to discuss in person |
Okay i am sorry |
I am sorry for going on about it |
It's okay |
It's just me being in a not very good place for now and im sorry |
Alright |
Please be less mad |
I am |
I wasnt mad at you, if that helps at all |
Ok |
What else do you want to say? |
I'm hurt |
I don't get to say that |
But I am |
I am so sorry |
Because i am not understanding something that happened |
1 |
1 |
What now? |
Also for part 3, i wanted to ask but swore i wouldn't so i just kept it internal |
You wanted to ask what? |
For you to help me |
3 |
If I can't do anything useful , I will pull away to avoid causing harm |
How would you cause harm? |
Ok you're not going to like this |
Okay |
Provide risk management information to you, to help us mitigate the risk of spouse detection. |
Look what happened |
No bueno |
I didn't need to say anything, but I thought it would be easier if I did |
That was good |
I hate that I brought it up |
It wasn't good |
You |
It needed to be done |
Assumed I meant no contact |
Not good |
I assumed i fucked up another thing. That's how i felt about everything today |
But I'm not here to do that |
To do what? |
Tell you you fucked up anything |
Ann I like everything else! |
And I can't type |
Am I the same? |
How do you mean? |
I'm just one more person telling you |
Is it? |
No you did not |
You requested assistance in being sure "we" comtinue |
You realize of course |
I'm going to lick your face off |
You can have anesthetic |
Fine and ok. We will circle back to this I'm sure, but for now I suggest kiss and make up. No worries , this is all part of the learning process. |
I love you! |
I hope you have a good sleep |
And enjoy your day away from the work! |
Ttys |
Thank you |
You too |
I don't know how to say this the nice and non burdening way i want. I make better choices for and because of you |
2025-02-05T02:56:16 |
It's really late and i just wanted to say again how sorry i am and that i love you so much |